#literally sick to my stomach rn ughhhh

[guinevereslancelot]

the horrors are horroringggg

[videostak]

got lucky 2day cause my dad seems in a p good mode whoo :) and me and my siser talked abt what we would say if he asks abt the trash can more. cause we threw it out cause it was way too maggot infested but more trash bagss are on top of it so he cant see the can in the trash so yeas. but like he would be absolutely livid if he learned we had maggots that bad lol. like he always talks abt how much he hates how the house is a mess and like that would probably amke him wanna kill himself or smthn. it makes me so depressed toooo like ugh those maggots dont even kno how that happened. i throw out the trash regularly and it was so much u could literally hear them clearly all moving and squirming in a big ass trash bag thinking of it makes me sick to my stomach... ughhhh. guessing smthn milk related mustve been put there either unknowinlgy or like by some1 right when the bag got put in. idk why but thinking abt thosse maggots genuinely bums me out. like how much the mess the house istruly in. i mean im not working rn so i maybe should start just dedicating my time to cleaning as much as i can. and help to push my mom to clean her room or just clean it for her. i hate this turn of events that have turned me more and more into the maid for the house but like also the house cannot be that messy...