#i want to write something amusing and funny and etc. i keep writing emotional gay shit

[old-stoneface]

i was like man i should read some different discworld books for new ideas and stories and then i saw a single image of vetinari and vimes and i was like. fuuuuck . i just wanna write more vetvimes fic and draw more vetvimes images

[annqbthchse]

SGE x Cheesy Christmas Au

Except this time I actually post it :0

Camelot's hosting this fundraiser to raise funds for the castle/kingdom - it's generally a joyous occasion and one of the only nights of the year that  Arthur is sober - which is why he thinks that tonight is the best night to tell Tedros that the royal court has decided that he and the Lady Sophie are to be married

Tedros is very confused because although he's made threats about getting him married before to make him learn a lesson he never took it seriously before

Both are surprised and don't take it very well - tedros decides to try to increase his confidence with a few drinks while Sophie tries to hide from her mother whose just a bit too pleased at this proposed union

Tedros just basically says fuck it and decides to confront his father

Arthur tells Tedros that he's getting older and doesn't fully trust Tedros to be able to help the kingdom and Sophie is a lovely woman of whom the people love and that will only help Tedros’ reputation as future king and make the people of Camelot feel more secure in their future leadership

It's not like Tedros hasn’t heard this from him before it just hits a little different hearing it from him sober

So Tedros, mildly confident on some alcohol makes his father an offer: He’ll give the speech at Christmas eve and show all the dignitaries that he can prove he’s capable and knows things and that he doesn’t need an arranged marriage to do that or he’ll do what he says and marry Sophie. Arthur reluctantly agrees

To then digest everything that's happened and freak out a little in private he goes into the kitchens, where a certain waitress was just taking her break

Agathas just chilling - eating some cake

Tedros can keep it together at this point - the weight of what he's just agreed to finally catching up with him and he just has to expel all his feelings about how he's the cliched family disappointment etc.

He knows that he definitely should not be talking about it but he is slightly drunk + the cute girl seems friendly enough so why the fuck not He's just talking about how his fathers right and that although he tries and wants to he doesn’t know shit about Camelots economy or political relations that much (it was easy to get out of lessons all he had to do was bring up his mother and then he could do whatever he wanted for the rest of the day)

Anyway so that's when Agatha mildly laughs while eating her cake about her, unfortunately, knows a bit about that and Tedros has a big brain moment - he’ll just get this random girl that he met barely 30mins ago to teach him things he definitely should already know

Agathas not interested until Tedros offers to pay her a very generous amount for her knowledge and suddenly she's thinking of her student loans and how this way she’ll be using her degree + he seems in desperate need of a friend or at least someone so she agrees.

Meanwhile, Sophie is also thinking of a way to get out of her marriage. Her mother would never let her back out of such a lucrative deal so the only way of it is for tedros to decline. Which from what she overheard from the very intense conversation with his father, will only happen if he can get his shit together before Christmas eve.

Although she loves him she's a little apprehensive - this is the same man who can’t play Go Fish without cheating

So, Sophies concocting all these overcomplicated scenarios in her head so she doesn’t notice when she bumps into something or rather a someone causing her brand new Sophie bumps into Nicola causing her to spill some drinks on her brand new dress

She's pissed and insists that Nicola apologies, but Nicola keeps saying although she is sorry for spilling the drinks, Sophie did bump into her which gets Sophie so unbelievably riled up  and she has now decided that she hates her

Tedros thinks it would be best for them to study in an old abandoned guest house - no one else goes there -and Tedros doesn't want his father to find out because he thinks it would be very embarrassing

They study and have some delightful lighthearted banter all while Tedros is overwhelmed by the amount of information he doesn’t know

One time he makes a very bad joke but she laughs anyway and  he’s friozen - he likes how real and raw it is - how it makes him feel as if he’s finally earned something and just basks in it for a while before Agatha hits him with one of her thick books to get his attention back

She starts to understand him more and more - That maybe he’s just someone trying to do his best in a very complicated situation. He wants to help and make his people and father proud it's just that if he thinks too much about it he gets stressed and makes some dumb decisions

Meanwhile every time Nicola drops Agatha she happens to run into Sophie always coming back from some shopping date or salon appointment - Sophie is pissed every single time and they have a witty back and forth banter - something that Nicola secretly gets excited for every time - it adds a little excitement to her day

During one of their very last sessions theres a very strong blizzard going on and because of that and the fact that the gas heater isn’t working they light the fire and decide that they have no other choice but to sit close together (basically cuddle) near the fire

After a few failed attempts to get back onto topic, they find a pack of cards and decide to just fuck it and play Go Fish - Tedros starts to cheat, Agatha calls him out on it and then suddenly they’re arguing and laughing and doing everything except what they're supposed to.

Suddenly Agatha's toppled on top of him and it gets very quiet. Tedros can’t help but notice how pretty her eyes are and it pains her to not run her fingers through his golden hair. They’re close enough o all one of them has to do is just lean in ...but then prince dumbass ruins it by choosing that exact moment to reveal that he’s kinda engaged to be engaged. It hurts and she’s not entirely sure why. But then they hear the sound of a car honking and Agatha gathers all her stuff while Tedros is trying to explain everything but doing a shit job

Meanwhile, Sophie has just left the palace after a particularly nasty argument with her mother in which her perfect little daughter told her to fuck the right off so she takes her car and drives off - however the snow is starting to get heavier and heavier and Sophie - royalty of course - isn’t used to driving in general but especially in these conditions accidentally crashes her car in the middle of a snowbank

Nicola is driving back from dropping Agatha when she sees Sophie stranded in the snow. Against all better judgement, she decides to pull over to offer her a ride

Sophie swiftly declines due to her pride but then remembers that she if she doesn't she may die so eventually she gets into the car

So, Nicola asks here where she wants to be dropped but that's when Sophie realises that she doesn’t have anywhere else to go so instead of returning to the palace she decides to go wherever the fuck Nicola was planning - which turns out to be her second job at her father's pub - Nics a bit hesitant to take her because it doesn't seem like her scene but Sophie refuses to leave and she thinks she there's a possibility that if she pushes her out of her car she may be arrested so she gives in and off they go on their merry way

They arrive at the pub and Sophie immediately starts to regret her decision but a few drinks later and some help from Nics very kind daily she's now having a great time - she’s swinging by tables, talking to strangers, singing out loud (and offkey) to the music - she's having genuine fun - something she hasn’t felt in god knows how long

Nicola is just watching in amusement and complete disbelief that this is the same girl who yelled at her just over a month before - she gets Sophie to sit near her while she's cleaning the bar and they have a delightful conversation about everything but also nothing

Nicola realises it's getting close to the time where she has to pick Agatha up and Sophies ready to go home

In the car they have a much deeper conversation - Nicola asks why Sophie was in the snow (a topic she had long evaded the entire night) and she finally tells her about her complicated relationship with her mother and although she loves Tedros it’s the kind of love you have for your gay younger brother and that she DEFINITELY doesn’t want to marry him

Nicola tells Sophie about her own complicated family history and why she works two jobs - she tells her about her sickly father, her greedy brothers and her dead mother

And then suddenly they arrive at the pickup place and amid all the intense emotional talk - they’re very close - a second goes by before they both lean in and start making out

Until Sophie realises what she's doing and panics and honks the horn she's now running out the car into the palace

Agatha enters the car and their both reeling from the events of the past few hours The silence eventually becomes suffocating and neither can help it - they both completely unload to each other about what just happened and fuck they realise how much they

Tedros enters Sophie's room late at night and can't stop gushing about how smart, funny and oh so pretty Agatha is and how he completely just fucked it up - why didn’t he just tell her everything from the start and they wouldn’t be in this situation

Sophie then can't help but also gush about Nicola and how pretty her eyes are and soft her skin is and how she just felt so free and in control of her own life for the very first time and that's when they both realise how whipped they are

In an attempt to forget how he may have fucked up his chance with the first girl he's ever liked he chooses to write his speech Sophie sends an invite to the royal Christmas party to Agatha with a letter explaining everything because she knows Tedros wouldn’t. Tedros does the same for Nicola

During the ball, Sophie is surprised to see Nicola there but one look at Tedros and she knows that as much as she hates it she’ll have to give him a big thanks later.

She uses Tedros’ speech as a distraction to drag her away

They end up standing in front of a huge hallway in the middle of the hallway overlooking the frozen lake and snow-covered trees

Sophie explains why she panicked - at fisrst she thought it was just a mistake with all the rufh of adreneline and everything but after talknig with Tedros she realied it wasn't a mistake but rather something that  had wanted for a while but denied herself in the name of duty -  At this point, they're grasping each others' hands and as they stare into each other's eyes - snow starts to fall - they glance outside, share a smile and kiss

They make it back in time to watch as Agatha and Tedros go into the palace courtyard

Tedros then gives the annual speech - and oh shit does he do so well. His speech is relevant and uses the correct terminology all while being 100% genuine and shows just how passionate, he looks so strong and determined - like a king - and everyone is in awe

Right before he’s about to finish his speech he spots her and she's giving him the proudest smile

After the speech, Tedros and his father have this big emotional talk where he's basically like “dad I don’t want to marry the lesbian” and that he doesn’t need someone else to validate his rule and competency - Arthurs just like “ok” - Tedros’s speech proved to him that he is fully capable of running the kingdom and the change he’s seen in him this past month has also proved just that

Agatha goes to congratulate him and he leads her outside - she explains why how she's there and tells him that if he just told her that from the start it would’ve been fine - he goes all moony-eyed and they start to feel the snow and it's just the perfect moment and they kiss.

[inknose]

mdzs read diary part IV, the end

It’s inspiring how much self care wwx is gonna finally get now that his husband will go along with whatever he does, so he’s gotta look out for lwj’s well being if not his own. that is emphatically the STUFF

dragging my hands down I face as I read this, after all these chapters of getting up close and personal with ghouls bleeding from every orifice, slaying ancient beasts, rebelling against the entire cultivation world, the two of them are absolutely paralyzed by middle school crush sleepover math

chicken

he actually drew kissy doodles .... he....

IDK I THINK I JUST DOCUMENTED THIS PART CUZ I WAS STILL SCREAMING you cant expect me to have very useful things to say at this point

this is torture you are both so mushy you are so GONE

This part really stood out to me, it’s an attitude I feel like wwx implies with his inner narration a few times but most clearly says here: he’s not one for allowing himself to exaggerate how bad his circumstances are/could be even a little bit - he’s already lived through some extreme low points and found a way to keep going, so he never makes sweeping statements about what he couldn’t live without (Inner JingYi: you’re supposed to say you’d be lost without him here!!!) Instead he seems to accept as a given that being alive doesn’t guarantee him any pleasantness or joy at all, and as a result his feelings toward being in TRUE LOVE are surprisingly pragmatic, but also colored with such gratitude. There are a lot of things in the novel that struck me, like this, as being just a little to the left of familiar tropes/sentiments, and were more touching for it. Whether it be the influence of culture difference as opposed to what I’m used to reading in most western romance stories, or MXTX’s unique outlook, or a combination of both, it was really refreshing and made me pause over it. Not “I can’t imagine living without you” but “I could be living without you, but instead I get to be with you and I think that’s the best thing that could happen.”

ADJFDKFJ THE UST BEING SO STRONG THAT EVEN THE VILLAIN COMMENTS ON IT IN THE MIDDLE OF EXECUTING HIS EVIL PLANS IS ONE OF THOSE THINGS THAT WILL NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME LAUGH MY ASS OFF. hes like god damn! here I thought I had problems

it was at this moment that I realized we were doing this Now... I’m still recovering. What a scene. I am so glad I saw the most incredible fanart soon afterwards, bc the fact that someone has already drawn a perfect comic of this part means I don’t have to

I love you so much, you are so annoying, you are perfect... I like how he’s been experiencing openly requited love for all of ten minutes but he’s already figured out how to weaponize it to piss people off

doing!!! his!!! job!!!!!

ahh... it’s a really good story. JGY is a great character. One of the most interesting differences for me between drama watching vs. novel reading experience is that without an actor to bat his vulnerable doe eyes at you and smile faintly with his cute dimples, the book does not go much out of its way to try to lull the reader into a false sense of security around him or *endear* him to you the way the show does. But just by seeing events through wei wuxian’s POV, its still enough to evoke pity or understanding towards him. The overall impression is a bit more detached though, there’s less emphasis on the spectacle of how he could manipulate everyone closest to him and more of a general feeling of resigned tragedy that everyones the worst on this bitch of an earth.

I CANNOT DEAL WITH YOU FOR EVEN ONE MORE SECOND!!!!

I clearly paused to take note of less and less parts at the end & the extras due to: a) too excited to reach the end b) too spicy to photograph and c) too sleepy cuz I kept reading in the middle of the night. but I absolutely took the time for Bro We Are Teens appreciation corner:

I’d absolutely read 40 more extra chapters of their monster-of-the-week field trip antics.

god... poor Jin Ling now basically has to deal with divorced parents that talk shit about each other to him whenever he is saying with one of them. except they are both his uncles. just a disasterhood of all uncles from start to finish. AUUUGH wei wuxian and jiang cheng have fucked me up completely, I dream of them reconciling but I also REFUSE to believe it would ever be easy. let me know if theres a fanfic that absolutely tortures you for decades before they hug

HAHAHA oh no this man ain’t making it to immortality thats for damn sure. HE’S JUST GONNA TRY AS HARD AS HE CAN HIS WHOLE LIFE NOT TO LOOK AT HIM BUT THEYRE *MARRIED* SDLKFJSF ohhhh it’s too funny, like... the mundane domestic family drama IN the fantastical swords and sorcery setting is what really ratchets up these things from amusing to fucking hilarious I think

aaaa the end... final random thoughts? No not final, I would like to please keep discussing at length and exhaustively, all the time please - CQL has gotta be one of the best TV adaptations I’ve seen. ANY adaptation of anything would be lucky to be so good!! reading the novel has just made me appreciate it even more.

- I don’t think I can do justice to what I find most fascinating about comparing the two versions briefly, to do that I need to get drunk and ramble at my friends for hours but... the condensed version is something like this. Really all the significant differences between the two versions (besides the ones which can be attributed to censorship and therefore aren’t worth discussing) are a side effect of the structure of how the story is told - there’s barely anything changed arbitrarily. Aside from having a cold opening, the drama sticks to a very linear version of the story, and I think for a TV show or film, that’s probably the best way to do it. We see everything, we get shocked and tricked and betrayed and surprised along with the characters, we feel the biggest impact at the climactic scenes having experienced all the build-up. The novel on the other hand is not only much more non-linear in WHEN we learn bits and pieces of information, but that information is also obfuscated under wei wuxian’s multiple layers of Unreliable Narratoritis, which are as follows: 1) difficulty remembering things because of personality/avoiding painful memories/actual memory loss, 2) No Homo Goggles still on, and 3) a wry sense of humor that makes the reader unsure of how much they can trust his attitude toward things, especially near the beginning. The experience of reading is a puzzle the reader has to mentally piece together through all of the above listed camouflage, and the puzzle itself is a three-sided mystery: One - How Bad of a guy was Wei WuXian really, and how exactly did all the bad stuff in his life go down; Two - wangxian epic pride & prejudice gambits; Three - political murder mystery. (I love stories like this btw... though I fully admit I’m glad I watched first this time bc it might have taken me a long time to tackle otherwise.) Because of this, where the drama wants to pull you in and submerge you in all the most potent emotional parts, the novel in direct contrast deliberately side-steps around these things and asks that you hurt yourself by filling in the blanks. In fact the more intense emotions and painful memories involved, whether it be his relationship with jiang yanli, his DEATH, the darkest days of war times etc, the more the novel evasively withholds details. I actually really like both styles of storytelling but each one is obviously way better suited to its medium. ANYWAY.... THATS BASICALLY WHERE MY BRAINS AT WHILE IM READING GAY SWORD WIZARD BOOKS

- The extras are so saturated with domestic married bliss that it’s a good thing I stopped taking pictures because I’d just take a picture of every page. this is too much for me to take... I did jump the gun a few times and read a few fanfics while I was still mid-read of the book (I tried to hold out but alas I am mortal) and at one point after finishing I was like “wow what fic was it in where lwj says something cute and wwx kisses him in public but they’re in the corner of the restaurant so no one really sees... OH NO WAIT that was actually in there.” and ... and that’s the LEAST OF IT... *stares into the distance* theyre married wow

- I ofc couldn’t help but see a few vague blogs beforehand so honestly I was braced for something like, wildly ooc for the sake of porn to happen in the extras... I definitely appreciate how the incense burner porn interludes could be uhhh a lot for many people and not my personal cup of tea in terms of smut however [here follows the words of a poisonous frog who has dwelt her whole life in the rainforests of BL] the concept is also surprisingly SWEET SDFLKJF like wwx sees lan wangji’s darkest mixed-up violent teenage fantasies and he’s just like aww babe you had a crush on me!! just... good for them

- I swear I’m not gonna rehash every cute married thing they do but wei wuxian grading papers in the tub........................rEALLY GOT ME

- I want to Draw - ok thats enough if I keep going I’ll just write “wei wuxian grading papers in the tub” seven more times probably

[itsme98z]

Logan’s New Relationship

Summary: Logan is in a new relationship and wonders if the others will accept it. 

Ships: Platonic LAMP, polyamorous (one character is), prinxiety.

Warnings: Some swear words, main focus on polyamory, secret relationships, mentions of negative things that happen to polyamorous people like getting beaten up, shunned, etc.(If you think of any more, please message me!)

Word count: 3,278

Links: Wattpad 

Logan couldn’t stop smiling. He felt like a bomb of happiness. He tried to contain it but that proved to be much harder than originally thought. It freaked him out a bit. Logan hadn’t been this happy in a long time and didn’t know how to handle it. “What would Patton or Roman do?” he thought. “Those two are endless rivers of emotion.” Should he sit and wait until it goes away? Should he try to make it go away? It was very intense, maybe too intense, but he loved it. He never wanted the feeling to go away.

When Logan came down the stairs from his surprise ‘business’ call, Virgil couldn’t help but stop and stare.

“Uh Virge, you good?” Roman asked. This shook Virgil out of his thoughts.

“Oh yeah. Look at Logan’s smile. I’ve never seen him smile like that before.”

“Oh? You upset that you couldn’t make him smile like that?” Roman teased. Virgil was not amused.

“Oh my God! Get your mind out of the gutter.”

“Um, I didn’t mean it like that, J.D.-lightful.”

“Well, any way you meant it is stupid and wrong.” He paused pouting. He continued. “He’s so monotone all the time. I’ve never seen him that happy before. It’s freaking me out a bit. Like what made him so happy? Is he planning on killing someone or something?”

Logan could hear them loud and clear. They weren’t really trying to be discreet and quiet. He usually would be annoyed and scold them, but after their conversation, he lost it. He was laughing so hard that he had tears coming out of his eyes. It wasn’t even that funny and didn’t intend to be, but he was so slaphappy that he didn’t care. He let the feelings take over. Roman and Virgil stared at him. He laughed so loud and so hard that even Patton came out of the kitchen to stop and stare. After noticing the confused eyes on him, he lost it again. 

Virgil mumbled to Roman. “I told you, he’s gonna kill someone.”

“You good specs?”

Logan calmed himself down then answered. “Yes, I’m fine. It seems that I am better than fine,” he answered smiling.

“Well, I’m glad,” Patton said.

“By chance, why are you so happy?” Virgil asked worriedly.

“Oh my God, Virge! He’s not gonna kill us!”

“You don’t know that!”

This caused another set of giggles to surface from Logan. He tried to suppress them so they could have a decent conversation.

“I do want to know: why are you so happy, Lo?” Patton asked.

He paused his smile faltering. Logan didn’t know how to tell them yet. How would you tell anyone something like this? What would he say? “Hey, some guys I went on a date with recently asked me to be their boyfriend! Yup, guys, plural. There are two of them. That’s right. Everyone I’m polyamorous!” Instead, Logan came up with a lie. “I - I told you it was a business call. I got a promotion… and a pay raise,” he said finishing off with a smile, hoping to convince them.

“Oh! Lo, that’s great!” Patton declared.

“Yeah, nerd. Glad you’re getting the position and pay you deserve.”

Roman seemed convinced, and Patton completely believed him. But Virgil glared at him with confusion. He squinted his eyes seemingly trying to find anything that proved Logan was lying. But apparently found nothing.

“Yeah. Congrats buddy.”

Logan cleared his throat after being stared down and thanked the others.

“We need to celebrate your success!” Patton yelled.

Crap. “Oh no, Patton. That’s very thoughtful of you, but we really don’t have to.”

“Of course, we do Erlenmeyer trash!”

“Dramatic as always, Roman. And really, it’s fine.”

“Well alright Lo, if that’s what you want.” Patton was a bit sad and downcast which made Logan feel guilty. “It’s necessary. I need to keep this secret, at least for now.”

The next couple of weeks seemed to go by in a blur for Logan. When he was with his now boyfriends, time appeared to speed past. He wanted to spend every waking moment with them, to never let go of their embrace, to never stop kissing them. He cancelled plans with his friends over and over again. He gave half-assed, crappy excuses like, “I need to finish some work,” or “I’m tired,” or want to stay at home tonight.” He didn’t think much of his friends’ feelings as his new relationship had taken over most of his thoughts. He was very much an introvert, a quiet person, someone who likes time alone. But these new feelings were so strong that he hated the thought of being away from his partners. It was called it the honeymoon phase for a reason. It wasn’t until six weeks later that his friends confronted him through text.

Pat - ‘Hey Lo, you alright?’

Ro – ‘Yeah. Is everything Gucci Specs?’

Lo – ‘Yes. Everything is “Gucci.”’

V – ‘Falsehood. Buddy, you are hiding something. Why are you avoiding us? Do you not want to hang out with us?’

Lo – ‘First of all, falsehood is my thing.’

V – ‘Bite me.’

Lo – ‘Very mature. Second, I do want to hang out with you all.’

Ro – ‘It doesn’t seem like it.’

Lo – ‘I’m sorry about that.’

Pat – ‘It’s alright, Lo. But is everything okay? Is there anything going on?’

Lo – ‘Nothing major.’

Pat – ‘You know you can talk to us about anything.’

Lo – ‘Thanks, but again everything is fine. But I will admit that my recent actions have not been fair to you three. I apologize.’

Pat – ‘It’s okay Lo! You don’t have to worry!’

V – ‘Yeah, that my job pocket protector.’

Pat – ‘I will PHYSICALLY FIGHT YOU!’

V – ‘Calm down dad. Just a joke.’

Ro – Anyways, wanna hang out tomorrow?’

Pat – ‘Works for me!’

V – ‘Same here.”

Ro – ‘Lo?’

Lo – ‘Yeah. Tomorrow works for me. How about at my place?’

Ro – ‘PERFECT!’

V – ‘You don’t have to yell princy.’

Ro – ‘This is through text.’

V – ‘…I have no regrets. Works for me nerd.’

Pat – ‘You two… Anyways, that’s sound perfect Lo.’

Lo – ‘Then it’s settled.’

That night Logan couldn’t think straight (I mean he’s not straight, but that’s not the point). He felt guilty that he dissed his friends. But he was also happy that everything was still okay between them. He knew it would be awkward, though, at least for him, as he was keeping such a huge secret. They knew he was gay and were okay with it. I mean Roman is gay and Patton is pansexual/panromantic. Virgil doesn’t quite know his orientation but knows he’s at least not straight. And Logan knows that something is definitely going on between Roman and Virgil. The constant glances and hand grazing are enough to convince anyone. And Patton has had this ‘thing’ for a colleague of his for the longest time. But Logan didn’t know how they would react to him being polyamorous. He tried to think logically about the whole situation and his feelings. But his fears kept getting the better of him. Because of this, he did something he hadn’t done in years: Write a journal entry. Granted he didn’t actually have a journal, so he ripped out a piece of paper and got to writing.

Dear journal (sort of journal, entry, paper, I don’t know),

My feelings are too much for me right now, so I decided to write everything down. Tomorrow my friends are coming over to ‘hang out’, and I’m terrified. I want to tell them that I’m polyamorous and tell them about my feelings, but I’m scared. How will they act? Will they hate me? Okay, they won’t hate me, but I don’t think they will be okay with it. Patton will try to seem kind and accepting but won’t understand and never accept it fully. Virgil will be upfront and honest and say what he’s thinking. I honestly believe what he will have to say will be negative. He likes consistency and normalcy, so this big change would cause his anxiety to worsen. And Roman, well he’s is fucking addicted to Disney. Disney is filled with monogamous relationships, even friendships. He also loves romance stories which are always, you guessed it, monogamous. He has this idea in his mind about romance and love that will be impossible to change. I don’t want to admit it, but I do not believe any of them will be okay with me in a relationship with multiple people at once. Maybe one day I can be open about myself, about my feelings, but I don’t think that will be anytime soon.

                                     -Logan Sanders

After he finished writing, a huge weight had been lifted from his shoulders. His conclusion wasn’t a good one, but at least he was able to get his feelings out without having to talk to anyone about it. He wasn’t good at talking about his feelings. “I should journal more often.” He folded the paper and set it near the end of his desk. He stood up and stretched. He then walked over to his closet to get ready for bed, not realizing the paper had fluttered to the floor.

It was the next day and the four friends were sitting on the couch talking about everyday things. The atmosphere was calm and serene, and Logan felt great. It was nice to be with his friends for the first time in weeks; he regretted ever cutting them out. Roman was currently talking about a funny incident at work. He was a school drama teacher. They were currently running the school version of the musical Beauty and the Beast. They were in dress rehearsal and the kid playing Luminaire had a large candle costume. While rehearsing Be Our Guest, the kids fell right on his butt. The candlesticks of the costume along with his feet went up in the air and stayed that way. He held that position for a solid ten seconds before Roman had to stop everyone. he was laughing so hard, he couldn’t breathe. After Roman finished his story and they ceased laughing, Virgil stood up.

“Be right back. Gotta take a leak.” And with that, he headed upstairs to the bathroom. After he relieved himself and washed his hands, he started the walk back to the living room. But as he glanced over at Logan’s room he paused. He noticed a folded-up paper on the floor. He picked it up and examined it. “Logan never leaves paper on the floor like this. What is this anyway?” With that, he opened it up and read. His eyes widened in surprise. He didn’t know what to do. He needed to talk to Roman and Patton about this but they couldn’t do it right in front of Logan. He took a picture of the content and sent it to Ro and Pat. ‘Found this in Logan’s room. We need to talk about it first then figure out what to do.’ He folded the paper back up and place it on the desk before leaving to go downstairs.

They had continued their conversation like nothing happened. The three exchanged glances every now and then, clearly worried about their friend. When Logan had gotten up to get more water Virgil quick whispered to them, “We’ll talk when he goes to the bathroom.” After that, they gave him cup after cup.

“More water Lo?” Patton asked for what felt like the tenth time, hoping he wasn’t being suspicious.

“No thank you, I’ve had enough water thanks to you guys.”

“We don’t want you to be dehydrated.”

He chuckled at that. “I bet. Anyways, because of all the water I now need to use the restroom. If you will excuse me…” After he closed the bathroom door, the four got closer and began talking.

“So, he’s polyamorous.” Roman started.

“Yes. He also said he wanted to talk about his feelings?” Virgil questioned.

“Does he like someone? Or multiple people?”

“He might.”

“Well, who could that be?” Patton questioned.

Virgil thought hard. He examined Logan’s recent behavior. Logan doesn’t talk to many people. The three of them were basically is only friends, friends that he had been avoiding for the past six weeks. “Wait…”  His eyes went wide.

“What Virge? Is everything okay?” Roman asked, worried. “You don’t think he… he likes us, do you?” After seeing their shocked expressions, he explained. “Think about it. We’re basically his only friends, the only people besides his family that he talks to.”

“Well yeah kiddo, but I don’t think-“ Patton started to say before Virgil cut him off.

“And he has been avoiding us for weeks on end, always giving bad excuses to not hang out with us.”

“I don’t know kiddo.”

“But you do gotta admit padre, that some odd behavior.”

“It is odd, but we can’t be 100% sure he likes us. We need to confront him about it.”

“As always Pat, you’re right,” Roman said. “But what if he does like us?”

“We have to explain that we don’t feel the same, well at least I don’t feel the same. What about you two kiddos?”

“Oh no. I don’t like him that way.” Roman was quick to respond.

“Yeah, same here.” An awkward silence filled the room before Virgil continued. “This is gonna suck.”

Patton placed a hand on his shoulder. Roman secretly placed his hand near Virgil’s jeans and played a bit with the seam trying to soothe him. But this was short lived. They heard the bathroom door open and Logan coming back downstairs. They sat back trying to look normal.

“I think I’m done with water for the night.” He chuckled and a smile came to his lips. But as he sat down and saw the others’ faces, his smile faded. “what’s wrong?”

They all exchanged a quick glance before Virgil explained. “When I went to the bathroom earlier, I found a folded-up letter on the floor of your room.” He paused breathing in and out to calm himself. “Why didn’t you tell us you were polyamorous?” He whispered.

Logan’s eyes went huge. It seemed his eyes were going to pop right out of their sockets. “You-you found that?”

Virgil nodded. “I know you think we wouldn’t accept it, but we do.”

“Really?” Logan questioned.

“Of course, kiddo.”

“We do, nerd.”

Logan couldn’t believe it. “I had only heard negative stories. People are beaten, kicked out, and basically shunned just for being… being poly.”

“Oh kiddo. We would never do anything like that!”

“Yes, it seems I let my worries and fears get to me. You three are the kindest and most accepting people I’ve ever met. I wish I had been more reasonable.”

“No worries buddy. Believe me, sometimes fear does its own thing and you gotta roll with it.”

Logan smirked at that. “I guess so.”

A silence filled the room. Logan thought the worst was over. He contemplated telling the others of his relationship. The others were trying to figure out how to bring the second half of the discussion up.

Finally, Virgil spoke up. “We need to talk about your feelings.”

Logan’s head snapped up at that. “My feelings?” He didn’t understand.

Roman sighed. “From the letter, it seems you have feelings for some people.”

Logan blushed. “You could say that.”

It was Patton’s turn to talk. He put a hand on Logan’s shoulder. “We need to know… do you like us?”

Well, that definitely was surprising. Logan looked at the others before he broke out in laughter. That clearly was not the reaction the others were expecting. “sorry I just…. Hahahaha…. You think I have feelings for you guys?”

“I’m guessing you don’t,” Roman responded.

Logan shook his head, unable to talk from his laughter. The others shortly began to laugh as well until they were all laughing their asses off. When they calmed down Virgil spoke.

“If it’s not us, then who?”

“Yes, specs! Who are they?”

Logan snickered a little. “there are these two guys…”

“Well tell us about them!” Roman screamed.

“I met Jackson at work. One night he asked me out for drinks. Since then we continued to hang out until he asked me out on a date.”

“That’s so cute!” Patton exclaimed.

“The date was great. We got along quite well. But then he seemed to avoid me. When I asked him about it he admitted to already being in a relationship and told me they were poly. He thought I would react bad, but I told him I was poly, too.”

“How long have you known?” Virgil questioned.

“For the past few years. I wondered why relationships never worked for me. I researched and came across the online poly community.  Something finally clicked in my brain. I finally understood a large part of myself.” He smiled, then continued. “Anyway, he introduced me to his boyfriend. It was a part of their rules that they meet each other’s romantic interests.”

“Their rules?”

“Yeah. Every polyamorous ‘group’ has unique rules set so no one oversteps boundaries. It’s to ensure no one gets hurt.”

“You know, monogamous relationships need to take note.”

Logan chuckled at that. “We never intended to get close, but we just clicked. After a while, he asked me out. I guess I’m irresistible.”

Virgil rolled his eyes. “Oh my God.”

“Anyways, we’re a triad.”

“A triad?” Roman asked confused.

“A triad is the name for when three people are all dating each other. We’re all partners as of six weeks ago.”

Squeal! They all jumped and faced Patton who had hands up to his face. “Sorry, I love love!”

“Yes! So, when is the wedding? I better be best man.”

After seeing Logan’s surprised expression, Virgil elbowed Roman. “Stop freaking him out. He just got in this relationship.” He faced Logan. “I’m assuming.”

Logan smiled. “Yes. That’s why I avoided you all. I was ‘hanging out’ with them.”

Roman wiggled his eyebrows. “You were ‘hanging out’ with them?”

Logan gave him a shove. “Get your mind out of the gutter.” He laughed, but then stopped. His face fell. “I’m sorry for cutting you all out for weeks on end. I was caught up in my new relationship that I abandoned you guys.”

“Apology accepted nerd.”

Logan rolled his eyes. “Roman, do you always have to call me by a nickname when addressing me?”

“Yes. I have no choice. It’s the law.”

Logan facepalmed. “Oh my God.”

“Stop bickering you two,” Patton ordered.

“Sorry,” they said in unison.

“So, when are we going to meet these guys?” Virgil asked.

Logan gave an evil smirk. “Not until you and Roman come forward about your relationship.”

Their eyes widened. “H-how-how did you know?”

“You two are painfully obvious.”

Virgil glanced at Roman who smiled and grasped Virgil’s hand in his. “You’ve caught us.”

Patton squealed again, causing everyone to laugh.

“Okay specs. We came forward, now when are we going to meet your guys? I love seeing my friends in love.”

Logan thought for a few seconds. “You guys busy this weekend? You could meet them here at my place.”

“That sounds super!”

“That works for me kiddo.”

“Ditto.”

Logan couldn’t get his smile to go away. It seemed it would be plastered on his face forever.

“I guess because you all came forward about your relationships, I should do the same.” They all turned to Patton, clearly surprised. “You know that guy I’ve liked at work? We have a date next week.”

The other three glanced at each other before turning back to Patton. They covered their faces with their hands, and gave aloud SQUEAL!

“Oh, shut up!”