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rearranging-deck-chairs · 4 months

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if 9&10 were "dont wander off", and 11&12 were "the doctor lies", 13s rule #1 is "dont question me"

"have we not had a good time together" shes pointing yaz to the rule that yaz very well knows is there: we can travel if you dont ask me any difficult questions. yaz knows this is the rule - "because you ask too many questions", "this team structure isnt flat" - but she also was the one to invite the doctor into her home so im pretty sure she also knows shes not gonna kicked out that easily. she has some leeway. which she has been using between revolution and flux, which is why the doctor reminds her of the rules

i dont think she'd kick her out though. she wouldnt. i think it's just that the more you break the rule, the more unpleasant she becomes to be around, and eventually youre gonna walk out on your own. she doesnt want you to, she'd rather you stay and dont ask questions. but if youre gonna try to ask questions anyway, i think thats whats gonna happen

and yaz must think so too. because she does back off. because she doesnt want that to happen either. and it does anyway

#dont question me/dont challenge me. questions are the sore spot but the challenge is one she says explicitly once #because you see this in how she is with other people too. dont try her patience. dont act like shes smaller. dont challenge her or Die #based on the giggle - 'i thought i was clever' 'what do i say?! because im always sooo certain' - i dont think 14 is like this #also based on the expressions of affection #hes not that......reactive. to this. specific thing #so i wonder if it runs over to 15 #he seems chill. i think? he seems fairly chill. but also i think we've so far only seen him mostly in control of things #faced with the maestro temporarily not entirely in control hes Notably Less Chill #but still bigger picture. hes mostly in control of things right now i think #or uhhhh based on how eager he seems to get out of the role of doctor #hmmmmm #13 didnt want it but like. was stuck with it i think #didnt want it but nobody else was gonna do it. thats why 12 regenerated #15 comes out 14 Literally Quitting #he doesnt want it and hes decided hes not stuck with it. maybe #none of this is true btw im just saying words recreationally #like those 13 moments are super cherrypicked and i havent rewatched in forever so #dont believe me gfkjghgjh #this is based more on how i write them than what ive seen basically #anyway in terms of 14/yaz i think it takes yaz a while to figure out how to deal with 14 Not being like this #bc she got soooo practiced at handling 13. most of which was abt like not tripping this rule too much #she'd keep it up with 14 and he'd just do stuff that like breaks the rule from his side and yaz wouldnt have any idea how to deal with it #he'd show her hes chilled out a bit. about this. over and over and it'd still take her moooooonthssssssss to start relaxing #just muscle memory at this point. doesnt help that shes also like this #i wonder if 14 - in a sort of compelte reversal - wants to be told what to do and how to do and #seeks out situations where someone else knows more than him so he can sit down and say 'teach me'#i think thats what he does. about all the human stuff. hes like teach me. all of it. show me how to do this

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gayboydetectivez · 15 days

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Edwin with a boot kink and Charles (who wears leather boots)

#just sayin #ive been reading cannibalcorpse's new fics about small dick charles and my writing brain has been reactivated #dbda #dead boy detectives #dead boy detective agency #edwin payne #charles rowland

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rolandkaros · 1 month

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reason #3299874 why i hate tennis twitter: i hate how idealistic it feels to say “omg we’re ALL sort of right.” like there should be a substantial middle ground here somewhere and instead it always feels like im being weirdly diplomatic. people are spreading misinformation about how drugs and drug tests work. people are ignoring the very real and EXPERT opinions that were used in the process of ruling. people are pretending to be oblivious to why players might find the whole scenario upsetting anyway. people are projecting their paranoia about doping onto a case where it isn’t applicable. people are using completely impermissible evidence to prove why he obviously did or didn’t dope. nick kyrgios is an idiot. and we’re going in circles and have gotten no where and at the end of the day whatever YOU say will not change the fact that he did in fact get two positive doping tests AND the experts supported a conclusion of no fault no negligence. so where does that leave us.

#tw doping #idk if this is a trigger warning but ill tag it anyway #i guess im just annoyed at all the stupid takes ive seen #and it’s so frustrating to feel like i cant call those takes stupid or argue against them without aligning myself with a ‘side’#like there is no sides lol. the experts came to a factual conclusion that j have no reason or desire to question #im satisfied with that!#but there are still so many people trying to support him. WHO ARE SAYING THE MOST UNREAL IDIOTIC SHIT #like i cant sit here and watch you say this it’s embarrassing 😭#but if i say ‘hey this is like not true or accurate at all’ now it seems like i’m agreeing it’s a conspiracy or something!!!!#i deleted my original post talking about this because I think i was a bit too annoyed in that one #and did not really think through my opinions on it #so i am sorry for being pretty reactive #i still believe in the gist of what i was saying but I didn’t articulate it well #and it sounded like i was ragging on jannik which i was NOT #anyways. sorry #here we are again

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ustalav · 2 months

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will i have the strength to finally take dizzy to that obedience class we were invited to........

#its a long drive but pretty much every training facility ive found (and liked) is 30+ miles away *sobs*#i think i just need to bite the bullet and do it #im having intrusive thoughts that she's going to be super reactive and we will get kicked out #which i have every single time we do a class and it has never been as bad as i feared #we even did a class where she hated one of the dogs enrolled for whatever reason #and i basically just would reset her and grab her attention if she started focusing on him and all was Well #soooo it will likely be FINE #SHES A GOOD GIRL IM JUST ANXIOUS

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skunkes · 3 months

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wanting to buy holbein acryla gouache solely bc the tubes are so beautiful to me i am not immune to pretty packaging

#talkys #ive talked about this before but literally if i had more space to store things id go ham on the art supplies #even if i didnt use them ykwim....like ideally i Would but i also just love having Colors #i dont do much blending or mixing anyway and i already mix small quantities of paint #bc even tho regular gouache can be reactivated with water that has not been the case for me with mine when it dries #5 minutes after putting it on the palette lmao PLUS its even more matte....ok thinking now

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cerealmonster15 · 3 months

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jesus christ like i only finished the sumeru story like a few months ago but i already forgot your literal first intro to kaveh is a scene of several minutes of him and alhaitham fully bitching at each other

#GIRLJFDSKLFHFKLSJG they are FIGHTINGGGGG god they have so many issues <3 #it's sweet to see them get along a lil more in recent stuff #but also so very funny when they still argue #but also MY GOD the situation was DIRE like going back and watching rn. hoougfhghfdh lol #it's SOOO funny tho like #kaveh as a person is very reactive in general #but like. alhaitham isnt. hes normally sooo monotone and cool and collected or whatever #but you put kaveh into the scene and hes like Oh I Have To End This Man #his voice actually fluctuates so much and hes such a little BITCH!!!! the way they fight like petty teenagers 😭😭😭#ughghhhghgh kaveh ur the special one bc youre the one hes got all the history and the angst and the affection with lol #sorry it's 130am and im back to my old sleep deprivation habits and im coping via thinking about alhaitham and kaveh #anyway kavehs so funny hes in this scene like TELL ME WHATS GOING ON TELL ME TELL ME TELL ME TELL ME #alhaitham: shut the fuck up also when are YOU gonna build a COOL MANSION HUH???????#kaveh: MIND YOUR OWN DAMN BUSINESS!!!!! <- ok king of hypocrisy jkaJKLFDJSKLFJ #the way that they both are. good lord. im obsessed with them SORRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY AS IF IT'S MY FAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUULT #ive heard clips from i think both voice actors saying how theyre like yeah i made sure to change the tone of voice when theyre talkin #about each other specifically fkljsdjfkldsb JEEZE!!!!!!!#alhaithams so funny hes like hehehehe i almost became a grand sage while you were gone 😏 heh he ha ha bitch #like god he has so much fun bullying kaveh he literally almost never Experiences Joy in other situations #<- havent. dont i say this about jamil also. that often times jamils rare laugh animation plays when hes bullying azul. GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#also i love that kaveh is just fully Yelling in the library or whatever. i mean it's the ~house of daena~ or w/e but also there are books #it is a library and hhe is so loud. i love u kaveh #sometimes it's so confusing tho like kaveh will very much be angrily yelling but his animations going 😃#like wh. what was the tone in the original fjksldjfskld #i did see once ALLEGEDLY. someone said that the og chinese dialogue between them is a bit less aggressive #and a lil more playful bantering? IM NOT SURE if that's true tho thats just a random comment i saw once

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toastsnaffler · 4 months

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ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.

#just got home and went to put my shit away but my flatmate was in the kitchen and i got suddenly so mad i had to walk back out #not going to do or say anything while im this upset. i need to be a lot calmer before i can even be in the same room as her #like okay. so originally it was just the two of them getting drinks and theyd rather it was just them bc i dont drink. thats cool #it wouldve been difficult for me to join them after work bc travel. and ik theyd done this before just the 2 of them and had fun #i can fully respect that its why i said no and stuck by that decision when she asked again #but to not mention she was taking the day off work and btw i just found out that BOTH of our other old flatmates joined in too #to not mention that they were travelling that entire distance and that it wasnt just drinks it was a whole day out together #thats just mean. why wouldnt you tell me that why did none of them say anything.#and the fact they did the exact same fucking thing last weekend too i didnt know about that at all #like i need to stop trying to justify it. im allowed to feel unwanted and excluded bc thats exactly what theyre doing.#im tired of feeling like other people dont want me around. i know i can be difficult and annoying sometimes. but im really not that bad #and we're meant to be friends!!!!!! like youre supposed to like your friends. and want to spend time with them. or at least i do #and yeah everyones annoying sometimes thats just part of being alive ur supposed to tolerate it if ur friends #im allowed to want to feel like im wanted. im allowed to want ppl to care abt me. that shouldnt be too much to ask for #but the overwhelming message im getting at the moment is they dont want me around. and when i am around them i feel like they dont listen #to me and that they dont really care how i feel unless it directly involves them or theyre responsible for it #i feel like they dont see me as a real person that exists. only a version they have in their heads and they base all their assumptions and #decisions off that version instead of directly communicating with me. and constantly avoid me under the guise of 'giving me space'#when im upset or having a difficult time and most need support from other people. i just feel really unseen #and ik that part of how i feel IS exacerbated by insecurity and depression. like they do care to some degree #but also a lot of it is evidenced in the way they act towards me. mainly my roommate bc shes the person i interact with most #and personally i find the most direct ways of showing u care abt someone are showing up for them. and making them feel seen #and maybe not everyone feels the same way. but thats how it works for me anyway #so to repeatedly exclude me and avoid acknowledging that ive been having a difficult time is the opposite of that to me #which is the point im trying to arrive at... sorry ik ive probably said similar things repeatedly the last few weeks but i feel like its #crystallising a bit like this is the core reason why im so sensitive and reactive atm and why i got so upset by it #idk. not tonight bc im still very emotionally raw but maybe tomorrow if im calmer i should explain that i was upset + why to her #i avoid doing that so often when im upset bc i dont think theres much point in having a conversation abt it unless u expect some kind of #resolution from it. or if you want an apology but idrc abt being apologised to the crucial thing is what theyre going to do different #and i love her but shes very resistant to changing her behaviour bc of other ppl being upset by it. and like i said before she has

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pleckthaniel · 1 year

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The Midwestern philosophy of dog-rearing:

1. If my dog has bad manners, no he doesn’t.

2. If he does, he’s friendly and didn’t mean it.

3. If I can’t stop the unwanted behaviors, it’s because I’m training him.

4. If bad manners escalate into chasing, snapping and growling, he’s just curious/scared/annoyed (which makes it OK).

5. If he bites, body-checks or otherwise tries to fight, you probably provoked him.

6. Oh my God, my dog bit my baby’s face off?! But he was always so sweet!! Who could have seen this coming?!?!?

#scout talks #note that no actual training is involved at any point in the process #most dogs who are treated like this barely respond to their own name let alone actual commands #anyway i could bitch about this for years but i'll stop while i'm ahead #also re: point 6 #i know people say that a lot about bully breeds so i should clarify that i have NOTHING against bullies #the vast majority of reactive dogs where i live /are/ bullies but thats literally just bc theyre so common here and there are so many bybs #ive met many polite and well trained bullies and many reactive dogs of other breeds

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roychewtoy · 1 year

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roman roy has never once said anything true and honest and beautiful and his heart is also surgically grafted to his sleeve btw

#wasn't here for seasons 1-3 postin but seein Looking Back posts on how roman was read is just crazy to me.#i dont even know if ive got the words for it cause. gestures at roman. so many of my thoughts are just [WHITE NOISE][STATIC][REDACTED].#he contains multitudes.#having some like flip flop counter of when he does somethin in the good books or somethin in the bad books to colour ur whole image of him #is what hello..i mean that goes for all the characters. and i know its good to be reactive episode to episode and shit shifts and molds #just rotating thoughts. spinning plates. chewing you know how it is.#hes some guy. hes the worst. hes the dog under the boot. hes backing the fascist decline of america. hes full of love. hes poisoned.#who is this guy. yo anyone know who this is........#chewtoy

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grey-tones · 6 months

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I really love that you can find and hang out with npcs

#so far ive found him. wuk lamat. and graha in sharlayan #idk i just think its neat #ffxiv #erenville #slightly far away from him cause if u get anycloser he'll turn his head and stare at you #which is great too tbh #i love that the npcs are reactive like thay

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toytulini · 7 months

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i should just like. start streaming games and see if that does fucking anything at all tbh

#toy txt post #the knowledge that i Could Probably Market Myself(tm) even if im bad at the games to get an audience and maybe set up like a patreon #vs oh god that sounds like just a different brand of misery christ alive i do not even want to think about ~internet fame~ or ~influencing~#etc like it honestly just seems so. miserable unless u get very lucky w ur audience and level of work input required #not to mention im not actually that good and i get very. reactive to like losing in splatoon and shit in a way that could be entertaining #but is probably Mostly Annoying. idk.#but idk also have to like. figure out so much stupid software shit that would piss me off etc #say some shit offhandedly that pisses everyone off cos they take it as some attack of some other big name twitch streamer ive never heard #of and dont pay attention to #yea. prolly shouldnt

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cogbreath · 7 months

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eek these past couple days has activated a section of my brain im not exactly happy about

#tw sui ideation #but ive strongly and seriously considered self immolation more than once #main motivation being grief abt state of world #but also i feel like there is psychosis in my brain about it #voices in head tht have become reactivated about it #not to say at all i want any discussion of the recent event or general topic of it to stop #i encourage it #this is just a vent

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healingheartdogs · 10 months

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Also the malinois person (h*rdybunch) on that malinois service dog post is literally one of the people I have worked with in person who had a mal SD that I am talking about specifically saying their dog DEFINITELY should have been washed. Their previous malinois SD was dog reactive and I personally watched that dog attack multiple other dogs unprovoked INCLUDING ONE OF MY DOGS AT MY OWN HOME when they temporarily lived with us in 2020. They also admitted in 2020 in discord to other SD handlers when discussing Mallow that she had snapped at children in public before and that they didn't consider it a problem worth correcting because she only did it when they were stressed, which is absurd and unacceptable in general but especially given that a large part of their disability is psychiatric and being in public greatly stressed them out by their own admittance. Mallow was actually ILLEGAL for them to be working by ADA standards for SDs because of her reactivity making her dangerous to the public and to other SDs. They should definitely not be giving out advice about service dogs because they knew that the whole time they were working her (she continued being worked for years after all this stuff in 2020) and they intentionally hid it from the general public.

That person is literally my #1 example of why protection breeds SHOULD NOT BE SERVICE DOGS and why I do not trust people who work them as SDs because they are almost always ignoring behaviors that make their dog unfit for SD work. Please stop listening to them about service dog stuff jfc.

#the very first time i met mallow we met up at a dog beach in FL #and mallow broke off from playing with Hermes to run a good 20 yards away #and attack some poor lady's LEASHED border collies that she was walking by with completely minding their own business #i literally have a video i was taking of Hermes to post online that fay that never got posted #because all you can hear in the background is mallow attacking that poor lady's dog #that is not a dog fit for service work #and yet Darcy continued working her knowing she was reactive and a potential danger #and intentionally lied about and hid it #he also did really irresponsuble things with her like putting her in downs in grocery stores and then just WALKING AWAY #sometimes even out of sight #as a way of showing off how good her down stay was #like he wasnt LEAVING A REACTIVE DOG THAT HE ADMITTED SNAPS AT STRANGERS UNSUPERVISED IN PUBLIC #PLEASE STOP ASKING DARCY FOR ADVICE #also ive had them blocked for a hot minute for being incredibly abusive so idk if their pronouns are still he/him so sorry if they aren't #i might think they're a dangerous and abusive person but im not trying to misgender them

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honeyedsunlight · 1 year

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My email is going to break on Monday