#if this flops no it didn't

[gaveyouigaveyoui]

what is your favorite lyric in which taylor indirectly says 'i love you'

[widowshill]

meme call ? [specify or else it will just be from miss vic probably <3]

[inkskinned]

i'm still trying to piece together the truth of it. when you left, you said: feel free to spin this narrative however you want. i have no idea if you were being cruel or if you just genuinely don't remember what you've done to me.

it's hard because i'd done so much of the work for you. i had seen the parts that flaked off, the rust underneath. i started separating you into two people - the one i loved, and the one who hurt me. i had this fantasy version of you - my partner - and then i had this stranger, a third person who would show up randomly to shatter me. i am deliriously glad i'm no longer with "the stranger". i miss the gentle (unreal?) "other" you terribly.

at first, i was so strict about my boundaries. i remember telling you to get the fuck out of my house if you were going to talk to me like that. by the end: i would justify your behavior for you, accepting even your mistreatment as "my fault" in the grand scheme. i look back on the person i was before you - smart, independent, confident - and i feel a strange sense of detachment. i don't even recognize me.

even in one of our last conversations, you said: if you want a partner that always talks warmly to you, find someone else. there was a time that a comment like that would have made me leave. and instead, somehow, i just placidly accepted that kind of thing. you were literally telling me that i wasn't allowed to have a reaction to your cruelty - and i just took it, because you'd so fully turned things around on me.

when people are faced with irrationality, a rational brain tries to make sense of it. this is the trap. they're lovely in the morning, gentle and blue-eyed and sweet. like nothing even happened, they breeze around the house and kiss you on the mouth. but at night; who is that? they snap almost randomly; flying into an impotent rage about just-about-anything. it just doesn't make sense. so the problem must be me, and my brain, and how i think.

the traumatized brain just wants peace. so maybe i'm misremembering. maybe you were just having a bad day. maybe it's actually me.

you eventually would fully turn on me and start implying that i am the bad actor in our relationship. that's what happens, right? that's literally in the playbook. you went to therapy for all of a month, told her a half-truth, co-opted therapyspeak. you figured out how to reframe your actions as "seeking peace." any time i stood my ground, i was "gaslighting." when i asked you to be more gentle, you said i was "tone policing." you said, randomly, i had emotionally manipulated you - i still have no idea what that's even specifically referring to. maybe my consistent requests for calmness and empathy?

and while i literally know better, and i'm sitting here, trained by you, thinking: wait, fuck. was i actually the person you made me out to be?

and the thing that scares me is that i literally do not know if you ever actually saw what you were doing to me. when you'd tell me how you remember arguments, you'd always summarize them in a way where you come off as gentle and easy: "i was trying to set an important boundary." what had actually happened was 15 minutes of you shouting at me i know you did something shady, just admit it already. eventually you'd say my reaction to your shouting (when i finally reacted, which usually happened around hour three) was inevitably "disappointing" and "another way i'm silencing your feelings."

how many times did i ask you - beg you - to just take accountability? looking back, i don't think i ever heard you say: you're right. the way i talked to you was wrong of me.

i am trying to tie together the two people into a full version of you in my head. yes, you made my coffee and made me laugh and spent hours on the phone with me. and yes - you would scream at me until i had to run away and hide behind something.

i wish i did have a narrative i could pull out and shape to my whim. i wish i did have some semblance of reality. instead i just stand here, strange and vibrating, wondering: what the fuck just happened?

[tennessoui]

ok i've had thoughts before about obi-wan going to stewjon post fall of the republic and recuperating/maybe even raising luke surrounded by a kenobi clan who hides him from the empire but what if like.

what if darth vader goes to stewjon post fall of the republic (& mustafar). he thinks maybe obi-wan could have possibly gone there because hey, it's his home planet and vader destroyed his other home. but he doesn't find kenobi. or he does--just not the right one. instead he finds like a whole clan of kenobis and none of them are an exact match for his old master who he despises, but obi-wan's third brother has his eyes, and his second uncle twice removed has hands that are just as rough as obi-wan's, and obi-wan's father, who is an old man now, has the same laugh.

and vader keeps going back to stewjon and the kenobis. once every year at least. ostensibly it's to ensure that obi-wan kenobi does not make contact or come to stewjon.

but it's just like. kenobi therapy. vader needs exposure to a kenobi every 6-12 months for his mental wellbeing, otherwise people will die.

sometimes he finds himself just sitting and staring at old man kenobi, obi-wan's blood father, and he's like. oh. that's what you would have looked like at that age. if i were still by your side to see you. if i had not taken away all your reasons to grow laughter lines.

(meanwhile obi-wan kenobi is across the galaxy on anakin's homeworld planet, all alone and wrinkling under the two suns, because when he'd lost his home to the empire, he'd run to the only other home he'd ever known: what remains of his padawan)

[wiisagi-maiingan]

It actually breaks my heart how many lost and escaped cats don't get found for months or years or ever because cats being outside is so normal that no one even questions it. A dog that's running around loose will usually get caught and returned to their family or at least brought to a shelter, but cats don't get a second look even if they're wearing collars.

If you have an indoor cat, consider keeping them collared with a tag that clearly states they are indoors-only and should be returned home.

[butyouaremymess]

Colin + his (many) love confessions for Penelope

[yangjeongin]

JEONGIN | 240712 @ I-DAYS MILANO (cr. huiracha)

[tothebestofmyabilities]

Boba baby belchers!!

[dazeddoodles]

I really want someone to make a Raeda version of the "I will fall in love with you over and over again" thing

Like it would show them as teenagers, then in their 20s, then their season 2 designs, their season 3 designs, then in the future/finale/epilogue

(I saw you've been in a bad mood I figured this idea would cheer you up a bit)

Someone did do that!

[eggplantgifs]

Ilia Malinin (USA) performs to I'm Not a Vampire at the 2024 Grand Prix Final, winning the competition with 292.12 points. He is the first skater to attempt 7 quadruple jumps in the free skate, although none were landed cleanly.

[clarkgriffon]

BELLAMY BLAKE APPRECIATION WEEK ↳ Day Seven ∞ Free Choice

[guardsbian]

veilspun watching everyone make MLP scries with cirrus dragons

[luna-loveboop]

There is sooo much fun contrast between Breath of the Wild and Age of Calamity Link, and the one I can't stop laughing at is SHIELD SURFING it is ridiculous!

Like here's Shield surfing in Botw-

It's pretty, and if it's rainy I can slide even more. I do it for fun off a nearby hill if I have a shield to spare. I press Y or X to do a fancy kick or spin, and I can attack some monsters with it passing by. The greatest danger with shield surfing is Link hitting a rock, his shield breaking, and him dying or using a fairy/Mipha's grace. More likely he eats some a lot of apples. Outside of Link potentionally breaking a leg tho, it's fun! I once caught a horse in botw by shield surfing, I spun and accidentally flip-flopped onto her, named her Flip-flop in remembrance. If I do some kicks and jumps while shield surfing Link will even laugh and make happy sounds, which shows he's enjoying it. Fun happy times in botw while shield surfing :)

Then there's Shield surfing in Aoc-

Link screams HYAH! or some other raging and loud battle cry, as he hops on his shield and speeds, not towards, not around, but straight into whatever monsters stand in his way. The agonised cries of dying monsters fill the air as Link turns into a tunnel of pure deadly force. Is he going uphill? downhill? Doesn't matter, he's going, gravity has no hold on him. The worst case scenario you ask? Link shield surfs straight into a bomb barrel. Takes everything out quicker, and he loses half a heart from it. I finished an entire mission using only Link's shield surfing the other day. The game reminded me how to dodge bc it thought I forgot the other controls. I didn't need to dodge, just surf. Aoc Link doesn't go shield surfing for fun, he is on a mission and he becomes a whirling funnel of death.

And I mean all that literally by the way-

Botw Link: Shield surfs for fun and freedom while trying to survive! :D

Aoc Link: Shield surfs to KILL and destroy, he is out for blood

tbc I love Aoc Link he's a sweetheart just a very deadly one

And hey, looking at how the ability controls are explained in the game-

Botw- "Hop on your shield and slide down hills."

Aoc- "Link: One-Handed Weapons / Press X while running to shield surf."

So- in Botw it IS for fun- 'hop on'- whereas in Aoc shield surfing is an attack. hmm

..It makes sense I guess. Aoc Link killed the enemy, and Botw was the one who was killed- but it seems in the end Wild's the one who gets to live.

YEAH so anyways I actually cannot at the moment shield surf in Aoc without laughing bc he is so. so very violent.

I mean look! Look at the difference of scenes left behind after Link goes shield surfing (Botw, then Aoc)

An everybody-lives story is really a everybody-dies story for the enemy huh

[cuchufletapl]

Over 2021 and 2022, I made and uploaded 120 videos about FMA (and 1 video in 2023). Part of me misses those days because I had fun making these. The other, larger and wiser part, runs away screaming at the idea of doing any of this shit again. Holy fuck.

But anyway, in honour of TikTok actually, for real getting banned in the US, here's a compilation of 17 of the videos that I don't cringe horribly at. For posterity and all. (A good number of them exist as they were uploaded only in my hard drive, actually. Several, including some of these, got the sound removed eventually.)

[ghostbredtt]

doodle dump. don't look at me.I was insane back then

[skleech]

"be who you are. You don't need your memories for that"

redraw of that one scene with the prowler from spiderverse but with tron/rinzler and beck bcs apparently I enjoy inflicting psychic damage to myself

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