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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 7 months

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it just struck me how my queerness is essentially just me going "hmmm... nah <3"

#gender? nah <3 #romantic orientation? nah <3 #sexuality? nah <3 #someone hands me a form that asks what i am and i just fill in 'n/a'#i simply couldnt be fucked! with literally any of it!#honestly the somewhat recent aroace realization has been So freeing #i didnt know how much stress the constant performance caused...#and also now that i KNOW it was a performance? oh boy looking back is so fucking funny #absolutely unprompted #damn sorry past me... they really didnt know...#they were out there trying so hard to conform lmfaoooo #pretending to pine while genuinely thinking they were pining....#trying to want a relationship while being So fucking stressed out and put off by the concept...#i may have been. somewhat of an idiot <3 #nah jk i wasnt! thats just how it is growing up in a romance oriented world #now all i have to worry about it making friends!!!#no more trying to flirt with cute cashiers! no more feeling Unnecessary Pressure!#im free....

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letgomypartypiece · 1 year

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man this kinda breaks my heart i think hes gonna be burnt out like realllyyy soon. he has done gigs basically non stop the whole summer its no surprise tbh. its nice how honest he is about this stuff tbh, makes ppl understand more

source: @koppitules on twitter

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raptureshots · 5 months

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Atlas is Frank's antithesis in a way . if you think abt it ,,

but also they're also. incredibly similar sometimes

#maybe im. looking to deep into it really #i think. abt them loads tho #despite them. canonically being the same person they're so different in my brain #do you. think Frank enjoyed being Atlas #putting the whole con shit aside. did he like it? was it freeing to him?#or did he prefer the lavish life he lived as Fontaine?#was it stressful? did he live in fear most days? idunno #both. Frank and Atlas are so complex to me. baffling in a way. two sides of the same coin maybe?#bioshock #jack rambles ‼️#i like. viewing them as separate ppl #if that. wasnt obvious LMAAOO #i think. they both deserve so much but also so little #if. Atlas was real. do you think they would've been friends?#before the whole like. civil war shit. that is #idk if. ppl actually read my tags. ty if uu do i hope. uu enjoy my ramblings here #love Frank n Atlas a lot.. heart emoji

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todayisafridaynight · 3 days

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Since you mentioned it, what did you think of Speak No Evil? I was thinking of watching it myself :0

i really liked it ............ my friend scoffed at me when i told her i was watchin it so take my opinion with a grain of salt tho </3

#snap chats #SHE DIDNT EVEN WATCH IT BUT W/E SPOILER FREE QUICK REVIEW DOWN HERE HIIII <3<3<3<3 #ive been made aware my tastes are. Questionable so proceed with caution vlklvjv im so sorry if i convince you to see it and you dont like i #moving on I Have. done nothing but listen to Eternal Flame for the past week its been stuck in my head ever since #BUT FR as i said I Really Liked It. i heard that theres another/original version so i wanna watch that at some point #if i care to remember and find it vjaelkjeakl but as This Movie On Its Own i had a swell time !!!#it does a really good job of teetering that line of #'this is just a quaint little sometimes-awkward get-together' and 'this is so stressful i just might throw up'#it did a good job of keeping me invested and on my toes i guess- it bitters innocuous scenarios really well which i like #like i wasnt sure WHEN whatever scene i was watching would turn sour but i always had that feeling it /would/- that lingering feeling #the horror in this is more psychological than violent- it only gets crazy by the last quarter honestly #which isnt bad! i like psych horror and Christ. the amount of times i was just grimacing in my seat like Suspense Is The Word #like imagine a dinner party where people only say controversial things and you dont want to blow up the situation #so you just try to be really polite about pivoting from the topic. but they keep going. thats basically the horror of this movie at its cor #i do have SOME comments about some bits but i wanna rewatch the movie at some point to be thorough on my comments jglejlakj #yk do a rewatch where im. NOT jokin bout with my brother- THO TBF DESPITE THAT I was still invested #like its premise is so. simple? in concept imo. but 'simple' isnt automatically bad in my eyes and i really liked how it played out #i dont watch movies much tho so maybe its been done different but there is ONE thing tht definitely made me like. HUH #but its nothing super major i dont htink? I MEAN IT WAS KINDA BIG BUT there were signs to it being revealed. still it made me vjLJ like god #i cant explain tho cause SPOILERS but ... Yeah. its not that crazy it just definitely took me by surprise for how quick the reveal was #tldr: if you ever wanted to watch an awkward dinner party where you couldnt do anything about it this is the movie to watch #and i like that. i like that because i hate myself apparently jVLAEKJVAEKLJ #coupled with horror it was also funny at times which i felt did help with that underlying 'when will this be tainted' horror #i really liked that ... when normalcy or the feeling of safety can be taken away in an instant #if you watch it and wanna talk bout it more in depth ill prob have rewatched it by then and id like to give a more. Detailed review #OR AT LEAST ONE NOT SO RAMBLY VELKAVJEALKJ im not good at reviewing things .... i just know when i like or dont like somethin ..#ive only had my bro to talk bout this with and he doesnt really. Give his thoughts or opinions too much like i do #so id be happy to talk bout it and get your perspective !!!! but only if you want Again if you dont like it im so sorry erlakjaekl #god theres so much more i want to say but im just rambling and i wanna be brief for you my friend vlakjlakvlkj #anyway yeah. those are my quick thoughts. i was Very Normal about james mcavoy for most of this movie ty for reading

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bootyful-seventeen · 11 months

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i am too mentally exhausted to even deal with this shit anymore with my mom and grandma and low key wish i'd go comatose for a few years to be left alone tbh

#had a clean up service come by to see the damage and give a quote on the estimate and my grandma wasnt having it #she got upset and started crying to them about she has only 1 daughter and is trying to help her and they're trying to tell her that keepin #all that junk isn't gonna be helping anyone especially my mom but she wasn't getting it and i said i'm not helping clean the junk that's #all around the house cuz i'm tired of it all and having to manage my emotions since i am for sure emtotionally stunted from my childhood #and have to deal with a schitzophrenic mom and an absent sister who's balls deep in denial while i'm struggling to find a job here #and my grandma always stressing me ot saying she's gonna kick me out isn't fucking helping here at all like she thinks it does #so when they left she spent all day sobbing on the phone how i'm a terrible granddaughter who wants to throw out good stuff #when i'm not gonna keep helping sell shit for my mom cuz my sister can do it as her family contribution since she did nothing since dad die #and the thing is i gave them all options on clearing shit out cuz i know this family by now and shit doesn't get tossed but it migrates #cuz i said months ago i can ask some friends if they could come down and help sort and declutter #grandma said no to that and said she'll kick me out if i do it and she didn't want to pay for my mom's shit to get moved into a storage uni #she leaves the clean up to my mom and i think the backyard got worse but she didn't call anyone to throw out the junk like she threatened t #so i call a fucking hoarders clean up service cuz that's what my family is on my mom's side at this point and the city will be called too #and she has this reaction cries all day and calls everyone to say i'm horrible and yells at me saying i'm the one killing her with stress #when she's already been doing that for months to herself when i'm just tired and possibly mildly depressed or something idk #i barely leave my room and don't go outside except to walk my dog but idk cuz my family's attittude was we don't go to doctors cuz #cuz they're for crazy people but of course it's gotta switch up for my mom and no one else and i'm just sick of it all #grandma doesn't accept free help and she won't accept help that i pay for myself with my money set aside for school so i'm done #unlike her when i say i'll do something i stick to it so i'm not doing shit anymore unless i can call a friend to help with this mess #it's gonna sound like such a horrible thing but i can't wait for my family to die so i can live in a clean home again and get help #like deep serious help cleaning and big time grief councelling cuz i barely had time to process my dad's death and being the one to find hi #and that was just this february like god i am going to need so much fucking therapy in my future it's almost rediculous #and probably say screw my mom's side and visit my dad's side a lot more since they seem to be the normal ones in this shit family tree #at least they're not stupid and leave junk everywhere where one neighbour getting sick of not being able to sit outside and enjoy their yar #without mountains of junk staring them right in the face and landing a notice from the city to clean up especially since #we have chainlink fences and at least 7 neighbours can see the backyard and everyone can see the front porch when passing by #i'm just tired of living in these suffocating households and even wanna file a report myself to kick them into gear #its horrible living like this and no one should live surrounded by junk and things they never use or even garbage

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tamagotchikgs · 3 months

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apparently our house has to be torn down by law because of all the issues whihc , like man i want it fucking gone i have been wishing for that horrible place to be Dust my entire life, but no one else does. also apparently its illegal for my mom to be living in the trailer there and someone snitched on her doing it even tho its been like.. 3 days tops. so now shes super stressed because its veryvery expensive to have a house torn down n we already have nothing like. fucking Nothing. and it needs to be done NOW + we have to move everything out and there is so much shit in there there's 25+ years worth of living in there. & shes probably going to have to sell off bits of the land to cover the cost of demolition

#i wish we could just burn the thing down #i dont want any of the stuff i want everything of that part of my life gone #also because of all this stress today i wasnt able to go get my passport #& i dont know if i will so i might get a free pass on that wedding anyway (it's next month and we already have cut it crazy close)#altho i really did want my passport for other reasons n this was kinda my in o(-<

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sergeant-angels-trashcan · 3 months

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dc brain rot anon here just to recommend @thepandaredd on tiktok for their batfamily content because I think you’ll appreciate the chaotic energy 😂

Nooooo omg I LOVE panda his batfam content got me through campaigning for REAL. My fave is the Batman who laughs meeting the batbros. Truly a piece of cinematic excellence. The timing, the angles. "Joker's wet dream?" Glorious.

#did i buy the pandaredd plushie yes and what of it #mans lowkey kept me alive in 2022 #the panda is dating my deadpool bear btw #'oh that? that's the red light district's version of a joker/batman cosplay'#~S*t~o~R*y t~i*M*e~#i was very passively suicidal during my campaign #it was stressful i was working a full time job that was already stressful a part time job becoming increasingly transphobic and running #no one was helping me at all and i knew i wasnt going to win but i wanted to put effort in yaknow?#anyway when i got home from work i would sit in my car for 30ish minutes and i would either make tiktoks watch tiktoks or disassociate #and the thing is!#when you're that level of depressed the looping feature is a godsend #because you look up and realized you survived another ten minutes #and you feel a little better #because the video about clark Kent's secretary or two lesbian moms or the batfam on stakeout #distracted you for a little. made you LAUGH holy shit free dopamine #anyway i would just zone out and watch the same video like six times in a row #did that with dr glaucomflecken too lol #anyway yes i think panda is pretty neat #i survived 2022 through spite and tiktoks and clothing purchases #we are ALL on cassie patrol ALL the time she is a LITERAL fucking ninja GOD DAMN IT #same vibes as WFA #anyway have i made it weird yet?

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kasper-k · 7 months

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I hate silkie chickens so much these birds are genuinely giving me fucking stress nightmares

#yes that is a TEMPORARY enclosure. because they had FUCKING LICE.#which i had to buy treatments for. and no one is paying me back. i had to buy these damn birds in the first place #to replace the neighbors ones that got killed by our dogs WHICH WASNT MY FAULT. AND ITS BEEN MY RESPONSIBILITY #FOR THREE. FUCKING. WEEKS.#and one of them has an infection that wont fucking go away and i have antibiotics that just arent fucking working #im incredibly stressed about it and its eating up literally all of my free time. i just want to relax for one fucking weekend

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sleepless-crows · 5 months

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#ive already been stressing and worrying so much over the college entrance exams #school is already so tiring and takes so much from me and i have to study for something else too that i should prioritize as much #i keep worrying that i wont make it. theres so much things to study and half of them i forgot and the other half ive never learned before #and if i want to go to this college with free tuition i have to study extra hard #two of my cousins got accepted there. but it was during the pandemic and the college only looked at their grades. there wasnt a test #and everyone expects me to get in too. because i always get good grades. they dont worry about me #but im worrying so hard and i need help #and my mom who always helped me with school growing up. she told me i really wont get in if i keep on being like this #she thinks i dont care about it and so she scolded me and reaffirms every doubtful thought ive been having #and i dont have an older sibling to ask advice from. most of my friends make me feel awful when i talk about my doubts of my future #and its just so hard and im so scared #and i dont know what to do i never know what to do and everyone beats me up for that but i dont know anything #and im so scared

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mohglet · 2 years

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what is pathologic even about all the posts I have seen about it make me think its about someone stumbling into a Russian theatre mid-performance and then making friends with the actors

#i tried to play it once #i was on a train and then i got teleported #and i got so stressed out by the illusion of free will that i quit and never came back #in hindsight maybe it wasnt pathologic i played

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sk3l3t0n444 · 10 months

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i wanna play animal crossing but i get really stressed about the amount of stuff i can do and how i dont know what i should do and it always reminds me that i should be working on shit :(