#i wish i could draw asdfg

[tvrningout]

don't get sleepy after an hour of social interaction challenge

[bougiebutchbitch]

all that is honestly so wild to me... I really live in a bubble huh asdfg I'm in the tags for the characters and the show regularly and again!! I've never seen an even remotely popular post from an izzy hater before! only izzy hate I see is second hand from people talking ABOUT it, so it's like "and are the izzy haters in this room with us now" lol. no rights for people with bad takes, they get send into the shadow realm and I get to live in a pleasant reality where (apparently!!) a big part of the fandom just doesn't exist for me lol

they're not a BIG part of the fandom, for sure! Thankfully! It's a small group of very vocal and annoying people who I'm still in the process of blocking so I don't have to see their Bad Blorbo Takes when I do my morning tag-dives. There's a lot of posts with 100+ notes, and quite a few with 1000+ notes. Which isn't loads, but still more than I would have thought....... I assure myself that this is nothing compared to the amount of love Izzy gets! I just wish it wasn't put in his character tag with no 'anti' tag warning.

But if anyone has a blocklist for This Sort Of Person so I could proactively block, rather than just having to block as I see them, I'd really appreciate it.... I wanna get ahead of the curve.

I've done another blocking spree this morning, and it'll hopefully help. For now, I'm going to go draw Steddyhands until I'm happy again haha

[ziegenkind094]

Hey hope this isn't insensitive; saw you talkin about lovin space stuff but not having people that shared your interest so am really happy to see your mass effect art getting attention and hope you find others that share your space interest n feel welcomed or belonging in the fandom!

this is really sweet thank you. the fandom is kinda quiet and i still don’t know if there’s an actual fanbase left but i’ll try to keep my eyes open for the more active people!

[captainshyguy]

asdfgh ok SO i wanted to see how my art had improved, so who better to draw for a nostalgia trip than my oldest oc??? 

she was a madagascar oc and a MASSIVE self insert, but im still quite fond of her, she’s still the oc i’ve drawn the most!!

[dumbdotcomm]

2003 could have been better BUT for a tmnt show in the early 2000s it literally became the blueprint in my opinion. Using concepts like the Nexus, Demon Shredder, Utrom, Tribunal. It handled the Raph and Leo beef a lot better by adding humor and nuance to their relationship. Idk I’m rambling, but 2003 is pretty much a great iteration!

No but fr anyone who says 2003 was bad is trippin, like I understand its an older show so sometimes the dialogue might be a but corny (and anyone younger that 16 might not get any of the pop culture refs asdfg) but i feel u, i think it incorporated and executed a lot of tmnt concepts really well!

the dragon part, again, im not too familiar with, but i think 2003 just had so much good content to draw from. the purple dragons in that show werent just like 5 dudes. there was character growth too which i liked and dont hate me but i love 2003!leo so much he’s so annoying but i love him

and its funny bc 2003 wasnt even the first tmnt show i watched seriously, 2012 was, but then i re-started 2003 around the same time and fell in love with it.

just wish the boys were taller but ya know thats a minor thing 

[honeytms]

hi  hello  peaches  🍑  !!  introductions  are  literally  my  weak  point  after  writing  in  general  asdj  so  please  bare  with  me  as  you  read  through  absolute  trash  .  i’m  gigi  ,  nineteen  from  the  est  timezone  and  go  by  she  &  her   .  i  am  super  duper  excited  to  bring  you  my  angel  love  honey  !!!   and  even  more  excited  to  write  with  all  of  you  !  under  the  cut  you  will  find  a  little  more  about  her !   i  promise  despite  my  plot  ideas  being  super  vague  i  have  ideas  for  all  of  them  (  mostly  based  off  songs  because  im  a  mess  )  so  please  dont  feel  afraid  to  ask  me  !!  

‘ the  amaranth   ╱  undying  ,  unfading  .  this  is  a  person  who  is  extremely  difficult  to  forget  .   ’ 

full  name  :  honey  mallory  d’angelo  . 

nickname(s) :  honeybee ,  bee  ,  &  hon  . 

birthday  :  november  third  ,  thus  making  her  a  scorpio  .

gender  ╱ pronouns  :  cis  female  ,  she  &  her  . 

occupation  :  singer  ,  songwriter  ,  business  heiress  ,  socialite   .

soundtrack  :  needy  by  ariana  grande   ,  therapy  by  khalid  ,  confirmation  by  justin  bieber  ,  r.o.d  by  a  boogie  wit  da  hoodie  ,  body  by  wet  ,  cry  baby  by  demi  lovato  ,  love  on  the  brain  by  rihanna  ,  mile  high  by  james  blake  ,  23  by  chase  atlantic  ,  heartless  by  the  weeknd  ,  moonlight  by  ali  gatie  ,  dance  by  selena  gomez  ,  me  and  my  guitar  by  a  boogie  wit  da  hoodie  ,  e.t.a  by  justin  bieber  ,  woods  by  mac  miller  ,  hurt  people  by  sabrina  claudio  . 

aesthetics  :  pretty  words  ,  pretty  words  . 

violent  roots  ,  bloody  hands  .

affluence  ,  intertwined  with  a  sovereignty  that  crowded  entitlement  .  the  financial  privilege  that  sprinkles  itself  over  chestnut  locks  ,  flesh  that  bleed  success  and  it’s  important  ;  honey  mallory  d’angelo  ,  the  youngest  child  to  the  respected  and  adored  d’angelo’s  .  the  pretty  girl  with  the  world  in  her  grasp  ,  declared  destined  to  do  great  great  things  ..  but   affluence  &    sovereignty    not  the  only  thing  tied  to  roots  ,   bloodshed  ..  darkness  that  devours  everything  that  could  even  touch  light  .   mobsters  ,  gang  activity  ,    warehouses  built  on  cocaine  and  marijuana  .    a  silent  fear  located  in  the  streets  of  las  vegas  .   locals  dodging  dangers  that  are  drowned  out  by  the  ignorant  happiness  brought  to  you  by  drunken  tourist  .     and  when  you  look  into  the  emerald  hues  that  blessed  the  angelo’s  ,  you  can  come  to  the  conclusion  that  the  reality  of   supremacy   ,   prosperity  ,   exhilaration  ,  &   peril  had  a  habit  of  filling  your  lungs  and  causing  you  to  drown  in  it  . 

nineteen  ninety  nine  ,  the   year  of  the  rabbit  ;    and  the  birth  of  honey  and  ace  d’angelo  .  the  last  of  the  clan  ,  and  the  hope  in  their  mother’s  life  after  a  long  year  of  deaths  and  heart  ache  .    the  twins  handed  a  silver  spoon  ,  but  a  million  enemies  .  growing  up  ,   honey  lived  in  pure  innocence  .  was  what  her  mother  called  vehement  ,  ebullience  in  human  form  .    she  filled  the  house  with  laughter  ,  tiny  footsteps  constantly  hitting  hard  wood  floor  .   a  daddy’s  girl  at  heart  ,  constantly  sat  by  him  whether  it  was  watching  him  do  paper  work  or  taste  testing  his  cooking  .   and  when  she  was  not  glued to  her  father  ,  she  was  glued  to  her  twin  brother  .  climbing  into  his  bed  at  night  to  whisper  secrets  ,  or  pulling  him  into  her  tree  house  to  make  him  draw  her  pictures  .  

athletic  ,  outgoing  ,  and  intelligent  .  she  excelled  in  school  work  and  mostly  everything  she  did  .  played  a  numerous  amounts  of  sports  growing  up  ,  took  karate  and  boxing  lessons  (  forced  upon  her  by  her  father  )  ,  could  speak  her  father’s  native  language  (  italian  )  by  the  time  she  was  seven  and  her  mother’s  (   hawaiian  )  by  the  time  she  was  eleven  .   adored  english  class  the  most  ,  read  like  she  could  leap  into  the  pages  and  become  the  story  if  she  tried  hard  enough  ,  and  wrote  beautifully  (  penmanship  and  creatively  )  .  but  nothing  spoke  to  her  the  way  music  did  ..  she  begged  and  begged  to  take  piano  lessons  ,  and  then  guitar  lessons  ,  and  soon  drum  lessons  .  her  mother  ?  loved  this  in  her  little  girl  .  watching  most  of  her  children  follow  one  creative  root  (  the  one  their  father  painted  out  for  them  )  that  always  ended  at  one  main  goal  (  one  day  helping  him  run  his  business(es)  )  she  was  filled  with  love  at  the  fact  that  ,  honey  embraced  something  that  did  not  destine  her  for  death  and  a  life  time  filled  with  heart  break  . 

the  older  honey  got  ,  and  the  more  she  realized  that  she  no  longer  had  to  fear  the  monster’s  under  her  bed  but  more  so  the  monster’s  that  wear  human  faces  ,  the  more  she  realized  that  the  only  thing  she  wanted  from  this  lifestyle  was  distance  .  something  that  pained  her  more  then  she  could  think  was  possible  ,  being  a  daddy’s  girl  and  wanting  nothing  more  then  to  make  him  proud  she  could  not  bare  the  fact  that  she  could  break  his  heart  ..   but  the  more  she  involved  herself  ,  the  more  holy  the  title  and  the  fear  made  her  ,  the  more  guilt  and  fear  that  followed  . 

at  seventeen  ,  twenty  sixteen  honey  posted  like  many  other  children  covers  on  vine  ..  along  with  a  few  stupid  stupid  videos  .  never  did  she  expect  that  ,  she  would  gain  an  entire  singing  career  from  six  second  videos  .  but  with  chasing  dreams  her  younger  self  wished  on  every  star  for  ,  came  with  disapproval  from  her  father  ..  and  soon  an  estranged  relationship  .  but  life  away  from  a  darkness  that  ate  you  alive  ,  was  more  then  refreshing  ..  and  soon  ,  she  made  the  decision  to  completely  disconnect  herself  from  her  father’s  name  by  just  going  by  honey  mallory  to  the  public  .  

is  this  all  i  really  am  ?   

ebullient   in  human  form  is  an  accurate  representation  of   honey  .  she  is  someone  who  has  more  energy  then  one  should  be  able  to  have  ,  constantly  has  a  smile  attached  to  plump  lips  and  rambles  of  meaningful  and  meaningless falling  out  of  them  . 

 goofy  ,  and  adores  teasing  people  like  an  annoying  little  sister  .  she  can  not  escape  her  ways  . 

affectionate  ,  to  the  point  of  annoying .  loves  simple  acts  of  affection .  hand  holding  ,  resting  her  head  against  your  shoulders  ,  running  her  fingers  up  and  down  your  arm  ..  is  the  friend  that  is  constantly  jumping  all  over  you  ,  will  make  you  carry  her  four  blocks  as  she  whispers  comments  in  your  ears  and  giggles  .  there’s  a   open  seat  right  next  to  you  ?  oh  well  ,  she  rather  sit  right  on  your  lap .  definitely  her  love  language  . 

an  adrenaline  junkie  ,  has  definitely  had  some  scandals  from  street  racing  in  italy  or  almost  getting  arrested  in  hawaii .   

writes  her  own  checks  just  like  she  writes  what  she  sings  asdfg  

clumsy  ?  constantly  falling  .  her  fans  fear  for  her  life  when  she  wears  heels  (  which  she  always  does  )

has  the  worst  tendency  of  forgiving  the  people  she  loves  .  she  likes  to  consider  it  loyalty  but  she  knows  it’s  her  fear  of  losing  people  .

loves  being  surrounded  by  people  ,  like  hates  being  alone  .  cannot  fall  asleep  if  she  does  not  have  someone  sleeping  beside  her . 

is  passionate  ,  loves  being  involved  with  everything  she  does  .  which  makes  her  tour  visuals  crazy  amazing  .

with  that  being  said  ,  she  has  a  lot  of  darkness  from  just  her  family  and  the  thing  she  has  seen  ..  refuses  to  let  her  not  so  pretty  parts  of  her  (  jealous  ,  stubborn  ,  vengeful  ,   detached  )  define  her  . 

but  she  can  be  hard  to  understand  ?  hard  to  please  ..  she  wants  you  she  needs  you  and  then  she  wants  nothing  to  do  with  you  ..  

  feels  everything  way  too  deeply  .  

constantly  feels  like  she  only  disappoints  people  . 

who’s  going  to  save  me  from  me  ?

best  friends  ,  platonic  soulmate  ,  confidant  ,  partner  in  crime  ,  bad  influence  ,  good  influence  ,   a  group  of  friends  ,  first  loves  ,  summer  flings  ,  on  and  off  relationship ,   friends  with  benefits  ,  ex  friends  with  benefits  ,  childhood  friends  ,  family  friends  she  considers  cousins  because  thats  how  close  they  are   .  ex  friends  who  refuse  to  speak  to  each  other  .  ex  flings  that  stopped  because  they  got  bored  or  one  caught  feelings .  toxic  friendships  and  i  mean  one  day  they’re  friends  and  one  day  they  aren’t  .  first  loves  .  love  /  hate  relationship  !  unlikely  friends  .  one  sided  friendships  .  on  and  off  relationship  . ex  best  friends  who  miss  each  other  like  crazy  .  friends  who  only  get  along  when  they’re  both  drunk  .  actual  cousins  .  ex  boyfriends  .  girls  she  experienced  with  .   ANYTHING  !!!  

[asktheitalianempire]

Hi, what are you, the mun, using as reference pictures? If you don't want to share that's ok, but I'm just curious and your art is really good.

Oh my gosh.... thank you? Asdfg- I wish I could help? I mainly use magazines for the poses because anatomy is kind of a major weak spot of mine. I often try to deconstruct things on paper and then attempt to copy them if I’m studying a pose or prospective (I struggle, a lot) and I noticed that helps. For the faces... I mainly try and try and it generally doesn’t turn in the exact expression I wanted but I try to adapt. One thing I noted? I... tend to make the expression I’m drawing while doing so which can be pretty embarassing (Like, today I was sitting in a park....)

For the rest sometimes I try to follow tutorials I see online but I still have a long way to go and so far none of the ‘how to draw faces from different directions’ managed to stick with me...

[kochei0]

I started following you for hetalia art, and when you started posting saint seiya i was pleasantly surprised, because tbh it's not a very known series where i live, and i haven't even seen too many artists drawing it here on tumblr... so i'm glad i had even more reasons to follow your blog. You're an amazing artist, keep up the good work! I hope 2018 will bring you many new inspirations and happiness :D

Anonymous said to kochei0:I started to follow your blog for your hetalia art (ask-the-ottomans could cheer me up even on bad days), but all of your drawings are absolutely amazing! I hope that this year will be a good one, you deserve a lot of good things :)

Combining the 2 asks because they both are super cute and start with the same idea (hetalia brought lotsa people it seems asdfg im sorry i dont draw it as much as i used to). also it’s such an ‘alien’ concept for me, that saint seiya isnt an international hit because it had such a huge impact in france, it is STILL well known and referenced nowadays (like Sailor Moon too).

and thanks a lot to both of you, i’m counting on 2018 to be a tad better. i wish good things for you this year! 

[dustycactus]

tag game thing that i’m doing the whole thing instead of just the ones i get in asks cuz wooo

1: name: kaiden 2: age: 15 3: 3 fears: the ocean, being left alone, and uh basketballs (those r terrifying you’ve gotta admit) 4: 3 things i love: drawing, the cold weather, and pastel yellow 5: 4 turns on: people with eyes, people with a heart, people with a brain, and people who are nice (do u rly think i’m going to say NOT SAFE FOR WORK THINGS ON MY TOTALLY SAFE FOR WORK BLOG pshh what r u on about) 6: 4 turns off: rude people in general, too much sarcasm, does ~drugs~ (the illegal shit), very judgy. 7: my best friend: MY LITTLE BLUE HAIRED FUCKKKEERRR, or just my cousin lol 8: sexual orientation: pansexual with a preference for bois 9: my best first date: uh we went to go get ice cream and then went to their rooftop asdfghjk i haven’t been on many dates 10: how tall am i: 5″6 11: what do i miss: my home town and the cold weather 12: what time were i born: 2 AM 13: favorite color: yellow or blue 14: do i have a crush: nah not for now 15: favorite quote: “existence, well what does it matter. i exist on the best terms i can. the past is now part of my future, the present is well out of hand”- ian curtis (lol not the most inspiring but i love) 16: favorite place: a small cliff behind a restaurant in my hometown. 17: favorite food: kitkats, or ice cream 18: do i use sarcasm: not really, no 19: what am i listening to right now: Kool Thing by Sonic Youth 20: first thing i notice in new person: their way of speaking, or their eyes. 21: shoe size: 9 1/2 22: eye color: brown :/ 23: hair color: brown again :/ 24: favorite style of clothing: the late 70′s- early 80′s punk outfits asdfghj i wish i was cool enough to pull that off 25: ever done a prank call?: ye 27: meaning behind my url: well right now it’s pumpkinspiced-aliens and it’s because it’s halloween and i love aliens asdfghjk 28: favorite movie: donnie darko, or maybe rocky horror 29: favorite song: can’t choose :( 30: favorite band: twenty one pilots and close second would be the clash asdfghjk what a nerd amiright  31: how i feel right now: 40% empty and 60% unaware of my surroundings and thinking about how useless life is ::))) 32: someone i love: my bro 33: my current relationship status: v single 34: my relationship with my parents: i guess okay? idk  35: favourite holiday: halloween and christmas (i already bought a christmas phone case i’m fuckin prepared) 36: tattoos and piercing i have: ear piercings, no tattoos yet 37: tattoos and piercing i want: probs gages, but not that big maybe the size of pencil erasers,, also a tattoo of a flamingo because reasons. 38: the reason i joined tumblr: because i needed something to do on the weekends and reason to get out of bed 39: do i and my last ex hate each other?: no we’re friends and hang out sometimes, i just realized that they’re not the type of person i like, so eh 40: do i ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: i fuckin wish :’( 41: have i ever kissed the last person i texted?: uh yeah 42: when did i last hold hands?: today with my idiot friend nayla jkjk ily 43: how long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: like 40 minutes maybe 44: have you shaved your legs in the past three days?: :p 45: where am i right now?: at home 46: if i were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: probs my friend caro cuz she would be there too 47: do i like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: depends,, if i’m angry or sad really loud, but when i’m ghosty and stuff at a normal level 48: do i live with my mom and dad?: yeah 49: am i excited for anything?: for the hiatus to be over asdfg jk but also moving out  50: do i have someone of the opposite sex i can tell everything to? : uh not really everything,, i don’t tell everything to anyone but yeah i guess i’ve got a few friends that i trust with some information 51: how often do i wear a fake smile?: more often than people think 52: when was the last time i hugged someone?: today  53: what if the last person i kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?: i tried to kiss my brother on the cheek and we accidentally touched lips but yee, um, i would be cheering that girl on 54: is there anyone i trust even though i should not?: i’m the most paranoid person about this stuff so no 55: what is something i disliked about today?: i had a science test and i had a panic attack at 3 AM 56: if i could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: uh probs tyler and josh, or just my soulmate esrdgfhh jkjk 57: what do i think about most? now that i think about it, it’s either college or death 58: what’s my strangest talent?: i can hold my breath for 3.5 minutes underwater asdfg it’s not that long but it’s oky 59: do i have any strange phobias?: other than the ocean and basketballs? i don’t think so. 60: do i prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: behind 61: what was the last lie i told?: this is gonna sound super fake and stuff but i said “i love you” asdfghjk 62: do i perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: talking on the phone 63: do i believe in ghosts? how about aliens?: ghosts? not really. aliens? damn right i do hmu if u want the full explanation 64: do i believe in magic?: nah 65: do i believe in luck?: maybe 66: what’s the weather like right now?: it was sunny a few minutes ago and now it’s windy like crazy idk what the fuck happened 67: what was the last book i’ve read?: stephen king’s “the girl who loved tom gordon” 68: do i like the smell of gasoline? fuck yeah 69: do i have any nicknames? not really other than kitkat or kai 70: what was the worst injury i’ve ever had?: my ankle snapped in half after being pushed to the bottom of a pool asdfghj it’s a long story 71: do i spend money or save it?: i spend it way too fast help 72: can i touch my nose with a tounge?: with A tongue? probs, not with my own tho 73: is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? yes my 3ds 74: favourite animal?: can’t choose but i love lizards 75: what was i doing last night at 12am?: showering fgh 76: what do i think is Satan’s last name is?: probs something super common like Johnson or Barkley or Trump. 77: what’s a song that always makes me happy when i hear it?: chills by down with webster lolol it reminds me of home 78: how can you win my heart?: being sweet and sending me good morning and goodnight texts 79: what would i want to be written on my tombstone?: “and a great succ he was....” and whatever else my family wants to write on it lolol 80: what is my favorite word?: plump 81: my top 5 blogs on tumblr: i don’t want to annoy them by tagging them but i love so many 82: if the whole world were listening to me right now, what would i say?: i would read every single one of my angry political letters and then tell them to fuck off. 83: do i have any relatives in jail? nah 84: i accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. they were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?: props invisibility or magic healing 85: what would be a question i’d be afraid to tell the truth on?: r u ok? 86: what is my current desktop picture?: the meme man 87: had sex?: asdfghjkljhgfdsfghjk,jhgfd no 88: bought condoms?: no but i got a bunch of them thrown at me once 89: gotten pregnant?: no 90: failed a class?: yee in like 6th grade 91: kissed a boy?: ye 92: kissed a girl?: ye 93: have i ever kissed somebody in the rain?: no but i wish 94: had job?: there are so many different things you could be talking about right now but yes i have had a working job 95: left the house without my wallet?: yeyeyey 96: bullied someone on the internet?: nope 97: had sex in public?: jcfghjghvewbdsjhwefhgv no 98: played on a sports team?: yee 99: smoked weed?: no 100: did drugs?: uh bad memories ascghj but technically yes and it sucked 101: smoked cigarettes?: ye like only a couple of timez,,, like 10,,,, i’m not addicted tho 102: drank alcohol?: ye 103: am i a vegetarian/vegan?: pesco vegetarian  104: been overweight?: nope 105: been underweight?: yep 106: been to a wedding?: yep 107: been on the computer for 5 hours straight?: yep  108: watched tv for 5 hours straight?: yep 109: been outside my home country?: bitch yes 110: gotten my heart broken?: kinda i guess 111: been to a professional sports game?: nah 112: broken a bone?: ye 113: cut myself?: purposefully, no. 114: been to prom?: well they’ve got “proms” at my school which is the entire high school including the seniors but like yeah i have 115: been in airplane?: too many times 116: fly by helicopter?: yee 117: what concerts have i been to?: so manyyy,,, tell me if u want me to say them all 118: had a crush on someone of the same sex?: i’m practically gay 119: learned another language?: i speak french and italian ~fluently~ 120: wore make up?: yes 121: lost my virginity before i was 18?: asdfghj no 122: had oral sex?: azsxdcfgvhbjbvgfhvewubcyfbkuycfuyqerliu no 123: dyed my hair?: eyeyyeyeyeeee 124: voted in a presidential election?: nope 125: rode in an ambulance?: yee 126: had a surgery?: yeee 127: met someone famous?: i met johnny cash,,, also his daugther 128: stalked someone on a social network?: celebrities yes 129: peed outside?: yee 130: been fishing?: yee 131: helped with charity?: yee 132: been rejected by a crush?: no 133: broken a mirror?: not that i remember 134: what do i want for birthday?: this year i only got 50 dollars haha i would like some clothes maybe and a ukelele 135: how many kids do i want and what will be their names?: i want 1 max 2 but idk their names yet,,, a girl i would name kayla cuz yeah 136: was I named after anyone?: nope 137: do i like my handwriting?: nope 138: what was my favourite toy as a child?: this little ballerina doll i had gotten in a mcdonalds happy meal 139: favourite tv Show?: “that 70′s show” or stranger things 140: where do i want to live when older?: toronto, montreal, or ottawa 141: play any musical instrument?: guitar, piano, and clarinet 142: one of my scars, how did I get it?: instead of using a plate to cut my sandwich in half while camping, i put a paper towel on my thigh and sliced a 1 cm cut into it lmao  143: favourite pizza toping?: pepperoni  144: am i afraid of the dark?: eh not really 145: am i afraid of heights?: not at all 146: have i ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?: i got caught by my dad trying to steal a beer for my cousin,,,  147: have i ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?: on literally every test i’ve ever taken 148: what i’m really bad at: texting, being supportive, sharing food, physics, and general emotions 149: what my greatest achievments are: probs getting 1st at a national competition for a sport which i am not going to tell you 150: the meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: that i don’t have any friends and that i should drink bleach while jumping off the CN tower :) 151: what i’d do if i won in a lottery: donate a quarter of it to charity, giving another quarter to sick family members, and the rest save for my education and my brother’s. 152: what do i like about myself: i’ve got nice eyelashes i’ve been told 153: my closest tumblr friend: idk... 154: something i fantasise about: having a nice romantic relationships

THERE DONE BJKHSDAKUJSDXKHJEKYGUYHWERUHIFR

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4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?: Well yeah, sure I guess

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?: T-shirt, college pants and socks

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?: Well, I’d like to have green eyes. Or some other shade of blue.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?: Hmmm nah, probably not lol

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?: Yyeah, I think it was pretty ok

43. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?: Mmh, I don’t really wish anyone to be here right now lol

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?: ..umm...what..? :’‘‘D I’m sorry but I don’t really understand this question lmao

49. What are you supposed to be doing right now?: Uhhh, draw..? Well that’s what I’m actually doing right now, I just need a small break asdfg

Thank you~ c:

[spider-bih]

Ugh P.7 [Peter Parker] [Soulmate AU]

Pairing: Peter Parker x Female!Reader

Warnings: Cursing, more angst, mentions of pain etc

A/N: Woop Woop! Angst is my shit asdfg ahh and so are misunderstandings and miscommunications. I’m sorry but I’m also not- and this ones kinda short, kinda not, part 8 is in the works c;

Part 6, Masterlist

Everything ached- his side burned, his throat was raw and all he could taste was blood. The metallic taste stuck to the roof of his dry mouth and made him cringe a little. He was so damn tired of tasting his own blood. With a shaky sigh, he let his eyes flutter open, taking in his surroundings. This wasn’t his room- he was sure of- oh. You. He remembered now- you patched him up, you saved him. Now here you were, on your side, laying next to him as you slept. God- the sight was incredibly painful. It hurt him more than anything because he wanted this. He yearned for this more than he yearned for anything in his life. He wanted this- wanted you. He was only a teen, but he was so unbelievably ready to one day wake up to you. He was ready to fall straight off the deep end for you and all your quirks. He wanted to learn all he could about you- wanted to be the reason you laughed and smiled. He wondered what your laugh sounded like- or how you looked when you laughed. Did you crinkle your nose? Did you hold your stomach and double over? Or did you cover your mouth and snort all sweet like?

He would never know, would he?

He would never know what you were like- what your bedhead might look like or if your smile was as dazzling as he imagined. Maybe it was better this way. The less he knew, the less this would hurt. His head would forever be plagued with questions of you- but he could deal with that. He’d rather deal with that than with knowing you and being unable to love you. He could make this easier on himself by just leaving. He could watch you from afar just to be sure you were safe and nothing more. He would lay awake at night and wait to feel any signs of you- just to be sure you were still around, still safe. This was his karma- this was the price he had to pay for this life.

He just wished he didn’t have to pay it so soon. He wished he could’ve went longer without knowing he had a soulmate. That was much easier to deal with. He could handle feeling that- it was easier than this. It was better then- it didn’t hurt quite this much. Just looking at you made his eyes burn with tears he refused to let spill over. This wasn’t fair.

Why wasn’t the world fair?

Damn- the things he would give to be able to be with you. The things he’d do to be able to learn you and love you- to have you adore him the way he imagined you might. He didn’t know you, not by the smallest fraction- but the universe worked in weird ways. It let him have a good idea of what it would be for you to love him. It let him imagine it- and it let those thoughts kill him inside. This was what his life would be. He would go around saving the people of Queens, sacrificing his own wants and needs for the greater good. If he didn’t, who would? He deserved this, and he had to remind himself constantly.

If he didn’t, he would’ve laid there with you all night long. He would’ve run his fingers through your soft looking hair and study your beautiful sleeping face. He would’ve held you close and take in the warmth and sweet scent of you. He would’ve fell so incredibly hard for you- but he didn’t. He tucked you into your bed, careful not to wake you. He locked your door so you would have time to clean yourself if anyone came knocking and he shut off your lights. He got fully dressed in his suit, minding his now healing sutures and climbed out your window. He stood on your fire escape for a few moments, looking inside your room one last time. You were still asleep, head snug against your pillow, body curled up in your sheets. You were beautiful.

Oh what he’d give to be able to stay..

You didn’t want that though- he knew this now, so he left. A soft thwip was heard, and then he was long gone.

You awoke cold, alone, and confused. Your room was dark and empty. Your parents still weren’t home you assumed and Peter was no where to be found when you turned on your lights. All traces of him were gone- he’d cleaned out the bowl you used and put it away. His bag was gone, the rags were gone- the only thing that proved that it wasn’t some dream was the dried blood that was still on you. He didn’t leave a note or any forms of contact- and you guessed you deserved that. All you’d done since you met him was yell, run away and claim this was all a big mistake. What a wonderful way to treat your soulmate...

You sighed and put your head in your hands. There was nothing you could do now. You wouldn’t see him again until you went back to school. You didn’t know where he lived and he was always out protecting Queens. The chances of him being right where you needed him were slim to none. So you’d wait until school to be able to chase him down. You had to tell him this- but it wouldn’t be easy.

This time around, he was running from you.

He moved seats in sixth block. He turned away from you in the halls and ran off at the end of the day. He avoided you at all costs and was even more careful as he ran around as Spider-Man. He never returned to your window- never left you fighting back screams at three in the morning. Nothing.

It was as if he didn’t exist- and for awhile you wondered if somehow your tie to him disappeared. You were proven wrong one night when you felt the wind get knocked out of you- and still, he didn’t come to your window. He wouldn’t even look at you- and now you knew how he felt.

Still, you tried desperately to approach him- to tell him that you’d realized you were wrong. You chased after him one day after school- it was odd though. Usually he was much faster than you, this time it was like he let himself get caught.

“Peter I-”

“Leave me alone, [Y/n]. Please. I’ve stopped hurting you- can you do the same for me?”

That was all he had said before running off again- and it hurt more than you thought it would. The tables were turned. You were the mistake now..

Part 8

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[spider-bih]

Possibility P.10 [Peter Parker] [Believe]

Pairing: Peter Parker x Chubby!Female!Reader

Warnings: Body Shame, Hurtful Words, Bullies, Cursing etc

A/N: This took long too! I’m just now getting my insp back asdfg I was stuck for awhile. This is also nearing it’s end! Two more parts and this series will be finished! Thanks for being patient and sticking around, loves <3

Part 9, Masterlist, Part 11

“I like you.”

Peter made a face at himself in his bathroom mirror. ‘Really? That’s what you’re gonna say?’, he thought to himself. He couldn’t say that! If he did, you’d reply with either a smile and ‘I like you too, Peter.’, or a ‘So now you like me? Thought you liked that Internship?’, and neither were the responses he wanted or needed. He had to get you to see that he liked you in a more than friends way. He wanted you to be his girlfriend. He wanted to be able to hold your hand or even kiss you- but he wouldn’t be able to get even a sliver of a chance if he didn’t tell you how he felt. He knew how you felt- so why was this so damn difficult? Why couldn’t he walk up to you and say, ‘Hey. I have feelings for you.’?

God- he still feared rejection. He’d heard how you felt, right from your own lips. He’d seen how he hurt you, but he was still scared you’d turn him down. He also wasn’t sure if he could handle you laughing in his face again. He didn’t want to pour his heart out and have you dismiss it as some sort of joke or something. Peter hated this- absolutely hated it. He hated that if he had just tried to do something earlier- that if he hadn’t been so scared, he wouldn’t be fighting with himself right now. Yet, if he had tried harder, he wouldn’t have known who the Vulture was or what he was doing. Again, this was a lose-lose situation, and he was struggling to see which one was the bigger loss.  Sure, being Spider-Man and all that should come first- but who could blame him for having his own wants? He’d already paid the biggest price for not being Spider-Man- did he have to pay another one for being Spider-Man too? Did he have to sacrifice any and every possible relationship he could have with you? Friends or otherwise?

This wasn’t fair- none of it. The choices he had to make were unfair. The way you’d been treated was unfair. People warped your thoughts and beat you while you were down and he couldn’t stand it. All because of some shitty people and their cruelty you couldn’t even love yourself. You couldn’t see how beautiful and wonderful you were and it made him so angry. Not at you, but at the people who managed to do that to you. Sure- some of the demons may have been your own, but you weren’t the one that made the first of them. You didn’t plant the seeds or make the first start. There was a time when you believed you were like everyone else. A time when you didn’t feel gross or unloved or unwanted. He knew because he felt the same. He didn’t face the same issues you did and not to your extent, but he knew what it was like to feel like less of a person because of your appearance. To have people poke and prod at him for every little thing he was and wasn’t. He was made fun of for being lanky and scrawny. For being weak and geeky. He’d had girls laugh at the thought of him even having a tiny crush on them. He’s had guys shove him into lockers and push him in the hallways.

He’d been bullied too.

However, he knew words sometimes did more damage than physical harm. Bruises could fade away. Broken bones, cuts and scrapes could and would heal. Sometimes scars would remain, but if they were small enough, they could fade away enough to go unnoticed. Emotional hurt could be masked, but it was incredibly hard to heal. Having someone constantly remind you of your flaws and of why you should hate yourself, wasn’t an easy thing to forget. Having people bring up every little flaw and even create new ones isn’t something a person can just get over. They do try though- everyone does. You try to forget the insults, try to forget the words they’d said, but it isn’t easy. It’s even worse when you can see the things they don’t and you know they’d make an even bigger scene about those things.

He knew this- and so he knew he had to get you to believe him. You had to see that no matter what you saw in yourself, no matter how you felt about yourself, he still adored you to no end. He still wanted to be with you and only you. No one else could compare. No one else was quite like you and he would be damned if he never got you to see that.

So- even though the rain put a little damper on his mood. Even though his hair was a mess from it and someone (Flash) splashed water all over the lower half of his pants just to annoy him, he still walked up to you that morning. He still offered you the sweetest smile he could muster with his rapidly beating heart.

He still said, “I know now is probably not the best time for this- and I know you’re still mad at me. I don’t blame you. I was shitty for no good reason and I shouldn’t have been but.. I can’t not tell you this. I’ve held it in for too long..”, he took in a deep breath, “I have feelings for you.”

His voice wavered and his face looked petrified- but it was nothing compared to what you felt. 

“What?”

“I said I-”

“No. I heard you- but I don’t- why would you even- Peter this isn’t funny.”, you stared right at him. Was this some kind of joke? It had to be- had to-

“No. I’m being serious. I like you. I like like you. I have for a long time, but I was scared you wouldn’t feel the same. I’m still scared now but-”

“Bullshit.”

Peter looked taken aback, “Bullshit? What do you mean-”

“What? Did your little Spider friend put you up to this? God- you don’t like me! I know you don’t! You took Liz to Homecoming! You’ve been staring her way for months and suddenly- suddenly she’s gone and so suddenly you like me? You really expect me to-”

“It isn’t suddenly! I’ve always liked you, but I was so sure you didn’t like me that I didn’t bother trying! I thought that if.. if I liked another girl then.. I could get these feelings to go away. I didn’t want to lose you as a friend- but I guess I already did that..”, he looks down at his shoes- as if they’d help him disappear like he wanted to so desperately. This was not how he expected this to go..

“I don’t believe you.”, you said, and he didn’t blame you. You had valid points- valid reasons to not believe what he said, but it still hurt anyways. He should have expected this, but his heart still held on to hope that this wouldn’t happen. That you’d believe him and understand. 

“I know, but I wish you would. I’m not joking. I’m being serious. I tried liking Liz. I tried to get lost in her the way I got lost in you- and I thought it would work. I thought it’d make things better and it didn’t. Please just- don’t dismiss me so quickly. Don’t just deny my feelings like this. Think about it- please. Believe me..”, he was pleading to you. He needed you to see.

However, his luck was never too good. The bell rung and you took that as an opportunity to dash off. He would try to talk to you after school- you knew it and he knew it. There was no avoiding this. He hated how quickly he always let himself give up. He wouldn’t stop until you saw what he need you to see. He wouldn’t force you to return his feelings or anything. Hell, he wouldn’t be surprised if you didn’t after all this. He deserved it. He just wanted you to believe him.

He wouldn’t stop until you believed him.

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