#junker5

[yes-i-am-happyaspie]

Thanks for the tag @monaisme !

Rules: Answer and tag 9 people you want to get to know better and/or catch up with.

Favorite color: The simple answer is: Green! Specifically, it's #baff9c

Last song listened to: Um... I want to say it was Harry Styles, As it Was- but like, it wasn't by choice? It just happened to be on the radio while I was driving home from the store. If I had turned on my playlist it probably would have been Barenaked Ladies or Incubus something....

Currently reading: The Last Unicorn and So. Much. Fanficion.

Currently watching: Heh. Um. Well, you see... for the last few days I've been watching Jujutsu Kaisen

Currently craving: I'm pretty good right now... Maybe some really good Tteok-bokki?

Coffee or Tea: COFFEEEEEEEE in my green kitty paw print mug with just a touch of flavored creamer.

No pressure tags: @pbpsbff @cccami08 @outofmyhead-justlikeyou

@junker5 @zillyb @jayy-walker @attornsky @asyouleft and anyone else who feels compelled!!

[copperbadge]

Another much-belated (my fault, not theirs) Christmas package from @junker5 -- so glad I was able to make last year a little brighter! Thank you for the card and giftcard, the disinfectant caddy (I have already put one of my millions of tiny bottles into it) and of course the toys for kitties! Dearborn played with that specific toy all afternoon and then passed out on it. 

[27dragons]

Just checking in on yall. Wanting to see how yall are coping after the storm. Hope all is well with you and the kids, and with tisfan and her family, too.

Aw, thanks for looking in on us!

@tisfan and I were ready to evacuate -- heading west and up into the mountains to stay with friends there -- but Florence veered south to come ashore in the Carolinas (instead of southeast Virginia, where we live), and we both opted to remain home instead.

If you look at satellite maps, the top edges of the hurricane are right on top of us, but it hasn’t done more here than drop some occasional rain, to be honest. Not even all that much rain, just occasional sprinkles that last for about ten minutes and then go away again.

Tisfan is a little further south (about 50 miles) and also closer to the coast and sea level, so a lot of businesses and stuff near her are closed due to evacuations, and she’s had a couple of power flickers, but we’re in more or less constant contact, and we’re all doing just fine.

Our thoughts and sympathies are with everyone in the Carolinas who are riding out the brunt of the storm -- I saw a video just this morning from my mom’s hometown in North Carolina, with houses with rooms holding two or three feet of water in them, and cars in the street in water up to their windows. Here’s hoping all our readers in those areas were able to find somewhere safe to go and that they aren’t too badly impacted.

[tisfan]

junker5 replied to your post “I love the candy heart series. Here's hoping to more winteriron”

An alternate Sandbridge ? That'll be angsty as all get out. Thanks for entertaining us!!!

Yeah, the premise is a little angstier. It started with someone asking us for headcanon on what the crew would do if there was no Dockside... and we ended up writing it... it’s different. Bucky is a little more bitter, Tony is a lot more fatalistic. 

It ends up focusing on different people; Wanda and Peter become Tony’s best friends... Pierce is a major player. We still get to see the Commandos... and Becca and Billie show up a LOT earlier.

[musicalluna]

junker5 replied to your link “Captain America Coffee Maker”

It needs you!! :)

bestfacesever

Musicalluna doooooo iiiiiiiiit

there aren’t any details, what if it’s a crappy coffee maker???

[stillctrsara]

TAG GAME: TOP TEN COMFORT FILMS

Nobody tagged me. I just wanted to do this!

These are in no particular order:

1. Spider-Man: Homecoming

2. Sabrina (Harrison Ford)

3. The Avengers

4. The Parent Trap (Hayley Mills)

5. Star Trek (the reboot)

6. Endgame-if-you-stop-it-when-Tony-snaps

7. Wall-E

8. The Sounds of Music

9. Moana

10. How to Steal a Million (Audrey Hepburn)

bonus: The Greatest Showman

I tag (first, anyone who wants to do this), @asyouleft, @yes-i-am-happyaspie, @spagbol99, @junker5, @waitingondaisies, and @imyoursavinggrace (if you want to, obvi)

[westgateoh]

For @rpepperpotshipssciencebros and @junker5

Not exactly shenanigans, but fluffy! It was delightful to visit with them again! I hope you like it!

[findingstony]

junker5 asked: I’m pretty sure ask 2525 is the amazing Steve Rogers is a Child by Laglemon

minitonies asked: Ask #2525 is part of the “Steve Rogers is a Child” series by LagLemon

Don’t forget to bookmark, comment, and leave kudos! On AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/966323/

I‘m looking for a Stony fic that was written before 15.12.19, all I‘ve got is some screenshots from a scene in which Clint is somehow disguised as a guy named Hermann who can only speak German and yells at Tony about his watch being broken. Google was no help, maybe the fic has been deleted. I‘m pretty sure I‘ve read it on AO3. Thanks in advance for the help!

Screenshot:

"Ja! Meine Uhr ist kaputt! Bitte helft mir," Herman said, gesturing wildly.

"I don't get it - you want me to fix your watch? Why - Look, are we having a problem here?" Tony asked, raising an eyebrow. He felt sweat trickle down the back of his neck. He looked at Hermann's wrist and pasted a smile on, trying not to be confrontational. "Uh, Buddy? You're not even wearing a watch."

"Nein! Ich bin's! Sie ist hier!" Hermann said, shoving his arm under Tony's nose. "Kannst du sie nicht sehen? Bist du dumm?"

Tony stared blandly at the guy's wrist, fairly certain he had just been insulted. "I can see your wrist, buddy - it's a very nice watch. Very nice. Maybe you need to sit down - drink less? I don't know - stop smoking whatever it is you've been smoking?"

"Bierficker!" Hermann snapped, pointing at his wrist.

"Saftsack!" He glared at his wrist as though he wanted to tear it off with his own teeth.

[…]

Hermann's shoulders sagged in relief. "Tony Ich kann nicht Englisch sprechen," he said, gesturing to his wrist.

"Meine Uhr ist kaputt,"

"Shit - your watch - oh!" Tony grabbed Clint by the wrist and felt around. Sure enough, there, lurking beneath the hologram was the holographic display watch he had given Clint before they had parted ways. Tony's touch made Clint hiss in pain; he yanking his arm back, and gave Tony a dirty look, clutching his arm to his chest. "Arschloch,

Request 2,525! Send us an ask if you know this fic! 

[copperbadge]

I know Chicago is huge....but I can’t help but worry about one of my favorites when I see ugly Chicago news on my news feed.

Hope you and your girls are safe & well!

It probably says something about Chicago that I went to the Trib and couldn’t tell which news story might have worried you...

But yes I am fine! The weather is ugly but the Cryptids and I are inside and warm. Currently Polk is napping on top of a couch cushion, and Dearborn is in my lap washing her paws and giving her claws a nibbling. 

[stillctrsara]

@junker5 Right? This is such a great exploration of this idea, and Marvel wouldn’t give it to us, so we just have to create it ourselves…

Tony, the futurist

Buckle in folks, I've had some thoughts and I'm about to make it ✨everyone's✨ problem.

Been thinking about Tony Stark, the futurist who saw the end of the world.

Tony, who in IM1 escapes kidnapping and torture and says, "I shouldn't be alive. Unless if was for a reason."

who, in The Avengers, has this exchange with Bruce Banner:

Tony: You know, I've got a cluster of shrapnel, trying every second to crawl its way into my heart. This stops it. This little circle of light. It's part of me now, not just armor. It's a… terrible privilege. Bruce: But you can control it. Tony: Because I learned how. Bruce: It's different. Tony: Hey, I've read all about your accident. That much gamma exposure should've killed you. Bruce: So you're saying that the Hulk… the other guy… saved my life? That's nice. It's a nice sentiment. Saved it for what? Tony: I guess we'll find out. Bruce: You might not like that. Tony: You just might.

Right after this, Cap tells Tony, "You're not the guy to make the sacrifice play, to lay down on a wire and let the other guy crawl over you."

And then Tony flies a nuke into a wormhole, tries to call his girlfriend because he thinks these are his last moments, did not go in there expecting to survive.

Although he survives, he witnesses an alien army so terrifying, so unbeatable, it gives him crippling PTSD nightmares and panic attacks, knowing they are not prepared to defend the earth.

I'm thinking about Tony who, in AOU, gets manipulated by Wanda into witnessing his worst nightmare.

Which, by the way, involves losing all of his newfound friends.

Later, he has this exchange with Nick Fury:

Tony: And I'm the man who killed the Avengers. I saw it. I didn't tell the team, how could I? I saw them all dead, Nick. I felt it. The whole world, too. It's because of me. I wasn't ready. I didn't do all I could. Fury: The Maximoff girl, she's working you, Stark. Playing on your fear. Tony: I wasn't tricked, I was shown. It wasn't a nightmare, it was my legacy. The end of the path I started us on. Fury: You've come up with some pretty impressive inventions, Tony. War isn't one of them. Tony: I watched my friends die. You'd think that'd be as bad as it gets, right? Nope. Wasn't the worst part. Fury: The worst part is that you didn't.

Tony's worst fear is to survive in a world he's failed to save. He has to "do all [he] could" or else the future he's terrified of will happen and it will be his fault.

(Not to put too fine a point on it, but there's a reason why Tony and Peter are so compatible as mentor and mentee.)

Tony's seen what's coming, and he's willing to do whatever it takes.

Here's the thing, though:

Tony doesn't actually want to die.

In AOU, when they're arguing about why he created Ultron, Tony says this to Cap:

"Isn't that the mission? Isn't that the 'why we fight'? So we get to go home?"

He tells Bruce that the reason they should create Ultron is to have "peace in our time."

He tells Pepper that his constant tinkering, his inability to ever, ever rest is because he needs to keep her safe from the oncoming threat.

Tony has a life he wants to protect, people he wants to keep safe. And, unlike the other Avengers, he knows exactly how impossible this will be to achieve.

Tony is the only Avenger who understands how severely outmatched they are. Maybe Thor understands the threat, but he has no ability to imagine losing.

Tony tries to get them to understand:

Tony: Recall that? A hostile alien army came charging through a hole in space. We're standing three hundred feet below it. We're the Avengers. We can bust arms dealers all the live long day, but, that up there? That's… that's the end game. How were you guys planning on beating that? Steve: Together. Tony: We'll lose. Steve: Then we'll do that together, too.

Well, they do lose. And they don't do it together.

And it turns out Tony was right about everything.

He was right that he would survive to face his world that he'd failed to save.

He was right that the Avengers would not be enough.

He was right that Bruce's powers would be worthwhile someday.

And, apparently,

some people think he was right that he was only alive for this reason.

Because, obviously, the only "reason" for someone like Tony Stark to be alive is to eventually sacrifice himself, right?

A character so traumatized can only find peace in death.

Right?

No.

Stop that.

Tony Stark may have been willing to risk his life for his family, but that doesn't mean he wanted that to be his end.

Remember when this happened?

Bruce: Saved it for what? Tony: I guess we'll find out. Bruce: You might not like that. Tony: You just might.

Bruce gets to live long enough to like his ending.

Remember when this happened?

All Tony ever wanted to do was make the world a better place.

And, what about this?

You're telling me that Yinsen didn't value family above all else?

That he thought Tony should die and leave them behind?

No.

Tony Stark is a futurist.

He is the Cassandra of the MCU. He warns the others constantly of the oncoming threat that only he, apparently, can see. (Even Thanos calls him "cursed with knowledge.")

No one believes him. Alone, he tries to prepare for the threat that he has witnessed. He sits with his nightmares and tries to find a way around them, constantly.

He builds a life worth living, finds people worth protecting, just like Yinsen told him to.

To protect the future, he does all he possibly can.

Tony deserved to be part of the future too.

[27dragons]

junker5

  I love the candy heart series. Here's hoping to...

An alternate Sandbridge ? That’ll be angsty as all get out. Thanks for entertaining us!!!

SO ANGSTY. OMG. SO. SO. SO ANGSTY.

Still has a happy ending, because it’s us. But getting there? SO MUCH ANGST. And Nat is not around to fix things with ice cream.

[tisfan]

junker5 replied to your post “Medical Stuff (and how it might affect the fics you love)”

Yikes! I had no idea...last I knew Tylenol gave you hives. You were your own hurt/medical whumpfic. I'm so sorry. Sending hugs. And sympathetic back pats. I'm so glad you are ok!

One time someone said “You write a lot of medical stuff” (which I do for a lot of my original fiction) and I’m like “write what you know”

[musicalluna]

junker5 replied to your post: i am feeling so weird tonight

You recently changed meds /adjusted meds didn’t you? Maybe that’s affecting you more than you realize. Cudfle up in a blanket burrito with a good fic/book /Hope you feel better soon.

yeah i got some new stuff to take a month or two ago, i think it’s mostly that i haven’t interacted with any people this weekend. i’m talking to a friend on the phone which i think is helping

[stillctrsara]

rules: tag 10 people you want to get to know better!

Thanks @monaisme for the tag.

relationship status: I've known my husband for 22 years now, and we've been married for 18 next month! Man, I'm old...

favorite colors: Teal and silver

song stuck in my head: Well, due to a long very-ADHD head journey, now it's the "Dumbo's Circus" theme song from a weird Disney Channel cartoon from when I was a kid. Look it up. You won't be sorry.

last song i listened to: Righthand Man (Hamilton soundtrack)

3 favorite foods:

1. Really good chicken alfredo

2. Tacos. All the tacos, minus seafood ones.

3. Cheetos

last thing i googled: Well, now it's "google search history" but I guess it's "fever with elevated breathing." Unfortunately not for a story this time. :-p

dream trip: Probably Europe. I'd love to see some of the places my ancestors came from (Switzerland, England, Sweden, etc.) Disneyland Paris, and some of the amazing sights there. Either that, or somewhere like New Zealand with lots of cool excursions.

anything i want right now: For everyone to stop getting sick. For stuff that tastes super delicious to actually be healthy, haha. I'd settle for a week in a hotel room by myself to just veg, and read, and write. (Okay, put the hotel by Disneyland, so I could do some of that, too.)

I’m tagging (but feel free to ignore this, or make up your own questions!): @asyouleft, @yes-i-am-happyaspie, @spagbol99, @tonystarchive, @junker5, @furiousgardenhologram, @mori-tashie, @lexilooper, @cajun-fangirl and @abbendipity, as well as anyone else who wants to do it!

[findingstony]

junker5 asked: Request 2,541 sounds like What Need part of MusicalLuna’s amazing Flux ‘verse. works/9691250

Don’t forget to kudos, comment, and bookmark!

On AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/9691250

Hi. I'm searching for a fic (I think it was possibly from a series) where Tony and Steve are married and take care of Peter (I can't remember if he was their "son" or not). Tony is out of town and Steve comes home injured. Peter calls Tony to try and figure out what to do and then the rest of the team shows up to take care of Steve. He was injured because he let Shield Medical do experiments on him. It was fairly short. Thanks so much!

Request 2,541! Send us an ask if you know this fic!

[jhscdood]

Shout out to @junker5, who read and commented on 6 of my fics last night. You are a fanfic writer’s dream, and I salute you!