#juno steel s3

[pee-bee]

i got her into juno steel

[pippalovestunabrick]

Nureyev: It's so strange. Even after everything we've been through I still find it so difficult to talk about my... how I feel.

Juno: It's scary. I get it. You don't have to if you don't want to.

Nureyev: It is frightening, yes. But that doesn't stop you. I think I respect that about you a great deal.

Perhaps what I'm trying to say is... I feel rather vulnerable around you. And it is a difficult time for me to feel vulnerable. If I have taken that out on you, I am genuinely very sorry.

I'm glad you're here. I don't think I could have made it through everything without you.

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I absolutely positively could not prevent myself from drawing this scene!! Now that the ep's been out a few days, here you go tumblr

[ephemeralgalaxies]

Y'ALL. Re-listening to The Penumbra Podcast (s3 now lol bc yes I am specifically looking for Nureyev lore since s4/5 new info) and Man in Glass has me SOBBING IT WAS RIGHT THERE ALL ALONG.

s3ep2, Buddy telling Nureyev his "calling card"

Buddy: "An endoring moral core, coupled with a strong desire to excise that core completely...like having a heart embarrasses you. I brought you on this ship for that moral core. If I distrust you, darling, it is only because you have proven that you can do anything you set your mind to, and so I am certain that you are capable of excising those morals for good. You just haven't done it yet."

Then later, s3ep2 still, Nureyev is talking with Juno in his room and Nureyev narrates:

Nureyev: 'I feel the weight of potentiality sit heavy on my shoulders, I hear Buddy's words about the excision of my moral core and about my ability to do it. And I realize, for the first time, that there is a kind of helplessness in complete freedom[...]when trouble arises, I disappear. [...]but looking at this new man [Juno], there is nothing I want more than to stay.'

AND THEN AND THEN IN S5ep14 The Sixteen Tons,,, yeah I know this line by heart :')

Nureyev and Juno talking (arguing) after Juno takes him into the closet at the facility (near the beginning of the ep)

Nureyev: "I do not want to see you anymore, Juno."

Juno: "...What?!"

Nureyev: "You said that it would just take those words to excise you from my life entirely, didn't you? Well, I've said them..."

THE EXACT WORD CHOICE. THE WAY HE WANTED TO STAY ON THE SHIP AND JOIN THE AURINKO CRIME FAMILY FOR (money, but also) JUNO. BECAUSE JUNO IS HIS MORAL CORE, THEIR MORALS DO ALIGN. THAT'S WHY THEY WORK SO WELL. SO OFC HE HAS TO "EXCISE" JUNO TO CARRY ON WITH THIS.

Because the reality of it: keeping someone between life and death for YEARS, helping fund the Big Pharma that has vowed to safe Slip and yet also commits such horrific acts, but he has to do it or else he never gets to know Slip or have someone know him as he thinks they should bc surely he must not be worth all of this to Juno, the lady's just being stubborn again and inconsiderate, but deep down Nureyev KNOWS that's not it at all. He knows that Juno does know him and will continue to know more about him, and if he can do that and love Nureyev... well, that means Nureyev could have a future.

But Nureyev has been trying to stretch out the future for over 20 years. He's set his mind to it, and he can do anything he sets his mind to. Including destroying himself until there is nothing left to bother with a future anyway. Until there is nothing for Juno Steel to know and love and so he gets the punishment he believes so adamantly that he deserves long before Juno first left him in that hotel room.

If he is alone, then when trouble comes he can just disappear. If he is alone, there is no one to hurt when that bomb goes off.

[givemeureyes]

listening to juno steel again. i know m’tendere (is that how you spell it?) is like a war criminal but…. i kinda want them

[a-linearis]

just relistened to juno steel and the tools of rust and my heart is shattering into pieces over and over and i just want to lie in my bed and cry. imagine what jet and m'tendere could've done together. imagine.

the episode is chilling and eerie and action packed and full of friendship and conflicting perspectives on the world and i love it so so so so so so much and i'm going to miss this podcast SO MUCH

i wanted to get the poster to remind me of the episode but shipping was more than the cost of the poster lmao

also i hate dark matters for preventing rita from giving jet a hug.

and yes i squealed at jet (effectively) saying he was aroace

[mechanical-v1scera]

some season 3 Junos since I’m almost done with season 4 now :D

[planetstyx]

Not so proud of how the shading turned out, but ughhhh

Them sm

SMMMM

[ylissebian]

caught up this week right in time for the start of season 5… we’re so back

[harpie-raven]

*onboard the Carte Blanche*

Juno: Uhhhhh……Buddy? What’re you wearing?

Buddy: My emotions darling, stress couture—

[podcasts-in-space]

MY KNIGHT IN STOLEN ARMOUR

[watcherglowcloud]

god i hate gay people

[of-swords-and-princes]

Relistened to What Lies Beyond (part 1) today and had a terrible thought during the wedding vows...

Knowing what we know now about Slip and the Executives and what they did to Nureyev, what do you think was going through his mind when Buddy said this:

When Buddy describes feeling as though she's in a dream? I can imagine the panic, the kick of his flight response. That's the last thing he really hears from them before he disappears. It's almost a confirmation that he can't stay, he doesn't belong here.

And he probably shares Buddy's fear, that he'll wake up one day and find out that he's been tricked again, that Juno and the rest of the Family were all just another dream. A pretty lie, a fabrication of his mind.

[wolfstar4466]

Juno Steel is many things. He is anger and bitterness and trust and hurt and emotions building, rising until they burst. He is distrust and learning to let others help, he is the rumbling of a thunderstorm and a raging wildfire. He is also bloody knuckles and built up bitterness from being hurt by the people who are supposed to care. He is night sky when the city lights block out every star, but if you look hard enough you can find one. he is fear and running away because you haven't done enough to be happy. Its working yourself into the ground and then working more because you need to do better. you need to do enough good to make up for the bad. he is gowns and dancing when the one who taught you can't dance with you anymore. he is quiet talks through the night, whispering words that are too scary to say under daylight. he is the all consuming rage of betrayal but still wanting to trust, he is convincing yourself that its not what it looks like, things are going to be okay when everything is not okay. he is moments frozen in time, looking back on them wishing time didn't continue because continuing hurts. He is protecting your people because they are all you have, a building isn't home, the people around you are. He is being handed reason after reason to become bitter and doing so but working on being better. on being something worth loving. Juno steel is many many things, but in the end he is still only Juno Steel

[ephemeralgalaxies]

Y'ALL NOT AGAIN

fucking "Rex Glass" and the episode "Man in Glass" AND NUREYEV EXPLAINING HOW HE CHOSE "REX" BC IT MEANS KING, AS IN CONTROL.

In s1ep1, Nureyev (Glass) talking about the meaning of names and what "Rex Glass" means to him:

Nureyev: "I take my name as a creed to live by: control your name, and you control yourself."

Juno: "It's a pretty thought, Rex. [I] Wish it were that simple."

LIKE HELLO??? SHATTER MY HEART AGAIN AFTER THE SIXTEEN TONS. Nureyev thinking he controls himself, and he can when he changes his name. He can disappear when he changes his name. But he loses some sense of control with Juno, let's himself relax a bit and let's Juno take charge of some things instead. On the flipside, he has no control with the people holding Slip Jackson — they know his name and are willing to use it as a weapon against him. He can't control his name here, so he can't control himself (looks at the line in which Juno says that they "stole his [Nureyev's] story" because Nureyev always thought he was doing something inconceivable and unique (therefore no one could understand his suffering), just to find out that he is one of maybe thousands in the same position all across the galaxy.

Not only does Man in Glass make Nureyev more transparent for us, Buddy, and even Juno, but also it highlights the back-and-forth struggle for Nureyev as he goes between choosing his names and yet yearning to hear Juno "call [him] what [he] used to."

He's breakable, here.

Y'ALL THE LITTLE CLUES ALL THROUGHOUT THIS SERIES HAVE ME GASPING. YALL AINT READY FOR THE SHIT COMING UP WITH WHAT BUDDY SAYS TO JUNO AND THEN JUNO AND NUREYEV IN S5. SO MANY PARALLELS.

[theapocalypse-is-nigh]

What is your favourite season of the penumbra podcast? And why is it s3?

[rosewaterfish]

No thoughts. Only Jupeter.