#ive made a singular npd post

[catboy-sinister]

the "you are barely a paper mask" and "it's all i have Charles" are making me fucking INSANE.

GOSH IVE TRIED TO GET ALL MY THOUGHTS OUT ABOUT THIS BUT I JUST CANNOT LIKE

I saw your tags talking about how this guy has NPD and like. yes. before we knew but now we KNOW

and imo the paper mask thing doesn't just apply to Gillen + post Gillen Hickman - Gillen Renaissance eras. like you could argue he's always been like this, even when he was just a mysterious villain in the background (you'd see a diamond or something or someone would be watching cameras and you'd be like oh shit!!!)

tbh Charles is stronger than me cause I would've folded. I also feel kinda BAD for him* which I'd never thought I would? gonna have to tag this spoilers but

the irony is he's kinda getting a taste of his own medicine. cause he was created and programmed for one singular purpose (to become a Dominion) just like he's done to other people (Black Womb etc). but I do still feel bad, mostly bc of that forehead cause DAMN you could run a mile on that thing and still not make it to the hairline

my man is having a CRISIS right now. I get it, I would too if my basis of reasoning was built upon the idea that I'm superior to all and then having a better version of myself laugh in my face. rebecca and faye are cackling while they have tea and talk shit. BUT ALSO "it's all I have Charles" GRAH ALL HE HAD WAS HIS SUPERIORITY AND IT'S GONE! IT'S ALL HE HAD GOING FOR HIM!!

like this man. is laying his whole soul bare for Charles because A) he's the only person he can talk to ofc but B) CHARLES MIGHT BE THE ONLY PERSON TO UNDERSTAND!!! we've known for a hot second that Sinister had an irreversible influence on Charles as a kid. he fucked that kid UP. but he was also sort of a father figure in a way. (side note - his position as a patriarch has always made me foam at the mouth and I have more to say about it but I CANNOT at the moment)

"you are full of broken glass" just. THERE'S SO MUCH WEIGHT TO THAT LINE I CANT EVEN DISSECT IT RN. GOD.

"I should have stuck to being Apocalypse's science lackey" he misses his boyfriend aw. but fr though, DAMN. because he HATED THAT! he HATED being chained by Apocalypse and being subservient (no one make a kink joke.).

He's lost everything, I can't stress that enough. He's like a rabid animal - desperately biting and clawing, lying and backstabbing and doing whatever he can to stay on top, all while putting on a MASK that he's got everything under control, that he's two steps ahead. He's not as smart or infallible as he thinks he is. He's painfully, painfully human, and he's finally realizing it, and he is NOT taking it well.

okay I have to shut up now I'm so sorry GAH I could talk about him for years. this was word vomit sorry this is not structured. MLA format Sinister essay when???

*okay I lied I did feel kinda bad for him in Further Adventures but he deserved all of it so 🤷

[nightmare-blunt-rotation-sys]

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We are the Nightmare Blunt Rotation System, a system of between 18 and around 50 members depending on how you count it. We are bodily 20, fat, intersex, and level 2 autistic. We collectively use shi/hir pronouns.

DNF: ABDL/otherwise diaper or incontinence fetishists, anti-endos, anti-good faith identities, exorsexists, intersexists, NSFT main blogs, radqueers, TERFs, TIRFs, transandrophobes, transmisogynists

DNF violators will be blocked.

We will be posting about our alterbeing identities, age regression, plurality, objectum/delPOSIC experience, disability, and daily life. We will not post anything blatantly NSFW, and we will tag anything that may come off as such.

More about us + housekeeping below the cut.

We are a system with 17 alters, a subsystem of 23 facets that identifies as a singular person and is the host of the main system, 4 soulbonds that visit occasionally, and god knows how many object companions (perhaps in the 10 - 20 range, but we really don't know).

Mental health wise, we have ADHD combined type, anxiety, ARFID, BPD, depression, NPD, OCD, and StPD.

Physical health wise, we have CN IV palsy, GERD, hEDS, migraines, mild hearing loss, miserable malalignment syndrome, and sleep apnea.

Our system uses emojis as signoffs. Maybe one day we'll have the energy to do intros... But definitely not sometime soon. There's a lot of us up in here.

We do not want discourse on our page.

That said:

• We support endogenic systems and good faith identities.

• We are pro-kink, pro-paraphilia, and pro-consent. Consent is an agreement made using direct communication with someone who is of age and fully aware of what they are agreeing to, which can be revoked at any time.

• We support non-harmful transIDs. We do not support transharmed/transharmful/transhateful, transintersex, or transrace. We support those with BIID reclaiming transabled terms. (We may have left off some harmful transIDs by accident, this is not an exhaustive list).

[legendsyz]

Most npd and ASPD people are abusive, you have to be very self aware and work very hard with cluster b disorders to not abuse people. Both narcissistic and sociopathic abuse can co-exist with not all narcs and socios are abusive.

Who even are you?? Be brave, come off anon pls ❤️

Do you live with a cluster b disorder? I do! And it's actually a punch to the gut to be told that me just living my life means I'm going to abuse people. Having a disorder doesn't make someone abusive. It actually enhanced the ptsd, self esteem issues, and self doubt. Ptsd HD if you will!

You aren't my psych or my therapist.

Thanks!