#like ripping a bandaid off

[mrsdulac]

this is the ‘yeah the man you’re fucking totally killed your daughter and fledgling’ face ISN’T IT?

[evevoli]

decided to finally color this self-indulgent wing au doodle i've had laying around since september (which is why it looks super wonky haha). allopreening my beloved

i had the idea that hunter is Really Bad at taking care of his wings for a number of reasons, and so after their sewing lesson darius takes one look at them and decides to step in

(for reference, darius has crow wings while hunter is a barn owl :])

[bylertruther]

wouldn't it have been so fucked up if season one / st was actually a real ghost story and will rly had been dead the whole time n was communicating with joyce from the literal other side. like we as the audience know tht will was alive bc we're The Audience but to everyone else it jus sounded like a ghost story concocted by a mother out of her mind with grief. canonically. but like.......... the "he's been dead since the beginning" / "someone has to leave first. this is a very old story. there is no other version of this story" of it all hits so Hard

[cranity]

finally uses my sketchbook after 4ever

[okkennymay]

This time around I thought I would make a comic relaying the events after the last time I posted, because my gosh is it easier to explain with pretty pictures than upsetting words >vO I prefer to make jokes about my situation than anything, ‘cause honestly it’s a solid way of dealing with it and I take so many medications as it is, why not add laughter to it I say! ( •̀ ω •́ )✧

Despite my condition’s best efforts I still managed to organise and complete a commission with someone through emails! Thank you @waezi2 you were so patient as I arose from my grave every other day to get things done (❁´◡`❁) Fighting my body and winning to complete it was the victory I needed! The sheer satisfaction I get from a commission well received by someone is like pure nectar to me~ Sweet sustenance I just can’t get enough of! The money don’t hurt either, Disability Support Pensions do not go far in this economy 👀 This is as close as I can get to having a job and I wont let C.V.S (Cyclic vomiting Syndrome) or Chrohns take that from me! 

I’m raring to dive into more if anyone’s interested ♪(´▽｀) I’m just about to post a new “commissions sheet” to broadcast that very fact >vO I do love having something to draw between Ectober pages~

[blankensnappeas]

screaming, crying, and throwing up, after many little alterations and additions I post the first chapter to my tinkoffski fic to Ao3

[nnjthndr]

I posting this as a WARNING to all my followers that I won't post anything tomorrow until I have watched Joel's POV of the Secret Life finale. After which I will come here to incomprehensibly scream like a rabid creature either in an uncontainable joy I've never felt in my life way over his victory or in an agonising pain that makes me read angsty fics at 3 am just to feel something way over his death.

All of this is to say that I WILL NOT BE NORMAL TOMORROW

[heliumcake]

MIKE RIPPING OFF THE BAND-AID

inspired by this post.

considering how will went from acting extremely disinterested in the whole “girlfriend drama” in s3 to actively making an effort to listen to mike and help him fix his relationship with eleven in s4, it wouldn’t be really that surprising if mike thought this was another way of confirming he lost will.

mike realized he might not love el the way he was supposed to at the same time he also realizes how much will actually meant to him. he realized he didn’t actually want to “grow up” if it meant losing will. all in that same day that he left. he then doesn’t hear from him for a year, none of them reach out to the other and the day before he’s going to visit he finds out will likes someone, a girl, and he’s painting for her. when he used to be the one who kept all his drawings.

and mike feels extremely lost. he knows he doesn’t love el the way she wants him to, but he’s scared of breaking up with her. he’s scared of losing her. he’s also terrified of his own feelings for will. he couldn’t risk telling will the truth, because that would mean he could never turn back. if he admitted he didn’t love her, all hopes for him to ever be normal would be lost, it would be over for good… but when will tells him to stop staring at her last letter, he drops it immediately.

truth is, he wants will to give him an out. he wants will to want him and el breaking up. he doesn’t want will liking some girl, painting for her, pushing mike back to his relationship with el like any good friend would. he wants back the will he used to know. the will he thought would understand, would go “crazy together” with. and he thinks he almost did, will’s painting in his hands, watching his best friend bathed in sunlight, talking to him about a type of love he’s never felt while he was with el. thinking, hoping, deep down, “please let it be him. please tell me this is coming from him. please tell me he feels that way too” another chance, the last one.

until it isn’t, because el is dying in front of him and will is telling him that he’s the heart and that she needs him. and will is saying this because he believes it. because it’s true. all hopes that will could ever be like him, want him back, love him like that… all of that is gone in a second. will moved on, “grew up”, mike lost him and he has to accept it. he has to rip off the bandaid. there’s no way out of it now, so he lies again. goes back to el. he has to help her, and this might be the only way. there’s nothing else he can do.

[corallapis]

okay. see. the thing is. the cricketing gear isn't just a silly set of clothes the tardis picked out. it's to clue you in that we're dealing with posh edwardian man levels of repression here. that's who five is.

[eddiediaaz]

feeling like i've been drenched with ice cold water after this person i've been seeing told me they weren't sure how they were feeling earlier today (after i spent the night, at their request, even tho they said they don't usually do this so quick but felt comfortable with me) and wanted to sit with these feelings for a bit tomorrow. it was going so well, they kept projecting us in the future together (they're looking for something serious) and now suddenly they're not sure how they feel? and now they're texting me as if they didn't just drop this bomb on me a few hours ago. what the fuck?

[house-of-mirrors]

Before City in Silver, I had decided the third act of Orsinio's character arc would involve the Great Game, and the Scheme of the Phoenix was a nice surprise and fitting opportunity to explore his morally grey facets. The liberation ending once again has me thinking about his relationship with the nocturnal powers, as well as the parallels between his character arc and the Halved.

The King Who Wars

Orsinio is temperamental and quick to react. He can be short-sighted and make choices to benefit his immediate loved ones or goals above a greater good. His revolutionary tendencies come from not only a desire for a better world, but wanting to see punishment for the wrongdoings of the kings. Direct action.

The King Who Speaks

Horatio was levelheaded and cool, never revealing his hand. In great game negotiations, he was a pragmatic and expert diplomat. Patient and calculating, meticulously compiling paper trails, able to diffuse situations with words alone. Setting up schemes and watching a gradual yet inexorable result.

The Halved

Only one is still here to carry on the work. Orsinio used to wonder what his brother would have done, but he's long made peace with the fact he's on his own. Stepping out of Horatio's shadow. Calling the shots. Orsinio is all raw emotions. The knife is in his hand, not an agent's. Horatio never got his hands dirty.

The Tower

Now Orsinio is confronted with a choice that places the weight of the world in his hands. Knowledge is a heavy burden. He can walk away and let the intrigues play out of their own accord, or he can take an active role.

The White

Still he hesitates. Beating the high powers at their own game will have disastrous consequences, but wouldn't it be cathartic? The tension in the world is going to reach a boiling point with or without his intervention on the board, and here's an opportunity to show the Old Man in Vienna he's a rival to be reckoned with.

The liberationist nemesis player's philosophy. "I draw the line at assassinating someone's loved one for personal gain, but inciting global chaos is fine."

The Black

Nor is Orsinio alone. He is not acquainted with the Anchoress. The Black has No avatar in Parabola, unlike the Beleaguered King or Red-Handed Queen. Orsinio steps up to the role on the chessboard. He's acting on behalf of not only himself. (And who's to say his interests are always completely his own?) No knight for no king.

Cry 'havoc!' and let slip the dogs of war

The wrench in the system. The well placed bomb. The world turned on its head by a storyteller. Liberation.

Sequestered in his office, papers scattered on his desk. His briefcase may as well contain a ticking time bomb. Orsinio senses No One behind him, placing a firm grasp on his shoulder, covering his eyes, whispering in his mind, Do it.

Alea iacta est.

Orsinio doesn't move his hand to tip the scales.

[volivolition]

DEMOCRACY!! i spent far too long figuring out which skills would say yes or no and for what reason. is this how checks work? absolutely not. HOWEVER. DEMOCRACY...

[shingekinomyfeelings]

Shh (nsfw, mdni)

A Reiner x reader drabble. You might be a little shy about being overheard, but Reiner sure isn't.

warnings: explicit dialog, dirty talk, Reiner being a lil shit, afab reader. Characters are cadets in this story, but aged up to 19.

notes: this is definitely the filthiest thing I’ve ever written and maybe ever will write, sooooo feel free to pretend you didn’t see it

not beta read

I’ve literally never written any form of dirty talk before so I’m sorry if this is the worst thing ever

reposted here

[hartbreak-motel]

VINNY IS SITTING ON JOHN'S KNEE

[yooj-v02]

U kno what the idea that in s5 will is slowly distancing himself from mike to move on but mike just keeps on gravitating towards him and following him is funny actually

[ilynotes]

everybody is familiar with the concept that mike would be the one to kiss will first, but may i introduce to you all how good the concept of will being the one to kiss mike first is?? because if it did happen, it would be a spur-of-the-moment irrational thing, you wouldn't expect him to initiate it - but he has bottled up and pushed aside his own feelings and pain for so long, and has put up with mike's bullshit for so long, the treatment he got from him in s4, listening to him talk about his relationship issues with el, added onto all the extra trauma and bullshit he usually goes through and whatever else he'll be dealing with in season 5, that all of that just builds up and boils and reaches a breaking point until he just explodes, gives up, grabs mike, and kisses him without thinking. it seems so out of character for him because will doesn't normally act irrationally like that, but that's what makes it SO good. because he's just so fed up he doesn't care what the consequences are anymore. he could die tomorrow, mike might never be his, his entire life has been hell, and the world is quite literally fucking falling apart around him; so he lets himself be selfish, just this once, and maybe the last time ever.