#it’s cheating btw you look for hints on google

[nobiggity]

hi i’m only back long enough to fix my follows and let everyone know i finally figured out how to get kind of good at connections

[rosesvioletshardy]

you belong with me - j.f

okay after nearly a month and maybe 3 months of having this idea - it's finally done. i really hope you guys like this fic because of how long it took me. also because i'm stupid and useless i wasn't sure if the team lives in philly or near that area or in voorhees, nj since that's where the practice rink is so let's pretend because i'm a useless californian and google wasn't helping me

also i'm guessing this would be a slow-burn, friends to lovers

btw reader is using she/her pronouns

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joel masterlist

warnings: nothing bad, small mentions of cheating, mentions of drinking/being drunk, social distancing, mention of covid/quarantine, slight insecurities

# of words: 5,245

Living next to a hockey star wasn’t really something that you’d expect to happen to everyone but somehow it happened to you. When you moved out there for a change you’d figured that you’d be living next to a small family or people your age who went to college, but only one of those happened, well sort of. He was the same age as you but he wasn’t there for college but for a job actually. That job being a professional athlete. At first when he moved into the apartment complex, it was going to be loud all the time due to the thin walls, but surprisingly it was quiet the majority of the time and would apologize by coming to your door before it got quiet again.

The first time the two of you met happened when he was coming back from his first day of training camp while you were leaving for work. The two of you passed each other but didn’t notice each other. He was exhausted to the point where he wasn’t even paying attention to what door he was going to and tried to open your door after you left before turning around and seeing him

“C’mon! Why won’t you go in?!” he groaned, frustrated over the fact the his key wouldn’t even fit into the lock

“Maybe because it’s the wrong door?” you told him before he looked at you and the door number

“Oh shit. I’m sorry.” joel said, quickly apologizing after realizing the door said 405 not 404

“Sorry, I just got back from practice and feel like if I don’t relax, my brain is going to explode.” he finished before he went to the correct door and unlocked it

“Don’t worry. I know the feeling. Well not as a professional athlete, but just after a long day.” you told him smiling

“How’d you know I was an athlete? Let alone a professional one”

“Your bag has the Flyers logo on it, not to mention the shirt too” you told him pointing to them as he looked down chuckling with a hint of redness forming throughout his face

“Wow I’m stupid” he laughed out while looking down

“I’m sorry for not introducing myself, I’m Joel. Joel Farabee” he finished and holding out his hand

“Y/N, Y/N L/N and you’re not stupid. You’re just tired and it slipped your mind” you told him, taking his hand before an alarm went off on your phone

“I’m really sorry but I have to go. It was nice meeting you Joel. Hopefully I’ll run into you soon again”

“Same here” he responded back as he whispered a bye and flashed a smile and a small wave

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That was back in 2019 and ever since then the two of you have been inseparable. After the first meeting Joel waited impatiently for you to arrive back to your apartment so he can try to make a friend that wasn’t a teammate or older than him. He’s told you everything that he wouldn’t even think to tell anyone else occasionally. Whenever you were free and there was a home game he would put tickets on hold in your name for you to go to. Since then, you’ve gotten closer to a lot of the WAGs and the entire team, and they loved that he found someone.

The only problem was that you weren’t his someone. Joel soon got a girlfriend a few months after the two of you met. At first you didn’t have a problem with it because you didn’t know him that well at the time and you had just become friends, but it later started to become a problem.

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You're on the phone with your girlfriend, she's upset

She's going off about something that you said

'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night

I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like

And she'll never know your story like I do

Tuesday nights meant that you had school in the morning and afternoon and the rest of the day was spent either studying or watching a hockey game as a break. Majority of the time you couldn’t watch it but you tried too. Joel was out on his porch talking to May about something that he said, it was a little muffled due to the music that you were listening to. You could tell he was stressed and just wanted to go to the game which he had to leave for in a few. You never understood why he was with her and why he would never break up with her.

“Hey, you alright?” you asked him as you step outside to see him loosening his tie a bit and taking deep breaths as he snapped his head up to see you with a concerned smile on your face

“Yeah, everything’s just fine. You know it’s just the first game of the regular season since everything in the past year. Just nerves I guess” he said letting out a small laugh, trying to hide the nerves that were running his body

“Yeah that makes sense. Well just to let you know, I’m sure what you said was funny and that she’s missing out on some great humor from you” you said flashing a smile

“Thanks.” he smiled

“Are you watching the game tonight?”

“Yeah of course. It’s the first game of the new season and I know you guys are going to do amazing and possibly win the cup this year.” you expressed as he laughed at your faith in him and the team, something he always admired about you

“Thanks--” he started before getting interrupted by a text

“Sorry, that’s phil. He’s outside” he finished

“Don’t worry about it. Go have fun and win” you told him as the two of you did a handshake you two created from a distance as you said your goodbyes

But she wears short skirts, I wear T-shirts

She's Cheer Captain and I'm on the bleachers

Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find

That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along, so why can't you see?

You belong with me, you belong with me

It’s like you didn’t mean to start comparing yourself to her but sometimes you can’t help it. You noticed how different your fashion tastes were and every time you hung out with Joel and she tagged along or when she went to the games, you noticed how different the two of you were.

She would be wearing the most revealing yet somehow appropriate things all the time, no matter what the weather was whether or not she was relaxing at Joel’s. At times you’d wear old t-shirts from high school and not care whether or not you were in public or just in your apartment. Yeah you dressed differently at times but it depended on the occasion. You always knew that she had to be involved with some sort of sport until you saw her on tv as a cheerleader for the Eagles. At first you didn’t believe it, but then you saw her instagram and all the insecurities came rushing in at once. After seeing her cheer for the first time, you wondered if that were you, would Joel go for you or would he still just consider you a friend. Even if he did go for you, you figured it would just because of how you were as a person and who you were. The most you were able to do was just dream and wonder why you never confessed your feelings to him when they came, 3 months after you met him.

“You’re so stupid Y/N!” you yelled as you threw a pillow at the wall as soon as Joel came onto the screen after skating around with Claude as he greeted his son and wife, and spotting May next to Ryanne smiling and laughing with them

“It was only a crush and it doesn’t matter anymore. He’s happy and it shouldn’t bother you.” you kept telling yourself as the game started

Throughout the game you couldn’t help but start imagining what it would be like if you and Joel were dating. Everyone knew and loved you so there wouldn’t be any awkwardness like the first time. You had some hope that Joel would wake up one day and realize that he didn’t really love May, as sweet as the girl is, but loved you instead. He’s the kind of person who would let you rant no matter how stupid or not it is and will actually listen to you. When quarantine happened, it was the lowest point for you and even though you knew that you couldn’t talk to him in person, he would make sure to always check up on you to see how you were doing. Even in the bubble, he would make sure that you were still taking care of yourself, both mentally and physically. You did the same for him. He was at the height of his career and then a pandemic hit pausing everything and games for the longest time. Every time you went to the store and you knew he was home, you’d buy some things that weren’t on your list to make him something to cheer him up. Joel wouldn’t admit it but he truly did love the blueberry muffins you’d leave for him outside his door in the mornings.

Your thoughts took over your attention to the game and it was the only thing that was running through your head and the last thing you thought of before shutting the game off and heading to bed early.

Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans

I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be

Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself

Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town

I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down

You say you're fine, I know you better than that

Hey, whatcha doing with a girl like that?

You and Joel had decided to hang out before he went back to New York for the rest of the offseason. He was a little upset that the team didn’t qualify for the cup but there were other things that mattered. Before the two of you were to hang out, he said he had some stuff to take care of and was going to be a little late. It was known that he knew the area more than you did and the first time the two of you hung out, he took you to a park he loved to go to whenever things were stressful for him.

So now you were sitting at the park bench waiting for him, just soaking in the sunshine that was shining down. Turning your head to look around the park, that’s when you saw him. His faded jeans with small rips in them, a yellow hoodie, and a smile that would make everyone else start smiling. You knew something was wrong though but you didn’t want to bring it up as you got up and hugged him. The two of you started to talk about everything and catch up due to him not being home and on a few road games. The two of you shared a laugh as he started to tell you about everything that happened. You always loved it when he smiled and laughed because it showed you that he was doing amazing. Since May came along, you couldn’t tell if he was forcing a laugh and smile or if he was genuinely doing it.

“Hey, how are you?”

“I’m good, tired, but good” he answered

“Bee, I know you. You’re lying.” you started as you took a look at him as he took a deep sigh

“We fought. Last night after she picked me up from the airport.” he started before getting cut off by her walking up to the two of them

“Joel?! I’ve been trying to reach you for 2 hours?” may shrieked before see saw you sitting next to him

“Oh I see why. Anyways, Joel sweetie, we have to go now. Remember?” she finished

“Yeah, you’re right. Sorry I didn’t realize how much time has passed” he told her standing up and turning to you

“I’ll talk to you later” he said as he began to walk away

“We’ll see about that” you thought as you gave him a small wave and smile while whispering a bye before turning back to what you were reading before.

Oh, I remember you driving to my house

In the middle of the night

I'm the one who makes you laugh

When you know you're 'bout to cry

And I know your favorite songs

And you tell me 'bout your dreams

Think I know where you belong

Think I know it's with me

Walking back to your apartment after your friend had just picked you up from the airport after visiting family for a bit, you didn’t expect Joel to be sitting outside your door, his head against the wall and eyes closed. You saw he was still wearing his suit which meant that he had a game that day and didn’t bother to change once he got back. You figured something was wrong and sat down right next to him as he looked at you with sad eyes

“Hey” you whispered taking his hand knowing he needed some at the time

“Let’s go inside, i know you’re tired but you need someone to talk to” you finished before getting up and him following you inside your apartment.

He felt a little bad that he was doing this knowing you had to be tired from traveling but you didn’t care at all. As soon as the two of you entered the apartment, you set your things aside and went to the kitchen to make the two of you some tea, knowing he needed something to calm down. As you gave him the tea, he was still quiet and wasn’t talking. You noticed he got rid of his jacket and took his tie off as he just stared at the floor. Something you just noticed as you took a look at him before speaking was that there were dried tear stains. Taking a deep breath after moments of silence, you decided you needed to ask him what was wrong

“As much as i love having you here and seeing you sitting outside my apartment when I got home, what happened?” you asked him

Joel was silent for a moment and took a sip of the tea before setting it down and releasing a sigh. At this point you knew it was bad if he were to start like that with how well you knew him in your 2 years of friendship.

“I found something that I didn’t want to find” he choked out, not wanting to look at you knowing you’d give him pity

“What’d you find?”

“May, she uh-” he breathed out before stopping himself and continuing

“She’s been seeing another guy.”

“Did you walk in-” you began to ask him before he cut you off

“No. I uh, saw the texts on her phone. She left it unlocked and it went off and I saw a suggestive text from a guy named Tyler” he finished, just staring at the ground

You didn’t really know what to do in this situation since you’ve never been in it. The most you thought you could at least do was try and make him smile. It hurt you to see him like this especially after the team was eliminated from competing in the playoffs and now this.

“Hey at least you won’t have to do anything she wants and can go home for the summer” you blurted out

“I’m sorry that was rude of me” you quickly apologized as he laughed a bit

“No, no it’s fine. I mean since we’ve been together I don’t remember the last time I got to actually spend time with my family or with friends without us doing what always wants to.” he laughed out

“I guess I can finally go fishing again and won’t have to worry about someone complaining other than my mom about holding the fish for a picture” he smiled.

There it was. The smile that you’ve been waiting for didn't seem forced.

“Hey there’s a show in a couple months, to that band you like and I wanted to know if you want to go with me?”

“Yeah of course. You know i’ll love going anywhere with you” he answered back

The two of you continued to talk. At this point, Joel had changed out of his suit and into something more comfortable, leaving you alone for a few minutes while you changed out of your plane clothes and put your suitcase in your room. The two of you were talking about anything that came to your heads, even if they were the most random things ever. Joel had asked you about why you decided to move to another state while you were still getting your degree. He knew the condensed version but seeing that you were both pouring your feelings out you might as well just tell him the real reason. During the entire time you were talking, he was looking at you and telling him about how you didn’t want to stay in the same city and state forever and how you needed a change of scenery.

“What about you?” you asked him while grabbing a red vine to eat

“What about me?” he asked laughing

“If you weren’t doing hockey what would you be doing?” you told him

“Wow, um. I feel like I would probably be doing something still involving working with people”

“Most jobs involve working with people” you said with a confused look making him laugh and throw a pillow at you as you shrieked

“You know what I mean” he started

“I mean I went to BU for general studies and I think I could do something that still involves being physical” “Oh yeah, a PE teacher. That’s hot, especially with those short shorts” you winked at him making him laugh and throw his head back

“No but for real. I don’t think there’s really anything there for me other than hockey” he shrugged.

There was a moment of silence between the two of you as you looked into each other's eyes. It was that moment where Joel realized that he loved you. He began to panic, but not show it, and tried to figure out an excuse to get out of your apartment

“Oh shit. Um it’s late. I should go, you know. Practice in the morning.” he said with a convincing voice hoping he could stay over, which you heard in his voice

“Why don’t you just stay over?” you started

“I mean, you’re already in your pajamas and it wouldn’t be the first time you’ve stayed over”

You weren’t lying that last part. There have been times where he has went out with the guys and came home to your apartment and just stayed the night on your couch.

“Yeah, sure. If that’s fine with you.” he asked

“Of course that’s fine with me, you know that” answering back as you took everything back to the kitchen

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you

Been here all along, so why can't you see?

You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door

All this time how could you not know, baby?

You belong with me, you belong with me

It was nearly the end of the summer and neither Joel nor you had admitted your feelings to each other. Everyone could see that it was about to happen but they didn’t know when. They knew that the two of you liked each other and have been pinning for each other since you two first met but didn’t know whether or not you’d both have the guts to do it.

The new season was about to start which meant that you wouldn’t be seeing him as often seeing that he’d be in Voorhees majority of the days training. The other wags had returned as well and while their boyfriends and husbands were at training, they decided one day after everyone had settled down, to get together and have a ladies day. School hadn’t started for you yet and they noticed and invited you out as well seeing how they missed you as well.

“Oh I missed you all so much” you told them as everyone was hugging each other

“We missed you too. How are things?” Karly had asked as they all sat down

“They’ve been good, you know? Nearly done with school, looking for internship opportunities, that kind of stuff” you stared after taking a sip of water

“How are you? How’s rhett?” you asked her

“He’s good, you know? Trying to adjust to being a parent still, but he’s amazing” she smiled as you could tell she loved being a mom

“Okay, Y/N, tell us what we all want to know” Maddie, Nic’s girlfriend asked

“What do you mean?” you answered, knowing what she was talking about but didn’t want to say

“You know, what is going on with you and Joel?!” Alma said

“Nothing is going on. He and May broke up after she cheated on him and that’s it.”

“So nothing happened over the summer?”

“I mean the most we did was facetime and text because he was with his family and I was with mine for a bit.” you shrugged thinking it wasn’t a big deal

“That’s still big. God the two of you are stupid, no offense” Alma said

“None taken but he only sees me as a friend” you began

“That’s not was Claude says” Ryanne added

“What do you mean?” you questioned the blonde

“I mean, every single time you came to a game, Claude would tell me afterwards how happy Joel would be when he saw you. Not to mention how he said he felt like you’re his good luck charm” she finished as you stayed quiet

The rest of the brunch was filled with laughter, talks about family, and relaxation. In Voorhees on the other hand, the guys were all gearing up and practicing for the preseason and the regular season. Joel had sent you a text earlier when he arrived asking if you wanted to hang out when he got back home, but hadn’t gotten an answer back since. He figured since you were out with the girls that’s why you weren’t answering. It was half true. He shook away the thoughts and headed back to the practice rink where everyone else was.

“So anything new in your life?” tk had asked

“Um not really. I mean my mom got me some new stuff for my apartment but other than that nothing else.” joel replied while hitting a puck causing TK to let out a sigh

“So you and Y/N haven’t admitted anything yet?”

“What do you mean? She doesn’t like me, she’s just a friend” joel said before TK hit him across the head as they skated over to everyone else

“No offense but you’re dumb”

“Why is he dumb?” oskar asked skating over to the group forming

“Because he hasn’t admitted his feelings to Y/N and he thinks they’re just friends” TK told them

“Oh yeah no offense you’re dumb” claude said before continuing

“I’m probably going to get in trouble for this, but last season when all the girls had one of their ladies nights it was at my house. Anyways, I was in the other room with Gavin and Y/N had too much but not too much to drink and she slipped something out that I heard over the baby monitor.”

“What’d she say?” Joel asked as they all leaned in waiting for their captain

“She revealed a big secret and, these aren’t the exact words but they are in that context”

“Y/N said “I just love Joel, but he’s with her and I don’t want to ruin that for him. He looks happy” claude finished as everyone turned their heads to Joel who looked shocked

“But she could mean-” joel started as his captain interrupted him

“She didn’t, she said your name. I’m not lying to you. The two of you have liked each other probably since you’ve met. I think it’s time for the two of you to admit your feelings to each other” claude finished, making the young forwards question everything

When practice ended, Joel saw that you messaged him back saying you’d leave your door open for him to come in when he’s not busy. When he saw your name, he started to smile, which made his heart start to beat faster. Grabbing his things, he left the rink and headed back home. You on the other hand were already back after spending a long day talking and a little bit of shopping. You haven’t touched your phone since you got home and sent Joel the text. Throughout the entire brunch time, the ladies have made you open your eyes more to show that Joel does love you and that you’re just blind to it.

It took him a while to go over to yours because he couldn’t help but overthink. He wanted to tell you everything and whether it was the right time or not. He didn’t want to go over as soon as he finished showering and changed, but he did want to go as soon to get everything off his chest. His teammates made him realize that the 2 years the two of you have known each other, that there was something going on between you two. He began to wonder how long you loved him and whether it was a recent thing or something that happened as the two became friends.

All he had to do was just grab the door handle, and twist it. It couldn’t be that hard for him, he’s done things that are a lot harder than this.

“Okay you can do this. It’s a simple job” he whispered to himself, rubbing his hands on his shorts to get rid of the sweat on his hands

He took one last breath before opening the door and seeing you passed out on the couch with Rocky Horror still playing on the tv. Before he walked over to you, he took a moment to smile at you and how peaceful you looked. He knew that it was time for him to admit everything that he’s been holding in. walking over, joel carefully shook your shoulder causing you to slowly open your eyes to see him crouching down to your level

“Hey, sorry I'm late. I had to take care of some things” he said as you sat up and he sat down next to you

“No it’s fine, you were busy earlier today. Also sorry for replying to your text late”

“No problem, as long as you responded, that’s all I cared about” he smiled. This was his chance to tell you now before it was too late

“Listen, I need to tell you something” he started making you take a deep breath

“Recently, there’s been something that i’ve wanted to get off my chest” he started

“I didn’t realize that it was there until now. For the past two years, there’s been this girl that I’ve made friends with as soon as I moved her. I was trying to get into my apartment one day not realizing I was at the door. I wouldn’t have realized it if it weren’t for this one girl. I became frustrated as I tried to open the door until she told me it was the wrong door and when I looked up, I saw a girl who took my breath away from that moment. She had this kind smile and was leaving for work, but I knew that I would love seeing her around. A little later we became friends and I began to invite her over to my games and she would cheer me on since then and become my number 1 fan other than my mom. I thought dating someone else would help me get rid of the feelings I had for her but it didn’t happen and I continued to ignore them. Over time, the team would tell me that she likes me and I like her. I then ignored them as well until now.” he let out in one breath as he held your hand

“What I’m trying to say is. I like- not even like anymore, love you and have been” he finished as he looked at you. You were shocked to say the least but no words left your mouth. The only thing you could do was smile before giggling

“There’s something I need to tell you. It’s nothing bad. When I was with the girls today, they told me how excited you’d be whenever I was able to go to the games and how I was your good luck charm” you told him as the two of you laughed

“That reminds me of something Claude told me about you at practice.” Joel said

“What’d he say?” you asked confusion running across your face

“He said that one night when you and the other wags were hanging out with Ryanne at their house, you ended up revealing a secret that he overheard over the baby monitor” he smiled as you could feel the heat rising to your face

“Oh my god. That’s so embarrassing” you said as you hid your face in your hands

“He told us a lot more than you said but I’m going to save you the embarrassment” he finished making you slowly release your face. There was a moment of silence between the two of you before he spoke up again

“Can I kiss you?” he asked looking in your eyes making you smile

“Yeah, you can” you answered him as the two of you leaned in

The kiss felt like it was forever for the two of you. His lips felt rough and chapped and still had the slight taste of a mint tea he had to help calm his nerves before he came over. To him, your lips were soft and had the taste of the mango chapstick he would always see you use. His hand was holding your face as he ran his thumb across your cheek before the two of you pulled away. Your foreheads were touching each other as the two of you laughed before pulling away. You couldn’t stop smiling and neither could Joel. This is what the two of you wanted and it happened after being stubborn.

“How about we do this thing for real. Y/N L/N, will you be my girlfriend?” he asked

“Joel Farabee, it would be my honor to be your girlfriend” you told him smiling before kissing him again

You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe

You belong with me?

You belong with me

[iphoenixrising]

I love your writing so much. It brings me so much joy. I recently re-read your Omega!tony fanfic and I fell in love again. do you plan to continue? Maybe where you left of on part 3? I don’t want to pressure you to write, but your writing gives me life. College is huge pain in my ass and your writing just brings me back to life. BTW quick question, are you familiar with Detroit become human. Because it is amazing and I highly recommend.

Hi babe

I have not watched Detroit become Human, but I will try to check it out after Znation on Netflix lol.

Ah, you have always been so wonderfully supportive of the AOB stuff, and I appreciate you. I’ll be totally honest here when I say I have a Google Doc of like WIPs that I come back to once and a while, and crazily enough, the Marvel AOB thing is something I’d started at some point at least, so I have a bit of content. 

I’m going to throw down a cut and put what I’ve got down there so you can check it out if you want. I mean, it’s not too much, but better than nothing? Lol maybe I’ll throw down what I’ve got of the Sentinel / Guide thing next ;)

There may have been things. Like this one first, this one second, and this one third. They’re from a bit ago, so probably more angst than you’ll see here, but I do love writing about WinterIronShield so there’s that. But, I do have a bit of an accent kink when it comes to the Brooklyn Boys, like how Steve kind of slips into it when he’s trying to talk Bucky down or soothe Tony’s anxieties. I just ah, well, yeahhhh.

***

Tony is writhing under that mouth, back arching helplessly. His inner Omega, now that he knows Jim and Steve wanted him before the truth ever came out, is right on board the care for the Alpha you’re been smitten with train. 

Because it’s safe. It’s safe to finally, finally give in.

And Tony Stark never does anything half-way.

He faintly hears Steve make a choked noise when he wraps his legs around Jim’s waist and wiggles his wrists in the unforgiving metal hand pinning them to the bed.

He moans in Jim’s mouth and pushes back a little.

“A-Alpha,” is something he never thought he’d hear himself say again, not after everything, not after Obie pulled him out of Ty’s grip the first time (and again the second).  But when Jim’s eyes dilate, when he purrs low, chest vibrating against Tony’s, the engineer feels the long trapped Omega deep in his belly start to unwind, the instincts take on a more powerful grip. 

It’s easier to leans up gingerly to nose and nuzzle, fingers straining to rub at the metal wrist, knowing where the pressure sensors are, where Jim can feel it.

“So pretty,” and those winter grey eyes focus on his red mouth, “gonna take care a’ ya, sweet little ‘Mega.”

Tony tightens his thighs, hitches his hips so he rubs against Jim’s big Alpha cock, “I want– Alpha, I want–”

But he gasps when James Barnes meets his thrusts, helps work them both up to panting. 

“Tell Alpha, Baby. Whadda ya need?”

And Tony’s eyes slide over to Steve, the other Alpha biting his bottom lip while he watches them together, takes in their scents, the sweetness of Tony now that the scent blockers are gone, Bucky’s musk even thicker with arousal. 

They smell like heaven.

(They smell like his.)

“Steve, let me...Fuck yes, like that…” his hips twitch and jerk, “let me...let me–”

The Captain has to breathe through his mouth, try to keep them all somewhat sane here, make sure it isn’t just instincts and pheromones, needs to make sure Tony won’t regret this later, won’t run later–

(and God, Steve can just image if he lets them service him during his Heat, has to bite down on his lip hard enough to hurt, to clench his fists to keep from reaching out just by thinking of Tony wet and open for them, moaning and screaming for them, coming on their knots over and over until he can’t even move and has to let them take care of him…)

“Anything you want, Tony,” Steve tries to make it gentle, but his tone has already dropped, has the edges of a growl, “tell Bucky what you need.”

The metal hand unlocks, freeing Tony’s wrist, and the mechanic can grip the Alpha’s forearms with trembling hands since he’s already shaky with the surge of arousal, of adrenaline, of instincts long, long denied.

“Don’t–don’t bite me, don’t mate me, but I...I–”

The bitter edge to his scent, the fear of being mated against his will is enough for Jim to unceremoniously flop down on him, pin him, and nuzzle against his throat, to lick over his pulse without teeth. The nail in Tony’s coffin is when Jim moves just enough to nuzzle against his jaw and lick.

It’s a submissive move, Jim trying to ease his fear, trying to show him they won’t hurt him, won’t do something so heinous as to try and mark an unwilling Omega.

“Shhh, shhh. None a’ that. Ain’t gonna do that ta ya, Tones. Never gonna do that.”

It might be this, the way Jim’s scent gets calmer, muskier, deeper, that makes Tony’s body start warming up, getting slick, opening up to be taken, riding the instincts he’s been suppressing for so long. And he revels in it a little, shifting his hips while he stares up at Jim’s face looming over him, those winter grey eyes serious and sincere, just like when he’s settled in a perch, at peace every time he fires a weapon in the name of the Avengers.

It’s the same look when Tony’s been hurt and tries to hide away in the lab, the look when Wanda’s eyes are glazed over with old pain, and Clint gets too twitchy, too quiet. It’s the look when Steve shivers even in summer or Bruce has to back away a step, an automatic hand out to stop anyone from coming closer.

It’s not Rut or Alpha. It’s all Mother-Hen James Barnes.

And when he sees it, Tony wants too badly to trust, wants too badly to have this with an Alpha he cares about (or more, but this isn’t the time or place for all of that), an Alpha he’s wanted and denied himself over and over.

The residual fear from earlier, the panic at his long-kept secret coming out fades a little when the proof is right here on top of him, more evidence next to him sneaking a hand over the blankets to weave their fingers together.

“We won’t let that happen, Tony. I swear,” and Steve’s eyes are just as serious, squeezing Tony’s hand gently. “You don’t have to do this. It’s okay if you don’t want this, you understand that right?”

Jim leans up a little to nuzzle their faces together, “s’ good ta us, Doll. Ain’t gonna hurt ‘cha. Ain’t gonna do nothin’ ya don’t want.”

“Are you going to let me up if I panic, James? Would you let me walk out of this room right now?” It’s a terrifying thing to ask, something Tiberius would have punished him for, would have fastened his wrists and ankles with restraints, would have kept him tied to the bed for days just to make a fucking point.

Gently, Bucky Barnes rises up slowly, shaggy hair in front of his eyes, making him look like a predator backing off the hunt. He doesn’t move any further back, doesn’t get up from between Tony’s thighs, doesn’t even look away from the bare span of chest, or the curve of Tony’s cock pressing against his zipper, making both Alphas’ mouths water.

“That’s...unexpected. Nice,” the engineer babbles a little to soothe himself, “good to know that’s a possibility. But it’s not what I want–”

“Plain English for us, sweetheart,” Steve slide only close enough to press Tony’s wrist to his mouth, to roll his blue eyes up, half-mast with pupils blown, to watch the Omega while he does it.

And oh, endearing pet names? 

That’s cheating.

“I haven’t had an Alpha in...years,” he rolls his eyes from one Alpha to the other, “I’m never going to talk about it, but it didn’t–there’s a reason I’ve kept it hidden. You get what I’m saying?” His hands automatically tighten down on Jim’s forearm and Steve’s hand.

“Tony,” is the rumble against his throat, gentle kisses along the tendon, the memory of their engineer’s terrified stance in the workshop.

Steve responds by standing, leaning over with his heart in his eyes, mind working at the implications, that he’d been right. Some Alpha hurt him, did awful things to make Tony this terrified for the world to know his orientation, to just let people assume he was an Alpha or a Beta. And in the years they’d been teammates and friends, all the years he’s had Iron Man at his back and Tony at Movie Nights or sparring practice, post-mission meals and impromptu picnics on the roof. So he knows, one of the few things Tony Stark respects more than smooth words and sentiments– 

–is action. 

He makes it clearer with the press of his mouth gently against Tony’s, gentle licks to entice him to open up, to let himself be had.

“You don’t have to hide from us anymore,” between submissive kisses.

“Gonna let us take care a’ ya instead, ain’t cha? Gonna let us be good Alphas ta ya?” And Jim leans up to watch Stevie at Tony’s mouth, the sight, the scent, bringing all his Rut symptoms closer to the surface, makes it so fucking hard to fight. 

He’d had to suppress everything as The Asset, had been trained to ignore those desperate wants, had been put on suppressants to control his cycle for as long as he’d been under their control. 

With the freedom to let it out, to be with his Alpha partner, to be completely open and possessive, marking what’s his.

After this, Tony Stark is going to be another thing his to add to the list. Another one he’s going to protect with his life, one his Alpha would scent mark obsessively, one his inner Winter Soldier would seek out first whenever there was trouble. 

Tony turns enough to be able to talk, giving more of his throat for both Alphas. “Yes,” he pants out, even though this is a terrible idea. “I want it, want you. Both of you if I can have it.”

He closes his eyes, feels Steve nibble at his jaw, under his ear, while Jim is moving along his collarbone. 

“Keep talkin’,” is lower, deeper from Steve, a hint of the Brooklyn Boy breaking lose. “How d’ya want us, Tony? Like this?” And a mouth slides lower, latches on to the tight nub on his chest, hot mouth sealing to suck.

“Maybe like this,” and Jim pulls off long enough to talk, to slide a hand in, fist the Omega’s cock at the base again while the metal one grips the back of a thigh, ruts against it with a groan.

And now it’s Steve’s scent getting heady, getting muskier, invading his senses, calling to the Omega in him, making him weave his fingers through the Alpha’s hair and hold him in place so he can arch into the sweet, sweet torture while his hips work against Jim’s hand.

“A-all of it. I want all of it,” is broken with a whine when his jeans and boxers are finally shoved down his legs, tossed carelessly away.

Both Alphas pull off him, pull away to sit back and look their fill.

It makes him squirm under their intense gazes, makes him turn away, his face getting warm.

“Sssh, sssh,” Steve come close enough to palm his face and turn him back, to make him look at them looking at him, “that’s it. We need to see you, Tony. We need to make sure you want this, so no looking away.”

“Be good fer us, Doll,” Jim moans, panting, running his hand up, up, up until he can feel the wetness, can open his palm to cup Tony’s balls, slide his other hand up to the base of their Omega’s cock, give him a few easy tugs. “That’s right, getting nice n’ wet. Betcha gonna be so tight f’ me, betcha I can make ya keen.”

“Yes, fuck, please,” Tony pants, trying so hard to be still when they’re still touching him, looking at him with heat and fondness. “I...I’ll be good.”

Steve leans in to nuzzle at his nose, being tender about it when his chest starts rumbling, a gentle purr while he makes his way to the engineer’s mouth. “If something isn’t right, what’s your safe word, Sweetheart?”

“I–” but his hips jerk uncontrollably when the first touch to his opening is so much and still moremoremore. He shudders, just tries to breathe out.

“Easy, Buck. This first,” and the smaller Alpha growls a little and shifts down to bury his mouth against Tony’s thighs instead.

“That’s it. Come back, Tony,” more nuzzles that feel nice and safe, slick tongue sliding over his femoral, kiss of teeth still making him breathless.

Jim keeps two fingers moving through his slick, teasing him with every pass over his opening despite the Captain’s orders.

“Color system,” helplessly, he pushes his hips into the touch, trying to get what’s just a promise with fingertips barely breaching him.

Steve gives him a dazzling smile, rewards him for being somewhat lucid with a thumb swirling over his nipple, teasing it into a peak.

“Red, Yellow, Green, Doll?” But Bucky doesn’t look away from the sight. Their pretty Omega laying out with Steve blanketing him, keeping him calm so Bucky can work him nice n’ dirty. He gets to move up and mouth at the Omega’s broad curve, running his tongue up the vein until he’s sucking at the head, teasing the slit to get a taste.

“Buck!” Steve reprimands half-heartedly when Tony cries out against his throat arching up into Steve’s hand.

“Yesyesyes fine, red, yellow, green, got it!” Tony manages to grit out between his teeth when warm and wet slides over him, and it’s a struggle whether to bury himself in Jim’s mouth or push back against those fingers, to get something deeper, closer to where he’s starting to need it.

His scent gets stronger, his arousal adding another layer of spicy sweet. Steve shamelessly buries his face in the side of Tony’s throat and breathes deep, a groan making his chest rumble. 

“Come on already,” he pants, “isn’t there an Alpha in Rut somewhere around here?”

“Shh, Tony. It’s okay. Your pheromones are keeping him under control until we get you ready,” the blond licks over his throbbing pulse, shamelessly groaning when he gets to scent-mark their engineer. 

“Are you kidding me? I’m ready, like yesterday kind of ready–”

Steve catches his mouth a second after a bite to his thigh in admonishment makes him jump.

“If you want Bucky’s cock, then you’re going to have to wait until he preps you,” is that Captain America giving an order kind of tone.

“This is such bullshit,” he whines, helplessly pinned by two beautiful Alphas. 

“Don’t worry, Doll. We’re gonna take good care a’ ya.”

The next roll of his hips and the fingers catch on his rim, burying themselves deep. The noise is obscene, but Steve won’t let him turn away, licks at his mouth until he opens up.

His noises are muffled, his fists clenching when the slow slide starts, Jim trying to be easy with him, gentle. 

Which is absolutely not what he needs, not after so long, not with how good they smell, how heady their combined musk is making him, how much he suddenly needs to take care of Jim’s Rut, help him sate the biological imperative.  

He doesn’t realize Steve’s trying to worm his fingers between Tony’s still clenched in the bedding, just squeezes when longer fingers interlace. It’s as much holding him still as comforting him while he groans around Steve’s tongue at the quickening thrusts.

The low growl becomes a rolling purr, is James Buchannon Barnes sinking deeper into his inner Alpha, the instincts he doesn’t have to suppress, and that could be why he isn’t a raging animal right now – almost seventy years without a Rut notwithstanding. 

By all rights, if he was a normal Alpha hitting Rut, he should be throwing Steve right the hell off his Omega and fucking into the engineer immediately to sate the growing need.

If he hadn’t been tortured out of his Alpha instincts by Hydra, if he hadn’t been on and off deep freeze, if it wasn’t Tony under him, he might have gone into a Rage and fucked the Omega until he screamed for it.

He adds another finger, mouth watering at the scent of Tony’s slick, the wet squelch telling him the Omega wanted this, wanted him, wanted them.

“Pleasepleaseplease,” said against Steve’s mouth when the thrust of fingers gets faster, harder, and he arches his back up into them. 

“So good for us, Tony,” Steve noses his face to the side to lick over his pulse again, set his teeth in the meat of their mechanic’s shoulder. “Just a little more. How’s he doing, Buck?”

“Fucking beautiful, Stevie,” and Jim licks his lips, eyes all for the show, “he’s so ready, so wet. Gonna work ‘im a lil’ more, get ‘im crying for it.”

Steve looks over his shoulder and grins shamelessly at the expression on Bucky’s face, the one that’s completely focused on what he’s doing.

That’s when Tony gets with the program because he’s just about done being tortured. All it takes is for a hand to wiggle in front of Steve’s crotch and palm him through his pants, give a few squeezing strokes. It makes Steve rear up, gasping in pleasure as Tony planned, so he can move his other hand to Jim and pull those fingers out of his wet ass.  It’s more instinct that guides him to rise to his knees and face the Alphas head on.

“Let me service you through your Rut, Alpha,” is all Jim needs to hear from the beautiful Omega, naked on his knees, smelling like ready, willing, and waiting. He’s flushed with pleasure, with their marks on his skin, and he’s–

–presenting.

It’s something so terribly traditional as Tony turns around and lowers his chest to the bed, spreading his knees to offer himself.

Jim’s mouth falls open in soft awe, and Steve makes a noise that sounds painful.

But Tony turns his face to the side, looking back, mouth open and kiss-swollen, pink down to his chest, and his hands move up the back of his thighs until he spreads himself, giving them the show of a lifetime.

“Alpha...take me.” 

Is really James Buchannon Barnes’ undoing.

**

“S-Stevie,” is a low growl, the Alpha in him hitting some hard limits. “He yelps, ya pull me back, no matter what.”

Breathing in through his mouth, Steve moves off the bed with one last shuffle of fingers through Tony’s sweaty hair, “don’t worry, Buck, I won’t let cha hurt ‘im. You hear that, sweetheart? You’re gonna check in, okay?”

“Mmm,” Tony braces his elbows and lowers his back on instinct, feeling the muscles stretch, “green. Green, Alpha.”

[sometimesrosy]

Your thoughts on the parallels between Octavia and Clarke's respective identities as Bloodreina and Wanheda? And on the possibility of Niylah reprising her role as the accepting loyalist and us getting canon Octavia/Niylah as perhaps a way to take some of the sting out of endgame Bellarke for the wlw community?

That is a good question, and I’m not sure I have a theory on Wanheda and Blodreina parallels. I do know that I have a different take on Wanheda, because while western society associates death with evil, a lot of other societies don’t? It’s a part of life. One that can’t be avoided. And also, in considering Commander of Death, the commander doesn’t only decide that people will die, she also decides who will live. It’s LIFE and death, really. Clarke saves as much as she kills. She heals. The knife is an edged blade that can kill but it can also do surgery and cut out the poison so that the body can keep living. In the tarot, the Death card actually represents REBIRTH, not death. And seeing as this is a story about the apocalypse, the end of the world and saving humanity from the brink to bring it back, Wanheda can’t be as simple as “genocide king.” 

Blodreina is different. First there’s no tarot card for it….although…. wait… There are lots of queens. Blodreina could represent Queen of Cups, because blood is liquid, but that represents the heart and emotion and Octavia is dead inside. She could be Queen of Cups reversed, blocked because of her broken heart. Or she could be the Queen of Swords, which fits with her persona, but not the name. No. I googled. not queen of cups. what was I thinking. Octavia is definitely queen of swords. Definitely reversed. Remember the poster had wonkru reversed? (btw, Clarke is wands, Bellamy is cups, Octavia is swords and Raven is pentacles, and i knew that already. The symbolism has always worked. Like the chess metaphor, I believe they’re using those archetypes. The blood in blodreina threw me off.)

Description of Q of Swords

The Queen of Swords sits on a stone throne decorated with a cherub, representing the Queen’s softer side, and butterflies representing transformation. She faces towards the future, with her left hand raised as if to receive, and in her right hand, she holds a sword up high and straight, representing her desire to find the truth in all matters. [x]

That’s clearly an earlier Octavia, butterflies, swords and all. But in the bunker, she went into the upside down and became the reversed, blocked negative version of herself.

At times, the reversed Queen of Swords can come across as cold-hearted, resentful and bitchy, particularly if she is devoid of any emotion or compassion for others. This card may represent a part of yourself or someone else you are trying to deal with. You may be putting others off-side and losing your supporter base, isolating yourself from others and being seen as narrow-minded, intolerant and mean. [x]

Actually, if you want to go this site, you can look up the court cards, notice that s1 Octavia is the Page of Swords, season 2, 3, and 4 Octavia is the Knight of Swords, and s5 is reversed Queen of Swords, although she has the clear potential to be upright and transform her darkness. What I noticed is that Clarke and Bellamy are both the queen and king of their suit, respectively. You never saw their growth from page to knight to q/k. that reflects their status as heroes, I think. (I have not analyzed the pentacles, because I’m trying to stick to the question.)

So I need to say that Blodreina and Wanheda are NOT parallels. Wanheda is on another level from Blodreina. Octavia finally made it to a Queen card, and that is on a worldly level, not actually reflecting her journey of fate. Clarke’s fate is as Wanheda. She is going to save the world and she’s already started. She didn’t get there for two seasons, while she was saving her people. 

Sorry if I went tarot reader on you, but Wanheda and Blodreina are both tarot archetypes. So symbolically, that’s what I needed to look at. Blodreina is a court card, and it’s important and a leader, but in the worldly sense. While Wanheda is the major arcana, and this is fate, higher purpose, the larger story at hand. If Octavia is getting a major arcana title, it hasn’t happened yet. 

Okay that was a lot more than I expected it to be and i’m only 1/3 of the way into your question.

I don’t know what’s happening with Niylah. I had high hopes for Niytavia, and it’s at least hinted at, but I don’t know if they’ll make it canon or just leave it as subtext, or put it in the past. I don’t know if they usually do that, but, I’m afraid that Niylah isn’t strong enough to be with Octavia. She needs a stronger partner, because otherwise she’ll walk all over them and turn them into her subject. :( I mean, you don’t want to be with someone who thinks of you as a goddess, because that’s worship not a relationship. She needs a partner.

And then Marie made comments about JORDAN and Octavia and I was like, uh oh. Because Jordan’s innocence is something that Octavia needs to regain, if she ever had it, because Octavia represents HUMANITY and she’s so fallen and darkened and traumatized. So in her symbolic presence in the story, she doesn’t need Niylah. She needs to resolve her loss of Lincoln and what he taught her, but she also needs her INNOCENCE back, her HOPE. And Jordan represents that. 

So as for Niytavia being used as a kind of apology for wlw fans? I’m not sure they’re doing that. I did spec that in season 4 I think. But I think that would be kind of mean and cynical, as if like you could buy someone a puppy when their beloved dog died and that replaces what they’ve lost. Like, you can’t replace one ship with another and make it okay. you know? And tbh I don’t think it was JUST because CL was wlw that it was loved, I think it was because it was a traditional fantasy fairytale story. It wasn’t a very special episode about ‘being” lgbt, it was a FULL story, just like straight people have always gotten, but the main characters were wlw. It was a story for women who wanted genre stories where they got to be the heroes and the love interests. Like, the stories of minority people are not just about how hard it is to be a minority. We’re people. And we have all the same stories as the people who have gotten to be heroes for millennia. 

I do have a speculation that seems almost unavoidable to me at this point. And it is about endgame CL. Because Lxa is in the flame, and Clarke was a commander and in the flame, and when a commander takes the flame, their consciousness is downloaded into the AI, so even though Clarke did not DIE, her consciousness should actually BE in the flame. So in that case, if they address it (and I think they did hint that flameClarke is in there by some of the things Madi said,) then FlameClarke and FlameLxa are currently together in the flame, and will indeed have an endgame, immortal romance. 

I don’t know how that might be received by the wlw community, if they will feel that as an epic story or as a cheat. Because I doubt that The 100 will follow the story of FlameCL on screen, but it does open up an almost unlimited universe for fanon and speculation in which CL is real. The rumors of Alycia returning for a cameo would support this theory, although I’m not a fan of rumors, so id on’t know.

However, I think endgame FlameCL will also be paired with the in canon story of Bellarke endgame. And I know that just makes the CL fandom angry on principle, so I guess that’s where I wonder if they will accept a FlameCL endgame or think of it as a cheat. 

[softboyholland]

mj gets knocked up in her last year of college

she goes to harvard and he's mit

so she barely ever sees him

and on top of that, he picks up the whole spidey thing again

so when they reunite things get rlly heated obvs

but then

she gets pregnant w his CHILD SKJKJK

and she finds out like a month before her finals

she keeps it to herself

although she knows the right thing to do is to tell him

but tbh she couldn't even if she wanted to

that’s how busy he is

so now her hormones are x100

and then the daily bugle's front page is of spider-man kissing some girl

WHO IS NOT HER

AND THAT IS THEIR SPECIAL upside-down KISS

ok so great whatever right

it totally does not matter at all that this

GIRL MUST BE THE PRETTIEST GIRL SHE'S EVER SEEN

but whatever

he was probably on the spot so he had to do it

it's fiNEEEE

then they schedule a date

and mj decides that enough is enough

and not telling him that she's carrying his OWN CHILD is a lil stupid

but that date is a disaster

bc for the most part of the date, he only talks about some girl called gwen stacy and some grand scheme between the two of them that she wasn't even listening to

and then in the 20 min mark, something happens and he leaves because he's gtg save the world!! wooo

and whatever she's not even surprised

so she goes home

and from simple googling, she realises that gwen stacy is the same person he kissed the other day

well isn't this rich

so now she's afraid

and she's never been this afraid because WHAT THE FUCK

MAYBE HE WOULDN'T WANT THE KID

and maybe she should abort her child

(that she's already grown attached to) but she doesn’t know that

so she calls liz and tells her about her plan and her dilemma

and liz tells her to take another pregnancy test

because maybe she's been cutting down on all her caffeine for nothing

and liz does that thing that phoebe does to rachel in friends

(for those of u who have never watched friends, liz tells her that the test came back negative and michelle starts tearing up because she's been attached to this baby already and now it's just gone so she's crying but then liz says that she lied and that the test is actually positive and michelle realises thats she wants to keep the baby)

and they both scream when they realise that there's a tiny smol growing inside of her

and michelle is crying omg

but then, she has a bigger problem

aka the father of this tiny smol

ok so liz tells her to wait until the whole gwen thing blows over

and that if peter doesn't come to his senses, she's going to take this whole gwen thing into her own hands

but somehow she finds herself looking at her reflection in the mirror, two weeks later

her hair is a greasy, knotted mess, at the top of her head, and there's a teeny tiny bump that most ppl mistake as a food belly there are dark circles under her eyes, and her skin looks rlly dull and her eyes are all red and puffy

then she thinks of gwen and her perfect eyes, and her perfect face and wow!

now she feels like shit

but whatever, she decides

because rn she just needs to get thru her finals

which are in two weeks btw

bc she will find a job and she will be able to support her baby

she knows it

so she studies like hell right

but then she takes like a practice test and she F A I L S

FAILS

MICHELLE JONES NEVER FAILS

and then she finally snaps

because her overbearing parents are going to kill her for getting knocked up by some white boi who doesn't even love her anymore

and now she's never gonna graduate from uni and she'll never be able to support her baby financially

and her parents aren't even going to help her because they'll probably disown her

then peter shows up at her apartment

and she wipes away her tears

but peter isn't stupid

um hELLO??? HE KNOWS WHEN THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE HAS BEEN CRYING

but she goes in for a kiss

and wow! he's missed her so much

then things start getting heated and she pushes him away'

and she decides to break up w him

don'T BLAME HER

HER HORMONES ARE A MESS RN

and then peter gets pissed

because he's stressed too

and don't think he hasn't noticed her distant replies to his snapchats and his texts

SO IT BECOMES A FULL BLOWN FIGHT IN HER APARTMENT

AND THEN FINALLY HE LEaves

and maybe the hinges on her door are a little loose bc of him slamming it so hard

but don't be fooled he never actually L E A V E S ???

like duh

he just stands outside her apartment and listens to the faint sobs coming from inside

and although he wants nothing more than to go back inside and to apologise and hug her, he knows that it's only going to make things worse

so he calls ned

when ned gets there, they spend 10 mins silently arguing outside of her apartment

then finally ned goes in

and well when peter slams the door behind him, mj breaks down

because her life has officially gone to shit

and she calls liz and liz is telling her to calm down and that she'll be there asap

but when the door bursts open and ned comes walking in

she decides that this is probably liz's work??

and when ned hugs her, she doesnt say anything but she subconciously holds her belly

then ned looks down at her and he's like

are u on ur period dood

bc maybe this is just a hormone-induced fight and peter's making a huge deal out of it

but she takes one look at her belly and starts crying again bc she's reminded of her situation

ned, as oblivious as ever, hugs her until she stops crying

so when peter hears mj crying again as he nervously paces outside her apartment

he groans and nearly hits liz

wait

liz toomes allen??

what's she doing here

then he remembers that oh ya right she's close to mj

and the first thing she does is hit peter across the head

gr8

"that's for hurting mj"

and then mj caves and tells ned everything

and finally, she gets around to the pregnancy part

NED'S CRYING NOW

BECAUSE OMG HE'S ONLY EVER DREAMt OF SPIDEYCHELLE GETTING PREGNANT

but then he subtly texts peter

'DUDE GET UR BUTT OVER HERE NOW, IT'S NOT WHAT YOU THINK IT IS.'

but no reply because well, he's too busy fuckin having a heart-to-heart w liz

turns out that the whole gwen stacey thing was a scheme

bc gwen stacy was losing her job at the daily bugle and her boss is only interested in spider-man shit

so gwen, his childhood best friend before ned, who knows about his secret identity, offered him a job at the bugle in exchange for some news

and they kissed at some public event and now peter isn't in debt anymore because he has cash

also gwen is gay lol

eventually liz and ned leave

and peter is still contemplating leaving mj alone but he ends up falling asleep on her doorway like a creepy creep-creep

then he's woken up at 12 am bc of his spidey senses

and he bursts thru the door and finds mj on the floor, clutching onto her belly as if her life depended on it and there's a hint of tears in her eyes

now mj doesn't have spidey senses like peter so she has no idea that he's been outside her door for the past 2 hrs

so he helps her up

and then she's like 'sorry, i fell and i landed on my butt and i nearly thought i lost em-'

peter nods because thATS TOTALLY A NORMAL SENTENCE YES VERY-

wait

'you lost what?"

MJ PANICS

welp here goes

then she leads him to the couch

"pls don't freak out."

"that's what you said when you first kissed me so..."

"ok, well, um, remember that night after the uh the battle in manhattan.."

peter smiles

BECAUSE BOYYYYYYY, DOES HE REMEMBER THAT NIGHT

PHEW THAT WAS LEGENDARY

"right ok, so you know there was a lot of tension, and urgency, i guess we kind of forgot to use uh protection."

she gauges his reaction

but he seems normal

she takes a deep breath because wow she's really saying those words

"peter, i'm pregnant."

and he's still nodding along in understanding

jesus christ

but then his eyes widen and

wait

"holy shit! y-you're um, wow! wait, is it mine?"

she smacks his arm

"yes it is, you fuckin idiot! i wouldn't cheat on u!"

"right."

and then silence

"look, i'm keeping them. if you don't want to be involved in this whole...thing, then fine. it's your choice. i'll figure it out on my own, i don't need you any-"

"woah, woah, hold the phone. why are you already taking my child away from me?"

"because, PETER!! i don't think you'd want a baby with me, of all people, after going around and kissing gwen!!! and with your finals coming soon, and with spider-man duties!!!."

"so, that's why you've been so distant! michelle..."

and he explains the whole gwen thing to her and he assures her that he still loves her very much

and that he's been in love w her ever since they were 17 and he still is even when they're 23

"so, you still want to.." and she looks down at her belly

"yeah."

then she starts crying because of her finals and what if she never graduates and she's so glad that he's with her on this

and he kisses her sweetly, her tears on both of their lips, as he tells her that they're going to figure it out together

and that, my friends, is the story of how peter found out about michelle's first pregnancy

[smallblanketfort]

do you have tips on taking notes?

yes!! i have many, so i tried to make it easier for you to navigate :)

L O N G post ahead of you, covering lecture notes and readings notes, from a college senior :)

lecture notes:

i suggest using a notebook and pen, physically writing down. it’s easier to study, and since it’s using your body, you have a much higher retention rate on your side than if you use a laptop.

i have used my laptop for taking notes before. it’s easier to take more notes, word for word, but that’s not always helpful. maybe that’s your style, especially if you enjoy rewriting your notes all pretty and more successfully when you get home. i am not that girl. 

more notes does not always equal better! it’s good for you to listen actively, selecting what is important and what is not. i take very thorough notes. i take a lot of notes. if you need notes for a missed class, i. am. your. girl. that doesn’t mean i write out everything word for word. selecting details, clauses, and images really helps me to not only keep up, but also to memorize later. plus, when you’re typing, it’s easier to type all the words out without really processing the whole meaning. remember that dense notes are harder to study

finally, when you write by hand, you can get more creative with your style. occasionally, i’ll web notes out from one, rather than a traditional outline, bc it makes more sense for the topic

it also helps my anxiety! so much! if i force myself to take great in depth notes, then my mind has to dedicate more brain space to the task at hand than to my anxieties.

stick to one of these though. it really sucks to get into a test and realize you didn’t study half of your notes bc you forgot half were on your laptop. it’s awful lol.

if you use a laptop, get used to how it works first. do u know how much i resent trying to switch from a bullet that is under other bullets (like this one, not filled in) to a main point bullet (the ones filled in). it can be so confusing. also make sure you use a program you like. you can take directly into documents, but i find that i really love evernote, as i can make notebooks for classes, stacks of notebooks for my college, and that i can tag notes with specific classes and topics.

if you’re on paper, for fuck’s sake, divide your notebook into sections for classes. keep it all together. those notebooks with handy dandy dividers are so helpful, and they keep you from carrying around 5 notebooks at once.

i wouldn’t worry too much about highlighters and such in class. there’s just so much going on then. save highlighting and color coding for later, and count it as studying.

don’t worry about traditional outlining styles, with roman numerals or whatever. i take notes very simply. bullets/dashes, subnotes under a broad note. 

do it how it makes sense to you! maybe that includes different bullet styles, different places for different types of information (on a simple level, i start writing chapter numbers and titles as far to the left as i can go, over the margins, in bold and capital letters. i also usually go over these later in a certain color marker)

in some classes it is helpful for me to write the topic along the top of the page in a highlighter (color coding is lovely) the main idea/topic for each page. the classes this was most obviously helpful in were astronomy (COMETS or BLACKHOLES etc) and shakespeare (MUCH ADO ACT 2 or ROMEO etc)

it’s easiest to just note page numbers of referenced complex diagrams, as they are usually in your reading or accessible online

your style might look different in each class. whatever works.

note everything (everything) your professor writes on the board. if it’s important enough for your professor to write it, it’s probably important enough for you to write it.

note examples only if it’s helpful for your memory. however, make light note of things like famous people and their science/psych experiments. but in math and such, note! the! examples! and! reasons! will help you so much.

examples that have emotion, imagery, or sound are going to be more helpful. applicable examples are most helpful. good professors will lecture you accordingly. lazy ones will not.

star anything that the professor stresses or hints will be tested. anything that they say is a major theme or whatever.

note main ideas/points/themes, definitions, conclusions, 

use your tests to help you figure out what you need to know. ask questions about the tests too. in every class i’ve taken, i’m totally shocked at how willingly people ask about exam format and how willingly the professor will tell us how it will work. they want you to succeed.

people learn differently! i suggest taking notes in class and later adding touches that help you. count it as study time too. a warm up, if you will. 

if you’re visual, this might include highlighting, color coding, drawing diagrams, etc.

 if you’re an auditory learner, reading the notes out loud and organizing them accordingly, as well as making up rhymes, rhythms and such, might help you. some auditory learners actually like to record lectures and listen to them later. 

if you learn best through movement, rewriting or making flashcards will be great for you.

sometimes professors go really. fuckin. fast. why. idk? but

dont be afraid to ask them to go back a slide bc i guarantee, you will be the class hero for asking

develop a little bit of shorthand. sometimes i end up using initials, arrows, abbreviations… this is where i got “bc” and “thru” and “u” and such. lol. also, list things vertically, rather than using commas and “and/&/+) it’ll be more clear later

some professors you literally cannot take notes on. it sucks. you’re going to need to do the readings and pick their brains on how the test will be to figure out how to prepare. take home tests are your best friend. thank god for them. seriously. get your butt to church and do some worshipping.

if your professor puts powerpoints online, save the powerpoints, ya never know.

look at inspiration if you want, but remember that notes on studyblr are usually copied from class notes. if you’re too focused on how pretty your notes are, good luck to you

finally, the day before an exam, i review my notes that i have (hopefully) been studying. i like to make a one page cheat sheet / study guide on everything i didn’t remember, leaving out everything i understand, memorized, or want to disregard. 

reading notes:

ima be real and tell you i hardly ever do reading unless i will be tested on it in class in multiple choice. and im an english student. ye i suck, i know. i dont condone shirking the system but u know what, reading shakespeare or 18th century lit literally makes me want to kill myself. so, im a senior in college, and have barely ever done the reading for a class. the thing is, if you do it right, anything is better than just reading the words on the page and not getting the meaning. dont be a reading zombie. read actively, even if it’s not the actual reading. doing this, i have a 3.9 gpa. so. there’s hope for us yet.

first of all, yall need to do your damn reading. idc how. but due to the fact that a test will be multiple choice, essay answer, a presentation, or a paper, you’re going to not love pulling nothing out of your ass. can be done tho. just be fake deep.

that being said, i’m writing a lot below, but the reality is that if it’s lit, your notes dont have to be longer than a sentence. if it’s a textbook, more.

the same formatting question comes into play here, except it’s should you take notes in your book or in a notebook?

listen i’m always going to be pro notebook, pro physically writing it out as it helps me really get the information into my head, rather than more passively highlighting

i tend to do both, if im willing to mark up a book. i underline and highlight things that stick out to me, and i write them down as well. sometimes when reading literature/essays, if i know the contextual/meaning notes will be interesting to me later, i will copy notes both into my notebook and also less in depth onto post it notes (which also make sweet little flashcards btw), which i will stick into the passage. this is so helpful when a) im reading it again later and b) when we are discussing a passage in class

buy used books. it’s cheaper. until it happens to u, u do NOT UNDERSTAND how EXCITING it is to get a book that has highlights and underlines in it ALREADY. DUDE. my work is basically DONE for me. now take that lightly, bc often different ppl will highlight different pieces of information. however, it is helpful.

look up summaries. do not simply rely on cliffsnotes and sparknotes, esp since professors are very aware of these. google “title of book, summary, chapter notes, whatever youre looking for” and use the blog posts, the book reviews, the papers that come up. does this method probably take a bit longer? maybe? but it’s easier on my tired brain.

if you don’t have time to read your textbook one day and really want to, read the introduction and the conclusion to the chapter, or the first and last sentences to the paragraphs. it’s not great, but it’s something.

like your lectures, note definitions, conclusions, and helpful examples, as well as people and dates. if i’m reading literature and i’m deciding to be a smart student i will keep several logs as well. these logs will make it so. easy. to study for your exam:

updated character lists, including name, relationships, and anything defining and important

scene/chapter summaries, just a sentence summarizing what happened where

any quotes or themes that stand out

i highly highly highly recommend getting your hands on a copy of the well educated mind for note taking on a range of genres. this is what i had to use through high school and while it’s involved, it’s incredibly helpful.

if you’re going to have to cite your notes, note the page number in the margin every time you flip the page

the biggest issue i have with reading is when and where to do it. before or after class? always ask your professor if they do not tell you. where in your notebooks? i always do it on the next blank page bc leaving space stresses me the fuck out. make notes on the top of your pages of corresponding lectures/readings. 

for both lectures and readings i really really really suggest either having something to drink or something to snack on (think fruit, loose nuts, m&ms. small loose things rather than things u bite? idk they just last longer?)

okay i hope this was somewhat helpful even tho it’s an incredibly longwinded post. it seems like a lot, but the reality is that while i take a lot of notes, i don’t make them complicated, i don’t have rules, i just do what feels right in the moment. they’re not at all stressful. just take it easy and do whatever works for you :) 

if anyone has other tips, feel free to reply :)

[wisehowell]

just a lot of questions

got tagged by @teatowelhowell to answer these 92 questions- that’s a lot, btw THE LAST 1. Drink: water 2. Phone Call: one of my best friends to rant about something 3. Text Message: hm oh on sc i was ranting about bts to another best friend 4. Song You Listened To: let’s open spotfiy... coming home by tuen/anki. oh that’s a good song. i don’t think anyone knows it exists, but 5. Time You Cried: heh like i remember i probably hit my toe against something HAVE YOU EVER 6. Dated Someone Twice: lol single life (my parents no let me anyway) 7. Been Cheated On: heh 8. Kissed Someone And Regretted It: heh 9. Lost Someone Special: my grandma :( also three best friends bc we went to different high schools and it was too hard to stay together 10. Been Depressed: uhm no i’m too confident it’s kinda insane but yea 11. Gotten Drunk and Thrown Up: yep, at age fifteen. (altho i’m like 19ish days away from sixteen) LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS 12. teal, green with a hint of blue. not aqua, which is blue with a hint of green. 13. silver (especially if it shimmers) 14. a rich blue IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. Made New Friends: of course! i made about thirty, idk. but i love em all. some graduated high school tho so now i’m sad 16. Fallen Out of Love: what is love 17. Laughed Until You Cried: duhhh 18. Found Out Someone Was Talking About You: nah i’m that “smart, cute girl that’s too loud and follows every rule ever” according to my friends we got no drama 19. Met Someone Who Changed You: my four best friends 20. Found Out Who Your True Friends Are: mhm. for now. but college... 21. Kissed Someone On Your Facebook: do you mean ig or sc bc fb is dead 22. How Many of Your Facebook Friends Do You Know in Real Life: like i have fb no it’s for old people like my parents 23. Do You Have Any Pets: a hermit crab named digger! nickname- diggles 24. Do You Want To Change Your Name: well my name is annoying bc ‘phoebe’ is never in any gift shops and people (guy friends mostly) say it wrong on purpose or spell it wrong. people i’ve known for years spell my name wrong- pheobe. i’d change it to idk what something cool like olivia or kat. 25. What Did You Do For Your Last Birthday: that was a year ago jeez but i think i went to a waterpark 26. What Time Did You Wake Up: 7, altho today was a rarity usually it’s 8ish 27. What Were You Doing at Midnight Last Night: tumblr and anime and sc 28. Name Something You Cannot Wait For: taylor swift’s new album. yes i’m a swiftie. fight me. 29. When Was The Last Time You Saw Your Mother: last night i’m still in bed lol 30. What is One Thing You Wish You Could Change About Your Life: my mom having the job she wants instead of being a librarian. nothing about me tho i’m good. 31. What Are You Listening To Right Now: i paused my music for that other question but okay the same song as before 32. Have You Ever Talked To a Person Named Tom: i know a tommy? but his full name is thomas. 33. Something That Is Getting On Your Nerves: fffffa- i’m not saying 34. Most Visited Website: google 35. Elementary: idk what that is but im assuming you mean primary school? so my favourite memories of primary school was egg-rolling in the park, my first best friend, sandboxes, jumping pig game, the ditch, cleaning fruit baskets, horrible pizza,SITTING ON THE MOTHERFUCKIN BENCHES, the music trolley, the ditch, love tunnel, shirt signing, plimsolls, penguin bar jokes, bringing in an old shirt for art, lunchables, recorder lessons, the shoes from clarkes with the shitty toys in the heel, doughnut socks, the 3d shape bag,PGL/ Residential trips, stuck in the mud, turning the lights off in the toilet, biff and chip, being told we were to big for the play equipment in year 6. (I feel like that was the most british thing I’ve ever written and any americans probably have no fuckin clue what half of these things are)

OKAY BUT I’M KEEPING  WHAT @teatowelhowell PUT BECAUSE as an american i have no idea what this says. like jumping pig game? lol is that like the frog jump game kids do? but pigs are frogs bc maybe there’s no frogs over there? altho i don’t think so. i know what a trolley is from british vlogs. but love tunnel? plimsolls? shoes with toys in the heels? biff and chip? huh? girl your language is confusing. as for my elementary it was pretty and i made a lot of friends but they all went to a diff high school & middle bc of boundaries so i only know like ten people from my elementary in high school. 36. High School: should i tell you? my mascot is shark 37. College/University: hm i wanna go to uc davis or uc something. 38. Hair Colour: brown with goldish highlights that are natural bc my dad used to be completely blond and i guess i got some of that 39. Long Hair or Short Hair: like medium 40. Do You Have A Crush On Someone: no bro just jensen ackles 41. What Do You Like About Yourself: i make friends with literally everyone i love it 42. Piercings: no bc i do year round soccer- for like ten years- so i never had time XD also i know why piercings are popular and how it all started with early us- natives- so idk it seems kinda uncivilized to stick a hole in a body part and put a stone in it. so when i’m done with soccer i don’t think i’ll pierce my ears bc it’s kinda weird to me 43. Blood Type: my parents don’t even know. whatever the most common one is, i’m sure 44. Nickname:(phoebe is pronounced FEEBEE) phoebs, phoebster, fo-e-be, phobe wan kenobi, anne (i give other people nicknames usally) 45. Relationship Status: go away 46. Zodiac Sign: leo. roar. 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show: Supernatural, Reign, Once Upon a Time, Sherlock, Arrow, Gravity Falls when it still lived 49. Tattoos: no 50. Right or Left Hand: right FIRST 51. Surgery: i had an extra tooth so i had to get that taken out before it grew in. but i also destroyed my elbow in kinder and had to get stitches? idk if that’s a surgery 52. Piercing: we went over my feelings on them 54. Sport: soccer! did flag football with my soccer team too for two years it was fun but all the guy teams beat us bc we weren’t really trying we were just laughing 55. Vacation: uhm my parents take me a lot of places so idr. uhmmm maybe yellowstone? 56. Pair of Trainers: trainers? uhm are those pants? a bra? oh lol i looked it up. they’re tennis shoes. my first pair were probably just nike. 57. Eating: wtf ? is this like the first time i remember eating? << wisehowell agrees with her. 58. Drinking: i’m not old enough to drink legally so 59. I’m About To: eat breakfast? 60. Listening To: uhm whattt i just said i paused the dang song so same oneee but here i’ll rec you a few artists: BANNERS, LIGHTS, and clairity. (those two are supposed to be caps) 61. Waiting For: school to kill me 62. Want: nothing just my friends 63. Get Married: sure 64. Career: that’s confusing YOUR TYPE 65. Hugs or Kisses: hugs 66. Lips or Eyes: eyes altho i have brown eyes and everyone hates brown eyes so idk man. but i’ve never been complimented on my eyes in my life so i feel rude if i say eyes bc as a lame eyed i know how cruel it is to judge by eye color 67. Shorter or Taller: i’m 5ft flat so everyone is taller than me 68. Older or Younger: idc 70. Nice Arms or Nice Stomach: no 71. Sensitive or Loud: idc 72. Hook Up or Relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or Hesitant: neither bro 74. Kissed a Stranger: no 75. Drank Hard Liquor: no I’M FIFTEEN usa has strict drinking laws okay like yea my uh fun friends get high and drunk but i’m a valedictorian i gotta keep my rep 76. Lost Glasses/Contact Lenses: i have glasses but i would never lose em 77. Turned Someone Down: when someone turns up i’ll let you know how it goes << I’M LAUGHING 78. Sex on First Date: again do i need to say my age 79. Broken Someone’s Heart: some guys had crushes on me and my friends told me that they told them like a year later so i guess i did 80. Had Your Heart Broken: no 81. Been Arrested: no, i luv rules 82. Cried When Someone Died: wth 83. Fallen For a Friend: nah my guy friends are too stupid to love DO YOU BELIEVE IN… 84. Yourself: yea 85. Miracles: no god isn’t real 86. Love at First Sight: uh we’ll see 87. Santa Claus: nooo not since i was four 88. Kiss on First Date: why not 89. Angels: no if god isn’t real why are his slaves (i’m kidding, i totally respect the religious community) OTHER… 90. Current Best Friend’s Name: i’ll give the first letters of the four. a, a, c, c. (i’m not kidding for whatever reason most of my close friends have a or c names like i had two old best friends with both a. and another with c) here i’ll tag one. @galaxy-searcher 91. Eye Colour: brown (boooooo) 92. Favourite Movie: idk i don’t pick favs but song of the sea is cute

uhm. i don’t want to tag people bc it’s 92 questions. do it if you want XD

[tinkdw]

i don't want to be a pessimist here, i really hope destiel is endgame and after s12, and after i read some of your meta, (which is amazing btw), i mostly believe it will be, but i shipped johnlock too, and all the subtext and even text and the foreshadowing and all those hints that johnlock is endgame was all for nothing...or maybe just for queerbaiting, and i was really butthurt about it that i'm afraid to put any hopes up for destiel, how do you think destiel is different than johnlock?

I may be a bit controversial on tumblr about Johnlock because…. well I didn’t really see it like it was blatant and going to be canon, I saw it as subtext that was something they added to give it a bit of pizazz without thinking they were actually in love or that it would be endgame canon. 

I really enjoyed the first seasons of Sherlock (I just cannot get my head around how the last season worked at all, maybe I need to try again, but it just didn’t make any sense to me) and my interpretation was that Sherlock might be a bit romantically interested in John, but push come to shove he was more intellectually interested in him and the friendship they forged and I never really saw John as being romantically interested in Sherlock at all.

I felt like they added the subtext, which for me, was subtext only, to add a bit of spice to their chemistry and their character bond, but without actually meaning to make it romantic.

Now I see this differently to Destiel in that I read Destiel as 1. much more blatant because of the continuous and abundant nature of it, given that it is now nearly 9 years and much more material to work with due to there being…. around 135 hours of SPN since season 4 v 15 hours of Sherlock? 

2. But also that it is written into the script in terms of the fact that it has a real effect on the PLOT, not just sitting alongside it as subtext to be ‘enjoyed’ (I say ‘enjoyed’ because I know how painful it was to fans who really wanted it and it didn’t happen but for a lot of people I think it did add to the enjoyment of the show by deepening their character bond). Whole seasons don’t make sense without taking into account the deep feelings between Dean and Cas, I mean… seasons 4-6 are all about Cas saving the world because of his love for Dean, season 7 is one big long metaphor for Dean’s innermost thoughts and depression about Cas, season 11′s mytharc plots rests on Dean’s love for Cas and how Amara uses it… 

I totally feel for anyone who felt queerbaited by Johnlock because I genuinely do think that they put subtext in there on purpose thinking it would be a great addition to the chemistry but had no intention of going through with it as it was just that, a fanciful way to deepen their connection without it really being actually scripted love (honestly this is wanky, but I really don’t rate Martin Freeman as an actor, I find him so cold that it wouldn’t surprise me if they upped the written subtext in order to counter his wooden performance),  I just don’t think they realised how much people would feel cheated by it.

With Dean and Cas, their story is much longer as stated above which enables it to go much deeper into so many more romantic tropes, for them to be portrayed as much more of the romance than the buddy trope, I think they fulfil like 67% of romance tropes? where most couples on tv / in movies settle at most around 10-25% ish? This is because they are able to do so due to the pure length of time we have been watching them and because they are actively portraying it in this way. I’m trying to remember how many Dean and Sam fill and Sam and Cas fill? I think Dean/Sam is like 12% and Cas/Sam is probably about 2%! So there is a real reason why it is so strong with just these two…

Season 12 is all about taking it now from the subtext into the text, we have been watching it with a similar “will they won’t they” attitude towards TPTB as with Johnlock up til now, even though it was scripted and much more plot - related I believe, there was still a chance that they would potentially back out, even if it didn’t make sense for the story, it was still a possibility because I think a lot of the GA don’t really see the way that the story doesn’t make sense without it.

For example in season 11, I think many of the GA just look at the top level and don’t read into WHY Amara couldn’t contact Dean without going through Cas, how her forced bond with Dean was not as strong as his chosen bond with Cas even though she was GOD’S SISTER or WHY Amara’s whole interactions with Dean were all about him repressing his emotions, loving, but it being clouded in shame, holding himself back. 

I mean some people were shocked at some of what Dean said in 12x22, they were also shocked at how Dean acted in 12x11 and a lot of this season said he was OOC, which he absolutely WAS NOT, he was entirely HIMSELF and that was the point! That he had DROPPED the facade so his true self was showing through in snippets and I’m sure these people will be absolutely shocked when he acts more and more like this in season 13.

I feel like to get through to some people Dean literally has to say something blatant like “Sammy I’m done pretending, this is me, deal with it, oh and by the way, I like dudes too” before taking a big bite of a Chicken Parmeggiano and ordering an ice cream sundae and getting back to business, cos man the point is, he’s not that different, there’s just a few things he keeps locked away, but his whole character isn’t going to change.

Anyway, same goes for Destiel, it’s going to have to be eased in slowly but made blatant now and I feel like season 12 was the first part and season 13 should be the second, before it can go canon, so that people aren’t shocked by it, in exactly the same way as they did Performing!Dean this season, ramping up the subtext before taking it into the text and then finally making it canon.

So now after season 12 it feels to me that with all the bad PR around queer baiting with Sherlock, with all the bad PR around Supernatural (if you google queer baiting SPN comes up on the first page), it would be diabolically stupid for the new showrunner to ramp up the subtext like this and bring it into the text as he did from mid season 11 onwards, without taking it towards endgame canon.

It doesn’t mean they will for 100% sure but I would be so confused if they didn’t now, it would literally be the worst kind of ongoing, not just subtextual but textual now queerbaiting and a total shambles of a PR disaster as well as making NO sense to their own story which has been so carefully crafted for over a decade. 

I don’t think they’re THAT stupid to take a beautiful story and rip the soul of it out, destroying their credibility as writers as well as PR Hell…

I have trust in Andrew Dabb until proven otherwise :)

[thejpfdude-blog]

Keep or Drop: A New Series!

Hello friends and welcome to a new series I’m starting called “Keep or Drop”, AKA KoD! The main premise of this post is that I watch the first episode of an anime, and then give my impressions on them, deciding whether to KEEP watching the show or to DROP it for the future. Since I have so much free time, I’m giving a lot of shows a try, and so I thought “why not give a little impression on how I liked them and whether I would keep watching them or not?” I’m not sure if this is gonna be a weekly thing or not, but for now I’m gonna do a test run on a few of these KoDs and see whether they’re interesting enough for me to make into a weekly thing. So let’s get started with a list of the shows I gave a first episode to (with a link to their MAL entry), and then go into more detail about them...

The Shows

Hentai Ouji to Warawanai Neko. (The Hentai Prince and the Stony Cat) (HenNeko)

Ore no Kanojo to Osananajimi ga Shuraba Sugiru (Oreshura)

Gakkou Gurashi! (School Live!) <- didn’t link the MAL page for good reason said below

The Verdicts

HenNeko: If I have to be honest, the main reason I watched this show was for one specific character. That character, with the longest name I’ve seen in anime, is Tsukiko Tsutsukakushi. Uhh... I’m not a lolicon. But I was interested in seeing why she was such a popular character. Well, popular in the sense of being in Best Girl contests. So I watched an episode of the show to get a sense of her character, and I can see why she’s popular.

The plot of the show (as of one episode) is actually a lot more complicated than I thought it would be. Basically there’s a stony cat statue that banishes an unwanted trait and gives it to somebody who needs it. So MC (who’s a perv) and Tsukiko get rid of their unwanted traits (MC’s “facade” and Tsukiko’s emotions), only to realize life is worse without said “unwanted” traits. So as of the first episode, MC tries to get his facade back from some rich girl who happened to get it. Shenanigans ensue.

The first episode was... interesting. There were some pretty cringy moments post-wish when MC would go off on his pervy thoughts. I’m not good with cringe (the reason I’ll never be able to watch WataMote), so those were hard to get through. Though otherwise, it was an all right episode. Tsukiko is a pretty good character with her kuudere-ness, something I’m starting to realize I like more in anime grills. I will say it was a bit of a chore to get through the first episode, so I am a bit hesitant about continuing to watch the show. But I’ll give it a few more episodes to see the other characters, because one episode isn’t really a good indicator for what a show’s about for the most part. KEEP

Oreshura: I cheated a bit with this one because I already watched the second episode. So forgive me if I say some things that were revealed in the second episode, though I’ll try to refrain from doing so.

I was curious as to what the title translated to in English, but it didn’t have it on MAL. Welp, Google-san to the rescue, which translates the title as “My Girlfriend and Childhood Friend Fight Too Much“. Which... after watching the second episode makes a lot of sense. But honestly it’s such a lackluster title. Like, this tells me nothing about the show. This can literally describe 20 other anime.

Anyway, enough about the title. This show was something that peaked my interest because I heard things about how it’s similar to Oregairu, which is good enough for me to give a show a shot. The plot is basically a combination of Oregairu and Nisekoi with some hints of Chuunibyou. We have a guy who focuses on studying and nothing else forced to be the fake boyfriend of the most popular girl in school or else have his chuuni writings released to the world.

The first episode of the show outlines his character as well as his childhood friend, Chiwa (AKA Chihuahua, my third favorite nickname next to Mayonnaise-sama and Coconuts). It also introduces Masuzu (the popular girl) and gets them “together”. One thing I really liked about the show is the artstyle. If you haven’t seen it, go check it out via the MAL link. It’s nice with the washed out pastel shades, very pleasing to the eyeballs. The plot itself was a bit generic, but that honestly doesn’t matter when it’s done well, which it was to me. I enjoyed the interactions between MC and Chiwa, though Masuzu kinda rubbed me the wrong way. She seems interesting enough though and doesn’t bother me too much, kinda like another “too popular” character... huh, I can see the reason why this show is compared to Oregairu. They even have similar abbreviations (Oregairu vs. Oreshura). So overall pretty good first episode, I really enjoyed it. Well, that’s obvious given I watched a second episode of it (which in all honesty wasn’t quite as good as the first episode, but that’s for another day). KEEP

Gakkou Gurashi:

Zoinks! I mean... that honestly wasn’t that bad. Though it doesn’t help that I read the MAL summary before watching, because that spoils the twist. Thanks MAL.

Oi, seriously WTF, even Madoka wasn’t spoiled this hard. I feel a bit gyped, because through the whole episode I knew what was gonna happen. For those of you who actually want to watch this show, don’t read the MAL summary. There’s a reason why I didn’t link the MAL page this time.

MAL, you should fix that. Anyway, if you don’t know, this show is your standard moe schoolgirl show. Seriously, just look at this OP (which I actually love btw): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UNjHxhljAck

Boy, that’s pretty good. The first episode does a nice job of introducing the characters and the School Living Club, which lives in the school because of enriching their lives and totally not a different reason.

It wasn’t too bad plotwise, just Yuki and Mii-kun chasing Taroumaru the dog for the most part.

Exactly, nothing too out of the ordinary.

So I’ll be continuing to watch this for more fun ORDINARY antics with the School Living Club. Yup, ORDINARY school stuff. Nothing special about this one... and no need to read the first letter of each paragraph, since it has no meaning. KEEP

And that’s all for this inaugural post! Thanks for reading it: I might put up another one soon (maybe before the end of the year?), and see if it’s something I might do on a regular basis. Let me know if you enjoyed it! Until next time, I’ll see you in the next post!