#ive kept a lot of pencils ive found in the halls. but i dont think those are the kinds of things a person particularly misses.. | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

tears-of-boredom · 2 years

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My kind-of-therapist can be so annoying like I know that I'm beating myself up for no reason, I know that, but while there isn't any evidence to suggest I suck, there isn't anything to suggest I don't suck either. I know very clearly objectively that a classmate of mine at least had a crush on me. But when you think about it...if it was a prank, per say, it would be a pretty funny one, wouldn't it? Yes, maybe a bit cruel, but I did get immideatly addicted to the slightest bit of attention I got, and isn't it kind of funny in a sadistic way to watch someone absolutely deteriorate because you simply didn't interact with them? Isn't it really enjoyable to see that you can control someone's feelings that easily?

#anyways i cut my hair in the middle of that and a few days later he just stopped coming to school...not saying they are related...but #my cut was pretty bad..#then i eventually kind of actually got worried cuz he didnt even show up on the last day of school..#and when i personally wasnt going to school...i was not in a good headspace..#not saying that im in one right now. but at least im more self aware now..#also relating to the original topic. im pretty sure he found my ring i lost and just didnt give it back?#i mean. my evidence wouldnt hold up in court. but this is another thing i just know factually to be like 90% propable..#the 10% doubt comes from the fact that. i myself. would never keep a found item if i knew. that the owner lost it. and who the owner is..#ive kept a lot of pencils ive found in the halls. but i dont think those are the kinds of things a person particularly misses..#lol sorry for ranting in the tags again..#also ''the boys'' of my class find being sexist. racist. homophobic AND transphobic. very funny..#so its not like this joke would be way out of left field for them..

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