#lethimgo

[menino-da-mente-avuada]

mais uma vez alguém se foi. quer dizer, deixei-o ir. eu não vou prender o não recíproco na tentativa de dar certo. não é de mim. não é de mim tentar, tentar e tentar, na esperança de fazer ele se apaixonar pela minha personalidade, aparência, trejeitos, confusões, vivências, medos, erros, acertos e turbulências. eu quero que ele seja feliz ainda que custe a minha felicidade. eu o deixei ir sem esperar que ele volte, porque, sendo sincero, eu não quero mais. odeio tudo aquilo que me possa causar um certo desconforto emocional. não, não odeio ele. mas odeio as minhas inseguranças. mas também amo a minha sensatez de capricorniano. enquanto não houver certezas, vou deixar partir tudo e todos que possam cutucar com ponta de arame o meu coração. e sem quaisquer expectativas de voltas.

[disregardmalesacquireself]

[raurquiz]

#happybirthday @modernwest #kevincostner #actor #manofsteel #batmanvsuperman #ZackSnydersJusticeLeague #yellowstone #thepostman #danceswithwolves #robinhood #thebodyguard #mollysgame #hiddenfigures #waterworld #3daystokill #wyattearp #jfk #fieldofdreams #theuntouchables #LetHimGo

[bookishcatto]

Let Go

Author's Note:

This is my second one-shot story written in Tagalog-English. I hope you all like it, guys! Also, I'll be posting this on my FB account and page.

Thank ya!

(c) Wattpad in Pinterest

Theme: a wrong person at a wrong time, self-love

Genre: Romance

Word Count: 1534

POV: 1st pov

Language: Tagalog-English

Back in the days when we were still young and carefree. We always do adventures together. Palibhasa, we have the same personality kaya nagkasundo agad.

He was 20, and I was 18.

Too young, right? But deep in our hearts, we already know what we desire—we love each other pero dahil bata pa nga, masyado kaming nagpadalos-dalos sa mga desisyon.

We started as friends—through mutual friends—and met in a small religious group. Si Kiana, ang best friend ko’t si Theo, ang kanya naman ding matalik na kaibigan ang silang nagpakilala sa amin.

The first time I saw him, I wasn’t interested. For me, there was nothing special about him—just a regular guy—a simple person, plain and tedious one. And I was not too fond of those. I want the challenging ones.

Ironic ba sa sinabi ko noong una na we have the same personality? It is because that was my first impression of him—a simple, plain, and boring one.

Pero nang makilala ko siya nang husto along the way, I realized na hindi siya ‘yong tipo ng lalaki na iniisip ko. As I have said, we have the same personality.

Wild. Carefree. Adventurous.

Our relationship escalated quickly but unexpectedly. Akala ko, what we had was just pure friendship until I felt butterflies on my stomach one time. Nakangiti na rin ako habang nagsasandok ng kanin. I never want to let go of those times na magkausap kami until midnight. I want to pause the moment that I felt so happy and peaceful with him.

And most importantly, I am willing to take a risk for him.

Three months ago, before our 2nd anniversary, I was planning something for him since it was the time when I passed my college entrance exam to my dream university. I want to bring him the good news and celebrate my success with him.

I was standing in front of their college building; engineering and IT students passed me back and forth. Abala ako sa pagtitipa sa aking cellphone. I was calling him through Messenger. It took three rings before he answered it.

[“Hey, baby!”] salubong niya sa akin as he answered the call.

“Hi, baby!” I yelp excitingly. Kinikilig pa ako behind the phone. But I know, mahahalata niya ‘yon kahit sa pamamagitan lang ng boses ko.

He whistled upon hearing the excitement in my voice. [“Oooh, I sense something, a… more like good news? Come on, baby. Tell me what is it.”]

I knew it. He knows me well. He knows me when I am happy or sad.

“Hmm… I passed my dream university,” casual kong sabi. I was surprised when my boyfriend was the one is happier. I even heard him shouting for joy on the other line.

[“Damn. I’m so proud of you, baby! I love you so much!”] Every time he’s happy or proud of me, I can’t help but feel so kilig.

I was never treated like this. My past relationship—mutual understanding rather—cause’ I have never been into a relationship. He is my first boyfriend.

[Wait for me, baby, ha. I’ll be there in a bit.”] then he hung the call. I’ve waited for him for a minute, sa malayo pa lang, nakikita ko na ang papalapit na bulto ni Axel. Malawak ang kanyang ngiti, abot-tenga.

He spread his arms like a free bird, and he ran to me excitingly as a child. I slowly closed my eyes, bracing myself for the impact, stretched my forelimbs too. A series of flashback memories of me, with Axel starting from the day we met until the present, rolling like a film.

Isa-isa nitong pinakita sa akin ang mga masasayang araw na kapiling ko si Axel—noong araw na sinabi niya sa akin ang katagang ‘mahal kita’ at nang sabihin niya sa akin harap-harapan, at direkta sa mata na ako ang gusto niyang makasama sa hinaharap at sa habambuhay.

“Mahal na mahal kita, Elaine. Ikaw ang gusto kong makasama habambuhay,” punong-puno ng sinseridad nitong bulalas saka binigyan ako ng halik sa noo.

Nakaupo lamang kami sa isang bench na gawa sa kahoy habang pinagmamasdan ang papalubog nang araw sa kahabaan ng Manila Bay. Nakahilig ang aking ulo sa kanyang balikat nang magkasaklop ang mga kamay.

“Ilang beses mang lumubog ang araw, ikaw at ikaw pa rin ang pipiliin ko higit lalo sa pagsikat nito.”

Hanggang sa lumipat ito isang senaryo, noong gabing nag-away kami habang umuulan nang malakas. Iyon na ata ang pinakamalalang away naming dalawa kung saan, umabot sa hiwalayan.

“Putangina. Mahal na mahal kita Elaine pero pagod na ako. Pagod na pagod na akong mahalin ka.”

Nang marinig ko ang mga katagang iyon mula sa kanyang mga labi, tila biniyak at pinira-piraso ang puso ko. Para din akong sinaksak ng ilang beses dahil sa sakit na dulot nito. Napahilamos siya sa inis. Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko dahil sa samu’t saring emosyon na nararamdaman ko.

Hindi ko alam kung maiinis baa ko, maiiyak, o matatawa. Hindi ko alam.

Nakaramdam ako ng pagsikip ng dibdib at pagbagal ng daloy ng aking hininga. Pakiramdam ko, nasa isang masikip akong lugar at nais ko na lamang makaalis mula roon. Iyon bang makakahinga ako nang maluwag, ‘yung magiging malaya ako.

“Akala mo ba ikaw lang ang napapagod Axel, ha? Pagod na rin ako! Pero hindi ko sinabi sa’yo ‘yun dahil ikaw ang pahinga ko! At ayokong maramdaman mo na bumibitaw na ako dahil hinding-hindi kita isusuko. Hangga’t kaya ko pa, ilalaban kita.”

Akala ko, sapat na ang mga salitang iyon upang maliwanagan siya, na muling mas titibay pa ang pagmamahalan naming ngunit nagkamali ako. Ito pa yata ang nagging mitsa ng tuluyan niyang pagbitaw sa aking mga kamay.

“Sinubukan ko naman, Elaine. Sinubukan kong huwag bumitaw pero wala na talaga e. Hinayaan mo ako. ‘Yung mga panahon na akala mo, ikaw lang ang nahihirapan at nasasaktan, hirap at masakit din ‘yon para sa akin. At isa pa, ayoko nang ipilit pa dahil alam ko kapag pinilit pa, magkakasakitan lang tayo. Ayokong manatili sa isang relasyon na napipilitan lang ako—‘yung hindi na ako masaya. Kaya sana pakawalan mo na ako.”

Bawat salitang binitawan ni Axel ay katumbas ng pagtarak ng kutsilyo sa aking dibdib. Para akong binagsakan ng mabigat na bagay at parang sinampal sa akin nito ang katotohanan na ako na lang pala itong kumakapit habang siya, matagal nang bumitaw.

Muli na namang lumipat sa panibagong senaryo—walang emosyong at tila walang pakialam sa nararamdaman ko na nakatingin lamang siya sa akin habang ako ay umiiyak at unti-unti siyang lumalayo sa akin kasama ang isang di-kilalang babae. Malabo ang mukha nito at tanging katawan lamang ang malinaw sa lahat.

Those memories rewind at a fast pace, and a swirling effect takes over as everything mixed all together and becomes one—the present. I slowly opened my eyes, and it brought me to the reality, where my then-boyfriend, Axel, is already with somebody else—with Bianca, the woman he told me not to worry about.

Nilagpasan lamang ako ni Axel at ang bago niyang kasintahan ang kanyang sinalubong ng halik na dati ay sa akin lang niya ginagawa. Ngumiti ako nang mapait at napatungo. Ibang-iba ‘yung paraan ng pagtingin niya kay Bianca kumpara sa akin noon. Ngayon, mas banayad, at mas malaya. Ang dami ko tuloy katanungan sa aking sarili ngunit alam kong hanggang doon na lang iyon at kalian ma’y hindi na magkakaroon pa ng kasagutan.

I want to try to work things out with him again before but I remembered what he said when he broke up with me: “Ayoko nang ipilit pa dahil alam ko kapag pinilit pa, magkakasakitan lang tayo. Ayokong manatili sa isang relasyon na napipilitan lang ako—‘yung hindi na ako masaya.”

I realized he was right. Alam kong hindi ako magiging masaya bilang resulta kung ipipilit ko pa ang pakikipagbalikan sa kanya. Magmumukha lang akong tanga sa kahahabol sa kanya. Ang pag-ibig hindi naman kasi dapat nililimos ‘yan, kusang binibigay ‘yan. Kung mahal ka talaga ng isang tao, hindi mo na kailangan pang magmakaawa sa kanya dahil ipararamdam niya iyon sa’yo ng kusa.

That’s why I decided to let go of him now. Masaya na siya sa piling ni Bianca at ayoko nang guluhin pa sila. Wala ring saysay kung gaganti pa ako dahil ako rin ang magiging talo sa huli.

Inangat kong muli ang aking ulo at sa pagkakataong ito, may munting ngiti na sa aking labi. Hindi man abot-tenga ngunit masasabi kong totoo. Ngayong tanggap ko nang hindi na kami magkakabalikan pa ni Axel, maluwag na sa dibdib ko. Pakiramdam ko, malaya na ako mula sa nakaraan.

Ngunit hindi ko maikakailang napakalaking parte ni Axel sa buhay ko. Ang daming nagbago, ang dami kong natutunan. Mas nagging matapang at matatag ako; more mature compared before. Kaya sa ngayon, mag-fo-focus muna ako sa sarili ko. Mas higit kong mamahalin ang sarili ko para sa susunod na magmamahal akong muli, kaya ko na’t hindi na masakit.

Taas-noo akong tumayo mula sa pagkakasadlak. Hinigpitan ko ang paghawak sa strap ng aking bag at tapat na ngumiti habang determinadong nakatanaw sa magkahawak-kamay na magkasintahang Axel at Bianca mula sa malayo.

“Ako naman muna.”

[mrsalwaays]

[adamwatchesmovies]

Let Him Go (2020)

Giving a familiar story even just a little bit of a twist can do wonders. If you only pay attention to the broad strokes, Let Him Go sounds like something you’ve seen before but when you’re watching, it doesn’t feel that way.

In 1961 Montana, retired sheriff George Blackledge (Kevin Costner, basically made for this role) and his wife Margaret (Diane Lane) are surprised when they discover their newly re-married daughter-in-law, Lorna (Kayli Carter), her husband Donnie Weboy (Will Brittain) and their grandson Jimmy have packed their bags and left without a trace. Fearing for their late son’s widow and - most importantly - their grandson, they begin searching for the Weboy household, where rumors say they’ve moved to.

A beloved child taken away. An elderly grandfather who used to bust bad guys. A legal system either powerless or too slow to do anything about it. Sounds like Kevin Costner is following in Liam Neeson’s footsteps. Not quite. Parts of "Let Him Go" edge towards the action genre but ultimately, this is a family drama-thriller. Margaret is the film’s main character. Her love and determination are what are pushing the story forward. She may not be the toughest physically, but she’s no weakling. That would be Lorna, who you can tell has been through one too many bad ordeals and was just recovering from them when her new husband died. Now, she’s easily manipulated and constantly terrified. If the boy’s safety is left up to her, Jimmy will grow up to be the same kind of living, breathing turd as his step-father and uncles.

When it comes to the villains, this movie does so much with so little. Most of the Weboys barely have more than a few lines but just looking at them makes you uneasy. You can just tell what they're like from the way their mother enters the room. As the Weboy matriarch, Lesley Manville is a powerhouse. Instantly, you hate her. You keep watching, hoping George will take a tire iron out of his trunk and reduce her face to a pile of bubbling goo but there’s no way this problem could be solved that easily - even in this neo-Western setting. We're on the edge of civilization. Best to attempt reason first. We’ve got to let Blanche say what she has to say and smile... but your instincts won’t let you. We all know her words are laying out this delicate maze whose walls are lined with razor-wire. Maybe George and Margaret can navigate it delicately enough to get to the end and settle this peacefully. That's assuming she built an exit for them.

There are many nice touches throughout, such as the inclusion of a kind loner (Booboo Stewart as Peter Dragswolf) the Blackledges meet along the way, the beautiful but desolate scenery of the Northern States, and the sudden bursts of violence. These give the movie appeal to the 50+ audience members, and the younger as well. You completely believe Costner and Lane as a couple who have this long-spanning history and this unspoken something-something that might be a little bit scary to anyone else but to them just cements how much they belong together. Let Him Go would be a great pick to watch with your parents, particularly if mom doesn’t mind a little blood here and then. (March 27, 2021)

[devil-ia]

[wordsinsouls]

The exciting part of letting go of something or someone, is to think that the best of our lives haven’t happened yet. 📸@the_path_of_my_strength •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• • • • • • #wordsinsouls #gettingoverit #lethimgo (at Faraway) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMcTJQfhrq1/?igshid=y8opzd2xev85

[miyoni23]

[boujeebarb]

😂 🍑 💯

[film-book]

LET HIM GO (2020): Thomas Bezucha's Thriller Tops Box Office on Election Week https://tinyurl.com/yxtbsmyt

[lostfounddead]

[theonethatgotawaynoway]

Light in the shadows.

I hope you can read this.

[beasclassifiedsurvivalguide]

[xsoulfulthoughtsx]

Let him go

I keep thinking to myself, “why I do I still have urges to text a person that I know I won’t have a realistic future with?”. I knew what I was getting myself into when we first started this “friends with benefits” relationship. As much as I delete him as a contact on my phone or clear the conversations it doesn’t really change the fact everything happened. He will always be my first, but now it’s time to focus on myself and move on.

[yenwritings]

Sometimes you just have to let some things go, to finally make space for peace.