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enrapture · 1 year

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Since I’ve failed to keep in touch on certain social medias like this one that I used to be on all the time, I wanted to do a lil update.

I will try to make this as short as I can. (I failed)

I’ve been taking time to reevaluate, work through, come to an understanding and acceptance of certain things. Trying to change within myself & ask myself questions and take my time figuring things out as I tend to be my own worst critic. Trying to move more with love, openness, respect, understanding and honesty are the core elements I desire in life. I will not settle for less but at the same time I will remember that imperfections make us human. No one, thing, is perfect. Everyone fucks up. It’s okay. everyone goes at their own pace in life unless chosen otherwise. Obv depends on the situation but yeah. Moving on… I feel like if I don’t say what comes to mind I’ll forget and it will eat at me if I don’t talk about it or I’ll remember it later and then I’ll talk about it but now it’s too late and it’s considered out of context and then I’m looked at like HUH. So yeah I’m a bit of a mess. LOL.

God I say so much detailed shit that makes 0 sense lmao. This is all a jumbled mess but go on keep reading if you give a shit. ily, for those that take the time to get me, understand my scattered thought brain. You’re dope. Thank you. Anyway, It’s all about within yourself. Feeling your feelings. Experiencing things and surrounding yourself with similar <good> natured people. With Happiness blooms in the bones so to speak. Just doing. Just being. Just flowing. So it goes. Figuring out what I want out of life currently, the people I want to be surrounded by, and work on my mental health. Work on things because I want to and try to become a better person overall. (Speaking of mental, mine hasn’t at all been the best or the easiest this year. taking it one day at a time. Is the nicest way I can put it.Adhd/Depression/anxiety are difficult to juggle.) I know as time goes by life won’t be easy. Trying to accept that. realizations can be impactful. Making actual decisions instead of procrastinations as well as learn and practice accepting things for how they are. For what they were. And not make excuses. I’m working on a lot haha. I’m <trying> to get back into various hobbies such as (art, writing, poetry, photography) as of late all I’ve been doing is working, planning for New York, going out and about, watching films/shows, listening to music, once in a blue moon playing video games (im waiting on my monitor to come in since mine just stopped working for no reason. It’s a Samsung thing HAHA just trust, I’m not the only one it happened to unfortunately) and reading with my time.

For those who don’t know I’m visiting New York for the first time in two weeks and I’m (most likely) moving there in the beginning of the year. Maybeeeee around my birthday (Jan 28th) I dunno yet as of current. But Im thinkin about going to school sometime after everything is settled. I’m taking some time to figure out what I want to do rn. I know I want to take a few classes in art, do something in regards with cinema, maybe do somethin with coding/graphic design??? Idk I have a few things in mind. I just need to take time after running around like a madman getting the house ready/myself ready, work currently and work on balance 🤍🖤 try to not be up in the clouds too long ya feel? I’ve got goals and I’m working at em one day at a time. :,) it’s hard but I think it will all work out in the way it will and it will all make sense eventually. For the first time in a long time, I’m hopeful.

It’s a new start. A new beginning. I’m nervous/excited. More growing, learning shitsy shits to do~

Authenticity is sexy. Consideration. Reciprocation. Communication & understanding is sexy. Taking the time to figure yourself out as well as others is sexy. The realization of truly Highs and lows - flaws and growth not being stuck in one or the other for too long despite them are sexier.

Romanticize •positivity• into your life.

And if you’re going through shit, know that it will work itself out soon. Easier said than done, but it will. Everything will make sense in time. Give yourself that time. 💛

As someone who’s been through a lot of unspeakable but some speakable hell, who gets it, trust me you’re meant to be here.

If there’s a sign, this is it.^ stay. Continue on. But yeah update Im probably most likely moving LMAO.

Okay, Phew.

#mine #tbh #personal #thoughts #update

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deadcactuswalking · 2 years

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REVIEWING THE CHARTS: 17/09/2022

Lewis Capaldi debuts at #1 on the UK Singles Chart with “Forget Me”. Truly a national tragedy. Welcome back to REVIEWING THE CHARTS!

Rundown

This should be an interesting week, though maybe a bit of a depressing one... though not for any non-musical reasons: we’ve got Lewis Capaldi and homicide coming up. You can decide if they’re related. As always, however, we start with the notable dropouts, songs exiting the UK Top 75 – which is what I cover – after five weeks in the region or a peak in the top 40, of which we have just a few. We bid farewell to “Man in the Mirror” by D-Block Europe, “Narcissist” by Lauren Spencer-Smith, “Rainfall (Praise You)” by Tom Santa – both of those feel cut short – and to wrap it up, “Don’t Forget My Love” by Diplo and Miguel and “Where Did You Go?” by Jax Jones and MNEK after 31 weeks... which may have been the slowest 31 weeks of my entire life.

In terms of notable gains and returns, whilst we do see residual returns for “Someone You Loved” by Lewis Capaldi at #75 and “Yellow” by Coldplay at #74, we also have a smattering of gains, including “Getting Started” by Sam Fender at #55, “Victoria’s Secret” by Jax at #41, “Atlantis” by Seafret at #40, “CUFF IT” by Beyoncé resurging at #38 thanks to TikTok virality, “Words” by Alesso featuring Zara Larsson at #37, “Calm Down” by Rema at #36 (good to see), “KU LO SA – A COLORS SHOW” by Oxlade at #24, and finally, entering the top 10 to round off our all-over-the-place gains is... “Under the Influence” by Chris Brown at #9. Good Lord.

As for Off the Charts, I’m not really sure what to do with this section. I might split it off or make it monthly but we’ll see for now. I still do listen to music outside of the charts, mostly in fact, but not a lot of it is new and I do need to get back into time regarding that, maybe some catching up is necessary and I can bring it back as a regular fixture but I do think this’ll be my last year bothering to keep up with new music anyway so I’m not really considering turning it into anything more permanent. This is just a hobby for me, after all. Regardless, the Top 5 of the UK Singles Chart currently consists of “Super Freaky Girl” by Nicki Minaj at #5, “I Ain’t Worried” by OneRepublic at #4, “B.O.T.A. (Baddest of Them All)” by Eliza Rose and Interplanetary Criminal, last week’s #1, at #3, “I’m Good (Blue)” by David Guetta and Bebe Rexha at #2 and finally, of course, “Forget Me” at the very top. Now considering I have listened to some albums from 2022 recently, I might as well write them off...

Off the Charts

a happy medium – lentra

You know, I didn’t expect bbno$’s primary producer to make a good project, but I also didn’t expect an EP’s length of vaguely sunny, frustratingly uninterested indie pop. It’s kind of pathetic, and that is some of the appeal, but with mostly generic or unlikeable writing, I can’t endorse it. My favourite track is “i could die”.

Lyfë – Yeat

Yeat still can’t put out a cohesive project of bangers yet, I suppose. I was kind of hoping something off of this would actually chart, but as it is, this is his most ambitious but given his unchanging flows and disinterested content and delivery, he’s still the weakest, least interesting part of his own music. Some of these beats are definitely out-there and I respect that, but the niche runs dry when repeated over different kinds of muted rage beats, borderline rap-rock cuts and cloudier plugg tunes with very little attempt to mesh or apart. My favourite track is of course “Flawlëss” where Lil Uzi Vert steals the show.

age/sex/location – Ari Lennox

R&B singer Ari Lennox comes out with a more polished project that has its moments and often really shines, like the sick groove on my favourite track “Outside”, and the comical interplay with Lucky Daye on “Boy Bye”. With that said, despite the consistent venom towards men who wronged her, and a generally awesome level of charisma, some of the vocal presence feels misguided and not all the songs pick up enough pace. With less attention paid to current R&B trends, this could have been great, but it also could have been shelved entirely, so I’m okay with it as it is.

Icarus – Cryalot

I wish Sarah Bonito had more gripping content or more fully developed, fleshed-out song structures, as that’s the one thing holding this back from being truly great. She’s partially in hyperpop realm here with the naive form of songwriting that is somewhat compelling and the maximalist approach to synthwork, as well as the stop-and-start rhythms she finds herself in. For a more reserved project, it does pretty well: a lot of it is damn near aspirational, “See You Again” is effectively mournful, and she never feels the need to go for a full-on synth blast because it really wouldn’t fit the content. Despite all of that, “Hell is Here” is barely even a song, the chorus on “Hurts Me” isn’t allowed to soar because of the trap beat and I mean, I love the comfy future bass of my favourite track “Labyrinth” but I don’t understand why it’s here twice. There are more ideas than actual songs, but they’re great ideas.

Keep on Smiling – Two Door Cinema Club

This is kind of out there for Two Door Cinema Club, right? Sure, there are just as many sticky pop hooks as, say, their debut, and it’s still flashy, sparkly new rave we’ve come to expect, but this is more often than not rooted in mutant disco more so than the dance-pop it was cribbed off of, and when it makes the shift in the second half to more car commercial music contrasted to the wonkiness of the first half, it makes thematic sense. A lot of that half is spent trying to reassure and reconfigure, the switch into buzzy synth paradise makes complete sense – and the songs are still great. They really have text-to-speech backing vocals on “Everybody’s Cool”. My favourite track is the unstable and shaky “Little Piggy”, which is in more dissonant bizarre territory than I ever expected from 2DCC. Hope to hear more like this.

EACH CRISIS A CATALYST – Boyfriend Needle

It’s kind of weird to say that a disturbed mess of compressed ideas that starts with a frantic blast of metal is a more simplistic, less ambitious EP from Boyfriend Needle but it really does feel like the conceptuality – and really, soundscape – is taking less time here, and there’s more effort into actually constructing songs, which comes with its pros and cons. Hell, I find the actual pop hooks on here less memorable than some of the absurdities on their last couple records. Oh, and of course, the dissonant, filtered pop shrouds itself in dread once those lyrical conceits lose themselves in droning industrial chaos by the closer. Typical Boyfriend Needle. My favourite track is “Corporeal”.

Älskar – Nina Nesbitt

And we end this section with a project I’m so glad to hear, and kind of glad I had the extra time to rethink and analyse because God, this is such a good pure pop record. Why nothing off of it is charting is beyond me. My favourite detail might be her breathy delivery, with the shaky falsetto runs and muted, sometimes even gasped vocal cadences, striking a great blend between the youthful effervescence she finds herself reminiscing upon and the exasperation of having to experience said youth and come to understand the vulnerable position she was in years later. Her looking at the past generations of women in her family on “Dinner Table” is a really great sentiment, and “Older Guys” is just devastating. “Heirlooms” is gorgeous – and probably my favourite track – as she starts to share how concerned she would be for her future family, learning from herself and those earlier generations and hoping that her kids won’t have to carry the weight of her own burdens. The harmonies blend into each other like scenic lakes, the production is damn near immaculate; if you listen to any pure pop or adult contemporary this year, make it this one. It’s incredible. Now, back to our regularly scheduled programming.

NEW ARRIVALS

#63 – “Static” – Steve Lacy

Produced by Steve Lacy

Okay, we’ve got just five new arrivals here, and none of them are particularly interesting. This one is barely a song, with a decent warping funk bass and a decent piano line but this kind of song – with one verse and an outro only – really relies on Lacy as a character and a voice and well, the guy is just annoying. I get that the song’s supposed to be toxic, but without that opposing voice, his bitchy whining in a sing-songy tone about this girl’s new boyfriend is just laid bare to sit there and be irritating. There are some really unpleasant, ugly lines and his vocals are just as flat as they are in “Bad Habit”, so when he coughs instead of saying the word “cough”, the detail doesn’t really come off as intricate – or even in character – just arrogant. The song basically ends a minute in and the rest consists of meandering harmonies that add a nonchalance to all of the whining which I guess could work – it’s kind of a villain song, but with that cheap-sounding acoustic guitar, it doesn’t have nearly the amount of menace or bombast it needs to pull it off. As it is, it’s basically an unfinished rant, and a waste of time.

#60 – “Sex, Drugs, Etc.” – Beach Weather

Produced by Alex Silverman and Sean Silverman

Well, this song is from 2016 because, well, of course it is. It didn’t gain any attention then but thanks to what I assume is TikTok we get yet another indie landfill sleeper hit, and what else is to be expected other than disinterest? I don’t hate the acoustic guitars but they’re not on the verge of a melody I’ve yet to hear before, and the vocals feel really oversold, especially as a mantra in that intro and chorus. It doesn’t help that the lyrics are just as condescending and arrogant, with the embarrassing chorus of “I’m floating on my lowkey vibe”... When that’s your hook, start over! It’s fine to have a song about resting and not partaking in destructive lifestyles, obviously, but when it feels so self-important and defensive over what really is cheap and unimpressive production, especially in that gross bridge, with the reverb-drenched vocals, squealing guitars and piercing synth that just gets to me. Listen, just because indie music is charting doesn’t mean I’m going to like it, especially if it’s going to consist of leftovers that barely function as songs. If you want more proof to that point...

#48 – “Romantic Homicide” – d4vd

Produced by Dan Darmawan

Again, this is just not a song. Sure, the dreamy guitars don’t sound awful... well, actually I say that all the time: in this case, they do. The bad Duster impression sounds really flakey and fake as the guitars stab barely onto the non-existent rhythm of this pathetic attempt at shoegaze-esque doomer music. The drums sound impressively awful as they just kind of plop themselves into the mix with no sense of groove or even catharsis, as d4vd’s vocals caress the mix with a slathering of emo whining that has very little substance – that’s fine – and very little character – that’s annoying. The mix is a mess too, with so many elements inorganically creeping up in the mix alongside a flailing harmony that proves this kid’s lack of ability, if the content about having a dream where he kills his girlfriend didn’t already act as a sign. Listen, messy and emotionally repulsive music can very much work, as catharsis, and depressive, hateful, possessive music has its place. I’ve listened to enough post-punk to understand that there’s a grit and heart-wrenching element to a lot of this kind of sonic hopelessness... yet those songs actually finish instead of abruptly cutting off. The vocalists and guitars have either a grandiosity or a massive depressive weight to carry. I’m not even a fan of shoegaze or dream pop, or slowcore or noise pop for that matter, but I know when it doesn’t work, and as someone who’s only really aware of the genre as “music for depressed nerds”, I don’t see this working for them. For a better introduction, I mean, My Bloody Valentine, Slowdive, The Wedding Present all have classics in this lane, Duster, Helvetia, Gravehurst and Low are right there, these aren’t exactly inaccessible, obscure bands; I’m not even a fan, and I know for a fact this kind of music is being made today – not that I listen to it because, well, I’m happy. So why give this teenage dreck the time of day?

#42 – “LA Leakers Freestyle” – Central Cee

Produced by Kendox

Once again, this is just not a song. Okay, this is actually true for this and not just hyperbole: Power 106 is a radio show in America, and the hosts, the LA Leakers collective, got Central Cee on to spit a single verse. Cee spends most of his time trying to “bridge the gap”, and I can kind of excuse the mixing considering this is a radio show and not an official streaming release – if you can ignore that, you know, it’s an official streaming release. So what’s he got to say about bridging the gap? Well, by that he means that he explains UK slang in a kind of unnatural way, explaining the difference between UK and US gang culture and slang. The beat feels very cheap and pots-and-pans, with a chipmunk soul sample that squeaks over a stock drill groove. I’ll say that he’s a confident voice and I’m not bothered that he seems to be the view of UK drill for the rest of the world, since his flow is consistent here, and the breath control is impressive, but it’s just not really a song, and I can’t really judge it as such. It’s just a decent verse over a cheap-sounding beat, and rarely will one of those radio freestyles ever reach greatness, so what was there to expect? Speaking of low expectations...

#1 – “Forget Me” – Lewis Capaldi

Produced by Chris Bishop, Lewis Capaldi and TMS

Making moves, yeah, on the dance floor. Got our groove on, dancing – yeah – real hardcore. From the front to the back, that’s where I was at. You know, you know, the Artful Dodger do it like that. With Craig David all over your – (boing!) – DJ, it’s all up to you. When the crowd goes wild, tell me, what are you going to do? Re-rewind, when the crowd says, “Bo Selecta”. Re-rewind, when the crowd says, “Bo Selecta”. Re-rewind, when the crowd says, “Bo-Bo-Bo”. Re-rewind: this goes out to all the DJs. If you know, you know.

Conclusion

Jokes and obscure self-referential bits aside, Lewis Capaldi had the best song here, so I suppose he gets Best of the Week for “Forget Me” even though I had so little to say about it that I just replaced my review with Craig David lyrics. Hey, it’s inoffensive enough for me to do that. As for Worst of the Week, it goes to d4vd for “Romantic Homicide” because Jesus has left us, and the Dishonourable Mention goes to “Static” by Steve Lacy for just being insufferable.

That was a rough week, and for no particular reason that is not related to these new arrivals. Nothing else happened in the UK that is important to the news or the chart show. Thank you for reading, rest in peace to PnB Rock – gone way too soon – and I’ll see you next week!

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trxxrpg · 4 years

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Welcome, Viktor Karminsky to Tabula Rasa, He kind of looks a lot like Darren Criss please submit your character account within 24hrs

OUT OF CHARACTER

NAME/NICKNAME/ALIAS: Damien (He/him)

AGE: 18

TIMEZONE: PST

EXPERIENCE: I’ve been roleplaying (casually/amateurly) on and off for 6 years and I kinda suck at it sorry. I’ve roleplayed both as ocs and as characters from different anime/fandoms if you want specifics I can let you know

IN CHARACTER

CHARACTER NAME: Viktor Octavian Karminsky

CHARACTER AGE: 156 (True Age), Appears to be in mid twenties.

FACECLAIM: Darren Criss

GENDER: Cisgender Male (He/Him)

SPECIES: Supernatural, Undead

SUBSPECIES: Vampire

TRAITS:

Positive:

> Disciplined

> Quick witted

> Friendly

Negative:

> Indifferent

> Superficial

> Manipulative

SKILL SETS:

Positive:

> Persuasion. Viktor has a way with words, having been a businessman for most of his life. While he can’t “charm” anyone, he can be pretty convincing when he wants to be.

> Cooking. While Viktor isn’t a culinary prodigy, he has been practicing for many years. While he can mostly only cook European food (Russian, Romanian, German etc), he has also picked up “American” food quite well. Although he can’t eat food due to his undead status, his non-vampiric acquaintances quite appreciate the gesture.

> Marksmanship. Viktor was part of the military for many years and occupied Romania with the USSR. During his time in the military, Viktor was an excellent shot and received numerous awards for it.

> Jewelry-making. Viktor took up jewelry-making as a means to give Garridan more personalized gifts. Currently, he continues to make jewelry as a hobby, and has a pile of jewelry he’s made with the intention of one day returning to Garridan and giving them to him.

Negative:

> Can’t drive. When the automobile first came out, his father arranged for a personal driver for him. Because of this, Viktor never got around to learning how to drive and doesn’t currently plan on doing so.

> Can’t mediate/comfort others well. Viktor is used to offering actual solutions to other peoples’ problems but he tries his best not to say anything that will make the situation worse. With Garridan, he tends to be more tender than with others, however, even comforting Garridan is limited to physical touch and small words of comfort for the most part.

> Has trouble making genuine friends. Since Viktor is a businessman, most of his “friends” are merely business partners whom he has ties to. Many of said business partners are jaded, and Viktor is almost more comfortable talking to someone he’s legally tied to than someone he considers his friend. Due to his past and familiarity with ulterior motives, it is hard for Viktor to relax and open up to people about things.

QUOTE/LYRICS:

“But who really cares? / Nobody aware, in love with they hair, in love with the self / Wealth growing, stealth blowing / I cannot have any privacy / Even my closest of homies could lie to me / They could decide to be slithering snakes / Where the withering wraiths / Keep a blistering pace, see a fist in your face” Learning Not to Give a Fuck, Lil Darkie

“Always lie when they ask you how you’re feeling / Demons tell the truth to help spread chaos / We’ve been born more than once for the Scorpio Machine” Scorpio Machine, Angelspit

WRITING SAMPLE

CHARACTER BACKGROUND:

(These are just key parts idk how much you wanted)

Viktor grew up in Russia in a wealthy family. For the first 18 years of his life, he lived as a “good son,” following his fathers’ orders and excelling in his studies. He lost his younger brother when he was 16 and became an only child. When Viktor became an adult, his father revealed to him that he had been turned into a vampire, and offered the same fate to his son. Viktor accepted, and was turned on the night of his 21st birthday.

Following the turning, Viktor did many things, one being joining the military. He invaded and occupied Romania in the USSR, which is where he met Garridan. Within the year, they fell in love and Viktor turned Garridan into a vampire.

Viktor also worked with his father to begin investing in the diamond industry, funneling wealth into the Russian mines. Viktor’s father now is a large contributor in fine jewelry companies, some of which are based in the US and some of which are European/Asian based. Viktor does help run the company, but is far more interested in making his own jewelry rather than wealth itself.

Presently, Viktor is searching for Garridan and hoping to settle down in the city he finds his lover residing in.

CHARACTER BIOGRAPHY:

Viktor was raised as a socialite and can make small talk with even the most cantankerous of people. Depending on who he’s with, Viktor can be quite charming, friendly, and genuine. However, he is more often than not talking to acquaintances that are more interested in what they can get from him than Viktor himself. To this, he responds with sweet words, smiles, and his own underlying interests. He is not above manipulation within the business world, after all, most figure heads and people he works with are conniving, calloused supernaturals.

Viktor also has a gentler side that he primarily shows only the closest of people, such as his mother or Garridan. He took up jewelry making solely to make jewelry for Garridan, though he has made a few pieces for his mother as well.

Viktor enjoys fishing, hunting, and jewelry-making, although he does have other hobbies. Having grown up in Russia, Viktor is used to the snow and enjoys winter sports such as snowboarding, skiing, and ice skating. He really only has 2 tasks/goals in life: Find Garridan, and continue striving for eternal wealth at his father’s request.

PARAGRAPH SAMPLE:

Viktor closed his eyes, resisting the urge to sigh. Though he could feel his lover’s presence, he was still a ways away from actually seeing Garridan. Upon entering the city, he felt a surge of determination- after all this time, he was so close. The newfound intensity of the pull from their bond sent a shiver up Viktor’s spine. Nothing else mattered to him- the nightlife of the city, smells from different restaurants, and people walking down the streets were all ignored as he followed the familiar feeling of his lover’s attachment to him. What would Garridan do when Viktor finally got to him, he wondered, lips twitching upwards into a smile. Even if Garridan had found someone while he was gone- and Viktor was sure he hadn’t- Viktor could live life acting as his friend rather than his partner. However, the maker did hope that he would find Garridan still sharing the same feelings as they did 2 decades ago.

#trrpgaccept #Viktor Karminsky #Supernatural #Undead #Vampire #submission

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deathboundinautumn · 4 years

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THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Meme.

Mun & Muse

fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

tagged by: @foxcharmed (ily) tagging: oof this is a longer one so ima tag only a few people @rock-you-like-a-hurricxne, @niflheimqueen, @tacitusauxilium, @finalhxaven, @dxfiedfxte, and anyone who wants to do it, steal it from me (I wont tell if you dont ;) )

MY MUSE IS: canon / oc / au / slightly canon-divergent / fandomless / complicated.

IS YOUR CHARACTER POPULAR IN THE FANDOM? YES? / NO. (I’m not entirely sure? I know he’s generally well-liked in the fandom)

IS YOUR CHARACTER CONSIDERED HOT™ IN THE FANDOM? YES / NO / IDK. (I’m pretty sure people think he is)

IS YOUR CHARACTER CONSIDERED STRONG IN THE FANDOM? YES / NO / IDK. (Yeah he's pretty fucking strong, just most people dont use him because you only have him for like a month :/ )

ARE THEY UNDERRATED? YES / NO / IDK. (I wouldn’t say they are. I mean the persona 3 fandom is already small as it is and everyone seems to like him so)

WERE THEY RELEVANT FOR THE MAIN STORY? YES / NO

WERE THEY RELEVANT FOR THE MAIN CHARACTER? YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG. (In vanilla game not as much but in other mediums that tell the story (which are also canon) yes they are)

ARE THEY WIDELY KNOWN IN THEIR WORLD? YES / NO. (just a homeless orphan)

HOW’S THEIR REPUTATION? GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL. (Depends on who you ask. The other members of the Senpai squad would say he’s the goodest boy. But others call him a criminal/vagrant/troublemaker and all sorts of things. Shinji prefers his reputation to be leaning towards the bad side as he’s more likely to be left alone that way)

HOW STRICTLY DO YOU FOLLOW CANON? — I have a very very hard time breaking canon. The big thing being his fate on Oct 4th, its very hard for me to not honor that. I like that his story has a beginning, a middle, and an end. I like how his sacrifice impacts the rest of the group. I try to honor that this is what the character wanted and by not letting him have it that im cheapening his sacrifice. That being said I do have my own headcanons about things but I would say theyre hardly canon divergent.

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals. — -pulls out homeless son from the dumpster- look at him, look at this burnt cinnamon roll. He may be just a grumpy ol sour-puss but deep down there’s a heart of gold that can’t help but shine through. Despite his reputation, my boy is wholesome and caring who will always go out of his way to help those in need even if he’ll deny it every time. Just because he’s crunchy on the outside doesnt mean he aint soft on the inside. -tosses him back in the dumpster-

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?). — Boy I sure hope you like building character relationships at a snails pace because hoo boy is it gonna take a long ass time for you to get anywhere with this boy. Opening up? What’s that? How to do? He doesn’t want to get to know you or your muse. He just wants to be left alone so he can die in peace. Don’t bother him.

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO RP YOUR MUSE? — I dunno. I replayed Persona 3 and just really really liked him. Been in the RP game for a few years at that point and decided, meh fuck it. If I don’t like it, I’ll just delete.

WHAT KEEPS YOUR INSPIRATION GOING? — His struggle is something I hold very near to me and really cut me deep and still does. Also all of you who think of me and wanna do things with me and my interpretation of Shinjiro <3

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

DO YOU THINK YOU GIVE YOUR CHARACTER JUSTICE? YES / NO / I SINCERELY HOPE I DO? (I believe that I do/am very confident in my portrayal)

DO YOU FREQUENTLY WRITE HEADCANONS? YES / NO / SORT OF? (I think about them alot but seldom write them down. Maybe I’ll start since Im actually starting to use tags to organize stuff)

DO YOU SOMETIMES WRITE DRABBLES? YES / NO (Yep yep yep. Somethings start as drabbles that make it into the thread (-cough the flashback of Mitsuru leaving the dorms in a thread I have going with @niflheimqueen-))

DO YOU THINK A LOT ABOUT YOUR MUSE DURING THE DAY? YES / NO

ARE YOU CONFIDENT IN YOUR PORTRAYAL? YES / NO / SORT OF? (tons of praise throughout the year from the community has made me confident that my portrayal is well-liked)

ARE YOU CONFIDENT IN YOUR WRITING? YES / NO / A LITTLE BIT. (sometimes when I’m on, I’m on. Other times I look at my writing and am just like ‘dude find a different hobby’ but I keep on keeping on and the highs have been way better than any low ive gone through.

ARE YOU A SENSITIVE PERSON? YES / NO. / SORTA.

DO YOU ACCEPT CRITICISM WELL ABOUT YOUR PORTRAYAL? — Aye if its constructive hit me. But if you’re just hating then that’s not much use to me.

DO YOU LIKE QUESTIONS, WHICH HELP YOU TO EXPLORE YOUR CHARACTER? — Fuck me up with this shit

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES TO A HEADCANON OF YOURS, DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY? — Sure, though I haven’t really had that happen before

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES WITH YOUR PORTRAYAL, HOW WOULD YOU TAKE IT? — Live and let live. Throughout the years there have been other Shinji’s out there who’s interpretation I’ve looked at and been like ‘nah this aint it chief’ but hey you know what’s real easy to do? Not give a shit, live and let live. So if someone didn’t agree with it, I wowuldn’t much care if they liked it or didn’t its my interpretation and if they have a problem with it and make a point to come at me about it in a way that isn’t constructive then I’d say they have the bigger problem.

IF SOMEONE REALLY HATES YOUR CHARACTER, HOW DO YOU TAKE IT? — I’d be sad because he’s a good boy. But again, if you really dont like him that much you don’t have to interact :’)

ARE YOU OKAY WITH PEOPLE POINTING OUT YOUR GRAMMATICAL ERRORS? — Ye, I make em a lot sometimes (especially if Im tired or something else).

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE EASY GOING AS A MUN? — I think so? I haven’t been told that I’m not easy going and I’ve always felt very approachable. I don’t always respond to dm’s but that’s because sometimes I’m busy but im always down to talk ooc. It’s fun :’)

#thanks again ilysm <3333 #I almost lost this but im glad i didn't it was fun

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Hey dude, is it okay if I post a review of one of your ficts on your tumblr? I don’t have an account on ff.net and I honestly don’t want to if there’s an option to reach you elsewhere anyway.. cause point is I’m not really into fandoms or ships or smut or fanart, this ain’t really my cup of tea, but I really like the idea of fanfiction. I guess what irks me in other fanforms is the lack of exploration of the source material? Lack of critical input? I’m not sure and honestly I don’t think too much about it, but I love storytelling above all and it’s great to know that there are places out there where people build communities based on free world building.. you know what I mean? And I won’t lie and say that such a wild and unkept environments bring out only the best out of people, because really, the world of fanfiction (at least as much as i had seen..which ain’t much) is fulled with folks that use is to serve their own fantasies rather than valuing cohersive writing or um..sometimes logic? And that can be so morbidly fascinating and at the same time.. off putting.. to me? I’m not writing this to be a dick and I’m really sorry if it comes over as such, I’m sorta struggling to explain why I’m even reading it if the first thing I’m stating is that I’m not into this stuff.. oh yeah, fuck it, back on track- It’s so fascinating with what kind of stuff people come up with, truly astonishing, things I wouldn’t have thought of in my life for better or worse and the thing that surprises me the most is when I open up a story as a joke, just because i thought the premise sounds so ridiculously it ought to be entertaining in some way- and am consequently blown away by how well it is written. A thing that only fanfiction can do to me- use my predjustices against me and punishes me with good fortune. I never thought reading about a fairly punching another fairy in the mouth would make me so happy but here I am, nooding approvingly out of shock (and some satisfaction too I’d say). It’s soooo impressive how much thought you put into this Dude! Fucking went and invented a language for them! Jesus Christ- I know so little professional writers that would do that..

So much detail, but not enough to be overwhelming, enough to keep the characters grounded. Enough development of the world to feel the realism creep onto the character with a steady persistent pacing, enough room the breathe and how much the humor contrasts it is wonderful and the fact that it derives so much out of the characters themselves makes them fell much more independent to me.

I’m not a native english speaker (so sorry for bad and confusing grammar) and recently moved to another country I barely speak the language of and certain things in the story hit home. I’m so so impressed by your research for it. Just take my word for it that you’re writing the dialogue (or the content of it?) really well and organically, not childish at all. Fact is, when you adapt to a new language you need to step a few steps back in order to be able to follow the path. You gotta hold yourself back so often it feels like you loosing on credibility and everyone sees you as a child of sort, and you know you can give much more, can show much more and just know much more that you are able to be but cant for the time being. And you wonder if you’ll ever come that far to be able to express what you want, and you start doubting yourself if you truly do know what you think you know or did your frustration get the best of you. It’s hard to explain, all the new and old information gets mixed together and it gets kind of hard to keep track of it you know? The things you were certain off, become or seem useless and the things that are new and incomprehensible become like a key of survival.. but you need more time, you need to wait.

Ramble, ramble, ramble. This was just meant to be a bit of encouragment, but of course I rambled into oblivion.Hope it’s not too awkard :) but I really enjoyed Glass and I’m gonna check for updates here and there, just don’t overwork yourself- It’s too sad to see when people get overrun by their own work especially if it is meant for enjoyment and relaxation.

If you find any of the above info usefull feel free to use it, you don’t need to post this ..um..submission(?) I just wanted to post my compliments, you’ve fished yourself a fish out of water. I probably won’t change anything about my fanfiction habits (that is, skipping trough it twice a year when I remember that it exist..) but it feel good to know that people are being creative out there and are getting so good at it as well. Seeing talented people in any field is such joy, as a hobby or profession, it doesn’t matter, It is so good to know that there are so many passionate people scattered around the world ,hidden, doing what they love.

Enjoy your day, xoxo

Hi sorry I know you said I don’t need to post this but okay I do I have no other way to reply to you

There was literally nothing better in the world I could’ve woken up to today holy crap I am legitimately crying happy tears right now. Like I am all but speechless and trying desperately to figure out how to express how appreciative I am for this.

Glass is like, my ultimate pet project. I have others that I’ve been working on that I enjoy a little more, but when it comes down to it, nothing takes more of my effort than Glass’ worldbuilding, so getting any kind of advice or criticism or praise on certain elements really means the world to me. You have no idea how long I waited for someone to talk about the “child” talk. Literally no idea. I was literally BEGGING people to comment on it, to tell me if I’m way off course for how situations like that would play out. No one would help me at all despite the number of readers I have over two sites. You cannot imagine the relief I felt from your words here. I’ve been carrying that stress for months and it’s just nice to know it was carried for nothing more than my own anxieties. Considering I only took two years of a foreign language about ten years ago, I don’t really have a lot of memories on how it played out other than hating the course. (I have my sources who are a lil more practiced in the language field but lol I’m awful about asking for help)

But either way, thank you. Holy shit thank you SO much for this. Ngl I saw ‘submission from anonymous’ in my email and immediately groaned like “jfc it’s another goddamn spam link”. So my glee here is just expressed tenfold from the utter surprise of it all. Also can I say I loved you opened it as a joke. I jump back and forth between treating it like a joke for myself and being super cereal so I totally get coming at it from that angle.

(Also, there’s ArchiveofourOwn that posts fanfiction and has a bit of a nicer comment interface in case you run into this problem again with someone else’s fics and not knowing where to post them, and you don’t need an account to review)

All that aside, thank you again. This just... it really made my day. I may come home and work on the next chappie a lil more after work this just boosted my confidence in the project like no other so thank you.

#;u;#such a great way to wake up holy shit #submission #long post #faterianea stuff

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