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zermizomilk · 3 months

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you know the drill :3 1. What is you middle name? 2. How old are you? 3. When is your birthday? 4. What is your zodiac sign? 5. What is your favorite color? 6. What’s your lucky number? 7. Do you have any pets? 8. Where are you from? 9. How tall are you? 10. What shoe size are you? 11. How many pairs of shoes do you own? 12. What was your last dream about? 13. What talents do you have? 14. Are you psychic in any way? 15. Favorite song? 16. Favorite movie? 17. Who would be your ideal partner? 18. Do you want children? 19. Do you want a church wedding? 20. Are you religious? 21. Have you ever been to the hospital? 22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law? 23. Have you ever met any celebrities? 24. Baths or showers? 25. What color socks are you wearing? 26. Have you ever been famous? 27. Would you like to be a big celebrity? 28. What type of music do you like? 29. Have you ever been skinny dipping? 30. How many pillows do you sleep with? 31. What position do you usually sleep in? 32. How big is your house? 33. What do you typically have for breakfast? 34. Have you ever fired a gun? 35. Have you ever tried archery? 36. Favorite clean word? 37. Favorite swear word? 38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep? 39. Do you have any scars? 40. Have you ever had a secret admirer? 41. Are you a good liar? 42. Are you a good judge of character? 43. Can you do any other accents other than your own? 44. Do you have a strong accent? 45. What is your favorite accent? 46. What is your personality type? 47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing? 48. Can you curl your tongue? 49. Are you an innie or an outie? 50. Left or right handed? 51. Are you scared of spiders? 52. Favorite food? 53. Favorite foreign food? 54. Are you a clean or messy person? 55. Most used phrased? 56. Most used word? 57. How long does it take for you to get ready? 58. Do you have much of an ego? 59. Do you suck or bite lollipops? 60. Do you talk to yourself? 61. Do you sing to yourself? 62. Are you a good singer? 63. Biggest Fear? 64. Are you a gossip? 65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen? 66. Do you like long or short hair? 67. Can you name all 50 states of America? 68. Favorite school subject? 69. Extrovert or Introvert? 70. Have you ever been scuba diving? 71. What makes you nervous? 72. Are you scared of the dark? 73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes? 74. Are you ticklish? 75. Have you ever started a rumor? 76. Have you ever been in a position of authority? 77. Have you ever drank underage? 78. Have you ever done drugs? 79. Who was your first real crush? 80. How many piercings do you have? 81. Can you roll your Rs?“ 82. How fast can you type? 83. How fast can you run? 84. What color is your hair? 85. What color is your eyes? 86. What are you allergic to? 87. Do you keep a journal? 88. What do your parents do? 89. Do you like your age? 90. What makes you angry? 91. Do you like your own name? 92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they? 93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child? 94. What are you strengths? 95. What are your weaknesses? 96. How did you get your name? 97. Were your ancestors royalty? 98. Do you have any scars? 99. Color of your bedspread? 100. Color of your room?

THIS TOOK A WHILE TO SPACE LOL

alright tis the time again:

i won't answer anything when it comes to names just gonna say that

nov 26 one day before yours!

i looked it up "Sagittarius"

a minty green

26 or 09

yes

Europe

idk like 178-180 cm

42 i think? Europe size

like 4

kicking the shit outta slender man

¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

prob not

punk tactics

Wonka

idk partner as in crime or marriage since im aro

nope

nah

yes

nope

showers

black like my entire wardrobe

maybe

my music taste is madness

nope

on my stomach or back i often move around

i don't know

sandwich, eggs, hotdogs etc

yes

yeah

bingus

Fuck

10?11 hours?

Yes

I think

yesnt

a little

idk how bout you tell me?

probably shoes those bitches are expensive even if they're not a popular brand

yes

innie

right

yes

eggs or pizza

nothing comes to mind

somewhere in the middle im usually dirty but then i clean everything up

an insult "You cock sniffling weasel"

Bitch

like 10-20 minutes

i don't think so

crunch because my teeth are tungsten

yes

not anymore

meh

loneliness

i prefer to keep it as black mail

idk don't watch many movies

long

art or gym

introvert

silence

some times

yes

nope

never really had one

0 :']

i think

pretty meh

pretty fast

dark brown

bluish maybe greenish

nothing

im assuming for work mother works at an old persons home father is an electrical engineer

somewhat

alot of things

it's annoying but i have to deal with it

strong fast durable smartish

low endurance constantly tired

they just thought it sounded nice

yes

yellow ish like banana colour

mostly white

#iamunable #GOD THAT TOOK SO LONG

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golbrocklovely · 1 year

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since i have nothing else to post right now…

here’s the last of colby’s tweets from 2020.

i don’t have proof that these are his tweets, but believe me, they are his.

if it’s bold and italicized, it’s someone’s tweet to him.

if it’s in (), that’s just me commenting lol

added bonus: if they have a * next to them, that means it’s been deleted

~~~~~~~~~~

Oct. 1 - love doing things for myself

Oct. 4 - i’m in so much pain. sos

fan: u ok?

poison oak. everywhere …. everywhere.

Oct. 5 - i like the simple things

Oct. 7 - less is more

Oct. 10 - i wanna make you happy

how am i so busy during the day but still manage to find 2 hours to mindlessly scroll through tik tok? i can’t be the only one

Oct. 14 - i care too much

Oct. 15 - somehow it wasn’t enough

Oct. 18 - fan: I CANT BE THE ONLY ONE WHO ALWAYS WONDERED WHAT COLBY SMELLED LIKE..I WANA KNOW WHAT COLOGNE HE WEARS

mayonnaise

(i hate this man so much lmao)

Oct. 19 - Justin Bieber’s new song made me tear up, that dudes been through so much. no one could even imagine what that’s like.. achieving everything and being in the biggest spotlight at such a young age.

Oct. 20 - @/samgolbach: less than 6 months ago i broke my back. and i decided to take that as a challenge to get healthy again. and today i ran the fastest mile i’ve ever run. so yes, i might be an idiot but i’m a determined idiot 🤘🏼🏃🏼

🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼 that’s an insane accomplishment ! i remember when it was a struggle to stand up out of bed

new day, same cycle

Oct. 21 - my mom is texting me all the young pictures of me and it’s bringing me memories i didn’t know i had

Oct. 25 - panic attacks late at night are the worst

Nov. 1 - @/colbybrockscar: reminder that it’s no nut November!!! @/ColbyBrock doesn’t even have to try. He’s got this shit in the bag. It probs comes out like baby powder if he tries

did my car just roast me ?

Nov. 4 - this is scary

cuties! all 3 of you! (reply to fan in merch with friend and cat)

Nov. 6 - @/GracynCarr: I can’t believe the audacity of a high school tweet to pop up on my timeline lmao.. miss u tho @/ColbyBrock :)

hope you're well xx

Nov. 8 - so much talent thank youu love (reply to fan's art)

fan: Um. So I tweeted this to you before but alot has also changed since then sooo wanted to say thank you 🖤 🖤 @/ColbyBrock

proud of you, and good luck with your dreams darlin 🖤 you can accomplish anything with the right mindset and hard work. i believe in ya

time flies, and i’m so scared of losing my youth. it’s inevitable i know, but damn makes you wanna cherish every moment you got

Nov. 11 - i hate when nothing is wrong but nothing feels right

Nov. 12 - the person who makes you forget about the rest of the world

Nov. 13 - today marks 6 years since we posted our first YT video on the MAIN S&C account .. 🖤 what a wild ride

Nov. 14 - promise you i’m a good waste of time

Nov. 15 - @/katstuartmusic: “sunday is my funday” - colby brock 2020

🥂💁🏻‍♂️💁🏻‍♂️

fan: Colby u get drunk off of one white claw

fight me

other fan: my money is on mags

round house kicks to the face don’t feel too good

(is it bad that i like when colby gets weirdly violent with us sksksks)

Nov. 16 - the Why Dont We dudes are some of the nicest people in LA

*Nov. 17 - @/gabytriana: It’s out! Sam and Colby were so much fun to work with, and despite what Colby said, I did not hate him when we first met! 😆 Both he and Sam are super kind, smart, generous entertainers who know how to tell a good story! I love them both!! Happy Book Birthday, @/samandcolby

hahaha thank youu so much for all the hard work ! so excited it’s finally here

(interestingly enough, colby didn't delete his tweet… gaby did)

Nov. 19 - went to a Pyschic Reader tonight. my mind is blown. im not a skeptic anymore, video coming tomorrow

fan: Get ready for religious people to freak out

the psychic i talked to was religious, i’m not sure how but i think the two concepts can exist at the same time

Nov. 21 - hard to trust

fan: @/ColbyBrock hey, i love u lots

love you 🖤

Nov. 23 - fan: imagine if @/ColbyBrock responded to this

could you imagine

Nov. 24 - fan: lmao okay so my friend put this together when I FINALLY received Colby's reaper merch yesterday and I had to laugh, I am actually stupid. But I thought it was a lil funny so y'all can see it too then xx

hahahha love it. thank you. you’re not a sack of potatoes in my eyes

Nov. 27 - happy b day @/SamGolbach you know this and imma save the sappy shit for your big 25th bday but i wouldn’t be here without you. you’re the most intelligent, deep thinking dude i’ve ever met and i feel pretty damn lucky to be able to call you a business partner AND best friend

Nov. 28 - take it easy

Nov. 30 - should i hop back on tik tok?

Dec. 2 - @/aaron_doh: At least I got a photo shoot out of it 😄

whaaat. dude i wish you a speedy recovery

Dec. 3 - it’s hard to move on

Dec. 5 - a nice escape is all i need

welp. i guess i’m a lightweight

Dec. 9 - miss you

Dec. 14 - all the baggage that comes with me

Dec. 15 - been workin hard for you , announcement tomorrow

fan: omg are you pregaganant

how'd you know

@/samandcolby: announcement tomorrow… 2021 will be the best year of our lives (and probably most difficult)

fan: are we getting married?? is that why?

yes

i hate how having anxiety makes me nauseous. it’s the worst feeling

Dec. 16 - it’s all about living in the moment and making every. second. count.

fan: yeah @/ColbyBrock how much are you charging for tattoos…

free for you

Dec. 18 - big tool pic but i’ve been workin hard

@/mannymua733: we absolutely do not mind

hahahaha

(god damn… this pic is still so good lol)

also cold weather always makes me want a special someone to spend time with. cuddle buddy is neeeeeded

fan: okay but can we just take a second to appreciate how hard colby’s been working in the gym because dayum

thank you sweeeetheart

fan: HELP COLBY IS TRENDING

yoo i love you guys 🥺

Dec. 20 - got tatted last night and i barely remember

how i feel this morning (pic of him floating)

fan: you’ve seen elf on the shelf… but have you seen cole in a hole? (@/ColbyBrock)

i’m mad i laughed at this

Dec. 23 - why’d ya have to change on me

so bittersweet saying goodbye to my childhood home of 18 years… i’ll only be back to kansas to visit and sleep in hotels from now on. strange feeling, but so happy for my mom and dad for taking a chance and moving

it’s like i don’t have a real “home” anymore. since i move so much anyways it’s hard to find a spot to actually call home

fan: i just want to say that colby has helped me through so much this year. i had a tough year as many others did but you’ve seriously have helped me through so much. i love you so so much @/ColbyBrock

awh that’s why i make videos in the first place. for people like you

Dec. 24 - addicted to you

my mom and i are the weirdest duo on the planet when we’re together i swear

fan: Make a video with her for Christmas

my whole family despises being on camera 💔

Dec. 25 - fan: momma brock is the sweetest ever

she’s my favorite woman in the world

Merry Christmas friends ! 🖤

i wish i could have face tats for like one week but it doesn’t really work like that huh

Dec. 26 - everyone’s battling their own demons

Dec. 28 - fan: Colby drinking wine but he's such a lightweight that he's probably drunk, lmao @/ColbyBrock

🤫🤫🤫

fan: the vibes are fucking ethereal i’m guessing @/ColbyBrock

you got it

#colby brock #cb tweets #personal #text

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udon-udon · 2 years

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2022 recap

Let’s see... 2022 was a pretty wild ride, not gonna lie

Shall we start from the beginning? Hmmmm the beginning of 2022..... SheEEEESH. It was my last semester of my final year for my bachelor’s degree in graphic design for marketing (wait, I have a bachelors? LMAOOOO I forget that I have one now holy cow wait a sec). I also remember being very very stressed out about my 3 week practicum I had to do in Feb. Alongside that were a ton of projects like portfolio making, final projects for said portfolio, the grad show etc etc. It was VERY busy and stressful. Luckily, the practicum went on without a hitch, and school projects were done with, and one of the bigger projects was well received so YAY!! And then of course, graduation rolled around in April, and I finally made it!! And then I got hired right after graduation which im still super thankful for cause I got hella lucky, really.

So work started in around late May/early June and it took a while to get used to things. I’ve never worked full time at an office before so there were many things I had to learn and stuff, but other than that I’m just glad I’m able to deliver the things I’m tasked to do, and they seem like they like me, so :’) Of course I still have my moments where I feel like I’m not cut out for the job or I think I’m doing horribly and for some reason think they’re going to fire me any time soon LOOL... but anywho... I started a deskmat project (which is still delayed unfortunately, i don’t want to talk about it...) but hoping that can get picked back up sometime soon... I was also rushing on new prints as well for con season so that was pretty wild.

Summer then came and WHEW. I got covid. Luckily it just felt like a regular cold, so I might have gotten a weaker strain of it. It was quite scary though since I live with family and I was afraid of spreading it to them (of course I ended up doing so cause we share the same bathroom, but they survived) Aside from that, I tabled for the first time in 3 years! AND I DID GREAT! I really missed tabling and honestly it might have been because of the turnout at the events but damn I did better than I’ve ever did, which is crazy. It really makes me want to get better and table more, but it do be pretty exhausting. Anyway, the summer was great imo, but jesus the fall took a nosedive.

September was alright, and for the second time, I didn’t have to worry about going back to school anymore which was kind of surreal again. I was finishing up the art commissions that I paused to work on the anime convention prints. I finished those up so I can focus on the Yuri Game Jam 2022 in Oct-Nov but little did I know.............. I would not be able to make it v n v. I underestimated the time management needed while working a 9-5 job and my lack of discipline... Also cause I didn’t have a clear vision of this year’s game which made me literally go in circles until I had no time left by the time I actually kind of had something down.... I became so stressed over the story that it branched out to other bad thoughts and I just spiraled really hard. Things that I said I would not let bother me had bothered me again and god I hated it so much. Why can’t I just... not think about those things. Hoping to stop those thoughts in 2023 though. So yeah I got really stressed so sadly I had to shelve the project and not release anything for this year’s game jam. I was very disappointed in myself, and it was a very tough decision to break my visual novel streak but I had to do what I had to do. After dropping the project I felt much much much much much better. Hoping to revisit the project again sometime though, now that I decided to release it whenever it’s ready (but will i have the proactiveness to go back to it? that is another story LOL)

So November was over with and December rolled around. December itself was stressful yet okay at the same time? Stressful in terms of spiraling at work again, but I also managed to just chill out and do whatever. And of course, the week-long break from work helped a ton (as I’m writing this thinking back I did absolutely nothing that week but that’s what I wanted most) Hopefully I’ll go back to work rejuvenated again cause I was clearly burnt out from work lmao. I should make use of my vacation days more man. Anyway since it was recent, I vividly remembering spiraling again over subject that shall not be mentioned, and I had no one to ground myself with so I had to try to ground myself somehow which I do try to do more so than rely on others. Luckily I recovered from the spiraling relatively quickly, so maybe it’s an improvement and if I ever encounter that subject again it’ll be an even faster recovery and soon it will be over? That’s what I’m hoping for 2023. Definitely a goal. Please let my 2023 self not let it bother me anymore please please please please (though i think i said that in 2022 no? hahaha) i jsut want to be loved v n v and not feel like my friends are leaving me one by one :’))))))))))))))))))))))))

ANYWAY Thank you for reading until the end. Ultimately, I want to worry less about subjects that make me go insane and just be happier. I’m a Bocchi that needs to find a close knit of supportive friends that can make me take another step in life :’)))))) LOOOOL And of course, I would like to draw more. Planning on opening art commissions in the new year some time soon so stay tuned. Hoping to table some more too! Though I don’t have much to sell hahahaha;;; Well then, until next year!

#personal #adventures with udon

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hd0897 · 2 years

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Nov 16, 2022 5:39am

Just got off work, midmonth is done yey

Grabe tagal ko natapos, why? While working tngina ndi ako makapagfocus kaka overthink dafuq… nakakadrain maging malungkot, madepress and sht. Sana naging hotdog nalang ako sa ref, chilling.

Well day 3 of not communicating with you, it hurts. Nakakamiss ka kausap, nakakamiss kang kalandian lol With this space that was given to me, I somehow realize na kaya ko naman pala magisa.. wala kausap or ineentertain na iba, malungkot yes, but Im really getting used to it. Sana one day marealize mo rin na communicating with your partner is a must what I mean is nagopen up ako before tayo mag cool off pero I didnt get the assurance that I needed, explanation that Im craving for. But instead ako nanaman nagsabi for you to give me an assurance. Come on, kusa dapat yun… I sounded really toxic na cause lagi ko sinasabi yung dapat mo gawin pero in reality a man should obligingly provide assurance to their partner. Kusa dapat ang mga bagay bagay ibigay hindi yung lagi ko hinihingi. Lagi ko nalang naiisip na ano ba ready ka ba talaga to have a gf? You had a bad experience with your ex, you should’ve known better.. alam mo dapat ang tama at mali sa relasyon. Ano ang kusa na ibigay… well its really devastating, if the day comes na gusto mo ko kausapin in person. I’ll just depend my decision on your realizations if may natutunan ka ba sa cool off na to. I just really hope right now na you are doing well, not skipping meals and thinking properly para if ever ayun nga the day comes na magusap tayo personally ready ka na to commit 100% of yourself.. Before I end this day, I also realized na nakuha mo na ung awaited mo na increase… I dont know how to react nung sinabi mo sakin yun I mean masaya syempre increase yun but somehow andun ung thoughts na wag ka nalang magresign para sa career mo. Naalala mo ba ung unang months natin magkausap, ano sabi natin sa isat isa? Career muna bago ako… well willing naman ako lagi magparaya. If para sa growth mo yun, I can definitely leave. I can understand na career muna talaga, maybe someday we can try it again kapag fully healed na ako. I always trust to God na magheal na ako.

Cool off day 3

#HD0897

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paragonred · 3 years

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I’ve been feeling the need to fixate on something new and it finally hit and. Well I can’t say why I’m feeling so cringe about it but it’s likely because it’s 100% moving from one tumblr ship to another. The fall into Destiel didn’t make me feel so hysterical about it though

#likely because i had been passively invested for years before nov 5 #meanwhile this is literally just grasping onto the next thing that comes along #also because what little ive seen from succ session is hysterial on its own so #well anyway im ready to sink my teeth into tomgreg

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meltwonu · 3 years

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✦ 👻 𝕸𝖔𝖓𝖘𝖙𝖊𝖗 𝕸𝖆𝖘𝖍 SEASON 2 👻 ✦

↪ ✧ PARTY ‘TIL I DIE ✧

this chapter pairing; incubus!hhu 「scoups|wonwoo|mingyu|vernon」x reader

genre&warnings; incubus!au, fivesome, dom!scoups, dom!wonwoo, dom!mingyu, dom!vernon, bdsm dungeons, double penetration[more ways than one], anal, handjobs, blowjobs, dirty talk, name calling, dumbification, degradation, restraints, sex toys, overstimulation, objectification.

notes; THE FINAL CHAPTER FOR MONSTER MASH SEASON 2! ✨😭💕 Bruh at this point the list of warnings should’ve been alphabetized kjfhksd ☠️ But hey, I figured we should go out with a bang if u kno what I’m sayin [gangbang] 🥸🥴 Thank you so much for all the support with MMS2 🥺 It really means so much to me and I appreciate every single one of you 😭💕 And thank you for always showing interest wanting to see MM content on here too! 💕 I’m going to post a schedule for Nov tomorrow, since I’m going to be taking a bit of a break for the first week and a half of Nov and I’m going to make a big MMS2 inbox roundup that’ll go up sometime this week too 💕 For now 😈 Enjoy the final chapter of MMS2 and have a great Halloween! I love you! 👻 🎃 ✨

word count; ~3500

chapters; 1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - 6 - 7 - 8 - 9 - 10 - 11 - 12 - 13

i just wanna party, party, party, party, party,

party 'til I die-ie-ie-ie!

wanna get it started, started, started, started, started,

we're runnin' out of ti-i-i-ime!

every-everybody-body, body, body, body.

is coming through toni-i-i-ight!

and I just wanna party, party, party, party, party,

party 'til I die-ie-ie-ie!

p-party 'til I die!

You drunkenly tell a friend of yours one night that you’re open to experimenting.

‘I used to be the receptionist at this one place,’ he’d said as he slid over a sleek black business card, ‘I don’t work there anymore but the place was… Legit. No weird stuff and complete confidentiality. If you’re really thinking about it, I’d go here.’

And while you’d initially been embarrassed that you’d even told him that much - you found yourself quietly going down the small set of stairs that led to the exact location that’d been typewritten onto the back of the sleek black business card.

You’d even gone so far as to set an appointment for the VIP room and despite the heavy price tag that had been attached to it, you hoped that it was worth every dollar.

When you reach the bottom of the stairs, you hesitate with your hand on the unsuspecting doorknob before you shake your head and pry it open.

“Hi, and welcome to--”

“Seokmin!?”

He grins at you, waving comically from his place at the receptionist’s table. “Good evening. I see you made your appointment on time.”

You quickly shut the heavy door behind yourself before making your way towards him; cheeks hot as he readies your paperwork.

“I took the liberty of highlighting only the parts you need to read on here so--”

“You said you didn’t work here anymore!” You quietly yell as you take in your surroundings - noting the all black decor with the pops of purple on the wall.

He grins at you and slides over the clipboard with a pen.

“I lied because I didn’t think you’d actually come. But now that you have, you can’t tell anyone I work here still.”

“And if I do?”

Seokmin taps the clipboard with the pen - eyes twinkling.

“Then I tell everyone you came here too.”

“Touché.”

You fill out all of the paperwork and Seokmin leads you down a long corridor but the last paragraph before you’d signed makes your brows furrow as you repeat it over and over in your head.

“Seokmin… I have a question.”

He turns to you slightly before gesturing you forward when you reach the final door. “Yeah, what is it?”

“That part of the contract… Towards the end, the, ‘By signing this contract, you agree and consent to the non-human entities that may be your dominant and/or submissive during your appointment.’ Wh--what did it mean by ‘non-human entities’?”

Seokmin smirks as he unlocks the door and gestures you inside but your nervousness makes you hesitate to cross the threshold.

“You know all those urban legends about this side of town? That there were things here that shouldn’t have been?”

You nod slowly.

There had always been rumours that people had encountered vampires and even demons on the side of town that you were in but most often than not, you brushed it off as tales to make sure people stayed on the trails.

Seokmin licks his lips - eyes glimmering a crimson colour when you slowly start to step into the dimmed room.

“Let’s just say we give them a place to play.”

The second you’re alone in the dimmed room, you take in your surroundings - noting the big king-sized bed in the center and the table off to the side that had a multitude of sex toys lining the top.

From dildos of all sizes to riding crops that made goosebumps rise on your skin.

“Oh? I see you’re taking in our amenities, sweetheart.”

A voice speaks to you from behind as you gasp and spin to face them - accidentally knocking off some of the toys off of the table in your haste.

“I--sorry, w-who are you?”

He smirks before he advances on you; a small gasp leaving your lips when he’s already crossed the room and is kneeling at your feet to pick up the toys that had fallen.

“The name’s Mingyu. I’ll be your dom tonight and I expect you to be an obedient little slut or I will be punishing you, sweetheart.”

Mingyu stands back up at his full height and you feel your breath hitch at the way he holds the vibrator in his large hand - the toy seeming so small in his hold as a rush of wetness soaks into your panties.

“You’ve been so wet since you got here, sweetheart. You must’ve been waiting for this for some time, hmm?”

“H-how did you k-know that…?” You whimper as he presses his chest against yours and it’s when he leans in close do you notice the crimson gleam in his eyes.

“I’m an incubus, of course. We can all tell.”

Mingyu hadn’t said much.

Only asked you to strip yourself of your clothes before he was ordering you onto the bed and restraining both your arms and legs to the bedposts before he’d placed a vibrator between your, already, slicked thighs and left.

And the vibrations had been strong to your sensitive body as you wracked your brain trying to remember what an incubus even was; moaning softly when you remember that they’d not only fed off of sexual energy but also expelled it.

“Ngh, that’d e-explain why I--I was so… Affected by M-Mingyu…”

“Bingo~”

Your eyes dart to your left where the new voice comes from; legs wanting to clamp shut as the new visitor steps right in front of the bed. “Hoo, Mingyu sure is a mean one leaving you here like this, babygirl~ You’re soaking that toy like it’s nothing~”

In any other circumstance, you’d find yourself embarrassed at the new stranger who can’t stop staring at your pussy but instead you find yourself trying to grind against the toy as he watches.

“W-who are, a-ah, you…?” You whisper.

He grins at you as he starts to loosen his tie.

“Oh, me? My name’s Vernon, babygirl~ I’ll keep you company until Mingyu comes back.”

“Like hell, you will.” Mingyu retorts; appearing out of thin air as he eases onto the bed in nothing but his slacks. “Can’t you find your own toy to play with?”

You cry out just as Mingyu cruelly presses the toy harder against your sensitive clit.

“Why should I? Isn’t she our VIP guest for the night? Shouldn’t we give her the works?” Vernon quips. “And she smells so fuckin’ sweet. I could smell her when she passed by the doors.”

“We almost came running from our rooms too. You should learn how to share, Mingyu.”

You, Mingyu and Vernon turn your heads to the right to see two other males join and you feel yourself on the verge of an orgasm as they all stare at you and your naked body writhing against your restraints.

“Oh? Looks like she wants to cum already.” The blonde haired one replies to the bespectacled one.

“Are you gonna let her? Or should we hold off.”

“Who’s we, Wonwoo?” Mingyu grumbles.

And in the midst of their bickering, you end up cumming against the toy - toes curling and thighs trembling as the vibrations threw you over the edge and had you wanting to have your limbs unrestrained so that you could move away from the toy still pressed tight against your clit.

“Ah, you two were so busy arguing, she already came. Poor ‘lil fucktoy can’t even keep it together, huh? Her body is so sensitive already.” The blonde one comments.

He steps closer to the bed as you beg for one of them to turn the toy off - none of them reaching to shut it off as the overstimulation starts to bite.

“My name is Seungcheol and the one wearing glasses over there is Wonwoo. We’ll all be fucking you tonight so let’s get to know each other, okay?”

And you do get to know each other well - all of their hands all over your body to the point where you don’t know who’s even touching you at any given point and you find yourself cumming two more times before any of them even sink their cocks into you.

“Mmph… Ngh…”

“Aww, look at her, she’s trying so hard to sink her entire mouth down onto Vernon’s cock but it’s too big for her cute ‘lil mouth~” Mingyu grins as he thrusts into you - his cock fucking your ass as Wonwoo laid underneath you fucking your pussy. “I’m surprised she could even take Wonwoo and I at once… Guess it’s not your first time being used like a good ‘lil cum dumpster, huh? You love being filled with cock in both holes, don’t you, sweetheart? You were so wet we both slid into your tight ‘lil holes like it was nothing~”

You moan around Vernon’s cock in your mouth just as you clamp down onto Wonwoo and Mingyu’s cocks; your shy hand wrapped around Seungcheol as he grinned down at you.

“I mean, she came here knowing what she wanted, right? She paid for the best so we shouldn’t skimp out on anything~ We’ll give her everything she wants tonight, so long as she gives us what we need in return~”

They all share a cruel laugh as your body rocks between them all and the way they have your entire body alight with energy only makes you wetter and hotter with each passing second they keep you filled.

And you had experimented by yourself a multitude of times; your sex toys being a staple in your closet.

But nothing felt better than somebody real and now you had four incubus all to yourself with unlimited energy to keep fucking you all night.

“Her mouth feels so good around my cock… Fuck, and her energy is so fuckin’ high too.” Vernon groans, head thrown back as you swallow and gag around his length, “Hope she has enough for all four of us~ We’re pretty hungry, babygirl~ We might need to go all night~”

Wonwoo growls as he thrusts up into you, his cock barely able to fit inside of your pussy with how much Mingyu was already stuffing you full.

“Her pussy is so fuckin’ tight too, I can’t wait to cum in it~” He licks his lips as he alternates his thrusts with Mingyu, “Ah, is Seungcheol going to fuck it after me?”

“Of course I am, I don’t want to cum in her hand, I wanna cum in her pussy too. We can’t waste a drop of it, can we?”

They continue to talk about you as if you really were just a toy to them and it makes your mind feel hazy as you tighten your grip on Seungcheol’s cock.

Precum leaks from the tip as you smear it down his shaft and he resists the urge to push the others aside to have his way with you alone.

“Did you catch that, baby? Wonwoo’s gonna cum inside that tight ‘lil cunt of yours and then I’m gonna cum inside you too~ Gonna fuck our cum deeper into you so you can feel us inside of you for days even after you leave here~”

Your eyes roll to the back of your head at the idea and all four of them let out a groan as your entire body reacts to Seungcheol’s words.

“You know, princess, we read over your profile before we got here,” Wonwoo comments; eyes peering up and watching the way your mouth stretches around Vernon’s cock, “You had quite the extensive list on there, y’know? Almost every filthy ‘lil fantasy in the book. From tentacles to wanting to be fucked by two cocks in the same hole. You know we can give it all to you, right?”

You feel a shiver roll down your spine at the idea and you find yourself whining around Vernon’s cock as you start to work your hips back to fuck yourself on Mingyu and Wonwoo’s cock.

“Ah, she’s trying so hard~” Mingyu teases. “Every time we tell her about one of her dirty fantasies we can give her, she tries extra hard to please us. So cute, sweetheart. A good, obedient little cockwhore.”

Seungcheol’s cock in your hand feels hot and heavy as his pre-cum covers your palm. And now, you couldn’t help but imagine him and Wonwoo both inside of your pussy at the same time as you sputter around Vernon’s length.

“Oh? I think she wants to say something to us~” Vernon tugs you by the hair and off of his cock; a thread of precum and spit connecting your lips to the head as you sputter and catch your breath.

“Puh--please… I--I want, ngh, S--Seungcheol and W--Wonwoo in my p-pussy… I--a-ah! I can t-take it…” Your voice is hoarse from the way Vernon was deepthroating you, “I w-want you both to, mmnh, cum i-inside my pussy at the same--same time…”

You cry out as Mingyu and Wonwoo’s rhythm starts to match - their cocks filling you up at the exact same time as your body jerks forward.

“You think you can? You could barely fit Wonwoo’s cock inside your cunt and now you think you can take both of us? That’s cute, baby.”

Tightening your grip on Seungcheol, you work your hand down his shaft in time with their thrusts, “I, mmh, c-can… P-please… T-treat me like a, ngh, g-good fucktoy… I—I promise I’ll be good…”

Seungcheol licks his lips and pulls your hand off of him - opting to sit by the side as he watches.

“Let Vernon and Mingyu have their fun and then we’ll give you what you want. Understood?” He grits out; eyes watching your body taking in all three of their cocks at the same time.

Wonwoo holds you steady as Vernon and Mingyu then take the instead - their cocks slamming into you from both ends as you fight the urge to cum just yet.

“We’ll cum inside your pretty ‘lil ass and mouth at the same time, okay, sweetheart? So be good and take all of it.”

You let out a muffled cry in response and you start to feel their cocks throbbing inside of you as their paces start to match.

“She’s gonna be dripping with cum from each hole… I bet she’s going to feel so good after this. Won’t you, princess?” Wonwoo comments teasingly. “We hope you come back to play with us again after this. We still have so much of that list of yours to go through~”

They all chuckle under their breath and it only takes a few more skillful snaps of Mingyu’s hips into your ass and Vernon holding you down onto his cock until they’re both cumming at the same time - muffled cries around Vernon’s length as you start to feel their warm cum filling you up.

“Oho~ I can already see the cum dripping between her legs, Mingyu~ How much are you cumming inside her?”

You do your best to swallow down all of Vernon’s cum but some still manages to dribble down your chin and drip near Wonwoo’s head.

“Princess, don’t make a mess, okay? I’d hate to have to punish you.”

Your head feels fuzzy as they continue to fuck their cum inside of your mouth and ass and they both ride out their orgasms before they’re pulling out of you - cum pouring out of your ass in huge globs as it slides down your skin and onto Wonwoo’s cock.

“Ngh… Fuh--fuck… I’m--I’m already so--so full… It feels, ah, so good…” You cry; pleasured tears streaming down your face as you immediately sink down onto Wonwoo’s entire length now that he was the only cock inside of your overstimulated body.

“Please… S--Seungcheol…” Begging, you swivel your hips atop Wonwoo’s lap waiting for the other male to join.

“Mm, looks like we fucked her stupid~ All she can think of now is taking cock~ Look at the way she’s shaking her hips like a good ‘lil slut.” Wonwoo quips; hands on your ass as he spreads you open just as Seungcheol positions himself right where Mingyu had been.

“Fuck, Mingyu, she’s a mess… She has your cum all over - it’s even on Wonwoo’s cock inside of her.”

Mingyu and Vernon both watch from the sidelines as Seungcheol uses Mingyu’s cum as lubrication for his own cock when he positions the head of his cock right next to Wonwoo’s.

“You’re gonna need to relax, princess, or else Seungcheol won’t be able to fit his cock inside of your pussy, okay?”

You nod feverishly as you try to calm your buzzing body but as soon as you start to feel Seungcheol’s cock starting to push in next to Wonwoo’s, you feel yourself starting to drool at the stretch.

There’s a bit of a sting at first but it quickly bleeds into pleasure as their big, warm hands massage your body.

“You’re doing so well, baby~ Taking both of our cocks in your tight ‘lil hole like this~” Seungcheol coos, “Then we’ll both fuck you like how you want and you can cum with us, okay?”

You sniffle slightly as you get used to the feeling of both of them inside of you and when Seungcheol finally is fully sheathed inside your cunt, flush against Wonwoo’s own cock, you can’t stop the orgasm that washes over your body as your walls clamp down onto both of them.

“Fuck, she’s cumming around our cocks… Shit, she’s so tight.” Seungcheol grunts as he slowly draws his hips back and shallowly thrusts back in, “I can’t hold back, baby, I need to fuckin’ cum in this tight ‘lil cunt, okay?”

You’re still riding out your high as you nod, “P-please… Fuck me, ngh, g-good and—and hard… Use my p-pussy h-however you want…!”

The delirium starts to set in as they start to fuck your pussy at the same time; the stretch undeniably delicious as you work your hips back.

“Mm, next time let Vernon and I do that to you too, okay?” Mingyu snickers as you glance at him from the side - eyes hazy and filled with lust as you move in tandem with the other two incubus.

“I—I want it… I, mmnh, c-can take it…”

You start to sob quietly as you feel another orgasm building extremely fast and it’s not until Wonwoo growls that you even register than he and Seungcheol both were now fucking you at a speed twice as fast.

“Fuck, we fucked her so stupid. Princess, do you even know where you are?”

“Mmngh… the—um, the bdsm p-place..? I—I don’t remember the n-name….” You whisper hazily.

“That’s right, baby. And now you’re gonna cum with us, okay? One more time like a good ‘lil cumslut.”

You nod once before your head lols to the side, eyes unfocused from the mind melting pleasure as you start to feel your entire body locking up between their own.

“Fuck, I’m gonna cum…” Wonwoo mutters, hips thrusting up into you as he slides against Seungcheol’s cock.

Wonwoo’s hips stutter as he gives into the pleasure and Seungcheol follows suit as they both cum inside your pussy at the same time - the warm sticky substance spilling out of you as you let out a quiet scream.

Your ears are ringing as you cum and the last thing you see is Wonwoo’s amused face for a millisecond before everything goes black.

“Ooops.”

“How would you rate your service, from a scale of one to ten?”

Seokmin beams at your disheveled appearance; his eyes forming crescents as you blink tiredly at him at the receptionist’s desk.

There were four different loads of cum sliding down your inner thighs and at this point, you didn’t even care that Seokmin knew.

“Schedule my appointment for next week. The same room please, Seokmin.”

“You got it, doll. Say... Any room for one more?”

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nightlykora · 2 years

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Forbidden Part 1

Ashlynn POV

MY GIRLS and jarred g.c.

8:06 AM, Sunday Nov. 15

JJ - anybody up?

Me - Heather slept over so now were at church

JJ - you're on your phone in church girl??

Me - I'm in the bathroom

Will o - Bro can yall get a private chat. U woke me up.

Sia - Yeah its 8 in the morning on a Sunday let us sleep

JJ - chill. i'm bored

❤️Heather❤️

8:07 AM, Sunday Nov. 15

❤️Heather❤️ - Hey!! Where are you!?! Your dad is looking for you church just got over.!!

I had been hiding out in the bathroom because of the last song they were singing.

Me - Tell him Im in the bathroom I'll be out in a second

❤️Heather❤️ - I'm sorry about that last song.

Me - Its fine they sing it ever November I'm used to it

I opened the group chat back up, and walked out of the bathroom.

MY GIRLS and jarred g.c.

8:09 AM, Sunday Nov. 15

JJ - soooooooo how's church in the bathroom??

Me - Its already over

Will o - I thought heather didnt like church????

❤️Heather❤️ - I don't. I went for Ash.

Sia - Ohh of course u did u would literally die for lynn

JJ - shut up sage.

Me - What did you want originally JJ

JJ - i wanted to ask if any of you wanted to come to my house and we could do something?

Sia - ... Me and Willow wanted to do the same thing at my house

JJ - sick. see you then

Sage POV

WILLA

8:17 AM, Sunday Nov. 15

WILLA - Are u sure u want to go over there. I can go to ur house if u want me to.

Me - No I think itll be fun if all 5 of us would hang out again

WILLA - Ok. See u then ❤️❤️

I was getting ready to headed over to Jarred's place. I didn't have a car, so I walked and I knew what he had wanted to do when he asked us to come over. He wanted us to watch a movie. He had a really good taste in movies. Mainly movies that I liked.

Heather texted the group chat that they were close, and I said I was on the way.

Ashlynn POV

Me and Heather got out of the car, and I waved bye to my dad.

"Are you sure you wanted to come?" I asked Heather

"Of course, I am! I love hanging out with Jarred and you!" She said. I felt my face blush.

We were about halfway up the longest driveway ever when Heather said, " We should totally stay the night!"

I looked at her and said, "We have school tomorrow! We can't stay girl!"

"No, we don't, its International Day of Tolerance! We don't have school till Tuesday!" She said.

"That is the most random holiday that they pick for us to be off. Like at that point just give us International Donut Day off." I said.

I looked at her and she snorted. I looked back up the doorstep and knocked on the doorbell. We heard running down the stairs. It was Jarred.

"I"LL GET IT MOM! Ow! I"M FINE!" He yelled.

The door opened.

"Oh, hey girls. I thought you were Sage." He said sadly.

We started walking through the grand doors.

"Of course, you did." Heather chuckled and said.

"Shut up Heather!" He said jokingly.

Jarred had been friends with Sage since they were babies. Then, when Jarred and Sage were in year 4, they meet Willow who was basically, according to Jarred, a social outcast in a new world. While they were meeting and being friends, me and Heather were in a different school meeting too. Finally, the conclusions of our friend group, was when me and Heather meet Sage and Willow at our all-girls high school, and we got introduced to Jarred. Now were in year 11 and Jarred, in year 10. I would spill all of the secrets but, I think you'll figure it out as we go.

"Soooo. What do you want to do?" I asked Jarred.

"Well. I was thinking we could watch a movie." He replied.

Jarred's house has always been the place to watch movies and hang out ever since the day we all became friends. It was the place where I told Jarred about my crush on Heather and Jarred swore he was straight after we all thought he was crushing on a guy. To be honest this place has more memories than that, but if I told you all of them, we would have a million words in this part and would be here forever.

Sage POV

*Knocking*

"Sage honey! Can you get that please? I don't want my package stolen!" My mom asked.

I was making sure it was the right outfit I wanted to wear to Jarred's. Blue jeans with a few small rips in them, and a shirt he got me for my birthday.

"Yeah! I just have to get there first." I said.

I jumped over my bed and ran to the door to make sure our package wasn't stolen. Once I reached the door, I opened it quickly. It was Willow.

"I thought we could walk over there together." She said with a smile.

"Oh, yeah! Sure. I just have to find shoes to wear." I didn't think she would be here.

.....

I found decent shoes and a sweatshirt and me and Willow started walking. Jarred's house was a mile and a half away so I would usually jog there myself. Now I was with Willow, and we just walked there together.

Ashlynn POV

We were sitting on Jarred's bedroom floor with bowls of snacks around us.

"Soooo. What kind of movie do you want to watch? I don't think Sage is coming." He said.

We sat in silence for a minute or so when Heather finally said, "The Titanic."

"Oh, that's a good one." I said grabbing a few pretzels from the bowl right beside me.

"I haven't saw it since I was 14." Heather said, " How bout you?" She said and turned to Jarred.

"NOPE! So is it on like Hulu or something?" He asked.

"It's on Netflix." I said. I watched it 2 years ago and I knew it was on there.

"Well, that's on my tv so hol-" He cut off and ran to his door because the door had rang. "I'LL GET IT AGAIN MOM! IT'S SAGE!" He said running down the stairs.

I looked at Heather and we both smiled. I stood up first and turned around to help her up, by holding my hand out. She smiled at me again and took my hand. She got up and tripped on the back of her long blue dress from church. I caught her and we were hovering in a dip type way.

Willow flung the door open, and we were just all staring at each other.

"Am - am I interrupting something?" She asked.

We stood up and somehow were still holding each other's hand. I looked down and yanked my hand back.

"She was getting up and tripped. So, I helped her. " I said.

"OH MY GOSH IS THAT YOU SAGE?" It was Jarred's mom Rose. She was Sage's mom's best friend and is how Jarred and Sage met.

We all ran down to go see her.

"ROSE!" Willow said running down the spiral staircase.

"OH MY! YOU'RE ALL HERE! Okay! Bring it in!" She said with her arms out stretched.

After we all gave her a hug, she offered to make us pizza. To which we obviously agreed to. Then we all ran upstairs into Jarred's room.

We all sat back down, me, Jarred, and Heather on the floor, with Sage and Willow on the beanbags by us. (The beanbags are very uncomfortable to me, which is why I never sit there.) Me and Heather were a bit behind Sage and Willow with Jarred.

"What are we watching?" Sage asked looking to the huge TV.

"Well, before you two came here, we agreed to watch the Titanic." Jarred said.

Willow choked on popcorn and quickly took a drink.

"Is that the one with Kate Winslet?" She asked, still recovering.

"Yeah why?" Heather asked.

"Oh no reason. Just wondering." She said back.

After we started the movie about 10 minutes in. Rose brought in pepperoni pizza and sat it down on a type of place mat for hot dishes, while Jarred paused the movie.

"Is this homemade Rosey?" Sage asked.

Rose said she called her that because when Sage was a toddler, she couldn't pronounce Rose without the "y".

"Of course. I don't think I've bought frozen pizza for a while dear." She said and stood up with her hands folded on top of her apron.

When I met Jarred for the first time, it was at this very house. Here is where I also met Rose. She was like a mother figure I needed. My mom left to visit her parents in a place called Skid Row or something and I haven't seen her since. But Rose was always here. At first, I though she wasn't married, but I found out she was married to a man named Nicholas, but we all call him Nichy when we see him. Another thing about Rose is that her and Nichy agreed to name Jarred after her. Jarred means Rose, and Nichy agreed because he loved the name.

"Ashlynn sweetie." It was Rose. Her hand was on my shoulder. "Are you okay?" She asked me.

"Oh, what? Yeah! Sorry. I zoned out." I said shakingly.

"Okay if you say so. I just want to know if you wanted the curtain closed." Rose asked.

I looked past Heather out the double glass doors to a small balcony, with the bright sun shining threw.

"Sure. If everybody else is okay with it." I said.

"Okay. Well. I'll shut the curtains and let you kids watch your Titanic." She said as she walked over to the doors.

"Thanks, Ma'ma." Jarred said.

#wattpad #romance #lovestory #first love #coming of age #lgbtq

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golbrocklovely · 2 years

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since i have nothing to post until my 13 nights of halloween...

here are more of colby’s tweets from 2019.

i'm leaving out december, bc it needs to be its own post since there are so many from that time (bc he did a mini q&a).

i don’t have proof that these are his tweets, but believe me, they are his.

if it’s bold and italicized, it’s someone’s tweet to him.

if it’s in (), that’s just me commenting lol

added bonus: if they have a * next to them, that means it’s been deleted

~~~~~~~~~~

Oct. 5 - HALLOWEEN IS THE BEST HOLIDAY

Oct. 7 - i’m sick of most people in LA

@/MODSUN: But i love u

you’re an exception Mod

Oct. 9 - i hope your left toe doesn’t look like that lmao (reply to someone)

his eyebrows, hair, eyes, nose, skin EVERYTHING IS PERFECT @/ColbyBrock u need some chapstick tho

Oct. 11 - my lips are constantly chapped what do i do

Oct. 12 - life’s a party sorry mom

Oct. 13 - i have so much love to give

Oct. 15 - it’s crazy how much i play something up in my mind when in reality it doesn’t even matter at all

Oct. 17 - i never thought i’d say this .. but early november i’m dropping a Country song.. with a music video get ready

Oct. 20 - so happy to hear you guys are enjoying the new series. we’ve poured everything into this

Oct. 21 - everything’s so much easier when you have a best friend to fall back on

Oct. 23 - life’s been a lot more …. enjoyable ever since i met you

Oct 24 - i’m the bad guy

@/DavidAlvareeezy: Prove it. Break my heart

you won’t like me when i’m angry

Oct. 25 - i wanna be your escape from reality

Oct. 28 - if i’m not leaving the house i’m wearing the same thing everyday

i just wanna make cool shit. new forms of art. doesn’t matter what

Nov. 2 - stay strong brother (about aaron <3)

Nov. 3 - i wonder if my postmates driver eats my french fries

i’m tired of shitty dudes trying to fight me at the club for literally no reason

(to this day… his HOTTEST tweet. no i will not explain further lol)

i miss making the legendary trap house videos there i said it

Nov. 7 - your reminder that you have so much purpose. life’s just a game that can be easily beatable. you’ll know why soon

Nov. 10 - just cartwheeled the red carpet at @/peopleschoice awards why are we like this

Random Fan: @/ColbyBrock : I’d date a fan Also colby: continues to ignore all of us and likes basically all of amber‘s instagram pictures

@/AmberScholl: um yea what’s up with that?? only “basically all” it should be ALL smh

Nov. 13 - one sec

Nov. 14 - please take care of yourself and put your phone down every once in a while

Nov. 15 - if the world was ending tonight who would be by your side ? keep those people close to you

Nov. 16 - i pass out at 8pm just to be wide awake now at 3am so i can’t fall asleep then i’m so tired the next day and i fall asleep at 8pm again. lmao why

@/itscoreyscherer: Same

lonely hours

Nov. 19 - i need a girl who’s not afraid to go to haunted places with me

(yo the amount of replies this got??? insane lol)

Nov. 20 - update : i’m still a crackhead

Nov. 25 - i don’t have many friends cause it’s hard for me to let people in

Nov. 26 - save the koalas

Nov. 27 - i’ve always thought @/SamGolbach had BDE… birth day energy #happy23rd

run into random lady at the grocery store: “hey aren’t you that kid from vine?” “yup, that’s me” “…. what ever happened to you?” thanks.

Nov. 29 - you guys have my back, and im forever grateful for that

(sksksks the DRAMA of this tweet…. good times.)

#colby brock #personal #cb tweets #text

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mycelier · 4 years

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My name is Simone and I would like to tell you a tale!

I will not have access to my laptop for some days more and because writing on my phone is kind of painful (physically, because I am working on hand mobility now), this may end up in drafts and taking a while to post. I am going to share what has been happening the last 2 months because I feel like everything went from 0 to 100 in the span of a few weeks and its been really, really wild.

So!!! LETTUCE begin!

For roughly 5 years I've been struggling to get a diagnosis on an extremely painful area of my arm. There was literally nothing visible; no lump, discoloration or any other physical abnormality to indicate anything was wrong. I spent thousands on pretty much every kind of imaging you can do, and was told time and time again that there was nothing wrong and, perhaps, it was psychosomatic and I needed therapy or, more often than not, I was given a shrug and a vague "i dunno" response.

This year, something changed. I deal with chronic pain (my spine is congenitally fused in my neck and lower spine and I have baby bone spurs all over), and in the process of trying to work on that I brought up my arm again to a dr I no longer see. He'd told me my arm was SEVERAL things over the years I had been seeing him but this time said it was a fibromyalgia knot, something I had been told by a team of doctors some time before that. I said okay cool and was sent to a physical therapy rehab center where the dr worked with myofascial release and stretches to help with injuries. This amazing man fixed my plantar fasciitis and helped get my chronic headaches under control but NOTHING we did helped my arm pain. Within a month he was worried bc we had started to notice that there was a hardness to the spot that never changed with any exercise or massage.

Worried that there was a nerve being trapped or crushed (another diagnosis I'd gotten over the years), this amazing man sent me to a neurosurgeon who immediately frowned and said he didn't think my neck pain and my arm pain were connected. He ordered an MRI of my arm and despite it not being visible on an MRI 2 years before, he found something PHYSICALLY THERE where I said I had pain. He considered doing the surgery to remove it (despite being a neurosurgeon he was fascinated with this weird horribly painful spot) but eventually sent me a surgeon for an oncology center, assuring me it was because this new surgeon was one of the best in Texas for removing soft tissue tumors, not because there was any thought of cancer.

I met with the surgeon who gave me one more diagnosis of an AVM (arteriovenous malformation), snd said they were benign and not necessary to remove as well as the possibility that if removed it would likely return. Truly, at this point after 5 years of constant nauseating horric pain when someone brushed against me or if I gently brushed against ANYRHING, a pain so bad that it had basically made me stop using my right arm as much as possible (of course I'm right handed lol), I said GET THAT FUCKER OUT OF THERE MAN and my first surgery was scheduled.

Surgery one occurred Nov 5th and was an out patient event. I went home and passed out. At some point my mom said that while I'd been in recovery the dr said the thing in my arm hadn't looked like what he expected so he had sent it to pathology. I went back to work and was hanging out until the Tuesday before Thanksgiving when I went in for a super immediate meeting with a different doctor who told me that what had been in my arm was a synovial sarcoma, aka, cancer! He, this incredibly kind man I did not know, gently discussed chemo and told me I needed to have a CT scan immediately. Based on the CT, i was either in stage one or stage four if it has spread to lungs. The day before Thanksgiving I received the news that it was stage one, it had not spread, and i was so fucking happy.

Then it was time talk about next steps. My surgeon marked out a circle on my arm to indicate how much he was gonna remove in order to guarantee clear margins..but it was not enough of a meeting for me to grasp the surgery I was about to receive.

The day of my second surgery, dec 8th, came quickly and i met with the plastic surgeon, the kindest, most patient man. He moved my arm around and explained how he was going to hijack a vein from my forearm in order to keep the blood flow health to the flap he was gonna take from the donor site: My inner thigh.

It has been 11 days and I am living in an inpatient rehab facility, working on dealing with the nerve damage/pain, the EXTREME pain of my donor site, and the lost mobility that I am working on getting back, both in my leg and my hand. The majorities of my arm is numb...except where the nerve pain burns my wrist and forearm and makes it painful to wear my arm sling (I can't fully extend my arm, nor can I lift, push, pull or use my arm in any way that would stress out my new arm flap). Also may have a brand new urinary tract infection but as I write this I'm chugging water for a urine sample to hopefully get that treated. Below are some pictures I have taken/had taken of my arm! Im not ready to look at my leg outside of the bandages (which, since having the wound vac removed today, hell yeah, will need daily dressing changes).

EDIT: I tried posting pictures of my arm last night and my post disappeared immediately so I will try to make a new post with these photos in case the whole post was erased because of them. I will tag them as post surgery photos. I do not consider them gory or excessive but hey that's just me.

I intend to post more things as I keep healing and as I gain more mobility. I was given "independence" in my room yesterday which means I can officially get up without any assistance needed (using my badass new cane to help me lift my foot in and out of bed)!!!! Which also means I can get up whenever I want without the bed alarm going off. I have a badass cane that has been the best tool in helping me get around (and has inspired my mom and others to suggest and look into getting me a cane sword which makes me laugh REAL hard). See below me using the cane to move my foot in and out of bed!

Part of why I'm posting this is because I really needed to talk about it and while later posts may not be this long or expository but I wanted to have a base post to explain other ones related to this one!!!

I will update with some newer pics tomorrow night when my mom comes by to help me take newer pics. The arm flap looks super healthy (according to the drs), and when they changed my leg dressing they said its looking really good and healthy!

I......also really wanted to post my Amazon wishlist. Due to this stupid wild bad lottery ticket, I've been struggling to pay my bills and rent but!!! I have good insurance, thankfully (since I live in the US and my hospital stay and this rehab stay would have more than bankrupted me), and im hoping my disability checks will get here in time for rent!!! I'm putting up my wishlist bc I can't afford some of the "essentials" on there and, also, because I havent been able to have any kind of comfort during any of this. I never ask for anything for holidays because usually i...dont want to burden people with spending money on me since I know how hard money is, especially right now. And if I don't have enough for rent later I might have to create a go fund me...but right now everything looks good for rent and bills just...not for anything fun.

Thank you so much for your time!!! And happy holidays you wild bastards!!!

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/36PG6BAYD18U7?ref_=wl_share

#tw for many things!#cancer mention #surgery mention #i tried to add photos of my arm post surgery and my post disappeared so I will try again in a separate post #everything relating to my cancer or recovery i will label as badass battlestar bc it makes me feel cool #badass battlestar

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abrakophile · 3 years

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I was looking through a bunch of junk and found some letters from my dad when he was in the army. I’m afraid I'll accidently toss them, so maybe I’ll put them here?

OPs Name JUNE 02 03

I LOVE YOU

THIS IS MY NAME IN KURDISH

*my dad wrote his first and last name, and under it, in Kurdish*

ILL TRY AND FIND OUT HOW TO WRITE YOUR NAME AND MOMS TOO.

ITS STILL HOT. I WORK AND READ BOOKS TO PASS THE TIME AWAY.

HOW ARE YOU DOING? GOOD I HOPE. WHAT DO YOU DO FOR FUN? DO YOU EVER HANG OUT WITH YOUR FRIENDS? TELL THEM I SAID “WASSUP?” NAH, DONT TELL THEM. TELL ME WHAT YOUR THINKING. I’M TRYING TO SEND YOU SOME MORE OF MY DRAWINGS. WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DRAW YOU? DID YOU LIKE THE DRAWING I SENT YOU OF YOU NAME? ITS ALRIGHT IF YOU DIDNY. JUST TELL ME WHAT YOU DO WANT ME TO DRAW YOU.

(Flip Page)

THIS IS WEIRD! (The page does not have lines on the left side of it) i WONDER WHAT HAPPENED TO THIS PIECE OF PAPER. HaHa

I MISS YOU ALOT. PLEASE SOND ME SOME MORE OF YOUR DRAWINGS, YOU CAN DRAW ME ANYTHING YOU WANT TO.

ARE YOU BEING GOOD FOR YOUR MOM? ITS NICE IF YOU HELP HER OUT WHILE I’M AWAY.

HAVE YOU BEEN ANYPLACE NEW? HOW IS SCHOOL GOING FOR YOU? IS MOMMY GOING TO SCHOOL? I KNOW I WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL WHEN I GET BACK. HOPEFULLY I GET THE CHANCE TO LEARN EVERYTHING THAT THERE IS TO KNOW. THAT WOULD BE GREAT.

ALSO, ID LIKE TO DO SOME FISHING? HOW ABOUT YOU? I GUESS ILL END HERE. BE GOOD AND STAY IN SCHOOL. AND JUST SAY NO TO DRUGS.

THEYRE BAD.

I LIVE YOU OP

*hearts and x’s* DADDY

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(I don’t know if all these pages are in order or if it’s missing any, but this was the letter in the same stack as the last but this one was for my mom. In some places his indents indicate passage of time.)

I HAVENT HAD ANY TIME TO WRITE SINCE WEVE BEEN ON THE ROAD, NOT TO MENTION THAT WE CAN’T SEND MAIL WHEN WE’RE MOVING ALL THE TIME.

WEVE BEEN ON THE ROAD FOR ABOUT FIVE OR SIX DAYS, I HAVENT REALLY BEEN COUNTING. I KNOW I TOLD YOU THAT WE’D BE IN KUWAIT FOR A WHILE, BUT THAT WAS SO YOU WOULDNT BE WORRIED. I’M GOING TO KEEP THIS LETTER THOUGH, TILL I GET HOME.

ABOUT TWO NIGHTS AGO, WE DROVE THROUGH BAGDHAD, SOMEBODY SAID THAT THERE WERE PILED BODIES, I DONT KNOW IF IT WAS TRUE.

AND I GUESS YESTERDAY, A COUPLE OF PEOPLE SAID THEY SAW A MISSILE OR SOEMTHING SHOT AT US. I WAS TRYING TO FIX A TRUCK SO I DIDNT SEE IT.

ITS NOT AS DUSTY HERE IN IRAQ. IT REMINDS ME OF THE CONVOYS IN KOREA.

MOST OF THE PEOPLE WILL WAVE “HI”. SOME OTHERS DONT.

I SAW A KID OPEN HIS HAND ONCE WHILE MOVING, AND IT SAID “BUSH” THAT WAS KIND OF COOL.

OH YEAH. HERES A STORY. WHILE OUT DOING A MISSION, ONE OF OUR “BRADLEY” TANKS FIRED ON AN ENEMY AMMO TRUCK AND CLIPPED A KID. THE ROUNDS BLEW ONE OF HIS LEGS OFF AND SOME OF THE OTHER, FROM THE KNEE DOWN. SO THE MEDICS PICKED HIM UP AND BROUGHT HIM TO OUR RECONCOLIDATING POINT FOR MEDICAL TREATMENT. I GUESS HE EVENTUALLY DIED FROM LOSS OF BLOOD THE NEXT NIGHT AND YESTERDAY THEY TOOK HIM OUT AND BURIED HIM.

ALSO WE PICKED UP ABOUT 25-30 P.O.W.s AND SENT THEM SOUTH.

IT GETS PRETTY COLD AT NIGHT. AND THE DAY’S ARE VERY HOT.

SINCE WE LEFT KUWAIT ITS BEEN ME AND MENDOZA IN THE FIVE TON WRECKER AND I HAVE TO ADMIT THAT ITS BEEN EXCITING. WE KEPT GETTING SEPERATED FROM THE CONVOY AND BREAKING DOWN. BUT I THINK THAT WERE BETTER NOW. HOPEFULLY.

IM STILL WAITING TO BE AMBUSHED TO MAKE ALL THIS SEEM REAL TO ME. A PART OF ME WANTS IT AND ANOTHER DOESNT.

AND IT SEEMS LIKE ONLY OUR UNIT HAS TO STAY IN UNIFORM, EVERYONE ELSE WEARS T-SHIRTS AND BANDENA’S AND RAGS ON THEIR HEAD

WERE STILL GOING NORTH. NOBODY KNOWS HOW LONG WE’LL STAY. ITS NOT THAT BAD HERE. MEANING, IT COULD BE WORSE.

I USED A “SHIT-CHAIR”. ITS JUST A METAL CHAIR WITH A HOLE CUT IN THE MIDDLE AND THE SEAT FROM A TOILET BOLTED TO IT, GROSS.

HELICOPTERS CAN BE HEARD ALL DAY AND NIGHT. I GOT TO SEE THEM DROP BOMBS ALL DAY ABOUT 3 DAYS AGO, FROM A DISTANCE OF COURSE.

ILL BE DRIVING AGAIN, IN A MINUTE. PROBABLY RE-FUEL AND BACK ON THE ROAD AGAIN. IM ENJOYING IT.

I HAVE 8 MAGAZINES FULL OF ROUNDS. NO GRENADES, BUT I LIKE IT LIKE THAT.

SOMETIMES IT SMELLS LIKE SHIT.

I GUESS ILL END IT HERE FOR NOW

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU TWO TWICE IF NOT THRICE AS MUCH AS YOU MIGHT MISS ME TOO.

HELLO AGAIN. WERE SOMEWHERE NEAR TIKRI + MOSUL. YESTERDAY, ME + MENDOZA WENT LOOKING FOR MOMENTO’S. WE BROKE A LOCK TO A NEAR BY BUNKER AND FOUND 6 A.K.47s! BUT ON OUR WAY BACK TO TURN THEM IN, MAJOR TATU GOT THEM FROM US. I WAS SO PISSED. BUT I GOT A GAS MASK w/ FILTER, A FULL MAGAZINE CLIP FROM ONE OF THE A.K.s AND A BERET WITH IRAQ 1 RANK ON IT.

I MADE A STENCIL FOR THE TRUCK WERE RIDING IN. ITS CALLED THE “GAMBLER.” YESTERDAY MENDOZA DROVE, SO TODAY ILL BE DRIVING.

IM NOT POSITIVE, BUT, I THINK WERE GOING TO TURKEY. NIETO SAYS THAT HE OVERHEARD SOMEBODY FROM S1 (or SI, I’m not sure) SAYING WE MIGHT GET PAID EXTRA FOR GOING THROUGH BAGHDAD.

I THINK NIETO’S MAD AT ME. CANT EXPLAIN WHY. MAYBE ITS BECAUSE IM RIDING WITH MENDOZA AND HE DOESNT LIKE MENDOZA TOO MUCH. OH WELL, WHATEVER REASON, HOPE THINGS GET NORMAL AGAIN. HAVE TO GO,

*hearts and xs*

TODAY IS THE 25th OF APRIL, I RECEIVED FIVE OR SIX (OR SEVEN) LETTERS YESTERDAY. THE LATEST WAS DATED 07 OF APRIL. THAT TELLS ME THAT ITS GOING TO TAKE A WHILE TO COMMUNICATE.

WE HAVENT RECEIVED MAIL BECAUSE WEVE BEEN MOVING NEVER STAYING IN ONE PLACE MORE THAN A DAY, OR TWO, UNTIL NOW. WE’VE BEEN IN THIS SPOT GOING ON FOUR DAYS TOMORROW?!

GIVE ME A MINUTE...

FOR THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS IVE BEEN HELPING MENDOZA PULL THE ENGINE OUT OF A 5 TON TRUCK AND SWITCH IT w/ ANOTHER ONE. IT WOULD HAVE BEEN EASY BUT THE FLY WHEEL SEIZED UP INSIDE THE BELL HOUSING. ITS FINISHED NOW AND THE RUMOR IS WE’RE LEAVING (OR MOVING) AGAIN TOMORROW.

ITS 10:33 THURSDAY MORNING. YOUR TIME IS 12:32 JUST TURNING THURSDAY.

I ALMOST CRYED WHEN I SAW ELIS PICTURE. I REALLY MISS BOTH OF YOU. LET ME BACK TO BEFORE I GOT DISTRACTED. I HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO SEND MAIL BECAUSE WE’VE BEEN MOVING. BUT I GUESS THAT WHATEVER THREAT THERE WAS (IF ANY), ISNT SO THREATFUL ANYMORE, WE CAN START RECEIVING AND SENDING MAIL. NO PHONE TO CALL FROM, AND NO INTERNET TO E-MAIL FROM.

THE WHOLE UNIT IS SCATTERED, SO EVEN IF I GET WHAT YOU NEED IT’LL TAKE FOREVER TO GET IT TO YOU. LET ME PULL THOSE LETTERS BACK OUT. OH WAIT. I DID LAUNDRY AND SOME UNDERWEAR THATS DRY, FELT HARD, OH WELL, WAIT A SECOND, K

I HAD TO FOLD SOME T-SHIRTS. ALL MY SOCKS ARE STILL DAMP.

YOU CAN USE MY CONTRACT TO SHOW THAT I ENLISTED IN TEXAS AND HOWS THIS

*On a separate sheet my dad wrote a detailed note for my mom to give to someone to confirm that he did want to buy a house. He writes “I AM ALIVE AND WELL.” and “PLEASE ACCEPT THIS PAPER”, then he signed it with his scribble signature, and underneath it wrote his name in print and added “1st SQUADRON 10th CAVALRY HEADQUARTERS TROOP (I have no clue what this means)*

HOW’S THAT? HOPE I SPELLED EVERYTHING CORRECTLY. IM ALMOST READY WITH A DESIGN TO COVER THE OTHER TATTOOS ON MY LEFT FOREARM.

I JUST FINISHED LOOKING OVER ALL THOSE LETTERS YOU SENT FOR ME

IM BACK! I GOT SLEEPY SO I TRYED TO LAY DOWN FOR A LITTLE BIT. NO SLEEP. I DONT THINK. I DIDNT HAVE ENOUGH WATER TO WASH MY DCV’S AND A PAIR OF BDV’S. BESIDES FOR DRINKING WATER, BUT WE HAVE TO CONSERVE IT.

LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THE RUMORS. TOMORROW WE’LL BE LEAVING FOR THE IRAN/IRAQ BORDER TO DO “PEACE KEEPING” FOR 3 TO 6 mths. OTHERS SAY THAT THE 4ID (i think is what this says) GENERAL WANTS TO KEEP US HERE TILL NOV., THATS WHEN 1 CAV WILL COME TO REPLACE US. WHILE OTHERS SAY WE MIGHT LEAVE BY JUNE. NOTHINGS FOR SURE.

SMALLER RUMORS FLOATING AROUND THE SITE ARE; RAMSEY AND SFC BACON ARE SLEEPING TOGETHER. SGT SIREK HAS PLANS TO TAKE NIETO AS HIS APPRENTICE AND PADIWAN LEARNER OF THE DARK SIDE. LITTLE BLACK ARNOLD IS MILITARY INTELLIGENCE FOR SPECIAL FORCES OPERATING UNDER COVER A SURVEILLENCE AS PART OF

*the rest of the page is blank*

IM BACK. TODAY IS THE 27th. I GOT BACK TO THE LITTLE CAMP AREA ABOUT AN HOUR AND A HALF AGO. I LEFT YESTERDAY MORNING TO, WELL, AS PART OF DE-CON (DE-CONTAMINATION) MISSION. HERES THE INFORMATION THAT I GATHERED.

A SITE HAD BEEN FOUND THAT WAS THOUGHT TO HAVE CHEMICAL WEAPONS AND 1-10 WAS APPOINTED TO GO TO THE SITE AND DE-CON THE CIVILIANS THAT WERE GOING TO OPEN THEM. AS IT TURNS OUT THE CIVILIANS HAVE BEEN DE-LAYED AND WOULD BE SET BACK 1 DAY.

THE NBC TEAM THAT I WAS WITH WERENT PREPARED TO STAY OVER NIGHT AND AS FORCASTED BY SSG MINOR WE MIGHT HAVE HAD TO STAY 3 TO 4 DAYS. EVERYBODY WAS PISSED.

LATELY ITS BEEN GETTING REALLY COLD AT NIGHT AND WE JUST HAPPENED TO BE NEAR A RUNNING RIVER. SO THE, ITS ABOUT 9 O’CLOCK AND IM BEAT, NO SLEEPING BAG OR ANYTHING TO COVER UP WITH AND I DECIDE TO TRY AND SLEEP. I GET AS COMFORTABLE AS POSSIBLE AND I GET ATTACKED BY MOSQUITOS. NOW IM PISSED SO I DECIDED TO JUST TO STAY UP ALL NIGHT. ABOUT 10PM ONE OF THE HEMTT (this might just say “hemi”, I don’t know) FUELERS SHOWS UP AND SGT TORRES SAYS HE HAS EVERYBODYS SLEEPING BAG! THE SITES ABOUT 45 MINS AWAY AND THEY LEFT SOMETIME MID AFTERNOON TO GET OUR SHIT, I HATE THESE PEOPLE.

RIGHT NOW ITS 9:01 PM AND ITS 11:02 AM YOUR TIME. I MISS YOU.

RIGHT NOW IM GOING TO ADDRESS AN ENVELOPE AND HAVE IT READY TO SEND TOMMOROW THE 28th. IM SORRY IF IT SEEMS THAT IM NOT WRITING VERY OFTEN. FOR A WHILE WE COULDN’T. AND NOW THAT IT SEEMS WE MIGHT BE HERE A LITTLE WHILE, THEYVE KEPT ME REALLY BUSY. LET ME ADDRESS THE ENVELOPES (he drew a star here)

ALL DONE. I THOUGHT ABOUT THE HOUSE A LOT TODAY AND YESTERDAY. IM SURE BY THE TIME THIS LETTER REACHES YOU, YOU’LL HAVE EITHER GOTTEN IT OR GAVE IT UP. IM O.K. WITH EITHER DECISION YOUVE MADE.

YOUVE KEPT THIS FAMILY TOGETHER, AND THAT MAKES ME PROUD. YOUR SMART, ATTRACTIVE AND FUNNY. AND YOU DONT TAKE ANY SHIT FROM ANYBODY. I LOVE YOU.

I HOPE THAT OUR DAUGHTER TURNS OUT TO BE LIKE YOU.

I GUESS ILL MAIL THIS TOMORROW, FIRST THING, SO

EVER YOURS

EVER MINE

*my dad signed it with his scribble, and wrote his name under it. under that are hearts and x’s with my mom’s name and then my name under hers.*

#very personal but where the fuck am i gonna put them? you know where i kinda cant lose them?#letters from the guy that was my dad #pt 1 #long post

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preciouslilyaesthetics · 4 years

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Things to know

Only accepting US/Canada based commissions atm❤️🙏

(1 head per slot, you can select 2 slots max. So if you wanted to commission two doll heads, you take two slots. 4-7 slots per month, depending on what I feel like taking for a month. )

Slots

These are estimated date slots. I won't begin new orders until I finish the all orders. I'll will message you when you can ship/make payments. ❤️

April/ May Slots:

1. Bjd_shiningsoul head + hands💲

2. Bjd_shiningsoul ⛔️

3. Dxgirly_likes_bjds ⛔️

4. Dxgirly_likes_bjds ⛔️

5. JessicaNorris💲2 heads + hands

6. Moriyarns 💲🚚

7. Bittersweet.bjd 💲⭐️

8. Zomb.doll 💲⭐️

9. Twistedwonderlanddolls 💲⭐️

10. Jemjoops 💲⭐️

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Received = 🚚

Paid = 💲

Not paid yet = ⛔️

Sealed/ready for paint = 🧴

Working mode = 🖌️

Faceup form received = 📃

Priority, paid sooner = ⭐️

On Extended Break. Reopen April, going thru waitlist first.

COMPLETED

1. Zianma Jan 30th 2021✨

2. CSL (3 heads Feb 4th 2021✨

3. Ink.wolff Mar 3rd 2021✨

4. Atomic.heartz Feb 2021✨

5. dxgirly_likes_bjds April 15th 2021✨

6. Melonpan.market April 16th 2021✨

7. Dollietokipoke April 22th 2021

8. 13_spoopy_lane April 30th 2021

9. Bjdkawaii May 6th 2021✨ (1 out of 3)

10. Lolitaari_bjd (2 heads) ✨ May 12th 2021

11. Kitty_mochiii popovy little Owl May 20th 2021

12. Sugarlacehearts May 31st 2021

13.Strowberrydolls June 3rd 2021 ✨

14.Harucasting 2 heads June 8th 2021✨

15.iguenn nose chip June 7th 2022 ✨

16.Deadflowerflorist June 12th 2021 ✨

17. Bjdkawaii head 2 June 15th 2021 ✨

18. CAY Oliver head June 22nd 2021 ✨

19.CSL head June 27th 2021 ✨

20.church_of_sagan June 29 2021 ✨

21. CSL Flick July 1st 2021✨

22. CSL Softie kittie July 6th 2021✨

23. Munecaspoupe.. 2 heads

August 3, 2021✨

24. Nights_treasure 3 heads Sept 3, 2021✨

25. Moriyarns 1 head Sept 3, 2021✨ trade 🌺 waiting for it

26. Poppyfleaur Sept 27th 2021✨

27. Furby_o_rama Sept 28th, 2021 ✨

28. Cosmic_Witchling Oct 12th, 2021✨ 2 heads

29. A_dolly_doll_world hands + head Oct 12th, 2021✨

30.lalaloodles 2 heads Oct 16 and 19, 2021 ✨

31.mymyiliana Somi, Kiera,blue Oct 22,2021✨

32.Kandy.doll Ery, Raspberry(3 out of 3)Dec 15, 21✨

33. Pasha full doll Dec 22, 2021✨

34. Bjdkawaii An Jan 6, 2022✨

35. SherryLynn126 two heads Jan 13, 2022✨

36. Puachi Benzon 1 out of 2 Boudi head, Jan 24,2022✨

37. Moriyarns Jan 25, 2022✨

38. Kandy.doll Feb 7, 2022✨

39. Puachi Benzon Feb 8, 2022 ✨

40.Allison Elle + Elf finished Feb 14, 2022✨

41.Maddybear Feb 15, 2022✨

42. Devinepins March 8,2022✨️

43. Vivian Hale March 14, 2022✨️

44. _Life.is.Fragile_ April 12,2022✨️

45.Summercourtcreations April 12,2022✨️

46.dxygirly morae April 17, 2022✨️

47.dxygirly Wind April 18, 2022✨️

48. Bjdkawaii 2 heads April 18, 2022✨️

49. Mimi Aurie April 23, 2022✨️

50. Andrea Millo OLIVER April 25, 2022✨️

51. Martin4451992 May 6,2022✨️

52. Himitsuais May 6, 2022✨️ 4 out of 4

+ 2 pair of hands and feet

53. Cherryblossoms.bjd 2 out of 2 May 18, 2022✨️

54. Furby_o_rama May 21, 2022✨️

55. Belinda May 27, 2022✨️

56. Bjdkawaii May 28,2022✨️

57. Zomb.doll June 4, 2022✨️

58. Bjd_shiningsoul two doll heads Sept 13, 2022✨️

59. Poppyflear Sept 19, 2022✨️

60. Samantha Dillard + hands Sept 20, 2022✨️

61. Allison Sept 24, 2022✨️

62. Jesre12 Oct 17, 2022✨️

63. Krysiscore paid

64. Dxgirly_likes_bjd (2 heads) Nov 4th, 2022✨️

65. Bittersweet.bjd Nov 5, 2022✨️

66. Summercourtcreations part 1 done Nov 10, 2022 part 2 done ✨️

67. Megan Burks two heads Nov 17, 2022✨️

68. Sharkiesdolls Nov 24, 2022 ✨️

69. VivianHale Nov 30, 2022✨️1 out of 2 done

70. Bjdkawaii touch up Dec 1, 2022✨️

71. VivianHale Dec 3, 2022✨️

72. Bjdkawaii Dec 9, 2022✨️ 5 out of 5 heads

How long does it take you to work on a commission?

Takes roughly 2 weeks to a month in a half. If it's longer for any reason (Weather, I do update you. Im always available to reply messages on IG. (Precious_lil_lily)

Prices:

All Head sizes $130 within US (you just pay shipping to me and this covers return shipping) shipping internationally only includes $10 of shipping price, so the rest is owed to me on your end.

Tattoos depending on complexity $5 - $25

Hands/Feet blushing $10

Piercing (included in price)

Eyelashes (included in price)

Shimmer highlight (free) basically its shimmer highlights on the cheek bones, nose, eye area. My special way of applying it.

Faceup Removal (included in price above, not artist choice its $5)

Artist Choice Makeup $72 + shipping to/from(give me a general idea of makeup you like and I'll come up with something)

No body blushing at this time.

Payment accepted via PayPal only as friends and family*

Once you're accepted into a slot, I'll send you my PayPal email and prefer payment upfront by my deadline. If can't make payment slot is given to someone else. Please pay friend and family or cover fee for good and services.

Side notes

I work on resin bjds

Vinyl dolls I don't paint, only at the moment

I don't do any modding

Commissions time could be delayed because of weather/my life, but I'll try my best to keep on schedule

No body blushing for fashion dolls at the moment; alot of work. Maybe someday in the future.

Anime style makeup still new to, so may not accept it or give discount price

If your doll has tiny eyesockets, there may be a chance I cannot install lashes, but I'll try at first before I decide I can't.

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itsjusta · 4 years

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WEEKLY UPDATE #8

Nov. 30

sakit my eyes today doe aish cos i cried gabii and also sakit my gums idk why 🤦🏻‍♀️

also went to have samgyup and then tambay at a cafe with aljane and claire doeee heheh its my first time to laag with cdo friends!!

Dec. 1

so sakit my gums aish kahilakon nako so makawala gana to eat cos sakit au i open ako mouth huhu and i realized today na wala ko ka drink pills yesterday 😤😤😤

also cried becos of kdrama the idiot!!!!!! they killed the character i like hmpppp

me and tala lang today doe cos mom and dad uli to medina napd aishhh

Dec. 2

still so sakit my gums so sakit to eat and talk 🙄🙄🙄

today was a chill and productive day. i laba in the morning doe and then at night i finished the last question for khalid’s task

i had a realization today doeee issa although i’m not there yet, there is also progress na gyd cos the first like 2-3 months gyd btaw of the break up, dugaaay kaayo mahuman ang adlaw. i remember nga gusto gyd nako udto na mumata para atleast di ra au dugay ang adlaw but idk time was really slow before kay grabe ang adjustment nga di na btaw ta always ga storya like grabe jd to ka boring ako mga days nga bsag unsa nalang ako gina do like mag water nalang ko plants para lang mu pass ang time

but now time passes faster na doe sometimes makurat nalang ko hapon na btaw like dat hehe medjo naanad na gyd ko sa kamingaw doeee bsag sometimes ga crave jd kaykog naay kastorya but karon okay2 na for me issa dis made me happy also

Dec. 3

12 am nag tan aw2 ko sa food panda ug mga shops (dont judge 😤😤) and i saw chef’s dimsum and suki desu and it made me sad kay always pd ta ga dinner didto :(((( one of our go-to dinner spots gyd ni aside from marty’s doe and it makes me sad cos i love their food but i dont think i can go back their anymore even when balik na f2f cos me nalang alone doe its so layo pajd :((( hayst makamiss kaayo mag dinner dates lang doe idk we always spend so much time gyd before doe wa gyd ta sumhi sa each other hahahaha

aish u know what happened dis day i was very lutang after feel nako damgo rato OMG basin damgo rato huh 😭 pero amp ewan ko sau bat moko ginaganito HAHAHAHAHHA but i wont open it up doe unless youre ready to talk about it cos it might be hard for u but pag tarong ra daw eric beh???? hahahhaha AMPFTZ WAG MOKO PAASAHIN 😡

but not pd ko mag assume baka ako nanaman masaktan 😔

Dec. 4

its 10 pm and claire just reported sumthing to me nga naa ka gi tweet and gisapot ko HAHHAHAHA MYGOSH DI PAJD KO PWEDE MAG TWITTER HAHAHAHAHAH CONFUSED KYKO AND FEEL NAKO DESERVE KAY NAKOG EXPLANATION PERO DI KO GUSTO MANG PRESSURE :) PARANG ANG SAYA2 MO NAMAN SANA OL HAHAHAHAHAHHA PARANG GOING STRONG NAMAN KAYO BAT MO PA GINAWA YUN???? TAPOS KARON AKO NASAD MAG LISOD UGH PERO K FINE HUWAT RKO SA EXPLANATION MAG TIIS2 NALANG KOG HUNA2 DIRI HAHAHAHHA 💆🏻‍♀️💆🏻‍♀️💆🏻‍♀️💆🏻‍♀️ IDK WHERE I STAND IN UR LIFE ANYMORE AND ITS SO FRUSTRATING AND PAINFUL UGH

im just crying out the frustration now idk anymore doe i just want u to know its hard for me pd baya nga mag think of all possible reasons without receiving any explanation esp kay kabalo gyd ka nga wala pa gyd ko ka move on. i dont deserve to be left in the dark doe but i will wait but aish dont do this to me doeee its really hard for me this is such a torture doe busa mas prefer nalang jd ko way mahibal-an kesa masakitan sad ug inani hahaaay explain lang haaa dawaton ra nako bahalag unsa ka sakit HAAHAHHA kung pinaasa mo lang ako edi ouch huhu charot dawaton nalang 👉👈

UPLOADING THIS FIRST APAS NALANG ANG SA WEEKEND PARA MAN LANG MAKITA NIMO BAHALAG DI PAKA MAG EXPLAIN K LANG TIIS2 NALANG AKO U CAN EXPLAIN WHEN WE KITA AGAIN I WILL TIIS THIS FOR DAYS OR WEEKS

also pls dont mention this unless youre ready to explain kay ulaw HHAHAHAH

Dec. 5

tonight is so hard. 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 its 12 am and gisulit na nako ako kasakit karon nga adlaw kay nag install kog twitter again nya nang stalk saimo HAHAHAHA K SAKTO NANI OY UNINSTALLING AGAIN

your tweets are an eye opener for me na you really have opened your heart to another and you’ve started to love another girl nya ako diri amppp 😔🤘🏼it hurts doe but yeah i need gyd to accept it

also have been waking at 6-7am for the past days bsag tag 12-1 nako maka sleep so weird

today was emotional doe we talked a lot and cried also a lot

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It’s November, that time of year where holidays are on the brain, and the stress of them is already kicking in. So to help ease the stress before that big family Thanksgiving dinner, we think it’s time for a trip.

PACK YOUR BAGS…

…We’re heading to Mexico! On Nov. 9th-14th the entire roleplay will be located in Mexico to experience the Mayan culture, the ruins, and to dig deeper into the rich cultures that surround the Riviera Maya from their ancestors. Plus, who doesn’t want to go on a Mexican vacation?

Please remember, this event is mandatory for all characters. So whether you are on hiatus or not, you must state that your celeb is/was there.

Celebs will be staying at the Grand Bahia Principe Hotel, boasting 978 suites. Your celebrities will find 3 welcoming pools, 5 restaurants, 7 bars (including one bar located in a pool, swim up style). There will be free WiFi, a luxury spa for all your relaxation needs, as well as an 18-hole golf course for those looking to stay a bit more active during your free time.

The roommates were done by a RANDOM generator. Couples will not room together. We are using this trip as a forcing function to break out of your inner circle and connect with someone new. You will need to complete a thread with your roommate while on the trip and to make sure everyone has time to devote to this event all other threads will be put on hold during the duration of the trip.

Please remember the following:

This is a mandatory thread. We will be keeping track, please do not make us give out strikes :(

Please tag the event blog in your chatzy, para, gif chat or f2f when you reach at least 8 notes.

Texts also count! Please send your text thread to the events blog via IM once you reach at least 12 notes since those don’t require as much.

No matter what type of thread you and your partner choose, please make sure it has substantial replies (on both ends) and not just a three word reply - the point is to build new connections!

New members coming into the group will be added up until November 11th.

After that they will not be added into the list since it wouldn’t be fair to hold them to the same requirements with less time.

If your partner goes inactive or decides to leave the rp - we will message you and you can decide if you’d like a new partner or you can just be removed from the current list.

In the unlikely event you got paired with another FC that you play, please send us a message and we’ll fix that for you right away!

If you cannot find your FC in the list once it’s posted, please let us know so we can fix that as well!

During the days of November 9th, November 10th, November 11th, November 12th, November 13th, and November 14th the only posts allowed on the dash will be for the event. If you’re in the middle of other paras, texts, gif chats, ect they are to be on hold until November 15th.

You can interact with other people during the trip, but make sure you complete your roommate thread.

Please like this notice so we know you’re all up to date! :)

Under the cut you’ll find the itinerary. Roommate list will be posted on Nov. 5th along with further information about earning points for the rewards blog.

Saturday, November 9th: Leave wherever you are in the world and check into the Grand Bahia Principe Hotel and Suites. You will be given a suite, and depending on what time your celebrity arrives, will have a free day to explore the massive grounds of the hotel. From the sandy white beaches, to the massive pools, or a pampering spa moment, the options are limitless.

Sunday, November 10th: Get ready to get up early, hope no one stayed up too late. Today everyone will be heading out on the Viator Exclusive. This gives the celebrities early access to the Tulum ruins with an Archeologist as they explore the ancient area. Here you will get a guided tour through the Mayan city of Tulum. Walk the ruins where ancestors once stood for politics, commercial and military life. Climb the steep steps and overlook the beautiful seas that surrounds these ancient ruins. Don’t worry, lunch will be provided. This will be an all day trip – the celebrities will leave at approximately 7 AM and return around 6 pm. Don’t forget the sunscreen!

Monday, November 11th: Free day! Explore the resort and the area as you freely wish to do.

Tuesday, November 12th: Today the celebrities will enjoy exploring the coral reef, snorkeling and Cenote caves. Explore the coral reefs and nature in the Riviera Maya on a 6-hour tour. Snorkel through the coral reef in the Caribbean Sea, swim in a cenote, then explore a limestone cave or take a jungle walk. This tour includes snorkeling gear, buffet lunch and door to door transport from hotel.

Wednesday, November 13th: Free day/afternoon, feel free to use all facilities at your leisure but please be sure to keep an eye on the clock. At promptly 7pm all celebrities should go to the grand ball room for dinner before entering the massive hotel casino. This night will be a night celebrities are expected to dress up. Think cocktail attire. (Feel free to post photos to give us all an idea of what your celebs are wearing if you like!) Here you can gamble or dance the night away before tomorrow’s departure.

Thursday, November 14th: Celebrities will return to the airport where they will depart to their needed destinations.

#cdcrpgevents #cdcrpgmexico2019 #posting this now so everyone has enough notice

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THE DIARY OF MY MOON AND HIS STARRY NIGHT EYES

NOV 1st, 2017 at 2:32 am

i think i’m falling for you. you make me feel better. like i’ve healed over. i know i shouldn’t feel like this but i do. god emotions are confusing.

NOV 12, 2017 at 7:34 am

you are officially mine. i’m so happy and in love. i hope this won’t end up bad. i trust us not to fuck this up.

DEC 23rd, 2017 at 4:23 am

i believe this is going well. i’m happy. you seem happy. i’m in love and i hope you are too. we’ve been fighting a bit but i think it’s going to be okay.

JAN 3rd, 2018 at 12:34 am

i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.

you broke my heart. i hate you. but i hate her. she said i was bad. i’m not. she said i cheated. i never did. she said i was using you. i wasn’t. she said break up with me. you did. why? i love you. i trusted you...

JAN 8, 2018 at 3:24 am

i thought that if i threw it away it would leave me.

that the pain would maybe go away.

that the scars that where never really there would go away.

but i found your sweatshirt.

you probably want it back.

and i hate the fact that i don’t know how to.

because it’s the only thing to remind me of you. it’s the same cologne you’ve worn for the past 2 years.

ive been wearing for almost 5 minutes but each second is a different flashback and it hurts. because this once was a sweatshirt i considered home.

it felt loved and comforting

but now it’s empty.

i should probably give it back.

but i feel if i give it up i’m giving up you. and i can’t do that. not yet.

JAN 16, 2018 at 1:44am

fuck. fuck. fuck. fuck.

you posted the letter, me being the number 1 reason.

“you poisoned my heart with you toxic love”

how was i toxic? i was the gave everything up for you. my sanity. my friends. my family. my love.

but i’m toxic. because i called you out on your bullshit.

even if i was toxic, i actually tried to make something out of the relationship. sorry that i didn’t want to be a midnight fuck for you.

but hey. at least i didn’t talk shit about people behind their back.

no offense but next time you want to call me a cunt, say it to my face not my friends.

FEB 15th, 2018 at 12:34 am

we are trying again.

it won’t last

well the relationship at least.

i was wrong per usual.

it wasn’t me, or maybe it was and you lied to my face. either way i’m almost happy.

thank you i guess? you gave me back some sanity, but they still blame me. but at least i’m with you.

MARCH 12th, 2018 at 2:37 am

fuck you.

maybe. it’s my fault. i always cause things to go down hill. i couldn’t compare to the girl with the long pretty hair, i’m just a dumb boy who’s fallen and can’t get up. she’s toxic. she’s going to hurt you, but it’s okay. not really but you don’t believe me.

i still love you, but it must be one side.

but how many times when i kiss you, i’m kissing a memory of her.

MARCH 23rd, 2018 at 11:21 pm

i’m drunk. you’re drunk in love, but i’m just wasted and angry. maybe i could’ve done something. she hurt you. but you hurt me.

i asked you awhile back how long you’ve loved liv, and you said never. she was forceful and cruel. i hate it, that agin i could’ve done something but instead i sat around and became a poet. well fuck.

APRIL 13th, 2018 at 1:01 am

you said you never meant anything. you weren’t on meds. that’s okay though because i trust you. i really do. you make me happy. we are healing. no longer together but healing. i still like you. a lot. i don’t know whether to start over yet. i’m kind of confused. but i know that i trust you.

APRIL 28th, 2018 at 11:34 pm

everyone says you like me. i doubt it. we aren’t ready for a new relationship. i don’t think so at least. but life is confusing and it kind of a love sick puppy. you missed me earlier. no one knew. i’m in love i think.

MAY 2, 2018 at 4:45 pm

you asked me to be yours. i said yes. i know that you truly love me and trust me. you said so and i’m taking your word on this. don’t hurt me again. i’m to close to breaking.

MAY 31st, 2018 at 11:54 pm

we were doing good. we had our ups,

our downs,

and our stay stills.

but you say one thing. one single thing and suddenly the whole world is down on their luck. it’s everyone else’s fault but yours. because you feed off your egos. take someone i’m close to and you use them against me. you lie, and lie. cause that’s all you do. at this point i’m questioning if you love them both more than me. because i’m doubting you even loved me.

JUNE 2nd, 2018 at 9:35 pm

this is the first time. this is the first time i’ve ever felt you physically hurt me. it wasn’t a slap or a hit. you just shoved me away. i walked next to you. that’s it’s. and you ran to her. why her? you told me you don’t trust me. you don’t know if you truly love me. told me that you don’t know how to love me anymore. and i hate the fact that i feel the same way towards you.

JUNE 9th, 2018 at 12:32 am

i want to text you. tell you to end it. i want to end it. i’m giving you 10 days. if it’s not fixed. it’s over. because this is toxic.

and i know why.

i don’t think i love you anymore. i don’t think that i feel the same butterflies. now they don’t flutter but churn. i don’t love you. i despise you. you hurt others and you know it. i hate you. there is no longer love in me. only hurt, anger, and heartbreak.

JULY 8, 2018 at 12:45 am

ha bitch. you thought. it’s over and i’m healing

(not really, because drinking vodka and going to jail isn’t healing)

SEP 10th 2018 at 10;56 pm

My best friends chose you. I’m now the outsider. Is this what you wanted? For me to be lonely? For you to be everyone’s favourite? Because now I’m alone in my room and I am crying. Begging for someone to listen, but you are standing with them. That stupid fucking smirk on your face. Is this what you wanted? Because you got your wish. You are truly a god. A fucked up, twisted god.

October 1st 2018 at 8:55pm

she is yours. she loves you and i loved you. i still do. i really do. but because of how shitty everything is in my life, i don’t want you to love me back. but hear me out. my best friend is in love with you. don’t break her heart because they already have been damaged enough. learn to love her for her flaws and her quirky attitude. i love her because she is my best friend and i love you as so much more. but i’d give anything in the world to see her smile at someone and be in love. don’t break her heart.

November 24th 2018 @ 17:42 (aka 5:42)

you are my soulmate. you’re my best friend

and i’m okay with that

january 18th, 2019 @ 11:15pm

rereading messages hurts. you broke my best friend. she thought she was in the wrong. you cheated on her. and now that she is talking to a new boy, you had the audacity to call her a whore? yet you’ve fucked everyone in the friend group. fuck you. i’m going to keep talking to you because my other friend is falling for you. stop doing this.

september 16 2019 @ 10:43 pm

it’s been years. i know im over u. at least my brain tells me i am but my heart hurts when i think of u. but u cant seem to stop hurting the people around me. we r older now. we are different people i’m not some insecure kid anymore, oh no. i’m an asshole who isn’t afraid to say u hurt me. and i hurt u. i played victim but so did u. but u r still my friend. one of my brothers. just listen to me okay? i love u. and it won’t ever change. and this may be the end to this letter bc i found a new love who i know will stay in my poems for years to come. i may never stop writing about you but i’m done giving it to you

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