#ill just do my best 🤷🏾‍♀️

[robotpussy]

I did so poorly in my interview 🫢🫢🫢🫢

[certifiedstarrr]

"i'll beat her bitch ass." - c.s

femvolleyballplayer!y/n x chris

warnings: cursing, crying, intentional lowercase, no grammar used (intentional), past injury, use of y/n (sorry?)

summary: it’s the semi-finals of the biggest volleyball tournament of the year and y/n feeling great at first but 2 people who were supposed to be there didn’t show upーthen after her game she gets the worst news of her life. will it affect her gameplay for the tournament?

this is set in some random ass au that i can’t really explain😭😭

p.s sorry to people named amelia, no hate to y’all !💗

don’t like don’t read !!

find some other shit to do.

not proofread (a bitch don’t got no time for that shit)

this is my work and i do not approve of plagiarism in any way. i also do not approve of reposting my work onto other apps or anything of the idea. SSTVRNIOLOO 2024.

a/n: HEYY so this is your surprise fic ive been working onnnn ~ this could be a series but idk yet 🤷🏾‍♀️ also my laptop stopped working so i don’t have the option of typing anymore, so it’ll be on my phone or ipad. (mostly ipad though) 💔

wc: 1.1k

happy reading loviess !

ೃ༄

waking up feeling great, but then remembering about my volleyball game in the semi-finals, i felt nervous. i hop out my bed and start walking to my bathroom.

heading over to the bathroom to brush my teeth, wash my face and do my daily skincare.

i grab my jersey from a hanger in my closet, closing the closet door after equipping the clothing item i needed.

bringing the jersey to my head, pulling it over my head, and the jesey laying tight on my torso. the red and blue complemented each other well and suited my natural complexion.

seizing my knee pads, arm sleeves, and leg brace and shoving them into my sports bag. i anxiously fumble with the zipper; failing many times to zip it up but succeeding after attempt six.

going down my steps, i pull out my phone and go to me and chris' texts.

y/n

hey baby are you almost here?

read: 2:03pm

chris💗

yeah ill be there in 5

read: 2:04pm

y/n

alright see you soon baby💕

read: 2:05pm

i shove my phone back into my sports bag and wait for my boyfriend to pick me up.

ೃ༄

i look around in the crowd; searching for the two people who said they’d be here and wouldn’t miss it for the worldーmy parents who are fucking liars.

it was the semi-finals of the biggest college volleyball tournament of the year and i was excited.

until i saw two empty chairs waiting to filled by no one. but i saw my friends and my biggest supporterーmy boyfriend of two years: chris. he was there for every game, there to pick me up from practice; whatever i needed. i loved him more than anything.

the stadium was fullーspecifically 23,000 people. it was sold out and i see a sea of people wearing our school colors: red and blue.

everybody was here: from alumni, parents, and students. i was a tiny bit nervous because i’d never seen so many people come to watch our school play.

but after all, it was the semi-finals.

i scanned and searched the crowd and found the triplets, and my friends: lauren and angelina.

i met up with my teammates at the bench and we went over our game plan. i look over at the opposing team and see my biggest rival.

amelia. the little fucking bitch that plays foul. the snarkiest grin decorating her stupid face.

last season she almost permanently injured me over one pre-season gameーi was hospitalized for 3 fucking months and she just laughed about it and acted like she didnt know what i was talking about. that bitch could have injured me so badly that i coulda been kept in the hospital longer, or permently.

i scanned the front row and once i found him, chris doing our secret messageーblowing a kissーwhich means “you got this, i love you, and kill their asses”.

doing our team chant and reviewing our lineup. my position was spiker; specifically outside hitter. so that means i was main hitter: who got most of the sets.

meghan; my setterーwho was also one of my best friends, did our secret handshake and communicated with hand gestures that the opposing team doesn't know: which in turn gives us the opportunity to fix a plan during the game.

ೃ༄

everyone was set in their correct position and the sea of people went silent. it was so silent you could hear a pin drop. the first whistle blew and i locked in.

it’s you, the ball, and your teammates. nothing else matters right now.

the first serve of game and its already a long rally.

the perfect set comes from meghanーdirectly to me,

i spike the volleyball and the only sound heard in whole the stadium was the loud smack of my palm hitting the ball straight down to the floor on the opponent's side.

it went to amelia and she dove for it but missed.

i let out a little giggle as her face twisted into an furious one. i loved pissing her offーand each time i do, its payback for her injuring me.

ೃ༄

whilst jumping to block a deep incoming set dump, lorelai; one of our team's middle blockers, landed wrong on her ankle and broke it.

she was such a good blocker and which now she had to exit the game due to her ankle, left me in a state of disappointment.

another one of our other middle blockers, yasmine, traded spots for lorelai. she wasnt as good but still played well and got the job done.

i look over at the crowd and see the triplets and my two friends holding a banner that spelled out "let's go y/n". i cheesed at the bannerーbut still with a stupidly wide grin on my face.

ೃ༄

it was down to the final minute of the game and the crowd was on their feet.

i was serving. and hell, i was scared i was gonna mess it all up. my jump-serve was excellent, but i was in shambles when it came to the final seconds of a game; even if i wasnt playing.

throwing the ball into the air as the sea of people that gaped at my every move. running after it and jumping in the air and cocking my arm backーswinging it at the ball, hitting it far left to a weaker player on the opposing team.

scoring an ace,

"all ace !!"

my team cheered. they lost. fuck you amelia.

ೃ༄

amelia scoffed, flipping me off and walking over, slapping me over apparently "cheating". also telling me that chris didnt love me and i was just a good fuck.

and that's where i dont play.

shits about to go down.

"i'll beat her bitch-ass."

extra: guys i felt so much relief releasing your surpise fic <33

also dont play wit y/nnnnnnnn she gon beat amelia's ass

now if i wake up to an activity page of who-knows-how-many thingies its better than christmas morning ~ i have a angsty chris fic sitting in my drafts and im trying to start it but ive no motivation to start writing, and i just realized anna: (@worldlxvlys), riyah (@hoesformatt), and grace (@lacysturniolo) follow me. tysm for reading !! sorry im a giant yapper

xoxo, riri !

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[neytiriism]

۰࿐·˚ ༘ 𓆛 JEALOUSY JEALOUSY ۰࿐·˚ ༘ 𓆛

featuring. neteyam + lo’ak (seperate)

gn!omatikaya!reader.

wc. 1025.

warnings. none.

not proofread.

author’s note. I got a little carried away ngl. like this ended up being way longer than I expected but it is what is🤷🏾‍♀️ enjoy <33

NETEYAM

neteyam doesn’t really get jealous. he already has you and that's all he needs honestly. he knows that you love him just as much as he loves you so he doesn’t have anything or anyone to be jealous of. however, being territorial is something he gets from his mom and it really shows when other guys interact with you. something about it just makes his blood boil.

he tries his best to stay calm and collected, to not get hostile but sometimes he can’t help but glare at a guy if he speaks to you or hiss at someone if their eyes linger on you for too long. he always tries to hide it in front of you because he doesn’t want you to think ill of him, but you never do.

neteyam had been watching you for a while now as you taught some of the metkayina kids how to shoot arrows. it wasn’t something that they needed to know how to do because they hunted in the water but it was a good skill to have nonetheless.

he watched as you helped one boy in particular named ao’te. he was around your age and ever since your arrival, he seemed to take a liking to you. even now it was obvious in the way he gave you his full attention when you spoke or when he stared at you shamelessly every time you demonstrated how to aim the bow.

who did that boy think he was, looking at you like you were someone that he could have. neteyam didn’t like it. and even though his father said not to cause any trouble, he felt like he needed to say something, to do something so that this boy knew his place.

neteyam pushed off of his comfy spot on the ground and walked up behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist as you continued to aim your bow. you weren’t the least bit phased by the contact.

neteyam rested his head on your shoulder and followed your line of vision. “so what are we aiming for?” he asked.

“you will know when I hit it.” you said quietly trying to focus on the tree ahead of you.

you took a deep breath and let the bowstring go, smiling when you saw the arrow hit your intended target.

while the other kids marveled at your arrow which was now stuck in the trunk of a tree, ao’te stared at you. he had just noticed that were wrapped in someone else’s arms and he didn’t like it. with crossed arms, ao’te walked over to the two of you.

“uh y/n who is this?” he asked. neteyam’s eyes snapped toward ao’te and narrowed.

“who are you?” neteyam scoffed.

“i’m ao’te.”

“well ao’te, i suggest that you remove your eyes from my mate’s body or i will turn you into target practice.” he hissed.

ao’te’s eyes widened at the sincerity in neteyam’s voice. he quickly apologized and scurried off, knowing that if he stayed any longer the next arrow that was shot would end up in him.

satisfied with the boy’s reaction, neteyam fixed his attention back on you.

“you didn’t have to scare him nete.” you said as you notched another arrow in your bow. “everyone knows that I’m yours.”

neteyam pulled you into his chest and kissed your temple. “yes but it does not hurt to remind them.”

LO’AK

lo’ak is definitely the type to get jealous easily. he gets angry and stand-offish and even hostile sometimes but, it’s because he’s afraid of losing you. he thinks that there are so many other guys out there that are better for you than he is. and no matter how many times you tell him that you’ll always be his, he feels like you’re too good for him. so whenever a guy approaches you he grows distant and angry thinking that he’s already lost you to them.

lo’ak rolled his eyes when he saw you laugh at something ao’nung had said. anyone with working eyes could see that the metkayinan had taken a liking to you since you and the sullys arrived and he hated it.

of course, he didn’t do anything about it, or else his father would chew him out for causing trouble. all he could do was watch as he spent the day watching ao’nung try to move in on you.

his last straw was when he saw ao’nung place his hand on your abdomen showing how to breathe properly.

he scoffed loudly and swam away from you two without a word.

“lo’ak where are you going?” you called.

lo’ak didn’t answer. he only swam faster wanting to get away from you and ao’nung.

“what’s his problem?” ao’nung asked.

“i don’t know.” you sighed. “i’ll go check on him.”

you swam away from ao’nung and towards the shore. once you reached the beach you joined lo’ak in the sand, taking up the spot next to him.

“lo’ak?”

his ears twitched at the sound of your voice but he didn’t answer. he didn’t even spare you a glance. this was new to you. he never ignored you. you moved your hands to hold his but he pulled away.

“lo’ak? what’s wrong? did I do something?”

“i don’t know. why don’t you ask your new boyfriend, ao’nung.” he grumbled.

you looked at him in disbelief. “what?”

“you heard me! you two seemed real buddy-buddy out in the water! you might as well date him right?” lo’ak yelled.

you sighed, realizing that ao’nung touching you is what set him off. you moved to sit in front of lo’ak and cupped his face in your hands, forcing him to look at you.

“lo’ak I love you. nobody will ever be better than you in my eyes and you know that. there’s no reason for you to be jealous.”

“I’m not jealous.” he grumbled childishly.

“oh. then i guess you wouldn’t mind me going back to ao’nung now.” you said as you stood up and dusted the sand off of you.

lo’ak grabbed your wrist and pulled you back down into his lap. “no, you’re staying with me.”

© 2023 copyright. all rights reserved. @neytiriism.

[destinyc1020]

Confessions:

"Careful Anon, you're going to have Kaia's shooters all in up my inbox after me again lol. 😂 (as if we HAVE to like this girl)"

Gurl we know its just 1-2 fans 😅 they seem passionate about her, ill giv them that. I think she prob got burnt ojt by modeling n decided to act, problem is shes just nt a good actor. I think being on AHS really humbled her cuz gurl limited hee comments after that, even when Ryan Murphy said she had the "best audition" he kinda set her up

I also find it interesting that she seems to always b interacting wit her bf/ex-bfs ex gfs lmao. On her ig story she has a pic of her hugging cazzie david, both of them r petes exes (and this was a book event hosted by her/hee team). Shes interacted with Vanessa yrs ago, Joey, was friends with Olivia Jade and recently Z. Nt sure if its just cuz hollywood is just small af or shes delibertly interacting with them fir whatever reason. I was shocked by her/Darnell following each other bt 1 thing bout Kaia is she know how to network lol never knew she wuld get that close to Z tho

Gurl we know its just 1-2 fans 😅 they seem passionate about her, ill giv them that. I think she prob got burnt ojt by modeling n decided to act, problem is shes just nt a good actor. I think being on AHS really humbled her cuz gurl limited hee comments after that, even when Ryan Murphy said she had the "best audition" he kinda set her up

Yea, I'm sure she probably got burnt out by modeling, and maybe started to not really enjoy it anymore? 🤷🏾‍♀️ That profession seems STRESSFUL, and heavily looks-based. Acting can be that way as well, but at least I don't think people freak out if you gain 1.5 lbs or something lol. Kaia also probably realized that she didn't want to always have to continue to live in her mom's shadow for the REST of her life in her career. I mean, her mom was THE "It Girl" back in the supermodeling world. Always being compared to your mom, or being called "Look-alike" daughter of Cindy Crawford has got to after a certain point get kinda annoying?? 🥴

Sometimes, you just want to make a name for yourself...and I GET that. But like you said, the problem is, she's not a good actor. Which, in itself wouldn't be so bad if she were actually WORKING on it instead of just getting roles even when doing a bad job. 🥴 Most of us "regular people" don't get promoted in our jobs when we're doing a bad job. MOST of us just get FIRED!

I also find it interesting that she seems to always b interacting wit her bf/ex-bfs ex gfs lmao. On her ig story she has a pic of her hugging cazzie david, both of them r petes exes (and this was a book event hosted by her/hee team). Shes interacted with Vanessa yrs ago, Joey, was friends with Olivia Jade and recently Z. Nt sure if its just cuz hollywood is just small af or shes delibertly interacting with them fir whatever reason. I was shocked by her/Darnell following each other bt 1 thing bout Kaia is she know how to network lol never knew she wuld get that close to Z tho

I didn't know all of the stuff about the exes tbh... But I'm not surprised if she's trying to network. I think Hollywood is just a very small place. And yea, I know she and V used to interact at events, and she even used to like pics of Vanessa and Austin together that would be posted on Vanessa's IG YEARS ago. So yea...it does seem kinda weird that now she's dating him. Almost like she's had her eye on him this entire time... 👀🥴

[cinamun]

You’re such an amazing writer Cin! Happy Mother’s Day by the way! I don’t see how people aren’t able to empathize in this situation. “Oh he’s grown, he knew what he was doing” no. Childhood trauma is real. Elliot was a child, even though he was 18, he still had a child’s mindset. As parents, we are our children’s first role models/heroes. He never got that, never had someone to look up to, never had that unconditional, unwavering love that parents are supposed to have for their children. It’s HARD to lose someone you’ve know from childhood to adults. From best friends to first loves, to just friends again, on the outside looking in, that’s HARD to accept and heal from as well. Life in general is HARD period. Besides Hani, he didn’t have anyone in his corner, and he didn’t truly want her.. unfortunately to him, she was just something to do and pass time. When you’re depressed, you’re just going through the motions, you need a lot of support, you need positivity around you, but you also have to want those things and be better, and he didn’t. Hope and her family were the only light he had in this world and attachments are real. Hope was his safe place, and after losing her he never recovered. He was repressing his feelings all those years. As people of color, most don’t believe in depression and mental illness or counseling. We believe that we can handle it on our own. Of course I don’t agree with his actions at all, mental health is so important. I am Hope, like I know what he did, but is he okay? I know what he did, but that’s my friend .. I know him to the core and I know he’s not in his right mind, just make sure he’s okay. I’m just so hurt for her and everyone in this situation, but especially Hope 💔

Is Sean to blame for Elliot’s upbringing? Yes he is .. but idk Sean’s upbringing .. he may not have received that love himself from his own mother/father and is repeating a generational cycle, raising Elliot the best way he knew how, idk 🤷🏾‍♀️ Yes both Indya and Darren overcame how they were brought up, but they’re still scarred, and everyone is different. Everyone is not that strong. But he does deserve empathy because no one should have to bury their child, no parent should leave before their child, EVER 💔

Ouch, right in the feels! And such a touching summary of your thoughts on this very sad turn of events. Thank you for your kind words and let's all just take deep breaths and big gulps of water while we ride out this storm ❤

[automatismoateo]

My mom (Christian) read me a Bible verse to prove that homosexuality is a sin. via /r/atheism

My mom (Christian) read me a Bible verse to prove that homosexuality is a sin. Edit: I'm an 18 year old (turning 19 this month) African American girl for a little background. ​ The verse is from Leviticus. I'm not totally sure what it said word for word, but I think it goes "Mankind shall not lay with mankind as they lay with womankind". (Isn't the word "mankind" used when talking about humanity as a whole and not specific individuals? 🤔) She read another verse prior to the Leviticus one where it was about God telling Noah to bring 7 pairs of clean animals, 7 pairs of unclean animals, and 7 pairs of birds (as if birds aren't animals, but okay 🤷🏾‍♀️) that's a male and its mate so they can continue their species. (Also, did the creatures that live in the water come on the Ark, too or were they just ignored?) There's one more verse she told me where it said something like "Thou shy not lay with man as thou lie with woman. It is an abomination." And then she read me a verse about beastiality which doesn't even relate to the topic at hand, but okay. 😭 She basically used these verses to prove that homosexuality is a sin and she has said that it's the work of the Devil. My mom also for some reason believes that people are gay because they were molested as children. My mom heard about animals who have same sex behaviors, but she likes to rebuttal this by saying that's the exception and not the rule. Actually, at some point in time she's said that animals who have same sex relations are also abominations. She also read a small list of asexual animals and she somehow used that to support the same repetitive rhetoric that it takes a male and a female. (Little does she know that there are 1,500 species of animals that perform same sex behaviors. 🙄) She keeps telling me that she's only looking out for me and is making sure that my head is on right because she doesn't want me to be susceptible to brainwashing. (Little does she know she's the brainwashed person since she's a believer of Christianity. 😒) She wants to make sure that I have common sense. (As if religious people have any common sense.) She also mentioned that she gets annoyed that people keep talking about homosexuality so much (I'm not sure how true that is) and people should be talking about other stuff. She then lists off other things that people should be talking about such as teenage girls having promiscuous sex, sex outside of marriage, girls wearing revealing clothes, twerking, and other things I can't remember. She said something about previous generations doing crazy things and her generation when she was younger did things that her parents thought were crazy. However, she said that it's been getting crazier and crazier. Also, to put it simply she believes that people are trying to target children in order to "increase their numbers". They can't tell older people about it because they're not gonna listen, with the exception of some older folks who never got to do those things, but are now doing it because it's now considered okay. Now listen, I love my mom. She's certainly not perfect and she's done the best she could to raise me considering the past that she's had based on what she told me. However, I try my best to not talk about these topics with her because she's just going to spew the same religious and prejudice nonsense that people have been spewing for centuries that I have no interest in hearing. 😔 ​ Unrelated side note: my mom believes that mental illness is the result of a demonic spirit. I just- I can't with her sometimes. ✋🏾💀 Another unrelated side note: Here's a link from a previous post of mine where she's basically spewing TERF stuff. https://www.reddit.com/r/trans/comments/17q2ym1/last_night_i_was_having_a_discussion_with_my_mom/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web2x&context=3 Submitted January 05, 2024 at 02:09PM by SamuraiPanda3AMP (From Reddit https://ift.tt/5OW8s2N)

[sk3tchisworld]

ENORMOUS TRIGGER WARNING

This post contains mentions of violent death, mental illness, criminal activity, police brutality, drug activities, and dead animals. While not described in horrific detail they are present. Please proceed with caution or not at all.

I am 33 years old and I believe I am on the spectrum. I am currently diagnosed with BPD (borderline personality disorder) and Bipolar II (less severe manic episodes). Although other analysis has suggested updated diagnosis of Cyclothymic, unspecified BPD, with narcissistic traits. With a lot of research, I've learned that BPD is sometimes mistaken for autism and so I dare to conclude the reverse is possible. I am seeking a diagnosis and trying to chronicle my experiences until then.

Day One

Literal Thinking/Missing Social Cues

Getting a diagnosis as an adult is HARD. But I grew up in the 90s and what I've experienced would have not qualified me at the time. While I'm looking to get a diagnosis I've understood they ask a lot of questions that are not natural to answer. Sometimes, I think something is significant and I will hold that memory for a while, only for it to be forgotten as soon as someone asks. So, as long as this blog exists I'll have a record.

I have been historically called 'gullible'. People told me some of the most outlandish stuff and I nodded and accepted it as truth. I was laughed at and repeatedly tricked because, I quote, "You believe anything!" It's made me less open to learning from people or even socializing.

Examples

"I was in a mob and maimed people to collect money."

I will purposely not retain this information, but okay. 🤷🏾‍♀️

"There's a bring your own roadkill bar and grill out 264."

Gross, but okay.

"I'm a descendant of Christopher Columbus."

Not impossible, so okay.

What do all of those statements have in common? They are generally hard-to-believe statements but they all have a grounding in possible facts. We have billions of people on this planet, all with their own lived experiences. Who am I to question their life? I know some incredible things have happened to me that people would never believe. Not to mention, I loved to read and research obscure topics. This made me open-minded to niche topics.

When I talk to people, my brian goes into overdrive. I am trying to nail this interaction so much I find myself processing a lot of data from a few seconds. I do this even to people I am extremely close to. I study everything from your posture to the smell of your breath (if applicable). This seems to have made me good at detecting moods, health, and intentions. Sometimes.

My process of thinking goes (in no special order):

How familiar am I with this person?

Deciphering accents (and deciding if they're a local)

Analyzing body language

Connecting to my personal experiences, imperial data, and loose research

when is it appropriate to respond (if at all)

What is the appropriate emotion to the information shared

Do I look interested?

Am I fidgetting too much?

Why are they telling me this?

Don't look at your phone again...

What is my dog doing over there?

Maintain eye contact!

Shit, what did I miss?

Sound intelligent, but not too intelligent. You always confuse people with your $10 words.

Did you just make this about you? They didn't ask about your 'similar experience'.

Was that a withdrawal? What did I say wrong?

To be more clear, I'll go through each one of the examples.

I was in a mob and maimed people to collect money.

I grew up in Baltimore, MD. While I grew up generally unaware of the insane danger that was lurking nearby, it was regularly presented to me. A house exploded less than a block away from me. My father's best friend was shot in the face with a shotgun and dumped on the intersection I lived on. I lived three doors from the corner. I was less than half a mile from a notorious crack dealing location. I lived directly around the corner from a methadone clinic. My mother was a drug addict!

By my teenage years, I explored out of my sheltered bubble and learned more. My boyfriend's best friend's brother (that's a mouthful) was an infamous 'King Pin' that had for, reasons, ended up a near complete quadriplegic. Yes, I met him. My boyfriend (now husband) witnessed police suffocate a friend by pressing on his book bag. Yes, it was very George Floyd-esque with the crying for air. My boyfriend was a young teen just trying to walk home from school. Later on in life, his god sister was beaten by cops while she was trying to get help after being mugged. They were, at the time, harassing a homeless man in a wheelchair.

The chances of someone being an ex-member of an Italian mob seem reasonably high in my world.

There's a bring your own roadkill bar and grill out 264.

In my mid-twenties, I made the big leap to the south. I had seen the ugliest my hometown could offer and wasn't interested. A friend had suggested moving south where she now resided for safety and affordability.

One of our first introduced neighbors wanted to surprise the city couple. I didn't discount the likelihood. There were a lot of hunters and farmers in this area. I had very little experience or education in that field. I knew they ate things I had never heard of and decided not to judge and shrug.

Do you know I repeated that stupid statement to other people for YEARS?

*sigh*

I'm a descendant of Christopher Columbus.

This happened today, when I decided I knew a little of what this blog would be used for. An elder couple stopped me while walking my dog by the Waterfront to ask me about the town. They were retirees and by their questions, they were probably shopping around to move.

I have a poor sense of direction and couldn't navigate them to any specific locations. I joked about this. Then the gentleman dropped this.

I 💯 believed him until his wife laughed.

Without her chuckle, I would have held that nugget and shared it with my husband later. He elaborated and said that it wasn't impossible (it's not) because he was of Italian heritage. I mean, it was a stretch but considering what Christopher Columbus is now understood to have contributed to history I'd redraw that part of my family tree. Expeditiously.

Regardless, I am aware of people doing deep dives into their genealogy. It's a hobby for some, a short rabbit hole for others. How do I know he's lying?

In Conclusion

I'm aware that clinical studies look for you to misinterpret sayings like, "Pulling a fast one," or even, "Pulling my leg,". And I may be mislabelling something else like missing social cues, such as humor. I have laughed at serious things and looked solemn for complete jokes.

It's not that I don't enjoy or recognize humor. When it's overt, at least. Dry humor and sarcasm usually get lost in the old categorization part of my brain. Yet I use both, almost excessively.

But, I have no idea when someone is getting over on me. I've misused phrases and struggled to connect to new ones.

Anyway, day one.

[bunkernine]

your chb extended tag is canon, toa who?

you are actually my favorite anon, i didn't want to answer this because i didn't want to share this but thank you very much

[imherebabycakes]

SECRETS & LOYALTY

💙🐢❤️🐢💜🐢🧡

:tbh i write for fun 🤸🏾‍♀️

:oh and I’m a black woman so i might say the word nigga from time to time. if you dont like it, well…🚪🚶🏾‍♀️

:since i dont see it alot with tmtn bayverse fan fics i will be representing different ethnicities. especially black/latino/asian

:i am not a professional writer🤷🏾‍♀️

: good and bad criticism is welcomed, cuz i dont know none of yall either way so its all good , 😗

:if there is bad punctuation, please forgive me. 🙌🏾

:please enjoy and come back again😍



:i do not own tmnt. this is just for fun. everything is to go to their respective owners!!

-present day-

my name is Neptune Star Lewis and im about to tell y’all the story about how i found out that humans or “full humans” aren’t the only ones that inhabit earth. besides already being a believer in aliens thanks to the men in black movies, I always felt that there was something more out there, and i was right.



(time rewind 2018)

- neptunes pov-

i was home in the new apartment my cousin & i just moved to in Brooklyn NY

while putting boxes away , i was talking on the phone with my cousin Blaze who was at a 24 hour cvs a few blocks away picking up her prescription for an inhaler, she has asthma and was due for a refill. over the years we had some scares where she has had asthma attacks that were vary serious that resulted in her needing hospitalization from it. she’s my best cousin & friend we tell each other everything no matter what. i don’t ever have to question her loyalty, lets just say we go back like spinal cores and car seats. 

(Blaze pov)

aye tuney, (neptune’s nik name) i’m on my way back to the house now, ima hit up the corner store for some snacks do you want anything? nah im good on the junk food , but hurry yo ass up cuz I’m not putting all this stuff up by myself, my is back already starting to hurt. girl stop all that woofing, ill be home in 10-15 you big baby. ight bet….

my cousin Neptune seriously needs to take a chill pill once in a while, ever since i had my last asthma attack she’s been on my ass like stank on shit, i know she means well but damn she’s smothering me! i feel like i cant do nothing without letting her know first, she acts as if im a child. i guess that would come naturally for her being as though she’s 23 and im 19… but still she should cut me some slack. DING,DING…..diiiiing!

saved by the bell literally, i got a text from my best friend mikey,i met him 2 years ago after a potential alien invasion happened, and guess what, him and his brothers are the ones that stopped it! i know i know, hard to believe right? well not entirely. he and his 3 brothers are mutant turtles, there’s Leonardo he’s the oldest he has a more serious demeanor then its Rafael he’s all muscle and a complete jock, but he’s a sweetie pie at heart. then there’s Donatello he’s a real life genius, Albert Einstein? who det? Donatello’s intelligence is literally out of this world. and then theres my bestie Michelangelo who’s the baby out of brothers, he is emotionally intelligent, a sweet heart and will smash anyone in call of duty or mario smash bro’s. they are the most lovable selfish people i have ever met and i absolutely love them. themikester- hey blazey you wanna hang out for movie night? we got the movie aqua man. and we can order pizza & wings and i got your favorite ice cream. blaze- wassup Mikey, and thats sound good, but you know i gotta ask the warden for permission first, hopefully she gives me a pardon for tonight. themikster- damn she still ok your case huh?. blaze-yes and it’s driving me nuts,i feel like a caged bird sometimes man. themikster- well to be completely honest i can understand where she’s coming from, that last asthma attack had you in the hospital for 2 weeks, we were all so scared for you blazey! especially me. blaze- i know mikey and i get it,but tonight im busting out i don’t have any classes and im off for the weekend. so ima be there tonight! themikster- whoop whooop yess, ight call me when you’re ready tonight. blaze- ight bet

( back at the apartment)

come on tuney, ima grown ass woman, i am not a little girl anymore and i can take care of myself you know that!.

blaze, i know your grown its just i worry about you alot, im sorry if i come off like a nagging mom sometimes, but we all we got out here , so i cant help it. and you always running off to chill with these so called “friends” that i have yet to meet!! wasssup with that? we don’t keep secrets remember!!!

oh….ummm…well ummm…well when the time is right i’ll introduce you to them okay?

mmmmhhhmmm….i know you playing games , look i aint with all this secret, secret stuff ight!! your my family, my blood cousin, remember where your loyalty lies.

yea tuney, i understand no secrets…..… soooooo we cool?

like the other side of the pillow lazy….(blaze’s nik name) *laughing*

omg i hate when you call me that tuney….

bih do it look like i care? naaaah *laughing * well what time are you leaving? and are they going to bring you back home?

im leaving out at 10pm… oh…a-and i might spend the… n-night

WHAT!!…… *squints eyes* lazy, are you fucking him/them?

WHAT ? * look embarrassingly* no tuney were just friends thats it and thats all. dame!!

okay….okay, i believe you *laughing* i mean i had to ask, i haven’t seen you bring a man home at all, so i presume yo ass still a virgin, but i have noticed a difference in the way you walk them hips spreading girlfriend . well if your not fucking you definitely like or love someone….

ight,,,, ight this is getting uncomfortable…. a- and i dont like anyone.

whatever you say blaze *rolls eyes* you can deny it all you want, but i been there and done that, you got it bad cuzzo.

whatever tuney…..

even though i didn’t want to admit it, Neptune was right, im in love… not only am i in love, but its with my best friend mikey, i wanted to tell him for a while now but i didn’t wanna face possible rejection or ruin our friendship. i dont know what to do. *sigh*

(time jump10:15pm )

like clockwork Mikey and Raph met me at the man hole, 

wasssup little foot

hey raphie

why do you call me that,, you know i despise that name.

i know but i think its cute

really? well then in that case i’ll allow you, and only you to call me that…

cool, beans

hey mikster whats up

blazey, wasssup beautiful

*blushing* hi mickey

so you ready for tonight, ive been waiting to see this movie! im excited, are you?

hell yea i am

ight thing one and two, lets get outta here.

(raphs pov)

little foot is so into my brother mikey its so cute, and obvious but knowing the air head he is he probably doesn’t even realize it.

(Mikey pov)

blazey is so beautiful, her Hershey brown skin and ginger brown coily hair smells and looks so good. she’s my best friend and i love her, aww hell why am i fronting i got it bad for her, i have for a while now. SHIT

(back at the apartment)

a men in black marathon was on tonight, these was my favorite movies. i was cuddled up in my blankets on my king sized bed with some wine and popcorn. every time I watch these movies I can’t help but to think that there are aliens out here living among us or hybrid humans or something like that. I guess I’m somewhat of a conspiracy theorist, but to me i don’t need proof of their existence, i can feel it in my gut that it’s true. they are out there just living. sometimes i wonder am i one, or my cousin. ight tuney chill tf out *laughing to myself* speaking of , i told that heifer to call me when she gets to her bff house. * rolls eyes* let me call her

(blazes pov)

the move is like that, and the main character is definitely eye candy.

looking around me i notice all the boys are into the movie, raph is in the big recliner knitting what looks like another blanket, donnie, leo and ,my self are all on the couch, loe is stuffing his face with gummy bears and donnie is licking yet another pop tart. mikey was on the floor spread out on the bean bag drinking numerous sodas eating popcorn and M&Ms. and all i had was my favorite ice cream(strawberry shortcake)

about 30 minutes into the movie my phone starts ringing, startling everyone in the living room.

*simultaneous gasps*

sorry guys

no phones during the movie blaze, says leo

i know leo my bad, its my cousin

is everything okay?… donnie? says

yea i forgot to call her to let her know im ok

oh ok do you want us to pause the movie?, loe says 

nah, you guys continue ill be right back!

i step off and reluctantly answer,

yooo??

dont yo me ! i told yo black ass to call me when you got there!!

i know my bad i got carried away in the fun tuney dont trip.

mmhhhmmm… what you mean fun? i thought yall was just watching movies. you sure thats all you doin over there lazy?

yes tuney,we’re just chilling

yes ight well next time call me as soon as you get there.

bet.

as i was walking back to the living room i bumped into mikey

hey blazey you okay?

yea mikey im good

oh okay well the movie is getting good, so come on

o….okay right behind you.

(neptunes pov)

I honestly don’t know what to think about Blaze‘s so called friends. or the fact that I haven’t even met them yet or the fact that they’re all boys. god i hope my baby cousin ain’t on no freaky type shit like that, not that i would shame her if she was but gah lee, just the thought.well one of these days ima get to the bottom of it all, i mean why doesn’t she trust me enough to tell me about them? im honestly proud of myself for my self control because i could’ve followed her on numerous occasions to find answers, but if i did that she’d never let me forget it. and she is grown and is entitled to her privacy.

1 hour later

(blaze pov)

that movie was so good y’all i really enjoyed it.

yea it was cool. *yarns* well im pooped im goin to bed, goodnight everyone!

night leo

night brah

night

goodnight leo, guys im kinda tired to,

you can sleep in my room tonight little foot, i have to finish this blanket, then i’ll probably go workout

NO!!!…iii…i mean she can sleep in my room, i cleaned up and everything.

*collectively staring at mikey*

oooookay……anyways, guys the couch is fine, im not a guest anymore remember, im good.

if you say so. well ill be in my lab if you need me.

later little foot.

30 minutes later

as many blankets that i have on the couch it’s still kind of uncomfortable sometimes, maybe I should’ve took raphs offer to sleep in his bed instead. plus its cold out here to and a little creepy

i wonder if mikey is still awake?

welp lemme find out….

( mikey’s pov)

i cannot sleep, i just keep thinking about blazey.

she’s so beautiful and smart and down to hearth. she’s perfect to me

KNOCK Knock

mikey you up?

blazey?

yea?

come in!!!

sup,…..ummm.y…you okay

yea its just, well… its cold and creepy out there…….can i sleep with you please!!

*screams internally*

umm yeas sure, come one

thanks mikester

omg she’s smells so damn good, and she’s so warm. god help me

umm mikey?

yes?

are you okay you seem a little stiff?

*hell no, yo fine sexy chocolate ass is in my bed, wearing booty shorts and a tank top on. i can see the nipple piercings through the shirt. omg im gonna pass out*

oh yea im fine

well then come on, cuddle with me

*i hope little mikey doesn’t get up*

okay….sure

nuzzled under my neck lies the woman that i am head over hills for,

about 15 minutes later, she turns around and now her big bubble ass is  against dick. god help me

*lil mikey wants out!!!! *

*twitch, twitch*

i back up from her, and what does she do?

she backs that thang back up on me, and puts my hand over her stomach. this woman is trying to kill me!

*twitch twitch*

(blaze pov)

for some reason mikey is acting weird, this ain’t The first time I’ve slept in his bed. so im confused

i drift off to sleep,but after awhile i notice that mikey moved off and away from me, so i moved closer to him, my back to his chest and i pulled his arm over me. no sooner then i do that i feel too vary hard taps on my ass.

*i know that ain’t what i think it is*

um mikey

yes

you good

umm… y-yea im good

*tap tap*

mikey why are you touching my ass?

im sorry blazey, its my dick, when you leaned back on me you rubbed it. and i honestly cant help it

omg im sorry mikey i didn’t mean it ill go back on the couch.

NO PLEASE DONT GO!!!!!

okay i wont…are you okay mikey?

honestly no…n-no im not

what’s wrong, you know you can tell me anything

i know, blazey

so go ahead, im all ears

* unbeknownst to me this big star burst full of love was about to pour his heart out… to me!*

BLAZE IM IN LOVE WITH YOU ! and i have been for months now, since the first time I saw you I knew that I wanted you to be in my life whether it be friends or more.  you’re so smart,funny,kind the most importantly beautiful. and every time I see you my heart flutters. blazey you bring me to climax without sex..(2pac reference) and i love you with all my heart.

surprised at his words all my dumb ass i could say was….. woah… just woah. “really blaze”but i honestly felt the same way he did, but i didn’t get a chance to say my peace because i guess by my lack of words his confidence deteriorated & he started back tracking.

its stupid huh? to think that an ugly mutant like me would ever have a chance with a woman like you, im outtah here!!wha…. what are y….. mikey where are you going!!

away from here!!!!

MIKEY WAIT…. STOP!!!

ugh this man got me chasing him in the middle of the night

about five minutes later I come a section in the sewer where the guys used to play when they were younger. raph and donnie showed me this place a little while after ide met them, and as i walk a little further inside lo and behold there was my Mikey. as i approached him I noticed his face and eyes were puffy from crying. 

mikster…..i…umm…i need to say something

I already know what you’re going to say.

oh really…. well enlighten me please

yes,…..you’re gonna say “ I like you as a friend Mikey” “I would never be with an ugly monster like you” “i’d rather be with a human” “i wouldn’t be caught dead with a beat like you”

a bit annoyed at his remark, i sigh and cross my arms over my chest Mikey come on now, does that even sound like something I would say to you? thats not even my M.O

i… i don’t know blazey. im a bit emotional and confused right now

well listen up, kneeling in front of him i grab his hands and try to look him in his gorgeous sky blue eyes. but he won’t look at me at all. with a little more aggressiveness i grab his chin making him look at me. and repeat myself

i have something to say!!

*clears throat*

I LOVE YOU TO Michelangelo

he looks at me dead in my face and tears starts to form in his eyes when he says

you…you…love me?

of course i do , very much i said with a huge smile on my face. but no sooner did his tears come, they soon left his Face scrunched up in anger and he shouted at me….me!!

look ima a big boy you don’t have to pity me with lies okay!! i can take your rejection but the lying is to much for me

sitting there appalled I honestly don’t know if I wanna Kimbo slice his ass or bust out laughing at the false accusations he had of me. so me going on instinct i jump the gun and smash my lips ever so gently into his. he smelled of honey buns and tasted like milk chocolate.. gaaah leee what have i been missing. then out the cut all I feel are too big hands cuff my ass and give it a squeeze. & did i stop it???

hell tf no!!!

muttering through us kissing, all i hear is a hazy lustful mikey say, da….aamn blazeeey. i… i love you! ahh…an… deeet…..aaaass

HORNEY AINT EVEN THE WORD !

multiple parts are definitely in the works!!! i just had to get this off my mind before i forgot

[sporadicbakeryathletesalad]

I eagerly want to know how you listen to something that somebody who don't even really know me say? & a person who do know me that say anything negative envious and jealous because one thing for sure?! I'm not the best person in the world, but my heart pure af .. I've never dealt with ANYBODY with any ill intentions, I don't envy nobody else life, I don't want what another person has, I don't hate anybody for any decisions they have made. I simply wait my turn! You did what you felt was best for you; under your circumstances & I live to do what's best for my son n I ... We are not the same, you can paint whatever picture of me that you please 🤷🏾‍♀️ i know me though & I'm secure within myself and I'm more than willing to learn, be and do more! You just remember YOU STILL HAVE TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR at the end of the day, so make sure your happy with what you see‼️🗣🗣🤷🏾‍♀️🎯💯

[destinyc1020]

This isn't even HALF of the msgs that I received in my inbox yesterday.... 😅

Anyway, I just wanted to say thank you for your input everyone. Like I said, I hear you.

I think at the end of the day however, as a fan we just have to be PATIENT.

It makes more sense to wait and actually WATCH an episode or the entire season FIRST, and THEN complain if you find it offensive, demeaning, or insensitive or whatever. The announcement of this series JUST came out yesterday, and I feel like a lot of fans (especially on Twitter) are making a lot of wild generalizations and are jumping to a lot of negative conclusions and assumptions, and the script for this film (let alone the TRAILER) hasn't even come out yet! 🥴

I've learned that sometimes in life it's best to reserve your anger and backlash until you know the FULL story. 🤷🏾‍♀️

We don't know how they are going to portray this individual in his life, we don't know WHAT exactly they will focus on, or which scenes they will show or dwell on, etc. We really don't know anything about this project other than Tom has been cast.

While everyone's concerns are certainly valid, and I totally understand the hesitancy behind this new project, I just feel like we should just wait and see and at least get more information about this role. Based on the LITTLE bit that we do know, it seems like this was a historic case, and one in which the individual was able to get representation due to the particular nature of his mental illness. It was a case that prob changed the justice system for years to come.

I trust Tom, and I feel like he may know more about this role and the "direction" this series is going than we as fans do. Just a guess. 🤷🏾‍♀️

That's all I will say about this topic atm.