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Atlas is Frank's antithesis in a way . if you think abt it ,,
but also they're also. incredibly similar sometimes
#maybe im. looking to deep into it really#i think. abt them loads tho#despite them. canonically being the same person they're so different in my brain#do you. think Frank enjoyed being Atlas#putting the whole con shit aside. did he like it? was it freeing to him?#or did he prefer the lavish life he lived as Fontaine?#was it stressful? did he live in fear most days? idunno#both. Frank and Atlas are so complex to me. baffling in a way. two sides of the same coin maybe?#bioshock#jack rambles ‼️#i like. viewing them as separate ppl#if that. wasnt obvious LMAAOO#i think. they both deserve so much but also so little#if. Atlas was real. do you think they would've been friends?#before the whole like. civil war shit. that is#idk if. ppl actually read my tags. ty if uu do i hope. uu enjoy my ramblings here#love Frank n Atlas a lot.. heart emoji
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Hellsing 2002 calendar illustration.
Ein wunderliche und erschröckliche Hystori von einem großen Wüttrich genant Dracole wayda Der do so ganz unkristenliche marrter hat angelegt die mensche, als mit spissen als auch die leut zu Tod geslyffen
A wondrous and frightening story about a great berserk called Dracula the voivode who inflicted such unchristian tortures such as with stakes and also dragged people to death
#hellsing#alucard#kouta hirano#translation was found in a comment by u/lazyfoxheart on r/Kurrent#fun fact this is the highest quality version of this image that exists online#i know because i've been looking forever for a version that's clear enough to actually read what hirano wrote under '1443'#but there weren't any so i had to take matters into my own hands#the real image on the back of the guidebook is only 2 inches tall so i had to take this with my smartphone and will my hands not to shake#anyway i'm pretty sure it's supposed to say Eğrigöz (the location vlad was imprisoned) so yeah. thank you hirano very cool#if i might rant for a sec it took me an embarrassingly long time to figure that out because i didn't have the guidebook at first#and in the images i could find online that part was just a blur that looked suspiciously like a person's signature and i was like. who tf#i was thinking matthias corvinus since he issued some political propaganda against vlad iirc but it didn't match his signature on wikipedia#then i thought it might be vlad II dracul's since he probably had to sign an agreement to send his sons over as hostages at some point#but that didnt seem right either so i kept skimming vlad's wiki page#and then i was like goddammit...hirano.....you just misspelled Eğrigöz didn't you.. ....#i maybe should've made a separate post dedicated to this instead of writing a novel in the tags but eh#the hellsing brainrot runs deep#also- i put it in the source link at the bottom of the post but the german inscription is copied off a real woodcut of vlad from 1491#except instead of depicting him as an adult hirano drew him as a child which gives the inscription a very different feel imo#the one final thing that interests me about this is the fact that hirano published this calendar in 2002#which is REALLY early in the series. like this was before volume 5 came out??#i have no idea why he decided to do a massive spoiler drop in a random piece of japan-only merch#sandwiched between a drawing of alucard as john travolta from saturday night fever and integra as a fish no less#it makes me really curious to know what the fan response to this was back then. like did people even know who this was#maybe im just an idiot and everyone back then was like 'ah yes its alucard as a 12 year old. how very informative'
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Comfort Moodboard 💕 - For me
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#im just really scared for no reason#anxious n stuff that things aren't getting done#im too big#n i just needa be small but i cant#n it hurts my head#so much stuff to take care of#i can't accurately carve out time to just be me#n being me is being baby n babbling n waggin my tail#i just need to be babied but idk how i want to be babied yk#dark colors cuz everythings so bright lately n im starting to get a bit of a headache#i need consistency#my schedules all messed up n thats y i feel kinda miserable#i want something warm#like cookies n#hot chocolate n warm milk#n for someone to button up my cardigan n ask me whether i want my shirt tucked in or out of my pants#want someone to brush my hair back n kiss me on the forehead n tell me how handsome n ready for school i look#n when i start getting frustrated with homework i want someone to take me by the hands n tell me to take deep breaths#moodboard tag#sfw agere#sfw age regression#agere sfw#sfw blog#bearbabbles#bearbarks#n while im boohoo crying snot running down my nose n im like actually screaming i need someone to hold me and rub my back n rock me#maybe im hungry#someone feed me
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"It's just you now. Take care of mother."
i have the normal amount of emotions about them (lying) <3
#a redraw but also not really cus i ended up tracing a lot from the old one hfldsjdfs#it was only supposed to be for reference but i ended up keep messing w it instead of redrawing it proper......#feel like i got his expression down better in the old one; looks more strained/ hearbroken like i feel#but thats fine#my art#my ocs#oc: liam hawke#i'm still not sure if liam or varric is the one who deals the killing blow#love both the thought of liam having his own sisters blood on his hands and never being able to wash it off fully#or his (future) best friend saving him that fate but now having that stand between them#cus liam would be grateful for it but part of him would always remember that and hold it against him#(both options also make the bartrand encounter crunchy in slightly different ways)#either way in that moment he kind of hates varric for even just being there. and fenris too#(though tbh im not sure how realistic it would be for him to take sb else except bethy and varric down into the deep roads)#((so maybe in canon fen wouldnt be there idk. havent decided this yet either))#logically he knows its not fair ofc but it just feels like an invasion of privacy. it feels Wrong.#they have no place in this they shouldnt have been there they shouldnt have been part of it they shouldnt have seen him like this#but its sth that binds them too#the rest of the trek is miserable and awkward for all of them in any case#but yeah.#idk if they would be able to bury her down here properly so maybe they end up doing it via lava?#theyre not leaving her body out in the open to rot and/or become food for darkspawn or spiders thats for sure
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yk, its weird being Way Too Aware & In Control of yourself bc technically i believe im having a panic attack. but somehow i am Very Unbothered by this, bc i know whats happening and its illogical. my body's having an overreaction and i couldn't be fucked to join in
#im sitting here casually looking up symptoms to make sure this is a Panic attack and not a Heart attack#got those heart palpies got that chest pain got that sense of Derealization got that shortness of breath#i even feel a lil faint! ive even got a hot flash goin on! tightness in the throat! the whole enchilada#and yet! im somehow vibing...#my body's throwing a fit smh calm down bro its not that bad...#maybe you'll calm down if i drink some water and eat some fruit <3#shoulda known this was coming... was lying awake at 4 am with really bad palpatations s. m. h.#honestly! this is very annoying!#my vision tried to tunnel exactly Once but i fought it off. idiot meatsuit....#breathing exercises and internal mantras babeyyyyyy i got this shit on Lock#oh! and look at that! my heart is finally chilling out#still gonna eat water and drink fruit#yall should do that too. at least the water part#go drink water! go! shoo!#hydrate or diedrate! always pick hydrate!#absolutely unprompted#alright well that was fun. only lasted for about *checks nonexistent watch* over an hour#i dont think ive had one that bad before! it really tried to Get Me!#had to fight off the deep sense of dread and rising panic with a mental broom!!#finishing my rebels rewatch helped but still. damn. these demons have hands#my brain: OH WE'RE DYING WE'RE DYING ITS A HEART ATTACK WE'RE GONNA DIE AND ROT FOR DAYS BEFORE OUR BODY IS FOUND OH GOD ITS HAPPENING#hard cut to me vibing with a martini.... wii music on blast... hawaiian shirt On and Unbuttoned...#anyway. drink some water. get some fruit. Thrive!
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sometimes i think a little bit about how the Wyrm's ultimate Evil Ploy on Elora was to grant her heterosexual marriage and then not only does she turn that down but she and two lesbian knights defeat the evil AND THEN the Power Of Love comes in to save the heterosexual marriage guy but its literally just the power of his sister saying hey come back i miss you. and, dear readers, i find myself going insane a little
#like okay its most likely not that deep#but i remember losing it at the willow finale like oh my god#the end of the world is brought forth by a straight wedding. i mean thats gotta stand for something right#also kinda iphigeniacoded of elora to go to a marriage thats also her sacrifice#gonna be real with yall i saw a silly post of like kit and jade reacting to the Crone Kiss as like haha lesbians seeing straight kiss#and it just reminded me of that insane bit of idk maybe semi intentional#metaphorism#many thoughts and feelings about this. might be worth looking into more#lol the lowkey bisexual boorman confirmation before the fight too...... its almost like....... theres metaphors and allegories happening#again no doubt im being more deep abt this than necessary#tbh im just really fixated on the wedding. truly couldnt have done better if i was writing some kind of fancy play about heteronormativity#in fantasy settings#yeah#whatever#willow 2022#my shit
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Thinking again about. Aira being the only person Hiiro calls with no honorific right off the bat
Wipes a tear.. he thinks his name is pretty.......
Guys..... he doesn't mind.... he never minded at all
#hiiai#⭑ tea rambles#we r so back. sorry for being dead again#ideal posting schedule is post hiiai then dip for 3 weeks#ummm uhhhh I THINK MY HIIRO NENDO IS COMING SOON? LIKE REALLY SOON#it shipped faster than expected im really happy#also i literally forgot about this chapter i havent looked at beginning of main story in a long time#early EARLY hiiai.. strokes very long beard deep in thought#why the freak does aira touch hiiro's arm muscles in the Second Episode u call him weird but maybe LOOK AT YOURSELF FIRST#Theyre both so offputting. They were meant for each other
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I know one of my AUs is in two seperate competitions but wouldnt it be so silly if I started focusing on an entirely different one
haha... jk.........
#rambles#.....maybe#<- wanted to make that tiny text but i do not have the patience to sift through google to figure out how to make the super small text#anyways......#im getting overwhelmed by mental health and comp stuff so my brain went “hey what if we thought about this other au instead”#....... not that i have that much stuff for it because im deep in burnout and depression so making art is real hard#outside of the one thing im really focusing on#even after thats done i dont know if i have the patience for a whole other comic.... but my only other idea is like- a fic??? but....#looks at kraang leo*#my fics are... uhhhh.. they definitely ... exist#but writing is hard#might do what somni and teaa do for emd and write fic for the main thing but have comics for the important parts????#but they day i get the confidence to approach someone for collab is a day i dont think will happen until after years fo thereapy lmao#this has reminded me that i should edit the next chapter of kraang leo
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saiki would be SO scared of fnaf
#saiki k#saiki no psi nan#im on my bs rn#i just pictures him playing fnaf with kaido#and yoy would think kaido is the scaredy cat#but really hes knees deep in fnaf lore and is too busy looking for all the easter eggs to get scared#or maybe he does get scared but feigns being super brave abt it idk#the point is saiki cant read the minds of dead children irl#and that’s terrifying cause like… giant robotic nendo? hell nah#saiki see kaido playing fnaf and has nightmares about it#the first time he gets jupscared he screams#i have more but im tired#saiki fnaf#the disastrous life of saiki k.
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something something gisela would be taken more seriously as a villain if she were male
#idk man.#i feel. like.#shes the kind of villain people would love. if she were male.#faulty insane scientist or whatever#and she would just be taken more seriously!#take the keefe situation for instance.#cassius is always labeled as the worse parent but. reverse the roles for a moment#if she was the male and cassius was the female do you really think it would be that way#idk man#i feel like even shannons done her a bit dirty#shes given gisela this master plan but no real motive#like. at least fintan has one.#idk i feel like the same thing goes for vespera#numb person freed from prison after thousands of years and likes to torture people for science?#and yet. almost no content for her.#and she. got crushed by a rock. and we never did get the backstory#like why did she go numb shannon? shannon?#maybe im looking to deep into it but#maybe im also just fucking sick of male characters getting the attention all the time#lmao sorry guys </3 guess this kinda turned into a vent post#my bad#kotlc
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#OK I NEED TO STOP engaging with 911 ship wars but i have ONE MORE THING to say (probably lying)#i think it’s genuinely concerning how many people believe a ship has to have years of emotional connection before you’re allowed to ship it#like. imo you should be allowed to ship characters for any reason#crackships and rarepairs exist for a reason#secondly and probably more importantly#i think it’s really weird how many people are uncomfortable with the idea of gay sex#not in general but like#people were saying they were uncomfortable and weirded out because#an actor vaguely insinuated that the fictional character he plays would enjoy having gay sex with his partner#like people were calling him a freak#I THINK THATS WEIRD AND CONCERNING#it’s giving ‘my ship doesn’t have sex they make love while holding hands’#i think it ties into the first point#relationships are allowed to be built off attraction#you don’t need years and years of bonding for your relationship to be valid#and i think the visceral reaction against bucktommy because they’re not besties who share a kid is borderline homophobic#like there are plenty of valid reasons to dislike tommy and bucktommy like tommys previous behaviour#but being sooo against a ship based on the fact that there wasn’t enough ‘build up’ and that they don’t have a deep emotional bond#weird#and i don’t think it’s fetishisation to enjoy a canon couple im sorry that’s just a fucking crazy take#like it’s insane to me that apparently enjoying a gay ship is fetishisation unless it meets certain ‘emotional bonding’ criteria#also bathena is one of the most beloved ships on the show and their ‘build up’ was one date and a church hangout#and no one claims that they’re rushed and underdeveloped and that’s why one of them should be written off the show#like i said i think there’s a lot of valid reasons to dislike the ship (even if i do enjoy it)#but some of the arguments i’ve seen are just weird and i think you guys need to look at why it makes you uncomfortable#engage with other fandoms with more diverse ships and maybe you’ll calm down a little#911 discourse#for clarity the tumblr fandom seems to be okay but 911twt is an actual hell scape
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you gotta be fuckin kidding me /pos
#FULL CIRCLE FULL CIRCLE#its really starting to look to me like this might be the last in the series? at least mainline maybe??#idk it feels like theres been too many hints at this being a finale of sorts to ignore#which im totally cool with this installment is gonna be fuckin SICK#its just weird to think about lmao#squid games my beloved#not ship related#moneposting#splatoon#splatoon 3#deep cut splatoon 3#peachymisc#splatposting
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My ACNH island is VERY slowly coming together (been working on it since.. I think July? Maybe august?)
I’m really happy with the progress I’ve made except I’m now one of those people whose island lags because of the amount of stuff in some spots lmao 🧎🏻♀️ it’s a worthy sacrifice though imo because my orchard is the culprit and it looks banging!!
Either way. BEHOLD
#honest to god y’all. if you feel stressed about decorating or island and haven’t played/have restarted a ton bc of it#just do NOT terraform. or do it very minimally#bc that’s the only reason im making literally any progress lmao I really loved my last island too but#ultimately abandoned it bc the terraforming and water-forming(?) was stressing me out too much#anyway#I’ve been balls deep in trying to fix up the ~secret beach~ and campsite so I’ll maybe post pics of those too soon!!#they’re all in this area too!! campsite is to the left of the orchard and up a level and beach is to the left of the wheat#ALSO *cracks knuckles* I’ve had a land bridge on every island so far and this one will be no different#might start that today or tomorrow#that’s a whole thing bc. land bridge. HAVE to terraform.. and a lot too lol ugh#it’s just a strip though. I’m not doing anything too crazy with it#it’s gonna be perfect for my island’s autumn theme actually!! the bridges always looked best in autumn imo bc of the surrounding foliage#maybe it’ll lead to the museum?#sorry I’ll shut up#aspenposting#acnh#animal crossing#animal crossing new horizons#new horizons#animal crossing nh
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alright but hear me out:
#something something nine who had to learn to rely only in himself to survive#vs kit who was programed to live for someone else#nine who is a product of his past vs kit who doesnt have one#nine who made an identity for himself vs kit who had his stolen and remade#nine who doesn't belong with anyone (we all know he wont live with sonic) vs kit who is tied to surge#nine who prides himself in his independence yet wants company#and kit who both hates and yet is almost happy (but is it really him or the programing?) for what starline did#both want what tails has#both hate that they do. and hate him too#nine looking down on kit because of his dependency on surge yet feeling bitter because at least kit has someone#someone that needs HIM. not a duplicate of himself#and kit both fealing jealous of nine's independence and freedom#but then realizing how under all that he is just as desperate for love and friendship as he is#and then calls him out for it#nine is in denial. and claims he could never be as pathetic as kit#but deep down he knows its true#so anyway they hate the parts they can see of themselves on the other#but are also envious of other stuff#maybe one day i'll make a more coherent post because im pretty sure i thought of more stuff before but im tire#kit the fennec#kitsunami#kitsunami the fennec#nine the fox#tails nine#nine tails#miles nine prower#miles tails prower#tails the fox#sonic prime#sonic idw
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Just. Ignore me for a second because I need to vent a bit and I don't want to worry anyone who knows me irl
It's just that I recently stopped doing what I had been doing for the past year and that was making me deeply unhappy even if I didn't know it and it took me months to come to that decision and now I have to look for a job and I've been at it for less than a month and I know it takes time but I feel like everyone is staring and I don't know what to do
#my family was worried about me before but i kind of feel that thwy all expected me to brush it off and continue and they think i chose wrong#and i might have been able to suceed at what i was doing but im not sure the cost was worth it and i keeo saying it and no one listens#and i feel like i have to carry on and find something new asap so that ill stop feeling like thwyre looking at me like i failed#and its all making me very anxious and i really need to get out of my city and maybe my country and maybe then ill stop feeling like this#deep in the closet and wondering whether im doing stuff for myself or for my family and feeling like im slipping through my fingers#im 24 when do you start feeling like an adult and not like you're playing grown ups#anyway im deeply sorry for the word vomit but i had to put it out somewhere im so sorry
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What was your childhood or just general life like before you joined Mommyclan? :3
uhhh... well i don't really remember anything...
yeah no, i don't remember anything :( maybe another time..
#mommyclan#alienspots#huh. i wonder what that second image is...#sorry if im setting this up to be some crazy deep backstory 😭😭#its really not#i mean maybe but as of rn its not#i am absolutely godawful at making up backstories#its taken me multiple hours to post this because every time i look at it i feel like somethings wrong with it but whatever!!!#i might retcon some of this im still trying to work stuff out
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