#idk it's 2 am and i'm gonna go touch some grass

[eroswmorals]

about me :)) (tw: flashing at the bottom i put blinkies there)

Call me Eros (or Sparrow since that's what I go by irl)

My otherkin sideblog is @that-dog-is-so-gender

My weird fan sideblog is @susan-stanleycup lmao I made it to torment my bf

I post my art very inconsistently, but if you wanna see it, it can all be found under the tag #artists on tumblr (no guarantee it'll be good lol especially as you find the older shit)

My original posts are under the tag #eros says shit

He/it/dae

Transmasc

Bi and aspec (grayromantic, graysexual, aplspec, afamilial)

Minor 18+ blogs don't follow

'MURICAN 🦅🦅

DM's are open to mutuals only

I am not in a place where I can donate anything, I am a minor

I'm bilingual and know English and Spanish but English is my first language (I've been going to bilingual schools since I was like 6) so that's fun

DNI if you're younger than 13

DNI homophobes, transphobes, aphobes, terfs, racists, sexists, MAPS (pedophiles. yall cant hide behind an acronym), transracial ppl idk, etc. Bigoted assholes can kindly fuck off, thank you ;)

I support furries and otherkins and therians and all that jazz so if you don't like that ig just deal with it? Touch grass? Doesn't rly matter if you see ppl on the internet just being themselves it's not a personal attack.

I block freely and if I don't like your vibe I'm gonna do that

All the extra stuff is under the keep reading thing bc it's long and painful to read. If you don't wanna read it some of the fandoms I'm in are specified in the tags <2

All the shit I like:

Stuff I watch - Helluva Boss - Brandon Rogers - DEADPOOL MOVIES!!!!!! AGHJAKJHGFCDFGHJ - X-Men '97 - The New Mutants (the movie sucked but it has a special place in my heart, ok? I love Rahne Sinclair) - Supernatural (I'm on season 9 rn) - Good Omens - Dead Boy Detectives

Musicals I like: - Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street (2007) - RHPS - Cabaret (1998) - Falsettos - West Side Story - Beetlejuice - Addams Family - Prolly more I forgot to list but those are my faves

Music I like (not including musicals): - Remo Drive - Mitski - Fall Out Boy - NOAHFINNCE - MCR - boygenius - IDKHBTFM - Jack Stauber - The Amazing Devil - Queen - Billy Joel - Green Day - Tom Petty

Hobbies ig - Sewing - Drawing - Making kandi (although my bf does it better he's the bead master he taught me his ways and I am but a lowly bead wench compared to his bead mastery) - Building shit - I write a little bit of poetry and I'm proud of it but I don't show people it often and it's shitty but oh well - Flower arranging (god I'm just pulling things out of my ass atp) - Sobbing into my pillow over the full moon episode - Makeup - Fashion design - Idk being a furry? Drawing them? Wearing my dino mask is fun I like to bite things with it it's very nice

Characters I kin (not in a fictionkin way but I do support y'all) - Crowley (Good Omens) - Stolas (Helluva Boss) - Blitz (Helluva Boss) - Dean Winchester (Supernatural) - Castiel (Supernatura) - Deadpool (All media. He's my babygirl)

I'm like always adding to this lol

[heygerald]

GERALD 👺 i have finally,, FINALLY,, managed to catch up to chapters 11 and 12...... and ohmygod. i am floored. I CANT STOP GIGGLING HOLY FUCK 😭

first of all they all came out nicely :] it just seems as if the space where parker and tom reside in my heart keeps getting Bigger and BIGGER the more i read from FWAH 😋 like seriously!!!!!!! i am about to combust into a fireworks display of flowers and butterflies i think

second of all, flawless writing as always. you just never miss! never ever!! you're one of the big leagues for me rn like u dont understanddddd i devour ur writing so much. so so much. (not sure if that makes any sense but ok)

THIRD of all.... (exhales heavily) i am in a conflict of emotions bcoz 1.) the next chapter is the last chapter of act 1 and we all know where that leads now, dont we? haha 🥺 and 2.) idk if im ready to let go of fluffy ryvers yet :(((((

gonna have to allot a time for a third rewatch of the fall guy just to prepare myself for the heartbreak and ofc, to gear up for act 2 of FWAH hehe 😋 hope ur having a great day, g! sorry this got so long too 😭

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Bub, I am so happy that 1) you liked it, 2) you thought that Ryvers was fluffy even when they're struggling with Tom being a dick (bc let's face it a lot of their relationship is gonna be speed bumps as he relearns how not to be an asshole), and 3) that you think I am a good writer blows my mind. I really do be going at each chapter with the loosest plot line ever in mind, so the fact that it still comes across well is just what I needed to hear.

The next chapter is gonna be a big one and I don't want to write it hehe but also when things get to the movie plotline I am so excited to give everyone the Colt/Parker team up that we've been needing, so there's some stuff to be happy about in the midst of the other not-so-happy stuff.

I think I'll be moving to a biweekly release schedule from here on out so I don't get so hard on myself with the chapters. Plus, it's officially New England camping season now that September is here and your girl needs to connect with nature and touch some grass on the regular now that I've survived the blistering summer heat. But worry not! I have the entire story charted, as well as an intensive plot-line for the whole Tom Ryder being a psychotic asshole work around that keeps him true-ish to his character while also making him, you know, likeable so I'm hype to start incorporating that as well.

For the eagle-eyed readers, we will be solving the mystery of "who gave Tom her phone number" very shortly, so keep an eye out for that as well!

And honestly just so much love to you guys!!!!!

[morroodle]

Towards the end of day 4 of top surgery recovery and figured I'd share how it's going. Idk if this can help anyone else but its at least going to help me. Prepare for out of order chaos

The pain isn't too bad! Like yea it hurts but I got used to it and I can take pain meds to help

Getting out of bed is a pain in the ass though. Going from laying down to sitting up is HARD (it's definitely not because I have no abs)

Speaking of pain: the drains. They don't hurt by themselves but when I shift wrong and they tug? Not fun. Not sure how to explain it but pinching isn't inaccurate

Drain fluid. Does not smell good. It's not a very strong smell and you get used to it pretty fast but it's still not fun

I also. Do not smell good. God I can't wait to shower

My mom spilled the drain fluid on me. Twice. Ew.

It's fuckn ITCHY. Always just below where I can reach through the bandages. I am going to kill someone.

Other itches are annoying too. They may not be covered by bandages but with such limited mobility it's annoying. I got a back scratcher but those don't help much when you can barely move your arms

I've probably been moving more than I'm supposed to

Love it when I move wrong and suddenly there's pain and a very suspicious warm feeling and I can't check to see what's wrong because of the bandages

Bendy straw my beloved <333 the $20 ninjago cup I got from legoland is finally making itself worth it

The first day I was incredibly nauseous. I could barely sit up for a few minutes, much less stand. Made eating dinner... not easy.

Day 2 I was feeling great! Even touched some grass!

Day 3 morning: nearly threw up when changing my shirt. I didn't but oh god it was not fun. I've never been nauseous like that before, I was hot inside but my skin was cold and my mom said the color very literally drained from my face. Made me stuck in a chair for like 20 minutes until I could stomach going back to bed.

I'm fine now (probably)

I've been enjoying being taken care of. I'm lucky enough to have a very good support system and I appreciate it. I also appreciate always getting my pic of food >:D

God I want a hug. I'm gonna get so squished once I'm healed and I fully accept my fate

Mentioning again my hatred for the drains. I was very scared of them going into this, I didn't like the idea of having tubes both in and out of my body. I don't really care about that now, I don't see it and I've gotten used to it, but god they are so annoying

I'm not nearly as tired as I was expecting! Sure I'm a bit sleeper than normal but it's really not that bad.

I'm bored

I wanna draw ;-; I havent had motivation or ideas for weeks but the moment it becomes inconvenient? Release the floodgates!

I haven't actually noticed the lack of boobs much yet. Maybe it's because they're still bandaged and I can't see or maybe it's because I live in my mastectomy pillow but I haven't really had a rush of emotions yet

It's kinda weird. I was expecting to feel so much but everything so far just feels so... normal? It's not normal but I've gotten used to it. Its like I'm waiting for my emotions to catch up

That being said there is one thing I've noticed and definitely felt things about. I had a pretty big chest and there used to be quite a dip between them and now there's just... nothing. It's flat. I'm sure this is just a fraction of what I'll feel when I get the bandages off for the first time but this tiny bit that I can see and feel right now is... wow. It's weird. God I can't wait for the rest of it

That's all I can think of for now, I'll keep yall updated on how things go from here and hopefully this can help someone! I know most of this has been complaining but I am not trying to discourage anyone from this, I've just only experienced the bad parts so far. I'm sure I'll make a similar post listing all the positives once I get there but for now things aren't very fun

[gunsatthaphan]

EM and FK fans are fighting on Twitter because of Moonlight Chicken... and I kinda get both sides, it is true that EM series had a lot less promotion compared not only to Eclipse but a lot other GMMTV series, and there were some toxic FK fans demandig way too much in regard of Alan and Kaipa for MLC, and things escalated today cuz the screenwriter of MLC, wich is tha SAME as Only Friends thing I discovered today myself and I think a lot don't know, made a post for MLC regarding FK and EM fans got mad asking why he is "promoting" them and not EM, demanding also why he is not promoting EM more in a very disrespectfull way...

to be fair this fight could be a way to talk about the show to make people tune in for the drama of the fandom idk... but it is sad that this fights have to start, like the one for VV with ON stans and JS stans; considering that all this actors are all very close friends especially First Khaotung and Mix and it frustrate me that this fights always have to start making a crack in the fandoms and bringing a shadow over a show cuz a lot of people will remember only that of the show...

sorry for the rant I didn't know where to express this cuz even tho I have basically no follower on twitter I am always scared people will turn on me and tweeting about a fught triggers my anxiety but I still wanted to express my frustration, cuz I am SO EXITED for both MLC wich I have been waiting for for months and Only Friends wich with only a trailer literally stole my heart

thank you if you read this and also for being a really nice person, and one of the biggest FirstKhao stans here the boys deserve all the love, and EarthMix too

sigh.... fandom fights are nothing new so I'm not surprised but the FK-EM thing sounds ridiculous to me.

I don't really want to get involved but to say FK are getting more promotion than EM is not quite true. Atots is still one of the biggest gmm shows and got tons of promotion back then. And it's about to get a revival once our skyy 2 airs. cupids last wish was a bit of a fail but only because Disney was involved so there wasn't much buzz around it at gmm. The Eclipse is FK's first show and I wouldn't say it's getting more promotion than atots back then. EM got fixed after atots and so did FK after the eclipse so isn't that equal? I think so. (this isn’t directed against you btw but against the twitter population lol)

The thing about FK stealing EM's thunder in MLC does seem a bit more reasonable to me, but also--- what bullshit lmao. MLC is EM's show so do these people seriously think FK are gonna steal the show or something? I guarantee you, they're gonna be in like 2 episodes and that's it lmao. People need to chill. And to attack the screenwriter? Nah sis. go touch some grass.

But yeah this rings a bell regarding ON during VV. The fact that the episodes where ON had an appearance got 5x more views than the rest and then people commenting things like "there wasn't enough ON in VV" drove me up the walls lmao. That being said, I hope this won't be the case for FK in MLC. I have not received the FK fandom as toxic so far and I hope it doesn't get worse than what you mentioned.

But anyway I can't be bothered to genuinely be upset about all this so let's just.... ignore it lmao. I'm gonna watch MLC in peace, get excited to see EM in the spotlight again, enjoy the FK screentime and call it a day lmao. Both EM and FK are wonderful pairings and they deserve the same amount of love so let's leave it at that ✌🏻

xxx

[sincelastsession]

I've missed telling you things. But I'm stoned and I honestly don't want to remember.

How are lobotomies these days? Can they sever instead of do a nerve block to my lizard brain that keeps screaming DANGER DANGER DANGER? Is this an option? Do I need that part of my brain?

Travis is getting his drummer friend to find me noise canceling 🎧

They asked how quiet I needed it to be.

I told Travis "I don't want to hear a bomb go off" "Deafen me bröther"

So maybe that will help.

My mom wants to go to lunch tomorrow and look at garden homes. 🙃 I am scared I'll lose my shit because she presses my buttons like only a mother can. Just huge trigger if she's not calm and patient with me. She just had a huge fight with me about how she didn't want Mexican food because the Guatemalan ppl can't cook...and was acting like a racist petulant child.

I convinced her to go to spoke and hub. Then she will have a new restaurant to hate on I guess.

I wish the chill part of me would take over tomorrow but I feel like it's gonna be the take no shit manager and firefighters. I don't want that to happen but it's like so second nature to react to crap.

Yeah a nerve block sounds FANTASTIC

Honestly I'm constantly taking a leftover Adderall for a future session so you can see the difference and God maybe we can write a letter to the medical board and maybe my psychiatrist can just continue to write it. I only take 5mg max a day split up into 2.5mg doses...so I really don't see how taking that during the day with my xanax daily meds that oddly don't conflict and then just smoke my weed before bed.

But the problem is its 3 substances that are usually never prescribed together. They just happen to be the best combo for me and I'm a different person on it. I can hold a conversation.

Maybe the medical board would approve it if I could state my case and show them the difference?

Idk I just miss when I was a more functional person.

I have agoraphobia so bad some days I literally cry by my door because I can't leave.

But other days I want to go wandering around by myself in the woods.

I feel like a guy sometimes like that's weird because I do identify as female but yeah get moments of feeling like a man...I feel like I could maybe draw what the parts of me look like in minds eye.

Sometimes I feel like a small Asian woman like on kdramas and that's also odd.

Sometimes my little side pops out when I see cute things.

Sometimes a gruff dad.

Sometimes me at 16

And I'm sure there's more.

But idk if I'm me or if I'm somewhere else hidden

I say little me I don't mean inner child

My inner child doesn't feel there.

Honestly Joshua if I could afford it I'd see an emdr therapist in Lafayette and I'd make the weekly drive. I'd also see if hypnosis therapist would work. I would build an army to help me.

You aren't doing a bad job. I however haven't seen anything in my email you said you'd send and I'm not happy abt it but I'm sure since you are human you got busy

I do wish they had a manual for neurodivergent ppl and autistic ppl that translated what neurotypical ppl mean and tips and tricks on how to communicate with them.

They always think I'm fighting with em.

I hate one people call me negative. I mean I'm sorry I've been dealing with trauma since I was 2 years old so it's very hard for me to see the positives and it's not for lack of trying.

If I'd given up on getting better I'd have quit therapy years ago.

I feel like I could easily get a social work degree but it's not something I want to do as a profession. I mean do some LCSW just take like easier cases with big idiots that just need to be told to go ground and touch grass? (Joke) but no I mean I assume there's some easier clients is all.

I really don't find Myself to be a negative person I Find Myself to be a realist and I also Find Myself to be sort of a cynic and an absurdist. I do like philosophy but I do not like it enough to study it as much as other people get into it I do go down rabbit holes

I mean not only is my interest that is special and medical but I do like lots of other things it's just been had to be primarily focused in medical so I didn't get missed diagnosed and almost fucking die again because nobody likes that

It's aggravating to be your own advocate in the medical world Like it's really a big pain in the ass to fight doctors and nurses and people that do not know what they are talking about and I do not ever mean to sound egotistical but a lot of people mistake me talking like this for that

Like currently my rheumatologist is seeing a friend of mine that has a disorder that is very similar to what I had growing up and the woman is having a reaction to the method track state and I keep telling her to call our rheumatologist and go to the ER but the woman says that our rheumatologist said that's normal and I know damn well it's not normal and she's gonna end up in the ER somewhere or another and it makes me feel like an old retired charge nurse even though I'm not even old enough to be one of those sassy old charge nurses.

The funny thing is my mother is a charge nurse but she doesn't exactly act like one because she also has to make drama and play the victim.

I mean I really can't believe that she's trying to get my sister hooked up with medical marijuana right now

My sister already relies on street Marijuana that could possibly be laced and smokes it constantly all day every day

I mean honestly I sound like a giant hypocrite because I'm stoned right now but I don't smoke as much as her I used to smoke as much as her if not more and I got to a point where I could not get stoned anymore and I decided to quit until I had pain issues again and so now I'm having to legally medicate and that's pretty weird feeling when a couple of years ago you could have gotten arrested and it's weird having to convert the Scared emotions about taking my medicine into positive emotions about taking my medicine because I still get nervous when I'm about to smoke like I'm about to get caught.

I suppose you can say it similar to the feeling of walking out of a store and feeling like they're gonna stop you for shop lifting even though you didn't do anything

I have very intrusive thoughts like that all the time and I assume it's part of my o CD but it's really annoying and usually when I take my Adderall it goes away completely but I can't take it and it's pointless to take it because I only have a few left in the fucking bottle and the medical board won't allow me to have that prescribed and it's stupid bullshit and politics and the health care system for mental health is completely fucked and I've known this since I was a child And I don't even know if there's a way to fix it anymore honestly because they have screwed it so bad

I really wish that I could have made my goal make my brain better and then make me an independent and knowledgeable enough to live on my own without the help of others without my parents finances and So that I might travel or move elsewhere because I get so stir crazy but I've been stuck inside and helicopter and micro managed and harassed and terrorized and fucking abused for so long that it's scary to go places because I feel like I'm going to get in trouble for everything I do

I feel like I'm going to get in trouble if I breathe too loud

I mean I'm sure I could give you more examples because like sometimes I really do think that something takes me over and talks for me because I don't understand how else I would even function enough to communicate with other people with the insane amount of shit that has happened to me. I mean I still have things in my memory bank that are foggy and behind. closed doors. It sucks that I keep remembering things because it's the time where my brain feels safest to finally be able to understand what happened to me and stuff because I know it protected me a lot as a child and it's really weird that I just have all negative memories and only little glimmers of good things I really don't remember a lot of the good things my parents said that they did for me I don't remember a lot of experiences I've been told that I've had that were good. And you know that a lot of people have blamed on medications that I take but I have never had any memory issues due to this particular medication that I'm on that I have been on for a long time it has not really changed anything in that regard. The other ones however did fuck with my head like that.

There is something terribly wrong with my father mentally and I really would love to get him help but I don't know how to do that without it affecting my life in a major way and I don't know if I could handle another major life change without absolutely losing my shit

[rosesradio]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Stranger Things (TV 2016) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Will Byers/Mike Wheeler Characters: Will Byers, Mike Wheeler, other st characters mentioned Additional Tags: Stranger Things 2, The Shadow Monster, writing a byler fic taking place in s2 when s4 comes out tomorrow?, it's more likely than you think, warning: idk how to phrase this but the wording on this bad boy is kinda vile, it's a dark fic in general, the siren gives you everything you want so it can lure you in and eat you just fyi, enjoy babes !! Summary:

"Did you have anything dangerous prepared against the Shadow Monster?"

Mike hesitated as they approached the dumpster. "Other than Lucas and his wrist-rocket, we don't exactly have weapons. But that's okay." he stopped, Will stopping behind him, and Mike turned around. "You know I'd go down fighting to protect you, right, Will?"

Will found that even in the cold pit of despair they were in, Mike Wheeler never failed to make his cheeks flush with heat. "Yeah, and I'd do the same for you. In a heartbeat."

Mike grinned infectiously at that, and Will moved in closer to him. Mike moved away, hesitant, but even still he smile didn't waver.

  or: the shadow monster is tired of chasing down will, so he lures him using his feelings for mike.

[mathieubellamont]

As a Hirrus Clutumnus stan I got to hear your 2 pieces on him. Also, as a mentally ill person, what are your thoughts on Shivering Isles? (There are parts I rlly vibe with but I understand a lot of it is played for laughs, and I've never had psychosis so idk how people who experience that feel about it. i can only see it from a depression/anxiety/ocd lense)

ooooooooo youre bringing in the REAL good questions here

Heads up for mentions of suicide and assisted suicide, oh and spoilers for an old as fuck game

So, for a long but necessary background, because if Im gonna talk on this i need to be explicit where I'm coming from regarding it, I have StPD AKA diagnosed shivering isles resident at psychiatrist disorder. That for me includes delusions and a lot of paranoia, perceptual hallucinations, magical thinking, highly spiritual angle to life... actually ironic this question comes in now bc my deity has been like. get into and talk about madness for a few days now. take that as an example if you want, including a lot of reading of signs and stuff. basically. talking to things that most people dont think can talk, eccentricity in thought processes and dress and speaking, issues speaking outloud bc words and sentences get jumbled/etc, and connecting the dots between things that aren't related (eg "if I turn this light on the grass outside will stop growing and the farmer will get mad"). Its... also relevant to answering this in a different way to say that Im autistic so... I kinda struggle with discerning the intent behind creating the Isles (like, as you said, being played for laughs) vs the homely feeling I personally get from it.

So yeah, tldr i fucking FEEL the isles, and i may not be the best at interpreting them right

On to the answer (under read more only bc its long)

Hirrus:

Oh man, seriously, as someone whos struggled with depression for a long ass time and..... relevant feelings...... I LOVE how brutally honestly Hirrus is approached. Actually that tends to be one of my favourite parts of how the Isles are approached in general, in that they don't shy away from the brutality of mental illness. Its not just "haha funny goofy land" its "bunch of people brought together by Issues" Like... I know the brutality is probably to show that Sheogorath is a DAEDRIC PRINCE not to be taken lightly (although i am SURE there were a lot of people struggling w mental issues on the Isles dev team who wanted to depict it like this for the sake of realism) but like... Mental illness as Im sure you get as a Hirrus Stan is not just quirky little things but something that devastates lives. It doesnt JUST do that but ill get to that in the overall isles opinion. I think no matter whether the developers are mentally ill or not, if theyre going to approach these topics there needs to be a level of "yep this is fucked up" - in a VERY specific way though. If Hirrus was played in a way that was about the HoK's horRor and suFferINg meeting Hirrus id be like. ew. but since youre literally just meeting someone going through SHIT in a fantasy world.... Oh, the fantasy world bit is super relevant. I think id have some issues with it if it was in our world - the whole hill of suicides thing is absolutely extremely relevant imo as to why this is not just acceptable but a great bit of storytelling. "The real world is dark and dangerous, help someone kill themselves"= dangerous DANGEROUS thing to put in a story. "Im going to show you how fucked up this fantasy world is, and its so fucked up that it turns helping someone kill themselves into a merciful and good bit of storytelling"= good. i like that. The way its implemented is really good storytelling IMO.

On the Isles themselves:

I think it boils down to... Theres a fine line to be walked when talking about mental illness, and even if its played for laughs, they still did it right. Well, i mean. For an old game.

Tbh?? I dont think mental illness, as i touched upon above, is just about devastation and loss and struggles, its also like.... A fantastic thing. I dont have a love-hate relationship w my StPD but a love-....babysit. relationship. Some days its awful like when im convinced bad triggering shit i wont mention is about to happen, somedays my perceptual hallucinations kick in and the world is suddenly oversaturated colours and burningly hi definition, somedays it really helps with grounded things in that i tend to be creative bc i can see reality in weird ways, or it helps (SOMETIMES) with divination and whatnot. But its always something less of a horror assigned to me and more of a confused seriously sight-impaired clone who cant see the world properly and i have to guide them around - StPD comes in between me and my ability to perceive the world around me. The whole display of the divided isles is, yes, a litttlleeee outdated bc i think its meant to partially reference bipolar disorder which, kinda gross thing to do but i guess understandable if you know fuck all about not insulting mentally ill people, and using words like dementia as an aesthetic is a little off-putting, but its so.... homely to have this stark acceptance that illness is a huge consuming SWAMP of a fuckin thing, twisted and dangerous, but also fantastical, inviting, super/post-real.... Mania is my fucking favourite area bc yeah. it approaches what life feels like when the good StPD Issues kick in. This divide also really shows how StPD and similar illnesses work, but colouring (pun intended given the colour schemes) your world view, and turning everyday things (trees, animals) into horrific, desolate things - or weird, beautiful, fantastical things because thats what it FEELS like. plus i think just because some of the devs intended to make this world in reference to a few things, doesnt mean the end product isnt an accurate portrayal of other things. Just because im sure some were like "oo lets use bipolar/dementia/etc for aesthetics" and got it wrong, doesnt mean its not an accurate depiction of other unrelated mental illnesses.

Thats a little subjective but.... on a different note. I think a HUGE thing that makes the Isles work for being a good/palatable depiction as opposed to a bad one is the fact that the Hero BECOMES SHEOGORATH. and the whole questline leading up where you BECOME a member of the isles and really get to know them is..... Is so so paramount to how this Works so it isnt just some zoo you stroll around. Youre either With the Isles AND their population or..... the questline isnt for you. Another HUGE thing is the fact that everyone just......... ugh how do i put this bc of course theres conflict between characters in the isles..... But it just feels like home having StPD where theres this place that everyone has their own thing going on and no one really condemns them for it, not in the way real life does, like. Ah. I guess id say it like: itd be boring as shit if every character was like "oh my GOD everyone around me is CRAZYYYY not ME though" like.... when you have groups of friends that are all Mentally Ill Luv x you can sort of relax and all be your own various shades of the rainbow you know?? Real life tends to see me have to train myself to act normal and not display illness symptoms bc im the odd one out for some reason. The Isles is..... So you know that study done showing how autistics struggle socially with non autistics but can get along fine together? Yeah reminds me of that, where NTs will condemn and belittle and other everyone with serious mental illness - and so if youre a NT youd think that NDs would do the same, just like non autistics think autistics couldnt communicate together - but it takes a level of insight into this to understand in a lot of our friend groups we.... dont fall apart, we actually start to understand each other as similar in different ways. We find other ways to have cohesive social groups without all being in touch with the same version of reality. Whether the devs meant the isles as thought out like that or "haha imagine people being sooooo crazy they dont even know other people are crazy" well, we wont know, but again - an inaccurate attempt to portray one thing can turn into an accurate way to portray another.

Plus, honestly.... There comes a point where, like the whole "theres no ethical consumption under capitalism" thing, I think it matters less the devs intentions and more how the consumer consumes it. If youre NT and like it? I think the issue is when its "haha weird ass crazy people funny, im so glad im not these dudes hey look at how stupid they are", but if youre approaching it like "damn this is a wacky place where people have some serious issues and im going to enjoy the storyline and the humour without treating it like a digital freak show" then i mean.... Idk. Not sure on that angle logically but I do know I dont have that jugdmental reaction to people enjoying it when they arent like the people depicted in the isles

Tldr: I like it. Its either well thought out or a bunch of happy accidents. I think that we can all argue/debate on the intent behind it? Which, if this was created by one singular person, would be EXTREMELY relevant, but since its a whooooole dev team IMO the individual intents matter a little less than the end product as an independent thing. And because of that, the fact that it feels so much like home to people like me, and because yes, it may be played for laughs, but a lot of it (Hirrus for one great example) really is not meant to be funny, and because youre MEANT to become a part of it (and therefore see these people as YOUR people), i think........ Its perfectly alright to really appreciate the isles and enjoy its depiction of people like me - i mean... Lets be honest here.... If it was inaccurate, you wouldnt have as many people on the schizospec and psychotic spec being like damn we love this as we do have

[givrally]

Yes, as a matter of fact, you DID read that ask 6 months ago... because that was when it was sent! Have you noticed that r4cs0 and his fanboys often do this, where whenever they get an ask that makes r4cs0 look bad, they wait months and months to answer it? That way, when it finally pops up, any evidence supporting the accusation has been forgotten and even the very context of the ask itself has been lost. This is one of the shady strategies that r4cs0 has developed to avoid accountability for his bigotry.

Holy hell, shut the fuck up.

I don't like to curse but you're the most annoying person I've seen on this website.

1. You're literally sending asks on anon, you don't have evidence nor credibility in the first place.

2. Am I gonna believe a very anonymous anon who seems to be on a personal crusade against some random dude on tumblr that "No akshually I sent that ask 6 months ago" ?

3. Even if that's true, how the fuck can anyone believe that makes you look better ? It would mean you've sent dozens of asks to people in the span of one day ?? Go touch some grass for god's sake.

4. Why do you repeat r4cs0 so much ?? Did you not learn about pronouns in school ? Of course you did, you're just hoping that if you say it enough people are gonna start thinking it's true.

5. Even if all those unproven accusations were actually true, what do you think spamming asks like this is going to accomplish ? Especially to people you accuse of being "r4cs0 fanboys" ?? Do you think they'll just go "Ah, yes, this ask is telling the truth about the love of my life r4cs0, I shall renounce my sinful ways". If you wanted this guy to be deplatformed you'd just need to shut up about him and he'd be forgotten quicker than ugandan knuckles.

6. I was gonna end it here but I just realized. I reblogged that post yesterday. If you sent it 6 months ago... does that mean you've been checking people's blogs every day hoping for an answer ? Get a fucking life, dude. Idk, learn math, learn gardening, do something else with your life.

Conclusion : I don't give a shit about a random very determined anon's beef with random tumblr user @r4cs0 who may or may not be racist (just out of spite I'm gonna say he isn't). I'm closer to kevin bacon than to this guy. You keep fucking this chicken all you want, I'm not holding the legs.