#in part bcuz i was sick and in part bcuz i would rather put a bullet in my brain than do anything productive

[br1ghtestlight]

why am i always so DEPRESSED. my life is just so fucking boring and meaningless and if i have to do anything why is it going to a school i dont even want to go to and meeting w/ social workers. im fucking tired of this. There's nothing in the world that matters why am i wasting my life doing this shit when its empty and hopeless. AT LEAST I COULD ACTUALLY ENJOY MYSELF

[sanyu-thewitch05]

I got this Yandere imagine that's based on The Heathers from the Heathers musical:

Honestly never told anyone about this before but this fandom does need more appreciation

So we got Darling who's meek and shy,but she's smart and overall a good student, though she can't say she hates the jocks,she would rather not associate with them. Until the main Jocks trio in the school took notice of her,specifically their leader,Hunter

Let's say Hunter is a dominant man,he just suddenly show up more in front of her after she helped him with a school project

Sure he thinks nerds are boring but Darling is an exception,like she's a introverted,unsociable girl but she takes no shit from others

Hunter thinks Darling is very cute and she needed a makeover~

After the makeover, Darling did like her new look,it got some guys to catcall her which is annoying but it wasn't that bad. She still didn't like the jocks much,she only hanged out with Hunter afterwards bcuz of the favour

However,Hunter started to get more touchy, putting his arm on her shoulder or her waist,she even heard the rumors of her being his girlfriend. She decided to avoid Hunter so as not to take it any further

Hunter didn't like it at all, why is she walking to another guy and talk to him when she should've gotten to him like the good girl she is?!!! She shouldn't talk to some stupid unimportant guys!!!

Hunter is rich and famous,his family owns a big company and he's the future CEO. As his future wife,she should get close to him instead of other guys

He couldn't bare the obvious intentional ignorance towards him so one day he just dragged her into a classroom and snapped at her

He said how she belongs to him and she shouldn't even think of leaving him,she won't escape even when they graduate and go to college, because he will attend as the same college as hers. Things got sexually heated there, I'll leave that part to you

Let's just say afterwards,Darling has to be the obedient girlfriend to Hunter. He even force her to sit on his laps right in the school cafeteria to show up his good little honey and no guys should lay hands on her cuz she's his

Sorry, this took so long to answer. I’m out of school for Labor Day weekend.

All characters in my works are 18+

TW: Noncon, stalking, dubcon, catcalling, sexual harassment

Oh God, not again. Here they come.

It was only the third month of school, and everything was going great so far. You were getting A's and even joined the local majorette team. That's when everything went downhill. For some reason, Heath and Henry were at the town's Halloween festival. The best friends of Hunter McClaire. The best football player in school. They were also the best quarterbacks in school. You were on the angel side of the team, and your white uniform glittered in the moonlight. Not only that, but the white boots helped add to your dance routine. You were squatting down, preparing to do a death drop, and then you saw Heath and Henry. Their smiles made you sick. You continued the routine as usual and quickly walked away once finished. You tried to avoid them, but they stopped you as you walked home.

"Hey, Angel! Where are you going?" Heath catcalled, following close behind you.

"Home," You hissed, walking faster.

"Oh, don't be like that. We enjoyed the performance. I wish you showed more of that ass around the school. I honestly didn't think you had any good qualities besides your brain," Henry commented, making you growl.

"Listen, jackass! Leave me alone before I rip your nutsacks out!" You yelled, finally facing them.

"Ok! Ok! Ok! We'll leave you, nerd girl," Heath says, stopping at the sidewalk to watch you walk away.

They focused on your butt and smirked.

"God, I wish I could tap that ass," Henry murmured, hiding his boner. 

It only got worse when you went to school after that. Hunter was there asking for your help on a history project. 

"Look, if this is something Heath and Henry told you, please don't tell anyone. I just want to stay out of the spotlight and graduate," You said, trying to walk away from Hunter.

"Uh, they haven't told me anything like that. Anyway, I came to ask for help on my 20th-century history project. I got assigned the topic of fashion, and Henry and Heath said you might be able to help," Hunter said, sitting next to you.

"Fine, I'll help you," You begrudgingly agreed, tying your hair up.

For two nights, the two of you worked on Hunter's project. When he turned it in, he got an A+ and even brought his grade in history class a couple of points. As a thank you, Hunter gave you a makeover. You thought you looked fine, but you'll accept the spa treatment and new clothes any day. Wearing the jeans that hugged your ass and the lace corset top to school earned you unwanted remarks from other students. But it wasn't that bad. 

You went about your school day and made friends with Hunter. Surprisingly, Hunter and you got along pretty well. You didn't like Hunter's friends. But you didn't hate them either. After a week, Hunter started to get more touchy. His hands roamed your back, his arm always around your shoulder. It even got to the point where rumors were swirling around that you were dating. You couldn't deal with it anymore, so you decided to avoid Hunter for a while, which is how you got into this current predicament.

"Hey," Hunter greets, sitting next to you at lunch. 

You ignore him and continue eating your food. 

"Why are you ignoring me? What did I do?" Hunter says, his arm around your waist. "Is it because you didn't like the panties I set you? They seemed like your style."

You didn't say anything, but Henry puts a hand on your thigh to make you pay attention to Hunter. His thigh moves towards your crotch, and you pack up your stuff. You get up, throw your tray away, and leave for your next class. You did the same routine of avoiding Hunter and his friends for the next two weeks. 

"Charles, are you ready for the next book club?" You ask your tall, freckle-faced, white, black-haired friend. 

"You bet! I'm so glad you joined! Are you sure you can handle it while being on the majorette team?" Charles asks, closing his locker. 

"I'll be fine. Besides, my practice starts at 6 pm. Book club should be over by then," You respond, smiling at Charles.

"Cool! I'll see you later!" Charles exclaims, hugging you.

You reciprocate the hug and wave goodbye to Charles. Unbeknownst to you, a furious Hunter is watching you.

"Damn, dude! You're practically breaking the wall," Henry laughs, looking at his friend.

"Why is she even talking to him?! Sure, she's a nerd, but she's not fucking boring like the rest of them! Not only that, but it's Charles! The dude who can't even throw a dodgeball straight! Why talk to him of all people!" Hunter rants, punching the wall and glaring at you.

"You need to do something, Hunter. Soon enough, she'll be spending all her time with him and none with you," Heath comments, looking at your smile.

"You're right. I'll show her I'm the right choice. She'll have no choice but to see it," Hunter replies, secretly following after you.

You walk by an empty classroom and get pushed inside. You fall to the floor and hear the door lock.

"Don't even try to scream for help. Heath and Henry gave me the keys and are currently erasing the security footage," Hunter says, twirling the keys around his index fingers.

"Hunter, what the hell?" You yell, rubbing your butt and standing up.

Hunter picks you up and places you on top of a desk. He strokes your cheek and puts a strand of hair behind your ear. Hunter suddenly roughly kisses you and holds your body still. You try to get away, but Hunter is too strong. He grabs your hair and forces you to bend over onto the desk.

"Hunter, what are you doing?" You scream, squirming in his hold.

"You need to understand. You're mine!" Hunter growls, fiercely spanking your ass. "Always mine! You! Belong! To! Me"

"Oh! Ouch! Aw!" You groan between each spanking. 

Hunter suddenly flips you over and lets go of your hair. 

"Strip. Now," Hunter commands, pulling out his dick.

"I-"

"NOW!"

You whimper and slowly strip your clothes. 

"Now then, you'll strip a piece of clothing for every sentence I say. You're lucky I'm taking it easy on you and speaking slowly. Got that?"

You nod your head, but this only irritates Hunter more.

"I need verbal confirmation," Hunter barks, grabbing a ruler and slamming it on the teacher's desk.

"Yes, Hunter!" You squeal, trying not to collapse to the floor.

"Good."

Hunter pulls up a chair and sits in while stroking his cock.

"Now, let's begin. You are my girlfriend, and you belong to me.”

You take off your shirt.

"Don't even think of leaving me because we'll always be together! Even during college when we go to the best Ivy League school! And don't even try to apply to some small liberal arts school because we both know we can do better!"

You quickly take off your bra and shorts.

"I'm rich. I'll inherit my father's company and become CEO. I'll take care of you as my future wife," Hunter finishes, watching you strip your panties, socks, and shoes. "Come closer. I need to teach you how to serve me."

You walk to him, and he pushes you down to his crotch.

"You know what to do," Hunter says, rubbing your head softly.

You put his cock into your mouth, intimately licking the body part. Hunter shivers, and soon, you're both high on pleasure. 

"Oh, yes~ Suck it more! Earn hubby's cum!" Hunter moans, pushing your head up and down on his dick.

You kiss the base of his cock, and he spills his seed all over you. Some of it ends up on your face, and most of it ends up in your mouth. You stand up and try to leave, but Hunter grabs your hand.

"I thought you only wanted me to suck you off?" You question forcibly straddling Hunter.

"If I only wanted a blow job, I would only want your shirt off. I want more," Hunter says, pulling his pants down. "Don't worry, I'll be gentle."

Hunter kisses your cheek and puts a condom on. You hold onto him for support. He sticks his dick into you and moans, throwing his head back.

"Oh, baby!" Hunter moans, making a slow but steady thrust pattern.

Your breath hitches as pleasure flows through your body. Hunter kisses your lips, and you start to melt into each other.

"Faster!" You moan, barely holding onto Hunter.

Hunter immediately follows your plea and starts thrusting faster. You both moan like crazy and eventually, you yell that your climax is coming.

"I'm cumming too!" Hunter yells, rapidly thrusting into you a couple more times. "Hah!"

Hunter cums into you, and you shiver. You relax onto Hunter's chest and let him rub your back.

"So, can I still go to book club?" You ask, looking into Hunter's green eyes.

"Nope. You're staying with me for a while," Hunter replies, smacking your ass in response to your question.

~~~~~~~~

"Yo! Dude, how's the relationship with your darling?" Henry asks, high-fiving Hunter as he sits next to him during lunch. 

"Pretty good. I taught her a lesson, and now we're the perfect couple," Hunter replies, sitting you on his lap. "Charles won't even go near her."

"Hunter, please," You say, feeling his boner.

"Oh, sorry, darling. You're going have to deal with this dick for a long time," Hunter replies, kissing your cheeks. "Keep complaining, and I'll have to make sure you'll know to appreciate it."

You are stuck with him. Forever, and ever, until the day you die.  

[sometimesabsent]

my 2017

I guess this year was pretty... unmemorable, meaning that I made pretty slow progress?? Not many extraordinary things, but maybe it was all in the details. - i learned more about myself through schema therapy! and through other school material! - school started giving us more applicable knowledge& I actually went to practice in a hospital, also practiced with a friend. I realized that I enjoy the therapy process, started realizing what it implies more clearly, the whole thing got demistified at last! Now I believe it's something I could do! Not extraordinarily, and also I need much practice to learn applying techniques better and also being more empathic, patient and accepting... improving my listening skills! But I think I can do it  Not sure, oh so not sure about CBT versus other integrative approaches, though...  the comfort of rationality and detachment, or the risk of spontaneity and emotion? or both! - I learned autogenic training, started doing imaginary exposure exercises, used the chair technique with good results, started using suggestion statements... applying techniques on myself! Made coping cards for my schemas and my eating habits - I kept a diary with all the cool stuff I learned about myself this year, I started an astrological diary with stars-events correlations in my and in others' life, continued the gratitude journal and started a new notebook with good words about myself- appreciating my accomplishments instead of brushing them off. - I learned some predictive& occult astrology and I'm on my way of doing the project for participating to the diploma courses! - I had my first astrology clients! A friend's roommate, a school classmate, and a new friend who works in massage/energy therapy! 2/3 were visibly satisfied and Nutzi (the massage lady) even recommended me to one of her clients! - I did the first module of the Prananadi course (a kind of Reiki) and can now use my hands to energize/heal my body (in another way, haha) and also help others! I got rid of some aches using this technique and helped my mom, too! - I had my first past life regression with Nutzi  it shed some light on my issues with men, and then I found Morco, who simultaneously confirmed and infirmed my ideas about guys - I kept teaching English online, in summer I worked 5-6 hrs/day for a month, got a taste of how real life might look with a job  (except 2-3 more hours added to that, heh) - I travelled to England to see Tatiana, went to concerts and festivals in the summer (Summer Well, Electric Castle, Depeche Mode) with my sis, I went to Bucharest alone (and stayed in relatives' house while they were on vacation, hihi), visited Alexandra there also; I went to Brasov with my sis, and to the salt mine in Turda for treatment. It might not sound like much, but this is quite some movement for me! I partly enjoyed it, partly was sick for much of the travelling time, but it was worth it. - I talked to Isabella (girl from my college who I sensed I would get along with) and we became really good pals! I am not attracted to her, it was just a projection, and she's straight anyway- she's a very cozy friend, she feels like home! - I distanced myself from Adina, Maria, Andreea P., Vlad P., Tatiana after spring, Laura stopped talking to me... Alexandra left to Bucharest and we're still talking often, yet I feel a small distance from her, too. It's like I stopped spending time with people who I don't really have so much in common with, and who I was hanging out to just to avoid loneliness... I became more comfortable with solitude, started going alone to movies. I'm happy about this and in the same time I don't want to fully distance myself from my old friends, bcuz they're nice!! - The solitude thing is something that stands alone (hehe)... it's strange and interesting, to enjoy my own company for a change. - I volunteered for the gay films festival in my city and I translated movies; I didn't go to the meetings... It was anxious avoidance, and in the same time I sensed that it wasn't my crowd there. It was a pretty unsuitable time, with my newfound accentuated solitude. I enjoyed having helped, though - I messaged a girl I found on facebook and who seemed interesting, wanting to find out more about her and maybe meet. She got put off by my curiosity and questions and we haven't talked since- again it may seem like a small thing, but I'm glad I messaged her instead of waiting and obsessing over her from a distance, like I'd done with Isabella - I got diagnosed with polycystic ovary syndrome... I have stomach issues, hormonal issues, bad moods, dizziness and all. I'm under treatment and I'm not sure how much it's helping... - I had attempts to improve my eating habits; I keep falling back to old habits of emotional eating and exaggerating with the sweets, but I did lose a little weight and I won't give up - I established a routine of 30mins of exercise every day, most days. It's not perfect and not always, but it's a habit now!   - I wrote some dada poetry and some regular poetry, both in romanian and in english. I wrote prose for the Aska creative writing group,  but then as the group dismantled, I quit and I found it hard to write again... tried with some stories,  but didn't really succeed. - I read Fingersmith by Sarah Waters and loved it, The Secret History by Donna Tartt,  the self-help book by Jacques Salome (If only I'd listen to myself)- this one helped me tons;  Schema Therapy, my new bible; The Witches by Roald Dahl which made me feel more affection for C. (She loves the book); finished Psychological Types by Jung; read the book on Motivational Interviewing and got floored at how poorly I listen and empathize, and motivated to change;  discovered Spiral theory and Ken Wilber through Morco and got mindblown!   - I tried to revive my passion for drawing mandalas by going to the mandala coloring/drawing group, but that fizzled out!!  Didn't enjoy it enough to keep going - Attachment and jealousy linked to Cristina turned into love... The kind of feeling that I know is love and that seems to have become indestructible. It still has a lot of suffering attached to it (in the summer when I went to Bucharest, I felt like dying of love), but I'm learning to accept that as a part of life. Loving her just seems very important right now and it makes me grateful to be alive. - I enjoyed talking to Andreea and right now I feel a lot of affection for her. - I had continuing issues with assertivity, with Tatiana in England, with dad, with Alexandra, with my therapist. I practiced communication with Alexandra, Isabella and Morco (talking about my feelings and needs) - this happened online and also in real life with Isabella. It didn't bring about the disasters I had anticipated  

- I suppose I also avoided quite some things this year  I'm aware that these were my needs (solitude mostly) and in the same time I'm not entirely happy with this. I quit the job with Otilia, I quit therapy with George... Partly avoidance, partly uncertainty... 2017-2018: in solar return,  ether Sagittarius ascendant, conjunct Saturn... Pluto in 1st house..  Moon-Lilith in the 12th house... In transit, Jupiter return, Saturn in opposition with Moon-Venus and now this opposition in undoing  In SR I have quite some 5th house, I don't really see it manifested  About my list from the start of the year: - It got easier to relax (but far from entirely, it's still a struggle), I slowed down my rhythm of life a litte (especially in the last part of the year) - I managed to integrate relaxation/meditation/exercise in my daily routine, even though still a bit chaotically - I established my list of values more clearly!!  Right now: knowledge, spirituality, security,  mastery, friendship, love, creativity, sincerity.. Knowledge and sincerity: including with myself. Still have trouble with: sincerity, authenticity,  freedom, courage... I'm quite scared to know myself fully and to assume myself to others. - I was a little braver: I came out to my dad (needed to get drunk) and talked to Isabella (through indirectly getting to the point where she asked me to go to the theatre, and then I asked her to hang out) - I learned to enjoy being alone!!!!! And I became less dependent on talking to friends on messenger all the time   - Still kinda dependent on Cristina, I still got super sad and depressed when she didn't talk to me for a while... This abandonment issue I have is still on. - Kept focusing on astrology& completed the 3rd level of the course! - Kept focusing on self-knowledge!! - Worked through my resentment and attachment... Jealousy and judginess of others, I still have to deal with this through self-acceptance first... - Accepted my sex drive as what it is. - Didn't move alone and didn't do the 1-2 day alone trip I was thinking of... The homework Miclea gave us. Still have to do that Overall, it seems that I stuck to my goals decently well  most of them aren't quantifiable, but subjectively, I feel like I took important steps  It wasn't a very easy year, an extraordinary year, a very disciplined year; rather, I became more aware of some issues I have (schemas), I learned more small skills to better manage my emotional issues, I started enjoying being alone and appreciating myself more, I started taking steps to improve my health, I learned psychology and astro, I had fun teaching and going to concerts :) 

[br1ghtestlight]

rewriting western spaghetti and meatballs?? if i ever turn this into an actual script or fanfic it will be more out together these are just ideas

okay first i will say that this episode suffers from two big problems being that it takes place too early into the show's run for it to have the emotional impact it otherwise would've (because we aren't yet invested in louise's relationship with gene or bob) and that it was so early into the writing process that the writers didn't have a full understanding of the characters or their personalities yet. i dont think this episode is bad (its a product of the time it was written in the show's history) but i do believe i could fix it and it could have been a really interesting episode focusing on the relationship between gene and louise

bob and louise watching their tv together and gene walks in and joins them. bob and gene get really into watching westerns together just like in the episode and they bond over it but louise gets jealous and bob is talking to gene abt the movie and explaining stuff bcuz he figures louise already knows what's going on and she doesn't really need him but louise feels like bob is favoring gene and that he'd rather be spending time with him so she gets upset, says she's going to bed and leaves

i don't know what linda and tina's subplot would be but i probably wouldn't make it be an assembly about conflict resolution?? maybe linda just isn't a big part of this episode or she's helping tina with something and they're bonding so that adds to louise feeling left out and neglected. maybe they're putting on a cowboy play at school and tina is rehearsing her lines and it brings the cowboy theme back around

gene is excited about being a cowboy and spending time with his dad BUT HE ISNT TRYING TO START A FIGHT OR STAND UP TO SOME RANDOM KID AT SCHOOL that feels slightly out of character for gene (who is importantly portrayed as a pacifist in the show and almost never gets into conflict or fights with anybody, he typically avoids confrontation and thats why him standing up to some random classmate for?? stealing his jokes??? feels slightly ooc even if he WOULD get annoyed) and i think he works better in this episode if he is genuinely completely oblivious to the fact that louise is upset or jealous. he doesn't get into a fight with louise but he's busy doing something related to the play maybe he's playing a character or doing the music (and so is tina) so louise has to eat lunch alone and she's sad and feels like she's being left behind and that her family isn't including her. she's losing her siblings and her best friends

later that day louise asks gene to hang out with her and play a game together in her bedroom but he's too busy rewatching old western movies with their dad bcuz he wants to be prepared for his role in the upcoming play. bob invites her to join them but louise gets pissy and leaves to ask tina and her mom to hang out but they're ALSO busy rehearsing for the play and even tho they invite louise to help out she gets bored and she misses spending time with her brother so she gets the idea to sabotage the play somehow so that he'll HAVE TO hang out with her again

louise convinces some friends (maybe rudy and millie) to help her sabotage the play tomorrow night and they're like hesitant (aka rudy is hesitant and millie is totally on board) but eventually agree to helping her and she basically just fucks with every aspect of production like the actors and props and costumes. she feels guilty but convinces herself this is for the greater good bcuz otherwise she'll lose her brother forever and he's her best friend

gene's big role in the play comes up and she sabotaged it so that the actor he was performing alongside got sick or locked in a closet or something and she actually feels really bad so she throws on their costume and joins the play. she doesnt know any of the lines so she just improvises (kinda like how bob did in hawk and chick) and gene realizes she fucked everything up and gets kinda upset but she tells him that he's her best friend and they do everything together. they've always had each others backs and she's scared of losing him or that he'll be too busy to hang out with her anymore she doesn't know what she'll do without him

maybe there would be like a clipshow of them growing up together but ALSO bobs burgers doesn't typically do moments like that so it might feel slightly off or won't work thematically?? idk

gene tells louise that he loves spending time with her and they do everything together and just bcuz he does things without her sometimes that doesn't mean he doesn't want to spend time with her etc and he ALWAYS wanted to watch the western movies with her but she seemed kinda pissy about it so he left her alone but they'll always be siblings and hang out together and maybe next time gene is in a school performance louise can act alongside him :)

linda and tina have a b-plot thats related to the play and maybe linda is either living out her own failed middle school performance through tina or otherwise being slightly overbearing and annoying but its not the main focus

if this were an actual piece of writing it would be MUCH MORE focused on the relationship between louise and gene and how they communicate/feel about each other bcuz usually their relationship is just "they hang out together and cause problems and gene goes along with whatever louise does" but there's a lot more stuff going on between them clearly as we see in the large brother where fart thou episode AND in spaghetti western and meatballs