Don't mind me just thinking about Buck and Tommy both texting each other during their downtime at work and they're both smiling like idiots and laugh each other's jokes. And everyone makes fun of them. Chimney takes a picture of Buck to send to Maddie with an eye roll emoji. But both teams are so happy to see their boy(s) happy and now I have a toothache from the sweetness
Mind is afraid that when he distances himself from or above the others, that he will be too far gone to come back down. That when his paranoia gets the best of him, he'll shut everyone else out and then be completely alone with no way back to where he was before.
Heart is afraid that if Mind is right, with the idea that what he does isn't genuine, that he's being manipulative without realizing it. Then therefore being Whole without himself there is the better option. That he'd be thrown out because his ideas would then be "not worth it" or even "vile"
Soul is afraid that no matter what he does or how good things will be, they'll always eventually split up again or even end up worse. Even then he has no clue what he's supposed to do or be during everything, and so because of that he'll never be whole. Or worse that he'll never really "feel" whole.
Savanah, Garrison Brown's sister, made a very sweet post about her brother's passing and when I went to just leave a quick "sending you so much love from afar sweetheart" comment I saw Katie Joy's...................
I'm going to give her the benefit of the doubt (something she rarely gives the people she can profit off of) and assume she's just trying her best to say something nice but also just, don't say this "oh if only he knew you'd be sad he'd never do it" or "he was sick and didn't understand" kind of thing.......just maybe *don't* comment on the mindset of this 19 year old girl's brother who you did not know that took his own life. That first comment in particular made me so mad, like why would you think it's ok to tell Savanah that even in an instagram comment?? Jesus Christ.
i gotta stop drinking energy drinks at work bc it always ends up with me tweaking out after i get home for NO REASON i just feel a little weird and it makes me freak out on a dime
do you ever think about how Buck literally died last year and the fact that he was so close to being dead for good without realizing his bisexuality???