Tumgik
About
Privacy Policy
Removal Request
Visit Blog
Explore Tumblr blogs with no restrictions, modern design and the best experience.
Fun Fact
Tumblr is available in 18 languages.
#its a giant wall and i cannot go under and i xannot go over and i cannot go through
skyeateyourdonuts
ยท
11 months
Text
pooooo
#i do whatver i want
#anyways
#today sucks and it just begun
#its my bday
#and i feel unwanted
#ive vented to two people and it made me feel more better each time
#and im thankful that i got to do that
#and i Know they care about me and love me
#but i spent the whole weekend and especially today feeling ao unwanted
#so its a little hard to get over
#its just a lingering biting feeling
#i feel unwanted and undesired
#i Know intrinsically there are people who want me around
#like ava and allan and brooke and my cousin
#but. idk the feeling is still so unmoving so firm
#its a giant wall and i cannot go under and i xannot go over and i cannot go through
#the worst part is it has eyes that are angry and a mouth that is mean
#and despite saying i am unwanted it also ridicules me for being insecure at all
#'why wpuld u say that? what the fuck?' 'u know no pne wants u around right'
#'whu would u say i dont want to be around u?' 'can u just get over it already?'
#and tho i dont say anything theres One (1) guy in my brain fighting for me
#its v small and it isnt loud but it echoes somewhat
#'do u think anxiety takes off day wall? do u think it gives up around a special time'
#'why would i Want to think that? why would i subject myself to that viewpoint if i had the choice?'
#but!! honestly that voice is wrong sometimes and is so angry its blinded by hurt
#and i have so little strength and confidence at times like these
#why do i habe to face this fucking wall??? why is it ao personal???
#do we really need to do this??? i just want to be happy and feel loved and wanted
#if u cared about me walk ud move out of my way
#:((((!!!!!!
0 notes
Last Seen Blogs
trainquilite
Death Doesn't Discriminate
bloodgrouping
Untitled
notanybiblemale
Untitled
zhanglaoshi
pretty? perfect
aintjesusperiod
Untitled