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im-very-sorry · 28 days

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i genuinely love rhetorical devices and shit so much. as like a kid i was always like ugh this is so annoying but now i read a poem and half of it is repetition and i feel it in my fucking CORE

#let the curtains be blue!!#god damnit #i have miles to go before i sleep #rhetorical devices #repetition #i love it okay #its beautiful #repetition is nothing if not the human experience #it is everything ive ever felt #the entire spectrum of human emotion and then some #im going crazy #im gnawing at the iron bars of my enclosure #this life is a cycle SHoW ME ItS GUTS

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razberrypuck · 8 months

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petrigrof is going to make me sad forever now that we've seen how it ends actually. they still love each other so much, they're still the loves of each other's lives -- yes there were issues, yes they could've made better choices, but neither of them regret the time they spent together, even if it hurt sometimes. they don't want to let go, but they both understand now that it's best thing they can do for one another.

the love is still there. it always will be. even if they've stopped chasing after it.

#this is the most emotion ive felt over a fictional couple Ever i think #i keep thinking about their goodbyes and it makes me so fucking emotional.#“you were a wonderful experience.” “you were...everything.”#fucking. jesus christ. i keep thinking about those lines and tearing up good GOD.#fionna and cake spoilers #fionna and cake #simon petrikov #betty grof #petrigrof

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ickyguts · 9 months

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@technicoloranimalviolence SENT ME THE ORIGINAL AND SAID IT WAS FLIPQY AND I HAD TO DRAW IT

#BLAME HIM #HAHAHA #this is the worst thing ive ever drawn #it really was one of those “stop everything youre doing and draw this now” moments XD #i felt possessed #and i regret nothing #god i love this stupid ass green bear HAH #htf #htf meme #happy tree friends #my art #htf flippy #htf fliqpy #GODDAMNIT #cw veins

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whatsanameanyway · 4 months

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wanted to do some ddvau fanart bc i love the series and these guys are everything to me

au by the amazing @kitsuneisi and @xmaruu11 you guys are amazing

#ddvau #ddvau fanart #desert duo vigilante au #grian #gtws #tangotek #bit of backstory #i looove ddvau tango's design and its beautiful and i love him and i wanted to draw him #however. i felt like just him wouldnt be enough to tag the thing as ddvau so i decided to draw cg and hg #grian came out kinda mid but its fine #however. then i popped off so hard with that scar #that genuinely might be the best thing ive ever drawn #i think i did a great job on the anatomy and coloring and everything #hes beautiful #i have never been this proud of a drawing #ai could never match the joy i felt at every stage of drawing him #so yeah tldr drawing a pretty shirtless guy made me realise i want to keep drawing always and forever for the rest of my life #thank you ddvau thank you minecraft #'why is he shirtless' why would u even ask that question #my art

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oatbugs · 17 days

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procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally

#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months #to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them #in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought #i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are #and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it #its worth missing i think #i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over #(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think #i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat #they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand #how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much #i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around #something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode #arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully #last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing #and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets #and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably #have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused #blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like #i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much #my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to #music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads #i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says #what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.

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forestgreenlesbian · 2 months

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#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad #we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic #was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though #it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything #also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't #tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer #both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first #time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been #making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said #i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly #implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me #bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication #we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked #& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol #which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't #even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around #a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins #literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww #am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely #concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know

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onhoude · 9 months

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#sha po lang #chang geng #sha po lang spoilers #stars of chaos spoilers #stars of chaos #sha po lang shitpost #obviously im not getting everything right here but hey i did something #this chapter felt like five hundred slaps to the face #cant hate her tho not after the most devastating bits of backstory ive ever read in under four sentences

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defiledtomb · 4 months

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metaphorically standing on a cliff in the highlands screaming into the sea like ronja rövardotter

#/spring comes to me when i call for it/ she said. and i felt that #PERHAPS im feeling slightly manic about everything because a lot of puzzlepieces have been falling into place lately- all #things related to normal life and general.wellbeing. but it has coincided with the worst mental struggle ive ever been through- safe enough #to work through it but having to do it while jogging after the 500000000mph car that is life #like do you even understand what im saying. do you get it.#its been ROUGH but im out here. doing it. thats it #*screams*

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scionshtola · 24 days

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14. Do you have any headcanons for what happened post-Ultima Thule? What kind of injuries did they suffer, or did they walk it off like a boss? Did they take a lengthy vacation, did you shove a time skip in there before 6.1 hit? Or was it quickly off to the next adventure? (x)

After Ultima Thule, Corisande had a multitude of cuts and fractures that required a weeks-long stay in the infirmary in Old Sharlayan, where her friends made sure someone was always by her bedside. After being cleared to leave and returning to Mor Dhona for the last meeting of the Scions, they went with Y'shtola to stay in Matoya's cave while she worked on her book. They stayed there a few weeks, exploring the Relict and the Great Gubal Library together while Matoya pretended she was unhappy they were there. Soon though, Tataru brought Corisande word of the private island in the Cieldalaes, and after talking it over with Y'shtola, decided to spend some time there on their own for some extra peace and quiet.

#oc: corisande ymir #ffxiv #endwalker spoilers #i was going to say exploring the relict and the library and shtola's bedroom but that felt a bit much alkdfjsd #anyway i just wanted to take a picture of them on the cushion shaped like shtola's head. even tho u cant see it i love it #whatever you do DO NOT imagine tiny shtola giving tiny cori a little lecture and homework assignments when they're both kids and cori being #so happy and excited to learn from shtola who obv is the best and knows everything #ever since i thought about what it would have been like if they knew each other as kids ive been so weepy about it ajklsdfhf #anyway #cori lore prompts #gpose #this is in the relict by the way but pretend cori moved that cushion into shtola's room #bc they would

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moonscape · 4 months

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why are there so many nexomon im still practically at the beginning of the game and it's so overwhelming

#bwark #im trying to catch everything and level them up as i go and it's hard to keep track of who evolves and who doesn't #my favourite design so far (fanfrou) doesn't evolve and that was the biggest disappointment ive ever felt #also there's apparently a legendary that starts roaming as around as soon as you start the game and i encounted it right before getting to #the second town and it made me shitted myself. i caught it though #also i know as of the past since gen 6 pokemon has also been putting more and more options in the early areas but like #that's a mixture of old and new pokemon so it's not overwhelming #i feel like stuff in nexomon could've been spread out better. or at least cut out the filler mons because some of these designs feel #really underdeveloped and are not hitting #also im obsessed with how there's a mon named spink and another named sprunk. having them together is amusing me so much

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w1tchybusiness · 2 months

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i could write a 100 page essay about what a fucking masterpiece warframe is. i will write many words in the tags. please readem if you want my 'tism.

#ive been playing on and off since 2019 but its only recently when i dumped destiny 2 (probably for good) and picked it up #to fill the grind-shaped hole in my heart #that i have uncovered just how FUCKING INCREDIBLE warframe is #everything about it makes me incredibly autistic #from its masterful utilization of an incredibly styled and individual soundtrack full of absolute bangers #to its seemingly unique understanding of how and why an MMO is special to and because of its players #and its truly special story- a uniquely human take on the “post-ruin scifi” tale #it knows exactly how and when to yank on your heart to make you weep like a baby #and it knows exactly when you're going to get angry and want vengeance #and it knows when to let you let loose and unleash hell #SPOILERS FOR THE NEW WAR AHEAD #IF YOU THINK YOU COULD PLAY THE GAME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO #SPOILER WARNING #i think the narmer corruption of fortuna was genuinely one of the most gutpunchingly horrible moments ive ever experienced in a video game #i started playing when fortuna was already in the game but the story of fortuna and vox solaris was really what made warframe stand out 2 m #i would drop into the orb vallis as gauss and dash around doing bounties and fishing and mining because i really loved everything about #fortuna and wanted to spend as much time there as possible #for me vox solaris was my proudest achievement (in warframe.) to say “i helped that! i did that!” was an incredibly good feeling #the story really spoke to me on a deeper level #and vox solaris has always been my favorite faction as a result #so to do absolutely everything that i could #to lift together with my tenno brothers and sisters and yet STILL fail?#and to have it rubbed in my face by the corruption of the greatest shining pillar of hope in the warframe universe?#felt like i got kicked in the stomach #i felt sad and angry. but most of all i was DRIVEN.#which is GOOD. because RARELY does a video game present you the “you lost” scenario and have it feel not only satisfyingly painful #but MOTIVATING.#my only complaint with the new war is that i didnt get to hack ballas to pieces by myself #i had real flashbacks to running around helping people as gauss while approaching the final boss with erra #and to step onto the ballas arena as gauss prime. i nearly came from the narrative significance

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grideon-nav · 2 years

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gideon nav is so compelling to me as a character bc like. you would never guess that her arc was going to be about her not valuing herself. everything about most of the first book sets her up to be this really cool and chill protagonist who is butch and is strong and athletic and who is attractive to the people around her. between her and harrow if you had to guess who has the self loathing arc without knowing anything about the characters you’d immediately say harrow. but then she throws herself down on that spike without a second thought and it suddenly clicks for you (once you stop screaming from grief and shock) that she threw her life away for harrow so fast. and then it only gets cemented in her pov in htn where she says just wanted harrow to use her. it never occurs to her to just live for harrow. she acts like she doesn’t deserve to think like that. there are plenty of characters out there who have similar central character conflicts but not only have i never seen a character like gideon at all, i never expected a character as unique and wonderful as gideon to also have such a compelling central conflict. i expected her to just be like fully dumb hot woman with a sword with no further character depth and be disappointed but not surprised. in conclusion the locked tomb has essentially raised my bar for characters in all media forever basically lmao, and also i love the character gideon nav more than life itself

#i already loved her from the moment i knew what the locked tomb was #but then i actually read gideon the ninth and holy shit i felt the ceiling of my expectations get smashed only halfway through #ive never experienced a satisfying butch lesbian character ever in my life. probably bc i can only think of 2 and a half examples #these books really changed everything for me #side note i am so tempted to cut my hair short again and then maybe dye it red again #for no reason at all #the locked tomb #gideon nav #gideon the ninth spoilers #gideon the ninth #tlt

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velhohoho · 1 month

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Im rotting in bed recovering from getting all 4 of my wisdom teeth pulled, send asks

#ask #high key yesterday was traumatic #i woke up from surgery INSTANTLY lucid #i was completely aware of everything and just how much pain i was in #i didnt get any of the silly goofy loopy shit #it was just a 6 hour anxiety attack and the worst pain ive ever felt in my life #ray is my fucking savior though he did everything he could to help me feel better

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jinstronaut · 2 months

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this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh