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[amindofstone]

I just realised...

a/n: I apologize for any grammatical or spelling mistakes. English is not my mother tongue but still I´m trying to do my best and improve myself. (This got edited quite a few times now)

Say whatever you want. You can disagree. I promise you that I´m gonna be okay with that but....

But at some point I think that Kakashi Hatake is the actual representation and a “living” example of I´m sad as fck. I´m broken to the point I don´t even know myself anymore. I´m damaged to the point I don´t even know if what I´m doing is right. I'm lost to the point I don't even know what the actual reason for my life is and what I am or at least should be living for but I´m gonna smile because that´s what everyone expects me to do. And I´m gonna do whatever I get told to do because there is nothing and no one left I can or should live for anyways.

I know that this is a bit different than the things I usually post and my actual reason on why I made this acc but after watching Naruto as an 21 years old college student, I realised how deep, sad, emotional but also philosophical Naruto is. As a “child” I loved watching Naruto because of their abilities and the fact that kids could be so strong & powerful. Something that every child would want to be. But as for now I have to admitt that the only thing I did while watching this anime (for more than half of the episodes) was crying my soul out. Never ever did I thought that I´ll be relating to a fictional character to this point. Gaara, Itachi, Pain & Kakashi made me feel like I wasn't alone with my pain and hardships in life. I felt understood and happy. But therefore I could understand them too. I was able to understand their choices and the paths they went. I understood their pain and feelings. 

Kakashi, the man that was smiling through the whole series although he was hurt, lonely and broken inside but still smiled made me realise how sad and broken I actually am. Life was and is gonna be hard for me. But I learned that one day I'll be able to go through a reconciliation with myself and life just like him. I learned that one day I'll be able to look back and think less negative and bad about myself and my life. I really hope that one day I'll be able to sign a contract of peace with my soul. 

Going back to Kakashi I really would like to explain how much I love, admire and respect this character but sadly I just don´t know how. His entire life was an actual tragedy. Sad from beginnig to the end. He didn´t have a normal childhood. He lost one beloved person after another. But still. But still he managed to stay in the right path. He still managed to do good and be good. He gave people the feeling of security and hope. He got called cold hearted because of what life turned him into whithout actually thinging why he is like that. He propably was also seen as someone unpredictable and got judged by preconseptions but he never said anything. He never complained. He still looked in everyone eyes and smiled politely. And never ever did he drift of to the dark side. Never did he let his dark emotions take the lead in his life. 

Kakashi, really is a impressiv character. He teaches that although one might go to a lot of hardships, pain and sadness one never should let the negativity in one take the lead. Because there is always light, even in the most darkest places. His life that was a tragedy. A beautiful catharsis, taught me a lot. I´m really happy that I let my friend convience me to watch it all over again. Because it really was worth my time and sleep. As weird as it might sound but that series. That anime taught me more about life, emotions, relationships, hopes and dreams than school or family did. 

Naruto will have a special place in my heart for as long as I will be living. This anime really touched me. And the huge amout of tears I shed are an actual proof for that...

I really could talk hours and hours about how much I fell in love with this anime. I could talk days and nights about how much I fell in love with the stories and the personalities of Kakashi, Itachi, Pain and Gaara. But I think I should stop here and get back to studying..... 

Well that´s it for now I guess. But yeah I´m in love with Kakashi although this is hella weird. Like actually weird on a whole new level... I never thought that I would be attached to a fictional character to this point but well here we are... Like jokes aside now. I have way to much pictures and quotes of him saved in my phone...

Anyways, have a great day/eve and make sure to take care of yourself. But before I go let me drop some quotes of my favourite characters in Naruto. 

“When someone utters, „Life is hard.“ I´ve always been tempted to ask, “Compared to what?” – Kakashi Hatake

"Forget about revenge. The fate of those who seek revenge is grim. It's tragic, You will end up suffering and hurting yourself even more. Even if you do succeed in getting revenge, the only thing that remains is emptiness." - Kakashi Hatake 

“if you don't understand someone pain then you don't understand him” ― Nagato

“Sometimes you must hurt in order to know, fall i  order to grow, lose in order to gain. Because life´s great lessons are learned through pain“ - Nagato

"People Live their Lives bound by what they accept as correct and true. That is how they define "Reality" . But what does it mean to be "correct" or "true"? They are merely vague concepts... Their "Reality" may all be a mirage. Can we consider them to be simply living in their own world, shaped by their beliefs?" - Itachi Uchiha

“We have walked through the darkness of this world, that’s why we are able to see even a sliver of light. ” – Gaara

“Peace under an illusion is not true peace. It´s only meaningful if the real world manages to accomplish it.“ - Gaara

[shwus]

Well, I was scrolling the muggleborn head cannons and I was thinking what if

In 2020 Hogwarts muggle students

Doing Tiktok dance at the great Hall and all the pure bloods, some of the half blood and teachers like wtf?

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Fourth year Gryffindor muggle stand in the table in the great Hall and start singing 'renegades' and dancing.

And some of the muggles start doing it too

This one muggle scream "catch" and all muggles and half blood doing the woah

People just confused since they didn't know why they re so expressive. Sometimes they do the dance in the class while writing down or listening the teachers.

This two muggles, they argued about something and they're fighting but they doing the tiktok dance fight while all of the muggle tiktokers singing wherever song the knew in Tiktok and both of them know all of the dance.

That would be nice I think

Sorry for my bad Grammar (English is not my original language and I'm still learning) or some nonsense I'm just bored

Ciya!!

[theclosetpoet7]

Me running away from my responsibilities. 

[esthermendezartist]

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[artisticn3rd-blog]

Idk...I liked it (in the korean phase says something like "bangtan boys") No sé...me gustó (en la frase coreana dice algo como "bangtan boys") #jeonjungkook #bangtanboys #fanart #army #artoninstagram #korea #ihavetostudy

[isyblue]

Che bello andare a lezione 😩😅😥 #monday #itsmonday #lessons #ihavetostudy #uni #university (presso Bologna Centro Storico)

[berryblu-soda]

NOW TOMMY IS LIVE

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[frozanaworld-blog]

I NEED to travel

i just realy want to travel!

[nopenottodaysirmixalot]

Carmilla

So I stayed up all last night binge watching Carmilla because I kept seeing it everywhere and it's sooooo good. What have you guys done to me?!?

[iamlittlemsbrightside]

Too much stress for the past few weeks. I'm literally drowning in an ocean of school works. And words cannot describe how much i miss fangirling over kath 😭😭