#just thinking out loud 😂

[bradshawsbaby]

I’m admittedly not super active on AO3, but I’m debating whether or not I should cross post Si Vis Amari Ama there, the same way I’m doing with Letters to My Love 🤔

[agir1ukn0w]

[fanatics4l]

today i am sad thinking about how billy didn't have a single person in his life who cared about him or looked after him. we can assume that neil stopped really being there for billy after his mom left, so he most likely became independent and stopped asking people for help once he realized his mom wasn't coming back. he started pushing people away and getting tougher to please his dad, when all he really wanted was for his mom to come back and for someone to hear him.

he had no one throughout possibly ten years of his life and died with the knowledge that no one cared enough to save him. he saved his mom from his dad as much as he could but she still abandoned him. he saved a town he hated but ended up dying for people who would later on barely acknowledge his existence and what he did for them. like oh my goodness this kid was so selfless.

he spent his entire life looking after people who didn't care enough about him to look after him in return. every time susan looked away from him when neil hit him, he probably felt so stupid and little and worthless. billy was a kid forced to be a caretaker before he could even enter his twenties, a caretaker for people who didn't care about him.

[sweetest-honeybee]

Gender and pronouns are very different. Example I myself am identify as nonbinary and use he/they, I do not identify as a demi-boy personally. It varies person to person :)

Well I understand not necessarily identifying as something but what’s the difference between wanting to be referred to a certain set of pronouns and putting a label on those pronouns?

[theflyingfeeling]

oh god my colleague just told me that a student had said "the English teacher is kinda funny, she's always rambling on in class and I'm not always sure if she's talking to us or herself" 🙈

[wilchur]

I usually go for "one of them has internalised homophobia, the other is unbothered and horny" and that was the plan at first, but now that I wrote a bit of the Jesse/Arthur fic I decided to make them both miserable and self hating? 😅 It's more fun to write, slows down the burn a bit and makes it easier to fit Eliza and Mary into the story. Wins all around!

For Jess it's a reasonable "I am fucking terrified of getting murdered" with a bit of religious guilt (if you can call it that) sprinkled on top. Stemming mostly from trauma, catholic upbringing and growing up visibly effeminate while having older brothers lol But that's the kind of stuff that's mostly external? If you take away the fear factor with enough liquid courage, the boy runs wild and lets his inner slut shine. Within reason of course, he's gotta stay alive.

Arthur to me didn't have the kind of upbringing that would make him feel like it's really that wrong in any way. He wouldn't give a shit about the law, morality, sin; especially not in his early 20s where I headcanon him to be pretty much off the rails unhinged. So I make it play more into his self esteem, which is already in the gutter as we know. Make it making him weak, less of a man, disgusting etc. be something he's internalised over his life from the things he's heard. Make it scare him, make him not want to go anywhere near these feelings. Then add some denial in the form of "Well I still fancy women so I'm not like that. Everyone probably wonders what it's like to kiss a pretty boy sometimes." and we've got ourselves a proper emotionally repressed cowboy.

Does that make sense? Probably not. I'm just rambling again, procrastinating on going back to work or at least opening the google doc lol

[gravity-falls-fanatic89]

I got things to do today, even while limping a cold. I might be turning on GF for some writing inspiration as I attempt to clean, and think of how to get some flow in my story.

[snickerdoodlles]

inspired by this, but I decided to subject myself to the mortifying ordeal of Admitting I Like My Writing and start writing out things I like about my stories/thoughts behind some writing choices, but instead I've spent many pages of this journal just crying over how much i love Pete and some of my thoughts/headcanons for his characterization

typical

[talldecafcappuccino]

I’m throwing the tiniest parade in the world for Ted Lasso who finally made a decision for himself based on his wants and needs 🎉

[birdkeeperklink]

I've got two projects for the wip big bang, and one I know exactly what I want to write next, while the other I'm a bit stumped on how I want to move forward.

The one I know what I want to write next is the Elementary one - I'm skipping logistics and technical scenes, this fic is living on vibes, so I'm not going to bother with the whole "Joan meets Kitty" part or, really, showing either of them interacting with anyone else in this AU. Part of the reason I stalled out on this one was because I was torn between what I "should" do and what I wanted to do, so I'm saying fuck it and doing what I want - what I want is to purely focus on them and how this would have accelerated them mending their relationship and forced them to have conversations about their split. So that's what I'm doing, and if people hate that, I don't care 🤷 I just need to actually, ya know, write it 😂

The one I'm stumped on is the Emma 2009 one 🤔 They're in the midst of a conversation with apologies on both sides (because I made Mr Knightley act like a jerk, and I don't care if that's out of character, because the whole reason I wrote this was because I wanted to see him be the one who's wrong for once, lol), but there are two different ways I could go - I could segue directly from apologies to feelings and the fic would be much shorter 😂😂 Or I could wrap up the current conversation, have a scene or two where they can't speak privately because of other visitors, and then have a second conversation where feelings are confessed? I feel like that would be more organic? But would also make the fic that much longer 🤔 Decisions, decisions 😂

[staying-elive]

Given how much I love science fiction and fantasy in general, it's amazing how little I care about anything multiverse or magic related in the MCU.

I know all these things exist alongside each other in the comics, but no franchise has ever made me care about multiverse stories (unless it's been in an extremely limited and isolated capacity - like the odd Stargate Sg1 episode). To me, it just kills the stakes, and I have no attachment to other versions of the characters I know.

Adding 'magic' into what has previously been a science fiction universe is a murkier distinction because magic powers are essentially the same as superpowers or mutant powers, etc. Just different branding. But it makes me clock out.

I don't know. I know it's being pedantic. Very nitpicky. But there's something different, to me, about powers that have an attempted explanation in science, within the genre confines, like when Thor says "What your people call magic, mine call science", or mutant genes allow someone to manipulate elements, etc. and just saying Wanda and Agatha are 'witches'.

Like even Doctor Strange and the 'mystic arts' and other dimensions, I can kind of reconcile with it being a 'science we don't understand yet'. But Wanda just gives witchy woo woo. No rules, no study, no limitations (seemingly). And that is what I think breaks the immersion with an interconnected universe.

Again, I know this is pedantic and may not even make sense. It just feels different to me. And it affects how much or little I care about characters and stories.

I probably watch another Doctor Strange movie, providing it wasn't about multiverse. But I have no interest in, and don't plan to watch, the Agatha show or anything Wanda related if she reappears.

And that's largely the fault of the MCU's world-building and writing.

[madamescarlette]

just realized I may be lowkey a generator of blog titles now so uhhhh if you're in the market for a new one hang around and maybe one will form for you unlooked for in the soil of this blog

[mrs-kelly]

4 for Austin powers -@ofieugogyshz

[aceofshitposts]

Accidentally unlocked an emotion called "what it Jennifer Tilly played Harley Quinn" and another one called "and then what if Uma Thurman was her Poison Ivy" and I might be going a little insane