#i'm oscillating

[beelzzzebub]

i have got to go to sleep

[sunnydayaoe]

Wuhh I love drawing flesh and skin so much but I actually think I'll explode if I keep drawing them as humans, so !! introducing fan and testtube now in Fleshy animal suits :)

[Don't tag with ship tags please! :D]

[angelsdean]

and what if i started 'dean is too nice to sam' truthing ?

[chickenscratchstudios]

I felt compelled to draw the characters from @ibrithir-was-here and Co.'s Blood of my Blood Dracula AU. (Baller AU guys, keep it up)

Tried to stick with Ibrithir's design, but I mayyy have let elements of my own designs slip in there.

(Also, WHY do all of the characters except one have last names starting with 'H' I didn't realize this until I had labeled all them)

[ripthomasthorne]

me remembering that bbc ghosts is ending this year at random intervals during the day and getting sad about it

[mystery-salad]

Embrant, Warden of the Pale Tree

[kopw]

wrestle kingdom 17 press conference / relay by fiona apple / wayward son or punishing parent?: kenny omega interviewed / a child is something else again, yehuda amichai (trans. chana bloch) / anne sexton, the death of the fathers / ospreay vs omega at forbidden door 2 / bloodsport by sneaker pimps / oh, canada: will ospreay's forbidden rematch / ospreay vs omega at wrestle kingdom 17 and forbidden door 2 / thrall, natasha trethewey / great expectations, charles dickens / ospreay vs omega at forbidden door 2 / ábrahám és izsák [abraham and isaac] by csaknekedkislány (trans. in id) / kenny omega on twitter

[t00thpasteface]

one of yall needs to come to my house and beat me over the head with a lead pipe because i really am thinking about arcade x the king now. help. i think blunt force trauma would fix me

[kscribbs]

[wizardnuke]

loudly bitching about someone over the phone for 40 minutes straight at work while coworkers sideeye me. sorry. i have never shown this behavior before and itll be another two years before i do it again

[fayevalcntine]

I feel like way too many people want to woobify at least one of the main characters in the first season (be it Lestat or Louis at least) that many miss out on the complicated aspects of their behaviors and mistake understanding said aspects and talking about them to excusing them.

But one thing in particular that I've noticed is that given the proper lack of context for Armand as a character (since we firstly see him in the background as a servant and only in the last minute as a powerful vampire), a lot of people are jumping through hoops to label Louis as another helpless victim despite Armand's actual quotes about him. "I care for him more than he cares for himself"/"This time I won't spare [Daniel's] life."/"Louis can sometimes act out." Like I don't mean to say that Louis is running this entire situation because he obviously isn't, but it's clear that he IS making choices like requesting Daniel to come visit him for another interview, showing him Claudia's diaries and discussing in length about vampire lore and his own history, in spite of Armand apparently not agreeing with that because it may lead to Louis' death at the hands of other vampires. The most significant rule about vampires is that you do not talk about vampire lore to a human, right? This is why Lestat doesn't tell Louis about how he can read his mind/push his thoughts in his head/stop time right up until Lestat offers Louis the chance to become a vampire. Armand doesn't even reveal himself to be another powerful vampire to Daniel up until the last moment, so it's clear that he doesn't agree with the interview necessarily nor with Daniel being there, but Louis wants him to be there so he allows it.

This is why labeling Louis as a helpless victim in the hands of another "monster" is just robbing him of his own agency in putting himself in this situation. Because yes, Armand IS more powerful but Louis is also in repeated denial of his own flaws and actions that paint him to be as less kind and righteous in front of others (Daniel) and even to Claudia within his story. It's much easier for Louis to paint Daniel a picture made up of rehearsed lines and skewed memories than it is for him to even tell himself the truth, that he loved Lestat and chose him over Claudia. It's also much easier for Louis to take part in Armand's life and penthouse and live in complete isolation in order to deem himself a "master of his own instincts". When you have your food delivered to you, your living space managed by someone else, completely devoid of any particular furniture or even colors that would remind you of anything, not coming out of that space or mingling with regular humans, it's so much easier to act like you're in complete control of your instincts and emotions. This is also why Armand even has to be near Louis in certain moments in order to calm him down before Louis starts to snap in front of Daniel.

Point being, what Louis and Armand may have as a romantic relationship is obviously not one that is specifically good for Louis in the long term, but it's likely one he thinks he needs if he can even go on functioning. Why else would he want his flaws and his outbursts omitted from Claudia's diaries? Why else would he want to pretend he is above all these vampires who "give in" to their instincts when he is pretty much not even tempting himself or his emotions by going outside and talking to people who aren't Armand or some random servants until Daniel shows up?

[riot-control-camp]

LOSING MY MARBLES RN I CANNOT FUCKING COPE

me, in tears because of a christmas movie: i am more mentally ill than i have ever been before

sibling: really? more than EVER before?

me, sweating in Sibling Knows Mental Health History: y. yes?

sibling, upsettingly genuine: what about that--that redacted arc?

me:

me: which one???

them: the uh, the ma...jest...arium? the one where uh, david goes to space?

me, now incredulous with happiness: SPACE????

them: yeah he dies or something and everything is bad

me: THE IMPERIUM?????

we were robbed of a space season of redacted that's all i'm saying

[rizaposting]

The breed of mental illness i'm suffering from is me trying to make fan content but being paralyzed knowing that no matter what i do someone out there isn't going to like it, on both a specific and conceptual level. Especially my favorite little pet things that i love--someone exists who is like "oh your favorite little pet thing? I hate it. I hate your favorite little pet thing". Got me like 🧍‍♀️

[umbane]

the canadian experience is just having red lines under your words all the time

[mishkakagehishka]

Girls when they were born to be village storytellers, old women who entertain in the square by telling stories to children during the day and legends of caution during the night, but they were born in the 21st century and have to [gags] get a degree and work

[rawliverandgoronspice]

curse me and my appreciation for elaborate character/camera movements u_u