Pomegranate Ink: XVII
Series Synopsis: Unable to heal but willing to fight, with a fiancĂŠ in Kyoto and a last name that looms over everything you do, you accept an offer to study at Tokyo Jujutsu Tech. What you did not know was that your salvation and your ruination alike would soon join you at the school, neatly wrapped in the form of a boy followed by death.
Chapter Synopsis: You have an argument with your father before going to meet Yuta.
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Pairing: Yuta Okkotsu Ă Female Reader
Chapter Word Count: 5.4k
Content Warnings: angst, misogyny, naoya zenin, forbidden relationships, canon-typical violence, character death, original characters included
A/N: yuta reappearance yay!! enjoy the crumbs because heâs going to be gone until like shibuya now though
âAre you excited to visit Yuta?â Tullia said. She was sitting cross-legged on your bed, watching you pack, while Maki was frantically finishing the last of the summer homework that Kusakabe expected you all to turn in for the next class.
âOf course I am,â you said, folding a shirt and setting it in the small carry-on bag you were taking with you. You werenât going for a long time, so you didnât feel the need to bring an entire suitcase with you, but it was long enough that youâd definitely need a couple changes of clothes. âItâs been forever since I saw him last.â
âIâm jealous of you,â Maki said, her face reddening and cracks forming in the wood of her pencil from how hard she was gripping it. âSince youâll be in Africa, you wonât have to worry about turning in this essay for Kusakabe!â
âActually, I already turned it in,â you informed her. âAs well as the rest of the work for the time that Iâll be missing. So the jealousy is unwarranted, because Iâve done more than you the past few days.â
âYouâre such a nerd,â Maki said.
âDonât blame me for your lack of planning,â you said. âAnyways, have you guys had the chance to meet the other first years yet?â
âMm, nope!â Tullia said, apparently speaking for all them when she did so. âThe higher ups have kept everyone busy, so it seems like weâre never at the school at the same time as them. Besides Fushiguro, we donât know any of them.â
âThe one boy, Itadori, is Sukunaâs vessel, and the other student is a girl, according to Gojo. Thatâs all I can tell you,â you said.
âSukunaâs vessel,â Maki said. âI canât believe weâre actually classmates with someone like that.â
âHeâs a nice boy,â you said. âHe didnât seem to have ill intentions, so I donât really mind it. Wasnât it the same with Yuta? And see how he turned out. I think weâre past the point of judging people for whatever entities are attached to them.â
âOh, I donât disagree,â Maki said. âItâs just a little fantastical, is all. The King of Curses is our classmate â Tullia, for a frame of reference, itâs like if you went to school and suddenly you found out King George III would also be attending.â
âI know who Sukuna is,â Tullia said, giving her an incredulous look. âSince when are you informed on the American Revolution, though?â
âI did some light reading on it to make you feel more at home,â Maki said.
âActually, Iâm pretty sure Megumiâs the one that told her about that particular fact,â you said. Maki looked up from her essay to glare at you. You threw a sock at her in retaliation. âDonât think sheâs some kind of educated and well read woman. She still hasnât finished her summer homework, so sheâs definitely the opposite.â
âOkay,â Tullia said, sitting on her hands as a clear show of her neutrality in the argument. âWhatever you say.â
âWhich one of us?â Maki said.
âBoth?â Tullia said.
âWait, weâre saying opposite things, so you canât exactly go and say you agree with the two of us, can you? Thatâs not how it works,â you said.
âUmâŚY/N, please be sure to pick up some souvenirs for us from wherever in Africa youâll be visiting!â Tullia said in a rush. It was an obvious tactic to change the subject, but you and Maki exchanged looks and decided to allow it.
âDo you want food or something else?â you said.
âThey probably wouldnât let you bring food, at least not anything that would be really cool for you to bring back. Even if they did, it wouldnât taste as good anymore,â Maki said.
âSomething else it is. If anything catches my eye, Iâll be sure to get it. Gojo and Yuta will both be there; one of them can foot the bill. With those two having special grade salaries, Iâll really be upset if they make me pay for anything!â you said.
âYuta would probably insist on paying, even if you were the better off between you two,â Tullia said. âI donât think heâs the kind of boyfriend thatâd let you lift a finger or open your wallet around him.â
âPlus Gojo just about starts crying from joy every time he gets to spend money on you, so you likely donât have to worry about a thing,â Maki added.
âExactly. So I'll get you guys something nice for sure!â you said.
âAlright!â Tullia said.
âMake sure to get something for yourself, too,â Maki said with a frown. âYouâre always thinking of the rest of us, but itâs okay to think of yourself every now and then.â
You waved her off. âI have enough people thinking about me. I donât need to add to the count.â
âIf you say so,â Maki said.
Just then, there was a knock on your door. You frowned, wondering who had any business coming and knocking on your door. The two people that could be reliably counted upon to visit you were already sitting in the room, and if it was Toge or Panda, theyâd have texted before coming. Gojo would just barge in, and even if he did by some miracle decide to knock, it wouldnât be such a polite sound.
âUm, who is it?â you called out, shoving your suitcase to the side and standing, crossing the room to open the door and then flinching at the man who stood before you.
âY/N,â he said. You swallowed, bowing your head at him.
âFather,â you said. âItâs a long way from our home to the school. Why have you come without announcing your arrival? Is something the matter?â
âI wanted to meet you and that girl of yours. The empty glass,â he said, gesturing towards the room. âMay I come in?â
âYes,â you said, âYouâre in luck. Tulliaâs in here already. Maki is as well, but whatever you want to say to us, you can say in front of her, so that shouldnât be a problem.â
âWho was it â oh! Mr. L/N!â Tullia said, leaping from the bed and waving at your father. You briefly wondered how she knew it was him before remembering what Noritoshi had said about how she was making the L/N and Kamo clans pay for her college tuition, since they were so grateful to her for saving your life.
âTullia,â he said. There was a slight measure of affection in his voice when he said her name, as if she were his daughter, not you. âIt seems the L/Ns owe you a greater debt than we had first realized.â
âWhat?â she said. âI donât know if I plan on going to grad school yet, but if I ever do, Iâll definitely contact youâŚthough I donât really know what youâre thankful for this time.â
âYouâve given that girl the power to heal as well as fight,â he said. âShe so stubbornly insisted on fighting, but at least this way, our familyâs legacy isnât entirely lost with her.â
âThatâs Y/Nâs accomplishment, though,â Tullia said. âYou should do something nice for her, for a change.â
Your father turned to look at you. You raised your chin at him, waiting for him to say something cruel, something demeaning â but he only nodded at you in acknowledgement.
âYes, maybe thatâs true,â he said. âYour mother asked about your health, by the way. Y/N. Should I tell her youâre well?â
âI doubt it matters to you whether I am or am not,â you said. Your father swallowed.
âYour mother asked,â he repeated. âYou do not have to respond. Iâll tell her youâre the same as always.â
âTell her Gojo misses her, too,â you dared to say. You knew your friendship with Gojo was one that aggravated the higher ups, and your father was no exception; Gojo was the one man who could protect you from their whims, the one person who you were unequivocally safe around. As long as you were with him, they could not punish you. They could not force you to be the dutiful little daughter that you had been for much of your life.
âGojo is not someone who has any right to miss her,â your father said shortly.
âHe loves her, too,â you said. âProbably more than you do. She cared for him when he was young, Iâm told. Why shouldnât he miss her?â
âY/N, maybe you shouldnâtâŚâ Tullia said, trailing off weakly. You knew it was different for her. You knew she still held some hope that she might be able to mend the relationship between her and her own parents, but it was not like that for you. You had long ago given up on your father. You had long ago realized what the nature of that relationship was.
The man who all but sold you off to the Kamos. The man who had refused to let you attend school. The man who had refused to heal Yuta. But he was also the man who had protected you from Naoya Zeninâs offers of marriage. He was also the man who had believed in you when you had to fight Todo. It had such a contrary nature, this relationship, but it was only after becoming friends with Maki did you realize that this was not how it was supposed to be.
People who loved one another were not contrary about it. You looked at Maki, sitting at your desk and pretending to write, and that gave you all of the strength that you needed.
âFather,â you said. âWas there a purpose to your visit, beyond just sending my motherâs regards and saying hello to Tullia? If thatâs the case, then please hurry up and get on with it, because I am busy. Gojo and I are going on an overseas mission, so I need to finish packing.â
âYes, thatâs right. I heard the news,â he said.
âThe news,â you repeated.
âThat Sukuna has found a vessel, and that you were involved in saving him. You know the history our family has with that creature, donât you? Please stay well away from him. Itâs likely he resents your namesake for the role she played in his defeat,â he said.
âItâs not like I was planning on befriending Sukuna himself,â you said. âItâs like that, by the way. He does feel something strange about the entire situation; he was adamant that he could not kill me when we met the first time.â
âWhat?â your father said, eyebrows shooting up in surprise. âCouldnât kill you?â
âIâm as confused as you are, so donât question me further. I donât know why heâd say something like that,â you said.
âHe must need you for something,â your father said. He was a practical man like that, always coming up with solutions and whatnot. âThink of what purpose a being like Sukuna could have for you, and youâll have your answer.â
âI hardly know!â you said.
âOf course it wonât be that obvious!â he said, his temper flaring before he calmed it again. âIt might take some time for you to understand what purpose you have for him, but I can assure you that whatever it is is most likely nefarious, so please donât be fooled by his so-called kindness.â
âIt wouldnât describe it as kindness,â you said under your breath. âWas that all? Basic advice? I wouldâve done all of that anyways, so itâs not like youâve offered me anything profound by coming here. It couldâve just as easily been a text or email. A phone call, if you really missed the sound of my voice that much.â
âWeâve never discussed it in person, so I came to beg you, one last time, to give up fighting,â he said.
âWhy? I can even heal, now that Iâve made that contract with Tullia and figured out how to manipulate it to our advantage. What point would there be in giving up fighting now?â you said.
âSukuna has been reincarnated. Now that heâs found a vessel, and given what the higher ups plan on using him for, the level of curses that will appear from now on will be far beyond anything you can imagine, beyond anything any of us can imagine,â he said.
âAll the more reason for me to fight,â you said. âI donât know if you understand what it means for me to be a Grade 1 sorcerer â it means Iâm strong. It means Iâm one of the strongest sorcerers in active duty, only officially outclassed by three people: Gojo, Yuta, and Yuki Tsukumo. If the curses really will get that much stronger, then doesnât it make sense for me to continue to fight? They need all the fighters they can get ââ
âDo you think that you are special?â your father said, cutting you off. âYou are not Satoru Gojo. You are not Yuta Okkotsu. You are not Yuki Tsukumo. I will not deny that you are a gifted fighter, leagues above most of your colleagues, but you are not a special grade sorcerer. There can be people to replace you. Noritoshi Kamo, Aoi Todo, Megumi Fushiguro, Toge InumakiâŚall of these people will one day stand where you stand.â
âAnd all of them are men,â you noted. âIsnât that interesting?â
âThis isnât about that,â he said. âIâm a man, and you donât see me fighting, do you? Because I understand my strengths â something which you stubbornly refuse to do! Y/N, I didnât come to belittle you, believe it or not. This is actually praise!â
âPraise!â you repeated with a laugh. There was a rustling of bedsheets as Tullia got up and went to stand by Maki, who by now had returned to her essay. Their attempt at giving you privacy. âWhat praise comes from you insulting my choice in occupation?â
âY/N!â your father said. He said your name as if you were his existenceâs biggest problem. You wished that heâd say it in a kinder way. âYou brought someone back to life. Why can you not understand what that means? You are meant to be a healer! What you did for Yuta Okkotsu has only been done once before in all of history. Itâs the kind of thing that myths are written about. You are not a healer but the healer, and yet you reject your fate!â
âI understand what you are saying,â you said.
âYou do?â he said.
âYes,â you said. âIf you compare healers to fighters, then Iâd be Gojo himself. A figure without precedent. The kind of person that changes the world just by existing. But I donât want to be that person. I donât want to change the world just by existing. I want to do something with myself! Healing kills me, father. I die every time I use the Reverse Cursed Technique. It is only through fighting that I may feel alive! I canât go back to being who I once was. Do you understand that?â
âI do,â he said. âBecause it was the same for me. And it was the same for my father before that, and for every other L/N that has possessed Dissection and Composition. All of us want to fight. How do you think it feels, seeing all of the people that come to us and knowing we can never stand by their sides? We are trapped by the constraints of who we are. We are L/Ns, and L/Ns donât fight. We heal. That is how we contribute to society. That is how we have made a name for ourselves. That is what we are meant to do. Our very bodies are designed for it. Why do you insist on escaping that?â
âThen give me a new name,â you said. âClearly, I am no L/N.â
He scoffed. âYou donât mean that. You are the example of a L/N. You cannot get away from that.â
âWhat if I go to Africa?â you said. âWill my name follow me there, too?â
âIt will follow you no matter where you go,â he said. âStop denying it. Give in to who you are meant to be.â
âFather, I canât be who you want me to be. Itâs not who I am. Wonât you accept that?â you said.
He gave you a measured look before nodding and turning away, striding towards the door and then pausing before shutting it behind him.
âI do accept it,â he said. âBut I hope you fully realize what it means.â
The door shut before you could fire back a response. You settled for swearing at the wood paneling, stomping over and locking the handle before flopping back on your bed. Your motivation to pack had suddenly vanished entirely.
âSorry you guys had to hear that,â you said. Maki and Tullia turned to me with fake smiles on their faces.
âHear what? We didnât hear anything,â Maki said.
âYes, thatâs right! We were so busy working on that essay,â Tullia said.
âYou guys donât have to lie. Itâs fine. Thatâs how itâs always been. My father and I donât get along, obviously. Heâs always wanted me to be something that Iâm not. Before, it was because I had no aptitude that I disappointed him so greatly, that I could not fulfill my destiny as another healer of the L/N clan. Now, itâs because I have so much aptitude that I frustrate him to this extent. It doesnât matter what I do. Itâll never be what he wants,â you said.
âItâs fine,â Maki said. âI get it. You all know exactly what expectations my family had for me. Obviously I didnât abide by those, so I understand what itâs like completely. You wonât find any judgment from me.â
Tullia let out a soft breath. âI donât really know what my parents want from me anymore. I thought I might figure it out one day, but I donât think I can. I donât think that anything I can do will make them proud of me. So I get it, too.â
The three of you had all disappointed your families in some way or another. You, who refused to follow the path set out for you. Maki, who wasnât even capable of following that path. And Tullia, who did not know what the path was in the first place. Things were different for people like you. People who had to fight in order to prove their worth instead of being given respect automatically. It was something that none of your peers would ever understand â because at least they had been given the grace of being born male. You all didnât even get that much.
âHave a safe flight!â Maki said as she put your bag in the back of Ijichiâs car, alongside Gojoâs. âTell Yuta we all said hi.â
This was said in a whisper; no one else knew that you and Gojo were going to check in on Yuta. The official reason was that he was going on a mission overseas, and you were accompanying Gojo as a part of your training. Although Kusakabe was your teacher now, you were technically ranked the same as him, so the higher ups had allowed for Gojo to continue to work as your instructor when situations arose that necessitated it.
âI will,â you said. âIâm sure heâll be happy to hear it.â
âSee you soon, Y/N! Just text me if you need to heal anyone,â Tullia said.
âThereâll be a time difference. What if youâre asleep?â you said.
âIf you need me, Iâll wake up,â she said. âPinky swear.â
You smiled at her, wrapping her in a hug, feeling the way your hearts beat in tandem. Tullia, who had given you half of yourself back; who would you be without her? She had saved your life. She had given you everything so that you could be happy, so that you could continue to fight. And here she was, continuing to sacrifice for your sake.
âRemind me to do something good for you once things settle down,â you said.
âIâll get a PhD,â she said. âYou can pay for that one.â
âAlright,â you said with a laugh. âAlright, Tullia. Iâll do that.â
The flight was not as long as you had imagined. You slept for most of it, Gojo turning off his Infinity so that you could use his shoulder as a pillow. He explained that flying got him too wired to rest, but he was glad that it was not like that for you. You were just glad that his shoulders were broad enough that you could comfortably rest against them until he shook you awake for the landing.
âYuta doesnât know youâre coming, by the way,â Gojo informed you.
âWhy not?â you said.
âI thought it would be fun to surprise him!â Gojo said. You were about to argue, but then you decided that he was kind of right. You hadnât mentioned your visit to Yuta, since you assumed Gojo had told him already, but you were suddenly glad you hadnât, if only because imagining the look on his face when he finally saw you was incredibly satisfying.
âOkay,â you said.
âThatâs it? I thought for sure youâd be annoyed,â Gojo said.
âI considered it, but to be honest, you were kind of right this time,â you said.
âAlright!â Gojo said, pumping his fist in the air. âIâll let you guys have your reunion while I catch up with Miguel, so be sure to report all of the details of how it goes, okay?â
âMaybe not all of them,â you said. âBut sure, Iâll tell you what most of it is like.â
âGood enough! Now go have fun,â Gojo said. âHave him take you around the city. You guys deserve some time off.â
âIsnât it Miguelâs decision if Yuta gets time off?â you said. Gojo waved you off dismissively.
âIâll convince him, so donât worry about a thing! Seriously, you deserve to spend some time just relaxing with him. Itâs a chance that you wonât get very often in your life, so take advantage of it,â he said.
âYouâre right. Thank you, Gojo,â you said.
âYeah, yeah. Anytime,â he said. âNow go.â
As the two of you rounded the corner, you saw him. He looked different now, but also the same: he was taller, his face narrower and his shoulders wider, a wrapped katana strapped across his back. His hair had grown longer, too, neatly parted now instead of falling in his face haphazardly. But his eyes were the same, though they had not landed upon you yet, still the exact shade of poison blue that you had grown to admire so dearly in the time that you had known him.
Seeing him again was like a great burden being knocked off your shoulders. It was as if you had not been able to fully breathe, and now you were inhaling great lungfuls of air to make up for the lack. To your surprise, something hot scalded your cheeks the longer you stared at him, and you realized you were actually crying.
âYuta,â you whispered, taking one step and then finding that you were unable to contain yourself. Breaking into a run, you sprinted towards him, wanting for the distance to grow smaller in as quick of a time as possible. âYuta!â
He turned as if he could not quite believe what he was hearing. You saw his forehead scrunch into an endearing expression as he mouthed something that you were certain was your name. When his eyes landed on you, they lit up, his entire countenance transforming from the gloomy man that scared off passersby to one who was so delighted he was all but glowing from it.
âY/N!â he shouted, opening his arms. Without hesitation, you threw your bag to the side and flung yourself into them, wrapping your own around his torso and clenching the white fabric of his jacket in your fists.
He held you so tightly that you mightâve shattered if you were a lesser being. In fact, he held you like you had already shattered and he was the only thing that could keep you together, and maybe that really was the truth. For a while, you two stayed like that, clinging to one another in the middle of the airport, and then he finally let go, grabbing your face â however, this was gently done, softly, though the calluses of his fingers were rough against your cheeks and jaw.
âAre you really here?â he said.
âYes,â you said, still a little in awe at all, too. âIâm really here.â
âThank goodness. Iâve missed you more than I could bear,â he said.
âIâve missed you, too,â you said. âSo much.â
âYou know,â he murmured. âHere in Africa, the higher ups donât have any power.â
âIs that so?â you said.
âMhm. They donât have eyes everywhere, the way they do back home,â he said. âIn fact, they donât have eyes anywhere.â
âConvenient,â you said.
âYou think?â he said.
âYes. Iâd rather not delay doing this, after all,â you said. With that, you allowed your hands to tangle in his hair, tugging on it, pulling him to your mouth so that he could fit his own against it. You stayed there for you didnât know how long, savoring the taste of being reunited, relearning how each other worked, what had changed and what hadnât in the time that had passed since you had met last.
It was when you pulled apart, each gasping for breath, that you had the sudden, horrible sense that you were being watched. Spinning around and ignoring the sound of surprise Yuta made, you glared at the two men very conspicuously trying to not look at you.
âGojo!â you shouted, jabbing your finger at him. âStop doing that! Itâs so weird that you always show up at these moments!â
âDonât blame this on me! I tried to tell Miguel to leave you guys alone, but he insisted we get a move on to his village before anyone got wind of us being associated with him!â Gojo said, holding his hands in the air as if to proclaim innocence.
âSorry,â Miguel said, clearing his throat, obviously embarrassed. âI did not realize that you and my student were so, ahâŚclose.â
âWell!â you said. âTo be honest, thatâs probably how a normal teacher-student relationship should be like. Gojo is just a meddling idiot who doesnât understand that!â
âYour mother was my babysitter,â Gojo said. âI think we crossed the line of ânormal teacher-student relationshipâ several years ago!â
âYou guys havenât changed a bit,â Yuta said, holding your bag in one hand and using his other interlock his fingers with your own. âMiguel, sir, with your permission, can I take the day to show Y/N around the village once we return?â
Miguel distinctly avoided eye contact with both of you when he responded. âGo ahead, kid. I doubt youâll get much training done while sheâs here, anyways, so you might as well make the most of it.â
Gojo gave you a discreet thumbs up while Yuta and Miguel were distracted. You took the opportunity to flip him off before returning your attention to Yuta, leaning against his arm as you walked towards Miguelâs car.
âHow have things been back home?â he said.
âUgh. The same but also different,â you said. He frowned.
âAre the higher ups giving you trouble again?â he said.
âWhen are they not?â you said rhetorically. âMy father came to see me. He thinks I should give up fighting.â
âStill? I thought you made it clear that you didnât want to do that,â he said.
âOh, right,â you realized. âYou havenât heard whatâs been going on yet.â
You quickly summed up the most important events that had occurred since Yuta had left: this discovery of the contract you and Tullia had formed, Itadori manifesting as Sukunaâs vessel, Sukunaâs cryptic words about how he could not kill you. With every word you spoke, the crease between his brows deepened, until you finished and he was just about fully scowling.
âOf all the times to send me out of the country, it had to be right before all of this happened,â he said. âWhy would you ask Itadori to let Sukuna out? What if you had gotten hurt?â
âLike I said, I knew Gojo was on his way, and in the meantime, if it came down to it, I had Megumi there to help me,â you said. This obviously did nothing to alleviate his concerns; if anything, it worsened them, as he gave you a look.
âMegumi is only a first year,â he said. âHeâs nowhere near ready to fight Sukuna, even if he only has one fingerâs worth of power.â
âYou were only a first year, and already doing so much,â you said, poking him in the side as a reminder. He rolled his eyes.
âYes, but Megumi isnât me,â he said.
âHe definitely isnât,â you said. âThatâs not a question. Itâs why I got involved in the first place; without my intervention, thereâs no telling what mightâve happened. He wasnât meant to fight Sukuna; he was there to aid me, if things came to it, until Gojo could arrive. But things didnât come to it, and I couldâve handled the situation completely easily, even if Sukuna didnât have that weird aversion to fighting me.â
âI didnât doubt that,â he said.
âAre you sure?â you said.
âItâs Megumi I was doubting!â he said hotly. âNot you. I was just worried about you. After all, everyone knows about Gojoâs track record of only showing up once all the actionâs over.â
âThatâs true,â you allowed. âYouâll not believe it, but thatâs what happened that night, tooâŚâ
Yuta snorted. âNo surprise.â
âAnyways, everything worked out fine. I didnât get hurt, Megumi didnât have to fight Sukuna, and Itadori proved his worth as a vessel. Overall, it was a success,â you said.
âTheyâre not going to execute Itadori?â Yuta said.
âThey tried. Megumi didnât want it to happen like that, so he asked Gojo to stop it. I showed my support,â you said.
âWhy?â he said. âYou of all people would know how dangerous Sukuna is.â
âOf course, but the situation reminded me too much of yours. If the higher ups had executed you that night, I donât know what I wouldâve done,â you said, grasping him tighter at just the thought. What would your life be like if you had lost Yuta that night? If you had never known him in the first place, if he had never been yours to lose at all? Where would you even be now? Still a disappointment, probably, but of a different sort.
He exhaled through his nose. âYouâre right.â
âHeâs a very kind person. Sukunaâs vessel, I mean; heâs genuinely very sweet. Itâs odd to think that such a terrible creature lives inside of him,â you said.
âIt seems like youâve been making a lot of friends,â he noted. âWith Megumi and Itadori and all.â
âI guess so, but I still spend most of my time with Maki and Tullia,â you said. âThose two are just my underclassmen, so I have to look out for them as best I can. Itâs kind of like how Gojo is with us, except unlike Gojo, Iâm not a little creep about it.â
âHe is so odd,â Yuta agreed. âNo wonder heâs still single.â
âVery true,â you said. âBut enough talking about this kind of thing. We have souvenirs to buy!â
âSouvenirs?â he said. You nodded.
âYes, Maki and Tullia asked for some, so I promised to bring stuff back for them,â you said. âWhere are the best shops around here?â
âIâll take you,â Yuta said fondly. âWe have to make the best of this trip, right? Iâm not about to let you go shopping by yourself.â
âUh, I wasnât planning on going by myself. In an unfortunate turn of events, I seem to have forgotten my purse at home,â you said.
âWhat a shocking plot twist, indeed,â Yuta said dryly. âItâs okay. I wouldnât have let you use it, so itâs not that unfortunate.â
âI love you,â you said.
âI know,â he said.
He still refused to say it back. He still couldnât say it back, still had that thought in his mind that it would kill you or curse you or something if he did, but you didnât mind. You understood his reasoning, even if you found it a little superstitious, and you understood that it didnât mean anything in the long run, didnât mean he cared for you any less.
And when he squeezed your hand in a secret, quiet response, undercutting his seemingly callous words, you understood that, too.
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I'm Always Yours
Summary: It's been 6 months since you collapsed. Some begin to believe you'll never wake again, but Gojo can't accept that. He won't.
Genre: Angst, romance
Characters: Gojo Satoru x female reader
tag: @demonboyssss
Sequel to He's Mine
It's been 6 months. The longest you've ever been unconscious.
Everyone assumed you were like Maki, someone who couldn't use a cursed energy. But you could, the only cost was that you could only use it once, with your enemy's guaranteed death.. and no guarantee of your life.
You first discovered it when Gojo was badly hurt, you were out for a month. Like other cursed energies, it seems to be tied to your emotions.
"Good morning, y/n." The sweet voice greeted.
He brought lavenders with him this time. "I heard lavenders are good this time of the year.. and have healing properties."
"Hey.." Gojo sat next to you and brushed your hair with his hand.
"Don't you think it's time to wake up?"
--
(flashback)
"Y/N!!!!" Gojo's scream was the only thing heard after the bright white light disappeared.
Itadori and Fushiguro saw your body fall to the ground and went to get you. The enemy was dead, that's for sure, but Gojo was only concerned about you.
"Get her to Shoko. Now!"
--
"Flowers again, today?"
Gojo smiled at the old lady taking care of the shop. "Yeah.. I'll try something different this time."
"Did you get into a fight again?" She shook her head.
"..Something like that."
She chuckled and started making him a special bouquet. "Your girlfriend must be lucky to have you, then. Such a loving boyfriend. She should just forgive you already."
Gojo paid for the flowers and smiled bitterly. "I keep telling her that.. but she won't even look at me."
.
Gojo had a new routine now.
He'd visit you everyday, sit next to your helpless laying body, he'd read you books, talk to you about what he'd do that day, and leave, and come back to tell you how it went. Whenever he's in your room, he always made sure to take his blindfold off, because the last time you were unconscious, his blue eyes were the first thing you saw and you recognized him immediately.
People were worried, both for you and Gojo's sake. He still smiled, still did his responsibilities flawlessly, but everyone could tell there was a piece of him that's missing.
"âand you wouldn't believe what Yuuji did today," Gojo chuckled, holding your hand as he talked to you.. or at you.
"Gojo."
Shoko entered the room, a sullen look on her face.
Gojo knew why she was there.. and why his three students are outside peeking. "You can tell the kids to come in, I know they're there."
Shoko glanced at them before she sighed. "We're just here because-"
"I know why you're here." He said, "I'm sorry, but I don't feel like going out tonight."
"Gojo-"
"Shoko-"
"It's been 6 months, Gojo." Shoko sighed. "You can't keep doing this.. She's not.. She won't-"
Gojo glared at her. "You don't know that. None of you do."
"So what if it's been 6 months? So what?!" Gojo's voice started to raise. "Her heart's beating, isn't it?! She's alive, isn't she?!"
"Satoru..."
Gojo's hands were on either side of your head, his tears dropped to your cheeks. "All she needs to do.. is to open her eyes."
"Open your eyes, y/n."
"Open your eyes."
"Open your eyes!"
"Open your eyes, dammit! Fuck!" Gojo cursed repeatedly and threw the chair to a wall far away.
Itadori, Fushiguro, Shoko, and Nobara could only watch as the platinum haired man lost himself. No one had ever seen Gojo lose his temper like that. Whether he was grieving or frustrated, they wished they could take away his pain.
--
(flashback)
"y/n~" Gojo chased after the girl who was clearly pissed at him.
"What?"
He pouted and put an arm around her. "Don't be angry, I was just messing around."
"I'm-" You lowered your voice, "I'm not angry."
"You sure?"
"Yes."
"100%?"
"..Yes, Gojo."
"Completely certain?"
"Yes..."
"100000%?"
"Y.e.s."
"So you're happy?"
"Yes!"
"So can I hold your hand?"
"Yes!"
"Yay!" Gojo laced your hands together and walked with you.
"No wait-" You sighed, "Fine, you got me."
Unknowingly to Gojo, a blush crept up your cheeks and you were trying your best not to smile. But Gojo's grip wasn't even that strong â he knew that you were also not letting go.
"Hey, y/n."
"What is it again?" You rolled your eyes.
Gojo smiled. "I love you."
You stopped in your tracks for a minute to control yourself before punching his arm. "G-Get over it, jerk."
"Whaaat? It's true! I love you!"
"Shut- Shut up!"
--
It was only Gojo and you again.
The room was dimly lit, but he could still see how beautiful you were. He put his head by your heart, counting, and feeling your heartbeat.
"There's so many things I haven't told you.." Gojo sighed, "So please.. stay with me, alright?"
Gojo listened to your heartbeat, hoping for a beat to skip as some sort of answer. "I love you, y/n. And I'm always yours."
At some point, he fell asleep there to the rhythm of your heartbeat.
.
Gojo felt the sun pierce his eye in the morning. He realized he had fallen asleep on you last night and reached for your hand, but it wasn't at its place. Gojo moved his head and noticed a weight on his head, it was a handâyour hand.
There was fear in his thoughts, but also hope. He moved his head to look up, and he was greeted by the most beautiful smile he's ever seen.
"I love you too, Satoru."
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Danganronpa V3 Commentary: Part 4.1
Be aware that this is not a blind playthrough! This will contain spoilers for the entire game, regardless of the part of the game Iâm commenting on. A major focus of this commentary is to talk about all of the hints and foreshadowing of events that are going to happen and facts that are going to be revealed in the future of the story. It is emphatically not intended for someone experiencing the game for their first time.
Last time, as chapter 3 concluded, Kiyo was the worst and I yelled a lot, Kokichi accidentally did something nice for once in the process of deflecting his own issues, Himiko had emotions and so did everyone else, and the out-universe writers quite rightly decided that Kaitoâs character arc was important enough to be the focus of the chapter-end stinger.
Now that weâre done with the weakest chapter of the game, we can move on to one of the best chapters of the game! Yay. I hope youâve been looking forward to this, because I sure have.
This opening stinger with Rantaroâs video message to himself is even more obviously a thing for the out-universe audienceâs eyes only. The in-universe audience already knows exactly what Rantaroâs deal is, so this wouldnât be interesting for them at all.
Rantaro: Â âYou wanted this killing game, so you have to win no matter what.â
This is super misleading. I imagine the writers worded it this way for the sense of mystery it brings to seeing the scene here without context â making people think maybe Rantaro was the mastermind or otherwise a bad person who was only out for himself. But since thatâs not the case, this really isnât how youâd think heâd actually phrase things from his point of view. He didnât want this killing game â he volunteered to sacrifice himself so two of his friends from season 52 could survive and escape, and at the time he presumably expected his âpunishmentâ to be death rather than having to do it all over again. And he certainly didnât want to âwinâ in the sense of âbecome blackened and get away with itâ that this seems to be implying. He presumably wanted to end the killing game, especially upon having learned that this is an endless cycle, which isnât something most people would describe as âwinningâ.
Live and Let the Languid World Live
I think I sort of get what this titleâs relevance is, but maybe the Japanese title, âLiving in a Lazy Parallel Worldâ, gets it across a little better. It gives the sense of there being a separate world in which one can remain blissfully oblivious to the horrible reality of the situation, which fits in multiple ways. Thereâs their life in the academy versus the supposedly-ruined outside world, thereâs Miuâs claim that the Virtual World is a peaceful world with no killing game, and then thereâs the way that Gonta loses his memories as he leaves the Virtual World and remains oblivious to what he did in there.
At breakfast in the morning, one of the few people managing to stay upbeat is Kaito. Naturally heâs completely fine and definitely didnât realise he was dying last night.
Himiko: Â âHeeey! You guys have no energy! You need to look alive! Youâre all still teenagers!â
Himiko is also managing to be upbeat! Sheâs even taking a leaf out of Kaitoâs book and trying to boost everyone elseâs spirits too!
Maki:  ââŚWeird. I thought youâd be the most depressed out of all of us.â
Himiko:  âOf course⌠Iâm depressed. This is the most depressed Iâve been in all my 200 million years. [âŚ] But⌠being depressed wonât help those who died rest in peaceâŚâ
And I appreciate that acknowledgement that she is still horribly depressed. Thatâs not going to magically go away just because sheâs been inspired by Tenko. Sheâs just trying as hard as she can to fight it now, which is really admirable.
Himiko:  âS-So anyway⌠Please⌠t-take care of the⌠new meâŚâ
Kaito: Â âYouâre out of breath already. Youâre going full speed right out of the gate!â
Like you wouldnât do the same, Kaito? Like you arenât doing that right now, considering whatâs going on with you?
Kokichi:  âUghhh⌠but now that thereâs less people, I might⌠be the next victim⌠Woooow, so exciting! But I definitely donât wanna die!â
Kokichiâs doing his usual shtick of pretending this game is totally fun for him. Since this is still before he sees the outside world, I donât think this has any greater meaning to it than usual.
Then again, heâs also added more to the graffiti, meaning the âclaim to be the mastermindâ part of his plan is already in progress. So really, seeing the outside world isnât going to change his intentions that significantly at all.
(I have a lot to say about Kokichiâs intentions in this chapter, but Iâll wait until we get to the part where he actually has seen the outside world.)
Tsumugi: Â âWh-What about this world? What does it mean? Is there some crazy story going on?â
This is Tsumugiâs response to the graffiti possibly saying âthis worldâ. It sure is telling that sheâd think of whatâs going on outside as a story, because thatâs all it is to her.
Maki has started using her catchphrase at Shuichi in front of everyone else, by the way! Sheâs opening up more and starting to feel like the others arenât going to think she really wants to kill anyone either. Progress.
Kokichi: Â âBut Gonta stumbled onto the writing by coincidence, right? If it was a prank, they wouldâve done it in a more obvious spot, not in the grass.â
Kokichiâs saying this to try and support the idea that the writing isnât him, but this is misleading. The original message wasnât his, and itâs only after Gonta found that and pointed it out to everyone that he started adding to it, since he knew at that point that people would definitely pay attention and notice his additions.
Kokichi: Â âThereâs nothing more depressing than an unnoticed prank.â
This says a lot about Kokichiâs approach to things in general. He doesnât just want to mess with people â he likes it best when they know theyâve been messed with and that it was him who messed with them. Keep this in mind in chapter 5 when Iâll be talking about the reasons his plan fails, because this is at the root of another one of them.
Kaito:  âWell, I donât really get it, but⌠Maybe itâs some kinda clue. Thanks for the report, Gonta.â
Another interesting observation about Kaito: he very rarely directly thanks anyone. Which might seem strange when heâs all about encouraging people and letting them know how much good theyâve been doing. But it makes sense when you consider that specifically thanking someone is a bit more personal to Kaito himself and comes with the implication that he needed their help, which is of course something Kaito does not like to admit to. This instance here is an exception to that probably mostly because heâs just thanking Gonta on behalf of everyone, so it doesnât come across as if he specifically needed anything.
Gonta:  ââŚGonta just glad to help. Gonta want to help, even little. Tell Gonta if you need help with something, okay?â
But itâs also likely because Kaito knows how much Gonta needs to hear that and to feel useful and like heâs helped someone out right now, more than ever before.
(And Gontaâs not the only one. Which might be why Kaito is so aware of that.)
Kokichi: Â âO-kay, got it! Iâll let you know if I want you to punch someone.â
Himiko: Â âNo! You donât get to tell Gonta what to do anymore!â
Gonta:  âY-Yeah⌠Gonta learn lesson after Insect Meet and GreetâŚâ
Yeah, Gontaâs definitely never going to get manipulated into doing something bad by Kokichi ever again, right? Hnnnngh.
Monophanie:  ââŚa card key! Which just so happens to be the motive, too!â
So, uh. Letâs talk about this card key. First of all, it being a card key is super misleading, because the immediate thing I assumed when I first saw it was that itâs the key to the hidden door in the library. Thatâs the only door we know of with a card reader, so thatâs the obvious assumption to make. But none of the characters comment on this at all, not even Shuichi, who found the hidden door and indirectly got Kaede killed because of it. Youâd think it would have come to mind for him at least. Clearly the writers donât have anyone comment on it because they donât want the players to think itâs connected to the library door (since it isnât), but if thatâs the case then they really should have just made it a different kind of key so it wouldnât bring that to mind.
Second, we never see the place in the school that the card key actually opens. It would have helped immersion to at least show some kind of mysterious locked door that could plausibly be what Kokichi unlocks with this. As it is, from the playersâ perspective, that hidden route Kokichi finds simply doesnât exist, so we just have to use our imaginations to pretend that it totally is somewhere that we just donât get access to while playing the game, which is a little awkward. Itâs also pretty unclear how this card leads to a place from where one can see the outside world. Does it lead to the same place that the Death Road to Despair does? Is it like, a shortcut through that tunnel so that Kokichi can reach the end of it without worrying about the traps? Or is there another totally different place in the school that also shows the outside world, meaning Team Danganronpa would have had to double-up on the special effects? Itâs annoyingly unclear.
But whatâs most annoyingly unclear is how seeing the outside world is supposed to be a motive. Presumably Monokuma expected everyone to use the card key and view the outside world, right? That would have been the very opposite of a motive! Everyone would have fallen into despair and realised there was no point killing each other to escape at all, which is exactly what happens when Kokichi shows them all the outside in chapter 5 and which really annoys and bores the audience when it does happen! The only reason it functions as a motive in this chapter is because Kokichi steals the card key and keeps it to himself, and then later decides to show the motive only to Gonta to convince him to try and mercy-kill everyone, since the mercy kill plan would be meaningless if everybody had already seen outside. The part where Kokichi shares the motive with Gonta explicitly isnât Monokumaâs intended plan right now, since he has that conversation with Kokichi later where he agrees to go along with it. And I doubt he would have known Kokichi would steal the card key before anyone else could use it in the first place. Even if he predicted that as a possibility, he couldnât know for sure that Kokichi would be fast enough to swipe it and run off without getting caught, and if that didnât happen and everyone used the card key then that would have been the worst possible outcome from Monokumaâs perspective. It shouldnât be worth the risk.
Like, I love this chapter a lot for most everything that happens in it. But this initial decision of Monokuma/Tsumugiâs that sets off all of the fun stuff that happens in this chapter feels kind of contrived and illogical, and itâs a shame.
Keebo: Â âRight now, we need your skills as a detective, Shuichi.â
Shuichi:  âRight⌠in that case, let me hold onto that. Iâll look around again.â
Himiko: Â âNyeeeh, Shuichiâs grown up! Heâs become so reliable!â
Again â the job of using the objects on the mysterious items to open up new areas really does not require a detective. Kaito only gave that job to Shuichi back in chapter 2 to help make him feel useful when he was feeling down. But now thatâs just become how things are done to the point that everyoneâs forgotten they donât really need Shuichi for this, and theyâve been relying on him so much in trials (where his skills really do make a difference) that itâs just kind of extended to outside the trials as well even when itâs a lot less necessary.
(Kaito isnât here at this point, since heâs already run off after Kokichi, which is kind of a shame because I would have been interested to see how heâd respond to this.)
Gonta: Â âShuichi is so amazing. Gonta wanna be useful to everyone too.â
Aww, Gonta looks up to Shuichi and desperately wants to be as helpful as him. And heâs being so open and honest about feeling this way. (Unlike someone else.)
(Again: it is a shame that Kaito has already left the room.)
Maki: Â âDonât worry. When the time comes, weâll use your body as a meat shield.â
Gonta: Â âOkay! Gonta hope time come soon!â
Maki is probably joking (sheâs at that point in her development where sheâs starting to make jokes that still donât really sound like jokes because her delivery is too deadpan), but still, gaaah. Itâs admirable that Gontaâs willing to risk himself to protect everyone, but he should still hope that it never has to come to that, so the fact that heâs actively hoping it will is pretty fucked up. He doesnât just want to help if heâs needed, but he wants to be needed, even if that means heâll need to get himself hurt.
Opening up the new areas, Iâm starting in the courtyard with Keeboâs lab.
Keebo:  âAnyway, Shuichi⌠That black object over there looks suspicious, doesnât it?â
This goes to show that they donât actually need Shuichiâs skills as a detective at all to open up these new places and Keebo would have been able to do it himself if heâd had the mysterious items.
Since there was nothing else to examine inside Keeboâs lab, I decided to examine the monitor (which I usually never remember to do), andâŚ
Shuichi:  (These monitors are everywhere, but I donât see any cameras. How is the mastermind behind this killing game monitoring us? Or⌠are we not really being watched at all?)
An important question to ask, Shuichi! Even if he hasnât figured out like Kokichi has that this is clearly being shown to people for entertainment, there still absolutely must be cameras in order for Monokuma to know who the blackened is in each case. Unfortunately Shuichi never quite thinks this through far enough until halfway through the fifth trial.
Shuichi: Â âBut I imagine that a lot of things in here would really help you out. You should take a look.â
Keebo:  âNo⌠I do not want to be assisted by sci-fi technology.â
Congratulations, Keebo, youâve just become partially responsible for every death that happens from this point onwards. The things in his lab include a jetpack and a laser gun, which make him an equal match for all five Exisals in a fight and are able to blow a hole in the wall to let everyone escape. (Well, apparently only after Keebo modifies them to be more powerful, but since heâs the one whoâs capable of doing that, the point still stands.) If Keebo decided to use them right now, the killing game would be over in a matter of hours. The fact that heâs refusing to do so because heâs uncomfortable with sci-fi technology is not a remotely valid excuse in this situation when peopleâs lives are at stake. He should be willing to make temporary sacrifices like that for the sake of saving everyone! Itâs not like heâd have to ever use those weapons again if he didnât want to once theyâre out of here!
What the out-universe writers really should have done here to justify Keebo not using these yet is make it clear that itâs because his inner voice doesnât want him to. The only meaningful difference between now and chapter 6 is the lack of his inner voice, not any kind of character development to have become more okay with being sci-fi. The audience obviously wouldnât want him to use his weapons to bust everyone out of here in chapter 4 â they want an exciting killing game.
Shuichi: Â (It doesnât seem like Keebo is going to use this lab. Well, heâs free to do as he pleases. Nothing I can do about that.)
I mean, you could try arguing to him that he could save everybodyâs lives if he used it, Shuichi. Youâre still too passive sometimes.
Back up to the fourth floor, Tsumugi and Maki are there, which for some reason only happens if youâve already been to Keeboâs lab first, hence me doing things in this order.
Tsumugi:  âI still donât get that stuff with his sister or why he killed Angie and TenkoâŚâ
THEN WHY THE FUCK DID YOU WRITE KIYO THAT WAY.
Maki has also figured out exactly where to use the mysterious item, proving that splitting up into two groups with one item each would have been much faster than mindlessly assuming Shuichiâs the only one who can do it.
Shuichi:  (Maki has never been this cooperative with investigations before⌠She must have been serious about what she said after the trial.)
Maki:  ââŚWhat? Why are you making that gross face?â
Shuichi:  âWh-What!? Itâs not *gross* âŚis it? Iâm just happy⌠Itâs, ah, really nice that youâre working with us like this.â
Itâs really heartbreaking that Maki considers expressions like the one Shuichiâs making â expressions of caring about her as a person and considering her feelings â to be âgrossâ. Gah.
Maki: ��âWell, unlike Kaito, Iâm not just all talk. I always follow through with my decisions.â
Maki still doesnât quite properly understand Kaito. Kaito always means to follow through on his words, even if heâs not always as good at it as he wishes he was. Sheâs probably still annoyed at him skipping training last chapter because of the ghost thing.
Iâm ignoring Tsumugiâs lab for now even though itâs closer and heading to Shuichiâs first.
Shuichi: Â (This also looks like an Ultimate lab. But whose lab is it?)
Even if you canât see the icon for it on the map, itâs still clearly yours, Shuichi. None of the others left without a lab would have a door like this (except maybe Rantaro I guess). But of course Shuichi still kind of hates his talent and hasnât been remotely thinking about what a lab based around it might look like, so itâs a nice little detail that this doesnât even occur to him.
Maki: Â âBut this place doesnât match you at all. I think this lab is too good for someone like you.â
Ouch, Maki again being bluntly realistic about Shuichiâs detective skills still having room for improvement.
Shuichi: Â âThere are a bunch of files lined up. It looks like about 50 of them.â
Not just âabout fiftyâ. To be precise:
âŚthereâs exactly fifty-two of them.
Maki: Â âThe newer files have photographs, but the older ones have illustrations?â
Shuichi: Â âBut why? Are the old ones just fictional?â
Thatâs exactly what they are. Almost as if something involving murder cases which has happened fifty-two times up until now used to be fictional at the beginning and then became real.
Each one of these files contains the cases from a single season of Danganronpa.
I didnât pick up on this for the longest time â I assumed that it just included some random fictional murders in among with some real ones because why not? I didnât quite register the fact that it was specifically all of the earliest files that were fictional, nor the fact that there were exactly fifty-two. But given both of those facts, this is so, so clearly what the out-universe writers intend for this to be, and it blew my mind when I figured this out. Have I mentioned how much I love it when thereâs details like this that are deliberately hinted at but never made explicitly clear because they donât need to be as it doesnât stop them being true.
Maki: Â âThen this would make a good guideline for anyone who wants to commit murder.â
Iâm not so sure about that, since these are all murder cases where the blackened got caught. If weâre to believe chapter 6, every single game ended with hope winning, which means no blackened has ever succeeded in getting away with it. Theyâd make a good guideline of what not to do, maybe.
Shuichi:  (The first few files have only illustrations, but the others have photographs⌠Is there a reason for that?)
Oh, Shuichi, if only youâd sit down and spend longer thinking about what that reason might be.
I have to assume they kept the precise details of the overall context the murders happened in pretty vague so as to not make it obvious they all took place in a killing game just like this one. I imagine they edited the illustrated ones to make the blood red rather than pink, too, because that might have got Shuichiâs brain ticking.
We also have to assume, then, that nobody ever happened to look at file number 1. Otherwise, when they all see the Flashback Light about Hopeâs Peak in chapter 5, that would definitely raise some fucking questions.
If this werenât a killing game, Iâd be very sceptical about why an Ultimate Detectiveâs lab would need actual poisons in it. Facts about poisons, sure, and antidotes, maybe, but thereâs no need to have a whole cupboard full of the means to actually kill someone.
Shuichi:  (âŚI suppose thatâs right. Thereâs a fine line between criminal and detective.)
All it serves to do is make Shuichi feel awful about his talent again.
Shuichi:  âThe only time I can use my detective talent is after someone dies⌠A detective⌠canât save anyone. Iâm only useful after itâs already too late.â
Maybe in the real world, detectives donât usually save lives, but giving loved ones closure is still worthwhile, Shuichi! But of course he still thinks of everything in the context of that one murder case where the culprit had a sympathetic reason for doing it and hated him for figuring out the truth.
More to the point, though, in this killing game, Shuichi is absolutely explicitly saving the lives of everyone except the victim and the culprit. Sure, itâd be better if the murders didnât happen at all, but given that the murders do happen and nobody is able to stop that part, Shuichiâs talent makes him the biggest hero out of anyone here.
Maki: Â âWhy are you so upset all of a sudden? Do you want to die?â
Shuichi: Â âYouâd kill me just for that!?â
Kaito: Â âNah, I understand why Maki Roll would say that. Your face looked pretty gloomy.â
Thankfully, both Maki and Kaito realise how ridiculous it is for Shuichi to think that heâs not saving anyone in this situation and call him out on it appropriately.
(I also really like that this is the point in the conversation at which Kaito happens to show up.)
Kaito: Â âWith a face as gloomy as that, I canât believe youâre my sidekick. Be more proud of yourself, Shuichi! Everything youâve done up until now has been amazing!â
Of course it has! Of course Kaito thinks that! And he can hardly believe that Shuichi could still be self-deprecating even now when itâs so clear from where Kaitoâs standing that Shuichi has been the real hero all along.
Shuichi:  âAh⌠thanks.â
Shuichiâs response is somewhat lukewarm, like he still mostly thinks Kaito is just saying this to encourage him and doesnât quite fully believe it. No, Shuichi â Kaito absolutely means it.
Maki:  âBecause of how well you did in the class trials, people are keeping their eyes on you, Shuichi⌠The next culprit might come after you.â
So Iâve seen some people complaining that itâs unrealistic that nobody ever does try to murder Shuichi, since this is a very valid point. But it makes perfectly good sense in the context of the actual people who attempt murder. Obviously Kaede believed he wasnât the mastermind. Kirumi probably should have targeted Shuichi, but her thing was that even though she was desperate to escape, she still couldnât bring herself to directly kill anyone who actively wanted to live, which is why she targeted Ryoma. Kiyo only targets girls. Miu is an idiot who might have never had the issue of Shuichiâs prowess in trials occur to her, and even if it did, she falsely believed that Kokichi trusted her, which is why she goes for him.
Honestly, this argument about how the culprits should go for Shuichi because heâs so good in class trials is most relevant to the question of why doesnât Kokichi choose Shuichi to be his accomplice in chapter 5? Iâll talk more about that later when we get there, but suffice to say thatâs probably the biggest reason his plan is really not as clever as he thinks.
Kaito: Â âHeh, you donât need to worry about that! I wonât let anyone mess with my sidekick! Iâm gonna protect both of you! Itâs a heroâs job to protect his sidekicks!â
Kaito, meanwhile, is probably quite unnerved at the realisation that Shuichi is an even more likely target than anyone else now. Naturally, heâs going to do something about that â because, you know, itâs totally possible to make absolutely 100% sure that a particular person will not get killed. Short of designating himself Shuichiâs personal bodyguard, which heâs obviously not going to do because thatâd come across as ridiculously paranoid, thereâs⌠really no way to come close to guaranteeing that at all. But even though he has no way of knowing for sure that he can back up these words, that doesnât diminish the intent behind them one bit. Of course he wants to protect Shuichi! Of course he doesnât want to stand back and let Shuichi get killed if thereâs anything he can do about it!
Also, consider: Kaito almost certainly feels that he in particular should have been able to prevent each of the murders that have happened so far. Rantaro left Kaitoâs meeting to âgo to the bathroomâ just before getting killed, which Kaito should have realised was suspicious and at least offered to go with him for safety. Iâve made it very clear that Kaito could and should have saved Ryoma just by reaching out to him, and Iâm pretty sure he realised that himself in the end. And if heâd just been able to be his usual self last chapter, then surely heâd have done something to stop the resurrection ritual, or noticed Kiyo acting strangely, or been at the seance and noticed something off there, or something. Which is admittedly the kind of thing everyone is probably thinking in hindsight, even though really they were trying their best and couldnât have done any more than they did â but Kaito could have done more, couldnât he, if he just hadnât let something as stupid as being scared of ghosts get to him?
But this time, itâll be different! This time, heâll definitely notice whateverâs going wrong and step in to do something about it before itâs too late, especially if the person lined up to be the next victim is Shuichi!
âŚRight?
I also enjoy how he promises to protect Maki too even though she is clearly the person least in need of protection from being murdered. Kaito is trying really hard to seem like heâs being a good hero to his sidekicks.
Maki:  ââŚWhat if I end up as a future culprit?â
Kaito: Â âAre you stupid? Thatâs impossible.â
And guess what Kaito actually will end up protecting Maki from? Becoming a future culprit! He will manage to keep this promise that heâs making here! More or less. Itâs not like he directly promises that heâll prevent Maki from becoming a culprit, since he believes in her so much that he doesnât think heâll need to (I love the way says itâs impossible for her to become a culprit like itâs just obvious), but thatâs absolutely something he feels just as strongly about as preventing her from becoming a victim.
(Also, Maki still not believing in herself enough to assume that she wouldnât ever kill anyone any more. Which sheâs unfortunately right about, but still. Gah.)
Maki:  âHow⌠can you believe in people so easily?â
Because heâs Kaito, of course!
Other than still questioning why he believes in a murderer like her, I think part of Maki might be asking this for the same reason Shuichi also asked Kaito this back in chapter 2 â because sheâs starting to wish that she could also believe in people more and wants to know how it comes so easily to him.
Kaito: Â âHuh? Didnât I tell you before? I believe in people I wanna believe in. And if they betray me, it just means I made a bad call believing in them. Of course, youâre one of the people I want to believe in, Maki Roll!â
Maki:  ââŚâ
I think sheâs finally starting to accept that Kaito really is just like this â and that it is possible to be like this in general. Also, sheâs given up on protesting the nickname, so thatâs progress! Sort of.
(Also this is literally the fourth time Kaito has explained his principles about believing in people and acknowledged that he could be wrong but chooses to believe anyway; this shouldnât remotely be something that is easy to miss about him.)
Anyway, Kaito couldnât catch up to Kokichi, but he found the Flashback Light instead.
Kaito: Â âSo letâs all gather in the dining hall!â
Maki: Â âHuh? Me too?â
Of course you too, Maki! You said yourself that you want to start working together with everyone and getting them to trust you, so of course you should be at important gatherings like this!
The reason I did this lab before Tsumugiâs is that you miss out on some dialogue here if Shuichi doesnât still need to check any more places and they can just head straight to the dining hall.
Maki:  ââŚYouâre not going to check this place?â
Kaito: Â âIâll let Shuichi handle it! You got this. Right, Shuichi!?â
Kaitoâs still being so encouraging! I guess he really is okay with Shuichi continuing to be the one solely responsible for opening new areas even though it really doesnât need to be him any more. Kaito gave him that job in the first place to boost his confidence, which Shuichi doesnât need anywhere near as badly by now, but Kaitoâs still continuing to use it to boost his confidence anyway.
Maki:  ââŚYou didnât even complain. You seriously *are* his sidekick now.â
Shuichi:  (âŚI canât even argue with that.)
Aww, look at Shuichi becoming more used to the idea of being Kaitoâs sidekick (not that he ever actively protested it in the first place). And Maki still thinking the word means âsomeone who does whatever Kaito tells them toâ, when thatâs not it at all. Kaito only tells Shuichi what to do as a way of encouraging him to do things he might otherwise be hesitant to try, even if thatâs not really as necessary now as it used to be.
Tsumugi: Â âYeah, I think itâs just plain fun to become fictional characters. To become a completely different person and feel like youâre part of a different world.â
Yeah, it really must be fun to become someone who doesnât enjoy watching real people kill each other and immerse yourself in a world where the idea of real people killing each other is barbaric rather than everyoneâs idea of a good nightâs entertainment, huh.
Tsumugi: Â âDoesnât that sound interesting? Donât you want to live in a fictional world?â
Why are you asking Shuichi this? You already think he does.
Tsumugiâs lab is way bigger than it really needs to be. Someone just wanted to give herself the biggest lab, now, didnât she.
Also, in the thing at the back that keeps putting up and taking down different backdrops, one of the possible backdrops is very much a Hopeâs Peak classroom complete with Monokuma graffiti on the blackboard. Like itâs just a place sheâd want to do cosplay photoshoots in or something.
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