#like why do you want these characters to be minors so bad huh. why couldnt you of set it anywhere else

[medicasino]

the trend of grown adults in their late twenties to thirties making "adult oriented" shows featuring extremely sexualized teenage characters needs to die IMMEDIATELY i am absolutely fucking sick of it

[graffitibible]

Do you have any advice for writing or creating regularly? That’s hard for me and I’d like to get better at it.

it boils down to what works best for you personally tbh. i’ve got a system to write semi-regularly (or i did......restricted movement hours have kinda forced me to restructure that lol) and it works for me but that’s just how my brainyot works. i’m a routine-based creature so working writing into my routine was how i got myself to write semi-regularly. 

ive also had significant Brain Junk for most of my life and was gradually able to navigate how best to create in spite of that but im also like, medicated for it and the like so self-care was a factor. i couldnt create shit while i was too busy lying in a pool of my own filth having fits of paranoia about the nature of reality so i was hardly about to make myself try and create stuff when that wasnt even on my radar. 

i can share some of the things i do to keep myself writing though! like again this isn’t something that’s for sure gonna work for everybody cause everybodys wired differently but i hope some of it helps!

1. daily wordcount - i’ve mentioned this before but i have a daily wordcount that i do for my original fiction. i don’t apply the same standard to fic-writing because that risks making it an arbitrary barrier that puts too many numbers on my internal list. that being said, it’s very small. i make myself do 200 words per day. if that gets me going and writing more than that, awesome. if not, i still got a little bit done. 200 words is small, and it’s not overwhelming to catch up on if i miss a day. no matter how shitty im feeling i try to get in 200 words.

2. routine - since i’m a routine-based person by nature i basically found ways to finagle creative processes into all that. it’s not hard and fast because that kind of rigid structure makes me balk and i’m not that disciplined lol, but it’s usually something like “i have an hour-long lunch break at work and literally nothing else to do during it so i’ll write in that time period” or “i have thirty minutes of sitting by the stove making dinner so i’ll write until it’s ready”

3. momentum - or what my housemate fondly calls “The Juice.” if i have The Juice of inspiration i keep that going for as long as i can. if something’s not working for me i don’t scrap it or toss it right away. if i’m having trouble with a scene i make a note to myself and move on to a different one. example of this from my latest wip, which is part iv of mayhem

i hadnt worked out what was gonna go there and nothing was coming to me easy in the moment so i stuck the note there and kept going. my works are full of this shit. if i can’t think of a name or if there’s a statistic or a character i haven’t worked out yet i don’t wanna break my focus and momentum so i slap a note in the first draft and keep going. at a first draft stage the important thing is getting the words Out so it doesnt matter if theyre perfect. ill go back and fix them later, revise all i need to. first drafts dont need to be good, they just need to be there so i can spruce them up later.

on the flip side do not be like me and commit to this momentum so bad that you forget that you are a human being who needs to eat and consume liquids. i do that sometimes because of who i am as a person and it is a serious flaw of mine, do not be like this. sometimes getting some food in you is what you need to get The Juice flowing again and that sounds kinda gross and i am sorry

4. planning and hangups - this ones dependent on how you create. i forget where this analogy came from, but i’ve heard it said that some writers are architects who need a blueprint of where they’re going before they end up there and some writers are gardeners, who don’t need a set plan so much as they need to keep going. i’m definitely an architect - a lot of my works start out as bulletpoints of what scenes i wanna cover, what topics i wanna explore, etc. - though i have on occasion simply Written without any set destination, usually to force myself out of a creative slump. me being a big planner used to be one of the biggest barriers for me creatively because i’d spend hours agonizing over minute universe details and never start the dang story. this still happens from time to time. like heres what my organizational folder looks like wrt “pray for disaster”

that is not even all the files in there. why do i have two dictionaries. jesus. like i make these giant ass fuckin....tomes of stuff i like to keep track of, which i like to call “bibles” lol. except i could tell that getting too organized was gonna be an uphill battle with very little payoff so by the end i just made a “MISCELLANEOUS BULLSHIT” doc and for now i throw everything in there if it doesn’t fit into something like a dictionary or timeline

shit like this is why i like to just sit down and write without a clear destination in mind if i’m having writer’s block. that’s one of those things that goes hand in hand with the way i take advantage of my own momentum - if i reach a certain point where i’m just picking at details and not doing any writing i just go “ok motherfucker sit down and write shit. we will work out the details later.”

5. motivation - the ways i tend to motivate myself are weird so idk how true this is for anybody else but i’ve been writing for a pretty large part of my life. i went to college for english/creative writing and got a whole dang degree cause i still wanna make this my vocation somehow. one thing i cannot ever turn off is the writer part of my brain that’s going “oooh huh that’s not how i would’ve written that” in literally every piece of art i consume - tv, movies, books, songs, etc. sometimes that’s enough to inspire me into doing something on my own time. most of the time though if i’m feeling stumped i tend to crack open some of my personal favorite works, like books or fics that have really resonated with me, to fall in love with the art all over again. seeing the way different authors and artists do their craft helps me get in the zone of wanting to write more cause i get this nice feeling of “damn, these people really did those things with those words.....that’s fuckin amazing.....i wanna do that.” 

you do risk falling into the trap of “ugh i can’t write like them though” but that’s the beauty of writing. nobody can write the way anybody else does. ofc i can’t write like terry pratchett, only terry pratchett can write like terry pratchett, and if i compare myself to terry pratchett i’m only gonna get sad and mopey. but i can write in a way thats totally unique to me so i should not try to write like terry pratchett because that’s just impeding my own creative energy in the interest of trying to cookie-cut myself into someone else’s zone. only terry pratchett can write like terry pratchett but only i can write like zero graffitibible.

i hope that was helpful? like this is all stuff that works for me so no guarantee it’ll work for everyone else.

oh right and idk how many of yall are minors because let it be known that i do not condone underage drinking; i am an adult who occasionally will get crunk because i like to write drunk and edit sober. if you too are an adult who can legally consume alcohol feel free to write while buzzed because that is a nice way to write with zero fuckin inhibitions. i dont get blackout drunk or nothing just a little buzzed and sometimes what i write makes no sense but i am at times at my most productive at 2am while mildly buzzed. its a thing.

like again i’m not really an authority on this by any means - this is just what works for me. but if it works for you too, great!! find your zone and all that

[bigbrotherdarkness-blog]

Randy’s Answers

Dan

I’m… Dan I don’t hate you!!! Even though i looked like a bitch who took everything personally I took everything as a game move. I tried to work with you and you nominated me twice!! I just couldn’t convey myself to trust you again for the third time because i didnt want to get backstabbed again. I’m sorry you were taken out so late, you had a good game going, love you dan <3

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Dominic

1. The move that brought me to where im standing isnt the buyback. The move I did was taking a jab at the power duo of Ruthie and Ashley in final five. While I love these girls to death, at the time, I felt like I was losing Colin to them. And for me to make it to final two without stressing, I needed Jeff and Colin f3 with me. So when I won HoH, i decided to go against Colin’s wishes and make an individual move. So that meant instead of taking out Jeff (a person who would take me final 2) I took out Ashley (a person who I thought would cut me at final 4 or 3). This changed the whole dynamic for the rest of the game in a positive and negative way. The negative was that Ruthie and Colin really went to distrust me, while the positive was that I gained Jeff’s total trust, explaining why I’m in final 2 right now since he didn’t cut me final 3. 2. The people who deserve it the most to be honest are Ruthie and Colin. It’s not because I was aligned with them for most of the game, it was because they just played so damn well. Me and Colin always talked about game moves before executing them. While Ruthie had us all under her spell until I tried to expose her in final 5!! 3. Dan: Where is the love? Dominic: Dog days are over Jordan: Cough syrup Chrissa: Animal Ned: Marry The Night Elijah: Problem Ashley: ABC Ruthie: Candyman Colin: Teenage Dream

-------------------------- Jordan

Yall really aint leaving me any hair after these questions huh. I guess the only fake thing I didnt do was breathe, and thats borderline! To answer your question honestly, I wasn’t really that fake to anybody. I told Ruthie i was evicting her when it was her against Ned, I told Dan ahead of time that I would evict him if it ties, etc.. I love you all as individuals so i really didnt go behind anybody’s backs in this game to the point it would be called fake. --------------------------

Ned

I have done a lot of things that make me think I should deserve to win. One of these things is that, when compared to Jeff, I actually I had to work hard to get what I wanted. I wasn’t blessed with many premades, I was cursed with a preexisting enemies who already wanted me out . When I was nominated week 1 I knew my rat ass would have to play hard in order to make it as far as I could. So that lead to me to making alliances with some of the most active people in the house at the time, Chrissa, Colin, & Darian. I also started making underground relationships with you and also with Jeff and Ruthie. I was well aligned with mostly everybody in the house. And when I came back into the house, everything was practically handed to me.    Sure it looks bad that I was evicted, but it just proves my statement more that I had to work hard to get what I want. All that hard work before my eviction, paid back when I got back into the house. The alliances I left in prejury got back together and became even stronger. The wishy washy alliance that included Colin, Chrissa, Ashley, Ruthie, Andrew, and me, then became the alliance (without andrew, sorry bud) that ran the first part of jury when I came back. The alliance gave what I wanted, to get Dan and Dominic out.    Another reason I deserve to win this game is because of my strong ass social game. When the game started I was always talking, I never left the housechat dry whenever I spoke in it. I also sparked activity within the house when I did random ass housecalls, in which were also so much and led people like Colin to trust me and work with for practically the whole game! I had a shit ton of alliances, but even though most of them were kind of a hoax, they still took me farther one week at a time. I deserve this over Jeff 100% because jeff hasn’t been the most active houseguest, i was. Jeff didn’t win the most competitions in this game, I did (a whopping 2 hohs and 3 povs). I deserve it over Jeff because I stuck my neck out every week and gave it a 100%, while Jeff was nowhere to be found, hiding in the Dark Rooms, waiting to start playing (and just riding coattails) when it hit final 5. --------------------------

Chrissa

without talking in circles (read the other answers!) im going to bring up another reason on why i deserve to win.

Compare me to Jeff, Jeff lacks one thing i had throughout this whole entire game. a backbone.most of the moves i made, mostly everybody was affected, that led to pressure on me from other people and i had the will to keep my game the way i wanted to play it. when i evicted ashley in the tiebreaker i had to endure the pressure exerted from colin and ruthie. when I evicted Dan in the tiebreaker i had to endure the pressure from Dan and Dominic.

Jeff on the other does not deserve to win because he lacked a backbone. He hid in dark rooms for literally the whole entire game, he didnt take any chances. Maybe if he went in and got prizes I would cut him some slack. But he literally picked safety because he wanted to play this game safe. Its not hard to be a social player in an online reality game, anybody can make final 4 with just pming people every week. It is hard to make game moves and not leave the house. Which is what i did, from week 2 when I won a prize from the puzzles to final 4 when i cut ruthie.

I deserve it over Jeff because my gameplay is a harder game to play. Jeff will call himself a “floater” or “manipulator” but the only person he is facading is himself. He didnt take any real risks (or risks as heavy as mine) in his visible or “underground” gameplay. Me on the other hand? I played the hardest big brother strategy, comp threat social queen. And i still made final 2, while Jeff has done two things: evict Colin & CoHoH with Ashley. --------------------------

Elijah

yeehaw 🐴🐎🍂 --------------------------

Ashley

My biggest regret in this game was not using power of veto during the double! Me and Colin had this expert strategy to use our povs and make a big game move. However I think it was either you or Ruthie (probably BOTH!!) who had us so convinced that we thought Chrissa would stay. (Im so sorry Chrissa aa!! <3)

The person I originally wanted to take final 2 was Colin. We had a final two since day one, and even though I made other final 2 deals with Jeff and Ned, Colin’s was really special because he did so much for me. I won’t lie, I wouldn’t of minded losing to Colin in final 2, but since I lost my  best ally in final 3 what do i have to lose?? I believe that if I won part 2, it would’ve been me and Colin in the house still.

I don’t want to talk in circles about my gameplay (please go read the other answers!). My strategy makes me deserving because I played Big Brother the way you should play it. Cutthroat without many regrets. If I wanted to lose this game, I wouldn’t of won the prejury buyback. If I wanted to lose this game, I wouldn’t of won the most competitions in this season (2 HoHs, 3 PoVS). I played really socially before and after my eviction, I had alliances with the whole house excluding Dan Dominic and Jordan. I think I should win because the moves I made really changed the course of this game, when I came back it was a house divided (the 4 to 4 vote tie) half was with Dan, the other half wasnt! When I evicted Dan, everybody knew I didn’t come to play games, so mostly everybody became submissive. The people who were with Dan like Elijah and Jeff, then came to go against Dominic and Jordan because they wanted to convey themselves as allies and didnt want to gain attraction voting in the minority. I think it is impressive that the first three Jury evictions went the way I wanted them to. Jeff didn’t have that much control over this game, he wasn’t a puppet master, he didnt make any visible game moves that altered the course of this game. Every game move I did make, is the reason I’m here in final 2, and the reason why I should win because Jeff wasn’t making visible game moves, and probably not any impressive “underground” game moves either.

The person I really hated seeing the most go was Ruthie, like I won’t lie I cried after Ruthie got evicted. I know that seems ironic since I voted her out, it was just because I couldnt trust her if she would take me final 3 over Colin, somebody whom she has been loyal to. I hated seeing Ruthie go because she is literally a messanger sent by God. She worked so hard in this game while always being so damn happy! She made this game active, while always making everybody laugh in the houseguests sechat. I hated seeing such a great character like Ruthie leave (even though I would’ve loved for her to win over me), but I needed to separate my personal emotions from my gameplay. --------------------------

Ruthie

I was most loyal to Colin of course, from day 1 to the day he got evicted. I knew that he would end up hating me at the end of the game, but he was just so nice to me and shit that I didn’t care if he hated me. Me and Colin made a lot of game moves together (probably half the game moves of the season). We always strategized and thought about the different possibilities that I knew he was my strongest and wokest ally.  The reason he isn’t here is 50% Jeff cut him and 50% that I didn’t win part 2. I truly feel like if I had won part 2, no matter who won part 3, it would be me and colin answering these questions.

Ok yall been scalping me now its time to return the favor!!

Dan: A bad thing about your gameplay was that you knew how cut throat I played (meangirlsbb) but you still came after me! You probably would’ve made it here if you got on my good side! But at least you had the balls to go straight forward to take me out prejury!

Dominic: You kept on evicting me every chance you got and i HaD ENOUGH! oh FISH aLLy!!! You did play well socially since you finessed the shit out of me and colin and stayed week 2.

Jordan: You can’t insult a gameplay if a gameplay doesnt exist. Just Kidding, but your biggest miss steak was aligning (or making it look like) with the minority of the house. You were playing under the radar and probably aligned yourself with bigger targets in the game!

Chrissa: You just need to win one COMPETITION chrissa, and you’ll make f6 or higher in every game you play in!!! But you were literally the most active houseguest in that housechat, always responding and making conversation

Ned: I felt like you were holding back on winning competitions?? Its just that you won week three pov with ease. However I think that helped you because you were a final nom against big players (Darian, Kaelan) and you got to escape eviction because of that!

Elijah: ur a cracked ass FLOATER. But you made that up with your Charisma Uniqueness Nerve and Talent.

Ashley: I think you and Colin would be here right now if you didn’t use power of veto on Ruthie : \\ however your HoHs were so fucking strategic that I had troubles finding out what your intentions were until it was too late.

Ruthie: YOU WERE SCAMMING EVERYBODY RUTHIE!!! But i mean I was too so who am i to talk am i right??? A good thing about your game was that you played socially and were always aligned with the right people at the right time, keeping yourself under the radar.

Colin: i guess you shouldnt of trusted me?? but you stuck your neck out for me and still played an individual gameplay --------------------------

Colin

answered that in Dominic's question fksjdk so instead of repeating what I said to him. I want to give a rebuttal to all the things you pointed out. I’m not saying i played clean, when you make moves you make enemies.

The real reason i randomly called you to talk game was because i needed a different perspective. The way i think of game moves is the way people brain storm. I spew out a bunch of shit until a good idea comes out. Thanks to you talking to me, the game moves i made were thought out and the repercussion wasnt as bad.

If y’all feel backstabbed, you really shouldnt. Every eviction, i either told people or people already knew that i was evicting them. I was just playing for myself and not for y’all. In the grand scheme of things i was playing for me. I did what I had to do to make final 2, and i did exactly that. I hope yall aren’t too mad at me, and realize that I didnt play to lose. I just came to play dark in a game called big brother darkness, i’ve been playing big brother. I hope the jury knows that i dont hate any of yall personally and everything i did was to further myself to final 2. And here i am.