#im trying to exist in a hellscape okay

[personaglitch]

"Self insert characters are cringe"

Bro I'm trying to survive capitalism with maladaptive daydreaming. Leave me alone.

[mcybree]

🌓 + ❄️ + 🌌

🌓 - opinions on watcher lore?

(warning for any onlookers I am a hater in this one. avert your eyes)

I think it’s fun in passing, like I have fun with it when I make an AU and have to incorporate it in a silly way but I feel as though watcher “KILL EACH OTHER WE MUST FEED” brand of interpretations undermine the entire narrative by tossing aside every character’s own agency and reducing their internal struggles to set-ups by immoral gods. There is only so much “I dont want to do this but I have to :( the watchers told me so” a story can take before it becomes the narrative happening *to* all of the characters, rather than the characters making their own bad decisions which takes away all the fun for me. similarly, watcher grian has always bothered me but I only ever put into words why a few days ago— If I was writing the life series, I would look take one look at Grian’s character and separate grian (watcher lore) and grian (the guy) into two different characters. I’ve never seen watcher grian incorporated in a way that compliments his character or says anything about who he is as a person. The Watchers are a punchline to me <\3

❄️ - be honest, which character do you care about the least?

I have thought extensively about every character at some point in my year long hyperfixation hellscape *except* for Etho and Impulse; through nature of being a scott megabuild mutual I care about Etho now like I get it but Impulse… im sorry man. I have still yet to get it I’ll keep trying though. I cant make myself write something without feeling that I have a grasp on how everyone involved thinks and acts I could not live with myself if I made every impulse fan point at me and go HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT!!!! before rightfully banishing me to the beyond

🌌 - what happens when the players die?

Okay so. To me. The games are set in a dubious state of reality, like a simulation but theyre still made of flesh and blood and the trees are still breathing and the dirt is still dirt. I’m going to cite the infinity train car coding for how I sort of imagine this works… where its all living breathing thinking feeling but the organics of it are still attached to adjustable values behind the scenes. This is all to say that none of the players ever really sleep— the games existing in this dubious state of reality allows for adjustments to be made and this was one of them. So when they *die* die, the memories they gathered throughout the game are sort of flipped through and finalized in this window of time before the next game, creating a warped nonsensical dream sequence loosely based on the events of the game that they experience until the next one. I visualize this as a sort of psychedelic drug trip combination of all sorts of familiar places and people merging together but eerie nightmare purgatory dreams like being at an empty convenience store at night while echoes surround you is just as likely tbh.

TLDR what happens when the players die is whatever makes the coolest visuals for an animatic SORRY. Like if I’m being completely honest it’s whatever I need it to be to tell the story I made this up retroactively,

[canonicallyginger]

Okay so the foreshadowing at the end of the new TMA ep... I’m fucking terrified, so i’m gonna do some speculation, so for those of you who are caught up with the latest bit of hellscape and want to see my speculations, strap in. This will be a ride.

"No one gets what they deserve. Not in this place. They just get whatever hurts them the most. Even me."

What would hurt Jon the most? I think it’d be becoming, full scale, the monster he's been trying to suppress within him...

The way he talks about the horrid tragedies now... specifically outside of statements... well for one thing, he thought the mortal garden was beautiful, and idk maybe it was, but the suffering something causes offsets the beauty of it imo. And he knew the full scale of the suffering, and STILL found it beautiful. He doesn't seem to understand why Martin is so insistent on maintaining the semblance of politeness, even when he's not going to be heard either way (probably doing it so he doesn't lose his compassion)... He lets his anger get the better of him with Jude Perry and NotSasha, and a little bit with Jared Hopworth, but then his moral crisis happens when its Martin’s anger. And I don’t believe his explanation exactly.

Look, we already know this is a tragedy. We know its a tragedy and we know Martin won't be okay. So of course now im going to speculate on what that means. What would hurt Martin the most? We already know the entity that overpowered him the most easily. The Lonely. But now he's got Jon, and what could possibly hurt more than refusing to help when he needs Martin the most. When he's almost entirely an eldritch monster and can barely hold onto the last of his humanity... Jon has said that Martin is the only reason he's able to keep going now... Martin is probably the last thing that keeps him holding fast to the last scraps of his humanity, and...

Martin's probably going to have a choice: let jon live and the world will stay like this forever, or kill Jon and destroy this world, possibly (but not for certain) replacing it with the world that once was. And i think any avatars that are killed in this hellscape... I don't think they'd be alive again after the world is restored. If it even can be. Altho i think its not an end to existence, because the thing that would hurt Martin the most? Going back to the way things were before he met Jon. No friends, and his only family was his mother, who hates him for reasons out of both of their control. Reasons neither of them could ever hope to fix. And sure, he was once able to live through all that, but now... now that he's had the connections, the friendships, and this romance... i think going back would crush him. And i really can't see it going any other way. But i don’t know, maybe we’ll be surprised, but that scares me more. Because this is already my guess at the worst case scenario, and if they surprise me, it’ll somehow be much much worse.

[sourdoughbf]

Hey I feel like a lazy piece of trash and everything is on hold in my life right now and I feel like Im stuck doing nothing and being anxious about what I should do in life

Hey! first of all I’m rlly sorry I didn’t see this sooner!

Okay well I think the way you feel right now is quite natural given the current circumstances, it’s kinda like the entire world is on fire and we’re still expected to continue on being productive members of the system. In this capitalist hellscape it can often seem like our worth is derived from our productivity, but that’s not the case at all! 

It is absolutely 100% okay to not know what you want to do in life, or to be unsure. If anything, I think life is better that way as you’ll be open to a lot more opportunities. You shouldn’t define your worth by how “lazy” you are because it is natural for your productivity to fluctuate in your life, but your worth always stays the same. 

Your brain is likely taking on a lot of stuff right now, just existing on social media can be exhausting, we’re constantly bombarded with everything that’s going wrong in the world right now and scrutinised if we don’t give our full attention to every individual thing every second of the day. There are so, so many terrible things happening right now, and this isn’t something that people have ever really experienced before. For the first time we’re hearing about absolutely everything and the planet is burning and there’s an entire global virus!! 

It’s important to take this time to try to relax, to heal, to take care of yourself. Don’t you think you deserve that? 

I feel like there’s a lot of pressure to be extra productive in quarantine as you have more free time than usual, and if that works for you then great! But that doesn’t mean it’s the only option, and productivity isn’t a competition. You’re not going to get some special prize if you learn an entire language this lockdown or teach yourself how to knit. Likewise, you’re not going to be punished if you just relax and take care of yourself! Nothing bad is going to happen, you have time, I promise. Things may be on hold right now but that doesn’t mean it’s always going to be like this, it’s really just a matter or waiting, and when your life gets started back up again you can continue on! In the meantime, just think about how great you’re doing!

You aren’t a piece of trash at all, you’re just a wonderful person trying to cope with the sudden loss of normality.

[alien-at-the-dinner-table]

Roll for Panic Attack

*Trigger warning: mentions of depression and suicidal thoughts*

I am afraid of a lot of things. Clowns. Death. Answering the door when i’m not expecting it. Sticking my foot out over the edge of the bed at night. You know, rational, normal stuff. But right now, I'm scared of something that feels like it shouldn’t be as scary as it feels. For the 2nd time in my (albeit young) life, am taking online classes at my local community college. My first time was 2 years ago, and it sent me reeling into a deep depression. As ridiculous as it sounds, I never want to get back to that place. Who would have thought, right??? But im getting ahead of myself, so let me explain the past so one can see where the issues in my grimy future lies.

Sophomore year of high school is where our intrepid young hero begins (read in the voice of Brennan Lee Mulligan: DM to the stars). As anyone in a fiery hellscape would do, I explored a program that gave me a glimpse of freedom: Running Start. In this wonderful program, high school students can attend college classes either online or in person, and not only earn college credit, but can be at the high school less. Great! At first, I thought it would be amazing! I love to learn, and I love not being at the highschool. Suffice it to say, I rolled really low on my perception. But my perception got steadily higher the farther I got in the process of applying. I felt like it might be too much. That I might not be able to handle this. But everyone in my life told me, “you’ll be fine! You’re a smart girl! And your so independent!” So I continued on… feeling like something was off.

Cut to a month before Junior year starts. I feel…. Nothing. I’m bored all the time, and nothing really makes me happy. I’m so scared im going to fail college and it hasnt even started yet… To my family, I am the same. After all, I am used to faking emotions thanks to all those years of thinking panic attacks were SUPER normal right! But I began to explore what was happening. Our hero rolls her dice: 18. I realized something that made me break down in tears of shame. I realized I didnt feel love for my family. I knew I loved them, but I didnt feel anything.What was wrong with me? I tried to imagine horrible fates befalling my family to see if I could muster up some feelings then. No dice. (get it? Dice? RPG’s? Shut up this is comedy GOLD) My sister found me sobbing in the garage. Grabbing my mother, they went to see what was wrong with me. I explained how I was feeling, and even voiced my fear of being depressed. My mom wrote it off as burnout. Which to be fair, I don't blame her for. I had been acting just as I always had.

Skip ahead some more. High school is in full swing, and my college classes begin. Things feel...okay. I was taking 2 classes: General Psychology, and Introduction to Art. Psych was tough, and its reading was intense. 1 page took about 10 minutes, so 6 pages: one hour. The professor thought that because we were online, we needed to make up for being lazy and not going to a classroom. We had around…. 120 pages on a good week. Wanna do the math there? Let me break it down for you: 10 pages=1 hour, 120 pages divided by 6=  hours. About. Add to that the 5 hour assignments every week, 1 hour discussion forums, and hour long tests every week. Our total for this class hours per week: 27. Now, remember, I was also taking highschool classes too, and one other class. Also remember that I was 16. With an undiagnosed anxiety disorder. All it took was a month to break me, and send me hurtling towards depression with all the force and speed of a bowling ball dropped from the top of the Empire State building.

Thanks to my natural ability to repress my emotions and fears, my body decided to send a clear message that something was afoot! I began to get full body HIVES. We went to the doctor, and she basically went, “umm wow, that's definitely an immune system reaction…. But you aren't sick…. And you haven't been sick…. So I don't know why this is happening…” Always what you want to hear from a healthcare professional! So at this point you might ask: did any of this alert you to the fact something was off? No. At this point, I was in complete denial that anything was wrong. Surely getting up in the middle of the night to count pages and double, triple, quadruple check that I had planned every single second of my week was written on my planners pages. What did catch my attention, terrorizes me to this day.

I am religious, and I do my best to pray every night. During this delightful stage of my life, I began to ask God to let me die. I asked that when I went to bed, that I wouldnt wake up. That it would all just stop. That way, I wouldnt keep on down this path, suffering. I thought if I quit, everyone would be disappointed in me. What a waste. How pathetic, right? Of course, this was myself talking. But I wanted to die. I didnt even care if I went to heaven. I thought even if I ceased to exist, it would bring peace. Inkey, dark, peace filled sleep. 

This is what scares me. Because I can never get to that place. I hated myself so much. But what was worse was how I felt about my family and friends. I began to resent them a bit. Just a little. How dare they love me! Why do they have to keep me here? I knew that if I died, it would destroy them. I had no illusions that those I loved would be better off without me. While I thought I would cause them shame and disappointment in life, I knew that in death I would kill them with me. And while I might not have felt love as I do now, I never wanted to cause them pain or suffering. Ever. So here I am now. Better, because I can tell you it can get better. Scratch that, it WILL get better.

And now to the present: a full circle of sorts. I am so scared that this course will be too much, that I wont be a college graduate. Please understand: I honestly thought for a long time that I wasn't going to go to college. Not because I couldnt. But because I didnt see the point, at least for the art fields. And honestly I still do. But I know that even with a stupid certificate that I probably could have taught myself all the same information for a 10th of the price, it will open doors for me. And to be perfectly frank, I want to make my family happy. I want them to be proud of who I am. I want to be proud of myself. To prove that no stupid mental illness will take this away from me. Not again. I know I can pass and even excel in a college environment. In fact, during my tenure at Running Start, I was invited to join the Phi Theta Kappa Honor Society.But I want to be able to mentally handle this. I want to be strong enough for ME. I know that finishing this won't make me weak, or if it is too much that it means I am lesser than. But I'm going to try damnit! And if it is too much, then I will stop, or at least work with my therapist to see what would be best for me. 

And so, our hero begins her journey. Roll for Initiative.

[phaltu]

at first i thiught it was just random how the Trending on Tumblr thing worked but now im convinced tumblr is trying to make itself into a hipster-y aesthetic only sort of place and im not sure why im telling you this but i felt like disdain towards tumblr would be something near your alley if not in it. Also i hope your dental procedure went okay and you feel better soon!

HAHA i feel like that place has always existed…when I first made a blog back in 09 that’s what my blog used to be, and I think every time I’ve made a new blog with the exception this one, it always starts out wanting to be an aesthetic or a horror aesthetic blog so I’m guessing they’re just trying to put in a dollop of pleasant imagery into a hellscape

[fighterfortheforgotten]

PINOF Through the Ages

ah, November, that special time of year between halloween and christmas where i can buy “fun sized” (read “thumb sized”) chocolate bars and tinsel in the same aisle at walmart…

it’s also that time of year where members of the phandom, young and old, come together and collectively binge watch all the PINOF videos in preparation for the newest installment, as we wait with bated breath for what fresh hell we’re gonna be hit with this year.

today, i would like to share with you my observations of PINOF Through The Years, as we embark on the fucking trip that is sure to be PINOF 9…

Phil is not on fire (25 October 2009)

- can you IMAGINE what the hell Phil’s parents and/or brother must’ve thought when they were filming that/saw it for the first time?! Phil brings home this random kid he found in a train station and they start giggling like actual 12 year olds and wandering round the house talking about The Shining, using the exercise equipment Phil has probably never stepped foot on in his life, and drawing on their faces in sharpie? i can fucking HEAR Kath saying “Phil…honey…are you on the drugs?” and Martyn cackling like a lunatic in the background at his brother and his weird friend….

- Dan is trying so. damn. hard. not to laugh throughout the entire video.

- Speaking of Dan, even back then he was a sassy, cocky lil shit… “every animal makes that noise with you…” “wow Phil, i bet they’re all so glad they can see the diagram…” “no, okay, Phil has really crappy GHDs that don’t even work…they don’t even work…they are Poundland GHDs.”

- everyone always talks about The Tackle™ at the end of the video, but not NEARLY enough people talk about the lil smirk Phil gives the camera just before it…like, seriously?! that’s a “haha, here goes nothing!” kinda smirk. thats a “lol watch this!” kinda smirk. thats a “give the people what they want” kinda smirk…im just sayin’…

Phil is not on fire 2 (29 May 2010)

- okay, first of all, Dan…sweetheart…did you borrow that cardigan from your mum?

- Dan: “if you could choose which surname you had, what would be your decision?” Phil: “…umm…” *almost imperceptible but still definitely there jumpcut* Phil: “Striker!”….yeah, yeah, yeah, alright, everyone knows that Phil really said “yours” in an incredibly sheepish and embarrassed voice to Dan that made him go “awwww!….you’re cutting that out…”, but lets appreciate the editing skills it took to make the cut so completely (almost) seamless….

- oh. my. GOD! there is an ENTIRE post JUST about the microwave moment, but i have to reiterate it again for those who have recently entered this hellscape: imagine you are Phil Lester, a 23 year old adult with an ENGLISH LANGUAGE DEGREE, and in comes this adorable 18 year old twink trying to tell you that “microwave” is a fucking onomatopoeia! if i was Phil, THIS would be the moment i’d never let Dan live down. fuck “hello internet”, if he ever pissed me off i’d just be like “yeah, well, at least i know microwave isn’t a fucking onomatopoeia…” and walk away. argument done, you win every time.

- and that being said, again, lets appreciate how much we can learn from the facial expressions of Philip Michael Lester. in that moment, the look he gives Dan is pure “are you fucking serious…?” it is incredulity in a nutshell. it is shock and fondness and “oh my god you are such a twat…”. if there were a dictionary of facial expressions, Phil’s face at the moment Dan says fucking microwave is his favourite onomatopoeia would be the one next to the definition of “wtf?”

Phil is not on fire 3 (1 November 2011)

- 2011 was, by far, the WORST year for Dan and Phil’s hair. tragic. absolutely tragic…

- wow, Dan was right, every animal DOES make the same noise to Phil, including horrific genetic hybrids of land and sea mammals…

- Dan’s ability to almost unhinge his jaw is terrifying…and i’m sure has played a part in lots of phanfic that i’m definitely not going to look for ever…

- okay, seriously guys?! the word is vagina. say it with me: vagina. come on! all together now! it’s not a *awkward silence and weird hand gesture*, it’s not a “birth area", it’s just a vagina…for someone who knows so much about placenta, it strikes me as odd that Dan can’t say the word vagina out loud…

- i’ve never heard anyone giggle as much as Dan does in this video…

Phil is not on fire 4 (12 September 2012)

- the hair is better this year…slightly…

- whoever decided that those face mask things were a good idea needs to be buried alive…the way they look when they move is so horrifying, it gives me nightmares.

- the “gu-hoy!” noise Dan makes in this video (ts 3:21 if you’re at all interested) is my text alert on my phone and it makes me panic every time i watch it because im like “wtf is someone texting me for at 11:53 pm?!” but then i realize it’s just the video and that i’m actually still very alone and have no friends…

- (bloopers bonus!) petition to have 2012 be known in the phandom as, ‘The Year Dan Was Finally Comfortable With The Word Vagina’. that’s all it was guys! he learned a new word and just wanted to show how broad his vocabulary had become!

Phil is not on fire 5 (22 November 2013)

- and right off the bat we’re affronted again by the fact that Dan and Phil have zero concept of how female anatomy works….

- this is probably the most uneventful pinof in the entire series.

Phil is not on fire 6 (6 November 2014)

- to return to the hair discourse, i firmly maintain that 2014 was the best year for their haircuts/styles.

- Phil has no concept of what a sassy face is…

- #StopPhil201X needs to just be a recurring thing every year…

- that poor, poor snake…

- petition for Dan to sing the national anthem at every tour stop in 2018

- the idea of Dan trying to carry on the legacy of Phil Is Not On Fire after Phil’s death is so damn heartbreaking to me…i need a minute

- my lil demon soul is convinced that Phil was doing *something* to Dan’s neck when they both tried to fit through that sweater…i mean, look at his face when he laughs and says “stop". seriously?!

- something about Dan with his fringe swapped, on the wrong side of the bed, and wearing Phil’s shirt makes me feel almost uncomfortable, but in a way that i’m not entirely sure how to process…

- (bloopers bonus!) to reiterate! every animal does, in fact, make the same noise to Phil. this has now been confirmed 3 times.

- (bloopers bonus!) the amount of pleasure Phil is able to derive from any mention of Hello Internet warms the deepest recesses of my soul like the light of the sun after a 1000 year winter.

Phil is not on fire 7 (29 November 2015)

- uh, excuse me? do not drag my country in such a way. Canada is indeed real. it’s where maple syrup comes from. as someone who enjoys the simplicity of a good pancake, i expected better from you Mr. Philip.

- i feel so bad for their neighbours during the stress mushroom tug of war…like, can you imagine what those poor people must’ve thought of them? i’d love to interview their neighbours one day…better yet, their neighbours should write a book: “I Lived Next To YouTubers For 5 Years: The Adventure" and just have it be a chronicle of every weird thing they ever witnessed/encountered.

- with every passing year, Dan’s knowledge of fanfiction tropes and writing styles becomes increasingly disturbing…hide the smut everyone Daniel Howell is coming for it.

- Phil! with the puns! honestly Dan, how do you put up with this man?

- (bloopers bonus!) the way dans voice changes when he grabs Phils underwear and is just ENTHRALLED with the fact that he’s colour coordinates his boxers to his bedsheets is probably the single most disgusting thing i have ever witnessed in my entire life…i mean, i love it, but why are you SO EXTRA?!

Phil is not on fire 8 (29 November 2016)

- NOTHING in the animal or cutlery kingdoms should be born or created in the way Phil describes the birthing process of a spork!

- okay. OKAY! i love the fringes, i really do. i’m a fringe fan from way back, but the hair pushed back thing they get going on sometimes? i can get on board with that.

- aaaannd at 1:57 into pinof 8, the little game i like to play called “Phan or Viktuuri" had all of its lines blurred so far beyond recognition i’m not even sure which universe i’m living in anymore.

- the PSA for “staying hydrated"…such a harmless, and beautiful message about health and self care that the phandom managed to turn into a sex meme…but no one is surprised by that now, are they?

- i need to know why that stock photo exists in the first place…also, why the hell was Phil wearing sandals in November?

- (bloopers bonus!) Phil: “phil is not on fire 8! this time its…what the tagline?” the phandom: “…gayer than ever?” Dan: “full of regrets.” the phandom: “…i mean I GUESS!!!”

- (bloopers bonus!) everything about this blooper reel just confirms even more solidly that Dan is the biggest Phil fan in the world. i’m not gonna wax poetic about the compliments or the comparisons to sunshine or anything else, because at this point is it really necessary? no. i thought not.

and there we have it. just in time for PINOF 9 to be released, a full (and much more in depth than intended) recap of the saga thus far…wake me up when Gamingmas starts, cuz after this video comes out, i’m gonna need a solid week of sleep

[dollwritesarchive]

oh ok. tumblr asks really are a hellscape. everything be getting lost in the void. hopefully u get this one. a blog called omega-nicoleexposed was created. a few months ago mimi of captain-rogers-beard was falsely accused of plagiarizing & it had real life consequences as her chances of getting published were diminished. i cant link posts in asks but if you go to this blog the post in particular im talking about is tagged 'marvel writers'

OKAY so I want to preface this with a couple of points.

1. My followers that have been around since this mess, you know I was openly critical of the situation; I hate plagiarism and I don’t care if it’s a major work or a fanfiction. I do NOT retract what I said about plagiarism, but my stance has been altered by the new information.

I lost mutuals and friends over a situation that didn’t concern me, and that’s one of the reasons I thought about ignoring this now. However I think it’s important.

2. I don’t know who Nicole is, I was never mutuals with her, never on her side, etc. I do not condone the crazy shit she has done like harassing Mimi or anyone else on this hellish site. She has been blocked on my account for a while, but before she was, she reblogged a couple of my posts about the issue and I in NO WAY intended to relate to her via those posts. So the people who claim I’m just as bad as her, I can’t even take you seriously.

3. This blog was brought to my attention last night. This is old news that I thought long and hard about leaving buried, but seeing as though my position has changed, I figured I owed it to you guys to give an explanation as to why.

- so, I read over some of the exposed blog but I’m honestly tired ? I don’t believe I was ever mentioned on the blog (perhaps I was, I’m not sure) BUT I know I can speak for myself and I’m sure a couple of others who took a similar stance: we were, in no way, trying to maliciously attack Mimi by speaking out against plagiarism. I even tried to avoid using her name or url even. I never sent any asks to her. I never knew that Nicole was leading this hate crusade straight to Mimi. I am honestly admitting that I was not fully informed on the situation, and I should’ve been. If I would’ve known the details of this feud, perhaps I would’ve been more apprehensive about speaking up, because it genuinely sounds like a them issue. The problem is that I saw receipts highlighting the other exact same phrases and sentences, word for word, in both works, and had only surface level information. I have never interacted with either of these users before.

The main point I tried to make back then was that Mimi SEEMINGLY had similarities to the YMM situation, except it was a much bigger author and not smaller creators. I didn’t like that the two instances were treated differently, when they had the same offense, (once again, SEEMINGLY. Please keep reading).

At that time, as I mentioned, I had no idea Nicole was gunning for Mimi, so I want to take a moment out of this post to address the fact that if said screenshots were altered/taken out of context/essentially falsified I genuinely apologize to Mimi for spreading the false information.

To put it simply, I still believe in what I said back then, as far as plagiarism is concerned, but Mimi herself seems to be innocent now with this new information, and Nothing I can say about how sorry I am will change the frustrations that seeped into her life outside of tumblr.

I did see on the blog that Mimi has had some issues getting published, had to go to a lawyer, etc. If the preofessionals handling the case deemed mimis work not plagiarism, then it isn’t, and everyone should leave this situation alone. I am sorry that she’s had trouble getting published because of this situation, but i do hope that it all gets resolved if it hasn’t already.

Now, as for Nicole. She’s... a psycho. I believe she feeds off of this drama and I don’t think the exposed blog should really exist, you’re giving her exactly what she wants. I am, in no way, affiliated with her nor do I care to be. I’m not LIKE her. I’m not “as horrible” as her. I have never sent a lick of hate to people defending Mimi or Mimi herself. I don’t harass people. I stick to myself and chill in my bubble.

The actual exposed blog, though I think what they gave us was pertinent information, should stop engaging with her. Stop feeding into this mess. It’s going to give her a green light to harass Mimi again or milk this situation to the bitter end.

I hope this clears up some of the vagueness from before, and I am open to having adult, calm discussions on this issue for as long as I can handle, if you have questions or comments. However, if you come to harass me or take any sort of attitude with me, your ask gets deleted and you get blocked.

[beesandfigs-abandoned]

Like just let me be delulu. No one’s being harmed 🥲

"Self insert characters are cringe"

Bro I'm trying to survive capitalism with maladaptive daydreaming. Leave me alone.

[lionsong448]

This is the Way

"Self insert characters are cringe"

Bro I'm trying to survive capitalism with maladaptive daydreaming. Leave me alone.

[auntie-venom]

Been an oc girlie since 2002, let me live in my cringe cave cause I am happy.

"Self insert characters are cringe"

Bro I'm trying to survive capitalism with maladaptive daydreaming. Leave me alone.

[nerdieforpedro]

Indeed, This is The Way.

"Self insert characters are cringe"

Bro I'm trying to survive capitalism with maladaptive daydreaming. Leave me alone.

[the-broken-quill]

Personally I like to write self-inserts in order to feel like i’m interacting with some of my favourite characters! Is the Small Magics Gang™️ an entirely fictional friends-to-found-family group? Yes! Did I try to make an OC after reading the first book when I was a kid so I could pretend I was one of them? Also yes!

Fuck what anyone else says! Go ahead and make that funky little stand-in guy or gal or nonbinary pal!!!

"Self insert characters are cringe"

Bro I'm trying to survive capitalism with maladaptive daydreaming. Leave me alone.