#im jus ramblin...

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9 people you’d like to get to know better

omg thank you @neotula for tagging me!!! i love being tagged in things!!! yay!!!!!!

Three Ships:

I guess I'll do the first three that come to mind????? I don't have a #1 OTP or anything like that so

Sonya/Genny. They're just so freaking pretty together. I love women!!!!!!

Jecht/The Emperor: ok hear me out. HEAR ME OUT. why wouldn't someone ship them? when Tidus dies or whatever and Jecht gives him his lifepower/energy/whatever the hell happens, the Emperor takes JECHT when he's like that and gosh their conversation in Dream's End where the Emperor is all like 'actually I've been lying to you this entire time lol' UGHGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!

Cecil/Rosa/Kain: ummm idk i just had a fleeting thought about mind-controlled kain and mind-controlled cecil and which one would be the lesser evil to rosa. like. i don't know. but mind-control shenanigans aside they love each other very much and that is fact. i love ffiv

First Ever Ship: it was probably len/luka tbh. i feel like people got peeved at it because len is supposedly 14 and luka is supposedly 20 but i just aged em up. something about the yellow/pink combo (and the fact i was obsessed with vocaloid for like a decade too)

Last Song: I'm currently listening to the Tetra Master theme from FFIX :)

Currently Reading: Allen Ginsberg's A Supermarket in California. It's for class. I hate poetry, but I have to do it for my grade. I also have to read a bunch of other poems. Gosh, I hate poems. I don't know what my professor wants me to interpret from poems because it feels like he wants a "right answer" but my answer is that "it was a poem and it did things."

Currently Watching: I don't watch TV. Or movies. The last thing I watched was the first Twilight for the first time! I wish I sparkled in the sunlight.

Currently Consuming: Nothing ATM, but me and a friend went to a bakery and I got her a whoopie pie! So yay for her! We also got coffee before that, and it was delicious.

Currently Craving: I'm not hungry right now, so nothing. But I could go for some of Miss Vickie's Spicy Dill Pickle chips when I do want to nosh. I wonder if the vending machine has been restocked...

i don't know 9 people who would want to do this. i feel like @lil-melody and @ashnwolves might get a kick out of it. um. if you want me to secretly add your name to that list let me know because when people are like "anyone can do it!!!" it still feels kinda awkward. or just steal it! that's ok too i think :P

[opioidbandit]

I miss the aura kaitoukid had in the earlier episodes

[irl]

like i been thnkn abt that anon n tht poem n stuff n lik idk man

its jus a culmination of my life n my choices n i honestly n truly n jus?? genuinely believe its how ppl shld behave n its actually rly baffling to me whn people dont and its hard to wrap my head arnd the justifications. and even then im learning more and more every day. like it never stops ykno?? im gonna look back at todays me a year from now n b like man.. im glad i grew from those things

ive been treated in my life with such. despairing inhumanity. from people i loved and from people i didnt even know. ive seen and experienced so many horrible awful things that if i wrote a book, people might want to toss it in the fiction section, ykno?? like. its just been a lot, and its been deeply wounding, literally all my life almost. it wasnt until the past couple yrs that i even started to get to more stable situations and learn how to breathe and exist as a human

and when i was trying to learn how to be an actual real human? as a 24 year old adult? basing myself off of all of my life experience? i was left with basically 2 options

1. wallow, the world has hurt me for a quarter of a century, i cant find it in me to trust anything or anyone, and im going to make it everyone elses problem because why shouldnt i, i deserve it. this is what a lot of people do when they get to this place. it started when i found out my dad died because of government and capital greed, and hell, just last year i had lit cigarette butts thrown at my face constantly and was hatecrimed twice in less than 8 months along with everything else. i deserve to reflect that back

2. learn how to live and be kind. the world hurt me for a quarter of a century, but also i survived it and it wasnt without help. even if i was in the trenches, i still met wonderful people who helped to lift me out sometimes. why not become that person for everyone else? humanity is at our core, and there are people worth fighting for because my love for them is worth fighting for. i deserve to reflect that back

my fight to be better for myself and be better for the people around me has been an ongoing one! its always filled with learning and figuring things out! and i will ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS!! make mistakes. and so will you. ive been fighting for this since i realized i deserved to be treated better when i was like 20 or smth n started the actual work to try and get better

i wasnt always a good person, and even good people have bad moments. but you learn, youll always be learning. im always learning how to be kinder and gentler to the world, and fighting for what i believe in

my aim will always be to fight to help, i want to help, i want to be able to support.

[docileandlazy]

and it goes something like. trapped beneath the body of another. tangled together breath mixing in desperate pants and sounds. bodies colliding intertwining entering another. hand in hand mouth on mouth. this is the closest to God I'll ever get. beneath another crafted in His image. heavenly father I love you so. become one flesh, He has commanded. I shall obey. Amen.

[piers-official]

how does an entire city fit inside a warehouse

Sheer will and a bastard of a [ex] chairman alone.

So, Rose wanted the city t'look somethin' like Mauville up in Hoenn- Inside livin', mall-like, foodcourt, all that shite. Halfway through his lil' "project" (Years later mind ya), when he discovered there was no power spot, he wanted t'abandon the whole project and move us somewhere that was too bloody far! We didn't want t'move though, we were already settled into place, an' we didn't give a damn about no bloomin' power spot, so we told 'im "No".

Rose didn't like that, so instead o'finishin' the city he left it half-arsed and fucked off. Thankfully, we don' need no damn chairman t'tell us what t'do so all the inhabitants worked together and built the rest o'everythin' and tidied up the place.

For years we've been tryin' ta get more fundin' to fix things up (like the roof which has holes in it, and addin' light to th' place) but we always get denied. Why? 'Cause dynamaxin' is what makes city's big in Galar, an' since we don' have that, they don' care.

Granted, some people like th' aesthetic of a "night city", hence the all the neon and whatnot, but it ain't good for us inhabitants. We've installed a few UV lights here and there for artificial sun, but even those are startin' to go out.

... Shite, Arc above. Jus' realized I've been ramblin'. Sorry 'bout that but, m'real passionate 'bout my city and m'fellow city folk.

[crescent-cubed]

i crave affirmation and im going insane or are my ramblins sane

my oberanxios brain keeps overthingins everyhting

like everything

i jus wan tcubbles and to not be sick

[pasta-pardner]

rifp to every traditional artist who does their pencils and inks on the same sheet of paper. y'all are braver than me.

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i've poured so much of my time into this stupid robert burns dinner for our school and our club president is reading an ai-generated welcoming speech :/ and then our club president also generated a toast to the lassies that the resident Cool Dude will read and it READS LIKE ASS so i'm really hoping he'll prep his own so i don't have to listen to something talking about vague whatever tf

[jewpacabruhs]

yall im having a bit of a moral dilemma. ill be 22 this year and i first got into south park at... 12 going on 13 i think. so the boys were like, barely younger than i was. 4th grade was like in my immediate past. and i was reading fics w them as teens, where theyre like 16 / 17 / 18, and that felt ancient to me lol.

and now, being an adult, i try to only engage with fic where they're fully grown (and not 18 yr old seniors grown, like, idk feels wrong) but in fanart.. thats hard to come by. and now most art w them as adults is in the style of those specials which 😷

long story short, i went through the sp and kyman tags recently to queue some art and i realized how young theyre drawn half the time. and it's fine when theyre just being kiddos, but in some of the ship art, like, more than ever im baffled n grossed out by how youthful they appear. honestly even a 15 yr old shouldnt be drawing 10 yrs old kissing.

anyway ive gotten rlly skeptical with a lot of art. not the artists, i dont care enough to open their blogs n Investigate - i just see art and am like. Hmmm. Hmmmm. and ik i dont post much as is, but im jus gonna be extremely picky abt what i reblog from now on.

[aizawas-dryeye]

chat am i too old to get a scene haircut

i wasnt allowed to get it as a wee child but now ,,,,,

[mister-lady]

I found an old drawing book I had where I made a long list of different prompt ideas and AU's and hopefully that'll get me writing

[batz]

Your samefood sounds so nice!!!! (if only I could eat pork rip) mine is. 2 minute chicken noodles. I am meant to be eating particular stuff bc I'm recovering from stuff but I cant eat the food I'm supposed to it's bad :( and I jus want chickn noodel... mind if I teleport behind you and take some of your food :)?

OOOO there r always ways to spruce up 2 minute chicken noodles..!!! my samefood used to be instant ramen so i learned how to make it a bit yummier n stuff >:] specifically adding egg n veggies n meat n stuff, balance it out n everything!

like chicken noodle soup can be made SUPER yummy if u make some chicken alongside it (like a single chicken thigh or breast u can cook n tear up n put into the soup) and adding som carrots maybe to throw into the soup... broccoli is good too and cabbage is good too! (and relatively cheap)...idk if u got herbs n spices or anything but throwin in some oregano n chives n garlic / onion powder cn make things yumy!

it does take a little longer to make the food but it makes a WORLD of difference..! u can also precook batches of chicken n freeze it to use for future meals so u cn save prep time, if thats an issue! (bc i def sometimes have no spoons 2 cook so freezing stuff helps..)

but omg if i could somehow cook food fr internet ppl i WOULD i love cooking fr ppl so much (even if its rare as hell bc im like... so lazy 90% of the time fhdjhfjdh)

[tridensed]

The fact that I’m about a year younger than sapnap is Weird

[manyearsaway]

i just wanted to say: brian comin back to earth and coming across electric/automatic open doors for the first time would freak him the fuck out and that’s just what im thinking about rn 

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up late at night thinking about emperor mateus... he's so pretty. ive written about the idea before but i wonder what he would be like if he was just ordinary - as in post-canon divergence where he's still alive. as much as i think he would turn to religion i feel like the split between black and white magic makes me think he'd like to be a scholar in mysidia. i think he has the mental fortitude to be a wizard (in ff1 terms) but i think playing around with different jobs for him could be fun... the quest for mateus' employment. i think it would be nice to write a story a la 40 days in the wilderness where he has to survive on his own for a while... but i don't think he would manage it