#idk the two times i remember hearing it she was the main focus HAHA

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Fu Xuan, Divination Commission. I'll be taking the criminal from here.

[sitpwgs]

Hi!!! This ask will probably be all over the place but I wanted to reply! Sorry it's kinda late..like not right away like I hoped but I also wanted to give the tracks a few more listens before saying my opinion. I also meant to send one before 9 simply saying enjoy listening! But then I didn't wanna risk any lyric spoilers since it was already like 9:30..lol. I actually did not get around listening to it until midnight.

I would love a live album of surprise songs on tour, and I like the version of Cruel Summer on tour when she adds the with you near the end. I love mosaic broken hearts too..I think the whole song flows really well but I love the beat and drums of the original over the acoustic. She also doesn't really have another song that sounds like it. I was also shocked there weren't as many mashups on tour, but I do like how it is. I also did not expect her to go era by era but I think that might be a reason there's less mashups too. The tour is almost more theatrical than previous tours and that's something I like about it.

Holly's album is good but I also think Cocoon is one of my favorites after hearing it more and I can't believe I didn't list that one. The OC lyric really stands out lol. Maybe I confused it with another song at first but I mostly agree with you about the album and I do like all the songs. Idk when I will hear it again though with 1989 out.

Haha I did hear that about Jordan Fisher a lot too so I hope he can handle the role. I liked him from what I heard from him in Dear Evan Hansen and Sweeney Todd but Orpheus is pretty different vocally, but I hope he's good. When are you seeing it on tour? I loved the Come From Away proshot so I hope you get a chance to watch it sometime. I'm sure Sara is amazing since she wrote the music so I hope to watch it. I think Newsies will always be my favorite proshot though lol. I do not know much about the little women musical actually and am having a hard time imagining it as a musical lol. If you like it, it's probably a pretty good adaptation though. With Gatsby, I think it's hard cuz I just read the reviews of people that went apparently and everyone will like different things so idk if it makes that much of a difference yet. I totally relate to not watching a lot though..cuz my sister and I were just looking at a list of musicals we watched..like bootlegs or movies, and there was only like 5 or 6 including live performances in the last year and a half..lol.

So the book I started the other day was Tomorrow Tomorrow Tomorrow..cuz I read you were not liking it and I wanted to see what I thought. Idk how much that you read but I only read 2 chapters and the main thing that stuck out to me was it being in 3rd person. That will take getting used to for me cuz I honestly can't remember the last time I read a book in 3rd person lol. But if you don't like it so far, then I will start and focus on the Night Circus..but I actually think thats in 3rd person too haha. Ooh maybe I will try to find The Starless Sea cuz I do like reading authors books at the same time and comparing them. Which one is your favorite out of the two? I will try to keep that in mind about the timeline..thank you for letting me know!

I do love the Midnight Rain part of the show with the umbrellas so I don't mind it on the setlist. It did remind me of the How You Get the Girl performance from the 1989 tour..which was one of my favorites! I do think Midnights and 1989 are definitely the most similar more than rep or Lover but I can't really explain why. This became clear with the vault tracks in a way too..based on sound. But we actually listened to Maisie first! This vault it seemed clear why songs were left out. I didn't have an obvious favorite and some of the songs seemed a little off from verse to chorus..like they just didn't flow well, but I really enjoyed the last two songs which almost had an older Maisie style. Unfortunately I've only heard these songs once so far, so my opinions could change. What did you think?

I think this rerecording is one of the best cuz I can barely hear a lot of differences in the original songs. Like How You Get the Girl Shake it Off and I Know Places seem pretty identical to me, but I wouldn't look for differences that much either. I did notice the blank space drum seems pretty loud and noticeable throughout the song when I heard it again. I listened on shuffle and I think it really worked for 1989.

Omg you were right about the coffee lyric being from is it over now?! These songs actually did have a slower dreamy sound more than I thought..which was surprising to me. At first, the songs didn't feel that 1989 to me for that reason, but they also did in a way. Now that We Don't Talk kinda sounded like I Wish You Would and Is it Over Now definitely reminds me of Our of the woods. So the order I heard the songs in, mixed between original songs, were Now that we don't Talk, Say Don't Go, Suburban Legends, Slut! And Is it Over Now..and I wonder if that affected my impressions. Honestly I did not have an immediate favorite..like how I pretty much liked Speak Now vaults instantly..so maybe the sound just threw me off at first. I've still been listening on shuffle and it seems like they do fit 1989 after more listens and have grown on me. My favorites are "Slut and Say Don't Go and Suburban Legends. Slut is the dreamy sound I was predicting but I didn't think it would be this song lol but I love it! Then Say Don't Go does sound kinda like a slow 80s ballad too with more listens. Suburban Legends was a fun upbeat song and still different than the original album. Now that we Don't Talk has grown on me with more listens and I really like the way she sings some parts of the song. I was most surprised or disappointed with Is it Over Now. Some of that is lyrics that shocked me but the song is just okay.I think cuz I was expecting some deeper song like Clean and it did not fit as a closer at all, even if she said why she chose it there. It felt short and even after a few listens, I have a hard time remembering it..but I do think it's very 1989. One of my favorite songs ever is called I Know it's over by the Smiths and maybe I was expecting something like that based on the title and this was not that at all..there's no longing in the song either so I was wrong based on the coffee lyric..but its growing on me more. Okay what did you think???

Yes I play it daily with my family and sometimes it's hard but other times it's easier. That could be cuz I have help though. Is it mostly easy for you or sometimes difficult? I also do wordle spelling bee and the mini. Well I don't really have any plans since I went to Les Mis last week so This weekend I might just watch a few sort of spooky movies, not scary, before Halloween and listen to 1989TV of course!!! What are your plans? I hope you have a great weekend friend! 🩷

hi hi friend!! i hope you had a good weekend! did you watch any good movies? i am not a scary movie watcher, but i did really enjoy happy death day, which i watched with my friend jamie a while ago! my weekend was okay, just hectic, but i didn't get a ton of time to read as a result!

i love the way she says PROVE IT in the eras film/in that audio; it scratches an itch in my brain haha. the other day i literally had "PROVE IT" stuck in my head, not even any cruel summer lyric, just the specific way she said PROVE IT. i do agree it feels a lot more theatrical than other ones (except maybe speak now)! i also didn't expect her to go era by era, but i'm glad that she did!

"i've been paralyzed for more than a week but don't let you scare you this is fairly routine" and "i've become a taxidermy version of myself" are some of my favorite lyrics on the album; it's why i immediately latched onto cocoon, i think (although i had heard a snippet of cocoon earlier and had already loved it).

i'm seeing hadestown on tour next saturday! i am just so, so excited!! this is going to be my mom's first time seeing it, so i hope she likes it! i haven't watched a bunch of bootlegs lately, but i do have some saved that i've been meaning to watch!

i really struggled with tomorrow x3 — i don't know why! i am fine with 3rd person, but i just really struggled with that one. night circus and starless sea are both in 3rd person — and i love them both a LOT! they do take some time to get into though, so take your time!! the starless sea is my favorite out of the two, but the night circus is more romantasy!

i loveeeeeed the maisie vaults! i've been listening to them nonstop, i think my ranking is: yoko → truth is → the last one → the song → holy revival → guy on a horse but i love all of them!! holy revival definitely grew on me, i was worried i wouldn't like it but i actually love it! i also miss older maisie music; i wonder if she'll ever release some of the things she's teased :( (probably not, but one can hope)

i was also surprised by "slut!"; i think everyone was! i think my favorite is now that we don't talk, or suburban legends, or is it over now? but i'm not really sure — i wasn't immediately attached to any songs like i was fearless vault, red vault or speak now vault, and i've mostly been listening to good witch deluxe! the way she sings "oh lorddddd" is so good! i was also expecting something more similar in sound to clean, or this love, and was surprised by the sounds but it is growing on me a lot more!

sometimes it's difficult! i usually do it right when i wake up — or if i wake up in the middle of the night — but sometimes i'll look at it and just close out of the tab and forget to do it till later, if i do! i used to do wordle but haven't in a while, and sometimes i'll do the spelling bee or the mini if i'm bored but i am definitely more of a sudoku girlie than i am a crossword one!

hope you have a good week ahead 🤍 🤍

[imreallyhereforkataang]

hello, i don’t know who to ask about this but i’m new to the fandom and saw that you really like kataang. what’s your interpretation of katara’s glance down after the kiss before the invasion? i’m not a fan of the surprise kiss trope but even with that said, i had thought she liked him back. it didn’t seem like she did at that point or through the rest of book 3, and then next thing we knew they were endgame in the finale. sorry for being a bother, i’m just a little confused (like katara i guess haha)

Hi, Anon! Welcome to the fandom! Hopefully it treats you nicely lol.

Ah yeah. I've seen this talked about a lot over the years. And, y'know, I get it. It can seem a little out-of-place at first since, as you noted, Katara shows signs of being romantically interested in Aang beforehand, and now that they've had their second kiss, she doesn't look too happy about it. As someone who ships them, I initially would have loved to see them happy in that moment, to take another minute to themselves just to share grins and maybe laugh a bit because they've taken that step, put their feelings out into the open, and they're both glad for it. To a shipper, or to someone who's rooting for our protagonist to express his feelings, this does feel like a celebratory moment. I'm taken out of the context of the scene for a second because the pretty music has shot in and I'm still surprised at Aang's move and I'm happy to see an actual, mutual (as Katara leans in) kiss between them.  

Then again, this situation is a lot realer for them than it is for me. I'm the viewer, I can hear The Cave of Two Lovers' theme, I can see this being painted in a positive light because we see these two come together for a brief moment, and the narrative is, in a sense, praising that. In-universe, though, it's a bit more complicated, and Katara looking sad really isn't so out-of-place.

Remember where they are and what they're doing, what they were saying moments before and what they're about to risk. For them, this is the quiet before the storm, their possibly final goodbye. Aang is about to fly off and face his destiny, confront what he's been training for over most of the year, "since the day we met" as Katara puts it, and determine the fate of the world based on whether he wins or loses. Whether he comes back or not. And he puts the reality of the situation out there. "What if...what if I don't come back?" It's the threat of that possibility that spurs him to kiss Katara. And she figures as much.

Despite the music suggesting otherwise, this isn't a happy scene (and perhaps that's why we don't get the full score until the finale, because this kiss is only foreshadowing what could be). It's tense, and bittersweet, and pretty tragic imo. Aang knows he could die. He says so. And then he kisses her. And I feel like Katara breaking out into a great big smile in that moment, even though she does have feelings for him, would just seem off. Idk, personally I'm not sure how you (impersonal) can celebrate finally kissing the person you like when you remember that what drove them to make their move just now is the very real possibility they might never see you again. That they're about to leave and face that risk, and there's nothing for you to do about it. Seems like an upsetting situation to be in. 

There's also the fact that I'm skeptical Katara didn't already know Aang had feelings for her. I'm not saying it was always on her mind or that she paid much attention to it, she may have been putting all that stuff on the back burner or pretending it wasn't there as much as it was (including her own feelings) to focus on more important things, but I think she at least knew it subconsciously. I mean, Aang's not very subtle sometimes lol, and they've shared plenty of moments. So when Aang kisses her and Katara jerks back and her eyes widen in surprise, it's not because she didn't expect Aang to have these feelings (at least imo), but because she was in the middle of talking and is taken aback that Aang broke the unspoken barrier between them. 

They're touchy feely throughout the show. Katara's kissed him on the cheek plenty of times, they've even kissed on the lips before now. They have sparks, and they've been dancing around them quite a lot, from the Book 3 premiere at the latest. But they haven't gone that extra step to put it out there too far, where there's no mistaking the meaning behind these gestures. I think, on Katara's end, she would have been okay with putting off making any official moves for a while, given the war and several other possible factors preventing her from feeling able to spend too much conscious thought and emotion on it, and so she's surprised that Aang's kissed her because they'd been keeping their more romantic intentions implicit up until then. She won't be realizing afterwards or celebrating in her head that "omg, the guy I('ve sorta been avoiding my feelings for but actually do) like likes me back," because she’s known this, but it’s been left unsaid and kept slightly quiet in Katara's musings. Now, it's out there in the open, they're past the safe zone, there's little room for ignoring the feelings anymore, and it sucks so much that they had to make their way there now. It's such tragic timing, a kiss that doesn't stem from a smiles and rainbows conversation where they sit down to talk about their feelings and where they want to go from there, but a kiss done out of desperation, out of the possibility that Aang doesn't come back. Through that lens, it's almost like they kissed "too early," especially for what happens next.

See, my impression is that Aang's kiss was meant for two possible scenarios -- Aang loses and thus doesn't come back, which means there's obviously no future for him and Katara. Alternatively, the day is won, the war is over, he comes back and the world is finally at peace; they can stop running, they can celebrate and breathe and talk about where they're going from here in an environment more appropriate for that. And since Katara kissed him back, it seems like she affirmed that there's something there for them, given he returns. But instead, something happens that I don't think they anticipated. Aang does come back, but he didn't win. So, in terms of Katara and Aang, they're now at a bit of an impasse, a situation that their kiss wasn't intended for, and it leads to this semi-awkward limbo because Aang's still alive but ideally that kiss between them wouldn't have happened yet. 

Everyone needs to regroup, start it all over again, keep grinding and come up with a new plan. There's no time to get sidetracked, now more than ever. And, to me, that's reflective of what happens to Katara after Aang kisses her and takes off from the sub.

Katara's reaction is to dwell on the kiss. She wants to, but Sokka reminds her that there's no time to. So Katara snaps herself out of it, and she moves on. And then they survive the Day of Black Sun, but the fight isn't over for them yet.

You asked about the DoBS kiss, so I'm not gonna waste your time hyper-analyzing Ember Island Players because there is a lot that's been offered and discussed about that episode. But if you were to simplify the reason for Katara's stance there, it's pretty much just holding up what was established in DoBS.

At the Invasion, while caught up in surprise because she had an expectation that they wouldn't broach the subject this way, if at all, for a while, Katara kissed Aang back, and she kissed him back because she wanted to. But since then, she's had more time to think, and she won't be so caught off guard next time. Aang expresses during EIP that he wants to try a relationship with Katara sooner rather than later, and that he'd thought she felt the same since she kissed him back (as well as the moments they shared before), but Katara is adamant now about this not being the right time. She fully intends to keep her head in the game, like Sokka reminded her at the Invasion. That's essentially what she thinks Aang needs to remember now, too (and yeah, like I said, there are other ideas that can be brought in that contribute to the articulation, but this is the primary point being conveyed here).

Whatever the reason, her response causes Aang to reevaluate his conclusion about where they stand. Even though the war isn't over, he thought that, because he survived and Katara accepted his kiss before, maybe they could try anyways. But Katara still feels stuck in limbo, and she makes that clear. It's also significant to note that Katara doesn't make Aang any promises about being together after the war, which imo was a good move on the writers' part (I have a wip about this but idk when that'll be done lol). Anyways, Aang backs off, following her lead and putting romance aside.

I do want to talk about the second half of Book 3 as a whole, though, not just EIP. I've seen people criticize this portion of the story in terms of Kataang, but I think that, besides the substance of these episodes, it's important to keep in mind that the last 10 episodes of the series (The Western Air Temple and on) originally aired 7.5 months after Day of Black Sun. Not only that, but these episodes all aired within the same week. It was a big, hyped-up event on Nickelodeon dubbed "Countdown to the Comet," and it took place over the course of 6 days. That sort of schedule for finishing a show is...unusual. But it was also intentional here. 

Even though the episodes don't have to be watched that way, the final 10 episodes are, in a way, all together the final big bang of the series. They're majorly dedicated to the most critical elements of the main story, including Zuko finally, after 2.5 seasons, joining the gaang and him finding his place in it. I'd say that The Western Air Temple to The Southern Raiders are most generally about that, about Zuko being accepted and making amends especially to the original three members of the gaang (who he's hurt much more than Toph). The viewer is gratified by watching Zuko do what we all hoped for him, forming relationships with Aang, Sokka, and Katara after all this time, merging our most important A and B plots. The other major things the last 10 episodes are for are the final battle, of course, because that's going to be our conclusion to this journey, and Aang's preparation for it.   

So yes, onscreen interactions between Aang and Katara are fewer, but by no means does that make the rest of Book 3 an undoing of what they have. All their setup has been established, we're good on that, and we're going to leave that relatively be for now while we delve into the action until we're ready to revisit. And besides, imo, they still have extremely critical moments in the last 10 episodes that I am deeply, deeply happy exist. They're more subtle and less explicitly romantic -- a lot of them take place when they're not even around each other, but they speak volumes to me about how Aang and Katara have influenced each other, and how important the other is to them.

These 10 episodes are like a refocus of our largest priorities, and Kataang coming together is put on hold (again, I think that benefits the main story) for the end. But even though we watch less scenes where they're together, with more scenes of Zuko joining and hanging out with each of them individually in place, there's hardly indication of Katara and Aang avoiding each other after their DoBS kiss, or even post-EIP. 

They're still friends first. What they're avoiding is not each other, but a new possibility for themselves, because right now they're choosing to ground their feet in what they have. Basically, around each other, they're pretending what unfolded between them never happened until, possibly, on Katara's say so, it's appropriate to resume that aspect of their relationship.

And after the war, probably into a few months of peace (based on the state of Sokka's leg), she decided it was. She felt ready, and they dove right in.

I hope that clears things up! And don't worry, you weren't a bother at all! I love talking about these two, but unfortunately I became really busy the past couple days (plus this response got deleted and I couldn't salvage it because I saved a copy of a cursed screenshot of Aang and ig it was scary enough to erase my clipboard history :3). Thanks for your patience lol!

[yakumtsaki]

What’s up Sophie?

-Oh nothing much, just looking up at the indifferent Heavens, searching for a reason to not end it all after getting beat up by fucking Miss Havisham. How could God forsake me so??

Idk Soph, I mean God works in mysterious ways. Except when you have no body skill points and start fights with people way fitter than you, then the ways God works in become a little more clear. 

-That’s it, I’m going outside and waiting for a satellite to hit me!!

Counterproposal, you go upstairs and sleep because we have your UUU pledge bs do-over tomorrow, and we’re so behind schedule it’s not even funny. And after you SHAJAR is pledging which I just know is gonna take at least 5 tries so there’s really no time to waste. 

-Ugh Shajar this, Shajar that, I don’t want to hear about that turbocuck anymore! 

Then marry her and I’ll never bring her up again!

-Gotta side with Sophie on this one, Shajar is GROSS. Yuck!

Oh wow well now that Boring Brunette Dude has chimed in that changes everything. Literally who even are you.

-Hey Frances, I admire the fact you walk around so confidently despite being the biggest pussyboi the world has even known. Good for you!

-Oh my, how nice! 

Now that wasn’t so hard, was it? Right? Sophie??

-First I’m losing fights, now I have to compliment fucking Frances Worthington, what’s next? Living in a hippie commune?? Just let me die by crepe suffocation.

Ok well as much as I’d love to devote even more time to this Havisham-induced identity crisis, I really need to focus on pathologically unlikable Shajar’s pledging attempt, so.. stay strong?

-JUST LEAVE ME ALONE I HATE YOU I HATE EVERYTHING I WISH I WAS STILL A TEEN TOWNIE

Ngl to you Soph, I too am starting to wish you were still a teen townie.

-So one of my family’s favorite games is making appointments for x-rays we don’t need just so poor people can’t have them! HAHA

-Oh haha that’s hilarious, Frances!

Shajar what’s.. happening.. you’re actually doing great? This is the first time you’ve gotten someone to like you?? Maybe there’s hope for your ridiculous popularity aspiration after all. 

-I just want to get the hell out of these dorms, I can’t deal with Gross Hippie Dude’s stink anymore!

-Oh dear lord, how can someone stink this bad?? I’m gonna vomit all over this terribly decorated dorm!

HEY it took me like 10m to decorate this masterpiece, show some respect. Also this would be a lot more convincing if you hadn’t autonomously cheated on Frances with this freakshow the other night. 

-It was the moonlight!

Does the moonlight have stink covering properties I’m not aware of?

Heather Huffington passes by and I have Shajar greet her in case this Sophie racket doesn’t work out, which is looking increasingly likely. 

-WOW what a great pairing!

Ikr???

-I was joking, what a fucking disaster in the making. 

Ti-Ning I’m truly getting tired of your shit, this is all gonna work out just the way I want it to!

WHY TF ARE YOU TWO SLEEPING IN THE SAME BED

-Why not? 

-We’re besties!

KILL ME. SHAJAR I THOUGHT YOU GOT OVER THIS

-What? Can’t I just recognize that my sister’s boyfriend is a fine piece of ass without you making it weird??

Oh God this is how it starts, this is what happened with Gunther and Brit last gen, they were always like ‘platonically’ alone in bedrooms and then one day BAM. IT’S NOT HAPPENING AGAIN DO YOU HEAR ME FUCKERS? I WON’T LET YOU

-I for one hope Shajar gets with Heather, because oh man! Now that would be a ménage à trois to remember!

...it really is too bad Jojo took the cowplant with him when he graduated because I know what I’d be using it for. 

-NO NO NO, you can’t just book x-rays you don’t need, what the fuck??

-EXCUSE ME?!

-Those are just for broken bones and shit and widely available, you need to book MRIs, everyone knows those appointments take way longer to get! 

-Ohh..that’s actually a good point.

-You’re so lucky you met me, bro, I’m really good at spreading misery.

Yea no arguments here!

-So, girls, I don’t know if you’ve noticed by my attire, but the main reason I’m here is to snag a rich old professor that can promptly die!

-Dream on toadface, huhu! The old professors are MINE 💗💗💗

-Ok that’s it..

Sophie?

-My hatred cannot be contained any longer!!!

Was it ever contained to begin with?

-You and me OUTSIDE RIGHT NOW HAVISHAM

WHY. Why would you attempt this AGAIN

-I really thought it would work this time!! :(

Why would it?? Note the simultaneous fight cloud inside which is..

..Shajar and the cheerleader! Man, both you and Sophie really have trouble with the concept of ‘don’t attack people with more body points than you’.

-I thought my hatred would carry me through!! :( 

Omg Sophie.. Literally STOP.

-NEVER!!!

-GO VEILFACE, FUCK THESE LEGACY BITCHES, WALKING AROUND LIKE THEY OWN THE PLACE

-I’M NOT ASSOCIATED WITH SHAJAR GODDAMMIT. OH FUCK, SHE’S HITTING ME WITH HER SOMETHING BORROWED

-THAT’S RIGHT, I BORROWED A BRICK FROM THE WALL

-Man, it’s so hard to concentrate with this absolute carnage outside and this guy’s sexy moves in front of me.

HMM I wonder, say you get on academic probation and then kicked out of college, would this be enough time for Cyneswith to get over you??

Maybe we should stop studying >:)

-Lol nice try, but there’s no stopping the Don Oatesmeal train! 

I hate you so much </3

Since it’s the day before finals, aka the one day each semester where we’re studying, it’s time to focus on the only two people this generation who should actually be in college:

Suffice it to say they have led different lives since coming here.

Angel gets an A and everyone else gets cucky Bs once again, except for Sophie ‘Brainchad’ Miguel, who gets Dean’s List this semester too despite not studying more than the rest of these losers. Sophie you are an ICON

-Not even these 3.5k aspiration points can fill the Veilface-Corpse-shaped hole in my heart >:(

-Look at her, dancing like an idiot, not aware that my fists of fury are silently waiting to sneak up on her and KICK HER ASS 

-I CAN HEAR YOU, BABYHANDS

-😞😞😞

Walk it off, Babyhands!

One last aesthetically pleasing game of catch, and we’re off. 

-CATCH IT OATESCUCK, CATCH IT

-I AM!!

-NOW THROW IT AT THE CHEERDLEADER AND AIM FOR THE NOSE

See you at the UUU house!

[purplesurveys]

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Have you ever felt a baby kick? Yeah, when my mom was pregnant with my brother.

What color pants/shorts are you wearing? I have red shorts on at the moment.

When is the last time you did something truly fun, and what was it? Last Friday, I’d say? Hahaha. Counted down the hours and minutes before the Butter MV drop, celebrating and freaking out with Army when it finally came out, watched the OT7 VLive that happened that afternoon, and streamed the video for nearly 24 hours straight so we could break some records, all of which we ended up achieving. It feels great to stan a group again after being out of the loop for so long lol.

What was the scariest moment of your life? A few men have lunged towards me - just to get attention, I guess? - in the past, while I was just peacefully walking. I always hear them snickering once I’ve flinched, and I always ended up crying once I’ve processed the situation.

Have you ever heard of Leonard Cohen? I know of the name, but I have no clue who he is or what he does (did?).

Pancakes or flapjacks? I don’t even know what flapjacks are, so let’s go with pancakes.

What kind of computer are you on? I’m using a Macbook Air.

Do you eat Chinese food? If so, what's your favorite dish? Yes. Minced pork with eggplant.

What are you usually doing at midnight? On weekdays, I spend it in bed, either watching videos or already reading fanfics to get ready to turn in. On Friday nights and weekends, I will usually be found on the rooftop taking a survey or two.

Have you ever developed feelings for a friend, but you were already with someone? No, I’ve never developed feelings for another person while in a relationship.

If so, how did it turn out?

Give me your brief definition of love. I will always stick by this quote, “Love never says, ‘I have done enough.’”

What is the most beautiful part of the human body, male or female? This is subjective, of course, but personally I find it to be thighs.

What kind of shoes do you wear? I’m not wearing any at the moment; but in general, I like to wear sneakers.

What is the worst thing you've ever done when you were really angry? Physical violence.

Are there any pills you take on a daily basis? If so, what? Nope.

Do you like the smell of coconuts? Not so much. I like coconut milk, though.

What is the heaviest you think you can lift? I think my personal best was like 60 or 70 lbs, back when I had weight training classes for PE in college. I remember being in so much pain once I gave the 80 lbs barbell a shot.

Do you take Tums? No.

Have you ever walked on a pier at the beach? ...Ugh. I’m pretty sure I’ve taken this survey very recently but I might as well just take it again because I don’t feel like searching for another. Anyway, I haven’t... at least not that I can remember.

How about under one? Definitely not.

At what age do you first remember feeling butterflies in your stomach around someone? I was around 12 when I was starting to feel confused about getting nervous around Andi.

Do you feel that way around anyone now? I don’t.

Do you ever talk to yourself or think deep thoughts while on the toilet? No haha but I usually bring my phone with me to keep me company.

Do you ever sing to yourself? Pretty often.

What is a sound that relaxes you? Ocean waves.

How hard has it been to reach your main goal in life? I don’t have a main goal set in life. I just live in the now and try to do things or make decisions that would keep me consistently happy.

Do you remember the song about hoes in different area codes? HAHAHAHAHA definitely took this recently; this is so embarassing. No, I still don’t know about this song.

What is your main heritage? Filipino.

What kind of pickles do you prefer, if you like pickles? I hate pickles and I find them absolutely nasty, but there are other pickled things I like, like radishes.

What kind of cheese do you prefer, if you like cheese? Mozzarella and feta.

If you could have a sea creature as a pet, what would you want? No thanks. I’m not capable of providing them proper care.

How about a farm animal? I would just stick to dogs.

So, do you have hoes in different area codes?

What is the most annoying song you can think of that came out recently? I’ve been in a BTS bubble for a solid month or so and I honestly can’t tell you my opinion about songs that have recently come out, because I literally don’t know any.

What is a song that you hate to admit you like? There isn’t any I’m guilty about.

What inspires you to get off your bum and do something productive? Knowing I’ll feel accomplished once I do it.

Do you ever use Urban Dictionary? Never anymore. I used to browse through it only when I was a lot younger.

Do you find the definitions on there to be generally funny or stupid? Both.

What comes to your mind when you hear the word 'transformation'? The Transformers series, lol.

What was something you regularly played with as a child? I always liked clay and I never really graduated from that interest, since I find the texture fascinating and fun to play with.

Have you ever given in to peer pressure? Sure.

If so, what did you do? I had my first sip of alcohol at Kaira’s 18th birthday and I was feeling left out since literally everyone else was drinking. For vaping, Gabie introduced it to me; and for smoking, it was another case of FOMO that made me want to try it out.

What part of your body have you had the most problems with in your life? My back.

Do a lot of people check you out when you're in public? Idk? I don’t take note of that kind of attention, anyway; I would find it creepy.

How many people do you know for sure to be interested in you right now? Zero.

What is a good name for a turtle? I think it would be the same process as the way I think it would be for any other pet; it would depend on their personality, their aura, etc. 

Can you imitate any accents well? If so, which one(s)? Not really. I can read Hangul and am familiar with the different tonalities used in Korean but I wouldn’t say my imitation would be considered spot-on.

Do you like having your ear nibbled on? Yes.

What makes a good kisser a good kisser? When they know how to use their tongue in a teasing way, for one. Eugh it’s too early for this lol

How many times a year do you have a family thing? What even is a family thing?

What are the best things to put in a smoothie? I don’t like smoothies.

Do you ever eat with your eyes closed and just focus on the taste? Yup, especially when I’m either eating somewhere pricey or when I’m eating at one of my favorite restaurants.

What do you dislike most about where you live right now? It’s a pretty uneventful city, and if I want to have some fun I always have to go to Manila.

Has anyone ever given you a rose/roses? Yup.

Are you watching your weight? No.

Have you ever became really good friends with someone you found online? Yes. Aliyah and I are still friends and I’m glad we’ve been able to maintain our friendship even after mine and Gab’s falling out. It’s a shame the three of us didn’t get to meet in real life though, and it will 100% never happen now. I also used to have a group of Twitter friends back in my wrestling stan days but it’s been a very long time since we’ve gone our separate ways. I have yet to find friends on Army Twitter but I really doubt I would get to build established friendships any time soon because EVERYONE IS SO YOUNG OVER THERE

What makes your best friend your best friend? They understand me better than anyone else does.

Do you have a drunk uncle? I have a couple of them.

Do you hear weird noises in your house at night? Nope.

What is something you do that is generally more like something the opposite sex does? Ignoring this question.

What is the girliest thing you do, if you're a girl? Also ignoring this.

What is the coolest tattoo you've ever seen? I find line tattoos to be pretty cool and beautiful in general. The minimalist look it goes for works really well.

Have you ever created anything artistic that you're proud of? If so, what? That vase I molded during my Vigan trip :) It was the first (and so far) only thing I’ve made from scratch, and even though I didn’t get to take it home, I’m still glad I had the opportunity to try pottery.

Do you only eat the middle of the oreo, if you eat oreos? No? That’s pretty wasteful. I eat the whole cookie.

Do you know anyone with a huge ego? Hahahahaha. Yes.

If so, is there anything else about them you actually like? Not anymore, no.

Have you ever used a racial slur, even jokingly? Most likely as a stupid teenager when I didn’t know any better.

Do you have any friends who are more like siblings to you? Angela and Laurice.

If so, what about them do you like most? They’re very easy to talk to, and they’re both selfless and generous.

What is everyone else in your house doing right now? My mom is making dinner while I believe everyone else is just on their phones waiting for the dish to be made.

What is the most money you've ever had at one time? I don’t remember the exact amounts anymore but my mom used to hand me cheques and regularly assign me to pay for me and my sister’s tuition back in grade school and high school, since she had work during the day and didn’t have time to stop by the school herself.

How long do you think it would take you to run a mile? I don’t know but definitely longer than what would be considered a decent duration for a fit person.

Look down. What do you see? I can see my legs but just barely since it’s dark out.

What is a subject that makes you uncomfortable? Topics I don’t know too much about.

What is a subject you can talk on and on about and not get sick of it? BTS, my field, and history.

What kind of mood were you in most of today? Comfortable. We had the aircon on all day and I just watched BTS MVs and live performances, and I don’t really feel bad about being unproductive for once.

Has anyone ever walked in on you naked? Just once or twice.

Tell me an inside joke you have with someone. Togepi.

What is the worst thing someone could do to you emotionally? Tell me hurtful words.

What is the worst thing you've ever done to someone emotionally? Idk...maybe cut them off unexpectedly? I'll usually have no problem doing this with people who make me uncomfortable.

How do you feel now about the first person you ever dated? Nothing. She’s not in my life.

How about the last person (your last ex)? She’s the same person.

What is the best invention ever invented? The internet.

What is something that needs to be invented? Not a completely new invention but I wish programs that can identify songs for you, like Siri, can be more improved to be able to recognize songs just by humming the tone. So far they can only name songs if you play it clearly for a few seconds, but it can be a hassle if I wanna have access to a certain song but only remember the melody and otherwise have no idea what the lyrics are or who sang them.

Describe your eyes. I don’t think they’re anything special. I don’t count them as a striking feature of mine.

What always makes you burp? Eating quickly. And beer.

What is something you hate doing that most couples do? There isn’t anything.

What's your astrological sign? Taurus.

What are you doing tomorrow? I wanna finally watch the Friends reunion special since I didn’t feel like watching it today. I also have a press release to write for one of my clients – they requested for it Friday and want it by Monday :(

[big-girl-toaster]

Emily Sonnett - player analysis

A compilation of Sonnett‘s strengths, weaknesses (cause everyone has them) and general observations from Portland and USWNT games (mostly from 2018 and 2019) ft. my irrelevant opinion.

Enjoy!

Before I’ll start a few notes:

I’m obviously not a professional soccer analyst person or whatever, so please don’t come for my ass. These are just patterns or reoccurring things in Sonnett’s game I observed while rewatching tons of PTFC and USWNT games. 

I will focus on a few key points, that doesn’t mean that she has deficiencies in other aspects, sometimes it’s just hard to show them and I tried to avoid stating arguments without giving visual evidence. (All the links and credits are below the gifs)

I would love it if you gave additions, feedback or criticism to this post but all in all I just hope that you enjoy reading a bit about Sonnett’s more professional side and soccer tactics in general.

Please let me know if the format is weird, I’m still figuring out how to make big posts.

I sincerely apologize for the low quality of gifs, as I said, I’m figuring things out and I wasn’t able to upload proper clips.

And lastly, Sonnett is a precious little bean and I enjoyed making this more than I should have. Also, did I use this as an excuse to spend days on end rewatching old games? Yes I did.

I will start with three main strengths I think she brings to the pitch:

Communication / Leading the back line                                               (this is in regards to her position with the Thorns, I will talk about the differences between PTFC/USWNT later on)

As a center back you naturally have a more responsible role in terms of shifting players that are in front of you and communicating things to them they can’t necessarily see. Sonnett embraces that role completely and at 25 years old she is at the level of world class CBs in that regard. A lot of players take on that role much later in their career. Her college coach Steve Swanson for the University of Virginia said about her:

"There is a standard of focus and intensity that Emily demands of the players that play around her. She’s not afraid to hold her teammates accountable in that regard. That was one of the unique aspects of our team dynamic this year, is that Emily's style of leadership is different than the team was used to. I think the team has recognized that the qualities Emily has, we need.“

http://www.espn.com/espnw/news-commentary/article/14100802/virginia-emily-sonnett

This clip I wanted to show you is from a situation that is very common for a defensive line but overlooked bc we as viewers naturally tend to look at the movement of the ball. It’s the intentional shifting of the back line in the exact right moment to let an opposing attacker run into offside. In the original video you can hear Sonnett shout “DROP THE LINE“ and Menges and Kling follow her movement which results in Alex being successfully caught offside at the side line. 

((Tumblr won’t let me upload video clips, so here’s a crappy gif (look at Sonny and Menges), click the link to get to youtube, it’s at 21:30))

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2JGM6Nju0b4

A simple moment but a very crucial part of back line coordination.

      2.    Box positioning

A.k.a. one of the most important parts of good defending. Sonnett covers runs from attackers almost always with textbook precision. She anticipates passes and is able intercept balls which makes her a proactive rather than a reactive player. When she does have to go for a tackle she brings a feistiness that she probably learnt from a certain Kelley O’Hara I can imagine. She usually opts for slide tackles and that decision could be debatable if you’re the coach but it’s just so good to look at tbh

(credit to @geekmythologys for the last gif)

But anyway, her box positioning. Having watched a lot of games with my eyes glued to number 16, I can of course safely say that Sonnett knows what she’s doing. But I’ve been thinking more and more that she often has a sort of intuitive approach when it comes to box positioning in particular. For this next clip I’m gonna need your opinion. Normally I wouldn’t tell Sonnett to abandon her player in that moment, especially bc it creates a 3v2 situation on the attackers left side and also considering the angle in which Dunn is facing the goal. However, she steps in and is able to block the ball.

to see it properly: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Ev3SFCmbqQ  at 15:40

What do you think?

Oh and this is just excellent clearance work. AD was certainly hyped about it:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cvcOuadyFu4

    3.   Offensive effort

Sonnett is one of the highest scoring CBs of the league but her offensive efforts aren’t measurable in just goals. For corner kicks she likes to do the near-post run Julie Ertz style and has been successful in the past, most notably the 2-0 in the semifinal 2017 against Orlando (which resulted in this gem of a gif):

She likes to stay up top for a bit when her position is covered by someone else and tbh I’m living for these moments.

Here she encourages quick playing and would have gotten through with it if the nwsl had good refs. She didn’t even touch her. (get it? haha) 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GOIDLJ4ZL1A

Here she drives the ball after winning it, even if her teammates are pushing up late and then she stays up front to participate in the counter attack. Unfortunately nothing evolves out of this situation.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Ev3SFCmbqQ

Right. Those were the strengths, in terms of weaknesses, I don’t wanna pick apart the smallest things but this is what I found:

Misjudged midfield positioning

We’ve talked about her excellent positioning in the box, however, a huge part of modern soccer is having the Center Backs pushed up to the half-line (as well as inverted outside backs but that’s another point). And what I’ve noticed is that sometimes during turnovers Sonnett goes in to put pressure on the player and with that an even wider space opens up behind her that the opposing team could exploit. Like in this picture.

Blue is the ball movement, red (Sonnett) goes in when in my opinion green (Lindsey) should have been the one putting pressure on the ball bc now Daly can run into that open space. 

Luckily Sonnett’s speed prevents Houston from getting anything out of it but Daly tried it several times during the game.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GOIDLJ4ZL1A

My second example is that iconic tactical foul against ARod that we all remember.

Her positioning isn’t optimal, Klings pass isn’t the best, ARod gets her off of the wrong foot, she can’t turn around fast enough and has to stop her with a professional foul which is (I’ll say it again) demanded by coaches in situations like that. But anyway, tumblr has talked enough about this game rip

      2. Determining the biggest threat

This is a minor one, because Sonnett is usually really good at reading the game and making the right decisions. However in this game against Australia, she tries to cover the space behind Dahl which is technically reasonable but considering how wide open the Australian is, she should have closed her in earlier. That little hop inside the center of the field made the difference and the opposing player was able to score. 

I think it’s safe to say that stuff like this comes with age and experience. And again, Sonnett is only 25!

(The whole game against Australia is awesome for spotting strengths and weaknesses, plus we get tons of Sonny close-ups thus I can recommend rewatching it) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mBNvE3owllY

Two more things I wanted to include are two risks that could be relevant in the future.

From time to time she doesn’t control her arm movement in the box.

This is obviously the natural thing you do when you make a move like that but with the new rules by Fifa, defenders are more and more limited and this would have been a penalty if it had hit her arm. Idk it could bite her in the ass at some point.

      2. Intuitive positioning 

We’ve talked about this and people might have different opinions on it. I personally think though that this might make the difference between a great and a world class defender. So I say go for it Sonny.

Phew, I’m almost done guys, congrats for getting this far, I hope it’s interesting at all.

The last thing I wanna mention is this: The difference between Portland Sonnett and National Team Sonnett, a.k.a. CB Sonnett and RB Sonnett.

Even though as a right back your role is more offensive, I feel like Sonnett has to be pushed to go for it. She rarely does those runs in behind the winger and towards the end line. When she does it it’s great but compared to Kelley she simply isn’t there yet. It also seems to me like for Portland she takes more liberties in pushing forward which maybe is a confidence thing as well. She is a given for the Thorns but had to fight to regain that roster spot for the NT in 2017 after not being called up for several months. Maybe the fear of making mistakes bc of being out of position hinders her a bit? (I’m saying this while being aware that I of course don’t know what the coaches want her to do and what the different game plans require of her.) Anyway, I love her 1v1 defending as RB. I think she is underrated and absolutely deserves a spot on the Olympic roster next year. 

One last low quality gif because we gotta stay on brand.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mBNvE3owllY

Well that’s it, I hope you enjoyed it. Again, I’d be grateful for additions, opinions, feedback, whatever. 

Thanks for reading :)

[har-rison-s]

i was born to love you: one

request: Ok! Well, could you write a Ben!Roger story? He has an affair with some girl and cheats on the reader but she finds out and the relationship is over. He regrets what he did to her right away and everytime he sees her hanging out with the group (cause she is friends with the boys and Mary) he feels embarrased and sad. He wants her back so he writes a song for her (maybe I Was Born To Love You or a song of your choice) and Idk… a happy ending, please? Is that okay for you?

A/N: Love this idea. Angst is my favourite to write. Hope this meets your dreams, and thank you for requesting. I split this into multiple parts, because I tend to do so haha. Hope you enjoy. Happy reading!

warnings: infidelity, drug use (very slight).

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Roger sits on the edge of the hotel bed, head down and shoulders slumped. He's tired, drunk and hangover, about to smoke his mind out. But he can't bring himself to even stand up, his eyes fixed on staring at the floor, blown wide and not moving at all. How could he ever do this?

The cause for his greatest regret starts to move around the bed and makes noises that cut like knives into his nerves. Roger can't help but groan out, and her rolling closer to him makes him stand up immediately. Her hands are empty.

He wants to tell her to get out, shout at her, but mostly himself, but Roger realises that he can't even remember her name. He just wants her out of here, out of his sight, out of his life, wishing she'd never been in it at all. 

Roger wishes most of all that he'd never met or seen her while he walks to the small fridge in his hotel room. He opens the door only to meet utter disappointment—there are no drinks left in the fridge. Roger sighs and looks around the rest of the room. It's full of empty beer and whiskey bottles, cigarette butts and plastic cups. Fuck's sake...

“Morning, Roger.” The naked girl in his bed greets him, and Roger glances at her over his shoulder. She's got the hotel bedding wrapped around her, and it's good that she has. His immediate response to seeing her is comparing her every feature to the ones Y/N has. And that makes hie eyes gloss over.

“You can go.” He says to her simply, turning around and pouring himself a glass of water, blinking his tears away. 

“But what if I want to stay?” She asks and Roger shakes his head. He turns around and leans his back against the counter, drinking his water. His eyes fix on her. She's, of course, good-looking, as all the women in the world are, but she can't compare to Y/N.

“Please go.” Roger replies and gestures for the door. “The breakfast is still available downstairs, I think, so...” He trails off, not really knowing what to say. “But don't come back.”

The expression on the girl's face saddens, but she understands. She would have never expected the one and only Roger Taylor to ask her to stay, and even ask her for more. He's famous, and has a girlfriend, after all. She can't help hoping that Y/N Y/L/N won't find out about them two sleeping together. She's just for fun, and she doesn't want to be the reason of a lovely relationship ending. 

She puts on all her clothes and walks out of Roger's hotel room, smiling at him before she does. He doesn't respond in any way, but sighs contently after she leaves. 

Roger calls for room service to clean everything up and throw out the trash. While the old lady does her duty, Roger takes a long shower. He wanted to take a bath, but decided against it when thinking that he'll probably fall asleep there. He has other plans.

Once the cleaning lady has left and Roger's done rolling himself a joint, he lits the end of it and sits on the floor, his back resting against the bed, and he takes a long, deep drag. He needs marijuana to erase any memory of last night and what he's done. Roger was in a dilemma between calling Y/N and telling her about it the second he realised he's been unfaithful and not telling her ever and making himself forget it ever happened.

He can't, of course, control what the girl of the night will do—will she tell the whole world she's slept with Roger Taylor or will she keep quiet. He wishes for both. Roger wishes for a lot of things right now, but none of those things are losing Y/N. 

Roger doesn't even know where she is right now. They came to the party together, but he lost her at one point during the night, but then he thinks she's probably with Deaky, her close friend. That's how they met - through John. When Queen had finally formed and it was time for their first gig, Deaky took Y/N to see them. She was so proud and happy at the gig, and watched all of the guys individually. Then John introduced her to the rest of the band, and Roger had fallen in love with her from the first glance. So had she.

Roger chuckles at the memory and looks up at the ceiling. His eyes are completely red from smoking his joint, and he can't even see properly. He wants to cry so much, but fears that his eyes will start bleeding if he does so. 

How will he ever live with this?

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“Hi, my love!” Y/N cheers once she comes inside Roger's hotel room. “Sorry, I got up late and then got caught up at breakfast...” She sighs. Her face is free of make-up, laced with lack of sleep and tiredness, but she covers all that up by a bright smile that makes her shine like the actual sun. She searches for Roger in the room, but she can't quite find him. Then she spots his hand on the edge of the bed.

Y/N furrows her eyebrows and puts her things down, walking around the big bed after doing so. Roger's passed out in a sitting position, his left arm resting on his bed and his head almost reaching his lap. Y/N kneels down before him and takes both his cheeks in her small hands, lifting his face up. His face doesn't move a nerve.

“Roger.” She says, trying to wake him up. He still doesn't react. Y/N grins as she knows what will wake Roger up—he hates when Y/N touches his eyes. She stretches down the skin below his left eye with her thumb, doing the same with the skin above the same eye. She notices his eyes are blood-shot. He's been smoking, and surely not just cigarettes. 

There's a groan from Roger and he moves his head away from Y/N's invading fingers. There's a glad smile on her face and she sighs quietly. She moves Roger's face back to her and he squints his eyes, opening them slowly. He's very confused at first, but his eyes focus on Y/N.

“Good morning, Rog.” She says with a soft smile. The corner of his lips tugs up slightly upon seeing her, but then his face changes as if he'd have a heart attack. He hasn't forgot what he did last night. “Why have you smoked your mind out?” Y/N asks. Her voice is so caring, and so innocent. She has no idea what he's done.

“Hi.” Roger finally speaks, his voice imitating the sound of a dog growling. Y/N chuckles and lets him yawn and have his morning stretch, sitting back on her knees. “What time is it?” Roger asks. 

“Almost two, day-time.” Y/N responds, glancing at her watch. “And you, mister, have a plane to catch. I hope you haven't messed your clothes up too much.” She says and pats Roger's leg. Roger looks at her, and his are the perfect example of guilty, though she doesn't see it. Not yet. 

Roger lunges at Y/N, taking her lips between his. His gesture surprises Y/N, and also the horrible smell of his breath, but she gives in. She feels like she hasn't seen Roger in ages. 

Roger's hands comb through her washed hair, and he kisses her more. He feels sad, almost like this would be the last time he can kiss her like this, freely. No matter what happens, he knows the truth will come out at some point. So Roger pulls Y/N even closer to him and kisses her like his life depends on it.

She can't deny the feeling that builds in her stomach from the way Roger's kissing her. But he's practically on the verge of passing out, and they have to get to the airport in time, and get all their stuff in their suitcases before that.

Y/N puts her hands on his cheeks and pushes him away slightly. “Missed me that much, have you?” She asks slowly, her eyes searching his. Roger is avoiding her stare, looking at her lips or even lower. “What's happened, Roger? Why have you smoked so much?”

Roger shrugs. “I just felt like it.” He tries his best. He falls against the bed and Y/N laughs, shaking her head. 

“Felt like being in a coma?” She asks. Roger nods and gives her a grin.

“Sorry, must have had no control over myself.” He tells her, fiddling with this hands and yawning again. Y/N smiles at him sweetly and stands up. 

“'S alright, as long as you don't die.” She says, walking past the bed. “But get up, we have to manage to be at the airport in an hour. Did you take a shower?”

“Yeah.” Roger says, staring through the window. “That was before I smoked.” He mumbles, but Y/N hears him. 

“Then go again, the water's free here.” Y/N chuckles, but Roger doesn't feel like laughing. “Rog. Get up! There's really not much time. And you're always taking long showers.” She says and groans at the last part. Roger grins and pushes out a breathy chuckle. He then stands up and walks over to where Y/N is, wrapping his arms around her slowly.

“Shower with me.” He says, almost begging as his hair tickles Y/N's shoulder and she laughs. 

“I already showered, I feel fresh enough.” She replies and turns around in Roger's hold, looking at him. Her pointer finger bumps his nose and he keeps looking at her lips. “Go.” Y/N laughs again while talking, and slaps Roger's butt. He bites his lip at that, but pulls away from his girl. While she's still his.

Roger nods and walks in a very lazy manner to the bathroom to shower for the second time that day. Y/N gets all his clothes into his suitcase while he's at it and also organises her own stuff, humming one of Queen's songs to herself. It's the end of their tour, and the band and their girls are about to go home. Y/N can't wait having Roger all to herself again for a long time.

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Kiss me

31 – “I can’t keep kissing strangers and pretending that they’re you.” From this prompt x.

Genre: Jin (actor!au) x reader, fluff (I think), angst, drabble

Summary: You are practicing a script with Jin, your best friend and one of the hottest actors right now. As the two of you follow the script things get a little out of hand, and you end up doing something that you’ve told yourself never to ever do.

Word count: 1,255 (idk why my drabbles are always getting up to 1k words)

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“I can’t keep kissing strangers and pretending that they’re you,” your best friend sangs passionately.

You squint at the paper in front of you and couldn’t help but burst out laughing. “Dude! This is so corny what the fuck?!”

You seem to have laughed a little too hard and too long. You don’t hear a response from Jin. When you’ve calmed down you straightened up and look across you where your best friend is sitting, arms crossed with an angry face on. He’s waiting for you to stop fooling around. Even with his face mad, you can’t help but admire how handsome his face looks.

“Are you done yet?” Jin squints his eyes. “I need to practice this part. Can you take this seriously, please?”

You clear your throat. “Okay, okay. I’m sorry.  You know I can never stay focused on these scripts. It’s so funny.” You chuckle.

“Well, I need you to be serious for a few minutes. I’m- I’m nervous that I might mess up.”

“Yeah, you do sound nervous. Why are you so nervous?” you realize that Jin has been a little more nervous than he usually is. You’ve been practicing scripts with Jin since he decided to change his career path from taking his father’s business company to becoming an actor. It wasn’t easy, Jin had to cut a lot of people out of his life as he made this transition in his career life. The last time you saw him this nervous was when he was auditioning for his first few movies.

“Because! Because…” Jin hesitates to finish the sentence.

“Because what?”

“Because this is my first time doing a kiss scene well not the first time, but it’s the first time that I’m going to kiss Soeun. She’s a very good actress,” Jin confesses. “I don’t want to look stupid.”

“Oh yeah that’s right,” You feel a heavy ache forming in your stomach. You try to ignore this feeling by straightening up. “Jin, don’t worry. I’m sure you’ll do fine! You always do great on your scenes.”

“Yeah, because they didn’t involve that many kissing or intimacy,” Jin points out. Jin has starred in a lot of action movies, but this is the first movie that Jin is in a romantic relationship with the main actress and this actress is Soeun. The heavy ache swirls in your stomach again as you remember how pretty Soeun is. Suddenly, you feel a little envious as thoughts from a box that you’ve chained up and threw away in the back of your mind open for a quick second. You shake it off, and try to focus.

“Calm down. Remember when you got the part for your first movie and you were so scared that you might mix up the lines on set?” You remind him.

“Yeah. I did mess up the line though,” he pouts.

“That’s not the point,” you laugh remembering how stupid and cute he looked when he stuttered the lines on set. “You did it again, and again, and you never gave up. You ended up doing the scene so well that they made you a main character.”

He tilts his head as if he had realized something. “That’s right. I am pretty good at this stuff,” he flatters himself.

You roll your eyes. “Ew bro. Can you at least be a little humble?” You question the young man. “Let’s get back to the scene please. I’ll ‘try’ to be serious.” He follows your directions and straightens up.

“Okay let’s start from where Jiyeon sees you stuffing your tongue down another girl’s throat,” Jin looks at you with a ‘really?’ look. “What? It’s true. Your character is stupid and afraid to confront his feelings for the girl.”

“Okay, okay. Can we get on with the scene?” Jin fixes his paper.

“Jiyeon. Wait,” Jin’s voice changes to a lower and serious tone. “It’s not what you think.”

“Oh yeah? Then what is it? What was I thinking then?” You were taken aback by how good you sound. You were acting your character much better than you thought you would.

“I- I can’t-”

“You know what?! There’s nothing we have to discuss here. There’s nothing going on between us so I’m not sure why you have to explain yourself. You did nothing wrong,” you suddenly feel the swirling ache in your stomach appearing again. Maybe you’re just too indulged in this script, but you can’t help but feel the words sting your chest as if it is the truth inside of you that you’ve kept hidden at the back of your mind.

“I can’t keep kissing strangers and pretending that it’s you!” Jin explodes. You look up from your script and he’s looking right at you. His stare was so intense you feel a little nervous looking back at him. You want to look away, but you can’t.

“I’ve never felt this way about anyone before. I can’t focus on anything because I’m always thinking about you! Do you know how crazy you drive me? Do you know how much I want to kiss you? How much I want to be with you? It’s driving me nuts, and the worst part is that I can’t have you,” Jin stares at you so intensely as if he were saying it to you. You forget for a split second that this is only acting. You shake your head quickly trying to get back to reality.

“K-kiss me then,” You stutter.

“What?” Jin reads the next line, but he continues to look at you.

“Kiss me then,” This time you say it with more confident in your voice. You’re staring straight into his eyes. Something that you’ve told yourself never to do. You suddenly notice how pink and plumped his lips look. It’s as if they were calling you. You try to fight back what is coming before you, but before you knew it, it was too late.

Your body shoots forward and your lips smash onto his. Your eyes are shut and your lips are locked on his for a few seconds. Jin’s eyes are wide open and he was just as shocked as you were. Embarrassed you try to pull back, but you feel him kissing you back. Gentle and soft just how you imagined it. You let yourself stay in that moment for a quick second, but you snap back into reality.

You break apart from him, and the both of you are breathing heavily. If you weren’t so flustered you would’ve noticed that Jin was also just as flustered as you.

“Uh- um,” you stutter. “I forgot. Um. I have to do this thing with um, Nayeon. Uh- bye. You did good- very great! You’ll do great! Haha…” You quickly grab your stuff and run out the door before Jin can say anything.

Your face was heating up. There are many things that you’ve kept inside of you because you’re afraid that you might mess up your friendship with Jin. You’ve kept your feelings hidden from Jin for so long that you thought you didn’t feel it anymore. Funny how one look into his eyes can just tear open everything up so quickly.

Jin has kissed many girls before. You thought. He’ll probably think of this incident as nothing, but practice right? You laugh at your own thought. You probably just got too flustered in your own feelings. Everything will be fine, you hope. You’re overthinking way too much. It’s probably just a small kiss to Jin. Yeah, just a small accident.

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Author’s Note: Hello! Thank you for reading. It’s literally 1:30 am right now, and i have to wake up early tomorrow. I hope you enjoyed this scenario of mine. Jin has been wrecking my bias list all week long and I don’t know what to do with these feels lols. Please don’t ask for updates.

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(1) Hello I am back!! I'm sorry it's been long, these past couple of weeks have had me swamped with homework :( and yet I still didn't do it all 🤡 also get ready for a bunch of messages because 1.) responses and 2.) my thoughts on Lockscreens. Spoiler: I am Emotional haha. Aww, thank you :') I used to think it was weird to give yourselves nicknames but I'm past that now haha. Another one I go by sometimes is "Lizard" because I stick my tongue out a lot when I'm talking??

(2) and people think I'm cold blooded because I get really cold easily and like to bask in the sun. I mostly just did traditonal sketches and a lot of screencap redraws. I want to get into art again, but I'm taking it slow for now and focusing more on my writing. And I feel that too LOL. I'm going to start a blog dedicated to reblogging x reader fics that I like because I'm too embarrassed to do so on my main blog (I tell all of your followers 🤡)

hey Honeymoon! as long as you’re taking care of yourself, that’s all I care about 💞 i’m gonna post my responses into two parts. a Lockscreens segment after you send in the rest of your thoughts and a get-to-know-you part for now!

(also I’M FROM CA TOO AND WHY ON EARTH ARE YOU SENDING ME MESSAGES AT 3AM OML)

ngl, i feel like the best person to give you a nickname is yourself! i jokingly gave myself the nickname ‘Daddy’ and that’s literally become my “rave” personality LMAO. but i can understand why some people think it’s weird 🤷 honestly lizard is a bad-ass nickname !! i’m the same way - being in the cold makes me sooo sleepy and i’d rather bask in the sun 😂

i’d love to see your artwork or writing sometime! please feel free to send it over 🥰

(3) Honestly even with all my issues it's kind of nice being a hopeless romantic! Like you said it gives me the chance to day dream haha. Maybe I have my head in the clouds a lot but sometimes it's nice to be there. There's so many, but I think it's a tie between enemies to lovers and friends to lovers. I love the drama and comedy from the former but I'm so Soft for the latter, and that's highkey how I want my relationship to start.

(4) I think building that bond with someone before you even start dating them is really sweet, and having that connection by the time you commit to each other is 💓 I'm sorry you've been having writers block, that's the worst :( if it helps, the past two chapters have turned out amazing, I love them so much!! I think the closest I got to hardcore shipping something that wasn't canon was RinHaru? But there was also a lot of tension and affection in their relationship so I could see it being canon

there’s nothing wrong with having dreams! just so long as you can ground yourself at the end of the day. 

enemies to lovers is always the funniest for me to read TBH. because it’s such an inevitable cliche haha. friends to lovers though -- oooo my heart. 

the best relationships start with friendship. it’s the most authentic imo. like for me, it’s exhausting bearing my heart open to new people each time i want to get involved with someone romantically. but having someone who already knows you inside out??? swoon. what about a trope you dislike?

ah tyty, i’m glad you enjoyed them! the writers’ block wasn’t too bad for these chapters. i’ve had them typed up for a few weeks now :’) 

rinharu is so cute though! but Harukoto (or whatever the ship name is tbh) is super cute too. but maybe i just really like the best friend to lovers trope LMAO

(5) I just looked at their insta and !!!!!!!!!! that's so cute! I like bokuaka but I've never looked into it as much as others, but their art made me have Feelings lol. I think that is a good view to have on family tbh. I've developed a relationship with my blood family and we're close, but there's something special about the relationships and love you have for people you choose to stay with. I love Tiana!! I think she's a really underrated Disney character :(

(6) She really encompasses Disney's message of working hard to achieve your dreams, and she's a strong, independent woman without being closed off and rejecting her feelings. I think it's so cute and cool that she had that much of an impact on you :D Oof, I get that 💀. Men are gross 🤢 I don't get it very often because I live in SoCal and tbh to a lot of other people brown just equals mexican lol. They're right but I really don't look full mexican. Portuguese and Islander people can tell though

bokuaka art makes me have ~ feelings ~ i also really like @/liann1009 and @/maddox_rider on IG! (tbh idk if they have a tumblr whoops) liann1009 does a lot of OiHina whereas maddox_rider does bokuaka which is ridiculously cute too 🥰 

DUDE OMG YES!!! Tiana and Kita (from Atlantis) are under-rated QUEENS who deserved better!! we need representation out here in this b*tch!!! 

idek why, but some people think i look hispanic 🙃 but yes bby, men are gross and should be better!! i have yet to meet a man who deserves to stand on equal ground to me, imma be real. (2d men don’t count but y’know). does it bother you when people mistake your ethnicity? 

(7) Thank you!! Ngl it's kind of scary wondering about what the industry is going to be like because I'm sure I will run into a lot of biased people and sources, but learning to navigate that is just part of the job. Of course there's people who will read biased sources and attack you too, but you can't always escape those people :/ and thank you love, you're so sweet 💕 That's really admirable! It takes a lot of work and creativity to start a business, I'm sure you'll be successful 😊

(8) what kind were you thinking of? and psych is super cool too! Having that understanding of people and the world can be really eye opening and fun :D It's okay, he was one of my favorite teachers but looking back he was an asshole. He had his good/funny moments and did a lot for me, but he also abused some of editors in my journalism class, and some friends of mine :/ He wouldn't appreciate their work, sometimes insult them, and even encouraged my friend to not sleep for the sake of the paper

i’m positive that you’ll do just fine once you get out there! it seems like you have a pretty thick skin :) 

i really wanted to open a business to help support under-represented groups receive an education - with major focus on minority groups such as orphans/foster children, veterans, and the homeless. there’s so much logistics that tbh i’m too ~stressed~ to think about so i’m tabling that for awhile :’) 

bruhhh fuck that teacher. drop his addy, i just wanna talk real q 💞   if you can’t support all of your students, then there is no point in being a professor!! there is literally 0 reason to be rude when you’re in a position of power, especially when it involves someone’s passion, career, and/or education.

(9) I just remembered that there's a limit to how many asks you can send in a certain amount of time so if these suddenly stop I'm sorry! I'll come back when I can haha. I wouldn't say I'm all that great tbh, but I'm proud of a lot of my works LOL. My favorite part about it is using makeup and tools to just turn into something else. Wounds are always fun, but making yourself a gargoyle or some other creature is what makes it so interesting to me.

(11) I'm OBSESSED with the makeup and costumes from LOTR. It's my biggest inspiration. I can go on about it haha. That's so cool!! Being a part of the whole production, especially all sides to it, sounds so fun. Do you have any favorite memories from your time in high school? I'd love to hear them if you have any :O Confession: I have never seen any of those asdfkljvk. I know I really should though and it's on my to do list ! I've heard really great things about all of them !

imma be real, i didnt know there was a limits on asks LMAO. i did hear that they sometimes get eaten though, so i really hope that doesn’t happen 😅 

we all start somewhere. your first step will never look like someone else’s, nor should it. as long as it’s something that you can look back upon and be proud of and know that you’ve grown from, that’s all that matters! 

just imagining someone using makeup to turn themselves into a gargoyle has my head spinning  🤣 like ya girl can barely do her eye-makeup, let alone anything as intense as that! what’s been the most difficult project? 

DUDE, I LOVE MEDIEVAL-HISTORICAL WORKS! like the dresses from that Mary from Reign wears has my heart so softtttt. dfsnosdf. please!! tell me some of your fav things about LOTR  💖

omg high-school was so long ago, i don’t think i have any favorite memories from it 🙃 i think the opening night of a production would be the best. listening to the audiences reactions as the performers left their hearts on-stage, seeing all the pieces fall together, that was always absolutely incredible. wbu, what did you enjoy about hs? 

i have very strong opinions on those musicals LMAO. i can talk about them forever  🤩

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My Impressions of the Types

These are based solely on my experiences. They turned out a little more negative than I intended, since I’m not great at expanding on the positives. I love all the types, so focus on the good parts please lol. Also included: advice for each type.

ENTP

We’ll start here, because this is me. I don’t actually know a whole lot of other ENTPs, at least not very closely right now in my life. The ones I do know I get along very well with. They’re funny and it’s always great getting into discussions about random things. Tbh tho ENTPs are kind of 50/50 hit or miss with their Fe. Ones that have healthy Fe are all around wonderful to be around; they’re fun, engaging, and nice. Ones that lack healthy Fe sometimes act weird just to get attention or will say some pretty insensitive things. Most are pretty awkward though, in one way or another. It’s hard to break past the acquaintance barrier unless they’re actively trying to befriend you. My advice: work on socializing and figuring out what to say and also not sucking at being organized (I’m working on these too lol)

INTP

INTPs are really similar to ENTPs, just quieter and awkward in a different way. I love them to death though. The ones I’ve met are really great people and always have some funny remark or interesting insight on anything. The one I’m closest with right now is a little bit dependent socially, so I feel kind of tied to them at social gatherings. Oh wait there was this one other one I knew a while ago who’s a huge jerk, and rejected anything good about others. My advice: open up a little more. You’re great, people will love you if you give them the chance (unless you’re an edgy jerk, then work on being a decent person, then open up, but that’s probably not you).

ESTP

I love ESTPs they’re so fun. As an Ne-dom though, it’s sometimes hard to relate to them, as abstract discussion is much more interesting for me than for them. Also, I find that every single ESTP is into some combination of sports, cameras, and cars (or for the 1% that don't fit any of those, try music or video games). As long as you know something about each of those, you’ll be able to have some sort of conversation/hang out with any ESTP. Many are prone to doing really stupid things though (at least the male ones I know) and will probably die someday in a silly stunt. Overall, super chill people. My advice: Don’t do anything too stupid. Always calculate your risks.

ISTP

I don’t know too many ISTPs very well. But the ones I do know, I very much enjoy hanging out with. As an ENTP, I love their strong Ti. It’s so fun to dissect things in conversation with them. They sometimes will also suffer from Edgy Jerk Syndrome like INTPs, but if not, they’re very likeable. They’re also really chill, like ESTPs, but in an even more laid-back way. Unless you’re annoying, then they will not be chill at you at all. My advice: Be nice to people, and keep doing you.

ENFP

Oh dear where do I begin? My 13 y/o brother and my dad are ENFPs and as far as I can remember I’ve had an ENFP best friend/sidekick. My current best friend is an ENFP and he’s great and I love him but also I hate him. My dad is such an incredibly extraverted person if we’re outside the house. He will talk to literally anyone about basically anything. Now that I think about it, my brother is the most exaggerated form I can think of of each of his function (except inf Si). His Ne is literally insane. Ne: For the past few weeks he’s been singing/screaming about “chickensquids” to the tune of any song he can think of (and he loves memes). Fi: Ohhh boy has this kid got some not-so-healthy-Fi. He always has to have his way or he starts yelling. He doesn’t care much for what others want and will make some selfish decisions like all the time. (But when he’s not he is a really fun person to be around). Te: When he wants something, he will create a specific plan for how he wants it and he will Execute. I need $60 for this new game? If mom and dad pay me $10 an hour for doing chores, I need to do exactly six hours of dishes, vacuuming, etc. and I can have this game by 4:00 today. But other than that he will not lift a finger of work. My best friend though, I love him, we’re very similar people. Our Ne is always in-sync. He knows about MBTI in-depth too, so he's worked on polishing up his Te and making sure his Fi thinks about other people. And he just keeps better too. I'm real grateful to have him around because I'd be so bored without him. He’s a lil dramatic sometimes but that’s okay. So... overall ENFPs are real social and fun but can be a pain in the butt if they don't get their way. My advice: Remember that there's more to life than just you having fun.

INFP

I've mistyped a good (ISTJ) friend of mine as an INFP for a long time and it's been a while since I've actually interacted with INFPs regularly so writing this one might require a little more thought and digging through my inf-Si haha. In my experience INFPs are pretty 50/50 too: they'll either be super sweet and quiet, or very strongly-opinionated individuals with a bit of a wild side, which will especially come out once you get close to them. The latter are truthfully a prime example of my (not-to-be-taken-very-seriously) saying of "Feelers have no chill." My advice: Idek you probably wouldn't follow it anyway

ESFP

I have a love/hate relationship with ESFPs. Two of my good friends in my recent high school years were ESFPs and they were quite different but with significant similarities. Let's start with similarities: Probably the most fun people you will ever meet. They love dancing and are always fun to be around. Unless they're in a bad mood. Differences: ESFP 1: Probably the most outgoing person I've ever met (even more than my aforementioned ENFP Dad). He was a huge mess with girls tho. Everyone was in love with him and he'd be absolutely in love with a girl one week, and then drop her and be into another the next week. He hurt a lot of people's feelings and was kind of a huge inconsiderate jerk. Also, a bit of a pathological liar and would find out people's secrets and then broadcast them to the world. Idek why we hung out with him so much. It's kinda weird how he managed to be so charming yet so inconsiderate. When in a bad mood, he wouldn't say anything or look at anyone, but you could see the fire in his eyes. ESFP 2: Very opinionated social activist and lead actor in like all of our productions. He's much less outgoing, but was still really fun to hang out with. He disliked a lot of people and would get annoyed by little things. I wasn't around him too much outside of school, but I know he partied hard, but wasn't openly a huge stoner like some people are. My advice: CHILL.

ISFP

I'm not too familiar with many ISFPs, but they're all pretty quiet. Basically the same as the second kind of INFP but typically have some specific thing they're really into: theater, drawing, sports, music. They tend to not like most people as well. My advice: tbh same as INFP.

ENTJ

I don't know any ENTJs. Where are they? Advice: Show yourself

INTJ

Are NTJs even real? Are they a myth? Are we human? Or are we dancer? (Sorry idk I'm a meme). I see tons of people typed as INTJs online but I suspect a lot of them are not what they think they are. They're rare types, we can't all be INxJs. (So rare that I know none.) Advice: Read up on functions in-depth, if you're not suuuuper well acquainted. Make sure you're 100% an INTJ. (Inb4 people offended I'm questioning their type)

ESTJ

ESTJs have a pretty wide spectrum from pretty chill to pretty stereotypically Te. My main ESTJ is literally Dwight from The Office sometimes. The most stereotypical ESTJ you can think of. He ran track and Cross Country (not that it's stereotypical but an interesting detail) and was always leading Boy Scouts projects and events. Very quick to direct people and give orders. He was really into superheroes though. He also memorized thousands of bad jokes, one-liners, and puns that I heard so many times over again over the eight years of knowing him. Prone to getting slightly physical when angry. His dad is a huge ESTJ too, who knew every practical skill you can think of. He was a church/scouts leader of ours and has a lot of knowledge in so many different topics. He was in the navy and is now an ironworker. Such a great storyteller and always the center of attention. He's actually a very funny person and puts up a bit of a mean facade, but really has a heart of gold under it all and everyone knows it (but he does intimidate younger kids occasionally when he comes across too strong). Another ESTJ church/scouts leader I know is super chill and hangs out like one of us kids a lot of the time at events. Also a great storyteller. My advice: No you give me advice. How are you so organized and straightforward? Real advice: Let other people be themselves and handle their own life.

ISTJ

Most of my ISTJs I had previously mistyped as other things, so this one will take some thought like INFP. ISTJs are mostly all really nice people that I love to be around. A good friend of mine in high school was so much of that that I was positive she was an ESFJ. Another I thought was an INFP for a long time. ISTJs will always put the group first, and almost seem like they have Fe most of the time, with exceptions of course. One ISTJ I know was THE MOST STEREOTYPICAL STJ POSSIBLE. He was a 50-60 year old Boy Scout leader and EVERYTHING has to be by the book and by the rules with no exceptions. There will be no fooling around when he is there. One time at a Fourth of July social event he gathered up a bunch of kids and told a very boring, ridiculously long story about something in American history. (I just walked away after two minutes. I'm there to have fun, not hear a boring story.) My ENFP best friend's parents are both ISTJs so that makes for an interesting family dynamic. Si-doms will also talk and talk and talk. The one I thought was an INFP, my closest ISTJ friend, will go on forever about computers. He loves computer programming and suggests to anyone that they study it because "it's a growing field and it's very secure with lots of options. And it's a very useful skill" (not an exact quote, but he says things like it very often). My advice: Make sure people are interested when you talk about the same thing for long periods of time. Give them space to also give responses of a decent length. And not everything needs to be fully planned out. Go with the flow.

ENFJ

I don't know too many people of this type very well (he says for the the thirtieth time), but those who I suspect to be ENFJs are all very likeable people. They're social and kind, but not overbearingly so. Just the right amount that they know what to say but they typically don't talk too much. My advice: Keep doin you.

INFJ

What's an INFJ?... Actually when I was writing the ENFJ section I realized someone I previously typed as one is probs an INFJ so... Yeah same as ENFJ, really. But also see INTJs above. My advice: see INTJ and/or ENFJ

ESFJ

I know so many ESFJs. Honestly, I bet everyone does. This section doesn't really feel needed because you could just go literally anywhere with people and find twelve. I love ESFJs though, they're one of my favorite types on average because they always make you feel welcome (unless they hate you). ESFJs are either really nice and sweet or need to chug a bottle of chill pills (figuratively. I'm not advocating drug use) or both, depending on the day. Also, kinda unrelated but I love how mom ESFJs increase their mom-mess by about 300% whenever there are people over. There is about a 70% chance that the house will be clean and a 100% chance food will be offered, much higher than the average levels. ESFJs are also very susceptible to Feelers Have No Chill™. My advice: Chill. Keep doin you tho, just don't stress so much. And stop gossiping, for the love of all that is good in this world. ESFJs will always, without fail, say "ugh I hate drama/gossip" and then proceed to gossip for three hours and cause drama. (ExFPs do this too).

ISFJ

I love ISFJs (again I've said this for like every type lol). My little brother is one, as well as a number of other friends and some church/scout leaders. They are so considerate and kind. Sometimes too considerate though, for example, an ISFJ friend of mine worries about offending someone or saying something rude at every turn when they weren’t doing anything of the sort. Apologizing too much. One ISFJ I know will end up sharing a lot of their feelings or whatever and then say to themselves “Okay, (ISFJ), it’s time to stop oversharing. Nobody wants to hear about your issues” and give a nervous laugh. ISFJs are really smart too like a lot of the ones I know have some rock-solid tert-Ti (not to say that Ti is a measure of intelligence or that Ti=smart, but like… You get what I’m saying). Honestly, I feel like some ISFJ stereotypes are the most accurate of any MBTI stereotypes. The first time I met one ISFJ I know was at a pool party and they just made brownies to bring and share and I’m pretty sure that was the only food there. My advice: Don’t worry so much (about anything, i mean this in every sense of the word). See also ISTJ.

[blyedeeks]

Please help me stop imagining a reunion where Bellamy thinks he has moved on because he thought she was dead all those years. I need your positivity.

Alright, here I come!

I don’t think you’ll like my answer right away, but i need you to hear it (and everyone reading this) but please don’t quit until the end okay? pinky promise?

Yes, there’s a high possibility Bellamy will end up getting together with someone else on the ark during those 6 years, IMO. I don’t know who if Raven or Echo, the interviews make me think Echo but episode makes me think Raven is possible.

BUT, that’s not all “random” there’s a reason I think that and hopefully I can explain in a good way.

So let’s start by the beginning.

1- The writers wanted a time jump.

All this time i’ve been thinking why so many plots are happening and now everything is clear. They wanted to “reboot” the story. Clarke is a grounder, the delinquents are skyppl,the criminals are the delinquents and so it goes. Their entire goal was to get to this time jump. And this was unrelated to bellarke or any other ship, this is what they needed for the plot.

2- Having decided on a time jump......... Bellamy and Clarke could not be together on it.

And this is the best news any of us could ever wish for. This is why when i first heard script spoilers of their possible separation + time jump I was like...... yeah of course. Yes.... they have to do it.

If Bellamy and Clarke’s relationship wasn’t important/ vital (and/or on its finale stage) the writers wouldn’t mind making us miss 6 years worth of development out of them.

Cause that’s what the time jump is for whoever was stuck together for it. We are simply not going to see how all of these relationships will develop on our screens, we’ll get to season 5 and all the changes would have been done. 

Now picture if Bellamy and Clarke had been together 6 years on the ark.... all alone.. i mean, are we really thinking they wouldn’t go full romance there or-? Even worse, what if “they didn’t” and then season 5 began and we find out bellamy and clarke had been stuck together for flipping 6 years and they still didn’t go nonplatonic????

That’ s DEATH my friend. Both options are death. Shipping something for so long, watching it develop in front of your eyes just to miss the most romantic part of it would be beyond terrible.... finding out they did nothing about their feelings - and beginning to doubt they ever exist - is even worse.

So, given the fact that they needed and wanted a time jump, a bellarke separation was inevitable.

You can see that all the “super key” relationships on the show were apart on this time jump btw? Clarke - Abby, Bellamy - Octavia and Bellamy - Clarke.

This is not to say all other relationships aren’t imporant, HECK STOP, it’s just that for those relationships that get more focus, but MAINLY Bellarke - AS ADMITED BY JASON ROTHENBERG HIMSELF as the most important relationship of the show - here :x and x; - The story depends on Bellarke, one thing doesn’t go without the other. On some level, it’s always about them. So when the story pauses, so do they, cause the writers will show to us where they are going every freaking step of the way- didn’t they do it after season 1? after season 2?? even more now! They won’t let us miss 6 years of their relationships, no way. 

Unless their relationship has already developed to its full potential...........

which now you’re asking me what I mean cause Clarke is calling Bellamy for 6 years on a row now and Bellamy main drive to fight for their lives was not letting her die in vain-

yeah, yeah I’m talking about romance.

Cause there is NO WHERE ELSE this story can possibly go. I mean, how the heck will they make Bellamy and Clarke CLOSER still under the platonic realms? Cause lemme tell you, seems pretty impossible to me.

So, again, to me, the separation is a sign this shiz ain’t platonic, they know it, or they’d just let them be together on earth as the “new grounders” and then, since they ain’t romantic, we wouldn’t miss much in 6 years? They’d still be co-leaders, best friends, who die and kill for each other, trust each other with their lives and broken pieces, are each others’ rocks, weaknesses, sanity -all that jazz.

(feel me?) Bellarke is coming)

3- We are watching a drama

And this is where the bad news come. The thing about good story telling is that... writers want to make people watch. And that doesn’t always mean they’ll pull us in by our “good” feelings. Sometimes they want the angst, sometimes they want the anger. They just want us here, feeling like we NEED to see what happens

(well...don’t we right now? So good job the 100 writers)

That being said, i think there are.... 3 ways in which this story can go. 

1- Bellamy for real believes Clarke is dead, he mourns for a long time and then people convince him to live again. And then he does. 

But then he finds out she’s alive and it’s chaos for his new relationship. Cause, lemme say it again, no matter where they stand, Bellamy and Clarke are the mains and so is their relationship. Wherever they go, their interactions are the most important ones. That being said, imagine Bellamy trying to have a relationship with someone but then something happens with Clarke and he worries, or he gets into a real intense argument with Clarke and feels are exposed, or everything they do really brings them back to who they were and this new person is there to watch.

You don’t need to imagine THAT hard, just remember how Finn and Clarke’s relationship started being....a bit more tense after Clarke started getting closer to Bellamy (1x09 hello). Imagine that upped by a million cause that was then and this is now, where Clarke risks the human race for Bellamy and Bellamy risks losing life and limb to save her.

2- Bellamy thinks Clarke is dead but something inside him tells him she’s not so he holds on to that.

I actually see it happening too. Cause I think it’s a very natural reaction? Like he would only believe it if he was down on earth and saw it.

There’s not much to comment there, they’d see each other and the story would go from there. No need to worry about relationships (but i feel like for sure the writers would imply something almost happened with Bellamy and  ~anyone ~cause again, it’s a CW show....any show really, it’s 6 YEARS)

3- Bellamy, believing or not Clarke is dead, doesn’t actually gets into a relationship with anyone but he’s ALMOST AT IT- and then he finds out Clarke is alive.

That’s a way to avoid... idk love triangle tropes i don’t like (and the writers say they don’t either). He’d find Clarke back and well....sooner or later the other person involved would end up telling Bellamy he had always loved clarke or some less cheesy version of that.

And finally, most love stories that involve time gaps at least at some point (e.g: the notebook, veronica mars, dawson’s creek, once upon a time on several occasions haha) DO involve one of the sides - or both - “falling” (ahem being ahem) with someone else. Mostly because it creates angst, it feels more real (can’t argue there?) and ultimately it shows some connections are stronger than others and the two characters that were originally separated really were meant to be, and their” love overcomes” and all that shiz.

So if you’re worried Bellamy will move on, be worried it will mostly piss us off, but not about Bellarke (i don’t see a reason for that with the PLOT info we have at the moment - in my opinion), cause they are the “epic love story” (*fightmee*) being separated here, so the story is about them.

here is a text post that isn’t exactly about that but amazing to cheer anyone up about the time jump:http://bellamyblakesprotectionsquad2k17.tumblr.com/post/161043775714/because-i-know-some-of-yall-will-need-hope-right

HOPE I HELPED!!! REALLY

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Worst vacation ever? Part IV.

Pairing: Jensen Ackles x Reader

Words: Around 8600

Summary: Panel Time!

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Sorry for the late update guys! That part took me like foreeeever, I moved to a new apartment and my computer was the last thing I brought with me -_- but here it is! Part 4! Enjoy!

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beep beep. beep beep.

„not this again..“ you told yourself, pressing the pillow into your face.

Your phone blew up with tons of messages again, and you knew exactly who it was. You turned to the side facing the bright display of your phone. When you grabbed it and flipped over onto your back again, it fell out of your hands.. right to your face.

„God dammit!“, you yelled, picking it up again to see who texted you.

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Shit. You totally forgot that the two of you wanted to go to the beach today.. You struggled to crawl out of bed, almost tripping over your blanket which was kinda tangled around your feet. You threw your PJ to the floor on your way to the bathroom. As soon as you finished your short shower, toothbrushing-rush and putting some Make-Up on, the doorbell rang.

„Hey sweetie, u ready?“, Y/B/F/N asked, pushing her sunglasses down to take a better look on you. „Tired?“

„I think so.. but that‘s nothing new.“ you replied.

„You cute little sleepyhead.“ she laughed, ruffling through your hair. „Come on. Let‘s go.“

The two of you got into her car and started driving. She was totally hyped to see her favorite actors tomorrow. You could tell that she‘ll probably could die from a heart attack right now. Looking out of the window, you drifted away from her pretty annoying screaming sounds, remembering those green eyes, the smile, those cute little freckles and that fucking amazing character of his. God damn. Why wouldn‘t he leave your mind?

„and you know what the best thing is?“ Y/B/F/N started to giggle, „Hello??? Earth to Y/N..“ tearing you out of your daydreaming.

A simple „huh?“ left your lips.

„you actually had a date with him!!“ she screamed, patting her right hand onto your upper leg.

„with whom?“ you gave her a questioned look.

„did u even listen to me? with Jensen! That clearly was a date pluuus you seem to like him.“ she teased you.

„That wasn‘t even a date, hell IDK what that wa..“

„shush!!“ she interupted you. „You were drinking beer with him.. at a bar. Date. End of story. When you first told me about meeting him you seemed so incurious, but the closer the convention gets the more excited u get! How could you be so calm the whole time!?“

„It is not that I wasn‘t interested.. I was a mess at that time because of my ex. I couldn‘t even focus on Jensen entirely.. and he is a normal human being like you and me, so calm your ass. I just enjoyed the conversations with him a lot, he was such a good person to talk to and the more I think back, the more I hate the fact that this won‘t happen again.“ you tried explaining.

„Y/N.. I tell you.. if you‘re gonna see him again, you WILL enjoy it.. and you‘ll fucking slap him for giving you the wrong number, you hear me?“ she said laughing giving you a little pinch on your upper arm.

She was right. You got pretty nervous thinking about the convention.. and mostly him. You just couldn‘t get him out of your head. Something about him made you curious, but you still felt unsecure about the wrong number.

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The next day.

You woke up from a noise coming from your window.

*knock knock* „WAKE UP, Y/N! We have to go!!“

Your eyes opened wide when you saw what time it was. You jumped out of your bed, screaming towards your window, „I‘ll be there in five minutes!!“

Shit, you overslept.. again. Running into the bathroom, picking the first clothes you could grab. After finishing your little embarressing dance and morning routine, tripping several times looking like a complete idiot, you rushed outside your house, bumping into Y/B/F/N who was already standing in front of your door.

„Easy, cowboy.“ she laughed, handing you your favorite starbucks coffee and a little snack.

„Oh my god, I‘m so sorry.“ you apologized a thousand of time while getting into the car.

„It‘s okay dumbo.“ she replied chuckling, „the passes are in my purse.. oh and btw, you look like a total mess.“

„Well, thanks I love you too“ you both started to laugh.

After a two hour drive you finally arrived at the Convention. Y/B/F/N uncle was already waiting for you. When you got off of the car, he pulled you two into a tight hug.

„The main entrance is that way“, he was pointing at a big door, with tons of fans waiting outside, „but don‘t worry, of course I‘m gonna sneak you through the back entrance.“

The three of you strolled around a little bit, while her uncle explained everything to you. A few people were walking around, probably people who worked there. It took you a while to realize how big this place was, and especially how close you probably were to Jensen. Even the tiniest tought about it made you weak in the knees and you felt your cheeks burning, but you tried your best to hide it from Y/B/F/N.

After finishing your tour at a little bar her uncle said goodbye and wished you a lot of fun. You two sat down and ordered a drink, talking about how awesome it was to be here.

„someone‘s nervous huh?“ she smiled, noticing the tensed look on your face.

„What? No! Never...“ you replied fast, taking a shy sip from your drink.

„Have you seen him yet?“ she kept teasing you.

„No, I don‘t think so.“ you said slightly sad.

She was looking at her watch, „well, head up, cutie! It‘s panel time soon! Let‘s go!“

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You took a seat in the 5th row, which gave you a bit of comfort. At least you couldn‘t face Jensen directly.

First Rich and Rob went on stage making stupid  jokes about accents and how tall Jared is. You could tell, that those two guys did that for a living. In between a hell lot of laughter their panel sadly came to an end. Rob grabbed a guitar, which was standing on the side of the stage and started to sing songs to „lure up“ the boys.

Jared, Misha and Jensen entered the stage, bowing down and waving to the cheering crowd. Rob was still playing with his guitar singing some funny songs with Richard they just made up to underline the guys performance.

When Rob finished his little solo, him and Rich greeted the three of them. It was funny to see how everyone needed to go on their tiptoes to hug Jared.

„Have a good night!“, Rob yelled into the microphone. Just before he went off stage, he did a quick turn, snapped Jareds beanie off of his head and ran behind the curtains.

Jared shook his head and laughed, while the crowd cheered because of his hair.

Y/B/F/N went nuts when they came up on stage. You were just sitting there.. being quiet. You couldn‘t remember if your chin fell down or not, when you saw Jensen again, but he definitely took your breath away. His eyes were sparkling and that smile of his almost gave you a heart attack. After you calmed down a bit, you looked over to Y/B/F/N. She gave a dirty grin, when she saw the expression on your face.

„Stop it.“ you punched her, turning your head back to the stage.

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Fifteen minutes into the panel and you and Y/B/F/N couldn‘t breath from laughing so hard. Those guys definitely knew how to entertain a crowded room.

„Next question!“, Jared said, squinting his eyes from the shining of the lights, pointing towards the other half of the room. „You! with the red shirt!"

„Hi guys..“, a shy voice appeared from across the room.

„Hey“, the three of them answered at the same time.

„So.. my question is not really that special, haha. but I was just curious, how have you guys been the last few weeks? What did you do? How is your family doing?“ she giggled.

Misha started, „My kids and wife came over, they visited me alot during my set days. I showed them around and we had a whole lot of ice cream. That was pretty awesome. How about you guys?“ his head turned around to the boys.

Jared gave Jensen a weird smile. „Jay? Did anything particular happen?“ he teased him, still smirking.

„I‘ve got nothing.“, he said shaking his head.

„U sure?“ Jareds smile grewing wider.

You could tell by the look they gave each other that something was going on.

„Well, Mr. Supercool right here did something reeaaaaally stupid.“ he continued, pointing his thumb at Jensen.

„Oh god, no Jared, please don’t.“ Jensen started to laugh, burying his face into his palms.

„You know.. he talked to this girl a few weeks ago.. and he thought she was super cute..“, Jared said, patting Jensens shoulder.

It made you sad, knowing he probably flirted with a lot of girls, trying his luck on you too. You sunk your and looked to the floor.

„She wasn‘t in a good condition so he wanted to cheer her up.. blahblah.. long story short, he was probably a tiny bit too drunk, when he wrote down his number so..“ he laughed, while Jensen's cheeks were getting more red.

„so“, Jensen interrupted him. „So, I gave her my old number, because I got a new one like 2 weeks before I met her.“ coughing, trying to hide his embarressment.

You looked back up, couldn‘t believe the words you just heard.

„Y/N! Did you hear that?!“ Y/B/F/N whispered, punching you into your ribs with her elbow. „ he is talking about you!!“

Jared continued, „my pal right here was pretty pissed at himself at that point, but he told me that she is from Florida. So if anybody knows a girl named Y/N, please tell her to come say hi!“

The crowd cheered and laughed at Jensen's mistake and Jared teasing him about it. Your face went from pale to bright red when you heard your name.

„Y/N! Stand up and show him you are here!!“ Y/B/F/N trying to push you, but you were too overwhelmed and nervous to show yourself to all of those people.

„give me a few minutes“ you replied, making your way out of the panel right to the bathroom.

You washed your burning hot face with cold water, trying to cool yourself down, „come on Y/N, you can do this.“

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After 10 minutes you went back, spotting an empty seat in one of the front rows. You decided to sit there, so you might have a chance to be more visible to Jensen. At that moment Jared was telling a story, while Misha and Jensen joked around in the background. A few minutes went by and both of them took a seat on their chairs again, listening to Jared. You could tell that Jensen was kinda nervous and didn‘t pay much attention to the stories. He was biting his lower lip, his eyes gazing across the room, ending up looking straight into your direction. He stopped, looking right at you, a bright smile forming on his face. You couldn‘t resist to smile back, trying not to melt by the look he gave you.

Two little words were quietly escaping his mouth.

„It‘s you.“