#idk man i was just goofin by that point

[shepards-folly]

one last night together

[factual-fantasy]

25 asks! :00 Thank you! :}} 💖

I would like to yeah :0 for now I'm just kind'a goofin around and drawing whatever. Also thank you!! :DD I'm glad you like it! :}}}

I don't think kid Gregory and Vanessa would realize that the other is a younger version of the guard that's pursuing them.. They would just think they have the same name.

What would be confusing though is who went into who's world. If Little Vanessa went to little Gregory's world, she would be so confused. "Where's Bonnie and Foxy? Why do Roxy and Monty look so different..? Why does the entire BUILDING look different..??"

For adult Gregory going into the kid Gregory's world.. it'd be the same thing. "Why is the building so different and where is Bonnie and Foxy?... Also why is there this random gal that has on a security uniform and why is she in my office-"

Thank you! Happy new year to you as well!! 🎉🥳🎊

YOOOO THAT'D BE SICK!! :DDD Also I love all the puns XDD

Yeah, that post is outdated and should not be followed. My pinned post has all the up to date information. 👍

(Also thank you! :D)

That's a thing?? Man. I'm not sure what to think. I was never super into Bendy.. I guess I just hope that the fans get what they're hoping for? <:D

Or at the very least I hope that the people who made Bendy have the freedom to put what ever they want into the movie. :}

Thank you so much! :DD As for my favorite character from my AU specifically? I'd say its a tough pick between Freddy and Foxy.. I thiiiiink I'll pick Freddy XD I just love him man 🥺

@skeletormasterofevil

N-No.. she was so young...💔

@underfalls-36

XDDD That's hilarious, also thANK YOU SO MUCH!! :DDD

Calico Jack? I don't think so.. scurvy is caused by a severe vitamin-C deficiency. And sailors usually got it becuase they didn't have fruits and vegetables on the ship.. But it looks like Calico Jack has gotten shipwrecked quite a few times in his life. I imagine he's been stranded on islands for a few weeks at a time where he ate nothing but fruits, Veggies and fish. Not to mention his time in the Amazon where he likely had access to all kinds of fruits.

Natquik though? Its possible.. out in the Antarctic his diet was probably mostly fish.. although it seems that real arctic fox diets don't really demand many fruits and veggies.. Still, Natquik seems more likely to have contracted scurvy at one point then Calico Jack :(

:DDD THANK YOU! And boy do I have a lot of that XD

I do have many theories/headcannons yes!.. Although I think I'll keep those tucked away in my brain for now- :x

@citrusfruitman

(Post in question)

XDD I sat on the first ask for a while because I was intending to draw something for it. But I'm realizing now that I might not ever draw it so--

What was going on in that drawing is an evil Undyne threw a spear at the group while they were passing by. Seam was struck in the head by it and was killed.. hence the blood splatter on her face. (My darkeners bleed)

BUT ITS OKAY! Through some uh... very dark methods- Frisk was able to reset to a few moments before and pull Seam out of the way. Then she got into a brawl with the evil Undyne no doubt <XD

I have, and uh, I'm not so sure about the whole "in character" thing.. or at least its not the character I imagined Fazbear Entertainment would be- <XD

It just means they're both rough and tough and their hands get beat up a lot. Kwazii gets them beat from scraping them on stuff and dealing with dangerous creatures while on missions. And Calico Jack gets them from scraping them on stuff and.. dealing with dangerous creatures while on adventures XDD

@spinelfan11

XDD I have now! What an odd specimen..

(Also thank you! :DDD)

@milk-powrit

Its hard to explain exactly why I don't like them.. But I don't like them-

I guess it feels kind'a.. mary sue-ish..? If that makes sense? Or at least having all these sans' that act nothing like the original sans is kind'a off putting? I guess? Not to mention loads of them are shipped together- uhg idk- Its hard to explain but I don't vibe with them personally. So I didn't add them to my au :/

@abaroo

OOOO THAT'S A GOOD IDEA!! :000 I like how it creates a spin on Grillby and River. While Jevil intentionally grabbed Grillby's hand and saved him, and River was dragged along by mistake.. Frisk CHOSE to follow Jevil, it wasn't his doing at all this time. That's a really cool thing to experiment with!

I'll have to look into this idea, thank you for sharing! And thank you for the complements! AND happy new year to you too! XDD

@the-great-bonkings

XDD For receiving hugs? I'd say he's about a 11/10 sometimes, maybe a 6/10 other times. Its harder to hug him comfortably if you're significantly shorter/smaller than he is. But if ur the right size his hugs will just fix all your problems 🥺

As for giving hugs? It might be about the same. But I can see him giving them out only to people he's really close to. Otherwise a tender yet professional hand on the shoulder seems more his style.

XD And I see the prompt there, perhaps I'll have to draw that sometime!

@tanileaf

YOU LIKE? :DDD THANK YOU! I'M SO GLAD!

Aww shucks 😊 Thank you!

@khoiazo

Whaaaat?? Nooo Its not traumaaa,,🥺 its character development!😇

TRUEEEEE

I do! I'll have to post more about them sometime-- 👀👀

@cudlycorncornsworthcoberson

WAAAA THANK YIOU SO MUCH!!! IM SO GLAD YOUY LIKE MY OCTONAUTS SILLIES 💖💖😭💖

[garfolivore]

ok i don't get the shinji ikari hate train. the biggest complaint about him is that he's whiny and a lil bitch but cmon man.

he's 14.

his dad left him and was only using him to pilot the eva.. he was used by pretty much all of the other adults for the same reason, and was outcasted by kids his age. (his only friends just wanted mommy milkers let's be real). and can you imagine having that much responsibility on you as a child? he's almost died like 74729293 times and was forced to potentially kill his classmate. like that's rough, of course he's going to be shut off, nervous, and uncertain. it didn't help that asuka literally bullied the fuck out of him. (i love asuka too though, she had it rough as well) but still.

shinji is just a representation of true humanity and mental illness. he's not supposed to be a perfect protagonist because irl NO ONE ACTUALLY IS! he's very realistic to how a literal child would behave in an incredibly stressful situation. did he do some shitty things? sure. EVERYONE IN THE SHOW DID!

idk guys i'd love to hear some of my other shinji stans speak on the matter. (i'm only referring to 90's neon genesis). finally, does no one talk about how sexualized asuka and rei are when they too are only kids? kinda fucked up tbh

edit: the reason i bring up the asuka situation is because it's true. yeah it is comedy and it can be funny but she genuinely pushed him to do some crazy shit. i was provided an example to the whole "peer outcast" point. i mean how do you not bring that up? not all of it was just goofin she did some questionable things towards shinji. now shinji is no saint because he's also done some incredibly questionable things towards asuka, and i believe asuka has very valid reasoning for how she acts. also gave so many other arguments in this post can you read?

[thepringlesofblood]

finished taz grad

*disclaimer: if you cyberbully Real Human Being Travis McElroy bc you don’t like taz: g, fuck off. it’s ok to just say ‘hmm i don’t like this thing’ and then stop listening! im always about in depth media analysis and critical thought, and bringing up valid criticism in a polite and constructive way, but sometimes its not that deep, and some of yall take it too far, and not liking something doesn’t mean its bad

anyway, I though the finale was pretty cool!

I had the thought, as the stupid stupid stupid remix of pomp and circumstance played out the end of the episode of ‘oh right, not every campaign has to be heart-wrenching and soul-building and all that shit, sometimes it’s nice to just listen to some boys goofin around and being family’

bc like. there are a lot of Serious Themes in taz:g but also, it’s just a different balance (lol) of comedy and drama than previous arcs. and that’s ok! it was honestly refreshing. i laughed, i cried, it was good shit

however

some things about this arc confused and upset me (under the cut bc spoilers) and im gonna talk about them here, not in the form of a personal attack, but just as thoughts

so, here’s my pros/cons/thoughts on taz g

i did not like the drugs. now this may be bc of my personal aversion to recreational drug use (including alcohol), but it just seemed really fucked up and out of nowhere???

like i really like festo as a character and i get that theyre kinda morally grey but i figured it was like in a murder is ok way not like this - it’d be one thing if it was an offer instead of like. a demand. and then they leveled up?????

pls tell me im not the only one incredibly confused and upset by this. is it like a metaphor for the college experience???? is it symbolic of entering the fairy realm???? what is it??????

to clarify - im not saying drug use itself is immoral. the situation w festo and the boys and the party in the fairy realm is what was irking me. like griffin pointed it out! the power dynamic and everything was real fucked up!!!!

it just felt weird and kind of out of nowhere idk

and then the 5 yrs later

I liked most of it, but. argo’s cruiseline bit being like firbolg-themed? yikes!!! that’s a whole culture that you’re not part of!!!! i know clint loves to make weird franchises with his characters and this was his way of trying to honor his relationship with the firbolg gary, but ya couldve gone w a lot of different things, this seems Less Than Spectacular

and like

some things i personally would like to have seen

- the complete destruction of capitalism (a tall order, i admit, i don’t blame em im just a sad strange lil man lookin for wish fulfillment in this crazy mixed up world)

- i love the whole gary plotline and justin fucking one-hit KO’d me with that line ‘it feels good to have a name’ but also i was really looking forward to seeing the firbolg and the boys being more found-family-y and maybe going on that big international waters trip together but i also very much get that the kind of distance b/w them is very emblematic of the post-college experience of trying to keep in touch long distance while also creating a new life for yourself

now

things i thought were bomb af

- XORN IS BACK

- stormbringer fitzroy and big snippers

- reality breaking down and doing that thing from gravity falls where they go through a bunch of different iterations of themselves that was both fucking hilarious and kept things interesting

- clint forgetting the 2 other times clint mcelroy embezzling janitor appeared in this arc and trying to make another joke about it being officially canon now only for his sons to go no! youre already here!

- The Boys Gettin Beefy w the chaos builds

- the narrative of chaos finding their voice

- how quickly everything turned into ‘get this dipshit prince into the hole asap’ and gray just being like ok????ok???

- gray not betraying them but also making no promises like this arc fucks w morality and hes smack dab in the center

- them leaving rainier in charge like yeah everything’ll be fine right? and they get back and she’s queen of darkness marionette of the battlefield fuck yeah i love her and her cool dad so much

- the commodore’s death. i know we all talk about the emptiness of revenge, but at the same time he was going to go on to do so much hurt to the world and fuck if he didn’t deserve it. this arc said ‘violence is ok sometimes’ and tbh it was really refreshing to have a completely fulfilled ‘you killed my mother prepare to die’ inigo montoya moment.

- the contrast b/w the morality of professional heroes and villains and the morality of The Boys. where the lines were drawn and why, and how much of it was just gut instinct of ‘you should do good not bc it is required, but bc it feels right’

i am super excited for ethersea bc i am a sea-faring bitch who went through a big mermaid phase and also ngl, i personally prefer griffin’s DMing style over travis’ longform not bc it is inherently better but bc people can have preferences for things without assigning a value judgement to them.

also, i have synesthesia, which means sounds have colors and textures for me, and i realized this arc that the color and texture of travis’ usual speaking voice are best appreciated in small doses for me, idk what it is but it just gets to be too much sometimes, and again that aint on him hes doin great and his character voices are dope, thats on me and my personal preference

anyway, taz g was cool and i liked it, not my favorite but thats just personal preference its still dope

[scary-hoe]

Seriously tho

I love @tinalbion and @galaxyofghouls so much. They’re both such funny, beautiful, and kind-hearted girls who I am so glad that I met through this fandom. They are two of my dearest goons who I love goofin with and last night was the peak of that. I loved it. I can’t wait for them to call me out with their lies, I’m gonna be in literal tears because they’re so ridiculously funny.

I just wanted y’all to know we weren’t serious. In the slightest.

That being said I want you guys to know that I will always keep negative stuff off of my blog. I want it to be a relaxing, positive zone because it seems so hard to find. No matter what platform I’m on - Twitter, Youtube, Facebook, whatever - there’s always someone trying to start shit with someone else. That kind of stuff is not healthy to ingest, it really brings you down even though you don’t always notice it, even if you’re not the one who’s in it. Every part of it is a little bit ridiculous to me, because (to quote Gone with the Wind) “Do not squander time, that is the stuff life is made of.” And to go with that is a quote from Red Forman, “If you’re not mad enough to bare-knuckles box, then you aren’t mad.” Meaning, choose your battles. Not everything is worth the time to argue or fight over because time is limited and it goes by so incredibly fast.

And I know this might seem like I’m talking about whatever is happening right now, but it’s not. Because I have no idea what’s happening. I stay out of it as much as I can. My soul is old, I’m not interested in that stuff anymore. This is mostly born out of me logging onto any social platform, example: Youtube and seeing a bunch of callouts or drama videos recommended to me just because I watch a certain person. 

Idk man, my point is, your Slasher Sister Scary-hoe just wants to make an open-minded, comforting and positive environment for y’all. Because it’s very important to have that.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

anytime i eat a Mini Muffin i’m specifically taken back to this time in fourth grade when my english/literature/reading/whatever class did this thing with some other school’s english/whatever classes where we all went to this One School and put on our plays in succession (which were like, idk, maybe 5-10 minutes each excerpts from some Public Domain shit like idk ours was some scenes from julius caeser, shakespeare or whatever)

it’s one of those times i look back and i’m like oh in retrospect maybe it’s a bit obvious i’ve been a theatre gay all along. like with other evidence such as having a decent time learning the tenor parts in a choir, having Opinions on the fact that sopranos are always useless and basses are always useless in a different way, also our tenor section of like, 3-6 people being told we need to sing quieter and me being like aw fuck that Every Time, my vastly enjoying being on stage and the entire process of putting together a performance in the realm of ballet which i did for 11 yrs and which on occasion involved productions which had A Plot and Characters and i got to be some of those characters and super enjoyed the most musical-adjacent stuff, me abandoning stage fright on several memorable occasions, this one time i was in a Drama Class in middle school and threw together a useless skit with some friends but actually super enjoyed Playing The Part and putting it on even if it made no sense b/c that was never the point we were just Goofin, generally having somewhat sporadic exposure to but genuine enjoyment of theatre/musicals, like all my friends in college being involved in the theatre dept which might be in part because like 80% of my friends were through my theatre-y roommate who was that person in nyc i just mentioned, All This And More

anyways the signs and tells i could’ve perceived from this specific occasion were Many....back in fourth grade i was still pretty In A Shell which i’ve always been but to varying degrees and in varying ways, but i was like oh man yeah please let’s go on stage, i love that. we even sort of did ~auditions~ in that i think we all memorized like, a paragraph, and then all of us in the class like, rated each other or whatever and then that was tallied and the teacher had final say...i was Into that...and then i got one of the main-er parts which was cassius and i was like fuck yeah!! being caesar is overrated here b/c he dies like halfway through!! and then the teacher taught us the most important lesson which was Talk Louder which was great because when we went to the Meetup of all the classes from various schools doing their bits, it was a bit underwhelming because we couldn’t fuckin hear anybody

also i think we did it barefoot? or in sandals? i loved that. i’m like a hobbit in that i always want to be barefoot. reminds me of the time i really risked it all b/c i danced en pointe for a school thing once but it was just a regular ass stage, no rosin, none of that rubbery floor padding, so like, better not accidentally slip. i didn’t though. and back to caesar, i remember i was Vexed because when we did the stabbing part, it was only like, us all stabbing him, no particular sounds to provide dramatic cue or anything. maybe it worked anyways, idk. still haunts me to this day

also we got to put it on twice b/c some parents were late, and i was pumped about that. the point is that during a Break, one of the accompanying parents had brought along a box of those little snack bags of mini muffins, and i had some, and so every time i have mini muffins i think of this Theatric Experience

and then, as an epilogue, sometimes i’m like “oh ugh i have no interests or things i ever particularly wanted to do” but then i’m like well okay but again in retrospect, there’s some things i had “i’d be interested in doing that” feelings about but one of the reasons i don’t recognize that as an Area Of Interest is because i then brush it off as like “oh, but everyone’s interested in that” even though things like, for example, acting onstage, is Not actually something that interests everyone. and when there’s other similar sorts of concepts i’m Not interested in, i conveniently don’t think “well, nobody’s interested in that” b/c i know that’s not true

and then also in retrospect i’m like “well maybe you should’ve tried theatre in school, dumbass” i remember that i’m not even sure my middle school Had a like, after school drama program, i wanna say mayyyybe there was one but to be fair at that point i was like, entirely ignoring Everything in the after school realm. i just wanna go home and read honestly, terrible student forever. and then i didn’t go to high school, and in college obviously the theatre program was people who’d already been doing that shit, and i had no clue. didn’t stop me from hanging out around there sometimes and “helping” sometimes aka hanging with my friend who would actually be doing something; one time i painted a set, another time i painted a set for my old middle school. that’s all i know. also i went to see lots of the plays cuz my roommate would be in them and graciously give me a comp ticket and i’d be like sick let’s do this. friday night baby

[ts-autumns-world]

Episode 4: “Tua supremacy babey” - Lily O

I GET TO REUNITE WITH JINX YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

me waking up to see that im in the new tribe: https://media.tenor.com/images/93212119a4887f9fa0ad945c7ae2a5d0/tenor.gif

tbh i expected the swap since like we have 14 rn so its a reasonable number to do a swap before the merge.. but like this swap sucks not only me being the only one from og eener but its also me having to be with these 4 whites ppl. you know i don't trust white ppl except mikki SDFSDFSDFSDF so this absolutely SUCKS. and geekoffilm is on another tribe too.

URGH i hope i can team up with jinx and jude. and joey and i used to play together in CoW so hopefully, i am able to make him want to work with me again.. but monty... monty is very skeptical cause like they could just vote me off now. BUT THEN, i know that either jinx or raffy has the idol for sure, so maybe i need to ask jinx for that. or i just ask the person who i'll be up against with in the tic tac toe to throw a challenge if they are the og eener too. 

much to think about bestie booth. i wanna trust these ppl so bad but i have trust issues

https://youtu.be/JrXnnD5KU0I

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naur this is the plan if we go to council

imma be like joey

you are the only cis white man on the team

you have to go. 

you wanna be an ally?

THIS IS HOW!!!

so im pushing for u FEWEJFEEFJEFEIFEFIJW 

heS ALWAYS SAYING HE WANTS TO BE A BETTER ALLY

ALWAYS CALLING ME LIKE JINX IM SO SORRY

ILL BE LIKE FOR WHAT?? 

HE'S LIKE FOR BEING A WHITE CIS STRAIGHT MAN. 

IF UR REALLY SORRY ULL LEAVE!

I have to start this out by saying Giraffez, I’m so sorry! I tried my best but too many people wanted to keep us comp strong and wanted Lily O to stay. I really wish we would have had the chance to play longer together but sometimes it’s just not in the cards.

As far as swap goes, I’m really happy about my team. We have a majority from my original group which is pretty wild. I wish Chips was here and I really hope he makes it work somehow but I’m ngl I’m a little worried about him.

I was so so thrilled to see Jinx on Tua with me. I also have started talking with Captain and Jude. They both seem super nice so as always I’m hoping to avoid tribal once again.

I’d like to the think that original Llih (was that how you spelled it?) will stay together but Giraffez told me that Lily O told her that she was voting for me. Now obviously we all voted Giraffez but I think Lily O knows I was plotting. So. I hope we can stick together. But. Yeah. Your girl is worried. And excited. She is excited cause this group seems cool. But nervous because yeah I’m not ready for another vote out. Mkay. Bye.

This swap went pretty well for me all things considered. I still have a bunch of people from my OG Tribe, and the new people seem active and really nice! So, I like my tribe. Blake offered to me today to work together closely in the game which I am down for. The semi-inactive people need to stick together and all that lmao. Other than that, I am straight Vibing

Swap time! honestly its time to kick it into high gear and win this immunity challenge! make some real allies!

HELLO AUTUMNS WORLD!!!!!! So I have arrived in a swapped team with 3 of my old members! SOOO happy Mikki is here firstly since we can discuss basically anything. Blake and Raffy im also cool with but not like as close with them. Maybe a bit more with Blake. Of the new people my fav is Chris !! Already liking our chats and hope it can turn more strategic later maybe!! Ricky is also cool and funny and chips I was allies with him in Kili which is cool but probably the weakest connection of the new people so far!! It looks like we are gonna lose and if so its kinda hard like on one hand we have easy majority to vote off idk probably chips or maybe ricky or we could go against tribal linesI think Blake truly does wanna work with me tho but is just busy. Like going against tribal lines is kinda fun but maybe dumb. And chips being the 1 in a 4-2-1 swap sucks too!! Idk kind of evaluating the vibe with Mikki and will see what we think later if we lose… we would probs be safe regardless being protected by tribal lines on one side and having developed sorta good vibes with Chris and Ricky from the other side so probs wouldn’t be targeted from that angle either?? Hopefully… I did have kind of a delayed start with the new people cuz of irl stuff but yah we will see!

My opinion on swap was initially sad because I was missing out on Jinx/Jude/Joey/Captain BUT then I realize I like this tribe?? Im with Ricky still, Mikki probably is sitting at the cookout as we spesk, Chips is lowkey goody but I got my eye on him, Benj and I bond over Agatha Christie <3, Blake I knew from TDI so we have been goofin like a Goofy movie, Raffy I actually enjoy that we chat of the most mundane things, and that's everybody! I think I have a chance to survive on this tribe

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My thoughts are that I've got Ricky and Mikki at minimum. I know Mikki/Raffy got beef but I doubt they go for each other. Chips is like a level-headed Joey but I reckon one of him/Blake/Benj will be targeted if I had to guess. Nevertheless me and Captain talked during our matchup and exchanged info. My hope is me or Ricky are in Outhouse but I also hope not so we have higher odds to keep the goodies all goodie and safe

https://voca.ro/18WSqZznajDx

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I LOVE JUDE

so idk where my last confessional left off but i think it was before tribal. so after tribal, jinx’s manifestations came true, we swapped, i ended up on a tribe with no one i knew except chris, so that was kind of…nnng. but hey, gotta roll with the punches. me and jinx were paired up for the challenge which game me a bit of time to talk with them, and they gave me some insight on ppl i didn’t really know on my tribe, and also they gave me a tarot reading, and it basically said that while i’m probably gonna have to deal with some bullshit, i just have to use everything i’ve learned to get over any obstacles, and stay calm and collected through it all. i’m really really praying for this one, since we just lost immunity, and now chris is going to the outhouse, i’m afraid that i’m truly all alone now. and if there’s one thing that scares me it’s being alone. i really like mikki tho, and i heard benj was good ppl. maybe if i let them know that raffy might have the half idol then maybe they’d be more inclined to work with me, but i also really enjoy raffy’s presence, so i don’t really want him to be a target. blake and i have had a good amount of dialogue so i’m hoping that he’d be willing to work with me, to be honest. ughhhhh why why why tribal. WHY TRIBAL. in all my years of playing tumble survivor i’ve never been sent to like…and exile or redemption island ONCE. not once….ever…. please god let me get to the outhouse just one time.

First of all, lemme just say I'm so amused by how quickly my chances of no-votes went RIGHT out the door. But also thank god that it went off without a hitch! And right before a swap, no less New tribe is definitely iconic. LOVE Jinx, Captain and Jude are cool too, and then my Llih buddies are also v nice to have (shoutouts monty and joey)

Tua supremacy babey

https://youtu.be/oP7DWOnmt40

https://youtu.be/Z3_pyWTdRh8

https://youtu.be/UFshPYJ98z0

hello confessional booth... i'm here to give you um. something i hope!!!! 

well since the swap, i feel like i've managed to fit in better than i expected cause ive been feeling under the weather and i don't rlly have energy to talk to anyone (which is so great that our tribe won this IC) but i rlly need to work on that more for sure..

joey wants to work with me.. like a lot. we worked together for a bit in CoW before he was voted out and he was a great ally to me back then so i think i can trust joey a little bit? and he rlly wants the pocs to go far so i think this is a good sign.

with jinx, we've been wanting to talk about the outhouse thing but jinx wants to call and i've been feeling sick so we haven't called but hopefully we can do that soon. i trust jinx a lot and i know they're gonna take care of me.

jude.. you know i like her since i saw her intro vid so yup gonna need to talk to her more!!!

lily c.. my fellow teacher pls SFSFSDFSD i enjoy our chat a lot like idt its much but every time we talk, with her, it just feels great and nice and like we just get to know each other so far so i hope we can talk game a bit more but we'll see

lily o.. we haven't talked since the day the swap happened. idk why. maybe she's busy or maybe i should dm her first so i think i'm gonna do that tmr my time if i have the energy.

and monty... PLEASE idk if i can trust monty or not. like he's a good friend of mine but my experience in orgs with them is that they tried to break the swp apart (which was smart but then mikki and i are both playing so gotta keep an eyes on them)

i'm just trying to feel good and hopefully recover soon cause i hate being sick. idk i'm scared of covid!!!!! but i haven't gone outside for a week or two methinks so we're gonna pray and see.

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missing mikki and hope she will be fine

Blake suggested starting an OG Eneer alliance to Mikki and Benj. They took them up on the offer so I guess I am in my first alliance of the game based on arbitrary reasons. In any case, they seem to want to vote out Chips which is a RIP. But whatever keeps me safe for one more round.

I don’t have an obsession with the Mr. Robinson’s Neighborhood sketch from SNL... No I clearly don’t... https://youtu.be/whfQf3Pd5bU

It’s my chronic overthinking in this swap that is going to do me in, I feel. It’s the pressure of having to actually think differently, and coming off of EVERYTHING I’ve seen in this community over the past 6 months, oh good Lord have mercy, I feel as though its so hard for me to want to not sacrifice my game, but at the same time... I feel all the pressure in the world to flip. I did have a lucid dream that if I got to a point where I consistently voted only white people at every Council, it would make my game look REALLY good by comparison, since I literally did everything I could, and no, I don’t want to hear anyone post season say this was rigged for Jinx, it’s not, we’re only going to go against each other down the road because of how this season has been set up, and it breaks my heart

https://photos.app.goo.gl/eSvSGkc4zmBfnYVP7

So here's some tea I suppose. I was a pretty big fan of the tribe swap because people talked more in general. This was particularly interesting considering their different timezones but continued ability to keep up conversation. It was pretty apparent that I was at a numbers deficit from my original tribe but my hope was that people didn't want to play like "that" and then if they did that my former tribe would throw it to keep the numbers. Apparently that is not true as Lily C went as hard as possible to win a challenge she could have convincingly thrown as an "accident" multiple times. At any rate, based on the total lack of communication with me concerning who I am voting it is evident that either the plan is to vote someone without telling me or that it is to vote me. This means that regardless of the situation I am in a terrible position and will be leaving sooner rather than later. I don't know that I've been swap screwed in the past (perhaps, I've been playing for too long) but it really stinks. 

For the TL;DR watch this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dzftXB28gBE

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As I'm writing this, I have a big gulp from... you guessed it... 7/11. I need to flip on one of the three of Monty, Lily O, and Lily C. My best option is going to vote for Lily O, I need Monty and Lily C to know I'm only doing this because yanno, things look awfully awful, and the pressure of making the right move and yet making sure I don't lose relationships is starting to get to me.

I also need them as shields because theyre the only winners in this game, and I need them here as shields for down the road heading into a merge.

I can't even believe I found TWOA IDOLS! I had to think a lot about who to give it too but I decided to do what felt like the smartest thing to do. Jinx and Captain already trust me and I enjoy Ricky but he gives semi chaotic energy. With that in mind, I had to give it to Jude as a sign of faith. Not only am I wanting her to do well, but I want to prove to her I legit want to work with her come merge 😊

https://youtu.be/vOn8Zsi0njA

https://youtu.be/UWTB-LYjbu0

for Chips: https://youtu.be/lSeDZdSEl4o

[king-dra]

the dream was too..yknow...dreamlike to really describe at this point but you were in a video game and u were in like. a generic viddy game robot suit idk. you dared me to jump off this weird tower thing and i was like man wtf but it turned out u were just goofin so when i jumped off i started flying n u were like, viddy game tutorial goofmaster

that sounds like something id do tbh