#lowkey wants to yeet kyle into the sun

[kylesjiang]

hey!! my name is raven. i’m currently a junior (going 21 in a few months!!) taking a pre-med course and i like to write in my spare time :꒰◍•ᴗ•◍꒱: i’m also really nervous to be interacting with everyone because i am an awkward bean and my social prowess is practically nonexistent. also i keysmash when i can’t think of what to say akjdhskfalks 

anyway, here’s kyle  ‧₊˚✩彡

( zheng shuang, cis female, she/her ). hey, isn’t that [ KYLE JIANG / JIANG YING YUE ] walking down bennington street? i think the [ 25 ] year old [ OWNER OF ASIAN BREW ] is from [ SPRINGFIELD, ILLINOIS ]**. i’ve heard some rumors down at ginger’s, saying that they're [ SENSITIVE & OBSESSIVE ], but then again they’re known to be [ GENEROUS & LOYAL ].  either way, they seem to be interesting, hope they’ll stick around.

stats

full name: jiang ying yue 

date of birth: october 13, 1994 (libra)

height: 5′5 (i wish i’m at least this tall irl)

moral alignment: true neutral

mbit: infp

hogwarts house: hufflepuff

backstory

ying yue’s grandparents were opportunists. 

while the rest of the world stared frozen at the devastation left by the second world war, her grandparents took one short look and turned away. with a family to support, “mourning,” her grandfather had said, “won’t bring any food to your table”- a proverb proven to be true in a society as fast-paced as america. 

the jiang empire started with a single coal-fire boiler in springfield, illinois. by 1965, the family had risen from a lower-working class to an upper-middle class, seemingly assimilating with the euro-americans. presently, the jiangs own the largest utility in illinois, providing springfield and its neighboring cities with electric power. 

thus, ying yue’s birth was highly celebrated. 

she was nothing short of a princess. mild-mannered ying yue was sheltered and kept in a seemingly enclosed space by her overprotective parents. she was born in an environment where obedience and perfection were to be expected. 

(they were jiangs, after all. and no amount of cultural assimilation will change the fact that they are first and foremost full-blooded chinese.)

even after the birth of her younger brother, zhi shu, ying yue was to take over the family business as the first-born. and for the longest time, that’s the only thing she knew. she didn’t have dreams of her own, never even thought she was allowed to have one- perfectly fine with living as jiang ying yue. 

meeting her first boyfriend in highschool was a game-changer. 

her relationship was never public. it was a relationship filled with late-night texts and sneaky pecks in an empty hallway, of the subtle brushing of hands, and lingering gazes. even when she feels her heart brimming with love, threatening to spill over, she can never tell her parents about zach. 

because zach, with his light brown eyes and even lighter hair, was every bit an american. he was someone her parents will never want her to be with. but zach, sweet and ever-patient zach, simply nods and smiles in a way that makes her wish she wasn’t jiang ying yue. 

in a way, zach (because all good things happen with zach) made her wish come true. 

because through zach, kyle was born.

it wasn’t as highly celebrated as ying yue’s birth, but kyle wouldn’t have it any other way. because kyle, kyle has options, has freedom- freedom to dream and to simply be. 

and dream she did. 

she talked to zach about how she dreams to be in new york, to own her own cafe. She talks about the future- “a studio apartment big enough for the two of us, maybe it’s even possible to get one with a balcony!” 

zach’s eyes would crinkle as he laughs, claiming that they should at least worry about college first, and kyle would stop and smile at him, lacing their fingers together. 

it took a lot of convincing, a lot of tears, and talks, but her parents ultimately allowed her to be in new york. she felt a bit selfish leaving everything to her brother’s hands, but she’s finally living her dreams.

her first two years in college were the best time of her life. she can hold zach’s hand in public now, kiss him when she feels like it, sleep curled up in his arms.

but, as they said, all good things must come to an end.

and end it they did. 

despite that, ying yue still likes living as kyle.

she wakes up to the sun shyly peeking through her sheer curtains, drink her steaming tea on an open balcony, walk through the crowded streets of nyc, own a cafe that’s doing fairly well. 

isn't that everything she wanted?

and if she finds herself awake at night, thinking about what could have been with her first love, imagining every scenario where their paths may one day cross again, wishing to see him smile at her for one last time,

well, that’s a secret shared between her and her pillow.

headcanons

no one has ever seen her raise her voice or act rude besides that one guy in college who called her by her given name. 

yes, she hates being called ying yue

she’s staying at the same modest apartment she chose with zach before they broke up

someone: is in a relationship, or with dubious morality (highkey asshole) kyle: is this my true love

aside from aster, she never had any girl friends because they claimed “her smile is too fake, and her voice is too soft to be anything but forced”

she’s very close with her little brother, zhi shu (andrew)

she’s a very sensitive and a crybabie- lich rally will cry when angry, happy, frustrated 

on their first official date as a couple, she begged zach to take her to mcdonalds (a day of enlightenment)

[grapecase]

Salty asks: 1, 2, 19, 22 & 23, for Roswell NM and/or CWDCTV ^.^

What OTPs in your fandom(s) do you just not get?

To this day and age I still do not understand Olicity. I don’t get why the writers felt it was necessary. I do not get the retconning of season 1 to uplift how ~~special~~ she was in Oliver (’Oliver never smiled before Felicity!’ Were we watching the same show?) And every time I peak into Arrow, I just feel they’re not … healthy for each other. I mean I have other thoughts but I just don’t care enough. I occasionally like them in fanfic but I really don’t get why fandom went so hard for them in the beginning. 

I want to say I don’t understand Malex. But I do.  Some days unfortunately. Other days determinedly, because I refuse to let this deliberately obtuse fandom ruin them for me. 

I didn’t get Nate and Amaya. I can’t even remember half my issues with them other than 1) I didn’t like how Nate treated her at times (or more the story treated her/them writ him) 2) I found them boring. Which. I suppose is enough.

Snowbarry. Wow. LOL. There is. LOL. Listen. I ship the most random ass things. I don’t need much to get on board for Kyle and Maria (I like them both. They’re my faves. Boom). But if ever there was a ship that was just so obviously ‘two white people near each other’ than it is this one. They had cute scenes but I honestly feel they bounce better off Iris/Candice and Cisco/Carlos than each other (though I remain bitter re: Caitlin receiving the White Woman Lack of Actual Accountability treatment as per the CW so I remain firmly off Iris/Cait and mostly off Cisco/Caitlin trains.)

Sara and Ava. All the women of color that Sara knew. That the story paralleled her with. That proved to be great teammates and partners for her. They had to cast some blond woman who could be her sister. It creeps me out. Also, I never got to click with Ava. She annoyed the eff out of me when I used to watch. 

Are there any popular fandom OTPs you only BroTP?*

Olicity. LOL. Unless someone else is there (DIGGLE. I sob. They both literally were more interesting with Diggle. Sara!) I usually don’t care. I barely BROTP them these days but I used to.

What is the one thing you hate most about your fandom?

The racism.

Popular character you hate? 

I haven’t reached it yet for Roswell. But I didn’t think Alex was much of a character at first (I think he really clicked for me when he took his father captive. Like there were moments before then where I saw some appeal – like him calling Liz out re: Maria. His moments with Mimi and Kyle. But I didn’t get why the carp for him). I feel like it could be easy for me to come to resent him because the fandom refuses to acknowledge his meanness. At the moment, for me, it’s interesting character trait. But he’s legit being absolved of any accountability … it makes me roll my eyes. I hope the show doesn’t go by way of the fandom with this. This is what made me wish the Mikaelsons would die in their own show, lol. 

Hmm. There were moments I wanted to yeet Oliver into the sun. The combination of Arrow’s torture/man pain porn obsession and my just disliking Stephen Amell. But I creep season 8 and I lowkey am reminded why I used to be soft for him. Oliver. Not Stephen.

I get Fatigued re: Caitlin and Felicity and Nate. 

Unpopular character you love?

Dinah. Laurel. Lance. I wouldn’t call her unpopular these days but she still gets flack. LOL. She dead, bih. Let her rest. Also, I really like Emiko. (I mean I haven’t watched the latest but I am sure I still would. I tolerated Oliver and Barry for so long. I doubt there’s anything she could do that could like change that.) Moira Queen. I mean she did ruin Emiko’s life. But man, I miss her. I never said it was a perfect love. Iris West is another who has a strong fanbase but gets such fucking flack still. Jefferson ‘Jax’ Jackson wasn’t unpopular but he wasn’t white so. 

I don’t LOVE Isobel. But I feel like I’m one of the few people who want to see her more fleshed out.