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misscrazyfangirl321 · 2 months

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Okay, so, life update in the tags

#i speak #i know i've vague posted about a guy a lot #and it may be a little soon to make any update/announcements #but hey #anyway there's a guy #we've been friends for awhile. but recently circumstances have changed #before he was Very Off Limits #and now he's not #long story #and shortly after that he started flirting #and. idk. past two weeks have been a whirlwind.#officially we're 'talking'#but. idk he's super sweet and cute and funny and just. i'm really happy. ^-^#trying to keep my head on my shoulders a bit #because again. realistically. it's been two weeks tomorrow since he started flirting.#wasn't even really on his radar before #and again. off limits before.#but.... idk i know 'i've never felt like this' is a cliche but as someone who's only had one relationship #and a couple of almosts #i really never have #and i know feelings aren't everything #again. trying to keep a level head.#but... yeah. ^-^ ✨️

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spacejammie-eimmajecaps · 3 months

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This has not been my week

#got sick #had two heart episodes in one day after going a very long time without having any #hit my head on the edge of an open cabinet hard enough for it to swell up immediately #and today my head has hurt so bad that ive not been able to get out of bed for more than like 1 hour total the entire day #cant tell if im still sick or if i gave myself a concussion #oh and my heart is still all sore/achy from the heart episodes from a couple days ago #and my body hurts #like this week has sucked so bad #this whole month has sucked actually #fucking allergies and fucking migraines from the weather changing so much and fucking not sleeping well

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queerholmcs · 3 months

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found this while looking for another post the other day and BOY how things change dhskdhdkfhf. it's been five years and i know this should be fairly obvious from the current state of my blog but i do want to formally say that my top five episodes are as follows, in order, no competition:

the lying detective

the six thatchers

the final problem

the abominable bride

any one of the remaining episodes, chosen at random by the roll of the dice 🎲♟️

#like. i know i needed time to be able to engage with series four but boy is it funny to see it like this!!!!#anyway this has been in my drafts for a minute but i had a tld rewatch yesterday to recover from a very long couple of weeks and um.#idk what happened. series four did something to me.

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rowenabean · 4 months

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#awful day guys. truly awful.#my buddy doctor is away for the second time in three weeks AND i was away a couple of days in between #so I'm covering all her patients and i haven't caught up from the LAST time she was away #i am also very bemused by her decisions. you know what i am NOT doing anything with that test #you ordered it last time (a test i would never do in a baby) and it came back weird so i called paeds and they said i would never do that #test in a baby #WHICH I WROTE DOWN #i do not know WHY you ordered it again and i am NOT making it my problem this time around #anyway. very long day. then my coworker set the alarm on me. then i finally went out to my car and to cap it off #it had been raining and my door leaked??? the driver seat was all wet!#what an end to a day #i have ordered curry but i had to order from the kinda flaky place bc most places are closed on a Monday #so hoping it doesn't take forever and i can enjoy a curry at the end of a terrible day

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permanentreverie · 13 days

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#will delete later #yall i actually feel like im losing my mind #have really been fighting my depression the last couple days #it’s so fucking stupid cause i don’t even have depression #but i just recently like within this last week #lost the friendship i had with a couple of long term mutuals #who i kinda shared things with.#and now without them i have no one to talk to or support #and like i’m not blaming them it’s for their best #but i’m just considering if i should take up sh again just so i have an outlet #cause my mind fucking sucks #and tbh i can’t imagine myself happy in 5 years.#i know what i want but idk how to get there.#and i’m very fucking alone and hate myself and feel like i need to lock up my personality so no one can see

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mrtheinsatiable · 20 days

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Ah fuck lads, I think I might have long covid

#that post about exertion and long covid got me thinking #i had it twice while working very physical jobs and only had a week off each time #while the recommended period for avoiding exercise at all is 6-8 weeks #symptoms observed in the study were post exertional malaise and severe myopathy after mental or physical tasks #everyone in the study was healthy and socially active prior to infection and none were hospitalized for covid #cardiovascular system was uncompromised which would explain why all my tests come back normal even when I'm in the middle of an episode #idk if it was covid again when i was sick last month bc i didn't get tested just laid around unable to sit up for several days #but my fatigue has been even worse since then #i went back to work for a couple weeks and then ended up so worn out i was in bed for 3 days #it's been 3 weeks since then and i still can't do more than an hour of work before i have to lie down #just working on my laptop at the kitchen table #like damn it seems very fucking possible

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vvelegrin · 2 months

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feeling like a Whole Person tonight despite feeling so tired that i could pass away. that's always nice! i don't care for the alternative (feeling so tired that i could pass away coupled with wanting to pass away).

#maybe because i've been doing stuff with my hands #had a first GIS class tonight... ditched it because i realized it would be nearly 6 hours long. twice a week.#i literally and physically cannot do that lmao dropping and getting that money back #will have to look at some university extension programs again instead #local community college only has like one gis class that they can barely get anybody to do so it's cancelled more often than not #but been doing some carving and been taking care of my plants #set up some ginger and garlic and yarrow cuttings to sprout #need to get some larger pots my poor little juniper needs a bigger home #and then some aloe and cactus cuttings are ready to get their own spots too :)#and some research on how to make some diy orchid fertilizer #was going to do some coding practice tonight but siiiigh my brain simply cannot hack it #i think i'm still recovering from doing things on saturday #just gonna have to live with that #watching some resident evil playthroughs and piddling about the house #it's nice #oooh and found some good sdr videos today so i'm excited to pick up radio stuff again when i'm less completely wasted #also a couple of very fitting job listings to apply for that pay way more than what i'm getting now #heartening!#prattling about the self

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omegasmileyface · 4 months

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im slowly becoming more certain that ive lived an aromantic or aspec experience but im starting to think my experience was VERY much not the norm for those

#i feel like ive rarely had romance pushed onto me. ive been flirted with for usually a day or a couple days which felt so bad but its #over quickly. there was no background pressure for a relationship. i was never grilled or pressured by my family #in school my best friend was a boy which got me some 'oh they must be dating' but (a) nobody gave a shit about me enough to push lol #and (b) you can only consistently have guy friends for so long in a small school before people just get used to it #i feel like dating in high school wasnt really a thing. and i could be wrong but if ir was a thing it was a thing the same as having your #own car and playing varsity sports and doing spirit week etc etc. that was a world so outside mine it genuinely felt like there was no #crossover. we were a gay friend group but we were HIGH SCHOOLERS in the middle of nowhere. we werent gay as in 'dating queerly' we were #gay as in 'queer expectations for future dating' which was a very aspec INCLUSIVE experience #its very likely that the only reason i didnt experience this constant overwhelming pressure to conform that i hear from other aros is just #because im not very observant of emotions. im an autistic outcast who only cared about dating as a concept not a reality yknow? you would #have probably had to say it directly to my face if you wanted me to think you thought i was supposed to be in a relationship #i was just chillin. i dunno. anyway all this is to say i fuckin love valentines day #its a family holiday to me :)

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thiswillcostyourheart · 2 years

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YOU decide what you want.

nobody else has the right to tell you what you should want or do in your personal life, now or in the future.

whatever you choose, it should be because you want it, not out of pressure from others. you choose what you want in your life and what makes you happy.

#fairy ranmaru #uruu seiren #homuruu #asexual #asexuality #my art #sex mention -#emetophobia -#hi im throwing this in the ace tag even though it's not specifically about being ace bc it's written to be aspec-friendly #and bc i made this comic because this is the message i wanted to see many years ago and the ace tag is where i would have looked for it #anyway! long story here! i haven't been able to bring myself to post this here for 6 months bc it was so emotionally painful #when i saw this show i was like oh shit this is going to make me express the things i never wanted to express isn't it!#(through my usual method of imprinting on fictional characters; throwing my heart into the internet void and crying)#this was absolutely emotionally exhausting to make. it took a week and i was working slowly bc i kept getting sad and angry #also for some reason my brain was like 'you should do this at christmas time' so THAT happened #not the first time i did angst at christmas lmao #when i finished this i felt utterly blank and i just wanted to cut myself off from it. disconnect completely. not care at all.#this was followed by crushing loneliness as i was overwhelmed with the need/desire to be heard/validated #(which actually pushed me into accidentally hurting myself lol i had to recover for like a couple of weeks before i could draw again)#validating and empathetic/compassionate comments are VERY welcome!!#as well as any that find this message valuable and/or can relate #however PLEASE no armchair therapy; advice or character analysis type comments. thank you!!#i still can't look at this without feeling sad and angry again over how much pressure there was. i just want that pain to be heard

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thegreatbeyondmp3 · 6 months

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bro it sucks so much to have to go to work when you're sick

#i dont wanna go but literally if i miss another day they could fire me 😬#i don't have covid at least according to the home tests but like. i still have a cold or something #and i can't call out because our time is so restricted #and its not even the worst attendance policy i know of but it still sucks to have to work around #esp coming from my last job where i could take off literally as much time as i needed to basically whenever i needed/wanted to #added on top of the fact that i just don't want to fuckin be there anyway #and that im scared im gonna pick up covid bc my immune system is currently weakened #ugh. i have to get through tomorrow and the next day #and then im off again #and then im on one more day before im back off again #so i will have a rest day again pretty soon at least #after being off the last three days #(the first was my legit day off but it was very busy and few days before that were the roughest of a tough couple of weeks -#the second i took off bc i had to babysit and. being completely honest. i watched all of fellow travelers thr night before. and esp after #how bad a time id been personally having lately. all the suffering and the loneliness and the romance just hit me so hard #tbh i just felt like i deserved a break and i could do some work at home to balance things out -#third day i woke up feeling sick and coughing pretty hard and just feeling generally miserable. which continued for most of the day.#but with less coughing until now bc im laying down)#i just wish i could take an extra day or two to actually kick this 😭#sorry this is so long i can get locquacious when im tired

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thirteens-earring · 6 months

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#not to immediately contradict my last post bc I really did have a good year it’s just been a shitty week but #my great uncle died a few days ago and he had a long and awesome life but obviously its still very sucks #90-i don’t even know what sharp as a whip til the end #he was an engineer but he loved to talk art with me #he was very invested in my whole getting-my-academic-shit-together and half of me wonders #if he waited until my finals were over to get the hell out of here just so I couldn’t use that as an excuse. asshole #anyway his funeral is this weekend and it’s gonna be hard bc we lost someone else on that side of the family way too young and way too fast #just a couple months ago #so :// sucks. but he was awesome and his life was awesome

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cannot-copia · 1 year

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this year so far

#tw death #once again saying things into the void on here bc i dont know where else to say it #went on a trip for a couple days for my moms birthday a couple weeks ago now #they called to tell us my dads dialysis had pretty much stopped working shortly after we were got there #insurance gave us 4 days notice to find somewhere for him to go (2 of which we were 1200 miles from home)#also was told by the place I work at i am not needed until further notice the same day #so I have no source of income until they get the necessary machine fixed and even then I am skeptical they will say to come back #since dialysis stopped working he had to be moved to hospice #which was a week ago now #so he has very little time left #my half brother and his wife came to visit him a couple days ago #now his brother is here from another state #and we took them to eat at the place they’ve always gone when they are here for as long as I can remember #on the way there we were told my grandmother was taken to the hospital in an ambulance #they don’t know what is wrong with her yet but she is 94 so her being not ok either is very plausible #we are only like 3 weeks into the year and I’ve already been soft laid off my grandmother could be dying and my dad is dying #I feel like I have been seconds away from having a complete panic attack for a week #packing up and cleaning out the assisted living (he only ended up being at 3 months) felt so wrong #it was his coffee mug and green cup of all things that got to me most #he always had them #and knowing he would never use them again #I bought his dog a new name tag today #so it has a tag when we give it to them to put in the casket with him #and i almost cried in a fucking petsmart #and now I’m here over sharing on the internet about it bc if I do not keep myself distracted I will just get more nauseous and cry more #delete later

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nomaishuttle · 1 year

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IM A LITTLE WORRIED THO BC LIKE. I DONT HAVE A LOT TO TALK ABT AT ALL..

#i havent rly Done anything whatsoever. im literally the unemployed friend #HOPEFULLY NOT FOR LONG. KNOCK KNOCK (sound of me knocking on wood)#but im worried theyll be like Soooo hows washington ^-^ and ill just be like umm. well. there is a window in my room. Whichh is pretty cool #<- joke i have like. been outside of the house a couple times...#very few actually. but its okay #going to see family will FIX ME. and when i come back ill HOPEFULLY (knock knock) have a job. whichll be great #and then ill be so busy and making money that i wont even have time to be depressed anymore #bc its FULLTIME !!!#8 hour shift 5 days a week 😏 soo yeah. my bones r gonna be sore 😏😏😏#but ill get over it and cope eventually. AND ill get to be somewhere other than The house 💀#i do like our house but i think im being driven insane just being here all the time. sometimes i sit on the porch #and like once every couple of weeks i go out for whatever reason. if i didnt SLEEP IN so much maybe id be able t run errands with hal more #butterlass. no i do rly need t fix it #im hoping going back t ky for a bit will kickstart it bc likee. when i first got here i was actually sleeping like..perfect schedule mode #id go to bed around 10-12 and wake up around 7-9. which is ideal..#BUT #Even if that doesnt. the job (knock knock) will force me t keep schedule #which is great. my last job aaaabsolutely forced me t keep schedule and it was rly rly nice..#no matter how late i stayed up i ALWAYS woke up on time. which is good. and i nevee rly had 2 nap after #im so excited for my workday schedule to come back bc i miss the routine of it #even tho the routine was rly just In the morning and the rest was a free for all..#ill also. this time around. make sure t include my morning meds and brushing my TEEF... bc i need t grt better abt that #im also gonna try n shower more often.. ive been managing abt every 3 days which im rly rly proud of bc its rly hard 4 me #but hopefullyy. with my schedule 😏😏 i could do daily showers...#prolly after work showers even. bc that sounds so nice #its judt hard bc Also after work the last thinng i want 2 do is be standing. bc i get so achy.. esp after an 8 hour shift #hopefully this job will be noce though. IF I GET IT. KNOCK KNOCK #i need t not like. place all my eggs in this basket bc if i dont get it im gonna be fucking crushed #but im rly rly rly hopeful. like reaaaally hopeful...#teehee :]] basically yayyy

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loverboybitch · 1 year

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hi i would just like to report that getting out of my house and being a member of society is cool and kind of rules even when its scary yeah.//.

#uploads #imjustsittinghere #meeting this at work like actually went well it was really chill and cool to see everyone #like yeah i did embarrass myself trying to introduce myself wehn we all went around idk i got like really anxious halfway thru #talking and sortve just mumbled off the end of my intro but it wasnt so bad i think #at least had good chats with like two people ive only sort of met online and they were nice so : )#literally forgot how nice it was jus to be around other people and do work and stuff its cool. we all had to get new laptops #and were just hanging around the IT station waiting and chatting and i felt a littel more whole than i have been #oddly feeling restored instead of drained and feeling better than i have been the last couple weeks #no idea how long it will last but we can treasure the joy for now #ordered some books i wanted and a bunch of new yarn #plus my new hoodie is finally supposed to get here tomorrow so im pumped : )#still missing alot and a little lonely but ya know what else is new #thank u to everyone for not making fun of me for being vulnerable on my ig story i had to get it out #n truly i really just was like this is stuff i post and say on tumblr anyway why not be a lil open about my feels to my close friends #smtimes its good to be a lil vulnerable even if its scary #very much love <3 :*#oh and also jsut on==unrealted #but i hate that i look better with a fresh clean shaven face cause shaving is so annyoing lol #like i really do look way more cute and handsome i just cannot be fucked to shave more than once a week really or even that often #keep thinking like i should get laser hair removal on my face but no that is far too permenant #what if i look handsome with a beard when im older #but for now i need to toggle that shit off like a video game character i swear #anyway <3 very sleepy just finishing work have a big day of recceving packages and sewing with my friend later #kiss kiss xx

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tempestclerics · 1 year

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#sola said #thinking about a conversation w someone lately of like. 'wild how when you call for help sometimes people will answer. / wild how when you #don't call for help no one does'#and like we were laughing about it but #idk something about the fact that. was talking to a friend and she said like. hey it seems like you've been doing okay/better this quarter.#versus me expressing that i feel like i sound like a broken record of 'hey sorry i'm having a bad week/my brain is full of bees this week'#versus me talking to my parents yday and realizing that they also have such an inaccurate picture of how i'm doing #idk just. i feel like the last couple weeks have been an absolute roller coaster of. some of the happiest/most comfortable i've been in a #while but also. some of the worst times i've had just in terms of being in my own head #and kind of also realizing like. how much of this is actually legible to other people? unsettling that like. my friends (who i see and talk #to like every day) think i'm doing a lot better than i feel vs. my family (who i only talk to rarely and not for very long) thinks i'm #having a really bad time #idk it's a mortifying ordeal of being (un)known thing maybe #why do i feel lonely!! i'm talking to pretty much every friend i have more than i ever have!! why is my brain bad!!#delete later

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megarywrites · 2 years

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I’m sad but this will ultimately be for the best: I have to take a short break from writing right now. Hopefully not longer than 4-6 weeks, so my 30 line challenge will be on hiatus until i can get back to it

The short version of my reason for taking a hiatus is that i need to finish my course so i can transition into my new career lol the long version i’ll save for the tags lmao so it’s necessary but definitely a sacrifice because writing my absolute beloved…

#okay so the long version #my landlords are very old amd deteriorating fast so their kids moved them to an assisted living facility #which means they’re selling their house #i live in a MIL suite in their backyard and have for 4 years now #they were gonna try to keep me on as a renter for the new owner #but then the daughter discovered that they have been renting this place out illegally #whatever that means #so #i’ve been trying to find a place to live in town because while i *do* want to move away from this hell hole #i’m not financially ready yet #my aunt (and grandma) live in the mountains on the other side of the state #and they had offered previously for me to move in with them if i needed a transition place to stay #which now I definitely do #the only issue is that my mom and sister said that i should have another job lined up by the time i move so i’m not a burden on my aunt #and i’d agree usually however #the schooling that i’ve been trying for what seems like an eternity to finish would be my gateway to a new career #and i really don’t have a lot left of it #especially if i have a couple weeks where i focus on nothing *but* the course #so i texted my aunt today to see if she’d be okay with me not having a job immediately #and to my absolute and utter relief she was #so now that’s one less thing to stress over but #now i have to 1) put in my two weeks tomorrow #2) resume studying in my limited down time #3) figure out what i want to keep and donate and dump of my stuff #4) pack the stuff i’m keeping and spotlessly clean my place before i leave #which will hopefully be on August 14th #so…..lol #i’ve got a lot i’m dealing with hopefully i can cope with it all 🤪

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