#like in this instance moon would deserve to get slapped and put into the time out corner thats just nasty. same as boreas btw. these two go

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I think it would be such a soul destroying moment if like in an argument between moon and tarrows and moon finally snaps and screams at tarrows for all the horrible things the ancients did to her and her family, letting loose all the emotions she had to hold back from every awful thing she endured, said every thing she couldn't say because she was powerless when it came to the ancients and their actions, all the while tarrows is completely backed into a corner, when moon finishes her rant she sees that sparrows is curled up like a scared slugcat crying, and they both just cry together for a while. I think eventually moon would feel bad for taking it all out on tarrows but I think it's important moon gets everything out.

i mean sure it's important to get shit out, but not on expanse of a complete stranger??? sorry but the phrasing of that end sounds like Sparrows either deserved it or is supposed to be just standing there and take everyone's shit n i just can't leave that alone. just because one party suffered immensely doesn't justify that they take it out on someone who never did anything wrong like t hat

either way, i don't think Moon would be crying n also that Sparrows would end up in a corner alone like that. no way the Anemoi aren't gonna be always nearby to step in, she's one of em! they'll look out for her n if that means getting in the way of one of the oldest still-alive Iterators, then so be it

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Every Kdrama I’ve watched under the cut, to keep track and for recommendations.

Warning: Spoilers, few unpopular opinions ahead, please bear in mind: to each their own.

2009

·       You’re Beautiful – 16 amusing episodes (Finished)

o   Is the plot interesting? This was the era of female leads pretending to be male (Hana Kimi, Ouran etc), but I still loved it. We follow the story of the female lead (who was a Nun at the beginning) who pretended to be her twin brother and become a part of the country’s current hottest band because her twin had a cosmetic surgery mishap (lol). It’s mostly trying to fit in and try not to get exposed but of course our male lead discovered her true identity thus begin her suffering and second also knows but did not admit it thus begin his unrequited love and comic relief and best character in the series was left in the dark thus begin questioning his sexuality 7/10 o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? YES. Park Shin Hye is love and Jang Geun Seuk’s smile is freaking adorable. 9/10 o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? JEREMY AND SHINWOO AND JOLIE YES. 10/10 o   Are the OSTs compelling? MOST DEF. I fell in love with PSH’s “Lovely Day” and “ Without Words”, ANJELL’s “Still” and “Promise” though I prefer Lee Hong Ki’s version 8/10 o   Would you rewatch? I’ll definitely rewatch, I would love to compare my opinion back in my tween years and opinion now   o   Favorite Episode/Scenes: Episode 6 – Shin Woo and Mi Nam’s pseudo date (totally heartbreaking for tween me) Episode 11 – supermarket scene was the best, Episode 13 – Cooking scenes was hilarious, every scene with Jeremy, TAE KYUNG AND THE PIG o   Words Association: GO MI NAM, Pig-Rabbit, JOLIE!, Fly me to the moon, “hyung, vinegar?” o   Yes it has overused plots, common conflicts and family drama but the characters and their dynamics are truly worth watching this and if you need a good laugh (this drama has a looooot of funny scenes), this one is for you. 8/10

2011

·       Heartstrings – 15 forgotten episodes (Finished)

o   Is the plot interesting? It’s a college drama involving modern and traditional Korean music. I honest to God forgot the whole drama, I think there was rivalry between the main leads? 6/10 o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? Not sure, but if it’s Park Shin Hye, I guess so, sorry I’m shit at remembering this drama o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? I forgot so I guess not? o   Are the OSTs compelling? I am pretty sure it got an amazing Osts with having Park Shin Hye and CN Blue’s Yong Hwa but the only thing I remember was the song “Byeul” or Star and it was sung by the secondary character but it was really catchy o   Would you rewatch? Looks like I need to rewatch since I mostly forgot this drama o   Will rate once I have rewatched but if you shipped Yong Hwa and Park Shin Hye’s characters in You’re Beautiful, this one is for you.

Then after years of Jdramas, Anime, Mangas, YA books I returned to Kdramaland in…

2018

·       Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo – 16 charming episodes (Finished)

o   Is the plot interesting? College athletes’ coming of age drama, added a dash of love and friendship and dreams. Strong female lead and affectionate male lead, sign me the fuck up. 9/10 o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? I AM EMOTIONALLY INVESTED WITH THE LEADS PERSONAL AND LOVE LIVES. YES. 10/10 o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? YES EVEN THE CAMEOS (Hello Lee Jong Suk who I haven’t watched any of his drama yet at the time and Ji Soo) 10/10 o   Are the OSTs compelling? I downloaded 2 of their OSTs (You&I and Dreaming), it was the first Korean songs in my playlist 9/10 o   Would you rewatch? Absolutely o   Favorite Episode/Scenes: “BOK JOO, WATCH OUT!”, “YOU DIE, I WILL KILL YOU”, Snow kisses, the gang in the amusement park, THAT SCENE WITH JISOO AND JOO HYUK o   Word Association: SWAG, Messi, Chicken, Samgyupsal, WHAT, Chubs o   I totally recommend to everyone, it has a unique plot, still not over the main lead’s chemistry, you’ll fall in love with the whole story. 10/10

 ·       The Heirs – 20 clichéd episodes (Finished)

o   Is the plot interesting? It’s your typical rich man poor woman plot, high school setting oozing with alpha males and lots of trope scenes, if only female lead was also an heir or they develop more on her character it will be memorable, I can’t really differentiate with other dramas with the same plot – well except the male lead’s mother is not your typical mother who absolutely hates the female lead 3/10 o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? No, not really more on the secondary characters, both male and female leads are meh 2/10 o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? With the mute mother and FL’s bestfriend and his girlfriend yes, everyone else is forgettable 3/10 o   Are the OSTs compelling? I only remember “Love is a moment” because it was used by fanmade crack videos on youtube ahahaha 2/10 o   Would you rewatch? Probably no. o   I guess if you are a big fan of Boys Over Flowers and looking for the same genre this one’s for you, this did not really age well for me, probably would have loved this if I watched back when I was in highschool – reminds me of wattpad days. 3/10

 ·       W: Two Worlds – 16 enthralling episodes (Started 2018 Finished 2020)

o   Is the plot interesting? The plot is what compelled me to watch this drama, male lead is a webtoon character created by the female lead but made famous by her father. Male lead does not have your best childhood experiences but became really successful as an adult but there are mysterious instances that put his life on danger, the female lead (doctor) was drawn in on the comic and saved his life, unknowingly her actions changed the course of the story and it reflected on the comic in the real world – this was truly a good concept 9/10 because I actually forgot I started this drama last 2018 then rewatched and finished this 2020, I am still confused. o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? THE CHEMISTRY WAS ON THE ROOF ON THIS ONE. I DIDN’T EVEN CARE ABOUT THE OTHER CHARACTERS 10/10 o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? I was actually more focused on the main leads, did not exactly give much attention to other characters 3/10 o   Are the OSTs compelling? I only liked “Where are you” but it was sung by that guy who was jailed among other things so I don’t know how I feel now. Still the opening was lit o   Would you rewatch? Yes, I will try to fully understand what the mechanics or rules of being a webtoon character and being alive in the real world o   Favorite Episode/Scenes: KISS IN THE JAIL was the first thing that came to my mind, also real life scenes to comic scenes and vice versa- kudos to the artists, slap and kiss scene, the flashing scene, 4 romantic concepts scene, the adorable scenes recreating the illustration book, the transition when yeon Joo dropped her ring, the hospital bed scene o   Words Association: #4, handcuffs, all the winks, sudden “saranghaeyo”, ring, bus stop, “to be continued” o   This drama was amazing for the first 10 episodes then became complicated after, I loved the chemistry between the 2 main leads but unfortunately overpowered the whole story – don’t get me wrong I love love stories, but my reaction was the same as those who read the comics – too much cutesy stuff they forgot the storyline, I wanted them to explore the W show, but they focused on filling the plothole for the murderer which created more conflicts and confusing scenes. The line between the comic and real word created plot devices and more questions. This drama has flaws but cool premise though, I hate amnesia plot on any drama but it was well incorporated on this one. 8/10

·       Goblin – 16 amazing Episodes (Finished, rewatched 2020)

o   Is the plot interesting? A general in Goryeo dynasty got punished by the Gods to be immortal and his sword still in his chest only the Goblin bride can take it off so he can be at peace and die. Immortal lead with a side of grim reaper as best friend, charming female lead with a confident female boss – a story with reincarnation and ghosts, scenes that will tug your heart – yes, one of Kdrama Masterpiece 10/10 o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? At first no no with the age gap but yes, I say while crying o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? HELL TO THE YES, DEOK HWA, GRAMPS, SECRETARY KIM, HELLO CUTIE TAE HEE, SUNNY AND GRIM REAPER 10/10 o   Are the OSTs compelling? HAUNTINGLY BEAUTIFUL OSTS, particularly “Round and Round”, “I Miss You”, “Stay with Me” and even without lyrics I still worship “When the time stops” aka the music that speaks to your soul 10/10 o   Would you rewatch? YES ALREADY DID BRUH WILL DO AGAIN o   Favorite Episode/Scenes: Every bromance scene, I got hooked by the scene in the first ep where Eun Tak celebrated her birthday with her ghost mother, epic goblin and grim reaper modelling in the highway, everytime sunny flips her hair, grim reaper and his guests in the tea shop o   Word Association: Canada, sad love, candles, rain, chicken, tea, car crash *sorry not sorry* o   Totally recommended, well-deserved on its popularity. Will make you laugh and cry, at the same time. Acting skillz man. 10/10

 ·       Strong Woman Do Bong Soon – 16 whacky episodes (Finished)

o   Is the plot interesting? Female lead has super strength which was actually passed down to every woman born in her family, she wants to be a game developer but instead got hired as bodyguard of our male lead who is a ceo of a gaming company 8/10 o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? I remember that I did, I was? I need to rewatch haha o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? I remembered I did not like Ji soo’s character and don’t really remember other characters… o   Are the OSTs compelling? Can’t quite remember so I need to - o   Would you rewatch? Yeahp, will do o   I’ll do a rewatch before rating

I had a watch list back in 2018, but then I became busy with work and life until…

2020 (Details will be more longer since every Kdrama is still fresh on my mind)

·       My ID is Gangnam Beauty – 16 pretty episodes (Finished)

o   Is the plot interesting? Basically, female lead deems herself ugly and undergone a plastic surgery to fully change her face before attending the university – but a popular guy back in highschool (junior high?) was also attending the same uni and recognized her – it’s a mellow sort of drama tackling Korean beauty and it’s extent, still cute story tho 7/10 o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? We must protect Mi-rae at all cost, Cha Eun Woo’s character is a little bit emotionally constipated but Eun Woo is *swoon* 8/10 o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? I am all for Mi-rae’s family and childhood friend, Kyung Seok’s sister, Yoo eun was very notable as well, I love how her character is completely fair and understanding 7/10 o   Are the OSTs compelling? “D-day” and “True” is a bop to listen to, everytime I hear “Something” all I remember is Cha Eun Woo’s slow mo glance, other OST is a bop but not enough for me to put on my playlist 6/10 o   Would you rewatch? Probably but not right now o   Favorite Episode/Scenes: New face dance, bathroom scene with Kyung Seok beating the shit out of their senior, whenever Kyung Seok is annoyed with Soo-A but total heart eyes mode with Mi Rae, Cinema pseudo date – eating popcorn using straws, when he changed the color of his hair, Kyung Seok’s ID when he was a waiter, their high school date, and that last sweet scene in the final episode o   Word Association: gangnam, perfume, plastic, umbrella, soju o   I wasn’t planning on watching kdramas again after a long time but this quarantine just makes you do things and no regrets at all, MIIGB probably isn’t the best of the best but it definitely made me want to watch more kdramas and lo and behold more kdramas watched in a span of 2 months than in a year back in 2018. I love how it tackles on true beauty and female oppression and how idiotic alpha male trope is 7/10

 ·       While You Were Sleeping – 16 not enough episodes (Finished)

o   Is the plot interesting? A prosecutor, a reporter and a cop can see the future when they sleep, which helps them in solving cases and do their best to change it. Every case is fascinating makes you say “ohhhhh” when they present their defense and I am like *chef kiss* I love the premise and the supernatural part of the story. 10/10 o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? YES. JAE CHAN AND HONG JOO ARE ADORKABLE AND HAS INSANE VISUALS  10/10 o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? HAVE YOU MET JUNG HAE IN, THE PROSECUTOR TEAM WAS THE BEST. YES. EVEN THE SIDE CHARACTERS ON CASES AND THE VILLAINS 10/10 o   Are the OSTs compelling? I usually don’t hear the OSTs while focusing on a scene but boy oh boy, OSTs stole everything, I am obsessed with the whole album. The melody and tune is very captivating everytime you hear it you just want to embed it on your brain. If you are still having second thoughts watching this drama, listen to it’s OSTs the feels they give is the same feels when you watch 1000/10 o   Would you rewatch? I’ve watched it again after finishing it so yes, 100% yes, need more episodes still having withdrawal syndrome, still watching fanmade videos on youtube o   Favorite Episode/Scenes: Every episode lol, the opening sequence, the outro scenes in episode 2 and 3 (with that background music), everytime “It’s you”, “You belong to my world”, “When night falls” and “I love you boy” is the bg music, every Jae Chan and Hong Joo parallel (Episode 2 and 16 particularly), OT3 scenes, the shadow picture, KISS IN THE RAIN, IN THE SAKURA TREE AND THE ALMOST KISS IN THE CAR if I list down all of my fave, I will be writing the whole summary of each episode. Hmmm. o   Words Association: Snow hug, sakura kiss, batman and robin, scarf, JUST ICE, choir, seatbelt, samgyupsal, femme fatale, lip balm o   I HIGHLY RECOMMEND. ULTIMATE FAVE. I AM BIASED SHUTTUP. JUST WATCH. NONE CAN COMPARE. NUFF SAID. 100000/10 SOMEONE FANGIRL WITH ME

 ·       Pinocchio – 20 important episodes (Finished)

o   Is the plot interesting? This whole drama is about mass media and its major influence on anyone’s life and it is so powerful. We have a male lead whose family has experienced the impact of misguided news and it is painful to watch because this really happens irl at worse, this is due to a reporter which is our female lead’s mother. Now our female lead has Pinocchio Syndrome hence the drama title, she can’t help but hiccup when she lies, it’s very interesting to know why both leads wanted to be a reporter given their situation 10/10 o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? YES, I JUST WANNA HUG THEM. Imagine having a condition that forces you to tell the truth, you can’t keep your feelings, privacy or secrets at all and to add an indifferent mother who did not care for your dreams but more on publicity. Imagine having a dream and working hard to reach it but after college you fail every job interview and it’s so realistic I just ashfdsjfha (Except the Pinocchio syndrome part but come on) Imagine experiencing a childhood where you don’t know what happened to your firefighter father, is the news about him running away true because it was his fault all those other firefighters are dead? Imagine your brother doing his best to hold your family together because your mother is on the verge of nervous breakdown to the point of pushing her to choose death, pulling you to a hug and just jump? Imagine this male lead fighting every chance to not love this girl who is the daughter of the reason why his family is gone now and could not leave her because she is also the reason why he decided to fight for the injustice done to his family and to others victims of fake news and they are so supportive of each other. It freaking hurts and I’m sorry I just have a lot of emotions for these two 1000000/10 o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? YEEEEES, GRANDPA AND FATHER, I LOVE THEIR FAMILY DYNAMICS SO MUCH WHEN GRANDPA CRIED I CRIED! EVEN JA MYUNG HYUNG who has not enough episode in THEY DESERVE TO BE TOGETHER NOT JUST FOR ONE EPISODE. EVEN BEOM JU, YOO RAE, NITPICKER JANG, CAPTAIN, BOTH CAPTAINS ACTUALLY, CHAN SOO AND HIS FAMILY EVEN I LOVE TO HATE THE VILLAINS 100/10 o   Are the OSTs compelling? I was too focused on the intensity of the story but I do love the bg music –“First Love”, “The Only Person”, “Pinocchio” are few notable OSTs 8/10 o   Would you rewatch? YES FREAKING YES, I REWATCHED AFTER WATCHING IT o   Favorite Episode/Scenes: Episode 16 as a whole, because main lead conflict with each other was resolved and that dinner scene is one I always rewatch, of course episode 1 introduction for Dal Po is freaking hilarious, Episode 2’s “Because I like you” damn feels, snow kiss, all the grandpa scenes and brother scenes, that scene when In ha remembered being drunk, that scene where Dal Po meets his brother again and I just ahjasgdjhsdgf, the intense debate and paralleling it in the seminar, the Christmas episode pyung pyung pyung my heart huhu o   Word Association: Six Degrees Separation, rumor, button, MSC/YGN News, traffic cones, hiccups, piggy banks, text messages, family o   EVERYONE SHOULD WATCH THIS. I LOVE EVERY PART. IT WAS ON MY WATCHLIST LAST 2018 WHY DID I NOT WATCHED IT THEN. THE ACTING THOUGH YOU JUST FEEL THEIR INTENSE EMOTIONS THROUGH THE SCREEN. FEELS EVERYWHERE. 100000/10

 ·       Romance Is A Bonus Book – 16 heartwarming episodes (Finished)

o   Is the plot interesting? It’s about romance and books! Lee Jong Suk is on it what more can you ask for? Kidding aside it tells a story of a 30 something mother who to go back to work after 12 years which left a huge gap on her resume, she also got recently divorced and experiencing the repercussion of that, all of the job she applied for has focused on her work gap instead of her skills (which by the way as an HR a very hard truth). She applied as a support role on a publishing company and got hired but by omitting a lot of things on her resume. Oh and her childhood friend, our male lead is actually a co-owner and editor of the company. And he is also in love with her since high school. 9/10 but the fluffiness of the whole series is worth 10/10 o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? YES, Dan-I is totally relatable and Eun Ho is lovable. I love their relationship so much they are each other’s home. 10/10 o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? With Hae-rin (COME OOON UNREQUITED LOVE AGAIN WITH LJS CHARACTER?), Seo Joon, President Kim, Manager Seo, and our very own Gangnam Leopard YES. Others not so much. 8/10 o   Are the OSTs compelling? The OSTs are feel good, the kind of playlist you want to hear when you read or travelling, point to “Rainbow”, “Walking on Sunshine”, “Happy End”also the heart churning feels when “You’re Beautiful” and “ A Story I couldn’t see” begins playing in the bg 10/10 o   Would you rewatch? YES over and over and over again o   Favorite Episode/Scenes: The first episode with the wedding visuals, so aesthetic with the running in the highway, the power dance was so out of place but it was adorable, the scene where Dan-I reminisce her married life and it just breaks your heart, the essay part of her application is just motivating and sad, WHEN EUN HO WAS DRUNK AND WENT TO DAN-I’s PLACE BECAUSE HE ALWAYS GO THERE WHEN HE MISSES HER AND I JUST AHGSHJAGDKJGHJ, “If that’s love, I love her then”, GANGNAM LEOPARD CLUB SCENE, the subtle Snow confession (what’s with LJS and Snow???) the long brown overcoats comes out I’m there, when Eun Ho rejected Hae Rin so nicely I cry, movie date, the day Dan-I and Eun Ho spent together at their house, all the book pages at the end of each episode o   Words Association: THE MOON IS BEAUTIFUL, noona, power pose, love letters, books, seasons change, cucumber allergy, April 23 o   This drama is literally a warm blanket on a rainy day. Recommended if you want a pure love story with almost no conflict and mellow storyline – just the thought of finding love and home in the same person is truly heartwarming. For aspiring writers and book lovers! Love the quotable quotes in it and the warm feels it gives 10/10

 ·       Extraordinary You – 16 extraordinary episodes (Finished)

o   Is the plot interesting? We follow the story of the extras in a comic book. Get it? EXTRAordinary you, haha okaaaay, anyway, its fictional characters becoming aware that they are fictional characters and trying to change their fates, having a life of their own outside the “stage” and all around creating chaos – breaking the 4th wall if you will. We have your cliché high school filled with rich kids and an elite group called A3 (which was funny bc it was almost mocking F4), then we have the female lead who thought she was the main character of the story but was only the love bridge extra for the main characters. And our beautiful male lead who does not even have a name. Very attention-grabbing 10/10 also just found out the drama was based on a webtoon, so it’s a webtoon inside a webtoon nice. o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? Dan-Oh is a fun character to watch, her range of emotions and the way she acts in and out of the stage deserves a standing ovation, I don’t mind Ro Woon’s visual too haha 9/10 o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? Yes to Lee Do Hwa (Because violin playing cutiepie), Joo Da (girl became aware and finally got claws at the end) and Dried Squid Fairy and Su Hyang (because their history is interesting) , not really into Bae Kyung or Nam Joo (who was 2dimensional character until the end) 8/10 o   Are the OSTs compelling? I loved all the instrumental background music especially “Highschool Runway”, Also “My Beauty” which was very kdrama-esque ending song 7/10 o   Would you rewatch? BIG YES o   Favorite Episode/Scenes: Every Dan-Oh and Do Hwa’s internal monologue and their bromance, every time Dan Oh breaks character but the page flips, every time she curse and criticize the writer, checking the male population’s back, when Dan-oh opened the umbrella and we got to see Haru’s face *dokidoki*, every reaction when they transition from stage to shadow, I mean kudos to Kim Hye Yoon’s acting from crying to laughing then from head over heels over Bae Kyung then cringing at herself , “It’s Bae Kyung Time”, the scene where Haru and Dan-oh was holding hands and here comes third wheel Do Hwa the way they reacted with Dan Oh’s “Annyeong Lee Do Hwa” made me rofl o   Word Association: AYUUU JINJJA, HARUYAAAAA, stage, shadow, page flips, October 10, secret, flower o   I love the concept and how it felt like writing fanfiction, you put your favorite characters in alternative universes or different setting and watch them fall in love all over again – in this case destiny also plays a huge part since the writer continuously separate them but they still fall in love with each other outside the stage. It’s fun to see the other side or the fillers whenever characters are not on acting on stage, they have more character depth and development. I definitely love the Sageuk and College AU part. 9/10

 ·       Graceful Family – 16 wild episodes (Finished)

o   Is the plot interesting? It’s a drama full of Makjang so we are riding on a rollercoaster ride, I am here for all of it gimme gimme that outrageous plot with a dash of crazy family on the side and a group of people who cleans up their messes 9/10 o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? SEOK HEE IS THE BEST FEMALE LEAD YET FREAKING BADASS BITCH QUEEN. Yoon Do is okay but really overpowered by Seok Hee’s strong personality 10/10 for Seok Hee o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? I am very interested in Ms. Han and the Top Team’s deal unfortunately it was not addressed further in the series, wouldn/t mind a mini sequel with them as the main characters, Choi Na Ri and Seo Jin is loooove, and I love Wan Soo with all my heart even after everything that happened 9/10 o   Are the OSTs compelling? “Liar” is on my playlist solely for me to feel as badass as Seok Hee and “Black Diamond” because it plays with your emotions 8/10 o   Would you rewatch? Solely for all the WTF moments o   Favorite Episode/Scenes: ALL THE DINING TABLE SCENES, opening scene in the first episode got me hooked, all Seok Hee scenes made me stay, Wan Soo’s hilarious scenes, that whole hanbok shop scene, whole jail fiasco, when Seok Hee fights head to head with TOP management, PICASSO’S FUNERAL SCENE, Episode 9 when Choi Na Ri moved in, episode 15’s biggest plot twist, Episode 16 and it’s whole 1 hour and 45 minutes of drama o   Word Association: Home sweet home, Cannes, Picasso, power vacuum, kingmaker, Auntie o   It has a lot of flaws, plotholes and characters you wished was fleshed out but man what an exhilarating ride it was. I love all the dirty secrets in the closets and plot twists (won’t spoil just watch it!) but Seok Hee is definitely the show stealer for me. Soo Hyang’s character here is starkly different with her character in My ID is Gangnam Beauty and it’s really amazing. 9/10

 ·       Hi, Bye Mama – 16 heartbreaking episodes (Finished)

o   Is the plot interesting? This is all about mother’s love and the life she left behind. Our female lead died in an accident and has been a ghost for five years watching over her family especially her daughter, she watched how her family moved on – her husband remarried and her daughter grew up with a different mother. The Gods has given her a chance to live again if she gets back her place within 49 days – this means she get the chance to become human again and finally meet her daughter. 9/10 o   Am I emotionally invested on the Main Leads? I AM EMOTIONALLY INVESTED IN ALL OF THEM. 10/10 o   Did I grew attached to the secondary characters? SEO WOO YAAAAAA, Min Jung, her whole family and best friends even the other ghosts and their painful stories YES. 10/10 o   Are the OSTs compelling? I was busy crying and could not really hear the bg music because all I hear is my heart breaking a million times. But “Happy” made me happy and sad at the same time and the haunting “Same Town, New Story” instrumental is love o   Would you rewatch? I am not sure if I’m ready to cry again o   Favorite Episode/Scenes: whole episode 8 is where I broke down crying – I know this whole series is about mother’s and their unconditional love but episode 8 showed fathers and their incomparable love to their daughters and I just asjhdajksd the epilogue in this episode just made me cry nonstop – I am actually crying just remembering that scene, every epilogue will make you ugly cry, every time Seo Woo smiles, Episode 11 and that epic showdown in Kid’s café, when Yu Ri became human again and how happy she was she can hold Seo Woo, every scene with her and Seo Woo bonding, Gang Hwa and the egg,  the list of things she wants to do, when Seo Woo finally called her MAMA o   Words Association: mother, stepmom, ghosts,  “I am happy”, shaman, egg, 49 days o   I am emotionally exhausted watching this show, I cried on every episode, this definitely hurt me in every way possible. Highly recommended if you want a good long nonstop cry 10/10

Dramas I did not completely watched sans a few episodes, finished by skipping scenes or reading drama reviews. Warning: total unpopular opinions

2009

·       Boys Over Flowers – we all know Hana Yori Dango is superior, I just got bored of recycled scenes and I really don’t like LMH here, sorry

2018

·       Scarlet Heart Ryeo - Plot is very interesting but Sageuk dramas are not my cup of tea, reminds me of Fushigi Yuugi which I hated when I was a kid dunno why haha, will look for my motivation to watch the whole drama ·       Oh My Ghostess – got spoiled, skipped and just read episode summary

2020

·       Hello Monster – did not even finish 1st episode, skipped through episode 2 -3, too many plot holes, just read last episode spoilers ·       Hotel De Luna – finished 7 episodes got distracted by work and life. Plotline is interesting and characters look promising, will rewatch but I already know the spoilers and ending ·       School 2013 – just read the dramabeans episode reviews, may watch but reminds me of Gokusen concept (which I do love but very repetitive) so may not ·       Suspicious Partner – I liked the plot but unfortunately did not care too much on the main mystery of the whole show which was who the actual murderer is, did not like the shared childhood trauma, but acting still was good, its just the storyline ·       Doctor Stranger – I seriously would have loved to finish this because LJS’s acting skills on point (how can he be that seriously angry in North Korea then be clumsy adorkable in South? Howww) but alas, the female lead storyline is cringy I stopped at episode 6, read reviews and it would have been 20 wasted episodes for me ·       What’s Wrong with Secretary Kim – full of stereotypical tropes I could not finish, too romcom for me and could not invest too much about their history

Watchlist (2020)

·       Hospital Playlist ·       Crash Landing On You ·       Kill Me, Heal Me ·       I Am Not A Robot ·       Sky Castle ·      Love Alarm

Hit me up with your recommendations, better yet your favorite kdrama and reasons why it’s your fave!

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@mercyxkilling​ said: mercy drew in a breath, steeling herself for the impending confrontation that awaited her once she crossed that threshold. she’d gotten into a fairly heated argument with cloud while they were on their last assignment and she probably... no, she KNEW she could have handled it better. but being emotionally inarticulate rendered her incapable of having a constructive conversation as opposed to a screaming match.

but she needed to repair this. they couldn’t continue to work together if things felt so off. so with that she stepped into the mess hall and sashayed across the room to his table, but before she spoke the woman turned to give a few of the crew sitting nearby a sharp look as she cleared her throat. they needed no more than that, recognizing this as a signal to get the fuck outta dodge.

once they were gone she seated herself not in a nearby chair but on the table. mercy maintained a bit of distance between them, but made sure they were still close enough that he’d be able to read her expressions and know that she was coming from someplace genuine.

“i know that you’re prob’ly still mad at me, but i hope you’ll still give me a chance to explain myself.” but then she was quiet for a long time after that opener, and she turned away so she could avoid his gaze. “i’m really bad at this. but i’m gonna give it my best shot. so just... listen.” reaching up she ran her slender fingers through her hair as she searched for the right words, looking nothing like her usual confident self. “i yelled at you. and i’m sorry i did. i shouldn’t have, and i acknowledge that. i was wrong. don’t tell anyone that, though. i have a reputation around here.”

mercy was trying add a bit of levity to the situation. she’d never been good at handling anything too heavy. and admitting to being wrong or talking about something like this was uncomfortable probably not only for her, but for cloud as well. but she had to do this.

“i just need you to know that... i’m not mad that things didn’t go as planned or that the deal fell through. there’ll be others and it’s not like we’re hurting for money. i was mad because... i saw you out there, and you were just... i don’t know, my man, it was like you just were holding back or you gave up or you didn’t care. i don’t know what’s going on, and you don’t have to tell me anything unless you want me to know. that part is fine. what isn’t okay is watching you convince yourself that you can’t do something or that you aren’t capable or whatever. i can’t say for sure but i know there’s something going on up there.”

she lifted her gaze to look at him and pressed a finger to her temple to emphasize her point before going on. she was speaking pretty fast, clearly trying to push through everything because she has no idea what she was doing.

“i just. i would never, ever ask you to do something that i wasn’t fully confident that you were capable of handling it. and not only handling it, but fucking crushing it. i would never set you up to fail because, despite what it might seem like, i actually care how you feel and want what’s best for you. you’re part of the crew now. i’m here to support and protect you. so you need to know that no matter what you think of me or what you have in your head holding you back... you’re absolutely better than what you think. you need to give yourself more credit. so the next time you and i go out, promise me you’ll do better. because you absolutely can and you absolutely will, because you’re capable of handling anything i ask of you and more.”

and then she heaves a sigh, as if that was the signal that this whole awkward experience was finally over. mercy then stood up straight again and motioned over her shoulder.

“yeah, so. this was real weird so i’ll be in my cabin so i can spend the next foreseeable future stressing about what i said. let me know if you need me okay? my door is always open.”

before she left, though, she made it a point to rest a hand, gentle and light, upon his shoulder, lingering for a moment to offer him an uncertain kind of smile. at least, though, it was genuine. and with that she disappeared into the corridor so she could retreat to her room. Unprompted Ask - ALWAYS ACCEPTING

He’s had a face like a slapped backside since the unfortunate spat. Cloud was no stranger to confrontation, hell, sometimes he even thrived on it given the right circumstances and on occasion the wrong circumstances. What he didn’t enjoy was being chewed out in front of colleagues for a mistake he’d made in the field. Cloud knew he’d fucked up, fucked up majorly and with consequences which affected the entire crew, but there was something about Mercy’s humiliation tactics which didn’t sit well with him.

In fact it settled in his guts like a stone.  Though he guesses all of this isn’t aided by the fact that his failing was down to something so very deep rooted and difficult to shake; a very simple lack of self-confidence, despite the cocksure demeanour he enjoyed fronting. Though he worked well under pressure there were instances - just like this one - where everything just went blank. 

Still, if she was going to scream at him the way she had done, he would have much preferred it been away from the many ears who had been unfortunate enough to witness it. Though he guessed a bullet to the back of the head would hurt far less than how she’d bruised his ego just now even if he was already dragging it behind him after that sorry show he put on today. Still, this hadn’t stopped him yelling back, cussing her out and ultimately throwing his hands in the air and stalking off. He’d been advised by a couple of the guys that perhaps retaliating wasn’t the best course of action, though they were swiftly met with a steely gaze and a sour expression, deeming Cloud practically off limits to anyone else for the remainder of that day. 

He was used to being on his own anyway, he liked it this way, right? With any luck they’ll just drop him off on the nearest moon and leave him there. Wouldn’t be the first time.

That was until the very source of his foul mood appeared within the archway of the mess, and she was making right for him. Needless to say that Cloud didn’t feel ready for another throat slitting, though rather than physically remove himself from the situation he chooses to remain seated (with his feet crossed upon the table of course in his act of immature defiance) and offer the woman a disdainful glare.

It seemed however, a verbal lashing wasn’t what she had in mind, and it showed mostly through her offset expression as well as the casual way she settled herself upon the table, though this was after she’d shot her men a glare of her own to disperse them from the hall, and Cloud was certain one of them had offered his ‘Sorry, man, you’re on your own’ face as he upped and left. He didn’t motion to shift his feet to make way for her though, Cloud was nothing at all if not utterly childish when it came to matters of discipline and it was rather apparent that he held issue with authority; and if Mercy had learned anything today it was the fact that Strife did not like being proven wrong. 

So the sullen expression remained even as that irritation towards the woman who pulled him up on his failings began to turn inward, even when his gaze had sunk so low beneath the weight of that knowledge - that he was a liability, and it wasn’t until now that he realises there’s no worse feeling than knowing you are the weakest link in the chain. And yet there was something good to be taken from all of this, Cloud knew, because she wasn’t casting him aside but offering a chance to better himself, a chance to prove her right, not wrong. 

When was the last time anyone had this much faith in him? When was the last time he’d been offered this level of compassion? Cloud couldn’t quite remember, and it only made this whole situation sting that little bit more. 

He remains silent throughout her spiel, arms folded defensively, legs still supported on that table in the guise of a barrier between them and allowing the shame of what happened that day to filter into his face. And he had no grounds to argue or defend his corner, because he knew, deep down in his heart of hearts, that everything Mercy said... was right, not that this knowledge made it any easier to hear. Cloud reacts only to that hand on his shoulder, gifting the contact only the slight lilt of his head and a glance out of the corner of his eye. The woman vanishes out of sight then, leaving him to lament on the events, how he could have performed better, how he could have done things so differently... how he’d actually deserved to have his hide tanned for such a blatant blunder on his part. 

And Mercy had enough about her to apologise for her outburst when she really didn’t need to... surely that said far more about him than it truly did about her. 

Cloud isn’t entirely sure how long he sits there, feeling sorry for himself and just wondering for the life of him how to let it go and move on. Maybe it was his turn to clear the air instead of sitting back and doing nothing like usual. Upon exiting the mess hall, he’s actually surprised that he catches her only moments away from vanishing into her cabin; the urge to bail was strong and his legs threatened to turn him right around and retreat back the way his came, though it seemed his mouth was working faster than his basic impulses.

“Mercy... wait...” he calls, though not without the hue of uncertainty hanging in his tone and he stands there for a moment just staring back at her, to gain his bearings and muster the courage he needs to just close that insufferable distance. 

“I don’t want you going in there regretting you spoke to me. ‘Cos this ain’t about you and your management style, yeah? It’s about me and my inability to just... let go.” There’s a crease to his brow, uncertain, defensive and he swallows audibly in a frail attempt to gather himself and simply offer an explanation. 

“I don’t wanna make excuses, but... there’s a lot about me you don’t know, and I ain’t sure I’m ready for you to hear it. Not yet. But, I’ve never been a part of anything before, not really. Always on the outside looking in, no handles of control, just... freefalling and hoping for the best. Always just... the rat. Disposable, easily replaced, only good for making up numbers, you know?” Cloud’s unable to maintain eye contact with her, and not for the want of trying, and with a brisk hand through his hair does he puff out an exasperated sigh, frustrated with himself it seemed before delivering a non-committal shrug. 

“You give me a chance that I never thanked you for, and then I do so by screwing up. And I deserved everything I got thereon after, I did. You ain’t telling me shit that I don’t need to hear, or even shit I don’t already know. Usually they don’t bother at all and I go on floundering to the next problem until I fuck up again.” He’s rambling, he realises, and he rubs the back of his head somewhat bashfully, uttering a chuckle through his nose, a low and deeply unhappy sound. 

“I let you down. I let you all down and I take full responsibility for that, I’ll own it because it’s mine. I promise it won’t happen again, I’ll do better in future, yeah? Just... thanks, for not giving up on me. Enjoy your evening, Mercy.” Cloud leaves it there with a single respectful nod before he’s turning on his heel and making his way back down the hall, just eager for a scalding hot shower to wash away the unpleasantness that was today. 

[honeymoonjin]

bts reaction - a video of the two of you goes viral

A/N: requested by a lovely anon :) 

JIN

the two of you were always cooking together at the boys’ dorm so you didn’t think any different when some of the others asked you to make them some dinner

little did the two of you know that jungkook and hobi were conspiring against you by placing a little camera they had borrowed off staff and filming the whole thing

as normal, the two of you found your rhythm in preparing and cooking several meats and vegetables, completely unaware that your every movement was being live-streamed on v-live

as you waited for the hot water on the stove to boil, you snuck over and slid yourself under Jin’s arm so that he was trapping you against the bench 

“i can’t see the carrots anymore, honey”

“oh, jinnie, who cares about carrots when your beautiful girlfriend is in front of you” 

weirdly enough, just like jin loves complimenting himself, he also loves it when you’re confident about your own looks, and you know how to use that to your advantage

jin smiles sweetly down at you and leans in for a kiss, murmuring against your lips “mmm, you’re right, those boys can make themselves dinner for once, i’m in the mood for a little private eatjin”

just as he begins to start grinding his hips against you, jungkook scrambles into the kitchen, just about slipping in his socks

“hyung stop! stop!”

you watch in bewilderment as he opens a slightly ajar cupboard and pulls out a camera, which was pointing straight at you

“what’s going on?” 

jungkook waves at the camera with a little laugh and then looks back up at you “we just wanted to prank you guys, but then you had to go and do...that. eugh, it’s burned onto my retinas now”

you blink in shock but your boyfriend doesn’t seem nearly as surprised. “jin..?”

“i saw the red light beeping when i went to get the chopping board”

“you knEW? and you still were going to-”

jin grins cheekily “i wanted to show off my beautiful girlfriend, is that so wrong?”

you keep a neutral face, but you can’t help but blush. “...fine, but let’s continue this show in private, okay?”

YOONGI

when it came to righting serenades to lovers, rap wasn’t generally the best medium

yoongi knew that, so for a while he had been asking jin in secret to help him improve his singing

he knew his hyung had been through trying to learn everything, and he was a great teacher

now, yoongi sat you down on his lap as he sat at the piano, delicate hands wiping down the keys nervously

he’s set up a little camera in the corner because he wanted to record the audio as a demo to send to namjoon, but he couldn’t track down the voice recorder, so a decent camera was just easier

he can just convert it to an audio file later anyway

you lean back and crane your neck around to watch him, but he pushes you back softly so that you’re eyes aren’t on him

he’s nervous as fuck, okay? he’s way out of his comfort zone here

his voice is quiet and a little wobbly but there’s a genuinity there, and it sounds so beautiful with the piano to accompany it

the lyrics are beautiful, and as you feel yourself fall in love with him more and more, you wish you could see his face right now, but you obediently watch him manipulate the white ivory instead

luckily, or perhaps unluckily, a couple of weeks later namjoon accidentally uploads the video version instead of the mp3 version on the official twitter, and it immediately goes viral

you watch it yourself, melting at the way yoongi’s eyes barely glance at the keys as he sings, fixated on you

the song is messed with a little before the release of the next album, but when he performs it in concert, the whole audience sings with him

after hearing the lyrics and seeing the real love that it stemmed from, army have taken it on board as the official song of their love towards BTS

yoongi is over the moon that people have really connected with his song, but still, the best performance of it he ever gave was that first time, when it was just him, you, and the piano

HOSEOK

you can’t dance

you know this. hobi knows this. the rest of bangtan won’t let you forget it.

but unlike the other members who just laugh at your awkward attempts to mimic their choreo during sound check, hobi wants you to be able to enjoy the thing that he loves so much, so he takes it upon himself to teach you

unfortunately, bighit smell profit like blood in the water, and they decide hobi should start doing it as a hope on the street series

so every second tuesday, like clockwork, army get to enjoy a video of (in your c o r r e c t opinion) the hottest guy on the planet deal with the dancing equivalent of a trainwreck

“honestly, seokie, just give up now. it’s been three months and my dancing still looks like i’m fighting a ghost and losing”

“i told you if you stopped flailing so much and just slowed down your arm movements you’d be much better!”

“didn’t you say i should find something that made me unique?!”

and so the sixth episode of this special edition of hope on the street becomes you and hobi pettily arguing and making zero progress

fans in particular tweet a million times about the moment that hoseok gives up, chases you around the studio and then tackles you and straddles you, forcing your surrender

it’s a very suggestive position, so you kinda can’t blame them, but now the problem is that army won’t shut up about getting more of it

they want you to suffer so that they can see how sexy hoseok looks when he gets angry

because holy fuck is he sexy when he gets angry

episode nine has him slapping you in the ass every time you miss your cue

episode eleven features him manhandling you into position when you insist you’re too tired to dance

maybe one day you’ll improve but for now you’re destined to showcase your lack of ability on an international scale with your unbelievably talented boyfriend

NAMJOON

unfortunately as namjoon’s girlfriend, your viral video moment isn’t as pg

namjoon is a real horndog, so it’s become pretty run of the mill for you two to send pictures back and forth

normally it’s on snapchat so that there’s no trace

but namjoon tells you he wants a video he can keep before he goes on tour, so he asks you to send one on your basic messaging service, that way he can save it to his camera roll

namjoon is doing a fanmeet, and they’re playing a game where one of the members streams their phone to the screen behind them and the fans have to guess who it is

most of the other members use mirroring, where the whole screen shows up exactly as it is on the phone, so namjoon assumes its all or nothing

he does his, and once he’s done instead of turning it off like he thinks he has (because his screen is no longer showing up) he’s just turned it to the setting where only videos stream

the fanmeeting is boring af (no offense army) but maybe it’s just because namjoon is missing you rn

he pulls out his phone to take a sneak peek at the video, making sure volume is down, but then your moans blast through the speakers

yup. namjoon is streaming a video of you getting off to the entire hall

fuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfcufkcufckuckfuk

his heart is beating so hard in his chest and his fingers shake as he desperately tries to mess with the settings and stop the video playing, but by the time he does, the whole room is chaos

fans are screaming and squealing and the members are either crying with laughter or look like they just want the ground to swallow them whole

namjoon is certainly the latter

but he laughs awkwardly, apologizes and tries to change the subject

army feel kinda bad for him and the way his cheeks are bright bright red so they let him move on, but you best believe shaky hand-cam videos of namjoon freaking out while his girlfriend’s sex tape plays on the big screen are going viral for MONTHS

JIMIN

in this case, it’s not a single video, but rather a compilation, that goes viral

we been knew that jimin is a slut for attention but one dedicated army scrounged up clips from all over the internet to put together a twelve minute-long video of all the moments of jimin being a needy boyfriend

there’s an entire three-minute section dedicated to his heart-eyes stare when you’re not watching

there’s a low quality video of you which all fans of bts have seen a million times where jimin straight-up grabs your hand and puts it over his dick behind stage after their comeback show

about a million different instances of him feeling you up as a way for you to stop what you were doing and look at him

and then of course there was a supercut of moments from the various Bangtan Bombs you had featured in where he whines and pouts and wiggles his shoulders when you’re chatting with namjoon and not him

the two of you see the video when you keep getting tagged, and while it just makes jimin even more whiny, you have a good laugh over it

in fact, you take it upon yourself to start tweeting some screenshots of jimin being needy, exposing him yourself

“it’s tiring being the girlfriend of an idol, but it’s even more tiring when it’s jiimin!” you tweet

of course, jimin’s feelings are a liiiittle hurt and you have to make it up to him for weeks

(and don’t think the fans don’t notice how jimin suddenly starts acting like he has the biggest dick in town)

(they’re well aware some shit has gone down every time he comes out from backstage only to have red cheeks and a dopey grin)

TAEHYUNG

this is 100% percent tae’s fault

he thought it would be fucking hilarious to post the drunken voicemail you had left him one night when you were out partying with your girls

to be fair, if it was anyone else but you, you would’ve laughed too

but that’s your voice in bubbling sobs confessing your undying love to him so it is most certainly Not Funny, thank you very much

“...and i hope you get a good sleep because you deserve it and i hope that you know how much i love you because when i look at you it’s like all the stars left the sky and they’re in your eyes and you’re so beautiful and i love you so much and sometimes it hurts me inside because you’re so wonderful and magical and. oh also, did we get milk the other day? we’re almost out of milk i think. anyway i just called to let you know i’m staying over at unnie’s place so don’t wait up. okay i love you. no, you hang up first! oh, you don’t wanna hang up on me because you looooooove me too much! goodniiight baby”

and then a solid 43 seconds of you breathing because you forgot to actually hang up, and eventually the recording stops

army think it’s the cutest thing in the world, and tae does too, but of all the beautiful things you’ve done for him in private he chooses to share the drunk one? just rude

#[your ship name]needmilk is the new trending hashtag, and army literally start bringing milk cartons to fanmeetings, telling tae to give it to you

you have too much milk, and not enough dignity

you tell fans this on twitter and then #toomuchmilk replaces it

next time you get drunk, you are determined not to call tae

JUNGKOOK

of all the things you could do with your time, become anonymous amateur porn-stars probably wasn’t the most productive or advisable

but being an idol had given jungkook both a desire to do something without being recognized as the maknae from BTS, and simultaneously a huge fetish for exhibitionism

he’s a performer, it’s in his blood, so why fuck when you can fuck and have people get off to you? that’s what he figures, so the two of you create an account

you’re obviously extremely careful about not showing your faces, and the current system you have set up is putting down a strip of tape on the bed (or wherever you’re fucking as it most certainly varies) where the edge of camera shot reaches

you keep your heads above that line, and no one can see a thing

you also try to keep out any identifying materials in the shot like clothes you’ve worn in public before, or the many figurines jungkook has lying around

maybe what makes the eventual discovery even worse is how long it takes

nobody finds out for well over a year, so there’s a preeetty hefty backlog of videos

in the end, it’s your own stupid mistake that gives it away

jungkook shoots a v-live shortly after the two of you film a video of you two doing it in his studio

you had cleared out the wall so it was just plain black, and even brought in a chair from a different room so that no one for whatever reason would recognise jungkook’s gaming chair

but he’s so blissed out from you riding him and giving him one of the best orgasms of his life that he makes a rookie mistake

he forgets to take off the blue masking tape that lies in a rough square on the wall

when he returns his studio back to the way it was and goes live, one army who clearly was also a fan of your porn videos notices the tape and mentions it in the comments

soon enough the numbers of the chat peak and fall crazily as fans leave the live to go check the pornsite and your most recent vid, and come back to compare it to his studio

jungkook tries to pretend like he’s not noticing the stream of comments talking about how hot he looks and how good his moans sound, but he realises he never wanted it to be this way

he wanted to keep this and his videos separate, and now he’s made an irreversible mistake

he shuts off the v-live without warning and runs down to namjoon’s room in tears, asking what to do

in the end the issue is resolved by deleting the channel immediately, and very few people actually thought to take anything more than a screenshot, but jungkook knows he won’t be seen as a baby boy maknae ever again

(namjoon also realizes that for the past five months he’s been unwittingly jacking it religiously to jungkook fucking his girlfriend)

(he doesn’t tell jungkook this)

[blueplanettrash]

Servant of the Stars (Part 2)

I think that there will be only one more part after this one, but then again I don’t usually keep my promises so... I hope everyone enjoys! ❤️

They did try to figure it out, they really did but at every step they gained, Allura was there to pull him back again. It was obvious that she wasn’t doing it intentionally and Voltron wasn’t suffering much because of it but they could see the toll that it was taking on the blue paladin.

They had taken to following Lance around the Castle and helping him with his “duties” until either Allura realized what she was doing or someone finally tells her off. Of course at first Lance was reluctant to let them help but when Shiro passed it off as a team-building exercise, he laughed and relented.

Surprisingly, he didn’t do much more than what they would expect to do in their own homes. Like that moment for instance; they were helping him take care of everyone’s dirty laundry and the clothing that was provided in the paladin’s rooms when they settled in. Since they didn’t have any other clothing they opted to wear their matching robes and slippers. Even though Lance had plenty of clothes on the ship he decided to join in and happily put on the silky robe.

“Um, Lance?” Shiro called hesitantly.

Lance looked away from where he and Hunk were sorting and folding the now clean clothes and over to their now flustered leader.

“What the quiznack did you do?” He managed to get out between his laughs. Shiro’s ears turned a bright red as the embarrassment fully sunk in. Somehow while cleaning his vest, he managed to shrink it to barely half of it’s original size.

“You too?” Keith pouted as he walked up beside Shiro, his now tiny black t-shirt held in his hand.

“Wow, you two are definitely related,” Hunk laughed with a teasing grin.

“How did you even do that? The machines were built to wash everything perfectly,” Lance said walking up to the two of them and taking Shiro’s vest to examine it more closely. “Now we’re going to have to get you some more clothes, I mean you could wear Altean clothing but I don’t know how comfortable you’ll be,”

“Nope. No. Not happening, I can make it work,” Keith said hurriedly before walking back to his basket of clothes.

“See, perfect, you can’t even tell the difference,” he said as he swaggered back over.

“Oh my god. Keith. No,” Pidge chuckled as he struck a pose in front of the group. He had put his t-shirt back on but unlike before it was incredibly tight and barely reached the top of his belly button. To add to the effect he pulled his red jacket over it, which thankfully he hadn’t tried to wash yet. The baggy red lounge pants tied everything together perfectly as the group doubled over in laughter.

“I have become the anime,” he declared.

“I think we just found out Sebastian Michaelis’ true form,”

“Who is that?” Lance asked, his head tilted questioningly at her.

“Oh, he’s a character in a manga series from Earth, I can tell you all about it when we’re done if you want,” Pidge offered happily. Lance’s eyes lit up and he nodded his head excitedly in agreement.

“Seriously though, what are we going to do about these?” Shiro asked as he tried unsuccessfully to pull Keith’s shirt over his stomach.

“Why!?” Keith screeched trying to push Shiro away.

“You’re only a toddler!”

“We might be able to find some things at a swap moon, they have things from all over the universe,” Lance suggested ignoring the two arguing paladins. It had been quite awhile since he had been to a swap moon. He may have only gone to one but it had been the most exciting thing that had happened to him until he became a paladin, not to mention the fact that Coran was the one that took him.

“Whoa! That sounds so cool! Do you think that they would have anything from Earth?” Hunk asked leaning forward in excitement. Lance laughed at the eagerness that Hunk was showing.

“I’m not sure, it has been 10,000 years since I stepped foot in one, they might not be anything like I remember them to be,” he admitted with a small smile. He finished folding his last piece of laundry and neatly placed it in the basket.

“I’ll go ask Coran if he could locate one for us, there must be some things that we need for the Castle anyway, at the very least we need ingredients for better food,” Lance said hefting his basket into his arms. He waved over his shoulder before the door slid shut behind him.

There were a few minutes of silence after he left the room before Hunk decided to speak up.

“Do you think that we’re getting anywhere with him?” He asked with concern.

“I mean we were able to form Voltron on the first try with him so I don’t think that it’s really us that he’s concerned with and he likes spending time with us,” Pidge pointed out before sitting on the counter where Lance’s basket once sat.

“Yes, but we still don’t know very much about Lance’s past or anything about him really except for the fact that he was Allura’s servant and that he’s the blue paladin,” Keith added, finally getting away from Shiro.

“Well, we’re just going to have to try to get closer to him and make sure that he knows that he is wanted on the team,” Shiro nodded crossing his arms across his chest. He still couldn’t get that heartbroken face out of his mind. Although they had only known Lance for a few weeks, to remember that he didn’t think that deserved to be a paladin still stung. Even if it took their whole lives they were going to make sure that Lance knew that he wasn’t just a servant.

Just as Lance thought. This was not what he remembered a swap moon looking like. It was clean and orderly and there weren’t space pirates anywhere that he could see. Thankfully he was able to talk Coran out of the grungy disguises that he wanted them to wear and instead they wore their armour.

“Alright, in two vargas we’ll meet back here, I understand that you’re looking for clothes so I will take care of getting the food,” Coran declared.

“Thanks, Coran, that takes a load off of our shoulders,” Shiro breathed out with a grin.

“Not a problem my boy, now go have fun!” He exclaimed before swiftly turning and walking the opposite direction.

They looked around in confusion before their gaze landed back on Lance. He let out a snort of amusement before heading towards the help desk.

“Wow, you guys are like a bunch of lost yuppers,”

“I don’t know what that means but it’s probably accurate,”

“Trust me, it is,”

“Can I help you?” The worker asked. Lance blinked in surprise for a second. She looked like an Unilu, maybe this mall wasn’t as innocent as he thought before.

“Um, yes please, we’re looking for clothing stores,” he said nervously.

“Okay, just a tick, I’ll circle some on a map for you,” she said, leaning back to grab a map and a marker.

Okay. She wasn’t bartering for information. They were definitely in the clear. He breathed a barely audible sigh of relief and an easy smile worked its way across his face.

“Are you soldiers or something?” She asked as she carefully drew around some shapes.

“Hmm, kind of?”

“Sick,” she said before sliding the map over the counter. “There you go, I left out the ones that I didn’t think would fit any of you,”

“Thank you,” he said with a smile before he paused and put it back on the counter.

“There wouldn’t happen to be an Earth store in here, would there?” He asked.

“Um, Earth?” She echoed in confusion.

“Or Gaea? Or maybe Terra?” Hunk butt in. Her eyes narrowed slightly in thought before she let out a little gasp and took the map back and circled another location.

“This shop is called Terra but no one ever goes in there, I don’t think that they’ve even sold anything before,” the group of humans looked at the map like it was an oasis in the desert.

“Thank you so much!” They blurted out before they grabbed Lance’s wrist and were dragging him towards the store.

“Welcome!” The grey alien greeted as they rushed through the door. They glanced around quickly with wide grins before they started splitting off into different directions.

“Holy fuck, they have Sephora,” Shiro gasped as he walked to one of the shelves. “Keith, they have glitter, I’m buying all of it, I’m literally going to snort it,” he promised waving the small vile of rainbow glitter at him.

“Please don’t fucking snort it,” Keith sighed massaging his forehead.

“Try and fucking stop me,”

“How did you become our leader?” He groaned walking over to join him. Lance watched them in amusement. He didn’t know what Sephora was but it seemed to be like the makeup that he used to use on Altea.

“Is that a Mercury Gameflux II?!” Pidge shouted in excitement, dragging Hunk by the arm to the back wall.

Great. Now he was alone in a store that he had no idea what anything was. He started down the side of the store, eyes darting around looking for anything remotely interesting to him. His head whipped around when Pidge let out another screech and she started waving a book at him.

“It’s Black Butler, the one with that character I was talking about earlier,” she explained quickly before she was back to rifling through the store. He let out an amused huff before continuing on his little search.

He felt warm inside when he thought of the fact that they wanted to teach him about their planet and their interests. They actually wanted to get to know him as a friend rather than someone they had to work with. 

He yelped when something soft slapped him in the face making him stop in surprise. He stumbled back a few steps and looked at the wall. Hanging crooked on a rack was an olive green jacket with a cream coloured hood and orange bands circling the upper sleeves.

Gingerly, he reached up and slipped it off of the hanger to get a better look at it. It certainly wasn’t his usual style but then again he didn’t really have a style since he almost always wore his uniform or armour. He really liked this though and he doubted that he was going to be leaving the store without it.

He didn’t.

While the other paladins left carrying multiple bags with them, Lance had a wide smile on his face as he slipped the jacket on over his armour and dragged his new friend Kaltenecker behind him.

Thankfully Coran did a fantastic job at getting ingredients and they were going to be stocked for quite a while. With the addition of more food, Lance added kitchen duty to his list of jobs in the Castle and like before the paladins trailed after him curiously.

“What do you want us to do?” Hunk asked eagerly, looking at the spread of ingredients that were laid on the counter.

“Who should I not trust in the kitchen?” He asked first, immediately all eyes went to Shiro who pouted and crossed his arms.

“Why do you two even know?” he huffed looking at Hunk and Pidge.

“Keith,” they shrugged in unison.

“Yay Shiro, you get to be the dishwasher!” Lance said with sarcastic cheer before chucking a dishcloth at him.

“But seriously, I don’t really have any jobs except for cutting right now,” he said pushing a cutting board with a strange looking… something towards each of them.

“What are we even making?” Pidge asked as she carefully started.

“Hmm, well I don’t know the name of it,” he admitted, tapping his chin with his finger. “It was something that the cooks used to make all of the time,”

“We’re making an authentic Altean meal?” Hunk smiled the earlier excitement flooding his body again.

“Yup, I don’t really know how to make anything else after all,” he laughed turning to throw an apron on himself and join them.

“Were you close to everyone on the ship?” Shiro asked, striding back over to join their little circle.

“Well, yes and no I guess,” he shrugged. “Coran found me on the streets when I was about 11 or 12 and was kind enough to get me a job here as a servant, don’t get me wrong Altea was beautiful and it was easy to live there but it was rough for an orphaned child with no one to turn to,”

No matter how many times he lived through blaze storms, he would never be able to get over the fear. He yelped and pushed himself against the wall behind him as a chunk of rock speared the ground beside his foot. The burning heat coming off of it quickly turned his skin red and he quickly moved it. He kept his eyes trained on the sky even as tears started rolling down his cheeks and he could barely keep his knees from buckling in fear. The only way to keep his head on his shoulders was to track the falling debris and keep dodging.

He was so occupied keeping his head to the sky that he didn’t notice another person until they were standing over him. He held a shield over the two of them and looked down at Lance with an expression of pity.

“Hi there,” he said softly. Lance blinked only barely realizing that he was safe for the time being before his knees finally gave out and he fell to the ground. The man let out a little sound of shock before he was kneeling beside him.

“Are you alright?” He asked with concern, his eyes searching over him for any sort of injury. Lance couldn’t get past the relieved knot in his throat and only nodded in response as he started wiping away his tears.

“Why are you out here?” He asked laying his hand on Lance’s shoulder.

“I have nowhere else to go,” he whispered, clenching his hands in the fabric of his pants. He felt a shudder go through the man’s hand before he was gently tipping his head up to finally see his rescuer.

“Do you know who I am?” He asked. Lance squinted his eyes slightly. For some reason, he did look familiar but he wasn’t sure why. He was positive that he would remember meeting this man. Then it came to him. This man was always standing with the royal family.

He let out a gasp and struggled to bow or show some sort of respect to the man. Shockingly, the man let out a laugh and ruffled his dirty hair.

“No need for that, I’m no royal,”

“But you’re so important and I-I’m just Lance,” he said self-consciously reaching up to rub a piece of his hair between his fingers.

“And I’m just Coran, it’s nice to meet you my boy!” He cheered holding out his hand to the small boy. Lance looked up at him with wide eyes and put his trembling one in Coran’s.

“Now then, you said that you had nowhere to go?” He asked looking around the alleyway that Lance was sitting in. Lance gulped and nodded his head slightly.

“Well that won’t do, everybody needs a home, how would you feel about living in the Castle?” Lance’s mouth dropped open in shock. He had never even gotten close enough to see the shape of the Castle let alone been inside of it. He couldn’t help but feel like all of this was just a cruel dream and he was going to wake up cold and alone again.

“Really?” He croaked out in disbelief. Again Coran sent him a comforting smile and nodded his head.

“Now it won’t be easy work and the staff won’t tolerate any slackers, but I can give you a chance if you promise to do your best,” he said sternly. Lance frantically nodded his head in agreement and clutched onto Coran’s arm. He would give anything to just have a roof over his head for once.

“I can do it!” He promised, determined eyes staring into Coran’s.

“Then I look forward to working with you,” he said standing up and holding his hand out to the boy.

After he was settled in the Castle he was sent to the kitchens. It was not what he expected. He soon realized that he wasn’t going to do very well there. He was by far the smallest person there and was immediately intimidated by the loud noise and rush that everyone was in. He tried as hard as he could to succeed, he listened to everything that any of the cooks told him, he was there as soon as he was called, he did anything that was asked of him.

But it wasn’t enough.

No matter what he did. He would mix up the ingredients by mistake and they would have to start all over because of him. The first time it happened they chalked it up to nervousness and let him go with a tight smile and reassurance, probably because of the nervous tears that were welling up in his eyes. By the fourth time it happened, they started yelling instead.

He couldn’t help that he was constantly underfoot, he was the smallest person in that room. He didn’t mean to get in the way, he just wanted to do his job and earn his keep. If it hurt a bit when they shoved him out of the way, he didn’t say anything.

He never cursed himself more than when he made a stupid mistake. He already knew that he was clumsy but when he was suddenly given some sort of responsibly it got out of control. He would drop bowls of ingredients, glasses, knives, everything. It was when he managed to drop completed dishes that really scared him. He would instantly burst into panicked tears and attempt to clean it up until another member of the staff pushed him away and cleaned it themselves with an angry grumble.

He knew that he wasn’t doing very well but he was doing his best just like Coran said. So when he walked into the kitchen one morning and his apron was ripped off he didn’t know what to do. A shove sent him to the ground outside the doors and he looked up at the looming head chief.

“We don’t need you here, you’re going to the gardens,” he said bluntly before the door shut on him.

Of course, that wasn’t particularly harsh or anything but for someone like him, who had tried his hardest, it hurt. He kept his promise but he still wasn’t good enough for them. He had no reason to complain though, he still had another chance.

Just like the kitchen, he wasn’t welcome to work in the gardens after another month. He wasn’t strong enough and he wasn’t quick enough. They didn’t give him nearly as long as the kitchen staff and was thrown to a new section within the next three weeks.

It didn’t last.

He wasn’t good enough to work in the Castle. He wasn’t good enough to work anywhere. He had done his best but it just wasn’t enough. He couldn’t earn his keep and it was time for him to leave. He understood that as he was dragged back to his room with the orders to take his belongings and leave.

He didn’t yell.

He didn’t argue.

He understood why.

And he cried.

He packed up his belongings shakily and headed out of the door. Miserable hiccups escaped his throat as he tried to wipe away his tears. He didn’t want to bother anyone else with his own problems, he had already done that enough. Coran was wrong to put his faith in him, he was wrong to think that he could be anything than just a street rat.

He tried to put on a brave face when he saw the entrance to the Castle getting closer and closer but his stomach only dropped lower. By the time he reached the threshold, he was almost collapsing in heartache. He didn’t want to leave. He didn’t want to have to struggle to survive anymore. It hurt too much.

With a shaking sob, he started walking away, clutching his small bag to his chest. He tried to think of somewhere that he go curl up that night. They were approaching the colder months of the year and Lance was excited to be able to spend them in the warmth of the Castle, but obviously, things weren’t going to work out that way.

“Lance?” A voice called. Hesitantly he looked up and let out a little gasp. He clamoured to drop into a bow as the two men came forward.

Coran and King Alfor.

“Lance, what are you doing out here? Don’t you have duties? Wait, are you crying?” Coran shot out at lightspeed. He kneeled in front of the boy concern flooding his face. Lance quickly looked away, he couldn’t stand to look at the man that he let down.

“Lance, please talk to me,” he pleaded, tilting Lance’s head up.

“I’m sorry Coran,” was all he said.

“Whatever for? And why are you out here?” He asked his eyes searching Lance’s face.

“I wasn’t good enough, I kept messing up so I have to go, I’m sorry that you wasted your time on me,” he breathed out quickly moving his gaze back to the ground. Coran’s hand tightened slightly where it was resting on Lance’s shoulder.

“Lance was it?” Alfor asked, kneeling beside Coran. Lance looked at him with wide eyes and nodded slowly.

“Lance, how old are you?”

“I’m 11,” he answered quietly.

“Well then, I might have the perfect job for you,”

“Then he introduced me to Allura and the rest is basically history,” Lance smiled.

“That honestly sounds more like a movie plot than real life,” Pidge commented with wide eyes. Lance chuckled and nodded his head in agreement.

“Alfor sounds like he was a great guy too,” Hunk added.

“Yes he was, at least in my experience, I mean he saved my life more than once,” Lance shook his head slightly. Even though it’s been ten millennia, he still felt disbelief at the king’s actions. He didn’t have to show Lance any kindness but he did anyway.

“More than once?” Shiro asked propping his chin upon his hand.

“Yes, he was the one that put me into the cryopod,” all at once the guilt that he felt after waking up came rushing back. “It should have been him in there not me,”

“What do you mean?”

“I went back while everyone was evacuating because the king, princess, and Coran were all missing and when I got there I told him that I would put him into cryosleep for him but then he put me in one instead, if I had have resisted a little bit more maybe he would be the one here instead of me,” he explained looking down at the counter. He sighed when a hand laid itself on his shoulder.

“Lance, Alfor obviously saw something in you,” Shiro reasoned with a small smile. Lance huffed out a laugh and shook his head slightly in denial.

“Yeah! I mean you ran back during an evacuation just to try and save their lives,” Hunk added with a wide grin.

“Their safety was much more important than mine,” Lance argued futilely.

“You don’t give yourself enough credit Lance, no one else in that ship tried to go back for them beside you and you didn’t even know if they were actually up there,” Pidge countered with a pointed look. “You are so much more important than you think you are, we all see it,”

“Thank you,” he breathed out, eyes gazing at each of them in amazement. For the first time in his life, he could feel the heavy guilt lifting itself off of his shoulders.

“That’s what friends are for,” Keith said simply.

Lance���s mouth lifted up in a wobbling smile. Ten millennia ago, the only friends he had were Coran and somewhat Allura. Now he had four new people that cared about him. He knew that there was going to be a long learning curve ahead of them. He had to find a new place for himself in the Castle as a paladin and not a servant. It would be difficult for him to break out of his old habits but it wasn’t himself that he was worried about.

It was Allura.

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“How many times do I have to tell you not to knock? Get in here loser.” nadja

( » » BROTP starters. ) + sky’s still blue verse

There was a light cloud cover over the gibbous moon, and the alley was dark and wet — it was well after midnight and the street lights had turned off a minute ago, Alexi wasn’t sure when they would turn back on. He paused in the alcove holding the backdoor to Scavengers Too to set down the box he was carrying. The metal door rung hollowly as he knocked.

The door opened suddenly, and Alexi was forced to take a step back as a sawed off shotgun was shoved into this face. Alexi nearly tripped off the step into the alley as a bright light shone in his face.

“Jesus fucking Christ —”

“Shut up, Misha, it wasn’t like I was going to shoot you. Bad mouth you have on you. Aren’t you a religious man?” The gun dropped and the light disappeared. “How many times do I have to tell you not to knock? Get in here loser.”

“Well, I’ll mention taking the Lord’s name in vain at my next confessional. I knocked because it was dark and I couldn’t find my keys. Got what we needed.” He picked up the box and was grateful to notice the streetlights had come back on as he came inside.

She patted him on the shoulder as he walked through the storage hallway into the back room of the bar. Setting down the box, he waited until she placed the shotgun back into the hidden rack underneath the desk where they counted the day’s cash. Alexi leaned against the desk, counting the bottles off on his fingers.

“Grey Goose, Ciroc, Hennessy, Patrón, Maker’s Mark, and Crown Royal — a bottle each.” He slid the box back towards himself, ready to go put the bottles in their rightful places. “Next time there’s a woman pissed off at you, make sure her fucking heel doesn’t hit the top shelf’s support. I can’t buy you an entire new selection each night.”

There was a crash in the front and a loud grunt as a woman screamed. Nadja sighed and pulled her shotgun back out. Alexi picked up the box, they both traded glances and walked back into the main room of the bar. Two men were fighting, most of the rest of the bar were ignoring them as fights seemed to have a pattern of breaking out nearly every night at Scavengers Too. No one involved themselves until alcohol spilled. Alexi slid the box under the bar, eyeing the other illegal gun hidden there before Nadja tapped him on the back.

“Would you have rather had that fucking stiletto hit me in the eye? An eyepatch is badass but only if its leather, comrade. Were you gonna buy me it, Misha?” She sighed, and gestured over the bar towards the pair. “You wanna kick some asses out now, muscles?”

Alexi shrugged and stood up. He wasn’t as tall as the heavy weight on the winning side of the fight but he was certain he could kick him out. He got his hand wrapped up in the collar of the smaller man, dragging him towards the front door. The man’s waving arm knocked against a chair, sloshing the beer of the another patron. Alexi’s free hand clamped down on the third man’s rising shoulder.

“Sit down buddy, I’ll pay for another when I get these two out. You have a pretty face, would hate to break it.”

He heard a laugh from Nadja behind the bar as a bottle poured. Alexi shoved the man out the door as he pulled the man’s keys from his jacket’s pocket.

“Call a cab. If you drunk enough to scuffle with someone who looks like he’s a MMA fighter, you’re too drunk to drive.”

He ignore the yell of indignation at him and turned back inside. The brick house was all puffed up in the middle of the room, ready to take a run at him. He looked like he was on steroids, a bull ready to charge at a red flag — and Alexi was that red flag. He groaned and looked up at the ceiling.

“I knew tonight was going to fucking suck.”

The click of the shotgun from behind the bar made chuckle under his breath. Nadja’s anger was palpable even halfway across the room. Her voice was like a dagger and the rest of the patrons shuffled out past him.

“Okay, shithead. You have three options. One, walk out right now. Two, go down for assault, I have the police dialed right now. Or three, go to the hospital with a back full of scattershot. Your choice, bucko.”

Alexi could see it happen before Nadja could, the skin around the man’s eyes tightened a moment before the man went into motion. By then Alexi was already moving. He crashed into the man, a modified judo throw mixed with a MMA takedown ( thanks Cheyenne Brazilian Jiu Jitsu ), and Alexi’s breath whooshed out of him as he hit the floor next to the assailant. Shit, he was going to be sore tomorrow. The man’s surprise worked in Alexi’s favor, he must have not expected a bar’s hired muscle to fight back like this, and relied on on his size to lend him the advantage in all his fights. The meathead’s skull thumped against the ground and his body went lax. Luck was on his side tonight then. Footsteps stopped besides him and the maxim ‘the larger they are, the harder they fall’ rung especially true in this instance which prompted a laugh from him.

“Well fuck, Misha. One hit wonder! Less than one hit, more like one tackle.” She knelt down, placing two fingers on the human mountain’s neck. “Man might have a concussion when he wakes up. I’ll call the police.”

Alexi groaned as he got up, prodding his shoulder that was quickly developing into a nice bruise. No pulled muscles, no fractures. Nice. He pulled upright a table that had got knocked over, and gestured to the the broken glass on the floor.

“You got this?”

“Yeah, comrade.”

Patrons were coming back into the bar, resuming their positions they had vacated. Alexi pulled out the ladder in the supply closet and threw the broom in Nadja’s direction. Setting up the step ladder, he placed the box he had brought in through the back door on the top step. Climbing up gingerly, he pulled out the screws and screwdriver he had also picked up on his trip out from his pocket. Repositioning the support arm of the shelf, the one the first fight of the night had knocked out, he screwed it back in as Nadja swept up the glass and disposed of it. Alexi placed his earlier purchases on the shelf, a nice neat line.

The chatter of the patrons resumed, the flow of people moving around the bar made a nice island around the downed body on the floor. Alexi descended down the ladder, with the bottle of Grey Goose in his hand. He could practically feel the eye roll of Nadja at his back as he put away the ladder. Alexi leaned behind the bar, pulling out a shot glass.

“Misha.”

“I think I deserve this tonight. And hey, I’m not drinking it straight from the bottle.” He pulled the crumpled receipt from the liquor store from his pocket and slapped it into Nadja’s hand. “There’s the alcohol total, just —” 

Nadja’s glare made him pause. She really hated when he tried to give her advice on how to run the the bar’s finances. 

“Do whatever you have to do to even it out. Create a tab for me even. I drink here often enough. Start with giving the pretty man at table four another of whatever he had been drinking. I keep my word.”

Nadja sighed and stuck the paper in the lockbox with a small chuckle. He could almost guarantee she was about to ask him if he wanted to ask out the man he had just bought a beer for. Ambulance sirens could be heard coming down the street and Alexi rolled his neck.

“Should I get myself checked out? Does your worker’s comp even cover that?”

Nadja laughed, and walked back into the back room to secret away her sawed off.

“You know I don’t have shit to cover your injuries, good thing you’ve got that nurse friend. I’ll give you off a couple of hours to deal with this, get an ice pack from the back.”

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