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lexirosewrites · 2 days

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Hi Lexi!

I kind of read about your break and the fear of your hyper fixation going away. Just wanted to say that I've been through the same thing 2 months ago. I couldn't write anything at all for 6 months. I had the inspiration but not the motivation. I had stopped reading fanfictions as well even from friends. I feared that the one thing that helped me through a hard time was leaving me, which was my hyperfixation that lead me to write. I didn't want to lose it, but I felt like it was. I was ready to make a post about me just simply quitting writing because my fingers didn't cooperate.

It wasn't. I just needed a break. A long one. One day I just rewatched stranger things, and I started reading old fics, ones that I read that made me get into writing for the Fandom. I did things I did back in May 2022. Even lighting candles of the scent I used back then. Music as well.

After that, one day I sat down, and the words came through by themselves. It's not in the magnitude they were before. That I know. I'm not the same person from 2 years ago, but just because you cannot write now, doesn't mean you won't ever be able to.

It will get better, you just need to find that love again, however you find it necessary to do so 💓 I just simply went back in time.

You don't have to answer this, I just wanted you to know that I understand your fear, but just because it's not as intense, it means that is gone. 💕

You'll find your way back! Just give yourself time, all that you need! Be it weeks, months or a year, just don't beat yourself up for it. You are human after all 💖

i love to hear this! it’s so hard to pin point why i started writing in the first place, but i think i had a lot of feelings to process back then… and now that i’ve said them, my brain is empty? who knows!

i will say my job has been making me especially miserable lately, but i’m officially putting in my two week resignation notice tomorrow! i’ve decided to quit nursing entirely and i got a job teaching math and science for middle schoolers, which is so exciting! it is a huge change for me, but i think it will be a good thing and hopefully put me in a better mind space to enjoy hobbies again💛

#my asks

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invisiblerhythmcat · 2 years

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we've hit the point of bad brain where I forget to eat a second after saying "I should eat" and identifying exactly what I will eat

this is tons of fun

#i've been having such good brain times lately #this sucks #like I can deal with it and i've had much much worse #but i was enjoying only having bad everything else times and having a semi-functional brain #and i'm 90% certain it's the stress of having navigate the stupid medical system #and the fact that I have no clue what to fucking do and want to give up #also having to help my dad through some awful paperwork and the person who's SUPPOSED to be helping him is just ignoring him #and like come on he's an old man who can't copy/paste #at least TRY to help him please?#guh #I would like my brain back please and thank you #it does not help knowing why it's gone when it's still gone

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yourmythicalbest · 6 months

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best rhett and link vocals in no specific order, according to me, a classically trained opera singer who still cares too much about rhett and link

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#rhett and link #good mythical morning #gmm #HEY RHETT AND LINK #UNPRIVATE THE SONGS FOR WHEN #AND ALL OF THE OTHER BITS YOU HAVE HIDDEN FROM MEEEEEE #LONG TIME NO SEE GUYS #so a lot of these are older or live because i think they sound a million times better without piles of pitch correction #but damn i just fucking love their voices #i miss the harmonies and their vocal blend #truth be told i've been listening to nonstop bee gees since 2020 and it makes my brain go brrrrrrr #because the vocal blend and harmonies are unparalleled #but fuck if rhett and link don't scratch that same itch for me #it's been really good to be on my rhett and link bullshit lately #and i figured if there was anyone still active that follows me here #i might pop in and say hi #and let you know i'm still alive and a fan #Youtube

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crescentfool · 11 months

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beaming everyone on the dashh with good brain day vibes!!! i hope that you all can remember to extend self-compassion to yourself whenever you're feeling down about something 💙

#lizzy speaks #the human brain works in such profound ways i think #lately i've been thinking about that post that was like 'you will always be your oldest friend take care of yourself'#it's definitely a sentiment i agree with and i appreciate how it emphasizes the importance of extending compassion to yourself #you wouldn't say such hurtful things to your friends right? (or at least i'd hope so)#so why would you say it to yourself?#you are your own friend too. and i think everyone has a beautiful soul within themselves. nurture it! water it! feed it good thoughts.#basically i wish everyone a 'i hope that your brain is not your own enemy but rather a friend that you can find comfort in'#things will work themselves out with time. there's beauty in life and you will find small delights to cherish!! i am manifesting it for u!!#and for those who find it difficult to transition from a self-critical mindset to one that's more compassionate and nonjudgmental #i truly think that with time you will be able to rewire your brain to be kinder to yourself. i'm proud of you for taking any first steps :)#there are times in which it feels counterintuitive to go against habits that feel hard-wired... but brains are very malleable littel guys-#with such a wonderful capacity for changing and learning new things. so i hope everyone can learn to be their own best friend!#not to undermine the importance of a support network ofc. that's good too and im all for that!! but i hope everyone remembers to be kind-#not only to others but also to themselves!! you're going to do great out there!! i love you all!!#ive just been thinking about this a lot... i needed to get it out there. you all shine so brightly!!! we shall be fine!!! have a good week!#sorry if this is out of nowhere but if there's anything about me you should know it's that i'm the 'hey dont cry 8 billion people on earth-#ok?' post. idk i just find great joy in knowing others are out there thriving and finding a daily delight yknow i love humanity!!

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heartshattering · 5 months

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5 AM

Just me and my overactive mind facing the nighttime again 🙃

#hopefully the meds work but while waiting for them to kick in I get so damn nervous #and sometimes I do get nights where even on my full dose my anxiety is too overpowering and I just. Do Not Sleep #I mean I do eventually but not without spiraling first :')#way before I was prescribed sleep meds my longest was 3 nights without sleep while on a VERY stressful trip #I felt like I was gonna die and I did not sleep until I got off the plane and was back at home #(this was like 15 years ago already but it still haunts me fhfgsgdh)#my best friend and I were having a conversation today #and she was like 'not sleeping can make you hallucinate right?'#and I was like :') I get the hallucinations in other scenarios too #BUT I also get what she meant #not sleeping is really bad for me mentally which is why I can't do 'sleep restriction therapy'#and fun fact #a lot of my OCD obsessions revolve around sleep!!!#which is 'awesome' because laying in bed with insomnia makes my OCD flare up so like #the two get to feed off each other and make my life a living hell!!!#and don't even get me started on my sleep paralysis episodes #(which I like to think of as just my brain misfiring but that my aunt tells me is saints or demons trying to talk to me)#'cause she hallucinates too but hers are like 'spiritual' or whatever #same with my mom's hallucinations as well #and to add fuel to the dumpster fire of my mind and body is the fact I've been overcaffeinating again #which I've known not to do ever since I was in middle school and saw the pediatric cardiologist who specifically said 'hey don't do that'#fast-forward to adulthood and I still haven't learned how to handle anything #like. I have heart meds and sleep meds and migraine meds and IBS meds #and yes meds are good but like. I know you need to incorporate lifestyle changes as well #which I do for like 2 weeks until the next time I fuck up #I've been so irresponsible lately but like. ESPECIALLY today #didn't eat #took some meds on an empty stomach and forgot to take my other ones at all #had too much caffeine #stressed out over some stupid situations thanks to overthinking

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dandyshucks · 5 months

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i like thinking about the weird little quirks i have (gestures and phrases and whatnot) and how Guz would find them delightful and silly and endearing

#giving thumbs-ups to things i think are good or enjoy #WHY DONT PPL GIVE THUMBS UP MORE #i didn't realize it wasnt a normal gesture to do when ppl say things until i finally noticed ppl laugh every time i do it #thats the main one I've been thinking abt today fjfkdl #i gave my new mint plant a thumbs up just an hour ago bc i watered it and it perked up within an hour #and i was so pleased and relieved that i was like... 🙂👍 at it NDJFKDL #idk what phrases i have rn fjdksl yippee and wahoo are big ones that i say automatically a lot lately #but im sure theres more fjfkdl i am a video game NPC i stg #it just... is easier on the brain when i can run automatic scripts for things fhfjdl #it doesnt make the words any less genuine! it is just a script i follow to express certain feelings!#dandy.cmd #💜so good at being in trouble

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boymounter · 10 months

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clothes shopping as a fat person is such a hostile environ. i need to go in there with a machete

#don't mind me just had a lengthy experience trying to find good fitting board shorts for swimming. eugh #the lady working at the fitting rooms asked me very nicely what size i was looking for after the third time in there #and then was like. ah. we don't stock over a 16 #not in a mean way just yeowch #but then the men's sizes go up to like 48“ waist which is so funny ○_○#anyway i did find some cute ones but god it's legitimately a bad bad trigger to try and pull on something that doesn't fit #and that in itself feels bad lol. smile #weirdly since the ritty i have been having less trouble with the lingering ed/dysmorphia from literally a decade ago but this just really #eugh.#i've even been eating healthier lately and getting back into cycling since my brain will fucking let me now #idk man i think society has some problems around bodily variation

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coollyinterferes · 8 months

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*taps mic; a certain gentleman is standing right beside him*

"Good evenin', everyone!! We're back!! Hope you didn't miss us much!"

"It sure hasn't been that long.... has it....?"

Uhhmmm....

#[shows up late with no st*rb*cks bc fuck those guys but HIIIII 8) ]#[*insert 'haven't been here since last year joke*]#[no but fr AAAAA i'm so sorry abt the silence!! as usual depression got my ass around mid-december due to Some Stuff irl]#[from there it's been all downs and just a few ups so i've been taking it slow and trying not to let it all get to me (much)]#[anyways hi hi hi. how have y'all been doing???]#[super late but i hope everyone had a wonderful holiday season!!]#[also sending you all the best of wishes for the new year!!!]#[i might not be able to post thread replies tonight but i'll be around for a bit working on some of them]#[i think i also had some pending asks last time??? so i might try to start from there]#[dumb brain is still all BLERGH but feel free to send in stuff if you wish!]#[prompted. unprompted. random. etc. all is good]#[hope you're all having a wonderful day/night/etc!!! <3]#;speedwagon says (( ic ))#;jonathan says (( ic ))#;ic #(????

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cherrymoonvol6 · 18 days

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#lately i've been going to twitter to get some lunter action bc most fanartists are there #and god it's just so annoying that over there they're stuck in a 5 day cycle of the same discourse over and over again #is it okay to ship this or is this a dirty nasty morally questionable proship? uwu #then the realization is 'yes lunter actually isn't a disgusting perverted proship which makes it okay to exists even if i HATE it'#and then two days later someone is like um akshually it's disgusting because incest and here we fucking go again #god. we need to extirp anyone under 16 years old from the internet. you have not developed enough brain matter to be on social media #(now if you're an adult unironically arguing in that discourse you either have a lot of free time or i just need to block you)#but man. like i wanna say to those lunter defenders..... can't you see what's wrong?#can't you see that the moment you've chosen to accept the premise of there being 'good' and 'reproachable' ships you've already lost?#that someone will always be able to pick a 'problematic' aspect in any ship ever?#that entertaining that idea from the beginning is the absolute worst thing you could do?#like i prefer when people call lunter boring. okay yeah i do Not see what you're seeing but also #thank fucking GOD we're bringing up actually relevant stuff here #like part of me is so fascinated about this. how murder seems to be the only thing that's accepted in media as a narrative tool #(and at some extent even that is too much)#but this yet again goes back to..... well what the fuck do you interact with fiction and media in the first place #when you're COMPLETELY unwilling to acknowledge any of these things as FICTION (not real) in the first place?#where your favorite character is the most morally correct and your favorite ship is the 'healthiest'?#i just wish we were able to talk about who the characters are and what their dynamic means in the show you know #instead of recycling the same reasons why it's morally 'okay' to be interested in them over and over and over and over and over and over and

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mars-ipan · 26 days

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this is gonna sound incredibly virtue signal-y i fear but i have been feeling. so fiercely protective of all the transfems i've ever met lately

#marzi speaks #I PROMISE I'M NOT TRYING TO EARN GOOD BOY POINTS HOLD ON LET ME. EXPLAIN MYSELF HERE #obvs we're in kinda a tense political climate rn #and i'm noticing trends have been getting . increasingly misogynistic lately?#in like . a subtle but for sure still noticeable way #and women are being dismissed and all this awful shit #and ppl are going. completely mask off about it when the woman happens to be a trans gender #and it reminds me of when i was a little girl. and how my mom spent so much time in my childhood #training me to not stand for and take misogynistic bullshit from anyone. and to defend other women too #she taught me to assert myself in professional or academic environments. she taught me to stand proud and take up physical space #once as a kid my great uncle (who's always been a nut) didn't let me come on a fishing trip because i was a girl #when i came to my mom crying about it because i loved boats and fishing and my family she just about murdered him. completely tore into him #my whole life my mom has been there to tell me that people will try to put me down. they will try to overlook me or dismiss me #or make me feel smaller. and if i dare to get too confident i'll be labeled bossy or a bitch #and that no matter what i do i cannot let those pieces of shit win. i cannot let that stop me #and that i'd have to fight so fucking hard for it my whole life and it won't be fair but i will do it because i have no other option #and i'm seeing a lot of transfems having to navigate that now too #but they didn't get the privilege of being trained in this since day 1. they have to figure it out on their own #and the demonization right now is so strong that a single misstep can be. so dangerous #and it makes me so mad. all of that built up anger from every time i've had to learn how to not take misogynistic bullshit comes to a boil #the little girl scout in my brain who grew up forcing people to see that a girl can do whatever the fuck she wants fuck you is ACTIVE rn #she's angry. she's so angry. because she's seeing the same bullshit she dealt with in middle school being repeated again #anyways. transfems. i love you so much. you deserve so much fucking better.#i hope you can safely advocate for yourself. until then i will fucking yell and scream from the rooftops because this shit is so unfair #you should be allowed to succeed and you should be allowed to fail. and you should be allowed to take up as much goddamn space as you want #and wear whatever the hell you want. transfems i love you and i am so so angry on your behalf. modern feminism has failed you #and i am going to kill someone over it #remember to be loudly and unapologetically yourself as much as you safely can. do not let them crush your spirit

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ereborne · 9 months

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Song of the Day: January 11

"It's Still Rock and Roll to Me" by Billy Joel

#song of the day #so late today. the sun'll be up pretty soon #I was very busy watching Duncan play Spyro and letting my brain thump around on spin cycle #I haven't written anything worth looking twice at since i was so sick in December and it's been worrying me a bit #but if my full day's preoccupation is anything to judge by I will be writing again quite soon #just in time too I did see Del tagged me in a WIP Wednesday. maybe by next Wednesday I will have progressed a work to share #anyway this is today's song because I'm trying to make sure I remember to get a copy of it #it played on the radio and Duncan and Lily and I all got to sing along (always so good to sing with my siblings)#and there were plenty of songs we sang all together (lots of Adele. good shit) but this one I don't have and I really enjoy singing #and every now and then (especially around the family) it plays and I think 'oh shit! I still need to get a copy of that onto my computer!'#and so far I've forgotten every time #but this time I'm making a particular note! I will remember it! if not this weekend then at the very very latest at the end of this year #when I make a big playlist of all the Songs of the Day and I hit Jan 11th and my search pulls up empty and I curse myself for a fool again #dear future-Alexis: you are welcome for the reminder!

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heartshattering · 2 months

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I'll be happy if I can sleep at least

#brain is so damn loud ughfhfh #I'm overthinking everything #I have a doctor's appointment in 2 days and I'm praying he re-prescribes my sleep aid......#I don't feel ready to come off it yet even though I have been taking less than before #my brain is still so overactive at night #I have found some things that help me but other times I just get overwhelmed #I'm sorry I just don't want to be awake and anxious all night when there's so much on my mind #my clothes aren't coming until after Saturday and I'm gonna try to go out on Saturday morning #and all my current clothes look bad on me #I've been trying to keep cleaning and it's overwhelming :')#everything just feels impossible you know?#like I'm sick of trying to get help from people irl and no one actually wanting to help #doctors treat me like a freak #therapists tell me not to come back #I don't have much of a support system and I'm realizing now that my friend is a shitty person #I just tolerated her for longer than I needed to but it's become so obvious lately what kind of person she is #I don't feel good about my looks and I feel like I've forgotten how to socialize #I'm just nervous all the time #sleepy meds are kicking in now though

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youredreamingofroo · 4 months

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Living life happily knowing that I love listening to all kinds of music, that I don't restrict my listening experience and try listening to as many artists and genres as I can- Even if I don't know if I'll like it, I still try it because at least then I tried, and didn't back out. There's not a lot of moments in my life where I can comfortably try and not back out because I get nervous or uncomfortable.

#I've been finding a lot of new songs lately and new artists. also have been listening to more artists.#I never listened to Kendrick before but I'm giving his music a listen right now and its soooo good #< Altho I have had “All The Stars” rotting my brain for like 4-5 years now 😭 so I HAVE listened to him b4-#-i just haven't dedicated some time to listen to his other songs #i love expanding my music taste. it feels good listening to new music #also im finding a lot of songs that I've heard before in tiktoks/reels and stuff and its so fun to just go “😨🫵IVE HEARD THAT BEFORE!!!”#“what's ur favorite genre?” All of them. I like music in so many genres. dont make me choose #I also found an artist who resides in Seattle. WA! Which was superrr cool!#I believe you should be open to as many genres as possible. But I do NOT expect ppl who listen to someone like Ethel Cain-#-To be able to listen to and enjoy someone like Asteria (both incredibly contrasting genres/beats/music)#But I do think you should TRY other music. even if its out of your general genres #srry for the rant 😭 Music is my passion or wtv #yapping

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cyellolemon · 1 year

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the oc only to oc & multifandom transition im doing this year sure is something

#i've been an oc artists since.. since the beggining of my art journey #and lately i've done so many fanarts what #ok i know i posted mostly detco but i started doing more these days #and i won't post before some times because i post my drawings on kofi first then 1 or 2 months after on social media #but trust me i started to draw for more fandom #it's a big change so it's scary but i have fun #it feels good to be able to draw my fav characters #i just couldn't before #brain won't let me #anyway!!!

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moinsbienquekaworu · 6 months

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How have I been in fandom for - going on 8 years (?) and not gotten into fanvids before?? All the association I could have been making.... All the memories.... All the composition and clever editing....

#going a little bit insane frankly #it's been about a month of absolute and utter mcu frenzy in my brain and i'm. vibrating #truly feels like some kind of intense fever at times #i've rewatched talitha78's set fire to the rain vid so many times it entrances me #it's to the point where every time i see that shot of loki grabbing mjolnir i hear 'you rose to claim it'#btw hello 13 years late to the party but like. 20 seconds in and i felt like that vid unlocked something in my artist brain #no because the lyrics are 'i let it fall / my heart / and as it fell / you rose to claim it' right #and so she puts clips of thor being banished and losing mjolnir and then loki trying to grab it #which. the interaction between the song and the video making mjolnir thor's heart.... not even 20 seconds!!#it's so clean to me #it's like when i actually took a good look at bill cipher's design and realised he had such expressive potential #and i had to do like a page of doodles about it #in 20 seconds that fanvid from 2011 made me want to make animatics so so bad #which btw i watched it partly because a fic i liked cited it as an inspiration #and partly because i looked at the dates #and realised that the creator put it out like not even two weeks after the movie came out??#absolutely insane. i love this so much #this is like having a family heirloom in your hands #grandma lending me the necklace she wore to her first date with grandpa for my anniversary dinner or something #i have just entered a new fandom and the fans who were here before are showing me what it was like when they'd just arrived too #the sacred texts and such also #anyway. man i love fandom.#wow i have a ramble tag now

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arklay · 2 years

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WIP DAY.

tagged by @girlbosselrond @morvaris @aartyom @risingsh0t @phillipsgraves @leviiackrman @indorilnerevarine & @denerims over the past month! sorry it's taken me so long to get to anything at all, i'm sure you guys have heard me address it enough, but thank you all so much for continuing to tag me in things while i've been inactive ♡

tagging @aelyosos @brujah @calenhads @florbelles @jendoe @lightwardens @liurnia @nokstella @nuclearstorms @shadowsofrose @shellibisshe @steelport @swordcoasts @wrymbloods @voerman & all of those who tagged me again cause i'm so behind + anyone else who'd like to share anything they're working on, not just writing! ♡

i haven't written anything since the last wip game i did, but i started trying to put diana's timeline together at the start of january, so i mean... i'll show that instead. as you can see, fatigue hasn't let me do much with it even though i've got all of her timeline already done and strewn about all over the place.

started with 1995 onwards cause it was originally going to be an ewskers timeline situation, but then wanted to include all of her backstory so i went back to the start and still have the late 80s and early 90s to get through before then, but yeah :]

it's going to include like all little moments i've thought of between the ewskers just for me and placing them on the timeline, so you can imagine how long this is going to get if i have to go to 2021 for village... like just 1996-1998 is going to be so much... she's very special to me if you couldn't tell already lmaoo

never sharing this though, it's just for me, and like will help for when i do her timeline page (more in-depth version of what's on her oc page) to just run through canon events and brief descriptions and whatnot. you understand.

everything is blurred out besides 1995 ewskers momence and the years, just cause like idk her i feel weird sharing her in-depth backstory unless it's in dms or something, just cause there's lots going on there and yeah. things. idk

i also made a carrd for twt if you wanna have a look at that :] there's some cheeky subtle things with the two resi items i used as pics hehe

actually, you know what, i'll give a lil bit from where i left of with that rewrite anyways, even though it's been months since i wrote it. but why not

Wesker left a fleeting kiss behind her ear then reached around her and hooked his fingers beneath her coat, prompting Diana to glance back at him. But all he did was gently pull it from her shoulders. She watched him from out of the corner of her eye as he hung it up on the rack by the door, his movements careful and almost calculated, until he turned back towards her, and the warmth of his body returned once more. He pressed up against her side this time, as opposed to her back, and one of his hands found a home on her waist. The way the arm it belonged to was resting firmly against her as he began leading her towards the kitchen was comforting, secure, yet unmistakably possessive. And she revelled in it. He had quite the knack for handling her just the way she wanted.

#tag games.#keep going to do picrews and just zoning out 😭 i'm so behind on literally everything but it's fine it's okay (lying)#i'm having a day and a half even though i woke up feeling okay but oh well. my last month has just been like watching videos during the day #or playing games when i have a bit more energy but like i can't do anything that requires me to actually read or write things like words #are just not computing in my brain at the moment but it's okay like i'm just exhausted and hoping soon i can get back to writing because i #still have over 30 wips going lmao but yeah it's been a time a half with lots of appointments and seeing specialists again and trying to #sort things out. i've been more active on twitter which i've mentioned before but it's just because like it's easier for me to sort of just #like and rt things and not having to do my organisation tags and things like i know that sounds so just small and simple but that's how #i've been lately like to my brain rn that seems like a really big task. so i just keep coming on here randomly for a few minutes then #disappearing so i'm sorry that i've definitely missed so much and i haven't been around to just show my appreciation and love to your #creations!! also just everything that happened in december and then a bit at the start of january too like i'm just a lil paranoid about #being on here honestly so i'm trying to get back to it and be okay with posting again and i'm going to make a promise to myself to actually #filter more tags i think? just to help me with like not exposing myself to things that do make me feel uncomfortable in any way!! i'm #rambling now but sorry sometimes i just need to lmaooo idk but yes so cute lil subtle things from my carrd i wanna talk about cause why not #i didn't have to change the blue herb from re0 besides making it brighter because it's already teal toned which is so sexy but i shifted #the hue on the spade key like SLIGHTLY like it was so little. but anyways. i use this emoji ✨ on my twitter name and yes cause sparkles but #also. three stars. the s.t.a.r.s. badge and logo :] then blue herb because i will have no poison in my safe space!!!! take a blue herb or #leave please!! only good vibes and safe space here!! spade key because i'm ace <3 i was going to include the diamond one in there as well #because am demiro and like those are the symbols in the community. ace of spades for ace. diamond for demis (both orientations)#but wasn't sure how to weave the pink through the rest of the carrd even though cyan and pink together is so pretty omg

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