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got an email from my long-time therapist (who is. arguably, the only one to of ever actually helped me) explaining she's taking a step back and no longer able to do therapy because of her health
it's fine, I didn't need any consistency in my life when I'm severely burnt out, anyway
#mad scrawl#had a long conversation with my partner about this#and I think#with where I am at right now#were it not for the fact that I need to Prove I'm Disabled in order to at all survive#I would just stop going after our last session and conclude my overall experience with the psychiatric field#I'm tired.#I don't want to rehash my extensive history of trauma with another therapist just for them to even begin to Get me#or take me seriously#I have such specific and uncommon traumas that like. you truly cannot make assumptions about what I have been through bc it is so much more#bizarre than you think#but also like#I mostly use therapy as a sounding board? I can do a lot on my own in terms of processing and I know a lot of coping skills#sometimes I need someone to talk to#I don't know how much it actually Does for me#and furthermore I'm still actively being traumatized#it is unrelenting and endless
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#hob gadling and his wildly unrelenting optimism#Hob you gotta stop looking at dream like you wanna marry him#even Dream's not THAT clueless#(untrue) Dream is definitely that clueless#the sandman#not the first time dream has refused something offered to him#horse girl au#the art tag#dreamling#hob gadling#dream of the endless#centaur!dream#centaurs
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writing fan fiction is funny because it’s like
my muse……………...batman
#someone on ao3 was like i’ll keep an eye out for if you write more cowboys or sub bruce#and i’m like while i don’t have specific plans i can pretty much guarantee that will happen#because i look at that guy and i’m like wow the possibilities are endless#unrelated to anything but batman i have seen all this hush fuckery and am not engaging#i don’t know who that man is#mags says
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I only recently finished sandman and I'll be honest I'm still thinking about hob gadling 🥲 like he ended up immortal bc he was so confident that humanity is so beautiful that it's worth living many lifetimes over, he continues!! to be so hopeful and excited about it, even when he was dirt poor and starving to what would otherwise be death but for him is just more suffering, like he's everything to me, he sees the positive of everything, and he's still just so excited to live !!! I will never get over him
#my.txt#me.txt#the sandman#hob gadling#also the gay undertones of him n Dream but honestly thats an unrelated bonus its mostly hob being so excited to live#dream of the endless#death of the endless
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So is Kiki Sophie’s London 80s street punk alias? This raises so many questions.
Arthur calls her by that name in the One Man’s Trash Job so he’s aware of it. Were the two of them conning Ralphie Roy pre joining up with Ramsey? What was the con? Were Ralphie and Arthur part of the sextagon (lmao)?
#sophie devereaux#leverage#gotta love our girl staying true to form with endless wells of “mysterious past#unrelated but her quick costume change and I really didn’t wanna have to do this sends me every time#also Hardison making fun of Eliot fanboying#Kiki get your crumpets and biscuits LMAO
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Hello everyone, I'm back from my travels.
And I think I'm ready to try this out.
If you're interested in having some stickers for my rune factory 5 au, you can request the set on my kofi page.
Click here for aashi's kofi page
Just a couple of notes regarding the stickers:
- This is my first time making these and I just wanna give stickers out to people, so I set it up as pay what you can. If you feel like pitching in some money, I appreciate your generosity! If you just want some stickers, I have the minimums set to just cover the production and delivery stamp costs.
- I've sent letters before to friends via snail mail so things should go the same for these stickers as well. They will arrive by mail in a cute lil envelope within 7 business days of me confirming that I've sent them out if all goes well with the postal journey.
-I'll have the kofi page open till the end of August, but if you see this post late and want some stickers you can dm me and I can work something out for you.
-To everyone reading my rf5 comic, thank you so much! Its been a wonderful experience drawing it and there's still plenty more to go. Hope to see you there as the journey continues ♡
#rune factory 5#rune factory#rf5#stickers#aashi doodles#heyo aashi here!#unrelated side note#I got addictively into stardew valley recently the game is fantastic#and its mostly because its so much more than just the base game#sure the vanilla game is nice and all and the multiplayer is so good but its the amazing amount of mods people have made for the game#its like a sandbox with endless amounts of goodies to play with#Anyways might do some art for stardew in the future
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fucked around (snooped on someones socials) ………………. and found out ………………..
#very much going through it right now but i am a blogger first and foremost!#in an unrelated news i will be buying a pint of ice cream on the way home#and possibly crying myself to sleep! maybe#the possibilities are endless!#ns
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(cockily) heh. and if I killed myself?
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I like being a lot of things it means I can fit in different situations. Need to cuddle? I'm so plushie you can snuggle me to sleep -w- Are you a robot? You can download me I'm literally a little companion for machines ^w^ we can scuttle together cause I'm a buge! Also I'm puppy so we can have so much fun and playing :33333
#bedposting#im many things#i love being therian and otherkin but like. in a weird way where im interchangeably a bunch of unrelated things#also sometimes these things combine together. im puppybug! im digital puppy! plushbug! the possibilities are endless!
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"my adult children are lazy and have no dreams and are perfectly content to leech off of me their entire lives!" no!!! you dipshit!!!!! they're several diagnosed types of mentally ill each, unmedicated for all of them through no choices of their own, unable to go anywhere outside the house without parental permission or assistance*, and have repeatedly been outright mocked by you for expressing joy at things they like and jobs they want to have while you claim to always support them!!!!!!! you cannot treat them as failures of completely fine and fully-autonomous adults when you never even finished teaching them the things you think every teenager should learn!!!!!!!!!
*: and even then they're chafing badly enough that they are pushing for ways to work around you! to escape you!!! once they can pedal a bicycle for further than a mile without going into Goddamn cardiac arrest it's fucking over for you!!!!!
(EDIT BECAUSE I WANT TO HAVE THIS HERE BUT ALSO UM: yall ever feel like you're engaged in a cold war that's never actually been declared? bc the increased aggression in the passive-aggressive texts over the past 24 hours (DESPITE the fact that most stuff from the last batch was in fact addressed in a timely fashion) has me like 👁️👁️. mom, dad, if you're reading this, you know you can talk to me like the 24-year-old human person i am, right? not treat me like an impudent teenager who doesn't deserve to make their own choices and should be grateful to even be living with you, then get frustrated when i'm making angry vent-like posts online?)
#rosie rambles#rosie rants#'hurr durr im a good parent bc my kids never ran off to live under a bridge for a winter rather than deal with me'#THE BAR IS IN THE OCEAN. DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF. DO YOU FUCKING HEAR YOURSELF.#and this isn't even getting into. you know. the garbage fire of endless fake job advertisements.#i think that if i can figure out a way to get employed at home. i will tell my brothers. but not my parents. and just suffer the shame#until i have enough saved to move somewhere and support myself while i get driving lessons and hopefully get a dinky lil smartcar or smth#the dream is having mom and dad dial back the constant passive-aggression but the realistic dream is eventual no-contact#idk. might delete later. might not. i'm just very tired all the time#i just. it feels like they want live-in housecleaners obligated to do as told while also shaming us for going along w/ that.#and also shaming us for not wanting to do that? araraararrrgh (derogatory)#(ADDING W/THE EDIT: i THOUGHT there was a mutual understanding of#'yeah this is my online username but its necessary for everyone to have a space away from their parents sometimes'#connecting unrelated dots or paranoia? fuck if i know)
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this is entirely unrelated to anything on this blog or anything pjo but i have to declare this somewhere, so this is as good a place as any:
please, i am begging you, if you haven't played ou/ter w.ilds (wilds, not worlds: important distinction) and have the ability to, pry yourself off this hellsite and go play it
i don't mean to be pushy or annoying, but i can pretty much guarantee that if i had to choose one (1) game out of so dang many i hold dear and would recommend, that's the one. everyone should experience it
my gf and i finally beat our playthrough of it at the end of 2023, and i have legit not gone a single day since then without the game just crossing my mind, if not being wholly consumed in EmotionsTM and just staring vacantly at a wall trying to process what the crap we went through—and the fact i'd never get to experience that game again for the first time (never in my life have i wanted to forget a game as badly as this just to get to replay it blind)
it's incredible. it's messed with my head in good and bad ways. and i am confident i will never play a game that makes me feel the exact way this game has. that is all. have a wonderful day/evening/whatever (time isn't real) and i will return this blog to regularly scheduled programming now ♡
#(ooc)#tl;dr i basically will never recover so naturally i want as many people as possible to also be in my boat#of endless suffering but like... you're happy about it#we outer wilds players are a very specific breed of#“desperately through endless tears watching blind playthroughs on youtube just to remember how it felt the first time”#which out of context sounds... yEAH ANYWAY#sorry for the unrelated content i just have so many emotions about this game#and sometimes out of nowhere i legit just sit here with a thousand yard stare#wake me up inside SAVE ME 8)#but yes anyway it's almost the weekend ! everyone hang in there#you all continue to be massive inspirations on my dash <3 i hope you're taking care of yourselves#do something nice for yourself this week if you haven't yet!!
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dear literally anyone. why the fuck aam i shaking
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finishedd chapter 767
#one piece#oh so the pain is endless and the agony is neverending#was going to watch the anime for this tonight but uh#but uhhhh yeah im not surviving that#i probably should have waited to read this until after#i was not still actively like....ill and on several medications#im being method. its fine. i am coping.#unrelated: if oda kills law after making me read through these seven chapters#he will never know peace i will find him in real life#PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD ENOUGH
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im discovering my great monolouging abilities.
#my pardon for calling it great‚ i don't do this to be arrogant‚ but i have realised that when i have no enrichment i immediately begin to/#/monologue in a manner that could be endless until enrichment is provided.#of course i at least do it in less-than-a-whisper of a voice but if i was to monologue outloud people would be impressed at my ability to/#/tie completely unrelated topics to one another.#im like a detective gone rogue who's connecting photographs and sticky notes on a board with red string‚ methinks#i don't even remember what i monologue about after im done. i could probably half-ass a presentation or become a stand-up comedian if i had/#/any confidence on a stage.#my pardon but when i am the center of attention with the chance of messing it up i become a tiny kitten afraid for its life#oh. am i monolouging right now?#perhaps i am#🌙rambling
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@felteverywhere / 031, in front of a suspicious pool of blood in an empty parking lot. / ingrid & perhaps emin, levi, johanna, or giacomo? / posted in beta.
she smelled it before she saw it. the puddle of blood looked more like a small lake, as if someone decided to gut a deer in the middle of the parking lot. it was already nerve-wracking leaving the law office of weissberg, weissberg, and lee so late at night; did god really have to throw seeing so much blood everywhere on top of it all? the law firm she worked for had some very infamous clients, from mobsters to media conglomerates. the pool of blood in their parking lot felt like an obvious threat. there were numerous people that could've done the bloody deed and plenty of people it could be targeting as a threat, including associate attorney ingrid. jesus, it was just a fucking job to her! she wanted to rip her hair out, only her briefcase in one hand and stanley tumbler in the other kept her from doing so. she nearly dropped the items in her hands when she noticed movement from the corner of her eye. instantly she looked to them on the other side of the blood. her face screwed up in disgust, though she was beginning to panic inside. "you didn't do this, did you?" ingrid asked, her voice a tiny bit shaky. "because that would be so not cool if you did."
#felteverywhere#* STARTER / closed .#* INGRID SERGEANT / narrative .#i hope this is okay! i picked a few muses you could possibly reply with? and left everything pretty vague so you can choose which one to us#also left it vague if it's a first meeting or established connection. any dynamic works for me :)#or if it's actually a threat bc she works for a shady law firm. either meant for her or just the firm in general#or if it's something entirely unrelated like a serial killer or werewolf or something#anyway the possibilities are endless!! go wild!
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