#im done with the brain fog

[quarantineddreamer]

...

[tennessoui]

writing warm up that got away from me

It takes thirty-two more hours for the realization to come to Sidious, and he blames Skywalker wholly for the delay. The boy's own stupidity and black-and-white view of the galaxy must be rubbing off on him, that's the only reason Sidious can think of for not having thinking of this sooner.

Kenobi. 

And Skywalker.

The answer has been sitting right before him this entire time, but he had been too blinded by his own hatred of Kenobi to see it. And Skywalker's hero worship of the man hadn't helped, of course. The way Skywalker talked of his old Jedi master evoked images of untouchable saints, glowing angels, benevolent deities...the same way he talked of those sentients he fancied himself in love with at the height of his relationships with them. Gilded and perfect and infallible. It was the way Skywalker loved, to paint his paramours as idols placed upon a pedestal.

How had Sidious missed that Skywalker had already done the same thing with Kenobi? Years ago! For years, he has endured Skywalker's fanatical praise of his Jedi master. He has listened to him complain about the man, his fastidiousness, his devotion to the Jedi Order--but oh, those moments that Sidious had made the mistake of agreeing with Skywalker's own words! He has never felt closer to losing Skywalker's trust than those times he let a bad word about Kenobi slip past his lips, even though Skywalker himself had already said much more damning things.

And yet no matter the argument, no matter the disagreement between Kenobi and Skywalker, Skywalker's faith in his master did not waver. He never took his master down from that pedestal, no matter how many times Kenobi revealed himself to be just a man.

Sidious has spent years resenting that, resenting Skywalker's unshakeable devotion to his master. He has spent years trying to ingratiate himself to the boy, trying to replace Kenobi as the boy's mentor, his father. And every time he has failed because it seems that no matter how often Kenobi manages to break Skywalker's heart, Skywalker gives it to him again without hesitation.

But...but if Skywalker were to see Kenobi through the lens of a man in love, if they were to fall into bed together and strike up a romance, then surely...surely Kenobi would flinch at the force of Skywalker's naked devotion.

[x-letsbreaksomerules-x]

“He ordered me to kill them. So I did. I killed them all.”

[toytulini]

whys it so hard

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

shoutout to those nights where the brain says We Literally Cant Do Anything Even Though We Really Want To <3

[nephriteknight]

look i’m aroace as fuck so i’ve never had a teacher crush but honestly this feels more embarrassing. i’m so obsessed with my asl prof i just need her to like me so bad. levels of teacher’s pet aspiration i haven’t seen since middle school. i just think she’s cool??

[volivolition]

okay good morning everyone!! im normal now and definitely not thinking about lavender knights still.

[mellotronmkll]

Well it's likely I have covid but the good news is being unable to do anything will really help me finally catch up on my they might be giants podcast

[bother-blame]

it feels so weird to be playing as kiryu again

[dandyshucks-moving]

there's this one photo I've seen floating around a few times with the words "I wish we could've met as kids, you would've loved the softer me" and I think about it every now and then

so ... art ʅ(๑ ᷄ω ᷅ )ʃ

[last-flight-of-fancy]

staring at the last two raids on my ff14 to-do list and going 'but what if they're hard tho?'

[constantvariations]

Hearing Hbomberguy was working on rwby 2 electric boogaloo got a fire under my ass and I am cranking on this essay. Gotta say, I'm funny as fuck

[halo-eater]

[desperatepleasures]

okay I never got through to walgreens but I put a refill request through the app (though I know it'll be fruitless) and I scheduled an allergist appt (not til March rip but im on a waitlist) AND I took an adhd assessment online (rip my wallet but oh well)

[pinnithin-writes]

next couple chapters in the helminthic romance might slip out of chronological order because i just lost a knife fight in my sleep (top surgery)

[dreamdripdistance]

i am soooOOOO frustrated with art rn but woah look a wip