I've been thinking about this scene from BTE 175 (which took place on Kenny's birthday back in 2019)
Kenny Omega tried to give some words of encouragement to a totally disinterested Hangman Adam Page after their first tag team win in aew. I love their dynamic in early aew where Kenny was trying his best to be supportive while Hangman was actively trying to leave the Elite. it really shows that their tag team was doomed from the start.
said it once, saying it again outside of tags: the person you are when you're being abused is not truly reflective of who you are. in an abusive situation, you are in constant survival mode. you are behaving in ways that you think a) are going to please the abuser and b) are going to keep you from being hit, berated, or otherwise punished. you do not get to be who you really are because that is legitimately dangerous. it creates a vulnerability you cannot afford. you need to act with your self-preservation instincts in mind first and foremost, and self-preservation often conflicts with authenticity and honesty. so when you're looking at those texts, judging build for being such a thoughtless, hateful person, try to understand what it's like mentally to have your back to the wall for months or years on end.
(tried to upload a video here but tumblr just wouldn't let me. rip i guess)
ok look i love the event but MAN I WISH THEY GAVE ITTO MORE OF THE STAGE 😭 COME ONNNNN HYV YOU HAVE THE TM REVOLUTION HIMSELF (resonance (yes the infamous soul eater op), invoke, meteor, ignited (dear god i am old)) YOU COULD HAVE DONE SOOOOO MUCH MORE
crippling need to draw this image i have of sabigiyuu pressed back to front, giyuu holding onto the arm thats hand is splayed over his stomach/ribs, easily leaning his head back onto sabito's shoulder, his soft barely-there hold on giyuu's neck with their cheeks gently pressed together