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ecstasyhighway · 4 months
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no feelings | toji fushiguro
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cw: toji is lowkey an asshole here guys, small amount of texting at the beginning, toji catches reader masturbating, no use of y/n, pet names: good girl , pretty , princess , baby , babygirl. pussy eating, deadbeat asshole!toji (sorry its canon i fear) backshots… pussy and ass slaps, cum eating if you squint, squirting. unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it chat) toji cums in reader, the tiniest amount of overstimulation and edging. hes rough with reader.. reader had like two drinks so shes not drunk but tipsy. if i missed anything lmk.
a/n: so why tf did this take me ten years to write…? anywayss. no but fr i need him guys.. like why is he so bad actually like… ALSO this is inspired by fanart on pinterest!! okay enjoy sillies
also not proofread and lowercase intended
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you and your friends had just spent a night out at the bar, you had a couple of drinks and you were feeling very emotional and needy. you're in an uber headed to your flat. the small amount of alcohol in your system is clouding your judgment. you head inside dropping all your shit on the floor before plopping down on the couch. you thought to yourself, you need a good dicking down right now. you and toji have been fucking on the low for a year and a half now and you really like him, terrible idea to like the toji fushiguro, but he treats you so well when he wants to… sending toji a text about how you were feeling was definitely not a good idea. yall were just fuck buddies, strictly no feelings attached, but the more you got to know him the more you started to develop feelings for him. you reach for your phone and send a text to toji.
'i lovre yoh <3'
'wtf? yk I said no feelings. do i need to come over there and fuck some sense into you?'
'noo'
'why are you acting that way? are you drunk?'
'i habd two drinkds im just a little tipsky'
'ok…why'd you send me that stupid braindead text hmm?'
'cus i missd yoouh'
'well then be prepared pretty. imma fuck you til you can't think straight.'
you felt yourself getting wet at the thought of him, you rub your thighs together trying to get some friction. You felt so light headed, just thinking about his body and how good he always fucks you. without thinking your snake your hand into your pants, you begin to rub your clit through your underwear. Needy whimpers leave your mouth as you try to relive the aching feeling in your body. You were so lost in trying to get yourself off you didn't even notice the faint sound of keys jingling, and the door opening.
"what are you doing?" your hear toji's voice echo through your brain and you look up. He looks displeased with you. "y'knew I was coming over right?" you sit up and look at him through your lashes and you nod, feeling embarrassed. "then why are you touching yourself hmm?"
"i jus couldn't wait you were taking too long, i jus' need you so bad" your voice sounds pathetic and he can't help but look at you with fake pity.
"so lemme get this straight, you text me talking about you love me, knowing that'll make me mad.. then you touch yourself knowing I was headed this way which you knew would also piss me off…then you give me some pathetic excuse? oh…" he grabs your face forcing you to look at him "you must want me to break you huh? you want me to fuck you until you can't walk? until you forget your own name? how embarrassing…" he laughs slightly and lets go of your face "get up and go to your room, sit there and wait for me, I'll be there in a minute."
you go to your room and sit there patiently waiting for him to come upstairs. Your heart was beating so fast you could hear it in your ears. It feels like years go by as you wait for toji to come upstairs, you consider going back to the living room and seeing what he was doing but… you know that that'll just make him even more angry.. so you wait, but the feeling in your core is getting harder to ignore. after what seems like hours, finally you hear heavy footsteps from outside your room. The door swings open and he walks up to you, you feel his eyes staring into your soul so you look down, not wanting to look him in his eyes.
he grabs your face making you look at him. "look at me" his voice is harsh and demanding, sending shocks to your core. You look up at him and he smirks, "good girl…" he strokes your cheek with his thumb softly, still looking at you with that sadistic smirk. "please.." you whine trying to get him to stop teasing you. His expression turns cold and he lets go of your face.
"lie down" you listen to him and you sit back on your bed. Toji slowly takes off your leggings. Once he sees the wet spot on your lacy underwear, he rubs your clit through them which causes you to buck your hips at the subtle contact. "you're so wet… all this for me baby?" hes still rubbing small circles on your clit, you whimper and try to grind on his hand to get more friction but he holds your hips in place stopping you from moving. "you're so needy" he laughs before tearing off your panties throwing them over his shoulder. the cold air hits your exposed cunt causing you to try to close your legs but he stops you.
"toji please.." he slaps your pussy and you yelp. He doesn't even give you a warning before begins sucking on your pretty clit "fu-fuck" your hips jerk as he eats you out like he was a starved man. you feel him insert two fingers into you, the mixture of both his fingers and his mouth on your cunt has you seeing stars. The sounds of his slurping and your moans are making you want more, you begin grinding on his face and he groans into your pussy sending vibrations up your spine. His assault on your clit doesn't stop, his fingers pumping in and out of you, hitting your g-spot every time. "mmfh m'gon- please ughfm dont stop m'gonna cum" your voice is loud and breathy, you grind on his face faster feeling your stomach knot up, suddenly you no longer feel him anymore causing you to open your eyes.
"noo..why i was s'close" he doesn't respond to you, he just takes off his pants letting his dick free, pre-cum leaking from the tip. He gives it a couple of strokes before walking up to you and throwing your legs on his shoulders, holding you by your thighs. He rubs his tip against your clit, coating his cock with your slick, he groans as he continues "fuck- you think you can squirt on my dick babygirl?" he doesn't even give you a chance to respond before he slides his dick into your cunt, bottoming out, you mewl at the feeling, clamping down on his cock. He groans above you "you're takin me 's well pretty" he begins thrusting into you, a slow and agonizing pace "fuck toj' faster" he takes a hand and puts it around your throat, squeezing slightly, thumb stroking your bottom lip softly. "y' want me to go faster? nah imma take my time." he continues with his slow strokes, you can feel every inch of him. his tip kissing your cervix with each thrust "look at that baby… hahh fuck- your pussy is so pretty- just swollowing my cock" he reaches down and rubs your puffy clit. its taking everything in him to not just go crazy on you yet, he wants to draw this out as much as he can. "toj' umhpf please-" you're so cock drunk you're just babbling incoherent nonsense. his pace is still slow pulling in and out of you, his balls hitting the plush of your ass softly. your moans are like music to his ears, making his cock even harder. he pulls out and slaps your pussy harshly. tears began to well in your eyes "that hurts" you pout. he leans down to suck on your bottom lip, moving to your neck, leaving dark hickeys on your jawline "awwh does it hurt? thats too bad… stop cryin" he says while wiping the tears from your cheeks.
"turn over." his voice was deep and demanding. you slowly turn and whine when you feel him slap your ass then knead the flesh before landing another harsh slap on your soft skin. "you are being such a good girl baby" he pushes your head into the pillows and spreads your lips while groaning before licking a thick stripe up your slit. "you taste so good princess" he purrs, licking and planting kisses on the sensitive bud. he gives your pussy another slap before getting up and stroking his dick. "mmhf tojii ah stop doin that" he slaps your ass "shut up you're fine" with his cock in hand he slams into you, "ah uhmf toj' so good" he pulls out and slams back in, his pace speeds up with each thrust into your sopping wet cunt. the noises of his balls hitting the plush of your ass, your moans and the sound of your pussy was enough to make him cum right there, but he can hold off just a little longer. he grabs a handful of your hair so he can fuck deeper into you, he finally has a steady pace and rhythm that has you seeing stars and squeezing around him. "ah ah ah ah ah shit keep going" he pulls your hair back, making you arch your back into him. you feel that familiar knot in your stomach "fuh-toji uhmf m'gonna cum" his pace quickens and he lets go of your hair, placing his hand on your lower belly adding pressure "go ahead princess cum on my cock, make a mess on me" you squeeze around him, the pressure he added and his words drove you to your climax, "shi- m'cumming hah" your eyes roll to the back of your skull as you shake from the overstimulation of him still thrusting into you. "you can give me one more right baby?" as he continues to stuff you with his cock he starts rubbing your clit. your brain is hazy and you cant think straight, the only things leaving your mouth is his name and a string of broken moans. "jus one more c'mon cum on my dick again baby" he watches as a ring of your cum covers the base of his dick "m'gon-fuck toj m'cummi-" the clear liquid spurting out of you cuts you off mid sentence, covering his dick in your juices, this is what throws him to the edge. the feeling of you squirting on him, covering both you and himself in your liquids has him losing his rhythm, you notice this and begin fucking yourself into him "wan your cum toji cum in me please" "oka- shit, m'gonna pump you full with my cum- uhmfuck shit" he holds your hips in place while thick ropes of his warm cum paints your walls white, you moan feeling another orgasm build up in your core. you shake from overstimulation, tears staining your cheeks as you let yourself go, you whine and pant, fucking yourself onto his cock to ride out your third orgasm. he pulls out of your warm cunt, watching both his and your cum leak from your hole. he stuffs it back into you, then licks his fingers tasting the salty sweet mixture.
he gets up and puts his clothes back on, leaving your limp, cum filled body on your bed. "alright baby, imma go, you uhh clean yourself up, don't text me with that bs again aigh? oh and i know you're on the pill but still i don't want kids so make sure u ain pregnant, get that mornin after pill if you need too, aigh im out princess" he gives you a final slap on your ass before leaving. you hear him go downstairs, grab his keys to your flat and leave, locking the door behind him. leaving you there full of his cum, tears rolling down your cheeks, body still coming down from the three orgasms you had. you just lie there for a minute, will you send him an i love you text again? maybe… he normally pulls up for a quickie. so for him to fuck you like that… you need it again. you stand up on your sore legs, almost falling over before you head to your bathroom to clean yourself up.
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yeah chat i might need him asap… hope yall enjoyed fr
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close to home | chapter fifteen
close to home | chapter fifteen
plot: when the reader falls ill, Daryl leaves to get medicine. Meanwhile, things worsen at the prison, and Daryl nearly doesn't make it back in time.
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Pairing: Eventual Daryl Dixon x f!reader Word Count: 1,704 Warnings: violence, blood, sickness A/N: thanks for reading!
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You didn’t hear that Sasha had fallen ill until later that day. You’d overheard someone talking about her when you stumbled into the bathroom to splash your face with water. You were boiling, despite the relatively cool indoor space. You were also shivering and achy on your feet. 
After the craziness with Tyreese, you went to wash up and get something to eat, but by the time you returned to the cell, you were so dizzy you had to lie down. And when you woke up a couple of hours later in the afternoon, you felt like this. 
You heard another rumor of a council meeting taking place and wondered why nobody came and got you while you went to the prison section where you met. You were only halfway there when you had to start using the wall to help you walk, and sweaty handprints left a trail behind you. 
“She wasn’t in her cell when I went to get her. I’m not sure where she is,” You heard Carol saying as you approached the door. You started coughing as you slowly walked in. Everyone turned to look at you, but it was Daryl your eyes landed on. 
“Daryl… something’s wrong,” 
***
When Daryl saw you enter the room, he was on his feet and approaching you in a second. He’d managed to get to you as your knees gave out, and all your weight was put on him. 
“Son uh bitch,” He cursed, looking at your sweaty face. Your eyes were rimmed red, and you looked like hell. 
“Oh my God, (Y/N),” Carol said, hesitating to come over to you. 
Daryl looked around the room, “Don’ everybod’ help at once!” He yelled. 
“I don’t feel good,” You muttered, and he looked down at you again before looking at Hershel. 
“What can we do?” He asked, “We ain’ lettin’ her die like this.”
“The illness won’t kill me,” You said as he helped you into one of the chairs. 
Daryl looked up at Hershel, “Come on, old man, tell me what we gotta do,”
Your uncle looked at you sorrowfully and then at Daryl, “That veterinary college at West Peachtree College, that’s one place people might not have thought to look for medicine. We need to treat the symptoms. It's those that... that'll kill her.”
“That’s fifty miles from here,” Michonne said. She looked down at you and tried to control her panic.
“I’m goin’,” Daryl said, “As soon as we get ‘er to bed, I’m goin’,”
***
Getting you to the quarantine cell block was the longest walk of Daryl’s life. You seemed heavier in his arms, and your breathing wasn’t even. Every time he looked down at your face and saw how pale you were, he thought he was going to throw up. His heart was beating wildly, and his stomach sat like a rock. 
The thought of leaving you behind in the cell block almost made him pause outside the doors, but for the safety of everyone else, he knew you had to be in there. So he pushed on through, breathing through a bandana. 
Sasha sighed loudly when she saw him carrying you in, and she helped him find an open cell and get you settled. When someone yelled her name, she told Daryl she would look after you and then she was gone. 
Daryl carefully laid you on the bed. Your face was sweaty, and you were shivering at the same time. He checked your forehead; you were burning up. Some part of him wanted to put a hole through the wall, but it was concrete walls, and he wouldn’t be able to help you with a broken hand. 
“Daryl,” You mumbled.
“Imma go out and get you some meds,” He said, looking down at your pale face. “It’ll be all right, promise,”
He didn’t stick around to hear anything else. 
***
You weren’t sure how long you slept, but it was dark when you woke up. You still felt as sick as you did earlier but a little clearer-minded. And your uncle’s voice from a few cells down forced you onto your feet. 
The cell block was full of people coughing and groaning in pain. You wanted to lie down and join them, but that wasn’t who you were. So you slowly made your way to your uncle, who shook his head when he saw you. 
“You should be resting,” Hershel said, closing one of the cell doors. 
“I can help,” You said, following his actions and closing the doors. You couldn’t tell if people were dead or just sleeping, and you didn’t have the energy to check. But you forced yourself to keep moving. You closed another two cells before you started coughing again, and you leaned against the wall for support. 
A hot metallic sensation filled your mouth, and you started coughing up blood. You tried to yell for your uncle, but you couldn’t make a sound. You could barely hear the sound of Lizzie yelling and then gunshots. 
You glanced around the room and saw a few walkers roaming around. Above you, Lizzie was leading a walker down the hallway. You cursed loudly and grabbed your machete, aiming for the nearest walker. It took everything out of you, and you collapsed beside the dead body. Your body was too heavy to move, and you couldn’t respond when you heard your uncle yelling for you. 
But you watched him lead the other walkers up the stairs and the following gunshots. You coughed up more blood and managed to get to your knees. 
“(Y/N!)” 
You looked up at Maggie as she ran toward you. “Stop, stop, I’m fine! Uncle Hershel… needs you…I think it’s Glenn….” 
She nodded and went to find him, leaving you alone. 
***
“What the hell….” Michonne said as they approached the prison. 
Daryl stared at the section of the prison fence that had been pushed down, and thoughts of the prison being overrun filled his mind. Tyreese sped up and quickly reached the courtyard, where Carl and Rick were waiting. 
“What happened?” Michonne asked as they all got out of the car. Daryl listened to Rick’s story as they grabbed the medical supply bags.
“Gunshots were coming from A,” Carl said. 
Daryl didn’t need to hear anything more as he and Tyreese quickly ran toward the cell block. The two of them got into the block quickly, and the smell of sickness and death was heavy. Tyreese went off to find Sasha while Daryl looked around for you. 
The sound of someone struggling to breathe caught his attention, and he ran towards the back of the block, finally finding you. Crimson blood covered your mouth as you choked on the liquid in your lungs, and your body was shaking as you were asphyxiating.
“Hershel! (Y/N)!” Daryl screamed, dropping to his knees next to you. Your face was blue, and your eyes were closed as you struggled to breathe. 
“Get her on her side. She’s choking to death,” Hershel yelled from the second level. 
Daryl carefully moved you so you were on your right side, and blood poured from your mouth as your body shook. 
“Did you get another valve mask?” Hershel said. 
“In the bag!”
Your uncle was quick as he dug through the bag. He momentarily glanced at you in fear before finding the mask and pulling it out. “On her back, careful now,” 
“She’s dyin’!” Daryl yelled, grabbing the side of your face as more blood spilled from your mouth. Your chokes were getting harder, and your body was shaking furiously. 
“Hold her down!” Hershel yelled. 
Daryl pinned your arms down and used his body to hold your legs while watching in horror as your uncle started shoving a pipe down your throat. Your body struggled against the intrusion, and Daryl had to look away, trying to block out the painful gasps as you continued to choke. Your body was thrashing uncontrollably, and Daryl tried his hardest to pin you down. 
“Come on (Y/N)!” Your uncle yelled. 
Finally, the pipe set in, and air-filled your lungs. Your body stilled, and Daryl looked at your blood-covered face. He blinked away hot tears and sat back, watching your chest rise and fall with each pump. 
“Maggie’s up there keeping Glenn breathing. You need to do the same for her. I have to get the medication ready with Bob,” Hershel said. 
Daryl hadn’t even noticed Bob had shown up, and his anger towards the man dissipated when he remembered that Bob and Hershel would be saving your life. 
“Slow and steady, every few seconds,” Hershel said, quickly showing Daryl how to pump the air into your lungs. After a second, he passed the pump to Daryl. 
He blocked the sound of Hershel and Bob’s conversation and stared at your face. There was blood everywhere, and it still had a tinge of blue. Your hair was coated in blood, spit, and bile. Your skin was pale and sticky with sweat. But your chest was moving in rhythm, and he couldn’t be more thankful for showing up when he did. 
He couldn’t stop tears from falling this time and allowed himself a few seconds to grieve what had happened. You had nearly died before him; he almost didn’t make it. And the idea of you not being around anymore would’ve been enough to bring him to his knees if he wasn’t already on them. 
He wanted to hold you against his chest, feel your heartbeat, and hear your laugh. He wanted to roll his eyes at your stupid sarcastic comments and watch your eyes light up when you spotted a trail using the tracking skills he’d taught you. He wanted to see you frown when you took down an animal and then shake your head in agreement when he told you it was for the best. He wanted to cry at the idea of you almost dying and wrap himself around you to keep you there.
But he didn't do any of that. Instead, he sat there and kept a steady rhythm and brought life back into your body. 
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anqelbean · 1 year
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Since it's Disability Pride Month, I'd like to talk about my chronic migraines. I don't talk about my condition often, and I haven't seen many people speak on it, so I'd like to give my experience:
Migraines, at least in my experience, are never really taken seriously. I've been told I was faking, that I was doing it to get out of something, people (SPECIFICALLY my family) have told me to just bear it OR haven't believed me until I threw up from pain, "just to go outside and take a walk to clear your head, that'll surely help :)" as if being outside won't put me at risk of something happening to me due to the fact I LITERALLY CANNOT FOCUS ON WHERE IM GOING.
Most pain meds don't work on me anymore due to built up tolerance because I've been taking them like candy since I was a child, and even ibuprofen is near useless and I'm not allowed to be put on serious migraine medication because I'm a minor and my country literally. Does. Not. Let. Me.
I've had a teacher look one of my classmates in the eye and say she won't excuse her absence over a headache, then she realized I , someone who has almost fainted at school due to a migraine, was in the room and backtracked saying "Oh, well, if you're feeling bad at school, of course imma let you leave, but I you can't miss school over just a headache."
Chronic migraines are chronic pain. Don't fucking forget that.
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lowkeycasanova · 2 years
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dirty
*smut warning*
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Stumbling through the door with laughter, your friends finally came back to the apartment at one thirty in the morning.
"It's so damn dark in here." Alexis said and she turned on the kitchen light. It illuminated a good area and they were able to see where you and Vinnie were last on the couch.
"Where are they?" Vanessa asked, gesturing to the blankets that were left a mess and noticing that fact that it seemed too quiet.
"Asleep?" Alexis shrugged.
They made a beeline to your room and stopped in their tracks when they see one of your socks on the doorhandle. When y'all first moved in together, Vanessa made a rule stating that whenever someone wanted to have seggsy time with a partner, put a sock on the door as a 'do not disturb' sign.
The two girls looked at each other and tried their hardest not to laugh. But obviously they weren't laughing as if they were making fun.
They took out their phones and opened Snapchat, trying their hardest to shut the fuck up. And uploading to their private stories, which you would eventually see, they had the captions "imma pray for y/n in there" and "miss girl get that dick".
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Vinnie's left hand gently caresses your cheek as he lays at your side. He kisses your neck and your face over and over again. "Beautiful." you hear him whisper to himself. "soft, and so..." his breath fills with heat as he trails off.
Your ears are ringing and you're squirming underneath him and you whisper his name roughly. You make a sound between a whine and a moan and he pushes into your thigh suddenly.
"I'm hard." he says, like he's begging for your permission.
You don't need him to tell you because you can certainly feel him practically throbbing against your leg, like he's begging to be buried somewhere soft and warm. "We don't have time. The girls could be back at any minute." you mumble.
"Can be quick," he mumbles right back with another gentle roll of his hips. "Can be really quick." he clears his throat.
"Don't brag." you told him and ran your hands through his hair and he takes that as an invitation to come closer.
"Please," his face drops into your neck and his breath hitches in his throat. "It hurts." He pulls you even closer to him. "Does it hurt for you?"
Your thighs press together, because yes, it does. You want the tension to be released. To have him spread you in a quiet fuck that'll leave you walking from side to side for the next day.
Maybe it's because you didn't answer that makes him stop. He'd never actually push you unless he wasn't sure he was pushing at all. So...if he has to jerk off in the bathroom, he'll do that. Because he doesn't think his erection will go down peacefully. Vinnie kisses you once again and his muscles flex because he's about to get up but you grip a hand onto his arm.
"No, wait..." you told him. Pushing off the covers, you grab a sock from your drawer and put it on the door handle before coming back to the bed.
"You sure?" he asks gruffly, checking to make sure he hasn't manipulated you in any way.
You answer him by taking his hand and guiding it to your underwear. His lips part for a moment when he realizes how easy his fingers slide in. You are stiff for a second before melting in the mattress. But Vinnie doesn't wanna waste time. He pulls them down with the help of you shifting your hips. You feel him adjust so he can settle in between your thighs, pushing them apart so he can get comfortable. He hoists over you and your hands reach the back of his neck. His hair tickles your forehead.
His eyes look sleepy but at the same time, full of lust. Lips look pinker than usual. Hair wilder than usual. The fly-a-ways look like a halo but Vinnie is not an angel right now.
He inhales sharply and mutters a sharp "fuck" before reaching down and guiding himself to your entrance and sliding in swiftly.
You gasp from the sudden stretching sensation and move your arms to his back. Vinnie lets you adjust before withdrawing and rolling back, kissing your forehead. He starts slow but that doesn't last long because it's not what you two want and definitely don't have time for it.
Vinnie shushes you gently when you moan with each stroke into you. He pulls back just to the ridge of the head nearly every time, and each time, it feels longer and deeper with more intensity that you bargained for.
He ducked his head a little to watch himself go in and out of you, hard and shining. "Oh my god." he groans.
"Vin," you whisper urgently.
Your orgasm is starting to curl in your belly with every bump and slide of his cock. Your thighs hitch higher around him and he groans softly in encouragement.
"Faster," you whisper. "Faster please,"
You're so close and you need him to be relentless, like you know he can be.
Vinnie rocks quicker, his mouth on your neck and nicking at your skin with each harsh pant that's sure to leave a mark. You've always liked it faster, rougher, and deeper. Vinnie doesn't even apologize if he hits too hard because nine times out of ten, you'll scratch his back in reward.
Suddenly, both your eyes become wide. You couldn't have possibly heard footsteps and giggles right outside the door.
He comes to a stop on top of you and you both intently listen. Then there's nothing but it couldn't have been your imagination.
Vinnie is still buried inside you. His whole face tenses and swallows hard. You on the other hand are seeing stars because he's stopped and the thickest part of himself. You're so full and want the pressure of him moving in and out.
He bites his lips, puts his hand over your mouth, and grinds into you until he's sure that there's no one on the other side of that door. And if you're correct about what you heard, then you know you're gonna get an earful about it.
He's now pressing deeper and faster and the slick base of his cock is gliding up and down your clit. Your back arches as you're cumming, hard. You're grateful that he covered your mouth but it only muffles you.
Vinnie is not far behind and it's about forty more seconds of ramming inside you before he cums with it hot and thick. You thought he was controlled until he pulls out and collapses beside you, uttering swears. He's breathing heavily and when you look over at him, there's a few stray hairs stuck to his face and his eyes are shut in disbelief.
"Th-that got very dirty, v-very fast." you say.
Your thighs are still trembling, you're exhausted and your body aches in pleasure.
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thoughtsby · 2 years
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You Belie
The respect you chase
When You Be Lie
U-Me vs
with a quickness lose face
Mocking our Us
No surprise no more grace
We both had a pass
And for you i lit up the town
While you lied on the daily
About fuckin these clowns
Goddamn. That's her dad
There go Marcus' face
beLie five more times
All the trust
zero trace
Her choices all seem
Not stacked with tens, but fives
She doesn't quite feel
That we're both still alive
Fuckin stall?
Zero game
Minor league
Zero shame
In and out like a boy
7 minutes he came
Whatchou gonna do with the next 53?
Good question
Like clockwork, she starts looking for me
Bout to call me daddy
But i get a b p
Not the oil, not the dad
Poems talking bout me
But just as I feared
She's shifts all of the blame
into three higher gears
Buying time I suppose
Till her fiction appears
Dodging again
The ironic-est twist
Of detail left out
Adding bitch to my list
For each one of my calls
The others have six
They're omissions not lies
She doesn't think much
Again she dons the guise, disrespecting
The man that I am
She won't even try
Tho my back is up straight
And my head is held high
Realizing too late
That she drowned me with lies
So many days
i put your needs before mine
Your complacency framing
My low self esteem
Once secure in its place
I forgot I was dope
Till all of your friends
Reached out to help cope
And as good as that feels,
You'll need to arm yourself
Rip off your pants,
imma fuck your sister,
your mom
And even your aunts.
So get your ducks in a row,
And name the lead Plot
Jump them over the holes
Omissions and Nots
The thing I need most
Is to back me up G
Forget about He
Cuz it's all about me,
No way you don't see
The lie to yourself
Pussy on notice
And false perceived wealth,
That i never meant much
A year or three late
it was really just you
Spreading lies and the hate
Set flame to our pattern
Did I rank below Lou?
Or noch, Mike, and Josh?
It was more than a few
Fake stay in your lane
Inflict maximum pain
Scurry home to the desert
Prognosis the same
So fuckin lame
Wasting time
playing games
You throw us away
Every day that you say
Secrets no more
Now you're basically gay?
Except that's a lie,
Finger banged by some guy
Or bareback five strangers
Let concern for me fly
My safety, my health, my kids,
You don't try
But I see you now
I see through your guise
And I'm wanting to grow
Tho call me your man
While he's sharing your sheets
In the fire from pan
Come crying to me
From a 9 to a 2
Motherfucker he can't conjugate
No one's sorry for you
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If i follow again,
You're the last of your kind
Fit Benny on doubt
Cuz I'm outta my mind
And partially blind
The advantage got taken
Am I a sucker?
Or kind?
Just spread super thin
So confused
Where you been?
You'll live in my house
Buy some clothes,
Buy some shoes
Buy a phone
With fuck yous
All neatly included for free
At no cost
If you ignore the few months
I was totally lost
I'm a man not a mouse
I brought you here, sure,
But your logic is flawed
Nobody keeps a ride score
But If they did and saw you
They'd say you were trash,
And I'd correct them
For you.
But they're right, in fact
When you act like you do
So no crutch for me
I wrote this poem for you
Like warm sidewalk gum that'll stick to your shoe
Turn your black
Into blue
Till you find someone new
And by lunch there's no doubt
You'll have at least two,
Command no respect
Till my unseen support
Sends a pattern in short
While your 4 outta 10 starts to court
I'm sick to my stomach
Once again you're a ghost
Walking with trash
Strange gets all your most
You'll tell a few lies
Maybe work in a toast
At my expense sure
You'll have your own roast
So...
Fresh after your mention
Of your elsewhere-dick-session
I'm a glutton you'll find
For stories that kill
This one is the Besst
But I've had just my fill
I won't even know
Seed dried on your chest
You'll kiss me so hard
And say I'm the best
You'll grab a fresh shard
And in caves my chest
But when i find out,
And I always do, Boo
Cuz all of your friends
Like me better than you
Well... shit,
I just might
Turn the tide
In one night
Hit em all
With one ball
Say goodbye
And don't call
Have you wondering out loud
How YOU had the gall
Your loyalty
Matched
stature
Impossibly small
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awilddreamermain · 3 years
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If you haven't already, ship your moots?
JCUXUHDJSIS FINALLY—
There's a shit ton of people I wanted to tag in this so in order to save y'alls braincells I put a readmore LMAO I love all of you so so so much, some of you I don't really talk to all that often or we just became friends but even so, I adore you and I hope you have a wonderful day! I wanted to do everyone but I didnt fusisis however I might make a part two!!! Some are longer than others snd I'm so sorry fjxjdhjshdius ily ily ily most of these are MHA pairings mostly because I know that's what all of you have in common lmao I forget what other animes y'all like xjsjos forgive meee
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@bakugosbratx — Uh, Bakugou, obviously. He'll put your bratty ass in place but also spoil the fuck outta you.
@bajikou — me In all seriousness, honestly I see you with someone like Yuuji, not because he's like me your girlfriend or anything, but because he's fun and a joy to be around and he could really bring you out your shell y'know? And yes, me and Itadori are very much alike LMAO
@lovinkiri — I'm not giving you Kirishima just because I know he's your main mans but, he's just perfect for you in every way.
@touyas-peach — Again, like that one ask I sent you a while back about who we ship you with, I have to go with Aizawa. Y'all just give me... staying up at 3 in the morning watching movies vibes cuddling on the couch in your jammies and just enjoying the life y'all built together. Like he's so chill and I feel like he could really help up your confidence in yourself.
@peachyquing — home girl, my peaches n cream, the spice to my pumpkin, I gotta give you... Kaminari. He's just so fun! I feel like you two would have a great time together and he's just so willing to follow you and do whatever you wanna do. He'd definitely feed your 'things that smell good' addiction. Spoil you rotten :)
@miriobaby — ummmmmm, Mirio. He's just so sweet and funny and I feel like you really need that in your life :( you need a mans that'll respect you and throw hands with anyone who bad mouths you. Don't worry your pretty head over anything because Mirio's got you covered baby 💅🏻
@cupcake-rogue — Honestly? Imma have to go with Shouto. He's just... He's perfect. I mean, hey can't take a joke to save his life or anything but this man would do ANYTHING for you baby cakes :( you know he means well when he's probably a little too honest about things but you know he's loyal and wouldn't let you go to bed upset over anything.
@milkthistletea — KEIGOOOOO, hear me out, you're Birdie and he's Hawks, it's perfect :( He'd give you all the wonderful and beautiful things you deserve in life and that includes out of body experineces with orgasms and a pretty necklace to go around your pretty neck. Anything you want, it's yours baby.
@cherryackerman — I mean, isn't it obvious Tanjirou is your mans? This dude would never let you step in a puddle or let you walk anywhere alone or near a road and would never ever ever let your mascara run unless it's from feeling absolutely euphoric, baby he's got you 💗 Tanji would do anything for you. Back rubs n pussy eating KING.
@aka-yuki-no-hana — I'm gonna go out of the box for you, I know Rengoku is definitely your type HOWEVER, I just... I really get good vibes with the idea of you and Sanemi. Like yeah he's a dick and hot headed but girl you got the magic touch that brings him to his knees. One word from you and I'm POSITIVE this man will shut his mouth and bring himself back down to earth because he knows his girl can and would whoop his ass.
@cyancherub — Kirishima ALL THE WAY. Beautiful souls attract other beautiful souls and y'all are just *chefs kiss*. He would support you in anything you do and you bet your ass he's your #1 hype man. You wake up every morning with either you coochie getting eaten or kisses and cuddles, all the love for you baby!
@anmetis-moximon — Izuku is your perfect match. Don't ask me how I know because I just KNOW. You're so kind and sweet and we're still getting to know each other but you give me chaotic soft vibes. He needs a girl that's sweet like you and he'd give you the world.
@httptamaki — Oh honey, I gotta give you Finral. FINRAL IS JUST SO SWEET I CAN'T. Once he gets over his flirty habits and commits he is the perfect partner and you know he'd make you the center of his world. You'd make him a braver man, maybe with your help he can learn to put his foot down and tell Yami to get bent when he tells Fin to send him to the shitter.
@tteokdoroki — Inosuke. INOSUKE. THAT'S ALL I CAN THINK OF. Sweetie this boy is w i l d for you. I can see you making him so fucking flustered lmao cute blushy boar mans hehe— but in all actuality, Inosuke is a protector and a provider, and he'd certainly do that for you. He's not much on like, getting you gifts like jewelry, but when you tell him you need something essential he's already out the door to get it. He brings home your favorite foods, things he knows you like that you actually use. Why can I see him getting you smelly good stuff? Like he comes across lotions and spends his time smelling them to find one not only he likes but reminds him of you? And when you use it after a bath? He's gonna eat you up. I hope this made sense lmao I'm just writing what comes to mind haha!
@katsukeen — Scouutttttt— I gotta give you Shoyo!!! Hinata is just a ball of sunshine and happiness and he's just the right person to balance you out. He supports your dreams and your passions and loves every inch of you from your fingers to your toes and just— UGH YES. Please go to his games :( I can totally see him waving at you like a mad man and blowing you kisses and screaming "I LOVE YOU" at the top of his lungs before the match starts. Queue the embarrassing but lovable boyfriend hehehe
@doinmybesthere — >:( hmmmmm imma go with Bakugou. Idk man I just get vibes. We've been moots for a while but I'm still working up the courage to really talk to you y'know but I know thus far you're very caring, kind, and sweet, something his hard headed, hot headed, giant fore headed ass need lmao just put your hands on his chest and tell him to breathe once in a while y'know? Help him make dinner, tell him you love him, let him know he doesn't have to be perfect and that he's perfect just for you.
@deekks — DENKI DENKI DENKI— Hi baby :) we don't talk all that often but I love love love lovveeeeee youuuuu!!!! Denki would be that boyfriend who sends you big ol good morning messages every day before he moves in but if he's there he's definitely under the sheets making the kitty purr as a "wakey wakey" gesture LMAO and call you on breaks while he's on duty and come home to cuddle and fuck your brain out for being so patient and wonderful and everything he ever dreamed of in a life partner. Please entertain his shinannigans, he loves that shit. Pet his hair, play with it, do whatever. He's got you in his phone as "My Beautiful Firefly ⚡💛"
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@burntoutwizard has those big brain thoughts (idk I'm tired)
It's honestly probably a good thing this boi had fast-healing tissues, cause he probably hurts himself all the time just being himself.
He doesn't realize his brothers don't heal as fast as him, they've told him multiple times but he never really processes it. When they tell him that, he always states the time he had that injury and how fast he healed.
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"Why can't you walk yet? It's been like a week." Wrecker asked his brother Hunter. Who was sitting in his bed with a broken femur.
"Wrecker, I told ya, I have to heal, it'll take a lot longer than a week" Hunter explained for the seventh time this week. "It'll take even longer cause there's not much bacta can help with."
Wrecker titled his head as he thought, "But when I broke my femur I was walking by this time" he stated. Hunter let out a sigh.
"Bro, I don't have your magic healing powers, I heal slower" Hunter said as he grabbed his water on the nightstand.
"Can I give you my healing powers?" Wrecker asked, "Then you'll be ready to go" he said, poking Hunter's arm to try to make him heal faster.
Hunter let out a little laugh as he patted Wrecker's head. "No, I'm sorry, bud, your healing powers can’t be shared. But you know what you can do that'll help me?" Hunter asked, causing Wrecker's face to light up.
"No, what can I do!?" He exclaimed in excitement. He was really eager for Hunter to get better.
"You can go get me more water." Hunter held out his cup, "The more water I drink the better I'll feel, and if I'm feeling good, I'll heal faster" Hunter smiled.
Wrecker grabbed the cup out of Hunter's hand and took of running. "You got it lil' bro! Imma get you so much water you'll be better by tomorrow!" He screamed. Hunter chuckled as he rolled his eyes.
"Oh, Wrecker"
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Ali & Carly
Ali: . . . – – – . . . Carly: ? Carly: nodded on your phone Ali: OG 🍑📞 Ali: nah save me Carly: it's pretty lemme just grab a 💄 really quick Carly: what's up baby? Ali: you are and I need distracting Ali: got band practice and I really have to Ali: missed the last two so she's dead moody Carly: go solo ill play a tambourine for you Carly: until you get famous anyway Ali: we'll get you those noise cancelling headphones they give to rockstars kids Ali: then you just gotta close your eyes n shine Carly: aw Carly: you're a 🍑 Carly: but before then I know how to sweeten up rockstars Carly: lots of jd is 🔑 yea so ill swipe ronans & its a party Ali: know that'll go down a treat Ali: almost as good as the ego stroke of calling them rockstars Carly: y you asked me its a not so hidden talent of mine Carly: strokes where needed Ali: 🎨 Ali: alright monet Ali: I'll try not to make it completely boring Carly: i have to take 5 to finish up here or he'll be dead moody Carly: so he's all you have to be more fun than Carly: & whats more boring than a horny lad when ur not feeling it Ali: easy Ali: I remember being that bored Ali: less memory more reliving but shh Ali: all fun and games yeah ✌ Carly: yea Carly: he gets it over quick tho some go & go without getting u anywhere Carly: ha Carly: ive got a home to go to sometimes boy Ali: he's very considerate like that Carly: i wont share it w him too big of a word for rn Carly: wheres this practice @ Ali: 'course not Ali: all he needs to hear is biggest and best Ali: memory serves Ali: in one of the other's garage Ali: so punk rock Ali: I'll come meet you Carly: long as he can call me a slut & I make the right noises it dont matter what I say Carly: thats every lad on here Carly: k well he's done so direct me Carly: u dont wanna meet me outside here Ali: if that's your jam, go off Ali: you mean you don't trust me not to 👊 your mans 😏 Ali: I started walking, call me a pessimist, Ronan 🤷 Carly: yea u kno for a good time call any of these caravans Carly: the old lady w the gnomes is a dark horse like Carly: i don't want u to see me looking this way ty ronan 💘 Carly: so rough about everything Carly: him & u ha Ali: she's living my dream, I remember her Ali: the pink trailer, like Ali: shoulda been going to see her if not you Ali: 🤡 Ali: you alright? Ali: you need a sec or Ali: idk, anything else Carly: her cats are living my dream Carly: lying in the sun all day, getting fat Carly: being loved whenever they ask Carly: i need a drink but im taking all of his its k Ali: duh Ali: only had it slightly better in ancient Egypt, like Ali: forever goals Ali: we'll drink it on the way Ali: need to see where to put their fingers Ali: not code for gay shit but like Ali: also Carly: theres lots they can have some as promised Carly: he owed me for all the 💊 Ali: you're sweet Carly: we can get your gf ☕ to dump it in thats the adult thing to do Carly: trying to make her happy not more mad Ali: she's 17 Ali: she just fronts a good game Ali: suppose one of us should Ali: #badgirlfriend Carly: ur the best wife tho Carly: ive missed u Ali: 😚 Ali: comments like that are why I've deffo missed you more Carly: aw Carly: comments like urs r why ill make today really fun for u Ali: 💚 Ali: we can make anything a party yeah Carly: yea Carly: but u gotta help me carry these drinks to cos i think my wrist was broken from all the coaxing that boy needs when hes been on it Ali: ugh, the struggle is so real Ali: though if you use that as an ice breaker they're all gonna look at you blankly Ali: fucking lesbian priviledge amirite Carly: i bet at least one of them's hurt their wrist trying to get a girl off Carly: half who go to our school r so uptight you need to check for sticks Carly: catholic guilt be like Ali: 😂 real Ali: but you gotta be on my side Ali: already outnumbered Ali: team bi for the day okay Carly: so i can talk about masturbating with my grandma's jesus cross or i cant Ali: you can Ali: that's a story whoevers company Ali: 'cept grandma, obvs Carly: punk rock enough? Carly: if theyre all as scary as ur lesbian im shotgunning more beers Carly: bag of recycling before we even get to the garage Ali: when she cares about the 🌍 Ali: 😍 Ali: they ain't, if we're being real Carly: dont want the earth to die Carly: its so pretty Carly: & fun Carly: k i wont have every can Carly: before we get there Ali: 👼🌟🌈🍓🐰👸 Ali: you Ali: and I'm literally just 'round the corner hold on Ali: not dragging my feet 'cos of you babe Carly: ur too sweet Carly: are you the singer & the guitarist or do they make you just do one cos youre too big of a 🌟 Ali: got it in one babe, I'm relegated to guitar #2 most the time Ali: at least you can own the stage more when you ain't so Carly: ill tell them you need to be 1st guitar & lead singer you're too talented for it to go to waste Carly: its sad Carly: but its cute that youre in a band together Ali: you wanna be backup baby? Carly: yea but i cant 😢😢 Ali: you can when it's just us though Ali: you're too pure for rock n roll anyway Ali: their brand of Carly: how you said that makes me think i need to drink more Ali: it's a good thing about you Ali: just saying though, my voice will be fucked by the end of this Carly: ill get you some 🍯 baby Carly: you can be 👼 again in no time Carly: church ready Ali: only if you coming with Ali: 😈 Carly: only if we do some more sinning first Carly: make it worth the walk Ali: naturally Ali: how we do Carly: k Carly: are all the band dating each other or just you two Ali: 😏 more and more apparent how straight you ain't tbh Ali: currently off again, I think Ali: they've all dated each other though, every which way you can combo it Carly: i have met a lesbian before ur rescued me @ that party Carly: been hit on by lots Carly: i kno they like to date in circles & all kinds of other shapes Ali: I bet Carly: aw don't be jealous Carly: i didnt like it Carly: ur my fave Ali: I'm not Ali: am glad I ain't giving off those predatory vibes though Ali: good to know, like Carly: you give off the best vibes Ali: 👼 energy, baby Carly: 🌟💙 Ali: let's hit 'em with it Carly: yea Ali: after she can drive us to a decent shindig 🤞 Carly: me & a car full of gays Carly: ronan will be in a mood ha Ali: always a bonus Ali: also always in a mood Ali: they really would get on if she could get over the whole man hate vibe Carly: ill bring him to the next rehearsal Carly: he thinks hes got what it takes Ali: 😏 Ali: I'll put my money on Mar Ali: poor boy Carly: steals my 🎸 every time he comes over Carly: i cant be impressed that you can play 2 chords baby boy I'm sorry Ali: 😩💦 Ali: even as relegated #2 I can do more than that Ali: promise Carly: me too & im only groupie #1 Carly: he still tries to teach me tho Carly: so boring Ali: 🙄 Ali: what a dickhead Ali: he just wants to be behind you to 'position' your hands, boys love that shit don't they Ali: I know how to play pool too so get off Carly: we should play my da taught me Carly: make some money & have some fun Ali: I'm down Carly: k Carly: cos i need to buy more 💊s he really did eat them all Carly: 😢😢 Ali: Babe Ali: I know a reliable lad Ali: invite him Ali: make it a party Carly: yea me & him been up since i saw you last how long ago was that? forever it feels Carly: be more fun away from site Ali: damn Ali: how the other half live Ali: I feel like I haven't had any fun since I last saw you Ali: get enough to take the edge of your comedown if nothing else or that'll be rough Carly: i wanted to invite u my baby but u kno how he gets Carly: hates that weve met Carly: ill make you feel good now promise Carly: hes had too much of my time Ali: worried that Imma tell you horror stories like you don't know him? Ali: backatcha 💚 Ali: swear Carly: yea he thinks my head's empty Carly: just a body like Carly: not that weve done school for years together or anything Carly: i kno i dont always go but boy come on Ali: you're miles ahead of him Ali: he only acts like he reckons that 'cos he don't want you coming to your senses and binning him off proper, like Carly: ur lil bro writes & reads better Carly: but hes a smart lil cutie Carly: what am i gonna do move the caravan in the middle of the night? no wheels is there Carly: stuck as fwb til he gets married his wife finds out & comes for me Ali: yeah he likes you too Ali: always chatting on when you coming 'round again so you know Ali: better hang some more, for his sake Ali: I know you got locks Carly: aw i love him Carly: always wanted a lil bro but my rents dont fuck no more so that ain't happening Carly: unless my dad knocks up someone younger Carly: u kno id lock myself out & end up round there Carly: ha Ali: lil blue pills don't fail us now Ali: ick Ali: should go to casa flamenco Ali: don't think she'd steal your stash Ali: oldies always have their own, the real good shit too Carly: that what ur calling it Carly: ill steal hers Ali: exactly Ali: 😍 #babe Ali: ronan who Carly: i do go older but not sure i could handle peeling back the wrinkles Ali: weak 😉 Carly: you seduce her for me, thats love Carly: & you wanna be under her anyway Ali: 'scuse you Ali: I'm happily married Carly: me too Carly: pimping me out to the older generation wasnt in the vows were it Ali: could've been Ali: you know how creative I am Carly: yea i do love that about you Ali: I 👀 you Ali: [runs up and takes some of the shit] Carly: [unnecessarily long hug moment because always] Ali: ['it does feel like forever'] Carly: [just rambling on about how much she's missed her & like all the compliments for how she looks/what she's wearing etc cos again always] Ali: [lbr she'd go all out for rehersals even so it would be a look, Ali lowkey fixing Carly up whilst checking 'cos was concerned but not gonna make it a Thing tm] Carly: [save her Ali she looks like shit rn & your gf don't need to be seeing her like that] Ali: [finishing by kissing her nose 'cos that is a thing] Carly: [😳 but really happy obvs & another hug cos they really have missed each other so] Ali: [walking and talking baby] Carly: [& letting Ali catch up with all the drinks Carly's had] Ali: [giving her the lowdown on the other bitches who are clearly not as scary as kstew] Carly: [you'd think she's not listening because 1. state of her & 2. how distracting Ali is in her lewk but she is] Ali: [is like soz it's boring but I'll make it fun] Carly: [she's like its not you're just pretty & also I'm saving you & making it fun] Ali: ['not about to beg but please do'] Carly: ['knew I should've locked that down in the vows' cos being flirty with it] Ali: ['too late now babe, 'less you make me wanna renew'] Carly: [is just like yeah okay will do, soz kstew but we know its true so] Ali: [turning up to your function, imagine kstews face oop] Carly: [Carly handing the booze out cos she's a babe while kstew talks shit on her by pulling Ali aside like we said] Carly: u want me to go? Ali: [Ali tryna explain but also being kinda over this mood like why can't she be here, u lowkey know why but you know] Ali: no Ali: don't Ali: I'll sort it Carly: k Carly: [Carly just drinking a little bit too hard cos the vibe is wrong & her anxiety don't need this thank you ladies] Ali: [just walking away and being like okay come on let's start 'cos can't argue if you're playing] Carly: [pissing about on some spare instruments while they're setting up cos awks] Ali: I've text the lad Ali: reckons 10 minutes 👍 Carly: 💙🌟 Carly: ty Ali: [ooh crimson and clover 'cos joan did it and it'd be a sexy moment so blatantly directed at carly] Carly: [Carly literally 😍 harder than her gf is, oops] Carly: [& so many compliments as soon as the song is over before kstew can get a word in, god bless] Ali: [gently/not being a patronizing dick with it showing her dance moves and stuff like getting her involved without being like you have to perform now lol] Carly: [k stew fuming like now the WARM UP is done we should play OUR songs we all know the type like excuse you everyone is having fun especially my sweet baby angel] Ali: [being like oh but I just learnt this song it's got a good bass bit we should do that, overruled lol] Carly: [has to go with it cos no argument she can make that won't sound petty as hell and not trying to look like that bitch in front of the squad] Ali: [doing electric feel for the gay sexiness] Carly: [Carly even more into it cos a song she knows cos lets say she don't know the glory of our cat song just because so its such a moment okay bye] Carly: [Marlene calling a 🚬 break immediately after cos fuming & that can also be when Drew comes] Ali: [as if you weren't fuming enough there's how a man here 😍 at your woman, also giving them droogs] Carly: [meanwhile Carly ain't noticed cos sharing a 🚬 with the prettiest & least intimidating lesbian perched on her lap like so cosy....way to kill Ali babe we know she's special but let her know please] Carly: [hops off to get her drugs but still a moment] Ali: [these other girls just stirring the pot rn lmao] Carly: [that girl being like you should come out with us & Carly's like yeah cos she's pure] Ali: you know this one's flirting with you too, yeah? Ali: 😏 Carly: ha Carly: shes nice Ali: yeah Ali: pretty cute Carly: u kno the dealer wants to fuck you tho yea Carly: hes pretty Ali: obvs Ali: his hairs a bit naff but yeah Carly: ur gf is gonna drag him out by it Carly: let me slip him my number first ty Ali: lol 🙄 Ali: better you have his, no Ali: 💊 Ali: idk why she's the fun police today Carly: k good idea Carly: [goes to get his deets] Carly: she's so mad Carly: u gotta love me more when shes not around Ali: i ain't done nothing Carly: shes jealous of me like i am of her Carly: two girls one 💙 Carly: [lowkey flirting with Drew before he gets thrown out] Ali: hmm Ali: maybe you can duel Ali: [helping herself 'cos they clearly got enough to go around 'cos Drew's easy lol] Carly: 😢😢 Carly: you want me to be killed Ali: don't be silly Ali: not very gentlemanly of her, she'd never Ali: for someone so punk she loves following rules you know Carly: y u like her or y ur bored? Ali: [casually loling at her phone like what you think] Carly: [a moment of eye contact soz kstew] Carly: y dont i kno this lad? Ali: idk Ali: he wasn't always that cocky Ali: maybe his pubes came in Carly: ha Carly: ill find out Carly: gotta b known as the school slag not the girl who pissed herself on the stage Ali: more catchy Ali: I get it Carly: u only remember our wedding day i kno but it tends to stick in everyone else's memories Carly: a day of bad vibes Ali: I remember you but not like that Carly: hope its not worse Carly: how you do Carly: [casually taking too many 💊 to deal with the bender she's been on with the gypsies, you know Drew will remember her like this] Ali: nah Ali: you were cute Ali: and nice when all these random english kids showed up Carly: cos you were cuter Carly: im always nice to the pretty ones Ali: 💘 Ali: s'a good line walsh, you get it off him n all Carly: 💔😢 Carly: i love you i dont need him feeding me those kind of lines Carly: we gotta crush some of these tho its gonna take forever to kick in Ali: only joking baby don't be sad Ali: [comes over and helps 'cos why not kstew already furious her band practice has descended into anarchy] Carly: [using a shoe she's wearing for once to crush pills casually but stops to put her head on Ali's shoulder cos is sad lowkey] Ali: [gives her top of the head kisses] Carly: [is smiling again & telling her how much she missed her again and all that good gay content while Marlene fumes in the distance] Ali: [whispers like sorry for the bad vibes and I am gonna fix this 'cos she knows it's been fucked but realistically don't know what she's doing about it yet 'cos where do we stand] Carly: [kisses her on the forehead cos that big brain always thinking & worrying & she know] Carly: u wanna 👃 or 👅? Ali: 👃 Carly: yea dont want a numb mouth Carly: no fun Ali: probably would help my throat but kinda 'bout that smokes and drinks a 40 a day vibe so Ali: soz to my nasal cavity in advance Carly: the 🍯 is coming as promised Carly: [puts enough powder in her hand for Ali to snort, how intimate excuse them like she could have used her own hand or any surface Carly but go off] Ali: you're sweet enough darling Ali: [soz kstew just gals being pals 'cos obvs returning the favour and 'holding her hair out the way' aka stroking it] Carly: [when you more about that intimacy than the drug you're trying to take] Carly: aw Ali: [moment being ruined by some kind of unignorable strop moment from marlene clearly so she has to go and have an argument brb] Carly: should i go now? Ali: wait for me Ali: please? Ali: outside if you like or whatever, I'm being selfish but Ali: I ain't staying either Carly: k Carly: [is outside quietly singing a little mash up of both gay covers while she waits, just little bits of lyrics she likes from each lol] Ali: [not tryna drag this out and clearly we can't let it get to let's break up point so] Carly: lets go have some real fun Ali: [when she comes out, resting her arms on her shoulders and spinning her 'round and 'round like let's go] Carly: [is loving life again bye bitches] Ali: ['we can do anything we wanna' means now but also like always] Carly: [is buzzing because her life is literally so stagnant already like what a welcome premise & hugs her cos that's what she wants to do, always gotta be touching] Ali: [and hand holding] Carly: [complimenting her AGAIN as they going along cos she's a really good singer tbf so] Ali: [chatting away 'bout the kinda music she wanna do and what the band is about and starting her own etc but also about how pretty Carly's voice is and how it's too precious for the stage anyway] Carly: [okay but after they've nerded out over music Carly be like 'wait for me' runs into a shop really quick & buys Ali some honey for real cos she that nerd & presents it to her really happily wrapped in her headscarf or something cos again nerd] Ali: [you know how buzzing and touched she'd be 'cos also that nerd, being like you're such an angel and imma get you something so special etc] Carly: [Carly like you gotta eat it tho & opens it right there like she gonna drip it into Ali's mouth if she don't how gaaaaaay, steals some with her finger too obvs cos cute but also accidentally sexy all the time] Ali: [winnie screeching in the distance] Carly: [gets a phone call from her mum & answers in this state cos no fucks given on either side & then turns to Ali like my turn to take you to a family bbq cos I think the contrast would be hilarious so we should but not now cos give them some alone time @ god] Ali: [is down 'cos she's not a snob unlike someone we know rosalin and she'd be lowkey about it 'cos any excuse to spend time] Carly: [ronan will 100% be there cos hilarious like you gotta fight him Ali tbh] Carly: [just rambling about how much she loves Ali rn though cos always] Carly: 💙🌟🐝👼🚀 Ali: [backatcha and dropping the charity shop plan] Carly: [is so down obvs like little kid levels of excited] Ali: [running thru the streets of dublin like babes] Carly: [god fucking bless] Ali: [charity shop crawl so wild like leave 'em be world] Carly: [like how pure that they think of cat lady Ro & kstew would never bitch] Ali: [probably making friends with all the nice old ladies in there/horrifying the old bitches tho too lol] Carly: [this is why Carly makes my heart hurt cos she'd wanna be friends but would probably horrify lol] Ali: [tbf they are high] Carly: [as per again let them live peeps its summer] Ali: [should steal something but like something really tiny and silly 'cos sinning and stealing from a charity shop is pretty bad in a cute way somehow lol] Carly: [but leaving shoes behind or something cos barefoot life so the universe is balanced] Ali: [and ali would buy stuff for 'em both but making sure carly knows this ain't THE gift 'cos wants to swag that lol] Carly: [okay but can they also come back to buy homewares for the caravan when she gets her own thanks bye] Ali: [absolutely, just window shopping rn how you do like 'when I have my own place' but saying we 'cos #married] Carly: [Ali can actually get one of the actual things when cos its still there, oh my heart]
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Dayum i just wrote tommy a fucking book of a text message is heavy shit though im gonna stop the ice, it needs to go fast and fast away from me. And then it comes to w. He isint telling me something and i sense that it's from a place of jealousy. I get it i didnt want a relationship now i have two prospects without trying to hard and his keep failing. Go for that guy want and the rest will fall in is my usual strat but i need to put in some real work and grow myself. I feel like our friendship has run is course with this. The honesty that i always thought was there is now in question and that was the basis of our friendship. And really we have both wanted to fuck eachother the whole time but know it'll probably end the friendship we have so i think now is the right time. I might text him in an hour or so and have one last smoke with him. I've been reading that titrating down is the best most effective way of stopping this shit but that they first say professional help is key to actually overcoming it. Im gonna try it on my own and see how it goes bc and other option means my family will find out and that's not an option for me. I can control this im in a good place right now and I've been in much worse states too and survived. I can do it. A little bowl twice a day then down to one a day then just a puff or 2 and u can be completely off of it. Im p mad that warren introduced me to this in the first place. I woukd have never had any other knowledge on how to get it or that you can function in it. Imma text him and see if he can come over in an hour to chat and see if there's a bottom we can get to. Hopefully mine. It would hurt him to get to fuck me once then watch me walk away or put some serious distance between us. I need to be able to focus on myself and not him and everyone else's problems. He bitches how everyone anyways needs him but that's the expectation he set up for himself idk what he expected. Really what i want is for t to come over but u know that's not happening tonight or probably tomorrow or the next day either. I'll miss him i really do think it's him i enjoy but just having the company and sex as ive said the sex is so his bc i like him too. I want to get to know him so much better and all at once but also let it take its time so i get to savor it and remember it all. He's worth it. So fuck w figuratively and literally. He doesn't need to have this awful energy around t because of something he's not telling me and is not based on facts. I want to die m show him what all of the hurt the shit he into introduced me to has done. One night of God cute both of us sex will do just that. So if his imagination will be put to shame in his at what i do and i know it just ask e or t or c or n i have good amount that'll back me up on it. He's not responding is been a couple minutes is he asleep or with someone else or ignoring me. I doubt the last one he doesn't go that low Ishtar m usually that's just me on the buttom level. I dont care right now i want answers. I dont care about the night being shit u care about why after we talked about it why he thinks he had the right to tell me how to make a drug deal and how to live my life and with whom. Yeah i have a pattern of bad choices but they're mine ib have the right to test it out and make a path for myself. Wish me much guys imma miss my drug that shit is good but does a lot of harm i wasnt truly seeing. It's time for some change and recovery. Bye yall
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