#im also like........... procrastinating heavily on assignments................

[shroomerr]

what if i gave you........ short haired kenny

ver without the doodles under the cut:

[yojeongin]

hi hi! you probably wont see this right now but i hope ur doing well, i miss ur writing but no rush for anything new! what have u been up to? 😊

ahhhh you guys sending ask makes me feel like this blog isn’t completely flopping XD but I’m on thanksgiving break so you guys can send anything you want and I’ll see them asap this time around <33

I miss writing too :( I just picked up new fixations so I haven’t really been drawn into kpop that much in general + this semester has been a bit hard to get used to since I’m taking accelerated courses (overachiever things!) so I get sm assignments due in a week (literally had 10-13 assignments due just last week 😵‍💫) and when I get free time I don’t have it in me to participate in time consuming hobbies 😞 I’m also trying to be a productive adult and been looking into internships, certifications, and jobs before I graduate once again (overachiever things— again).

like I said earlier, I got into new hobbies and if you read don’t blame the love cats, football has been one but heavily keeping up with f1 this entire year. the season is over this weekend, a lil sad about it bc I do look forward towards it despite ending up disappointed or angry— the occasional celebration here and there (checo and charles fan so if you follow you can just imagine… I also like oscar just fyi) the good thing is that checo ended up as 2nd in the wdc so that’s good for me, hoping 2024 treats him, charles, and oscar better— max already has all the luck in the world, he doesn’t need mine. so given sports has been taking all my attention you can blame it for my lack of fics but it’s not like I posted so many before this fixation lmfao 😝

ramble over, I do luv talking a lot about myself but yeah, im free this week guys! I won’t neglect yall and I’ll try to write something or at least finish my wpi!! there’s this one series I’ve been trying to post since summer but the lack of motivation has been killing me lmfaoo I’ve redone the cover/banner art for it so many times as a form of procrastination, yall pray I can at least upload one of the fics from the series soon </3

[thedeviljudges]

ima go on a big rant real damn quick that no one cares about bc im fuckin L I V I D.

fuck group projects?????????? fuck them all????????? they NEVER. FUCKING. WORK. like i don’t give a shit how ‘team building’ it’s meant to be. no one wants to do jack SHIT. they wanna wait til the last fucking minute. and it’s like. y’all do realize that shit can happen, right? the site to turn this in could go down. we have a whole ass WEEK to do this, and y’all wanna fucking play.

on TOP OF THAT we’re in JOURNALISM. we’re in fucking program that prioritizes deadlines. like, buddy. y’all. you ain’t gonna fucking make it in the real world if ya keep this bullshit up. you don’t fucking mess with deadlines. you don’t play around. you’re fucked if you do that.

and i’m just. i’m tired. i’m tired of being the bad guy and prompting everyone to be on top of their shit. i wanna talk to my professor, but if i do that, i’m not sure how she’ll handle it in terms of making shit fair. and the reason i’m so angry is bc it’s not just group work we’re doing in class. we have a final project (i have another group project in another class that i’ve get to sus out whether or not they’re decent people or not)., and that project is our fucking final.

which MEANS if they fucking half ass this, like they’re all half assing our assignments right now... what does that mean? a bad grade for me, lmao. the fact that professors think it’s okay to plan their course so that your grade heavily relies on other people is fucking RIDICULOUS. i’m not paying an arm and a leg for fucking tuition only to have a group of dumbass---bc let’s be real, that’s what they are ok---ruin my chance at a decent grade AND my goddamn ability to graduate this semester.

and i’m also pissed because NONE of them deserve my grade. they don’t. i’m tired of being used. and i’m tired of people thinking this behavior is acceptable. like, i get it. procrastination is a real thing, but at least work on it for 10 minutes a day??? not all of it in one chunk?? listen. i don’t know, but if there’s one thing i’ve learned, it’s that deadlines mean something, and regardless of me procrastinating on things myself, i always make sure i have my shit done the day before it’s due. i set my deadlines earlier than normal so that i know not to fuck around in case i find myself wanting to put shit off.

i’m upset because it’s not fair. and my brain is just too stretched thin from all the years of having to deal with this bullshit. i can’t wait to fucking leave this mess. like, i’m literally at a breaking point rn, lmao. so i’m sorry if this post seems extra harsh, but this comes from years of this happening, and in my final semester, i’m just at my last fucking straw.

[inkbits]

quiet

platonic!kirugon//modern au

1233 words

summary: gon was just too curious and easily distracted

note: idk what this is, i did not have the slightest idea of what to write i just wrote and then this happened. also not edited. lapslock not for aesthetic but bc im actually lazy

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the light struck his periphery in quick flashes, alerting him of something someone nearby.

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the light struck his periphery in quick flashes, alerting him of something someone nearby. a clicking sound going off continuously with small grunts on the side. looking back at his research methodologies book, gon decided that that finding the source of his distraction would be more productive than trying to memorize quantitative data analysis reports. the topic was useless, his class was useless.

with an air of resignation, he propped himself up from where he was sitting on the bench close to the bushes to pack his books and notes. his muscles and joints cried after the unexpected movement, not used to sitting down for prolonged moments. in fact, he learnt better when his body was actually doing something related to the subject instead of shoving academic jargon down his brain for it to only work during exams period. damn his short, selective memory.

gon remembered that he was reading his boring book for a reason, he had midterms coming up. without knowing, he sighed heavily with his eyes closed. thinking about all the cramming he would have to do just hours before the exam because his brain did not retain info–

click

abruptly opening his eyes, he turned his head around looking for the source of the sound, too fast he got whiplash. when he jerked his neck to the left, his grip on the bench lost strength and he fell down his butt kissing the wooden planks unceremoniously.

click 

“hey!” he yelled back. his eyes traveled to a tall, slender silhouette whose face was being darkened by the warm sunset light behind them.

squinting his eyes, gon tried to identify the culprit who disturbed his really boring studying session. honestly though, he silently appreciated the excuse to stop boring holes at thick, uninteresting business book pages. damn that book was boring. soon after recollecting his thoughts, his brain went back as to why he yelled in the first place and his face produced an irritated expression, black eyebrows furrowing in mild annoyance. 

“hey!” gon put his hands on his hips to accentuate his fake anger. more than anything, he was subconsciously (or maybe intentionally) procrastinating. 

“can you tell me what is that clicking sound? it’s a bit distracting” he asked, voice carrying a curious rather than annoyed undertone, cocking his eyebrow slightly.

the figure, hiding under the shadow casted from the canopy as a product of the bright warm light, walked closer to him a few steps. gon regarded him with a dubious yet intrigued look, if he was going to procrastinate he might as well find out what the other was doing there. after a few seconds, gon saw something black glinting in the other’s hands. just because he was curious and the reading so boring, he decided to kill time by trying to converse with the other. he liked making friends anyway. as if on cue, a chill breeze hit his face making him break from his own thoughts. as if the september weather was encouraging him to continue. with resolution in his steps, gon walked closer to the other, his black boots crumpling the dry leaves on his way. the closer he got, the more features he identified on the other. apparently, albeit unfair, the other was taller, wearing a plaid shirt and holding a camera on his hands hoisted by the black leash around his neck. there was nothing else besides the camera.

then his brain put two and two together, “are you taking pictures of me?”. the other person only looked straight at his eyes as if he was unsure whether to respond or not. the proximity allowed gon to observe that the other had lighter skin, clear teal eyes, and his sharp face was framed nicely by his black glasses. waiting for the other to respond, he lowered his gaze to his slender hands. gon opened his eyes slowly, seeing how the other had nimble fingers fidgeting with the camera leash. maybe gon was not the best conversationalist, but he was really good at reading body language. 

naturally taking a step back as if not to step on the other’s personal space, he glanced back at his face and asked in a calmer tone, “are you a photography major?”. the other nodded languidly, progress!

“is this for an assignment?” 

nod

“what’s your assignment?” 

a moment of silence followed, gon patiently waiting for a nod or a head shake, but the other just looked down, eyes shifting nervously hand coming up to tussle his light hair choppily. sensing the shift in the atmosphere, gon quickly moved his lips upwards to show a reassuring smile his eyes crinkling ever so slightly. he coughed, as if to change topic, “my name is gon. what’s yours?” he extended his hand to the other. the other person looked at the hand reluctantly, his expression displaying he was unsure on shaking it or not. 

to not make things more awkward, gon was about to retract his hand when he felt his hand being grabbed and tugged. instead of feeling his hand shaken, the other moved his hand gingerly, the palm facing up. fingertips starting to trace lines on his palm, and gon was obviously unsure of what was going on. he felt the other’s fingers tracing the same movement 2 times. when realization hit him, his eyes widened and his mouth formed an “o” in understanding. gon prompted the other with a nod to do it again, this time with keen focus on the other’s fingers movements. apparently, he was trying to communicate with him by writing on his hand. he supposed the other didn’t have a pen or phone with him at that moment.

trying to make sense of what the other tried to write, he repeated each letter. 

“k..i..l..l..u…a” 

the other nodded earnestly after gon pronounced the correct letters. gon’s expression automatically brightened after the affirmation.

“killua! your name is killua!” both faces brightened, gon was excited to find the other’s name, it felt like he found the treasure after following the hints of the treasure map. killua was just overjoyed gon took his time to learn his name.

“nice to meet you killua! well, you see–” gon stopped abruptly mid sentence, blinking. he observed how killua’s features changed, his eyes looking straight at him in a bewildered manner and his mouth slightly opened. confusion was swirling in gon’s eyes again, what did i do? did i say something wrong?

but his thoughts were quickly shoved to the back of his mind as killua shook his head, and nodded to him, as if prompting him to continue what he was saying. 

gon just kept talking about what he was doing when he heard the clicking noise—killua lifting his camera to signal it was him—and offered his hand whenever he felt the other wanted to answer. usually people asked him if he could talk and either pestered him about it or left because they didn’t know how to communicate. a lot of people came up to him asking why he took pictures of them but walked away because they got frustrated when they got no answer.

the air started to get colder, but killua still felt warmth. his shoulders relaxing, gon’s aura was just too friendly and welcoming, like the sun brightening the sky during spring. his eyes softened around the edges, he felt, no, he knew he wanted to be gon’s friend. and maybe for a long time, too.

[chinon]

imma junior in high school and im so scared of college oh my god, i'm not even fully convinced that im gonna make it that far, i feel like that's literally my only option after i graduate that's not forcing me to immediately act like an adultTM but honestly i'd rather get mowed down by a truck

ok tbh college isnt as bad as i make it seem... like if you keep up with the work its not that bad. i have hella missing/late assignments rn so im stressed af trying to get those done as well as keeping up with the current work bc i have an.....incredibly horrible time management and procrastination issue and poor self-control lmao... 

tip: if you have issues with time management and procrastination as well, work on them in high school. you have the rest of junior year and then all of senior year to improve your work ethic (if thats an issue for you) so you wont get behind in college

Overshare(TM) time but also it has a point ok: junior year was Hell for me bc that was the year my mental health Plummeted,,like to the lowest level of hell lmao it was real bad and thats when i started seeing therapists and psychiatrists and had my first hospitalization and first suicide attempt. my mental health was horrible and i couldnt function and i was literally failing (as in F’s) or i had a D in all of my classes. it honestly felt horrible bc id been in advanced classes since i was 6 and id always been an overachieving, perfectionist, A/B student you know my performance was really good (even tho i was still mentally ill...but it was manageable) all up until junior year,,so going from being able to get into almost any college i wanted to a 1.something gpa junior year was horrible and it stressed me out even more and added to my poor mental state and i was so fucking scared i wasnt gonna be able to graduate and i no college would ever accept me and i wouldnt be able to go for my dream of being a vet and id be a disappointment to my whole family bc im supposed to be the doctor of the family but i failed at everything right ?? lmao senior year also sucked it wasnt as bad as junior year but it was still really bad. had a few more hospitalizations and another attempt at offing myself and more F’s and D’s and missed a ton of school. it got to the point where my fucking ap lit teacher suggested that i consider dropping out l m f a o it was bad and i was so scared and i’d already been heavily considering just dropping out and getting a GED for those two years but after she said that to me i actually got really pissed off and i was like fuck that im not dropping out im gonna prove her wrong. i was still scared i wasnt gonna graduate bc of how low my gpa was but i wasnt gonna drop out right ok anyway i got to graduate on time and with my class!!! i graduated with a cumulative 3.2 which sucked for me but it felt so good and i was so happy and relieved when i found out i was gonna be able to walk and it felt so so good hearing my name and walking across the stage to get my diploma i cant even describe how i felt tbh anyway my point is you can and you will get there ok you will graduate. and you can go to college if you want to

yeah when you go to college youre technically an adult but like a semi-adult like youre saying. and some of the other options like going straight into the workforce kind of shoves you into adulthood right out of college but i think its doable.

tbh high school teachers make college seem so difficult and scary but.....its not. i was honestly terrified as well but its not how they say it is at all. “papers without names get thrown away they dont ask whose it is!!!” is a damn lie. “profs dont accept late work or give extensions!!!” is a got dam lie as well smh. “youre on your own with your work. dont get the content? your only option is a tutor!!!” fuckin lie ok profs have office hours and literally all of my profs so far have said to feel free to visit during office hours if the content isnt making sense. they also mention getting a tutor, but theyre always happy to help explain things as well.

best thing is you get to make your schedule!! you pick what time you want to take a class and you get to pick which prof you want for that class (always check rate my professor; if the semester starts and its still in the beginning and you dont like your prof you can withdrawal from that class and sign up for a different prof of the same class if you want). if you know you are having trouble with performance and functionality for whatever reason, dont take a bunch of classes in a single semester!! its literally your decision!! idk about other schools but at my school to be considered a full-time student and to still be eligible to live on campus, you have to sign up for at least 12 credit hours (most people take 15). omg credits,,ok i had no idea wtf anyone was talking about when i was in hs and they would mention credits lmao so i wanna share in case you (or anyone else) dont know (see it below!) also, you can go about taking classes at your own pace. i failed my classes last semester due to mental health shit and a few more failed attempts to off myself and another hospitalization lmao but so i have to retake all those classes. evidently im behind. i know i cant handle 15 credits until my functionality improves and so at this point in time it looks like i wont be graduating in the usual four years but thats ok!! i have disorders that affect my functionality so i cant do things at the same pace as other people right now and theres nothing wrong with that. if i graduate in four years then cool and if i dont graduate in four and instead five years...then cool...ive accepted and come to terms with that. i could take summer classes to get back on track tho so remember thats always an option if you get behind if you choose college!! 

credit hours: ok so to be considered full-time (at my school, not sure about any others but i cant imagine them being too different tbh) you have to register for at least 12 credits for that semester. one class is usually 3 credits so signing up for four classes in a semester would consider you full-time. if you sign up for 5 classes that semester thats 15 credits hours. if your class has a lab in addition to lecture (usually science classes), labs are 1 credit so its separate from the lecture. so say you signed up for four classes but two have labs that would be 3+3+4+4=14 possible credits for that semester. if you pass a class you get all the credits and theyll be added on to your total credit hours. so (from the last example) if you passed all four of those lectures plus the two labs, youd get all 14 credits added on to your total credit hours. the rest of the classes you pass for your whole undergrad work gets its credits added to that total. i hope that makes sense??

everything seems scary rn but i promise whatever you choose to pursue is doable. good luck and try not to stress about it too much ok youre gonna be fine i promise

[baepsaetan]

oh dude i feel you about procrastinating. i literally would start all my assignments like the day before. i still cringe at the torture that was writing a 10k thesis in 24 hours cause im a dumbass lol. and yes it is vv annoying dealing with those idiots also cause sexism is a thing they always go to my brother for things when he literally isnt in charge?!? anyways, my fic is only put together cause im basing it off of something lol i dont really celebrate xmas so minimal shopping here! wbu? -🥴

Ahhhhhh sorry lovely, I got way too bogged down with school. But! Hello! I would punch those idiots in the throat for you if I was in the near vicinity. Really can't believe there are Neanderthals living among us 😒

Kinda nice you don't need to do the shopping! But I'm sorry, I should have considered that you might not celebrate~ but yeah, my family is really small, just twin sis + dad, really, so we'll just have a small thing together. Going shopping rn, actually.

I'm free from school, too! So I'll actually reply not stupidly slowly! How's the fic writing going? I need to motor to get mine done. It snowed really heavily yesterday, so at least it won’t feel like a sacrifice to stay inside. How’s the weather where you are?