#i wanted to write a more realstic view on the overblot situation

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Writing Yume (my twst Yuu) had always been fun bc of the way I interpret them in the main story.

tw// mental breakdowns, depression, suicide

context about yume:

they had a friend named haruki who was a cloested transgender boy, often targreted for bullying in high school, idsowned by his parents after coming out, then commited suicide, they were affected by it so badly that they stopped coming to school and became a hikikomori, only coming out in the early hours of morning and stopping at some local daycare before transmitting to twisted wonderland

because yume did not have the proper time to grieve, they basically came to twisted wonderland in already broken state.

but the thing about yume is that they are very empathic and selfless. despite their mental health, they wanted to help others before themselves. it is a good trait but it would often be taken advantage.

it doesn't help that their self-etssem was low, and it only got worst by book 4-5

their mullet got longer

their eye bags starts to show more, but it's often hidden thanks to their bangs

they switched from their school blazer to the cardigan gifted by kalim by the end of book 4

they started to make dolls of the overblot victim as some way to cope

all yume wanted is to be comforted. they never properly got that due to how emotionally closed-off they were back in their world. they yearn for any comforting affection. no matter how small they are, because they subcousiously craved for that comfort over that selfless personality. ig thats why they got attached to haruki. bc he was the first person in their life to ever give them that kind of love and affection.

it is ironic how they are the "Perfect" in NRV. Because they are not. They are broken.

Which overblot they go through, more of them breaks. After all the overblots are taken care of, they will snap. they will spill everything. they will be just done.

they will spill their life before meeting haruki. how haruki means everything to them. how haruki was the first person to ever give them that affection and love. how the world drove haruki to leave yume. how lost ad empty they were after the death of haruki.

they will spill every little thought they had throughout their time in twisted wonderland. if there was someone, anyone, who will reach out to yume. to help yume. bc they felt like they would be a burden if they ever try to reach out. they don’t want people to think bad of them just because they asked for something.

"i'm human too. I have emotions and feelings too. I have fucking emotions too."

they are tired of being the emotional pillar for everyone.

after that, yume will never be the same. they will never fukky recover from that experience. at this point, they are better off gone from anywhere.

no matter how gulity nrc are, how sorry they are, yume will just simiply never forgive them. they've done that for too long. they are just simiply done.