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nichtimhandelerhaeltlich · 5 months

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this has an audience of 1 person besides me but i dont care

feat (@/shooters4logan's templates)

#ddf!formel 1 au #jonah's weird au saga continues #im slowly going insane again!!!!!!

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wr-n · 2 months

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SORRY FOR BEING GONE SO MUCH

#ive just been on the grind in Sky....#turns out im very addicted!#but that doesnt mean im leaving undertale or anything im just slowly going insane #(i mean its pretty much the usual i do that regardless-)#but ill try my best to get the motivation to start drawing again ^^#breaking news #wraith notes

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sharky-the-idiot · 7 months

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new pinned post again!

Hey! I'm Sharky (or Charlie!) and I use he/they pronouns! Also I'm a minor so don't be weird w me pls! Also I'm the... I'm just gonna say the sopping wet cat and rock enthusiast of the Lilarky fandom.

also my discord is sharky_is_silly

That's uh. It. Here's my dnis!

Please do not interact if

•Aphobes

•TERFs

•kink blogs, NSFW blogs, or MDNI blogs (No offense to you guys, I'm just a minor!)

•Zionist (DO NOT GET CONFUSED. JEWISH PEOPLE CAN INTERACT. I am just Pro-Palestine!! Genocide is bad. How. Controversial.)

And! Here's my other blogs!

@rococo-unofficial

@peinto-omori

@sharky-reblogs

@putting-spaceboy-in-places

@sharkys-serious-stuff

Oh and ALSO!! Just some of my lovely friends (if ur my friend and aren't on here please tell me) (also in no particular order)

@lilacthebooklover

@theinkbunny

@cradle-of-darkness

@llicorice

@whale-the-genius

@weeniehut-junior

@goldmoth82

@incredibly-tired-icecube

@jshubofchaos

@godofautism

@attentiondeficitastartes

#intro post #again.#I've done this three times #help #i am slowly going insane #silly #im a dumbass #hmmmm #huh #lolol

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dontpunchdogs · 3 months

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genuinely finding love for myself for the first time in 24 yearz is crazy!!!! im so proud!!

#im a good person!! i deserve good things!! i deserve to have my feelings respected. i deserve to feel worthy #raaaagghhhhgg!!!!!!!!#they werent kidding that ur new life will cost u ur old one. i regret nothing. holy shit #howling #slowly but surely im getting better!!!!!!!!! YAYYYY #im like terrified to meet new people irl and like. invite people back into my peace.#or reach out to my old life. even just for closure.#i dont want to go back to how i felt before ever again. fucking god #i love myself. isnt that insane. i love myself

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soggypotatoes · 10 months

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that tweet by that dnd guy about seeing in technicolour after years of horrific depression.. I keep remembering it, because it's fucking right

second half of this year, it's like my whole world has suddenly inverted. y'all don't understand, I was suicidal when I was *six*. I attempted for the first time when I was 11. I didn't start getting help till I was 18 cause the adults in my life were fucking useless. I had to break all my bones and shuffle them around again and again, in the dark, my whole life, all on my own. then, this year, something changed and I don't even know what. everything impossible is suddenly.. possible.. the world is a beautiful kaleidoscope of colours I didn't know existed. there are still problems - the urge to hurt myself is pretty ingrained. but it's real and it's happening to me, my experience in the world is changed. I don't know how to communicate this to people who haven't experienced it!! it's real!!! I always thought it didn't apply to me, bc in most depression narratives, people have a beforetime they remember. I didn't have a before, I was born into this, the second half of this year is the first time I've ever been truly, deeply, *not* suicidal. and I know it's real, in a way that's hard to explain. you don't have to remember life before depression, and at least for me, depression will never not be a part of me. but god. there are things outside of it

#ed mumbles #it's less like being let out of a cage #and more like youve been let out many years ago #but youve kept your life so small and deprived of things because that's how youve been raised #close walls and hunger - you create those conditions over and over again bc thats life isnt it?#and then you suddenly realise that the years of hard work you never saw anything come out of #have opened your world so slowly until you can go *anywhere*#fucking insane #and i do have to be so careful with myself #like im still pretty delicate lol #studying 1 unit no work and taking weeks long breaks to focus on mental health #maybe some would say that's Doing Bad #but like.. I'm HAPPY #and i can see a future for me #and im doing well in uni and im not having huge meltdowns #im learning to love the experience of being me :)

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sludgeguzzler · 1 year

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man. i changed so much these past years

#im different from last years me who was different from 2021 me who was different from 2020 me and so on and so forth #it feels kinda weird thinking about it bc i went through *so much stuff*#all of it in just the past 4 years... insane #i found out i was trans. i went on lockdown. i started posting my art online. i made online friends.#i went through three different relationships. every single one of them changed me forever.#i started writing. i finished middle school. i read homestuck. i used discord everyday for 2 years.#i found my personal sense of style. i started going tk school again. i made friends irl. i lost all the online friends i had.#(thay wasnt bc of any scandal i just left the friendgroup and then started to slowly interact more with ppl irl #whi sorta made my online interactions dwindle especially one-on-one interactions #i think i feel better like this go be honest with you. the connections feel stronger and i feel closer to the friends ive made #not saying i dont like the people i know and befriended here just saying that not being chronically online anymore really changed how i #go through with internet interactions)#damn. really feeling the passage of time now.#also this is not a sad reminiscent post im *really* glad im in the place i am in life right now #i have a qpp i have an irl friendgrouo that i feel 100% comfortable with for the first time in my life im doing ok at school #i have a vision for my future my relationship with my parents is sooo much better #idk man. compare that with 14 year old me eating alone at school bc i was too scared to talk with the other people on my class and like.#yeah man. im doing a lot better #i DO have to update my art blog though. its been too long sincd i posted anything #talk

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possiblytracker · 1 year

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wakes up in a cold sweat 5 days after my last post i have GOT to make my art weirder

#survived exam (thank you for my life saltine cracker recommenders) (it went mediocre but thats not terrible HOORAY)#survived post-exam existential dread (worst several days of my life as entire worldview tries to readjust to lack of stress/pressure)#have been slowly building up to feeling relatively 'normal' again. and i thought it would take longer for the art motivation to come back #and i told myself i wouldnt unpack my tablet til my room was even Slightly cleaned up and organised #but suddenly im at a point where i think if i *dont* draw i will go certifiably insane and start biting things.#making art is in its own right a crucial step in the 'fixing my fucked up mental and physical health' action plan actually #and i think my first action as a free man and artist will be beating the furry allegations on the side of the furry allegations. /hj #.....then its commissions but if i dont experiment with my style a little rn i will Explode. i want more SHAPES in this shit

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polaroidcats · 10 months

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ok I'm going a bit crazy, I remember reading a hp meta post probably on tumblr (might've been on ao3 but I looked and couldn't find it) about the process of how the different "generations" of podfic recordings of the shoebox project happened, does anybody know what post I am talking about? I'm so so sure it was a thing, and I wanted to reblog it on wolfstarshipping to accompany the podfic rec but I can't seem to find the meta post anywhere?

#hp meta #shoebox #the shoebox project #wolfstar meta #ahhhh im slowly going insane looking for it #maybe i need to look in the a #blog archive on desktop maybe ill find it there #this is so niche and probably not sth many ppl care about but i am so sure that post exists and i wanna read it again #ramblings #tbd

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salad-storm · 1 year

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People are starting to be better at things I thought I was good at again. Feeling the oikawa kinnie in me coming out once more

#hands in fists biting throwing up I THOUGHT THAT WAS MY THING #I THOUGHT I WAS GOOD AT THAT #fact: you cant be better than me at something i claimed.#or i will slowly go bitter on the inside #it was better for a while ! but now... biting again #really had to get the oikawa trait that fucking sucks #<- saying that as if he has any good traits lets be real #ANYWAYS everythings fine #i just need to be better.. without going insane !#this is my villain origin story: people were better at things than me that I was good at #yes i know this is very silly stupid of me but i cant help im mirrorball coded #just ignore this 👍#i can live with people being better than me (clenching fists tears in eyes)#okay i need to Stop #stormy in here

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peculiar-persephone · 2 years

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#i just kind of feel like #lately no matter which void I'm shouting into #no one is paying attention to me #i'm deleting unseen posts and being left on read and like #it feels like high school again #I'm just tired #i have no one irl except my gf and she's handling so much of her own stuff right now #i'm alone all the time and i only talk to my pets and im slowly slipping into insanity #i keep feeling like i wanna go home but. i am home. there's nowhere else to go.#i want to delete everything and run away #i want to stop existing for a while #idk maybe i just need sleep

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sharky-the-idiot · 8 months

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i wanna hug weeping willow... I wanna hug her and tell her dumb dad jokes and hang out with her at the lake... I wanna kiss...

mwah <3

#help #i am slowly going insane #silly #im a dumbass #hmmmm #huh #lolol #weeping willow omori #omori #weeping willow #im in my simp arc again don't mind me #mwah mwah #lilac is still my wife dw it's just #weeping willow.... (said with heart bursting affection)

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orcelito · 1 year

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no joke i know Sentido is my nice lil drabble project rn but i am going thru so much psychological torture just reading trimax i am GOING to have to cope by coming up with an au to Make It All Okay

after i read trimax. im still in the middle of it all. but GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD tristamp only fans just do not KNOWWWWWWWWWWW

#speculation nation #like speaking as someone who Was tristamp only for a week or two #i was like 'oh wow this is so painful!' and it is!#but it still has. fucking NOTHING on trimax. what the HELLLLLLLL #thinking about how vashwood lost to akeshu on the Tragic Pairing poll #if those people had even a fucking Inkling of it all vashwood wouldve swept it #im saying this as a several years goroboy & akeshu lover. ok it just is not the same #yes akeshu is tragic NO it did not sneak into my brain and destroy every bit of joy in me slowly but surely like a suffocating weed #i say this with love. im having the time of my life. but GOD this is fucking torture #i love angst. i thrive on it. Obviously. im a chronic angst writer #but im used to there being at least SOME downtime and sillies to take the weight of the angst off #trimax is just bone deep pain over and over and over again #just when you think it's done hurting then you get hit with the next sucker punch #how am i supposed to SURVIVE THISSSSSSSSSSS I STILL HAVE 60 MORE CHAPTERS!!!!!!!!!!!#ughg. uifhgfkg. its nearly 4 am and i am losing my Mind. i need to go to bed.#fanny reads trigun #capturing my descent into insanity via that tag. whatup

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zeawesomebirdie · 2 years

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Okay yes I just had major surgery less than a week ago, but

cleaning is a massive part of my writing process and it's absolutely destroying me that I'm not allowed to start cleaning any part of the house for at least another week

#im not doing any cleaning at all i promise!#and i wont do any at all until im fully cleared by my doctor!!#ofc!!#in this house we respect and listen to (competent) doctors!!#but rn it really is a battle between 'i need to rest enough to heal from surgery' and 'i need to maintain a minimum amount of activity so #that i dont trigger a fatigue episode'#nevermind that cleaning the house is very literally a part of my writing process #ahhh #im slowly going insane and no one else in my family seems to be capable of cleaning up after themselves #the moment im allowed to clean again im going to cry from happiness #i regularly forget how much i love cleaning and then as soon as i have a fatigue episode or smth else that prevents me from cleaning #i am violently reminded #my boyfreind recommended i do digital clean up instead #and yeah that does satisfy some of the cleaning urge #but its just not the same feeling of relief as washing dishes gives #yknow?#sigh #only another week or so to go #then ill be allowed to do a tiny tiny bit of cleaning #i really thought this would be easier to not do #but honestly ive had fatigue episodes worse than this #and its easy to not clean during fatigue episodes #but boy is it hard to not clean when i feel perfectly normal #(give or take a little bit of slowness and/or that weird feeling of my innards not being fully secure in my body)

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bi-artist-boy · 3 months

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need to cum inside this guy

#limon talks #meating again on saturday but im slowly going insane from anticipation #badly wanna jack off but i gotta save it for later

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separatismor · 4 months

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#third chest infection in eight months #fourth infection in nine #im so tired im exhausted its not completely leaving #i have just quit smoking two days ago #for the fifth time #i am developing the same autoimmune disorder my mum and her mum had #just 20 yrs prior to mum and 30 prior to ma #i feel like im slowly dying and i am going insane again #can someone just hug me while i cry and cry and cry

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toxicalpaintfumes · 1 year

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Sometimes I get so overwhelmed

I picture myself turning into colours

that explode outwards

and drip down all the walls,

on the floor all my colours join.

Finally I disappear down a drain

I can go on with my day again

Until Next Time

when i get too overwhelmed

and feel myself implode, explode

stain the walls, drip down

leave no trace

and reconstruct again

sometimes all i want is to scream

i want so turn into colours, atoms, particles

not to be a human for just a second

and for people to see

how hard i try

how normal i manage to be

I Think I Was Born To Be An Artist

locked inside a room

slowly going insane because of the paint fumes

drawing, painting, crying, screaming, creating

until i finally die

#poetry #neurodiversity #im slowly going insane #my mother got mad at me for being autistic again #even though she works with autistic people #live laugh love #actually autistic

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