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guinevereslancelot · 1 year

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the horrors are horroringggg

#i hate you resume i hate you pdf editor i hate you cover letter 😭#literally sick to my stomach rn ughhhh #got recertification for child cpr this morning to apply for a job but ughhhh #one of the free pdf editors reddit recommended is not free :(#downloading a new one and my laptop is having a seizure its fine its fine #anyway pain suffering etc #i think i can get the job but at what cost #im a little worried it will be too much for me lol #this has been a shitpost

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ganondoodle · 15 days

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(zelda comic rough draft)

im still unable to draw anything ... except for really slowly getting the chapter 2 rough draft further for some reason, another screenshot from page 59

#ganondoodles #zelda #art #tloz #loz #demise #hylia #wip #now its almost the entire page i posted #but i dont think i need to keep any secrets ...#until this scene is painted i might have gone through 3 style changes again anyway lol #none of my test readers have been responding for a while #i worry not only about them but also about the comic ;O;#but i dont want to seem pushy or pressuring so im just kinda waiting nervously but patient bc they probably have better things to do #when im running low on motivation i tend to screenshot wips in hopes of getting a little bit of it back #and i havent been able to do anything else really #so ........................ q-q #even those wonky centaur sketches havent really done anything for me which is sad bc the idea itself is pretty cool #anyway i really like that first demise panel there #perhaps hes having a little too much fun fighting hylia considering shes still very much intending to seal him at some point #idk if its even clear whats happening .. much less without context xD

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drawnfamiliarfaces · 11 months

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#rc9gn #randy cunningham 9th grade ninja #torn pages au #randy cunningham #rc9gn first ninja #first ninja #rc9gn oc #it has begun....the ocs... they are coming!!!!#lol but no worries ill try to not make them too much of a focus #can u believe it? freakin 9 more pages holy sjiet. and we didnt even got to the actual idea i had im gonna cry #trying to be normal and not enjoy little dad things i make first ninja do ;3 #like helping kids dress cause waiting for them will take forever. the mom hand across body to protect them and the panic run.#the 'fuck the child took off without me' panic run is very familiar for me because i experience it from both sides #when i was a kid i accidently took off into traffic (on the crossing road but on yellow light) thinking my uncle was ahead #but in reality he was behind having a heart attack at my actions and taking off after me #and when i was a teen a family friend's kid i was looking after in the mall took off somewhere and i had a panic attack i lost him lol #his mother was NOT happy #kids? amiright?

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bunnihearted · 4 months

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#i havent had this bad anxiety in like 10 years wth #i have a dentist appt. and it's only a checkup thingy there will be no treatment done #it should be short and quick but im so anxious #im also anxious bc there's almost aways issues w financial aid and stuff 🙃#and a checkup is almost $100 which is 1/3 of my monthly budget 💀#so that's the main part that worries me. plus everyone in a dentist's office are so rude </3 #i've tried asking her several times but she is so unclear... i hope i can get like an invoice/bill thing #but yeah everyone are so rude about it and it's just a whole ordeal #so im so anxious for this appt omg #im like shaking a little and my breath feels caught in my chest lol #i dont wanna go but if i dont go now i'll have to pay a fee which is also expensive so like #i have to go but i dont wanna i just wanna cryyyyyy #update: no i did not get an invoice #she was really rude too T-T acting like i was gonna run away and not pay #so yehh... $140 gone from my accountttt i did not think it would cost that much #so .. ummmm #i hope my financial aid worker will reply soon #and i mean omg i hope they will grant me financial aid #otherwise.... i wish i had neven gone wtffff #everyone told me it'd work and this was ok but like ???#i just hope she replies today or tmrw so i can know #if i have to have given up that mych money then #i wont be able to buy buss tickets to the animal park i wanna go to #or buy those clothes i was gnna buy #or have food the entire month lmao #but i just wanna know what im dealing w i hate not knowing

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autumnfangirler · 4 months

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#im a little bit worried about the fandom taking this match too seriously #like yeah the spirit of the tournament is to be loud and annoying about your guy but also if it spills over too much...idk maybe im paranoi #this is like the first tumblr tournament im actually interested in lmfao #if people end up being rude ill be very disappointed #n e way #i think the night time is getting to me i always get too paranoid for my own good when its past my bedtime lol #ramblings

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bmpmp3 · 5 months

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i do think its kinda funny when i see someone in the year of our lord 2024 talk about vocal synth music like its all gone downhill since like 2010 because like dont get me wrong i love a good niconicodouga-ass 2008 ass vocaloid joint BUT also like. the past couple years have had the most fascinatingly creative and expressive uses of vocal synthesizers ive ever heard in my life DJFSKHJDFS dont write it all off just yet!!

#usually i only see that from people who havent actually listened to any vsynth music from the past 15 years so i understand why they got to #that conclusion. and also usually theyre people who didnt listen to much vsynth music in the first place LOL they just dont know #but it is still a little funny. brother there are things beyond your wildest dreams if u just look #like some personal highlights: the stuff by rinri - particularly their use of the meika girlies #dont carry our memories away is LIFECHANGING the whispers. the spoken parts. the BELTS #plus the haunting and unrelenting instrumentation. fantastic song #and naisho no pierced's propose + birthday + gift sort of trilogy of songs. gift especially has been unreal #again the dynamics of soft intimate whispers to belts but also those fuller high notes with edges of growlyness.#plus the songs just generally rock. and those LYRICS. absolutely intense like physically painful and frightening like #yearning and codependency and possession. and the tuning and production just amps it up more #OH and slave.v.v.r has been doing crazy things for even longer but i only started getting into his stuff recently and holy shit #love eater is like. the scariest vocaloid song ive ever heard not because of the lyrics. but because of the tuning #im like. scared. i cant stop listening to it. the heavy synthesized breathy main vocals and whispered harmonies plus the VOCAL FRY #i didnt realized vocaloid5? i think? has a vocal fry option built in i heard? thats crazy #but specifically in love eater the fry and growl is amped up so deep and loud and clear compared to everything else it like #emphasizes the artificiality of the voice while also amping up the expressiveness #its awesome. and on the older slave.v.v.r songs i heard i will hit you 8759632145 times with this piano. also so fucking cool #addicted to that song. 1) its a great jazzy rocky piano tune with this piano flourish at the end of each phrase that sounds fantastic #but also 2) the lyrics are insane. using kanji to write english??????#people are doing wild ass things with vocal synths rn you guys #this isnt even getting into some of the really unique synths themselves too. adachi rei is awesome i love that shes just like #the perfect inbetween of sample based and reconstruction based vocals. shes a sample based synth #but her samples were drawn by hand LOL shes like dectalks granddaughter to me.....#a really good use of adachi rei is iyowa's heat abnormal/heat anomaly/whatever its called ITS AWESOME thats what it is hjrkfdgfd #i think the fact that vocal synths can be so realistic and clean and noiseless out the gate now has made people really stop worrying #about like. realism all together and looking more into expressiveness. omg vocal synth modernist movement

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thevalleyoftriumph · 2 days

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had a roach attempt an escape today ☝

#not like. an american roach that invaded the vet room #they were pet roachez ^_^ hissing roachez!!#my little babiez <3 i love the roachez so much im literally the only mf who actually handlez them though #outta 24 ppl im the only one willing to which is SO SAD. theyre such sweet and cute little guyz #15 little roachez :3 #one skittered under the tank when i waz cleaning it out... just scooped the little guy back up and put him in #he freaked the other techz out though #i looove love taking care of the roachez though. theyre so cuteeee UGH sorry i love them #i alwayz look forwardz to seeing them they literally get me thru the day lol #im excited to take care of the hornwormz/mothz... i do have a feeling ill end up stuck on roach duty for a few more monthz #just by way of No One being willing to get anywhere near them #also i just dont trust anyone to be gentle with the poor thingz... :[#we only have to handle them for a few minutez at a time to clean out the enclosure but i feel thatz already a few minutez too many #the other groupz before us usually went on for like. 15-20 minz if i remember the med files right. but ive managed to knock it down to 10 #trying to figure out how to do it faster.. dont wanna freak the roachez out too badly when i clean the tank out #anyway i had a good day aside from the escape attempt lol that one worried me but dw !!! the little guy was ok and safely returned home :]#kitkat chitchat

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minhmynchi · 8 days

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(venting in the tags ignore this lol)

#minhmy.rambles #(i just need to shout this somewhere where my friends don't see so they don't worry too much about me)#but oh my god work just got worse for this week im already working every day but tomorrow (aka in six and a half hours)#i will start at 5am and end at 9pm aka a double shift bc my coworker tested positive and there's no one else that can work #just for tomorrow but the rest of the week ill be working 1-9 #which i hate even though im used to it night shifts are just boringgggg and takes up a lot of my time #which i already have so little of #my mom said i should clean my closet and i was going to tomorrow bc i wanted to play grandfest today but now i cant do that #bc ill literally be at work all day lol #and god its just so hard its so so hard but it could be worse. it literally could be worse #i cant be here as much anymore bc im so busy and tired i just draw when i can and drop them all here and leave #and i miss writing a lot but i have even less time and even less motivation and the more i work the more awful i feel #and i don't want to worry anyone like . i just don't #but its so difficult for me it really is #theres so many things i want to do but i cant do any of it and im so tired im literally so tired #like im not gonna end my life kinda tired i have a lot to look forward to. but work just really sucks and i am Tired #and i Like my job its literally the easiest and ill never have something like this again #but urghghghh. urggfhhghgh. death pain and suffering #if i draw more sif and loop suffering lol. this is why. i need to get the emotions out somehow and i don't want to cry over it #i cant cry bc i need to work i just have to keep my head up i just have to keep at it i just have to be strong and not break #i can do it i can.. i know i can i've been through worse #its just. augh.#ok done. sorry i rly rly should sleep soon bc of my 16 hour shift tmrw lol its past 10:30pm already

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mothfinite · 1 year

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mew is finally real !!!!!!!

theyre a spirit/ai(?) that takes the form of a ragamuffin cat, inspired by nekomata . they also have a piece of the dream quartz in their back, giving them similar but not quite the same powers as moth

#꒰ scribbles.png ꒱ 🖍#self ship #oc x canon #self ship community #self insert #sonic oc #🫧mew.zip #im kinda worried they look a little too much like moth but aaaaaaa i like moths design its very me already LOL

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basiltonpitch · 1 year

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opening the second chances fic doc after barely writing anything this week and remembering why i was so stuck :) sigh :) i absolutely love trying to connect little bits and pieces of unfinished scenes that are written out of order :))) why am i like this :))))))

#also worrying with how im formatting this fic. bc it goes back and forth between 1989/1990 and 1997. often.#and im like hm. maybe. maybe thats not good. maybe i go back and forth too much.#but as the fic goes on we'll be getting fewer 1989/90 scenes and the 1997 scenes will get longer....but idk #just worrying abt the pacing and the format/structure and worrying that the way it is now is gonna make it hard to read #but also this is a silly little fic that im writing for fun in my free time so like. i can do whatever i want ig #also where is the spencer that once cranked out 13k words in 5 days. am i back to the spencer who takes ten months to write 10k words.....#bc thats how long it took me to write my chaptered benvi fic but i wrote my [redacted] fic in FIVE DAYS. a chapter a day!!!#this is gonna be a oneshot which the longest oneshot ive written is 5k and this one im hoping to get closer to 8k-10k with it #maybe longer if it needs to be idk. we shall see #anyways. back to writing the mike/joyce scene even tho im lowkey dreading it & getting secondhand anxiety from my own writing lol #yelling

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depresseddepot · 2 months

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I'm trying to find ways to slowly ease my way into taking walks (debilitating social anxiety) so I was going to download pokemon go again but my phone is too old :(

#im actually very upset abt this lol #all of the other tricks ive found rely on having a dog to walk #and like i would love to get my own dog but i absolutely cannot afford one lmao #so i guess i just. still can't go on walks #nobody seems to understand just how impossible it is for me to walk down the street when im not trying to get somewhere #like just going for a walk for fun/to look at nature feels like im being killed #people are LOOKING at me and when someone even so much as glances at me while im walking i instantly feel like I'm doing something wrong #or like they're going to misunderstand my sort of odd behaviors #i can't walk slow because they'll think im a stalker. i can't walk fast because ill get out of breath and they'll think im disgusting #i can't keep a normal pace because im too nervous and i just spend the whole time tense and hate myself even more when i get home #like. what the hell am i supposed to do lol #getting a dog is the only way i think i could stop myself from spiraling like that bc of COURSE im walking slow and leisurely.#im walking my dog. my dog wants to smell and has to poop or whatever #im no longer a freaky fat stalker im just some guy walking my dog #this became more of a vent than i was expecting lmao but if anyone has any actual tangible tips for how to go on walks i would appreciate it #when i had to walk 2 miles to class i used to take a small part of an edible right before i got on the bus lmao and that worked WONDERS #but i don't want to have to do that just to walk around my own neighborhood when i eventually move out #i just want to be normal lmao i want to go out and find bugs and look at leaves #i guess i could walk in the woods but what if i get lost #i want to be able to look at stuff. i want to be able to stop and look at a plant while some person passes by me #without feeling like im going to blow up or like they're going to hit me or like IM going to hit THEM #im used to anxiety but i always feel so erratic in public places. when everyone wore masks i was a little better #i still mask most of the time but it doesn't help anymore bc now im like one of the only people that does it #so now instead of blending in AND having my face covered i just stand out more #my face is still covered so it still helps but its like barely a net positive lmao #i want to be able to look around without worrying that someone is looking at me from their window and thinks im a stalker #truly how the hell am i supposed to do that without a dog lol

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aromanticgarbage · 3 months

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You are right, very common tattoo. Was just curious as she looked familiar too so maybe had some cool meaning.

But who knows right, and I know, privacy and all. Sometimes curiosity kills the cat at night when bored lol

And thanks for replying! You're cool and love your shares.

(Sent link separately so its not out there)

I replied to your other ask but ye it seems like this artist did a lot of those designs. I don't know this lady but she seems pretty cool. Thank you for enjoying this mess of a blog hehe <3

#ask #anon #joji #also don't get me wrong im not one of those people that get preachy about privacy and stuff #at the end of the day we are talking about publicly posted instagram posts.#as long as we are not overstepping its all fine #but i also know that if i ever became famous i would act exactly the way joji does lol so i respect his whole approach #I won't lie. the way u worded the original ask had me a little worried #that i had attracted the kind of person that cares Too Much about his love life thats why i made sure to clarify my stance on the topic #but you are cool !!! thank you for your asks this has been a fun discussion <333 #tattoos

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six-of-ravens · 3 months

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hmmm I know takeout is stupid expensive but what if. sushi and bento. or vietnamese subs and salad rolls.

#a little worried to order bc i had a shitty delivery guy last time #(had to fight him to get him to not leave my food on the bench out front lmao)#(he wasn't even going to wait for me to come to the door he was just like 'lol idk how to park im just gonna drop it here')#like buddyyyyyy first of all theres SO MUCH parking here and secondly ill come downstairs if you'll WAIT A SEC #DON'T JUST LEAVE $40 OF FOOD TO GET STOLEN OR FUCKIN EATEN BY THE PIGEONS!!!#anyway. maybe ill try.#i wish there was still a sushi place nearby but it closed and now the space is a weird potentially culty workout studio #oh wait that closed too. i have no idea what's in that space now but it AIN'T SUSHI!!

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squuote · 5 months

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i need to draw my narrator design like a lot. i need to draw him to death or until i truly get sick of this guy. proper narrator burnout

#crow thoughts #gonna delete the tags later on this probably #but sometimes i feel kinda insecure about my design #despite knowing he's not rlly that complex he just doesnt fall under how most designs look #and i think that makes me feel a bit nervous showing him off. cause i wonder like man am i doing too much?#even despite the whole gimmick with my design is that this is how i imagine he would design himself. not rlly how he actually looks #so imma just beat it into my thick skull that no one gives a shit about that except my dumbass #cause rlly. i need to just have fun with it. why must i worry about following the method and approach everyone else does?#and even then im not even straying that far lol.#i was also not drawing him cause i was like man no one rlly does parable stuff without involving designs these days #not an issue. i just wanted to see more stuff without design involvement.#and also because like tbh. he will always just be a voice to me. extremely silly and evil voice #but yeah. shrugs. sometimes i feel like maybe im too far off the beaten path. even tho i should be having fun forging my own little path #okay. time to kill this guy with the power of artistic expression <3

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smute · 1 year

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so im moving back home next month to save some money during my last semester of grad school, and as grateful as i am for even having that option, a not so small part of me is very scared that it may turn out to be... not quite as temporary as i am currently hoping it will be🙂

#i am looking forward to getting rid of this expensive apartment #and im just extremely grateful that i get to have a little grace period #where i dont have to worry about making rent for a little while #but im also wondering if i might be putting myself in a situation that will potentially be very difficult to... well. escape #my financial situation is less than ideal #(thats a euphemism)#the interest rate on my student loan has exploded since last year #(up from 3.7% last september to 8%. yes. eight per cent. i actually had to increase my monthly payouts just to cover the interest payments)#and its forcing me to rethink all of my plans #for the future #rn its looking like that might be the final nail in the coffin for my phd plans #(just as i was starting to get over my impostor syndrome too)#so. what the hell do you do with 2 english degrees when you suddenly cant afford to do the one thing those degrees are actually good for?#the answer is not a whole lot #finding another place to live in the near future will be harder than ever #and as much as i love my parents #i cant stay with them for more than a year #i will lose my mind #or what little is left of it lol #so yeah #the sky seems awfully dark all of a sudden #ill be fine once they take me out back and shoot me etc etc #but anyways #just a little life update i guess #do me a favor and ignore this #i dont think i can handle any sympathy rn #and i definitely cant handle any antipathy lmao #i just needed to get this out #tbd

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du-hjarta-skulblaka · 5 months

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Today's mood is fucking tired.

#boss still hasnt gotten back to me to let me know if im allowed to work tomorrow lmfao #alfie is. really really struggling. majorly depressed and genuinely scared #tbh i think the only reason im not is im that used to everything going wrong #so im kinda just. well we dont even KNOW yet so ima wait and save my suicidal meltdown for a little later lol #im joking abt it because its a joke like 50% of the time like its a joke rn. it just wont be when the Emotions happen #anyway. yeah. unlikely to be active much for the next few days so just giving folks a heads up not to start worrying too much

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