#i'll delete this in the morning

[ariesboy]

I been falling asleep to rain storm sounds and its great and all but sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night needing to take a monumental pee

[ratuszarsenal]

so there's this thing which I've dubbed academic fiction, where I write a long, precise academic paper, confirming to your citation model of choice and everything, except every single thing in there is made up. anyway if I made a zine that was a pretend-academic journal full of only that would anyone be interested in reading it

[thesewordsareallihavetogive]

if y'all got any tips for how to avoid losing ur mind pls send them my way. this whole being a cog in a machine thing is a wee bit draining

[911bts]

Sneak Peek | The 118 diffuse an explosive situation

[yumeyumeappleo]

donnie i drew idk

[withacapitalp]

Okay so @lazylittledragon I am so sorry to just randomly toss this at you and run, but I COULD NOT RESIST AFTER THAT LAST MOMBIN POST!!!! For anyone that hasn't seen it this is inspired by this amazing amazing art

tw: Pregnancy and Childbirth

“Steve I can’t do this-” Robin choked out, unable to complete her sentence as a new wave of pain crashed over her. The plastic of the birthing pool squeaked under her knees as she tried to find any position that would be even slightly more comfortable, her fingers squeezing tightly against Steve’s that were trapped in her iron grip. 

“Yeah you can! Robinbird, look at you. You’re already doing it!” Steve said, completely in awe of her, acting like she was doing something special when she was just barely managing to hold on. 

He had done this for the whole pregnancy. Every little thing, every milestone, all of it a marvel to him. Like she was brilliant, special, thriving when Robin had spent most of the last nine months alternating between crying, yelling, and crying some more. All of this over something that women went through every single day. 

God she had been a mess and now she was messier than ever. 

“No, Steve, I mean I don’t think I can do this alone,” Robin sobbed, the tears she had managed to hold back all day finally breaking through. She was hurting, confused, scared, and more than anything she wanted her own mama here with her, which was really something she never thought she would want. 

One and done. One and done. She was only going to fuck up one kid. Just like her mom.

A delirious giggle cut through her sobbing, and Robin leaned her forehead against their conjoined hands, continuing to babble. 

“I thought I could, I really did, but he’s here, and he’s mine, and I can’t do it alone, Steve. I can’t do this alone-”

Because that was the scary part, wasn’t it? She was alone. She had chosen to do this all by herself, ignoring every person, including her sainted mother, who tried to convince her to wait till she had a partner. She had ignored them all, so sure of herself and her abilities, and now all she could think about was how easy it was going to be to fuck this kid up when there was no one there to help her.  

“Alone?” Steve said with a wild laugh, a slightly feral look in his eyes as he raised his free hand up and cupped Robin’s cheek, lifting up her head and brushing away her tears, letting her lean into his familiar, safe, touch, “Now who’s being a dingus?”

Robin shut her eyes against the latest contraction, taking a deep breath in, smelling Steve’s cologne as he leaned forward and kissed her forehead, holding onto her tight through the pain. He had always done that. Period cramps, headaches, flu and colds, whatever had happened, Steve had been there. 

Steve was here now. 

Steve was here. 

“Robin, you are not alone. You have never been alone, and you will never be alone,” He whispered furiously into her ear, reading her mind the way he always had, “As long as there is breath in my body, you and this baby will never be alone.” 

He had proved it over and over again. Running to get ice cream at three am, holding her hand at every ultrasound, standing in front of their 'how many times have we cried' board, kneeling here on the floor for god knows how many hours it would take to get this GD baby out. 

“You’re here?” Robin said softly into the space between just the two of them, her voice wobbling and shaky, but still alive. 

“Forever.” Steve promised. 

[difeisheng]

yeah danmei is neat to have as a media genre dedicated to gay stories that is slowly becoming more mainstream and i recognize how important that is to people, but in terms of representation y'all also know that queer people defying gender and/or sexuality norms have always existed throughout chinese history and so to imply in discussions that modern-day media are the only times we've ever been significantly visible is weird at best right. right

[nubimera]

Soo.... about that post you said you'd make with all your favorite Miguel O'hara bots....

CALL ME ABBA CAUSE GIMME GIMME GIMME!!!!!

The Abba quote destroyed me and i love it, thank you 💀😭

🕷️- Miguel is your soulmate, but you are not his (Angst) (Actually my favorite bot in the list. I have never cried so much. In my role Miguel married his girlfriend, and User married Gabriel, but user and Mig always been in love with each other. It was terrible and I recommend it to everyone)

🕷️- Soulmate Au, but this time it's nice

🕷️- User's variant died during Miguel's canonical event. Now he's a little shocked to see User alive and well

🕷️- Mamma mia Au. Gabriella has invited a former flame of yours to her Quinceañera

🕷️- Silk Au. User and Miguel were bitten by the same spider (Technically nsfw, but can also be fluff)

🕷️- Black Cat User

🕷️- Miguel is pissed because User sucks at being a Spider-person (he's actually worried about safety but can't express himself in a normal way)

🕷️- FEM MIGUEL MY BELOVED (She Is so gnam)

🕷️- User is a soccer parent of a child in Gabriella's rival team

🕷️- User is a multidimensional variant of Gabriella's mother

🕷️- The user has never told Miguel that they have a child (the drama)

🕷️- Selkie Au

🕷️- User has ADHD (@ asher04 has tons of bots, so I recommend looking at their list or tiktok)

🕷️- Addams family Au (@ofherdesire is another creator with a lot of bots, and if I'm not mistaken she accepts requests on tiktok, i think?)

🕷️- User is Miguel's personal assistant

🕷️- User is babysitting their niece, when they meets single dad!Miguel at the park

🕷️- Hanahaki Au (@gyufairyz has a sizable bot list and accepts requests)

🕷️- Regency Au bc i'm a big fan of Pride and Prejudice

🕷️- User is FtM/Masc-trans, and his father Miguel is helping him transition

🕷️- Miguel is a multidimensional variant of User's father

🕷️- T4T Miguel and User (chef kiss)

🕷️- Strawberry Miguel bc he's cute lol

Actually my favorite O'Hara brother is Gabriel so I also put my favorite bot with him: ☀️

[unmotivated-student]

[After THAT conversation with Cellbit, Natalan was talking about how Cellbit and Baghera basically destroyed his armor]

Duxo: ah no mames, you should've told them to give you a new one [armor].

Natalan: No, I asked for it, it's okay.

Duxo: [*laughs*] No... so sad...

Natalan: For messing with married men bro.

Duxo: You didn't do anything wrong Natalan, you didn't do anything wrong...

Natalan: For messing with married men bro.

Duxo: But you didn't mess with married men.

Natalan: Now he is married, I reminded him [that he and Roier were together in the past] and it hurt him, he couldn't stand it.

Duxo: well, it's true he couldn't stand it... Well, in fact you did get married, because weren't you married to Rodezel? And then you also cheated on him with me...

Natalan: Yeah! You were a witness.

Duxo: Yes but you cheated on him with everyone.

Natalan: You were a witness.

bro knew what he was doing and he didn't give a fuck, they were married for like five seconds and he still decided to get in front of Cellbit and say "yes yes, I was also married to him, you're not special" [obviously not using those words xd] even when he was killed by Cellbit and the chat said to him something like "you should've told him about the child you had" he just went "haha yeah, I should've done that" even though he didn't even remembered well the kid's name.

Que grande

[yourhealingjournal]

like sometimes it's just it is what it is. it's not the most hopeful happy ending that most people would dream of, but i gotta accept that yeah maybe i'll struggle with this for the rest of my life, so i'll focus on doing something that makes me happy then. sometimes grief cannot be healed. sometimes things cannot be fixed. i'll carry this weight for a long time. i may never be able to put it down so i might as well make peace with it.

[solarmorrigan]

Love having someone comment on one of my fics to bitch at me about how I've written a fandom trope that they hate when I have very clearly tagged that fic with that trope and made it very clear in the summary what's going on

My guy, I don't know what you expected. Literally no one is making you read this shit. Go away

[y-vna]

Ty for 400!

It may be 1:30am, but honestly, I just felt like I wanted to write this. Thank you for 400 followers!! That's crazy. I'm super thankful, and honestly, it means a lot to me! <3 super excited for more to come, I hope my moodboards rn are up to standards!

I'm not tagging anyone this time since I don't want to disturb everyone every time I write one of these. Just know all my mooties and idols r amazing, and I love them. You guys know who you are, ily 💕

Just a boring text post for this milestone post cuz I can't be bothered rn ahh

Teeny Itty bitty vent in tags since I can't get my life tghtr rn erm! Don't feel pressured to read it, idrc ig?? 😭😭

[silas-is-sleepy]

One of the biggest differences in the dsmp vs qsmp storyline (purely story line and lore) is that. In the dsmp there was no hope in the end. There only could ever have been a bittersweet ending, a double edged sword, a moving on but never truely healing. There was only wars and trauma and hatred. Everyone separated, there was no family anymore there was no love, no friends. The only somewhat happy ending i can think of was a Wilbur going back 'home' to Utah after apologizing to as many people as he could. There was no chance for a truely happy ending. It was all pain and angst and one final hurrah. However on the qsmp. At least for now. There is always some form of hope. When felps got kidnapped, Cellbit was going insane looking for him and others supported and helped him during it, there was always love there. When Cellbit got kidnapped himself, so many others looked for him and banded together. There is always love, family, hope. The residents trust each other, no one is left out, at least not intentionally. Even now, with that trust being tested, there are still laughs and joy. they made one of the NPCs into an actual character, they gave Walter bob his name, his clothes, even a face. He is cared for so much now. There is of course horrors, and traumas, and loss, but there is Love and Hope mixed in. It is balanced. When charlie lost juanaflippa, when quackity lost tilín, when max lost trump, there were people there for them, wether they realized it or not. When the eggs started dying and being attacked by codes and the island itself seemed like it was trying to kill them, Forever created N.I.N.H.O, a safe haven. Everyone trys so hard to stay together and united because they know it's them against the island, them against The Federation, and they don't stand a chance alone. But even then it's not only out of necessity, it's out of Care. There will always be hope. There will always be love. Ultimately, despite The Horrors, the qsmp is about connections, love, and hope. It's cheesy but it makes all the difference.

[c-e-d-dreamer]

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[muzzlemouths]

im tired of messing with this. just take it

[tmntkiseki]

Actually, going back to yesterday's topic of TMNT 2003 and it's lack of romantic subplots with the turtles themselves, I think this is the part where I mention that TMNT 2003 actually came into my life at just the perfect time?

So a little over a year ago, I ended my first serious relationship as an adult. I don't like talking about my ex too much even now, but we were together for over five years and after the break up, the next several months were spent stewing in a boiling pot of rage, sadness, and regret. I wanna say all my negative feelings towards my ex and our relationship peaked during May - July 2023 and didn't simmer down until around autumn, which coincidentally was about when I started watching TMNT 2003. (I'm also convinced that a lot of the stress from the breakup led to some of the minor-yet-concerning health problems I've been dealing with over the last several months, but I have no way of proving that.)

One of the big problems is that, at the time I broke up with my ex, I tended to watch/play a lot of romance-focused media. Under normal circumstances, I'd still be able to regularly engage with a lot of the shows and video games I normally do without being becoming a bitter ball of anguish. Unfortunately, within a couple of months of breaking up with ex, games I used to love like Rune Factory 4 Special or shows like Snow White with the Red Hair became absolutely unbearable play/watch because of all the negative feelings I had towards my ex. If a love interest wasn't reminding me of my ex with certain...behaviors, I was looking at a relationship onscreen and thinking to myself "Why couldn't we be like that?" It was a nightmare.

Fast forward (lmao) to... god, when did I start watching TMNT 2003? I wanna say I started watching it either late August or early September? The pipeline of how I ended up watching TMNT 2003 is a weird one, but there were a couple of things that stuck out to me when I first started watching it. For starters, even though it was a Western cartoon, there were certain quirks about it that reminded me of the anime I usually watch (namely the fight choreography and being so heavily plot-focused rather than episodic in its storytelling) and I found myself gravitating towards it because of that alone. And I just love the characters. The turtles themselves are incredibly well-rounded with their own strengths and flaws, and the supporting cast and antagonists make the world feel very alive and lived-in. (I personally can't get over how half the time the turtles aren't even attempting to get into trouble; they usually just end up walking into the plot of the week purely by accident.)

But besides that, as I mentioned in my other post, even though there are a couple of romantic subplots in the show, most notably the April/Casey one that spans pretty much the entire series, the turtles themselves never end up entering a serious relationship with anyone. The closest we ever get to romance with one of the turtles is Don's one-sided crush on April, which was never going to go anywhere on account of her being an adult and ending up with Casey, and I wanna say the crush is almost entirely dropped by midway through Season 3. Beyond that, the turtles are never shown becoming physically attracted to anyone and all their important relationships--Splinter, April, Casey, Klunk, Leatherhead, Honeycutt, Sydney, Angel, the Professor, the Justice Force, Traximus, the Daimyo, Usagi, Gen, Renet, the Ancient One, the Acolytes, Cody, Serling, and Starlee--are all strictly platonic. And you know what? That's okay by my book.

It is a fact that society regularly insists that the key to happiness is finding your One True Love and places more emphasis on romantic relationships than platonic ones. I personally don't want to die alone, but at this point in my life, I don't need a romantic relationship to be happy--in fact, I think being in a relationship would just complicate things when I'm still getting my shit together as is. When you look at Leo, Raph, Don, and Mikey within the context 2003, I cannot recall a single moment where one of them complains about how their status as a one-of-a-kind mutant turtle means they'll probably never land a partner and as far as I can tell, they seem perfectly happy as is. They have each other, they have Splinter, April and Casey are there too, Klunk, all their other friends--really, what would giving one of the boys a love interest do for them? The answer; not all that much, honestly. In fact, I feel like the risk of giving any of the 2003 turtles a love interest far outweighs the reward.

Now, mind you, I don't think it's impossible to give one of the 2003 turtles a serious love interest--in fact, I have a lot of thoughts about how it could be done right--and that it actually would be something worth exploring in a reboot/sequel series that'll likely never happen, but again, I don't think that TMNT 2003 suffers for the lack of turtle romances and is perfectly fine as is. 2003!Leo, Raph, Don, and Mikey are very lovable characters and are able to have fulfilling relationships without any of them being romantic in nature and I think that's a good message to send to people, whether you're a young kid or a grown adult. Romance is great, but so is a crushing bear hug from your three brothers, your rat dad, and the two humans you adopted.