fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.
hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.
hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy
hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it
hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently
hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love
horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho
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i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo
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Got to tattoo one of my creachers yesterday!! I love tattooing these silly possums lol (I also did the other two tattoos around it that are all healed up now)
my IG is bug_b1tes if you wanna see more of my tattoo work!
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I need to point out the fact that the shipping side of this fandom has committed hate crimes (against me)
So like- we had solidaribeans, we had magical mountain, we had boat boys. We all know this, Joel gets bitches real BUT
Were the Fuck is my Gribeans content huh?? /lh
Like???? Something something Joel and Grian being the only ones they could trust in the end of LL, running away from the rest of the server together, dying inches from each other..
Joel killing Grian twice and Grian still following him, their plans or revenge. Getting revenge on people who did nothing to them because the other wanted blood.. something something
On 100Hrs Joel being there when he died, when he was revived, when Scar died. Something something them both needing constants in their lives and using each other to fill it
NOT TO MENTION THE ‘LETS MAKE OUT SCENE’ COME ON GUYS
This is frankly disappointing and my day is ruined /lh
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LAUGHING about Aabria at the DDB Live trying to come up with a favorite headcanon about Laerryn's relationship with the rest of the Ring of Brass and going for, "Laerryn has definitely made out with all of them. All of them. For sure."
I see it. I definitely see it. I actually CAN see Cerrit, the problem there is not the "would" (plenty more "yes, would, one (1) time" there than people would expect) but the "how". Like, it's the logistics, so what I'm left to conclude is something like:
Laerryn, suddenly: So, how do you kiss people?
Cerrit: I... don't?
Laerryn: That's a sad life.
Cerrit: I don't know that it is. And, y'know, the entire beak?
Laerryn: I can definitely manage it.
Cerrit: This is not up for debate.
Laerryn:
Cerrit:
Laerryn:
Cerrit: You have six seconds before I bite you.
Did she actually accomplish anything resembling making out in the traditional sense? Debatable, up to interpretation. Would I personally consider that close enough regardless? Absolutely.
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Quick little experiment because I’m curious about something
All angelkin or possibly divinitykin out there, do you have tinnitus/noticeably frequently hear ringing in your ears? (In case you’re not aware, it’s abnormal to hear ringing at all unless coming from an actual source)
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