I have to say I'm deeply fascinated by the person on Hoyolab that made a post ranting about how they tried Wriothesley, Furina, Charlotte and Kazuha in the current event and mentioned as one of their first complaints how Furina's hydro application is apparently terrible. Which. Is not true at all?
So I commented telling them that, actually, I've been using Furina alongside Wriothesley since I got her and how that basically amounts to permafreeze, so in essence I can absolutely say that they're incorrect. To which they genuinely answered something along the lines of:
"Yeah, you're obviously using her skill."
Which was baffling to say the least because. Duh. And it just makes me wonder...how...did they attempt to apply hydro with her?
Of course I questioned that by saying (roughly):
"So what you're saying is that you attempted to use her ult for hydro application, which is not meant to be used like that, and then complain that her application is bad while simultanously ignoring the main component of her kit?" (it was very differently worded and longer but that's the gist of it lol)
And when I checked Hoyolab this morning they just. Straight up deleted my comment lmao.
Like listen I'm very aware that Hoyolab is a cesspool of children and people who straight up act like children, which is why I'm mostly just there for the check in and events and such, but that was new to me regardless. Their post is still up btw kekw
Thank you all for the messages and still following me, you are all amazing!
I just wanted to give you an update. Unfortunately I don't plan on coming back to writing any time soon. I will not delete the account, the blog will just remain inactive until maybe someday I'll decide to return.
Last months were awfully hard. I was diagnosed with depression, luckily I'm on meds and therapy and it's getting better, thou I had to find new ways of coping and writing is just not one of them for now. I focus on myself more and try to take care of and love myself the best I can.
I come here once in a while and try to reply so if you wanna talk - I'll be here ;)
Remember that I adore all of you and please - put yourselves first and take good care of yourselves!
Really hard and scary stuff happening lately and I wanna make the world’s coziest little nest of blankies and pillows and curl up in there and have a good cry. And then when I’m all done crying I’ll color and hug my plushies. And then warm milk and a nap. But I’m being so brave okay like I’m so tiny and I deserve all the praise from a daddy.
I wanna be pampered and coddled and taken care of so I don’t even have to think.
Anyone else get raised to people please and squash down all your own emotions and never know how to feel them cause you felt like you weren’t allowed to and now you can’t set boundaries and you let people ask too much of you until it all snaps and you break down? Yeah.
Anyway I wanna be pouty and childish and have a tantrum and hide away and kick and whine! I wanna punch my pillow and squeeze a plushie reeeeeeeal tight. Yell into the pillow to get out a good scream and re teach myself it’s okay to have really really really big feelings.
I want a daddy to scoop me up and tell me everything is going to be just fine. I was pushed to be “mature” and be bigger than I was when I was little…. So now I need time to be really small because I didn’t get enough of it. Simple as that. I am soooooooo teeny. The tiniest. And I just need lots of cuddles and love.