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I paid 400$ to play and expected to get gains, but I ended up with losses

They’ve got me running all over the feild instead of as a forward where I would have to hit people which makes sense cause I’m short, but now I’m short and skinny. And like I am not a runner the tall girls get to jog at my sprinting speed and this is making me do a ton of major cardio

And all this slimming down has been eating at all the muscle mass I gained over winter. I can’t seem to balance out my stuff for working out it’s like it’s either one or the other and ahhhhhh. I’m just feeling frustrated

On one hand yea looking good, but on the other the opposing team is gonna fuck me in the ass so hard if they hit me.

#47 #I’m not like complaining complaining cause now I’m getting better at running but I’m just so upset at the loss of muscle mass #I was gonna take a shower today and when I saw myself it gave me a jumpscare #like I didn’t notice the gradual change but I always had an image of myself as being a little more huskier and now I’m just kinda smaller #it kinda bothered me a little #the change was so sudden to me cause I just noticed it #like I’m no skinny legend or whatever but I’m significantly smaller than before and ahhhh #I spent so much time getting stronger and I was holding on to that for a bit and it’s like going away #and tbh it feels so weird looking at myself it’s like im not seeing myself for realz #it’s a little freaky and I feel so disproportionate and idk how to fix that??#it’s not like a terrible terrible thing just something to adapt to #I really wanted to be a forward I just hate being so small #but it’s ok I’ll be fine I just need to learn to love being a back and I still get to tackle people sometime during games #sigh #the spirit is willing but the flesh is not so much

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