#i’m talking about Tarzan not Shawn

[shcwns]

twenty - four candles 🍰 | shawn & sydney.

with the whirlwind that his career had been recently, shawn had been -- admittedly -- not super excited about his birthday. a day that would normally be filled with cheesy celebrations and festivities? this year, the canadian would’ve rather had it just pass by without a second thought. it was a little bit on the sad side, when he thought about it --- but, he was in a ‘better luck next year’ sort of state of mind about it. that was, until his girlfriend had something to do with it. sydney had easily switched the gearwork of his brain -- that nonchalant, ‘couldn’t care less’ attitude had quickly been realized by a childlike excitement for whatever was on her agenda. if he were to be completely honest, it didn’t matter what it was. it was the fact that she was planning it that meant everything and more.

the realization that sydney would come over soon had the musician steadily tidying his cozy toronto apartment for the past several days. typically a tad on the messy side, shawn had dedicated a good bit of time to organizing odds ‘n ends and corralling all the different articles of clothing that’d been discarded in various locations around his place. as the time crept closer, he couldn’t help but grow more anxious -- that sort of bubbly uncertainty for what the day might hold until it all came spilling over with the most thoughtful array of gifts. one of the highest ones, of course, was time with tarzan. though the breakup was mutual-ish, the separation from the dog certainly was not, and shawn had found himself missing the pup terribly. the effort that sydney had gone through to not only arrange a couple days a month with his dog but to also have had to talk to his ex-girlfriend to arrange it... she really was something out of a dream sequence -- he figured any day now, he’d be waking up.

one of the culminating stops had taken them to a restaurant for dinner, again arranged by none other than sydney herself. shawn sat across from her at their elegant table for two, soaking in the sight of his girlfriend as her every feature seemed to shimmer underneath the soft lighting that was probably wholeheartedly responsible for the establishment’s ambiance. “thank you for doing all of this for me, baby,” shawn spoke, one hand reaching across the linen tablecloth to take one of hers in his own. “you really did make this birthday one of the best i’ve ever had, if not the best.” and it was true ---- while most of his birthdays had been lovely, none compared to sydney’s elaborate display of thoughtful affections. 

before they could delve further into conversation, sydney had left in search of something -- whether it was to freshen up a bit or another surprise, he wasn’t sure -- but in her place, shawn had realized, the actress had left a letter. the canadian had picked it up carefully, running his fingers along the smooth creases of the paper before he peeled it open -- eager to devour its contents. what he read, as he’d done so, shocked him beyond belief in some ways; and yet, in others, the tender-hearted confession could hardly come as a surprise.

he’d been smitten the moment he laid eyes on her, after all.

shawn had read the words a few times over, running his thumb beneath his girlfriend’s handwriting just to make sure that’s actually what it said -- and before she could return, the canadian was neatly refolding the piece of paper and tucking it safely in his wallet. he never wanted to be without it, now that he knew the truths that it held. he greeted her with a soft smile upon her return, licking across his lips hesitantly before he decided just how to proceed. “about this letter, sweeney..” shawn murmured. “i’m so in love with you it might kill me. and i’d let it.” @itssydneysweeney

[postyxmendes]

Shawn and his son

[mendesblurb]

Hush, hush

Shawn Mendes x female reader

Warning: fluff, maybe grammar error and maybe some punctuation errors.

Note: finally convinced myself to edit this story, hope you guys like it. ily all so much, I honestly just feel super duper blessed to be a part of this supportive fandom ❤️.

“Here’s the thing,” Shawn starts to say as he shift his weight nonchalantly. The interviewer leaned closer with wide eyes, hoping he would give her the inside scoop.

“Whether they’re dating or not, it’s really a private matter.”

The interviewer’s shoulders slumped, her smile uncurling as she heard his answer. It wasn’t what she was expecting at all. “I know we’re all celebrities and everyone is eager to know who’s dating who, but not everything is meant for the public. And I think we’d all appreciate it if we still have some privacy,” before he could fully process what had come out of his mouth, the words were already vibrating through the room.

Clearing his throat, he adjusted his weight again. The interviewer mustered a smile and adjusted her dress nodding her head.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t meant to be rude. I’m just here to talk about my new song. Not about my friends’ romantic relationship,” he smiled weakly.

“I can’t believe you did that,” Andrew hissed as he closed the door to the car. They were both in the backseat, the only other person in the car was the driver.

“Grill me,” he snarled crossing his legs, avoiding Andrew and instead he chose to look at the paparazzi crowding around the car.

“Cut the rudeness. Why did you do that?” Andrew asked. His voice now softer. His shoulders slightly slumped as if not to rile Shawn up even more. He simply wanted to listen.

“You know why,” he whispered turning to his manager. “I know it’s hard,” Andrew whispered again leaning closer to Shawn so the driver couldn’t make out what they were talking about.

“Hard? You don’t have to sit through those interviews and put on a fake smile,” Shawn croaked. His voice was soft, Andrew could barely make out what Shawn were saying. But he understood.

“That’s the life you signed up for, Mendes.” Andrew patted Shawn’s arm gently before leaning back on the car seat. There was silence for the rest of the car ride.

———-

“Before you see it, I wanted to let you know first.” Shawn spoke into the phone. “It wasn’t my proudest moment,” he mumbled. He couldn’t hear anything from the other side of the phone. Looking to see if the call had dropped, he saw your photo and the minutes ticking.

“Honey you there?” he whispered trying to get you to say something.

After what seemed like an eternity, he finally heard your laughter roaring through the phone. You were laughing uncontrollably, the faint sound of his voice in the background. You were watching the interview.

“I can’t believe you did that,” You said as you tried catching your breath.

“You’re not mad?” He asked clearing his throat. His hand was shaking at his side as he propped himself on the hotel bed. The mattress was cold and lonely as he wished he was home with you instead.

“Honey, I think it’s impressive. You stood up to them. I know Andrew probably gave you shit afterwards but I appreciate that you stood up for me.” You said.

“Well, if I’m being honest I was just tired of people asking me if my girlfriend is dating Ansel fucking Elgort,” he replied flopping down on the bed sighing.

“Aww I love you too Mendes.” you whispered. “But I think for now you should just come home soon, because Tarzan says he misses daddy.”

“And what about you, do you miss me too?”

“If it isn’t obvious, I miss you too Shawn.” you mumbled as you laughed softly. A smile spread across his face hearing your statement, he couldn’t wait to come home to you.

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[pinkpetalwaterimagine]

Just a neighbor (S.Mendes imagine)

A/N : here is a cute little piece about Shawn being your neighbor. English is not my first language and I didn't felt like proofreading the thing. Enjoy 🎄

Word count : 2.3K

Summary : Shawn is your neighbor... or is he only just that?

Ahh, Christmas what a wonderful time of the year. From your window you could see the kids with their parents caroling and going door to door. You could see in the rather empty street, maybe because of the cold, the Christmas lights reflecting on your neighbor’s window. The yellow and the red was forming such a pleasant, colorful and joyful alloy.

You were supposed to be working, you had finals coming up, well one last final the following morning but you couldn’t detach from the sight, it’s all you had been thinking about since you caught a glimpse. No you weren’t thinking about the giant Christmas tree that was put up each year on the big place, the thought invading you were also not about Santa Claus. You weren’t into kinky Santa (but to each its own). Your world had changed since you had seen him install himself in the house in the street across from your building. He was just so gorgeous and everyone in the neighborhood knew him, and a lot wanted him.

You can clearly remember the day you realized you had a crush on him. It was a morning in mid September. The sun was peeking out, it was early and everything was silent and still. Your apartment was really small, it was only a one bedroom apartment so you used to take every coffee in front of your big window to make it feel like you were in a big and open space. After all even if you were between four walls the world was wide and with a lot of things to discover. Usually, you were never awake at 5 am but everything was piling up and you needed to get an head start on your work. And that’s when you saw him clearly, in the broad daylight with no worries in the world, you had your cup of coffee warming your hands as you stared at your hot new neighbor from across the street ready to go run. His dog was unleashed and his tail was moving because of its excitement of going on a run. You loved this dog always seemed so nice and cuddly but you might admit that you rather talk to his owner. You remember how the rays of sunshine hit his brown curls, and how his eyes squinted to protect themselves from the sun. He had only a white tank top and his shorts and oh boy did it make things to you. Thankfully, he started running quickly so you couldn’t ogle him for much longer, you had work to do. But while you were doing yet another assignment you caught yourself drawn to the window waiting for him to pass by once again so you could have another look. You wanted to get lost in his eyes, study every single of his face and chiseled body. At one point you were so tired you started seeing his face in the pictures of statue you were looking at for your art history class. And that’s when you knew it was time to do something else or take a nap.

You can admit that at first it was a bit creepy, staring at your neighbor while he was not aware of it. But you only did it once and then you had became friends with him. You were at the park, reading another one of your compulsory readings for school when you felt a wet ball landing on your feet. It was the golden labrador that you had seen in the lawn infant of your apartment complex. You extended your hand to let him smell it and allow you to pet him. You see no real danger so you started scratching his head, he must have really enjoyed your touch because he climbed up on the bench where you were seating and started rolling around.

« Tarzan! » boomed a voice from far away. Without seeing the person you knew to who that voice belonged. He ran to his dog. « No Tarzan! » he tried getting his dog off of you but the dog didn’t want to move. « I’m so sorry, usually he is well behaved » he said almost frowning.

« Don’t worry, he is so cute. I almost want to keep him » you said with a small laugh. As the words left your mouth you wanted to facepalm yourself, he might think you are after his dog, or that you are a weirdo who steal people’s dogs or … he laughed a bit but you didn’t know if it was purely because he was a polite man or if it was a little bit genuine. A ripping sound got you out of your daydreaming. You looked at your tights and saw a big hole where Tarzan’s paws were just a second ago. The man followed your gaze and you saw his eyes getting wider and wider. « Oh my god, I’m so sorry! » He started scolding his dog. « That’s fine, don’t worry, I have other pairs at home ». He sighed before extending his hand to you : « I’m Shawn by the way ».

« Y/N. » you answered.

After an hour of talking on the bench Shawn offer to walk around the park. The conversation with him was flowing, it was like you knew each other for such a long time. There were non awkwardness and it felt nice to get your mind off of things. « In which direction are you going? » He asked after you established the fact that you had to come back to your home to work. Oh boy, you thought, here it is, the moment to tell the truth. « actually, I think that we are neighbors. » you said a bit quieter. You were afraid he might think that it was weird that you knew where he lived and that you actually paid attention to his comes and go. « great so we can walk together. »

And that was the beginning of your friendship, you could never thank enough Tarzan for that. Shawn became quickly someone essential in your life. He would often pop up at your place to ask you to walk Tarzan with him. During the walks you would talk about everything and nothing, what burdened you, whatever problem he might have at work and so on. He would also come by to eat dinner with you. You knew how to cook decently whereas he was a bit of a mess in the kitchen so you often shared meals. You enjoyed the late night conversations on your couch with two glasses and a bottle of wine. Whenever you talked about Shawn to your friends they would always wiggled their eyebrows and act like teenagers teasing the shy kid. Which was not that far from the truth but still.

It was not Christmas Day, but you could feel in the air that it was close. You were asleep on your couch when you heard your ring bell. You groaned, almost slipped on a sheet of paper that had fallen down on the floor. You checked yourself in the mirror, not the best time to come around. You had the mark of the pillow on your cheek, your hair looked like a bird nest and you were still sleepy from the nap you took. You opened the door and saw Shawn standing in the lobby. You let him come on in. You didn’t had to tell him to help himself, he already knew the place. You went to the bathroom trying to freshen up and wake yourself up.

« So what are you doing here fine gentleman? » you asked.

« Do I need a reason to come and see you? » he pouted.

« Of course not » you said while pulling him closer to you and cuddling him. His head resting on the lower part of your neck.

After dinner, he stoop up and went looking for something in his bag. A bag that you hadn’t noticed when he first came in. He enjoined you to close your eyes. Which you did. « No cheating » he teased. You were allowed to open your eyes and you found a small rectangular wrapped gift between your hands. You glared at him. « Shawn ! You shouldn’t have! I’m serious! ». « Open it! » You saw the excitement on his face and wondered what was inside. You tear the wrapping paper and saw a pair of polka dots thighs, the same one you were wearing the day you met on that park. « Aww, Shawn! that’s so cute ! Tanks honey. » it slipped out of your mouth before you could even think about it. You realized what you had just said after seeing his cheeks getting red and he was slightly uncomfortable, or you thought so. He took you in his arms nonetheless.

You woke up, the sun rays getting in your face. You didn’t remember falling asleep. As you became more conscious you realized the presence of a weight on your body. You opened your eyes and were faced with Shawn’s hair. You could feel his chin in the valley between your breast. The air coming out of his nose was tickling your skin. He was asleep and you enjoyed that moment because you didn’t know if it would ever happen again. After a while Shawn started to move around. He was groaning and you couldn’t figure out if he was actually speaking or if it was gibberish. « Babe… » he groaned clearly this time. He kept repeating it while he was still asleep. You didn’t know if he was naming you that way but you still felt this giddy feeling inside of you, as if warmth was spread all over your body. You saw his eyes fluttered. After several minutes he said : « we slept like that ? ». You only answered with a small smile, not trusting your voice after hearing his rough morning voice that you would dream about for days. « I understand this pain in my back now. » he said while getting up from the couch and therefore from you. You suppressed the whine threatening to come out of your mouth after the leaving of Shawn’s body from yours. You realized a change in his attitude, he felt tense and not like himself. He scrambled to get his stuff and in no time he had his shoes on his feet and was out the door. He only left with a small « bye ». It was quite uncharacteristic of him and you started replaying the whole night in your head trying to find what might have made him left like that.

His whole demeanor change from this day. You used to be great friends, always visiting one another, and trying to do something nice and fun for the other but it wasn’t like that anymore. He closed his curtains, even during the day sometimes. He didn’t meet you at the park when he clearly knew you were there every Wednesday morning for your coffee run of the day. You had tried going out of your way to make it less awkward by doing small gestures like cooking him an homemade meal and bring it over but he didn’t answer the door and you let the meal on his doorstep while you knew for a fact that he was home. You had wrapped up Tarzan’s gift and once again rang the doorbell to give it to him yourself. Shawn didn’t answer. You were started to get really frustrated with this situation. One day, when everything was going wrong, your paper had been deleted because the back up did not work, you had spilled coffee on your favorite blouse, it was the fourth day of the heater not working, and Shawn was still not talking to you. You put on some shoes and crossed the street ready to confront him. You were repeating in your head what you would say to him, mumbling under your breath, still in rage. You knocked on his door. Fuck the doorbell this time. The lights were on but he still wasn’t coming to open the door. You yelled his name trying to get him to come. You started pounding your fists on the door while screaming his name. After four or five minutes of this game he finally opened the door. Your screams stopped. « Y/N! What are you doing? » He asked almost offended.

« What am I doing? What am I doing? Are you kidding me Shawn. We haven’t seen each other for three weeks. In one night you decided to not talk to me anymore, you decided I wasn’t worth your time or just your presence! I am mad, I am mad that you left me alone. I thought we were friends. And I am cold and sad. » you felt good, you finally expressed all your frustration and it felt like you were relieved from a weight you had carried for three weeks.

« We can’t be friends Y/N. » he said slowly as to soften the blow.

« What? Why? I don’t understand! I thought we were good friends. »

It might have been the look in your eyes, the hurt in your eyes, the way your voice cracked at the end of your sentence or maybe how you were letting him saw your raw emotions. It made him snapped : « I don’t wanna be friends Y/N! Don’t you understand? The lingering touches, the small kisses, the cuddles! I can’t keep doing this as just friends. It is hurting me. I am not dating you but I can’t date other women because I always compare them to you. I always think about maybe the possibility of us being together. So no! For now I can’t be friends with you » you decided to shut him up and cut his little rant by placing your lips on his. The kiss felt so good for being so long overdue. It felt like you were floating above the ground. Until you started shivering because of your lack of clothes and being outside. Shawn felt the shiver and gripped you by the hips, pulling you in his home before closing the door.

« So where were we ? » he asked. You giggled and decided to remind him by acting.

[shawnmendesbuddy]

“Stale”

Warnings: Talk of suicide/depression, swearing

Summary: Y/N thinks their relationship is “stale.“

Part 2

She loved him more than she had loved anyone or anything else in her life. He was her sun, her moon, and her stars.

He was happier than he had ever been. She was the love of his life, and he knew they were meant to be together forever.

The first time they met, he had saved her life. Having been in an abusive relationship, and falling into a depression, she had sat on the edge of a bridge, staring down at the twenty foot drop into the freezing depths below. She was ready to end her life. She had nothing else to live for; her parents had died in a car accident a year earlier and the abuse was getting to be too much. She felt worthless and unworthy of love. She was a little curvier than other girls, and her skin always had at least one zit on it. She felt ugly and unwanted.

He had been taking his dog for a walk in the rural parts of Toronto when he found the girl crying atop the railing of the bridge. He quietly walked towards her and threw his legs over the balcony, sitting next to her.

“Hey, my name is Shawn. What’s yours?”

She stared at him with puffy red eyes and chuckled slightly at the humor of the situation. He was an attractive man, and not only that, he was a famous celebrity. What a time to end her life? Right as she was meeting someone famous.

“It’s not important. You should get on with your day. I’m just enjoying the view from up here.”

Deeply concerned for the beautiful woman sitting next to him, he let out a little laugh, and placed a hand on her shoulder. “You can enjoy the view from behind the railing.”

“It’s more fun like this though. Not knowing if I’ll accidentally fall into the abyss below or not.”

Shawn furrowed his eyebrows. “I’m guessing if you ‘fall’,” he did air quotes,”it won’t be an accident. Listen, come back with me to my condo and we can talk about this.”

“What if I’m done talking? What if I just want the aching inside of me to go away and this is the only way I know how to get rid of it? It’s not like anybody would miss me if I fell.”

Shawn could just cry for the girl sitting next to him. She was in such a dark place in her life, and his heart hurt for her.

“I’m sure your parents would. And your friends. But most importantly, the world would miss the beautiful aspects you bring to it that no one else can.”

She frowned at him. “My parents are dead, I have no friends, and no one would come to my funeral because no one knows who I am.”

Shawn’s heart broke for her and he wrapped her in his arms. Her skin was soft and she smelt like flowers.

“I would come to your funeral. And I would tell the world about who you are. But that’s not what you need. You don’t need the world to know you, you just need one person. Trust me, I’ve been where you are.”

The girl found it hard to believe that a man like Shawn Mendes—singer, songwriter, and overall amazing human being—could have been suicidal. But she felt so safe wrapped in his arms that she didn’t argue with him. And for the first time in a while, she was able to take a deep breath. And then the gut wrenching sobs came.

Shawn rubbed her back and soothed her, relieved that he had possibly talked her out of commiting suicide. “Come with me back to my house. I’ll make you a cup of hot chocolate—it’s cold out here—and we can talk.”

He felt her nod her head against his shoulder and he let out another breath of relief. He slowly pulled away from her, throwing his legs over the ledge before grabbing onto her waist and hoisting her onto the road next to him. He wrapped his arm around her shoulder, called Tarzan after him, and escorted her back to his condo.

They talked and she cried a lot. But finally, she agreed to go into counseling and he vowed to help her get out of her abusive relationship.

After knowing each other for a few months—and with meeting in the circumstances that they did—they became best friends quickly. He brought out the best in her and made her feel less depressed. She was able to get out of her abusive relationship (more on that later) and the weight of her parents’ death didn’t feel as heavy.

Shawn was inspired by her to write new music, curing his writer’s block that he had had for months. He requested Y/N to make an appearance on his Instagram to speak about her depression and her toxic relationship which she gladly obliged to.

The fans loved that Shawn was spreading mental awareness to others and that was what made him decide to open up about his anxiety.

Y/N noticed his anxiety within the first week of knowing him. She had been staying with Shawn since the bridge incident (it was determined by the police that it wasn’t safe for her to live with her boyfriend anymore) so Shawn was allowing her to stay with him.

She had just gotten done from a session with her counselor and an interview with the police. She was emotionally drained and just wanted to sit down at Shawn’s piano and play a song.

She had learned piano at a very young age and was extremely good at it. Shawn was impressed with how well she could play the piano given that she hadn’t played it in a few years.

But when when she opened the condo door, she heard no noise. The dishes from Shawn’s breakfast were piled in the sink, music sheets lay out across the countertops, his guitar was sitting on the couch, and his manifestation journal was lying facedown, halfway opened as if he had thrown it.

“Shawn?” She had tentatively called. She felt bad about staying with him since she barely knew him and vice versa, but he had insisted. Now she felt bad about intruding in his private life. She didn’t think she was supposed to see his life a mess like this.

She walked down the hallway to his room and gently knocked on the door. No answer. She was worried what she would find on the other side.

She gently pushed the door open and still no Shawn. She saw the light on in his bathroom and heard shallow breathing on the other side.

She pushed the door open, worried that something might’ve happened to him. He lay there on his bathroom staring at the ceiling. His phone rested in his hands and his eyes were swollen and red.

She knelt down next to him and shook him. “Shawn! Are you alright?!”

“Y/N, I feel so numb.” And it was then that it hit her why he stressed so much about making a song perfect. Why he read and reread any post he made to Instagram at least a hundred times before posting it. He had anxiety. Bad anxiety too.

And that is how the song In My Blood came to be.

So you see, Y/N and Shawn both saved each other from their mental health issues. That is perhaps the reason why their friendship grew so quickly. They would rant to each other about how they felt and then if it was bad enough, they would encourage them to talk to their therapist about it.

After a month of trying to get back on her feet, Y/N had found herself a steady job and was well on her way to moving out of Shawn’s apartment. She ate healthier and worked out and felt better about herself.

The people around her were appalled at the quick recovery she had made. She blamed it on Shawn and how he had been an amazing friend to her. Not to say that she was completely cured of depression, but she was the fastest moving case.

One day, about 3 months after the incident, she received a text from Shawn while she was at work.

Shawn: Hey! Umm…this song is really personal to me and it’s going on my new album. I want you to tell me what you think.

Y/N clicked on the audio link he had sent her and his melodic voice filled her ears.

“Why do we put each other through hell? Why can’t we just go over ourselves?”

The song came to a close and Y/N was in awe over the beautiful sound of the song.

Y/N: that! was! beautiful! Please publish it to the world.

Shawn: ;)I’m glad you liked it. It was about a special someone.

And later that night, while she was lying on his chest during their annual movie nights once a month, he confessed that the song was about her. She was hesitant at first, not feeling the same way about him. She asked for space which he gladly gave to her, but after three weeks, she came around and confessed that she felt the same.

After being his girlfriend for 3 months, Shawn was leaving for tour. Y/N had quit her job to travel with him and to say he was ecstatic was an understatement! He couldn’t wait to show Y/N the world.

When Shawn and Y/N finally became public, the fans weren’t too fond of her. They body shamed her for being anorexic and being too fake. They accused her of using Shawn for money. They told her she was ugly. They told her she didn’t deserve Shawn.

Y/N handled the fans in a good way, ignoring what they said about her. But there were some nights when they got the best of her and she would cry onto Shawn’s shoulder. He would wipe away her tears telling her she was beautiful.

One day, pictures surfaced of Y/N wearing a sports bra and leggings while out for a smoothie with Shawn. The pictures were heartfelt and cute. One even showed Shawn wiping off some of Tarzan’s fur from off her butt. And then there were the pictures that came after that, showing Shawn wiping away Y/N’s tears after a fan had harassed her. Shawn had never been more pissed off in his life.

He wrote a huge letter to his fan explaining that they should respect his girlfriend and if they liked him then they would respect his choice to be with her. Most fans backed off or apologized about what they had done.

After 1 year of dating, Shawn and Y/N couldn’t have been more in love.

So when Shawn came home from the studio one night and Y/N said the four most dreaded words in the English language to him, his heart plummeted to his stomach.

“Hey, Shawn, we need to talk.”

He slowly walked towards her, sitting down next to her on the couch. “What’s up?” He asked tentatively, grabbing her hands in his.

She felt herself choke up. She was about to break this man’s heart. But she had been thinking about it for the past month and it was a thought that wasn’t going away.

“I…lately I feel like we haven’t really…I don’t know, been in a relationship.”

Shawn’s face dropped. He was shocked. “What do you mean? I’m not sure I understand what you mean by that.”

Y/N took a deep breath. “I feel like we’re just best friends that kiss. I don’t know if that makes any sense but-“

“Wait, I’m sorry, I still don’t understand. You…you feel like we’re not in love anymore?” His voice fluctuated at the end as his beautiful honey eyes glazed over with tears.

“I…,” Y/N didn’t look at him. She couldn’t. “Yes. Yes, I think that. We started this relationship off as best friends and I think that maybe we are better as just that. I mean, don’t get me wrong, I love you. Just not in that way.

“I…I used to feel in love with you, but now I feel like our relationship isn’t progressing, you know? It’s gone kinda stale.”

A tear fell from Shawn’s eye as he listened patiently to her. “Stale? What the hell does that even mean?! I…this is a lot to take in. Holy shit! We’re both at completely different phases in this relationship. Just give me a second to process this.” So he sat there—head in his hands—for what seemed like hours can, but was really only five minutes. And when he looked up at her, she knew she had completely and utterly destroyed his heart.

She turned her head away and slowly got up off the couch, making her way to their kitchen. She grabbed a kettle and made some hot chocolate for Shawn, slipping a little bit of his anxiety powder into it. Just because she had broken him, didn’t mean she didn’t care for him.

She walked back over to the couch and passed him the hot coco. Then she wrapped the throw blanket form the back of the couch over him.

His eyes were bloodshot and he was staring off into the distance. “So, you’re saying you want to break up? You don’t want me anymore because you’re bored?! That still doesn’t make any sense! All good relationships go through a ‘stale’ period. That doesn’t mean you should give up on them. On us,” he whispered in a melancholy voice.

Y/N of course knew this, but it wasn’t about their relationship being boring. It never was. She just though the relationship was at the point where Shawn and her either a) got engaged or b) broke up. She couldn’t see the former happening anytime soon so she decided it was time to end the relationship. They couldn’t progress any further until they were engaged/married.

And another big thing was that she was ready for kids. But she made two vows to herself when she was little:1) no sex before marriage and 2) definitely no kids before marriage (although that was a given because of her first rule).

Shawn knew these things and respected them, but Y/N was ready for marriage. She was ready to start a family, and if Shawn wasn’t at that point, she couldn’t force him into it.

Although they had talked about these things before, they had never for sure said they would get married and have kids. Which scared Y/N shitless to make the first move and ask him about getting engaged. And so she decided to end it.

She gripped his hands in hers and he pulled them away. “I…just please don’t. This is already hard enough.” And with that he stood from the couch, throwing the blanket down, and walking toward the front door.

She heard the jingle of the keys and the turning of the door, but she didn’t dare look up at him, not wanting to see him leave. “I’ll be at my parent’s house if you need anything. Sleep well.”

And then the door closed and Y/N was left with nothing, but the scent he left behind and the cold hot chocolate sitting on the coffee table.

A/N: If you didn’t notice, this was based loosely on the Shawmila break up. Do you maybe want a part two? Like and comment to let me know. Thanks, love you all!

Part 2

[perfectlywrongformend3s]

Little Mendes on the way-Shawn Mendes

“I’m going to be a father!” With Shawn Mendes

“I can’t hide my bump any longer. I think we need to tell people.” with Shawn Mendes

Requested: Yes

Words: 1497

Warning: None

A/n: I put the two requests that I got together because I thought it would make more sense. Thank you so much for the request. I am so sorry I am getting it out so late. I just haven’t really been motivated to do much writing but I am back. Enjoy.

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Your POV

I felt tears forming in my eyes while I was staring at the two pink lines. I think they were tears of joy but maybe some of them were tears of worry too. I got interrupted by my phone going off. I whipped the tears off my face and answered the call.

“ Hey Angel.” Shawn said

“ Hi.” I said

He gave me a look before asking… “ You okay dear. Have you been crying?”

I tried to hold in my sniffs but one got loose when I gave him a small smile. Shawn let out a sigh.

“ Want me to come home, so we can talk about it.”

I gave him a small nod and he smiled before saying…

“ Alright give me a couple minutes and I’ll be there. I love you so much.”

“ I love you too.” I whispered

I ended the call and started panicking a little bit due to my thoughts about him leaving and not helping me with the baby that’s literally growing inside me.  

I was pacing the bathroom when I heard someone clear their throat. I looked over at the door to find Shawn leaning against the door frame.

Shawn’s POV

I just finished recording a song when Andrew told me I could go on a 10 minute break before we started talking about the new song. I obviously took my break to call my beautiful wife Y/n while also getting some water. While the phone was ringing I took a long sip of water. I stopped drinking my water when I heard her answer the call. I smiled and said…

“ Hey angel.”

She then gave me a quite  “ Hi” back

I looked at her closely to find her eyes all red and puffy looking so I gave her a concerned look before asking…

“ You okay dear. Have you been crying?”

I could hear her trying to hold back her sniffs but she gave me a small smile without answering the question. I let out a long sigh before asking…

“ Want me to come home, so we can talk about it.”

She gave me a small nod which made me smile.

“ Alright give me a couple minutes and I’ll be there. I love you so much.” I told her

“ I love you too.” I heard her whisper before she hung the call up. I rubbed my face with my hand before stuffing my phone back into my pocket and collecting my things so I could talk with Andrew.

“ Hey Andrew, um I got a request for you.” I asked

He turned around and faced me. He nodded for me to continue..

“ Um, so Y/n/n’s having a hard day so I was wondering if we can…”

He held his hand up and said…

“ You were wondering if you could go be there for her.”

I nodded my head to the question he said. He gave me a smile and nodded his head.

“ Yea go for it man. She needs you, so we can pick this up another day. Just give me a call to tell me when.”

I let out a sigh I didn’t know I was holding in and before I left he gave me a bro hug. I then walked out and headed to the house where she was.

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I walked inside the house and put my stuff right next to the door and made my way to where she was. I saw the bathroom door crack open so I pushed it open trying to be quiet. I then leaned on the door frame watching her for a little before making myself known by clearing my throat. I saw her jump which made me chuckle. I stood up straight and held my arms out for her to walk into.

Your POV

I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around him. I felt another wave of tears hit me which made him hold me tighter. He was swinging us back and forth slowly and rubbing up and down on my back.

“ You want to go sit down dear so we can talk.” he whispered to me

I gave him a small nod so he let go of me and we headed over to our bedroom to sit down. Once we got to the bed I looked down until I felt him move my head to look up at him. He gave me a look.

“ Please talk to me. You know you can tell me anything right.”

I nodded and let out a shaky breath before pulling out the test from my pocket. I held it in my hand while looking down at it. I heard a gasp which made me look up with a worried look.

“ Can I see it?” Shawn asked

I gave it to him and got a little scared of what he was going to say, so I thought of a plan to leave just in case.

Shawn’s POV

I grabbed the test out of her hand and smiled when I saw the two pink lines. I looked up at her and grabbed her face gently. I looked her in the eyes and said…

“ I’m going to be a father.”

She gave me a small smile and nodded her head. I saw tears well up in her eyes and I could feel tears well up in my eyes too. The both of us hugged each other due to the excitement. She then pulled away from the hug and I put my hand on her belly and whispered to it.

“ Hi, buddy. I’m your daddy. Your mom and I are so excited to meet you little guy.” I then looked up and saw Y/n/n giving me a smile. I pulled her in for a passionate long kiss.

Third Person POV

Three months later

Shawn and Y/n just got back from picking up their new family member Tarzan when one of their fans came up to them and asked some questions. Y/n and Shawn tried their best to answer her questions but got stuck when she asked if they were expecting a baby soon. Both of them denied the question saying that they were not ready to have one yet. The fan just nodded and thanked them before walking away. Y/n and Shawn both let out a huge sigh they were holding in before heading back to the house.

When they got Y/n headed for the kitchen because she was panicking. Shawn on the other hand was fine and messing with Tarzan.

Your POV

I was pacing in the kitchen which was probably not good for the baby but what the fan said made me anxious. I heard footsteps so I looked up from the floor to find Shawn and Tarzan following him.

“ Hey, don’t worry about her, okay. If things get under control then we can state that its true, but for now relax please.” he told while giving me a hug

I relaxed in the hug, but he could tell I was still nervous about what the fan said. Before he could open his mouth to say something I blurred out…

“ I can’t hide my bump any longer Shawn.”

He then said…

“ So what are we going to do. We can always get you larger clothes for you to wear so your more comfortable or we co…”

I stopped him by saying…” I think we need to tell people.”

Shawn’s POV

Right when I heard those words come out of her mouth I stood in shock. I sighed and closed my eyes before opening them.

“ Are you sure?” I asked her with concern

She nodded her head. I then asked…

“ It's not what the fan said, is it?”

She sighed but responded with… “ No it’s not Shawn I promise you it's not.”

I gave her a nod and we got to work on our post for instagram. While I was trying to find a good picture I saw Y/n/n watching me or more like staring at me. I turned my head to look at her which made her blush. I let out a quick chuckle before saying…

“ I know I’m handsome but please continue watching angel.”

I smiled when I saw her blushing more. I pulled her to my side and said…

“ You're adorable, but please help me with this.” I gave her a quick kiss on the side of her head before we went back to work on the post.

[camrensrealbish]

Respectfully, like I don't understand what this hate is about, you all said quote "they are told what to say and needs to say what fits this PR narrative it's all scripted, but when Shawn says shit y'all crucify him? didn't Camila in an interview say that Tarzan isn't allowed on the bed because Shawn's allergic, doesn't that imply that Shawn leaves with her? If it's Camila oh they told her what to say when it's Shawn oh that fucking bastard needs to shut up? I like your blog because u aren't biased about Shawn because u know that he is in this PR as well and needs to follow the narrative but ur literally crucifying him for following a simple narrative, I really didn't expect this from u because at least u understand both of them are tired we all are but y'all cursing and insulting Shawn won't change a thing about this PR at all, we get it he has a ego and he doesn't think before he talks but what do u expect from someone that is being told to lie every single time even camila she can't hide her disgusted face when being asked about this PR, being harsh on Shawn won't stop this bizzare PR. Don't take this as me being rude but y'all are to harsh on Shawn and it isn't cool at all

Hi, sorry for cursing him out in that post. That actually really is unproductive in this situation. But let me explain where I'm coming from.

It's true that they're both trapped by contracts. But Shawn is treated differently by the industry and in this arrangement he is clearly benefiting, and not benefiting more than Camila, but benefiting at her expense. I wrote a post about it once already, please have a look.

And now on top of that, he tries to break into the Latin market, clearly using Camila's identity as an excuse. And just how low the bar is, the lowest effort of trying to pronounce the Spanish lyrics correctly is praised. Why? Because of his privilege

And the fact that they call it "good Spanish"

This makes me mad, because I know what it takes to learn a language and try to use it in a foreign country in your everyday life.

[mentesimploria]

New interviews etc of yawn are coming out and he's talking about Camila again. Do I guess whatever it is he's about to drop is coming. Also in the latest one he contradicted himself about when they met up again for the first time for senorita and who text who. Also bringing up the dogs. I think these are old he's talking about her dogs not Tarzan. And what the fuck does he mean one of them had an operation for what. 🙄

oh my god, i just read the interview you mentioned. Shawn is so fucking cringe.  "We're at the rehearsals, and I'm like doing my best to dance, horribly, and have to catch her in this one part, and I go to catch her and my hand slips and I fully let her fall out of my hands and smash her head on the floor. And in that moment, I was like 'hat's it, I've ruined my chances with her. Everything's... My whole life's over’" why do they keep making him sound like a disney character written for teenager girls 

[postyxmendes]

just a dog dad and his son on a rainy day

[mendesblurb]

Three times shawn says he miss you and send a photo, one time you surprise him by coming home early

Right now I’m missing you

Shawn Mendes x female reader

Warning: fluff, a lot of emojis used,maybe grammar error and maybe some punctuation errors.

Note: Hey Anon, thank you for requesting. I had so much fun writing this one. Hope you like my attempt in writing your story idea.

First

Bzzzt bzzzt

You paused reading your script and, grabbed your phone that was on the side table. You smiled when you saw it was a message from Shawn.

It's really sweet that Shawn always miss you whenever you travel for work. Frankly, you always miss him too. This is just the unspoken thing that happen when two busy celebrities start dating. Both of you have busy schedules, and so every little sweet uninterrupted moments are more precious than ever.

Text message

Shawn: Wish you were here with me, I miss you….

You: I miss you too 😍

Shawn: I miss you most 😏😏

You: I miss you mostest 😌

Shawn: Me + U = ❤️, so Me - U = 😢

You: Can’t wait to FaceTime you tonight 😏😏

Shawn: Can tonight just come sooner…

You: Patience, my love.

Shawn: Because you’re the one asking, I will try to be patient.

You: Shawn if you can survive me friend zoning you for 5 years, you can survive this 🤨

Shawn: I hate how you’re always right.

You: It’s just in my blood 😉😉😉

Shawn: God, I just love you. Anddddddd I misssssssss youuuuu ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

You: I love you tooooo and I missssssss youuuu tooo ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Second

It’s been a long, long day.

Your eyes felt heavy. You were struggling to stay awake to finish your night routine. Just a few more steps, that’s all you needed to stay awake then you could go to sleep. Suddenly, your phone vibrates and dings rather loudly. It snaps you out of your dazed state. You proceed to grab your phone and saw a text from Shawn with an image attached.

You have been away for your new movie and wouldn’t be returning until four more weeks at the earliest. Obviously, the two of you have been continuing to message and FaceTime each other throughout the time you have been away, but you were pretty busy.

It seems the only time he’s able to get you to himself is at Goddamn one in the morning. He knew you would still be awake otherwise he wouldn’t have sent the image.

Text message

Shawn: Right now, I’m missing you a little too much.

You: You know we just FaceTimed like thirty minutes ago right?

Shawn: Yeah, But I still miss my girl 😢😢😢😢

You: I still miss you too honey..😢😢

Shawn: No amount of FaceTime or texts can stop me from missing you. I just love you so much.

You: I love you too, wish we could cuddle right now🥺🥺🥺🥺.

Shawn: The bed is just too big and I wish I can be your pillow right now, come home soon Y/N 🥺🥺🥺

You: I will baby, as soon as I can 😉😉😉

Shawn: Promise?

You: Promise Shawnie.

Shawn: pinky swear?

You: YES! Shawnieeeeeee, I swearrrr ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Shawn: Tarzan says he misses his mommy 🥺

You: Well, Tarzan. Mommy miss you too 🥺🥺

Shawn: Come home soon, we both miss you a little too much and too often 🥺🥺❤️

You: Don’t worry baby, I’ll be home soon. I promise ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Shawn: I can’t wait! 🎉😆😆😆

You: Me too!! 🥲🥲🥲🥲

Shawn: Goodnight my love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️, have a good sleep! Call me when you’re awake!! 😍😍

You: Goodnight Shawnie ❤️❤️❤️, definitely calling you once I wake up! 😍😍😍

Shawn: I’ll definitely dream about you 😌✌🏻

You: Stop making me blush 🙄

Shawn: then stop being so cute and lovable 😛

Third

You were in the middle of hair and make up on set when the first text comes in, followed quickly by a second and the third.

Text message

Shawn: 🆘🆘🆘‼️‼️

Shawn: 🆘🆘🆘🆘‼️‼️

Shawn: Help!!! I miss you so much 😫😫😫

You: I wish I could be at New York with you right now 😢😢

Shawn: New york is just not the same 🥺🥺… I like it more last time because you and I were holding hands while exploring the city ❤️❤️

You: Shawnie… 🥺🥺🥺🥺

You pout as you look down at your phone. The two of you haven’t been able to spend much time with each other in over a month. You have been filming in london for a month while he was at New York.

All you want is his kisses and cuddles. All you want is him holding your hand right now, all you want is his clingy behaviour who won’t let you leave the bed. All you want is to sit on his lap while talking about the most random things. All you need is him right here, instead of being millions of miles away.

Shawn: I know, it’s just it’s been a long month 😭😭

You: Don’t worry, I’ll be home soon.

Shawn: How soon? 🤔🤔🤔

You: Soon, soon! 😌😌😌

Shawn: Can I know the date of your arrival?

You: Nope! 😛😛

Shawn: please! Please! 🥺🥺🥺

You: call you tonight baby, gotta do a scene 😘😘

Shawn: you are so annoying… 🙄🙄🙄

Shawn: honey, you can’t just not tell me 🥺🥺🥺

Shawn: please! Let me know when 🥺🥺🥺🥺

Shawn: 🥺🥺🥺🥺

*missed FaceTime from Shawn*

You: Calling me won’t help, love 😌😌

Shawn: ugh 😑 fine, I thought I could convince you with my pretty face 😌😌. But I guess I’ll be a good person who knows the definition of patience.

You: Good Boy 😛

Shawn: Did you just refer me as a boy?

You: maybe….. 😜😜

Shawn: Excuse me!!!!

Shawn: Hello!!!

You: Yes?

Shawn: I’m a man, not a boy 😡😡

You: says the person who literally got a tattoo saying Good Boy.

Shawn: I can’t with you 😑😑

You: Aww, I love you too Shawnie 😙😙

Fourth

Shawn woke up before his alarm again, he slowly sat up while letting out an unhappy sigh; this whole month he felt like he’s all alone, while you were working. He missed the satisfying feeling where he can just roll over and find you there sleeping peacefully next him instead of being million miles away.

Shawn let out a small sigh again as he stretched his hands and slipped on one of his ring and watch, finishing his look. He scanned over himself in the mirror once again, adjusting the sleeves of his button-up shirt.

He just kept pouting at the sad reminder. He thought about texting you but then his phone began to ring from his bed and the next thing he knew he was rushing to the studio. 

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"Hurry up!" Brian simpered as he grabbed his hand and yanked him as soon as he arrived at the studio.

"Is everything okay?” Shawn asked. "Please just tell me what is the emergency.”

"Just step inside," Brian said hastily, motioning towards the doors, a big smile plastered on his face.

"Brian, I swear, if this is some sort of prank..." Shawn trailed off as he turned the doorknob and pushed opened the door slowly. Shawn was half expecting a bucket of water to dump on him or a pie in the face, but none of that happened. Instead, he was greeted with a dark studio. Shawn looked quizzically at Brian, who just shooed him into the room.

"Seriously Brian, what is going on?" Shawn questioned, looking warily into the room. He felt Brian’s hands on his shoulders and pushed him into the room fully, staying behind him.

The lights came on suddenly and you stepped fully to his direction and cleared your throat, loudly announcing yourself, “Hey Shawnie, did you miss me?”

From the the looks of it, and Shawn stood stock still for a moment.

You caught a glimpse of his expression of adoration, love and surprise, before you wrapped around him like a Koala Bear.

“Oh my god, Y/N! Whe-when did you get here?”

“Went straight from the airport, baby.”

“Oh baby, I’m so happy you’re here! I-I can’t believe you’re here.” he laughed and squeezed his arms around you, never wanting to let you go. He picked you up more and spun you around a few times, Shawn was just super giddy that you were finally here with him, finally.

You too squeezed him even harder, if that was even possible, “I’m here, love, I’m here.”

He pulled back slightly, kissing your forehead. “This is the best surprise ever, I love you.”

“I love you too Shawn.”

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[blackjacketmuses]

hc; dmc muses misc

I didn’t want to make separate posts for smaller things, so this is just a general dump for several of the boys/girls.

Nero stuff

Nero is a huge, huge, massive WWE fan. He proves this in game with his wrestling moves, although in universe he uses a much wider variety in combat than in gameplay terms. He finds it super fun to work out how to use them on demons given their wonky physiology. His favorite wrestlers are (and take this w a grain of salt because I’m totally unaware of a lot of wrestling stuff, but I did some research and watched some videos and my dad’s a big wrestling fan) CM Punk, Kenny Omega, Undertaker, Steve Austin (Nero absolutely owns an Austin 3:16 shirt bought halfway to piss Credo off), Shawn Michaels and Triple H, and Roddy Piper.

He is also a shameless anime fan, shut up, he grew up on Toonami and Kids WB, of course he is. His all time favorite is YuYu Hakusho, and yes he likes Bleach too shut the fuck up, but he’s just a general nerd anime fan who loves shonen beat-em-ups and the occasional more serious fare like Cowboy Bebop and stuff. He also is a not actually all that reluctant expert on magical girl shows because of Kyrie.

Video game wise Nero is really into Mega Man, first of all, but he’s a very dorky gamer who loves JRPGs and action games and stuff. He has played Kingdom Hearts, yes, and his favorite Final Fantasy is VI and IX and XIII sue him (he also really likes the Tactics series), and he likes Fire Emblem and Tales of the Abyss and God of War and Uncharted, and the Old Republic games. But games, yes, games are good. 

Reboot Dante stuff

As a little, before everything went bad, he was a cute adventurous little boy who loved exploring and playing in the backyard grounds of Paradise. His favorite movies were adventure films --- top ten include Muppet Treasure Island, Tarzan, Aladdin, Treasure Planet, Toy Story, and Indiana Jones --- and he absolutely adored animals and watched Animal Planet constantly. Steve Irwin was his hero and he wanted to be just like him when he grew up. He loved amphibians and reptiles best, too, and on a trip to the zoo when he was five begged Mom to get him a Komodo dragon. He loved frogs, too, and he had a favorite stuffed animal that was a stuffed Kermit the Frog. He and his brother would go on made up imaginary adventures around the house all the time, and Mom would help invent treasure hunts. He was very protective of his younger twin, too.

He has panic attacks. Ever since he was a small child he’s had them, and Mom used to help him with breathing and calming down from them; there isn’t anything that’s a specific trigger, they just happened a lot when he was stressed or overwhelmed. After everything went bad he still had them, but he attributed it to the demons and self-medicated with drugs and alcohol. Lately he remembers a little better, enough to know that they’ve always been a thing, and is trying to deal with them normally.

Also he has dyslexia. He’s much better at visual learning because of this, but reading stuff has always given him a headache because words start mixing themselves up. It’s embarrassing to him and he doesn’t talk about it.

OG Dante stuff

For the record, Dante is biromantic, but leaning more towards women than men, and asexual. He has had sex, especially as Tony, but it was more for the intimacy and closeness than any attraction, and after Mallet Island simply stopped entirely. He has no real actual interest in sex, and is just fine occasionally flirting for the shits and giggles. He has too many commitment issues to actually date though. 

Related, he actually, unironically, does read the girly mags for the articles. Most of the pinups he’s taped up in the office are just ripped out of magazines to cover up holes in the walls, he’s not paying attention to what’s on the pages.

Dante has a GED he got after he met Patty, who encouraged him because she could tell he hated being talked down to by clients who thought he was stupid. That’s about the highest level of his education, though, and it does bug him, but he makes do. He reads a lot of magazines to patch his knowledge base.

Nero got him into modern anime in return for Dante getting him into 80s cartoons, and Dante fucking loves JJBA, don’t judge him.

[forevermoreale]

Shawn’s Perth Q&A Breakdown

Shawn’s favorite Disney song is “You’ll Be In My Heart” by Phil Collins from the Tarzan movie

Q: Is your music gonna turn into being focused on what other people like?

A: No! My music is gonna be what I like and what you guys like, always.

Q: Do you remember the other day you were livestreaming with John Mayer? Your hotel was in the background

A: Yes, I realized

Q: Will you marry me?

A: Im already married though an 8 year old proposed to me so I’m gonna have to ask her if its okay to marry someone else

Q: Whats your favorite family Christmas tradition?

A: My parents usually dance like salsa dances

Q: What made you start writing music?

A: Well when I told my dad I wanted to follow the singing career he said I couldn’t unless I would write songs and that’s basically the reason why I started writing. He was the person who made me start writing music

Q: Boost juice order?

A: Pretty lame but it’s peanut butter, banana, protein.

Q: People who inspire you?

A: Now? Probably the same people to be honest with you! I still listen to Mayer and Ed Sheeran

Q: Ever been denied entry in a club?

A: All the time! Once in a casino the guy didnt let me in because he didnt believe my age. I told him I can google my age & actually had to do it, I googled my age but he still didn’t believe me so I had to get my passport

Shawn facetimes his family back home all the time

Q: If you were to get another tattoo what would it be and why?

A: I want to get the word “perspective” So if you guys could get any good design with that it would be cool

Q: Do you like the fanprojects we do at concerts? Which one did you find the most emotional?

A: I really love them! One in France where they wrote their names on a paper and showed while I was singing IDEKYN

Shawn talked about the commercial for Armani where he was dancing. He said the legs that they show on the commercial aren’t really him, it’s from a dancer! After he said that he was like “I’m not sure if I could say this”

The fans at today’s Q&A asked Shawn about “TEW” and why he was always forgetting the lyrics and then he was saying the lyrics he keeps forgetting! He also told in Europe he forgot the exact same part of he song 3 times in a row

“My biggest success is that I’m all the way in Australia playing music”

“Childhood tv show?

-I love “Wizards of Waverly Place””

[olexiak]

Okay let's talk about the Halloween Party

I did something I felt a bit of ~shame~ for. I came up with this plan in advance because I was working 3-11 and I'm not trying to show up to the party alone and dishevelled at 11:45pm. So I faked being sick and throwing up in order to go home around 7. It didn't work as well as I planned when I told my supervisor I was feeling sick. He asked if I could hang in until 8 and I really wanted to go home at 7. This threw me off so much that when I want to "throw up" in the bathroom I was actually in tears. I think it was the combination of lying, dealing with authority and also stress about the party in general. Idk though like I could barely hold back the tears. It was weird. I ended up going home at around 7:15 and i just felt stupid but I decided to look forward to the night to come. We went as frat boys which I was not crazy about but I actually ended up loving. I had a bottle of white wine. When we first got to the party it was pretty weird but we assimilated. I was in a group of 8 so it was hard to feel excluded. We met the Joker guy and I had my first go at a beer bong. That shit is dangerous. I drank so much wine so fast. And then I had some of the Joker's hard Iced Tea .. American Standard i think it's called.. in the beer bong and exploded it everywhere. My shirt was wet and so were the people around me but it was fun! Then I realized I was pretty drunk because a girl also gave me some of her gin (yuck btw). Then Claire gave me nic spray and I was Fucked Up™. But not the most fucked up yet. Fall and I just happened to wander outside when some boys were smoking a joint and asked us to join! Obvi the 2 of us said yes. I got so high from like 2 puffs. My tolerance is just so fucking low. After that point, I was too Fucked Up™ for a little while. I don't remember if it was before or after weed, but a guy really tried to kiss me. At first I found him annoying but then I was really flattered (and drunk) by the way he was flirting with me. He kept saying he didn't care about Fall, he just wanted to know more about me and it was really smooth and really working. He got within like an inch of my lips and almost had me kiss him! But I said no! After this is when someone stole my fucking shoes and the beautiful Tarzan man gAve me his. Shocking still. Apparently this guy has fucked like a lot of girls and is quite the player 😎 so I felt pretty cool when he gave me his shoes. They are in my house now. Imagine how many girls wish they were me rn hahaha I rock. I can't believe all those guys were there from junior high like Shawn, Noel and Brett. Brett is literally disgusting btw. He's such a bad person. I can't really remember anything he said or did because of the combination of substances I ingested, but I know that he is just a shitty person. He was being mean and trying to get girls. Just ew. I can't believe no one hit him in the fucking face, I wanted to. Such gross behaviour just bleh all around. Other than this, I saw the joker having sex in the backyard. He seemed a bit rapey and I totally got that vibe when he peer pressured me to do the beer bong. Whatever wave I was on last night, i was so hypersexualized. Realistically, i know i would never just have sex with a rando at a party, but last night i really wanted to. I was super into that Joker and also Javen. Boys! What! Does that mean! I tried to think about girls too but none of the girls made any effort to be anything besides friendly to me. Whereas the boys were kind of flirty and enticing idk. It was another wild night kind of like at Donald's and the first Gr 11 party. The common denominator? Alcohol + marijuana. ALSO, Fall and i sat on the floor of the hallway for a solid 5-10 minutes as the party carried on around us/ people made out and practically had sex / got into physical altercations / stepped on us etc. But we did not have a care in the world. Im glad Fall was in it with me. I thought I was gonna die for a bit when I realized I was so high I forgot that I was at a party. That's like the moment I always describe from the G11 party, that I was forgetting where I was in the exact moment. Like I would blink and forget where I was. Even when I opened my eyes it was hard to comprehend who I was and what I was doing there. Wild wild thoughts

[postyxmendes]

it’s really bout to be battle of the break up album and we all know who’s winning…😂

[mendesblurb]

My Girl

Shawn Mendes x female reader

Warning: fluff, maybe grammar error and maybe some punctuation errors.

Shawn have been on the couch with his headset on and a notebook in his hands. The whole Damn Day.

You were upstairs for a good hour finishing your own work related stuff before you found your way on the couch, phone in hand and mind bored. You scrolled a few apps before settling on tiktok, slightly distracted with the conversation Shawn was having with Scott.

After sometime Shawn starts to have some idea on what to write, his notebook was no longer blank, and after coming across yet another video of the trend with your boyfriend, you decided to try it out. You set up the phone on the table, and while Shawn would normally notice things like that, he was too busy talking to focus on anything but the Laptop in front of him.

“Yeah, LA is good I mean Y/N and Tarzan are both here and that’s all I need honestly.” Shawn said.

Just then, you move a leg over his lap to make the transition easier, and you lift his arm up just enough to slide into his lap comfortably. He’s in between conversations now, not knowing who to talk to first.

“Yeah I know, I just can’t write one song that is not about Y/N——Honey what’re you- No, nobody is naked right now, she’s not, and neither am I so stop with the teasing.”

You hum, and eventually, Shawn’s arms rest over your back comfortably and the two of you are melting into one another, losing where he starts and you end. It’s a mess of intimacy, and suddenly you realize how much you’ve been craving his touch and his love all day. Shawn rests his jaw on your shoulder while his fingers rubbed your back soothingly.

He picks his head up, kissing the side of your head with a sigh, “Missed you today.” He pulls you up, adjusting you so you’re closer than possible, and he hums again.

“Missed you too.”

“Yeah?” He pauses the call for a moment, receiving shouts of protest through the headset but he didn’t care. Instead he leans back so he can see your face, and his nose nuzzles yours in content. With shut eyes, you smile at the kiss before your lips connect with his for a moment. He’s mumbling words against your lips, now, soft and warm. “I love you.”

You squeeze his middle just a little bit, and he smiles when your eyelids flutter open. You smile bashfully before you return to your original position, head against his chest and shoulder while he picks up his notebook. He rubs your back a bit again, calloused hands gentle even through your shirt. Eventually, he picks up the pen again, unpausing the call and replying to Scott.

“Yeah, I’m still here. I’m fine, just needed a hug from my girl.” He pauses for a moment before rolling his eyes. “Shut up, Scott. My girl gives the best cuddles.”

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[mendesblurb]

Show me your phone

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Shawn Mendes x female reader

Warning: fluff, maybe grammar error and maybe some punctuation errors

Oh My God!  You thought to yourself. This was the day. Its finally here. The day you and your husband had been waiting for a while now. It was finally here.

Your nerves were absolutely racking and your heart was beating fast. the test showed you 2 lines. YOU WERE PREGNANT.

You looked at the pregnancy test again and the other two that sat on the vanity, all positive. Now it was time to tell Shawn the news.

“We’re going to have a what?” Shawn asked, his face turning up toward you. 

He was sitting on the bed with his back against the headboard, having some much needed relaxing time after being in the recording studio all day.

You’d discovered you were pregnant this morning after he’d left for work and decided to keep the news until he was home.

For the time being you kept your news a secret from the media, afraid of the possibility of things happening on the first trimester. So you started going out in baggy clothes so the paparazzi will not know and throwback photos became a thing in your Instagram feed.

However, you knew that sooner or later it would be discovered, it didn’t worry you too much, but you wanted to feel comfortable first with the idea of having a growing human inside your belly and also because Shawn and you are a pretty private couple.

————————-FOUR MONTHS LATER————

Tonight , Shawn was going to be interviewed on Jimmy Fallon’s late night show because of the recent release of his album “wonder.”

It was a routine that before one of you came on, the other would send a text message of encouragement and an occasional “I love you ” were sent along with it.

You: enjoy the talk show with Jimmy 😙

Shawn: thanks baby, love you 😘

You: love you too ❤️

Shawn: see you at home ❤️

You: send image

This time you decide to send a pic of you and Tarzan at the living room couch and the pic also displayed your growing bump.

You: see you at home Shawnie❤️, lots of love from me, Tarzan and little Mendes

As the crew began counting down the seconds before going live Jimmy sat down slowly and Shawn adjusted his jacket as he got comfortable in the chair.

“Now Shawn…” Jimmy started, leaning on his desk casually. “quite a bit has happened since the last time I saw you.”

He nodded slightly, a ghost of a smile on his lips, “Yeah it’s been a while dude.”

Jimmy laughed partially, “that’s right… the last time you were here you were single, and now you’re married.”

Shawn nodded as Jimmy continued, “now Wonder just came out a few weeks ago and it was a huge hit..”

Shawn smiled, “yup it did alright.”

The rest of the interview was great, Shawn talked about the highs and lows he experienced when creating the album and how all his songs were about you and how grateful he was to have you by his side through it all.

That night both Shawn and Jimmy were going to play ‘Show me your phone’, a game where they had to show whatever was hidden on their smart phones.

As the game was about to start, Shawn realised he wasn’t prepared at all. At this point he knew your secret is about to be exposed, I mean your whole relationship was not a secret but it was mostly private.

Both of you seem to have a habit of dropping the bombshell to your fans. Like that one time you finally made your relationship social media official, another time you secretly got married and now you’re secretly 4 months pregnant.

Now sitting across from Jimmy, Shawn could feel his heart pounding , and his hand began to feel clammy.

In front of them there was a red button, in the centre a tripod that will act as a phone holder and next to it was an electronic panel showing all the possibilities that could come up.

There was the icon for messages, Safari, photos , Instagram, Twitter, mail and call.

“Okay, you ready?” Jimmy asked and Shawn just nodded his head.

“Okay, for anyone who don’t know, here’s how game works. Shawn and I will take turns pressing the red button we have here, which will randomly select one of these icons we have on the board.”

After He explained how the game works , then he opted for Shawn to go first as he was the guest.

Laughter was heard among the audience as they saw the nervous glances that was displayed in both Shawn’s and Jimmy’s faces.

“FYI, neither of us know what’s behind each icon.” Jimmy looks at Shawn who was now laughing. “Let’s go and explore our phone.” Jimmy said

“Let the adventure begin,” Shawn said while trying to hide his face. “I think I forgot to clean my phone before the game.”

“You and me both dude,” Jimmy said laughing along with him. “Alright, here we go. Since you’re the guest you press first.”

“I am honoured ,” Shawn said sarcastically , which drew another laughter from the audience. “Here goes nothing!”

Shawn pressed the red button and quickly the icons on the panel began to light up and the light stopped specifically on the Safari browser icon, so that a text was displayed that said 'Show and tell us your last Google search’.

“Shawn if you could please show us your last Google search my friend.” Jimmy said while trying to control his laughter.

“Okay!” exclaimed Shawn grabbing his phone and heading to the app. “If I’m being honest I forgot what my last search was… Oh never mind!”

Shawn started laughing and tried to hide his phone, which only caused the audience to laugh hilariously.

"Okay, fine,” Shawn said as he put the phone down on the small platform. “I was just trying to do a kind gesture.”

The camera pointed straight at him, checking that his last search had been ‘nearest grocery store with Oat milk’.

The set erupted in laughter, Jimmy clasped his hands to his chest, laughing his head off.

“This- This is actually funny because it’s so specific but it’s actually very thoughtful,” he said between guffaws. “Did you end up buying it though?”

“I did!” Shawn said. “I found two brands and you know I was just trying to buy it because Y/N being a good wife she is wants me to start living a healthier lifestyle.”

“Awww,” Jimmy said . “Come on! Here we go. My turn.”

The panel came back on, the light moving between icons until it stopped on the photo app. Jimmy frowned, and the panel informed him that it should show the last picture he took on his phone.

“Come on, show us!” exclaimed Shawn encouragingly.

“I’m extremely scared,” said Jimmy with a serious and comical look on his face, reaching for his phone. “I am deeply embarrassed … Oh!” he began to laugh. “Okay, okay. This… is me trying to be a good Dad, don’t judge me.”

The picture showed Jimmy trying to pose with a random Snapchat filter and the caption was ‘Goodnight Frances & Winnie’ . In response the audience started laughing.

“All right, all right,” Jimmy held up his hands. “I have an explanation . The other day my wife said my kids won’t go to bed until I said goodnight to them and I was still on set.”

“That’s actually cool man!” exclaimed Shawn.

“Anything to put your kids to bed,” he laughed and picked up his phone.

“Show us your last text message” Jimmy read out eliciting cheers from the audience. “Come on!”

“Okay,” he began to laugh nervously. “It says there the last message I sent, in details too?”

“Well, just put the phone down,” Jimmy laughed.

“Okay,” Shawn started to look up. “Last text message…” he took a breath and looked at Jimmy hesitantly.“Oh here we go…”

Your last conversation appeared before everyone’s eyes, showing only the last photo you had sent him with Tarzan and your growing bump was present and the caption was the true bombshell of all.

“Wait, wait back up Mendes,” Jimmy said looking at him and questioning “little Mendes? Is this why she’s taking a break?”

The audience exclaimed a sweet 'aw’ again when they got a glimpse of the photo and Shawn was just widely smiling.

“This is really sweet!” said Jimmy looking at Shawn, “This is the best news ever.”

“I know, I know,” Shawn commented and nodding his head slowly.

“Do you know the gender?” asked Jimmy hesitantly, to which Shawn took another breath before replying.

“Yes we do,” Shawn laughed nervously. “We are going to have a baby girl.”

 “There you have it, folks! The show is about exposing secrets! Thank you for watching, let’s all patiently wait for the arrival of baby Mendes.”

Shawn was seen hugging Jimmy as the camera flickered off, the curtains closing - concealing them from the screaming audience.

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