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#i’d have to really study my stuff bc i think the intellect is the only real appeal here
cats-in-the-clouds · 4 months
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my sister got engaged and we’re all really happy for her but my bitter rain cloud of a dad (who naturally she told last) is giving her a bit of passive aggressive grief about it despite her boyfriend being like the best man of our generation (presumably either because he’s not catholic or because my dad sees them as young dumb unemployed people who aren’t ready for marriage or because he’s mad he barely has any real love with his own wife or something). so like pray for us? i wish i knew what to do
#if my dad had any brain cells or observational skills whatsoever#he’d realize that in terms of our faith the problem is not the boyfriend. that guy is brilliant and open minded and would probably ace RCIA#the problem is my sister. who is catholic in name but it’s clear to me how hard she’s fallen away from the faith#but like my dad has created such a bitter home environment we never have meaningful conversations with him#so like he doesn’t know *anything* about our inner lives#all he sees is labels. all he judges people by is labels#literally you can still get married in the church to a non catholic it’s just a matter of expecting them to convert eventually#and promising to still live according to the principles of the church and raising your children as such#but my parents are absolute fools if they think that’s the issue. if my sister was true in her faith her bf would have converted already#i am sure of it. the guy is smart he just needs to be guided the right way#evidently my parents don’t realize that about him either#if my dad could become a decent parent for once and stop trying to drive his kids away from the faith by only cherrypicking the parts of it#that intersected with republican/conservative boomerisms#ugh. if he was a virtuous father she’d be a virtuous daughter and therefore all her friends and loved ones would be virtuous as well#should i blame my dad for all our family problems? no.. not rightfully……#but like. the impact a father has on one’s life cannot be understated#ugh i’ve had the sense for a while that God wants me to be the one to fix this family#because looking around it doesn’t look like anyone else is gonna do it#but that’s such a daunting task… especially alone… i don’t have any true friends (ie who share both my faith and life experiences)#and like. it’s really hard to try to assume the role of a teacher or counselor when someone is older than you#or uh. in a position of direct power over you for that matter. esp when clearly deeply mentally ill#the concept of trying to essentially parent my own parent while i myself am miserable and unstable#esp when he is the primary cause of that#just. ughhhhh it’s such a vicious circle#like i’ll do this if i have to i’ll undertake that daunting mission but i have to be so careful and really sort myself out first#or for that matter if i were to volunteer to like. catechize my sister’s boyfriend (heaven knows she couldn’t do it)#i’d have to really study my stuff bc i think the intellect is the only real appeal here#like i said tho his conversion can probably never really happen as long as my sister remains the way she is#what i know is that the first step is fixing myself. i have to be a pillar of virtue if i wanna stand as any sort of authority on the faith#problem is i suck and shouldn’t be regarded as a role model for anything. i have the knowledge down but that alone won’t fix me
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excorcismic · 4 years
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you ever have that one muse that’s just like . . . no matter how many characters you play , not matter how much time goes by , you will never get sick of writing that muse & they’re such a huge comfort character and mean the world to you ?? YES , that’s me with miss zelda here . i . . . love zelda ( the character and the series ) with every fiber of my being and after a lot of debate i finally decided i’d bring her here !! i’m doing leon’s intro next and will try to get to replies ( want to get down zel’s intro soon but i’d like to plot things first ) afterwards but pls pls pls here’s a detailed plotting call for my princess !! pls like / react if you’re interested - or let me know if we’re already plotting !!
IN A CANON NUTSHELL : so this zelda is the princess from the masterpiece known as breath of the wild - one hundred years before the events of the game , she was kind of the ‘leader’ of the champions , a group of people who were tasked to aid in protecting hyrule once calamity ganon rose again . link , who was also a champion , was assigned as her personal knight - in the beginning . . . she did not like him for the fact that he seemed to have everything under control and she didn’t . why ?? well , zelda , from birth , was told she had to unlock a power in herself that would potentially save hyrule from the calamity , and for some reason , no matter how hard she tried , she couldn’t do it . and she was mad at herself for feeling like a failure when she was put under an intense amount of pressure from her father & the prophecy - even called the heir to a throne of nothing because of how no results came from her ceaseless prayers . EVENTUALLY , her powers would reveal themselves . . . but only after the calamity arrived , all of the champions had been downed ( save for link , on the verge of death ) , and all seemed lost . but she would use her power to protect hyrule & keep the calamity contained inside hyrule castle until link would awaken and finish him off .
IN AN ALUCARD NUTSHELL : so zelda . daughter of a preacher ( father ) & a lawyer ( mother , now deceased ) , always expected to be the picture perfect child hence why she never got much of a chance to have a break from endless studying & extra things . she’s always been a straight-a student , has done fencing since she was a child , trilingual in english spanish & mandarin chinese , now a star college student majoring in biology ( her own choice , because she loves science ) and minoring in law ( because her father wants her to be a lawyer like her mother & she uhh hates it ! ) she’s seen as ‘little miss perfect’ because she can do so much and never seems to do any wrong but zelda is uhhh sick of that and is actually now trying to rebel against her father and throw herself into trouble . since lowkey all of this shit is killing her and she wants to breathe freely . she’s trying to do what she wants to do hence why she’s majoring in bio instead of law , working at the local florist instead of taking a law internship , actually trying to pursue a social life outside of the people her dad approves of . that stuff . she’s basically a genius who wants to say ‘fuck u’ to the people telling her what to do and go on her own path and i think that’s sexy .
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BUT OHHHHHHHHHH YOU WANNA PLOT WITH ZELDA SO BAD OHHHHHHH
so zelda . given her situation ?? there is so much to work with . lemme spout off these ideas bc i’m so fucking excited .
firstly - people who know about her little miss perfect reputation and either dislike her or are intimidated by her for it . zelda isn’t a snob in the slightest but with someone who does as much as she does it’s only natural to assume she is . but she isn’t , i promise ; she hates that being her epithet .
kind of building off the idea of people knowing abt her whole ‘lmp’ thing - i’d love some folks who actually entertain zelda’s desires to break away from that and take her out to do rebellious shit or something like that !! because zelda wants to get the fuck out she hates it here .
some who encourage her and some who do the opposite - ‘you can do it, don’t be scared’ vs. ‘you really don’t belong here so go back to your books and pencils’
maybe ppl who hold zelda to some sort of pedestal bc of her reputation ?? which is equally as bad to her - she’s lowkey crumbling under all these expectations and she’s amazing but to be seen as someone . . . above other people , she doesn’t like that at all .
also those folks who in any grade of school rly have tried to exploit her need to get good grades & genius to their advantage aka if i pair up with the smart kid we’ll get an a guaranteed . can be anywhere - could’ve been in the past or could be now . 
CLASSMATES in general . from elementary , middle school , high school for the past , and now college classmates .
study buddies !! study buddies that zelda either vibes with immensely in terms of how she works or butts heads with them . her way of thinking is both incredibly organized but also all over the place . she can be either very easy or difficult to work with .
gimme some school rivals or equals aka ppl that zelda’s on par with in terms of intellect/grades and either they fucking hate each other or make a pretty good team . maybe both ! put the smart ppl in a room together and see what happens .
also want to clarify this can be on both the bio or law side for any of these college-based connections bc zelda is taking both she’s just . way more passionate about biology than she is law .
OLD FENCING TEAMMATES OR RIVALS PLEASE yes she is still fencing to this day and she’s awesome at it . she’s got a shitton of medals and she actually likes it but it’s another thing that was forced upon her since she was young .
her dad is a local preacher so by nature she’s always expected to be at church so ppl who know her as the preacher’s daughter/from church bc imma keep it real zelda ain’t that enthused abt that religion either but again . once again have to fill father’s expectations . one day tho she’s just gonna stop showing up .
i’d like maybe a social circle who zelda’s father approves of ?? like , friends who zelda has but they’re more so just bc that’s what mr. king wanted . i’d also like a partner/ex-partner to fit this description aka zelda’s not rly that into it or was into it bc it was again . kinda just ‘i’m just dating you bc my dad approves of you’ kinda deal and maybe she tried but overall . didn’t/doesn’t work .
i also , though , like the idea of a social circle who zelda’s father would never approve of and she hangs w/ them bc maybe she likes them or maybe she also just wants to prove a point . maybe she dated someone for this reason too - just the whole spectrum of ‘what dad wants vs. what dad wasn’t’ bc pissing off her dad is kind of a major goal at this point .
so maybe regular customers of the flower shop she works at - she just . zelda rly loves flowers & nature ( and again science as a whole , especially life science hence biology ) and she can go off on so many tangent about flowers please talk to her about flowers . maybe even bring her some flowers too jk unless
i’d rly find it awesome if zelda had some ppl who maybe liked her enough to follow her when she goes out just studying things and listen to her bc she loves to talk about her passions - she likes taking hikes and trips out into nature or the botanical gardens and stuff like that to do studies / experiments of her own . she likes museums , gardens , the outdoors - zelda loves knowledge and learning about things and if someone just kept her company while she did so that’d be awesome .
i’m a sucker for canon parallels with non-canon characters so . maybe a relationship that doesn’t rly have any specificity in what portion of zelda’s life ( school , father approved social circle , father disapproved social circle , night life etc etc ) but mirrors her relationship with link in breath of the wild - for whatever reason , zelda and this other character are around each other very frequently and the beginning for some reason she is very put off by it but then comes around and eventually this muse , they become extremely closer with her and important to her . in any way !! idk if it’s platonic or romantic but , in rps like this that’s lowkey my jam but it works the best with miss zelda
AS ALWAYS - friends ! enemies !  former crushes ! exes ! gimme anything and all !! the princess of hyrule is AT YOUR SERVICE and i’m so excited to write her . i love her .
and now . . . onto leon’s intro i hopefully go .
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firelxrdazula · 7 years
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I was tagged by @kataracy to this and she called gio, michelle, & me a fidget spinner. basically we represent the ends of a fidget spinner
🎀 - Are you named after someone? I think I was named after Stevie Wonder’s child. He said “life is Aisha, the meaning of her name” in Isn’t She Lovely, and my dad loves that song and thinks of me whenever that plays. 🎀 - When was the last time you cried? I think earlier this week. There was this test in my bacteriology class, and everyone failed but I was so close to passing. I was just really clumsy when answering and I forgot to put the values of crystal violet to use, so I failed. I was just really disappointed that I couldn’t help it. Ik, really petty, but yeah 🎀 - Do you like your handwriting? Meh, it’s okay. I can read it. But it really isn’t consistent, so sometimes it’s good, sometimes it’s bad so like meh. 🎀 - What is your favourite lunch meat? I really love barbecue. Like, probably, nothing can top barbecue for me. 🎀 - Do you have have kids? No, I’m in my 3rd year uni, and it’d really fuck all that if I had a kid. But in the future, I’d want one but really far back into the future. 🎀 - If you were a different person, would you be friends with you? I think so, because generally, I pick friends who have similar interests with me because that way, things are smoother. Plus, Kataracy’s answer to this was legit. I do it too. I think if I met myself, would I be proud of me? And sometimes, I’m just thinking probably not yet, but soon. 🎀 - Do you use sarcasm? No, only Michelle uses sarcasm. 🎀 - Do you still have your tonsils? Yes, and I won’t let them leave them me. 🎀 - Would you bungee jump? I’m hella afraid of those things, but I’d probably try it out of impulses so… I mean, I tried the fastest rollercoaster in the world on an impulse, I’d do this to. 🎀 - What’s your favorite cereal? Frosties. Michelle says they’re called Frosted Flakes. I’ll come with receipts about how they’re called Frosties here soon 🎀 - Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? No, I also don’t really wear trainers a lot since I’m usually wearing Toms or doll shoes, but knowing me, I definitely do not untie them. 🎀 - Do you think you’re a strong person? Emotionally? No. Physically? No. Mentally? I thought I was then I entered 3rd of medical laboratory science as my major in uni, and realized that I was weak as shit. 🎀 - What’s your favorite ice cream? I’m pretty basic so I just like chocolate and mango. In Gelatos, I really like tiramisu and this like thick chocolate flavor from Baskin Robbins. 🎀 - What’s the first thing you notice about someone? If you mean physically, it’d be their face. But usually, I don’t notice people much that way, I notice the way they’re talking and their intellect. 🎀 - What’s your least favorite physical thing about yourself? Eh, probably my face because I don’t have a clear face anymore. I used to but then, I haven’t been sleeping properly, and I’ve also not been drinking enough water soooooo 🎀 - What color trousers and shoes are you wearing right now? I’m wearing Adidas sweatpants right now with purple socks, so… I just woke up so, this is what I sleep in lol 🎀 - What are you listening to right now? Generally, I’m listening to LANY a lot, but currently, OneRepublic’s album called Oh My My. 🎀 - If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Uhhhh, I’d like to be white because I really don’t wanna be used. Like, I’d also want to be my fav color which is sea grey but like uhhh i cant choose dam 🎀 - Favorite smell? lmao i like the smell of hospitals FOR SOME FUCKIN REASON. i also really like the smell of antiseptics and certain lysols. i like it when things smell “clean” so im always like disinfecting stuff because i love the smell lmao 🎀 - Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? My dad, yesterday. he wanted me to like attend my cousin’s graduation on wednesday and i rly tried to refuse 🎀 - Favorite sport to watch? Azula playing Kuai Ball. (idk i never actually watch sports like when im on tv, im usually just watching documentaries so i never even watch other shows anymore) 🎀 - Hair color? BLACK idk ive been thinkin of coloring em but like, my uni is Hella Strict 🎀 - Eye color? dark brown 🎀 - Do you wear contacts? no i thankfully still have 20/20 (hah) vision and i feel like wearing em would be too tedious 🎀 - Favorite food? TOO MANY. I love shrimp, i love bbq, i love chinese food, i love like a lot of things ok TOO MANY 🎀 - Scary movies or comedy? Comedy is my favorite, really. I watch them quite a lot, but my other fav is sci-fi. yall should watch interstellar 🎀 - Last movie you watched? I rewatched Moana for the nth time lmao i still have consider the coconut in my head 🎀 - What color shirt are you wearing? white im always wearing white 🎀 - Summer or Winter? winter bc i fuckin hate the summer heat 🎀 - Hugs or kisses? hugs i love hugs 🎀 - Book you’re currently reading? Urine and Body Fluid by Susan King Strasinger. I have to study soon because I have exams tomorrow. 🎀 - Who do you miss right now? eh probs my 2 year old brother hes v cute and jolly 🎀 - What’s on your mouse pad? i dont use computer a lot bc i cant be assed but its a v basic mousepad on the table like literally just black 🎀 - What’s the last tv program you watched? Genius on NatGeo. It talks about Einstein’s life story and I love that 🎀 - What is the best sound? The sound of my bacteriology prof telling me “very good” 🎀 - What’s the furthest you’ve ever travelled? I went to Saudi Arabia abd Qatar before it was gr8 🎀 - Do you have a special talent? UHHHHHHH i guess my sheer ability of fucking everything up is amazing 🎀 - Where were you born? Idk what hospital man LIKE I JUST KNOW I WAS BORN IN THE PHILIPPINES IDK
I’m tagging: @senshiofthewild @seyaryminamoto and anybody who wants to do it!!
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