#idk if it counts but to be safe lol

[crybaby-bkg]

tw: kenjaku so. angst.

his skull cracks open, and you’re not really sure if you believe your eyes at the moment. if they’re betraying you, unknowingly. if it’s your mind conjuring up something only from a nightmare, something to scare you. that if you blink long enough, he’ll still be standing there. whole. his scalp attached to his skin, his grin less leery, his eyes soft.

but he doesn’t. you open your eyes and he still stands there, holding the top of his head as if in offering to you. the skin is pale. you can see the veins in his forehead throb with the exposed air, wriggling as if they, too, know that they shouldn’t breathe the same breaths as you.

“See? I’m still the same person,” he says, this stranger in your home, in your bed, between your thighs, sharing a shower, in your kitchen, in your home. he sounds the same and yet he doesn’t; smiles the same and yet it’s too tight; stands the same and yet too rigid; eyes still soft and yet all seeing through your very flesh.

“Stranger,” you whisper. “Imposter.”

“More like a roommate coexisting in the same space.” He says, his hands offered to you, still, like communion. Like his body the bread and the blood that stills in his veins, the wine.

Is it conversion he wants? Does he expect you to drop to your knees and kiss his detached scalp like some royal back of hand? like some godly foot? like some dirty altar stained in crimson and gore and wreckage from the demon that has invaded it?

Bur Getou—can you even call him that anymore?—only smiles, teeth too white, mouth too wide—if you look too far into it, you’re scared it might devour you—cocks his scalp-less head at you. his brain tips. his brain smiles at you with teeth it should not have. his eyes run with tears and yet he smiles. smiles so big at you that you take a step back, in horror, fear, at the agonizing realization that things have been wrong for a long, long time now.

“Welcome me home, now would you, my love?” He says, drops the scalp as if it means nothing. it rolls to your feet, the silkiness of his hair tickling your toes. all you can do is scream, before he’s embraces you.

[deltaruminations]

here’s a loosely speculative and rambly queer reading of dess that i sort of accidentally wrote just now. enjoy ?? ?

the more i think on it the more i think like. yeah noelle might very well be canonically a transgirl. as a lot of people have speculated, we might get the subtext when the mayor and dess are revealed to be does without antlers — we have the “horned girl and her sister” line, and it does seem a little odd that the story is so far withholding information on the mayor or dess’s appearances. and aside from the confirmation just being dope as hell on its own merits, i also think it might matter in relation to dess’s possible conflicts as a metaphorically queer person in a small town, maybe specifically with her mother

because the thing is, queerphobia literally doesn’t exist in utdr’s universes as far as we can tell. it doesn’t make sense for their mom to be angry with dess for being trans, gay, or GNC, because being those things isn’t considered rebellious or deviant in this world — it’s perfectly within the range of normal. it fits within her mother’s worldview. noelle is a trans lesbian and as far as we can tell it’s perfectly fine; their mom probably wouldn’t be upset either way if dess continued to be her daughter or came out as her son or as her nonbinary child. the mayor herself is gender-nonconforming — a tough, powerful woman in a position of high authority who can punch a man so hard that he blacks out.

but that doesn’t mean there can’t still be queer-flavored conflicts — perhaps a parent upset with her child for pursuing hobbies and passions that she thinks are inappropriate for her, that aren’t in line with what she understands or respects; for not dressing or behaving or growing up in the ways she thinks her children should. a parent angry with her child for not following rules that, in her mind, are in the child’s best interests to follow — rules that she thinks should protect dess from a world that just Wouldn’t Be Kind To Someone Like Her. a parent feeling personally attacked when her child chooses a new name for herself, rejecting the one she gave to her. a parent feeling hurt and abandoned when the person her child chooses to be in the world isn’t the person she expected or wanted.

to very briefly speculate on specifics: consider the possibility that, while rudy and noelle only ever refer to dess by her chosen name, the mayor may insist on calling her “december.” and, while it does make sense in-universe for someone to suspect the worst from dess’s vanishing, consider the imagery of a parent possibly considering her young adult child “dead” after that person made choices for herself that she found frightening and confusing.

noelle, while arguably just as “queer” as dess (see her quiet fascination with the weird and strange, and her desire to be closer with both susie and kris, both characters who, aside from being literally queer, are also very metaphorically queer in their own rights) might be avoiding this conflict by essentially “closeting” herself around her mom — minimizing herself as a form of self-preservation (for example, stifling her emotional outbursts while playing video games so her mom doesn’t know she’s playing them). this is of course oppressive to her, as well — it’s simply that noelle has traditionally prioritized her safety, while dess may have prioritized her liberty. dess, while perhaps not literally queer like noelle, is metaphorically “out,” and while being out has its own rewards, it may have cost her their mom’s sympathy and respect.

none of this is to preemptively demonize the mayor — we haven’t even met her yet — but to speculate on a possible character flaw that could reasonably have driven dess away, and may be redeemed over the course of the story. the mayor may need to redeem herself before dess can, or is willing to, return.

and i don’t think it’s just her mom. i think her mom, as the town’s mayor, might be in part representative of dess’s relationship to the town itself — a small, insular community that dess feels limits her choices and opportunities, especially as a young adult with big dreams. we know she dreamed of taking noelle to the big city someday.

…something i think about a lot is the line about dess wearing asriel’s jacket — how classically Straight and heteronormative that imagery is. to be clear, that’s not in any way meant as a knock on the legitimacy of dess and asriel’s relationship itself (i have some more nuanced thoughts on dessriel, and the value it has thematically or whatever, that i don’t really think are really relevant here. but i don’t think dessriel is in any way bad LOL), nor does it mean that i think asriel or their relationship is necessarily heteronormative in the literal sense (asriel himself is arguably GNC from the little bit we currently know about him).

it’s more that the framing here seems to emphasize how traditional and exceedingly “normal” the relationship was considered to be, something that may have been at odds with dess’s interests and ambitions as a young, “queer” person. asriel is quite literally the boy next door — sweet, nice, non-threatening. they grew up together; their parents and little siblings are close friends. they’re a boy and a girl in a perfect narrative position to date — hiro and mari — so of course they did. who else would she have dated? pizzapants? meangirl bratty? i could see her feeling boxed in to that option, among so many other options she felt she never had a real say in. asriel may be a great boyfriend, healthy and stable and exceedingly normal, but who’s to say she wanted “normal”? what if she wanted something queer?

if we think about why dess might have run away, why she would have wanted to escape, and why she might have found the fantasy of the dark worlds so captivating that she lost herself to them, i think this could be one way to read into it. dess is — at least metaphorically — a young, queer person, lonely and existentially bored in a small town that cares about her but, from her perspective, doesn’t seem to really understand her, doesn’t give her the option to really be who she wants to be. maybe she just wanted to find another queer person like her. and, who knows — maybe she did.

[radisyn]

Day 4 of @hot-glenn-holidays-2023 them "Naughty or Nice". idk why the first one wound up so Grinchy but I figured it fit with the theme. I imagine a rock version of "You're a Mean One, Mr. Grinch" over it

(also: what are butts anyway?? personally I have never heard of em nor do I apparently know what they look like despite using a photo reference so yes I am aware he is like *ludicrously* caked up but I tire of fiddling with it so here goes lolol)

[the-kiarah-organisation]

Oh wait hold on, forgot to post this earlier

Info under the cut!

A False God And The Destruction Of Your Fake Promises.

| Layton

My plan going in was to try and capture how it feels to summon and create the dragon I call Ash, they're one of my more common illusions.

I wanted to make the energy and light a little more abstract, I had a lot of fun testing out the lighting too. This drawing is pretty much done with two colours, although, I used overlay and add layers, plus a dark blue layer to add depth to the background.

Text from the Official Art section of my SimplyPlural profile.

Subject(s): Layton, Ash (summon)

Time taken: Three hours

Artists: Layton

I really want to get better at drawing people, but I had a lot of fun with this one. I only had half a plan going in, and that was the quote I used as the title.

Overall, pretty happy with it! May do more with my common illusions in future, like I really want to draw Zahara and Skye.

[devilishdelights]

“lucifer i’ve got a migraine” you say

“okay. come here” he says and drills a fucking hole right into your skull

you sigh in relief. “thank you.”

[lexezombie]

(cw: scary pic sorry I can't blur on tumblr)

Guys there's this weird guy in here : ( I'm scared

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Alt crispier version lol

this is edited from a shitty pic of me in the dark taken from my discord webcam lol

[camping-with-monsters]

🌀HE’S GONNA GET’CHA!🌀

[unending-cycle]

ive noticed the venom thats always present when you say my name .

ive noticed the disdainful looks whenever i announce myself .

ive noticed how you talk about me when i am not in the room and yet im still aware .

and yet you say you love me ?

and yet you expect me to love you ?

you always saw me as the evil one .

and perhaps its time i act like it .

[headgehug]

creature will be well dressed when it spawns. pattern here!!

[coquelicoq]

hugo really doing his darnedest to make sure i learn at least three different french words for "shithole"

[starlingskulls]

they're at mad at me island i should cvt

[lesbianmaxevans]

Rachel’s 1.5k celebration ◈  favorite ship(s) + colors for @helloyona

#1 - Max Evans & Liz Ortecho, Roswell, New Mexico #2 - Kay Daniels & Cameron Black, Deception #3 - Gina Porter & Ricky Bowen, High School Musical: The Musical: The Series #4 - Sophie Moore & Ryan Wilder, Batwoman #5 - Ned “Nick” Nickerson & George Fan, Nancy Drew #6 - Macy Vaughn & Harry Greenwood, Charmed #7 - Claudette Williams & Jharrel Mateo, 4400 #8 - Nikita Mears & Ryan Fletcher, Nikita #9 - Dennis Soong & Althea Shen-Soong, Kung Fu #10 - Akeno “Aki” Menzies & Audrey Hope & Max Wolfe, Gossip Girl (HBO)

[queencvbra]

I think I might do a softblocking spree soon. I don't like doing those but I'm at the point again where the amount of people following me versus the amount of people who actually try to interact with me is disproportionate and it's just. Not comfortable for me.

[resonabilis-echo]

i think i might have ocd

[euclydya]

i hate this like.... constant need to have reassurance that we aren't Annoying or A Bad Person or anything. What the fuck

[novadreii]

I've always been so attracted to smart men, but I'm also starting to realize I may need to deviate from that preference because it's maybe part of the problem. I've dated two engineers, a pre-med who is now a doctor, and a QA tester. All of them brilliant in terms of understanding logic, spatial reasoning, physics, memorization, pattern recognition, etc.

All of them could pick up any logic-based game and get the gist almost instantly. I find it sooooo attractive to be with a man who can teach me things I don't know, whose brain works like lightning at stuff that I am not naturally gifted with.

Sadly, where all of these men lacked was in emotional intelligence. They started off great, but then over time it became clear they found my emotions and need for connection on that level to be tiresome, confusing and not worth the effort of trying to understand, because emotions aren't logic-based which is where their gifts are.

The pre-med student was actually the best of the bunch and really loved me and tried his damndest to get me on a deep level, but it was clear his career would always be his #1 love and while that's fine, it's not what I'm looking for in a partner.

I think the next guy I date should be of like...a simpler variety? Like me? Not that I think I am stupid, or that any of these men were overall smarter than me. I am just more of a generalist, a street smarts kind.

Maybe someone who is not such a raging intellectual? I wish I could have both, because while the IQ is what forcefully attracts me to someone, what makes someone interesting and exciting, it's the EQ that I need to feel safe and loved in the long run. And I haven't really known any men, even platonically, who possessed both in the quantities that make me want to be with them long-term.